Woke up today in like Mill Creek by the beginning of hwy 9. I sat near an intersection of too hwys last night and did my announcements and news updates. The churches out here in the sticks outside of Seattle area are huge and expensive just like in Texas. I love God, but church scares me a bit. Religion is used as weapon way too often. God should never be a toll for destruction but way too often he is. God is love and we all need love to survive. So both God and love are some of the biggest weapons of destruction there are.

Anyways, I reached the people who live out in the sticks because they are kept small. Finally I feel like I have reached the people who matter. I mean everyone matters, but I have reached the people who have a say in the war games. Fancy families and farmers are kept out in the sticks and secluded because of the power they have on the covert war/world. No one is allowed to be powerful in both the overt and covert world. So people like me with fancy birthrights are kept in the sticks and kept small. It’s maddening, but at least I’m in some really good company.

Today my frenemy Amber in Eugene told me that my family is offering big privilege to people who are team Z evil to drive up to Washington to take part in the war against me. Like new job privilege. So I can safely assume I’m doing really well at reaching the people. And I’m so grateful they are choosing me. Well, I suppose they are choosing them and their childre, but they are choosing me too. I’m not sure who’s in charge of the people who are never really called upon by my family, but who are still apart of the dark side. These are people who aren’t the cookie cutters. For instance Amber, she is morbidly obese or close, lives in a filthy house, is missing teeth, and hasn’t worked in years. This is not someone my family would normally call on. See cluster b personality disorders dont see others as individuals. They see them as extensions of themselves. So my family is calling on the bottom of the barrel of people who they would never want to think if as an extension of themselves. I know this seems harsh, but it’s good news. It shows how desperate they are.

The other day when I stayed a couple nights in Ballard and rested and fasted. When I left there the people who profit off the war games were fighting the war against me. These are people who rarely have to fight anything, they are privileged. I have seen them for a few days now. I can tell because the women and some men like to tell me what I “should” do. They are big on should ing people. You should do this you should do that. I hate people like that.

So I’m down to the people who profit and the people who just want to feel special and earn privilege because they are okay with the destruction. Which just basically means that their C Diff infection has gotten so bad that along with their cluster b personality disorder that they are probably past the point of no return. They dont even think they are worthy of trying for. I know there are probably more people out there like that than anyone wants to admit. I have no clue who’s in charge of those people. In the war games those are normally just the people who are destroyed and go unseen. They have never mattered before and the opportunity to matter now and take part in the destruction is such a treat for them. It’s sad. How do we win these people over? I have no clue. They see the dark side as the only answer even though the dark side has disregarded them for a lifetime. This is the perfect example of a person trauma bonded to the systems that destroyed them. And how they will continually try to prove themselves worthy. It’s sad. I dont know how else to look at it. It’s just sad. They are so far gone they can’t see what they are passing up. They are passing up a better life for their children and grandchildren for a moment of being called on and feeling special. Rather than make themselves feel special they would rather the war games do it for them. I understand it’s nice to feel special but it’s the best when you can make yourself feel special by committing to something that will improve your life. It can be anything not just this revolution. Anything you commit to in order to improve your life and follow through with it. That’s how you make yourself feel special and important. That’s how you make yourself a priority and you prove to yourself that you matter. Until you prove to yourself that you matter you will always be a sucker to the external to validate you and make you feel special.

Why allow something that is supposed to be an inside job to be outsourced to an outside job. Well because you all have been conditioned to do this. When you continually need someone to make you feel special that makes you easier to control and manage. The war games profits off the people who dont realize their own value. It’s sad because they have all the tools to realize and see their own worth, they just choose not to. Because it is easier to allow someone else to do it for you. However the things in life worth doing are rarely easy.

Can you all tell these people this? Tell them they are special they just need to see it themselves. Once you see how special you are, you are a different person. It’s hard to forget your worth when you find it on your own terms.

I’m in Monroe for the night parked near the river and the trees. Oregon used to look so much like Washington. In 30 some odd years my family has already destroyed so much natural beauty. I never realized it till today and this trip. Oregon used to be so clean. This is what we can expect from them though. I just never had all the information before.

So my family is still blocking me from getting a job. I gotta admit I’m a little worried about how this all is going to work out. How much more can my family break the rules and get away with it? They threaten people I talk to about work. I can tell because people like me and enjoy our talks and then my family gets to them and they realize who I am. Being from my family is the biggest disadvantage of my life. Its sucks so much.

I figure I will be back in Oregon and Eugene by the 6th because Haywood has a vet appointment on the 7th to get an estimate to see how much to remove some of his teeth. The last estimate and vet office was ruled by the dark side and quoted me 1800$ and charged me over 300 to have his bloodwork done. Haywood just might end up keeping his teeth until they fall out. I can’t trust anyone with anything so it’s really hard. He even has health insurance and I still have a really hard time trusting people. He also has the C Diff infection. He came to me with it because he has lupus but his c diff infection got worse with time. Just like mine. All three of us have been taking garlic everyday and it is really helping. Garlic and long walks do wonders for C Diff along with fasting. We did a 48hr fast in Ballard fir the new moon. It was good. I have no clue how much I weigh but I have lost weight and Haywood has too. Health is the best thing to invest in during times of uncertainty.

I’m nervous about going back to Eugene. It’s never really safe there, but it where my family wants me. They would let me get a job anywhere else. But now they aren’t letting me get a job there. I’m frustrated. I just need my independence back. It’s bad enough I live in my jeep with my two dogs. I just want to work. I really enjoy work when it’s a job that lights up my brain. Shoot I just enjoy the independence that working gives me.

I wish I knew the rules and if you all are able to help me in the overt world. I super appreciate the people who have opted out of the war against me. But I’m still struggling with how I’m going to pull this all off alone. I’m nervous, but yet it has to work out. It’s a covert war. My family isn’t allowed to do this to my life. They have controlled my overt world and opportunities my whole life. When do I get some freewill in the overt world? I just need some freedom from my family and my fancy birthrights. I just want to be ordinary and have s job and work. Being revolutionary when I’m home in eugene is easy it’s just a blog post or two a day. Completely manageable. Takes up the time of a small hobby. An hour a day two at most. Healing and overcoming the destruction is just a small part of our days. Sure what we do in that hour or two that we pay attention to the war games trickles into the rest of our days and lives. But it really should be a small part. The war games isn’t meant to be anyone’s whole life. It’s a covert war and we live in an overt world. I’m ready for an overt job.

I’m struggling because I’m frustrated and I dont know How this is going to play out. And it’s been the same struggle for my whole life. I enjoy the overt world and being ordinary. Where my family doesn’t. They don’t want to achieve things in the overt world. Where before last year I had no clue there was anything but the overt world. I just want my life back like I’ve never had before. My life should be mine. I should have the freedom to work and fo what I’m good at. I’m should ing like the people who profit off the war games. Oh geez. Maybe I need to surrender more! Deep sigh. I do. I’m trying to control things even in my mind. I’m going to need to earn money. And I suppose we will see how that manifests for me. Everything gets revealed in time. I just need to surrender and accept and flow. Everything in time.

Okay well that’s all I got for tonight. Hope you all are loving the long nights. I like how its light so late. Summer is almost here. Get some good sleep.

Love Always Nicole D Graves

Well, I took Hwy 9 from Arlington down to Interstate 2 to go to Monroe, but there was a highway I stopped on. I want to say 539 or 534 something like that.

So hello thank you for hearing my call and tuning in. I’m Nicole Graves and I’m not dead. I’m very much alive and being revolutionary. It’s a really long story, but here we are talking. My whole life I have been trying to reach the people, but especially this past year I have been fighting to reach you all. I knew I had to find a way or I was going to die. And I knew I had so much information that o needed to share with you all so you all could have better lives.

See I was never told about the war games or birthrights, but my family did everything they could to destroy me. The destruction of the world is my comfort zone. It’s something I have learned how to overcome. I want to teach you all everything I have learned. Because healing is the true focus of life. When you can heal rather than destroy that is true strength and greatness. Healing takes so much more than destruction. But it is rewarding beyond what you could ever imagine.

So about two weeks ago I realized what my birthrights fully meant. It means I have the power to change the war games. I have the ability to end the destruction. But I need you all’s help. I can’t do this on my own. I have never been one to enjoy control and power. So this is all going to be a learning experience for me. And I am going to need you all to have patience with me. This is all so surreal and outside my comfort zone.

So I have some things I need you all to know. It’s the cliffsnotes to the past year. It’s a lot. Like a lot a lot. So grab a pen or something to take notes with because you need to remember this stuff. This information will help you live a better life. Okay so listen up and take notes.

What you need know:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family. second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and the first born in my immediate family. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Okay so I warned you it was a lot. But we will work on healing and I can guide you through it. It’s a lot, but its doable. The first step is getting me to a safe place. Now I understand why my family has been trying to kill me for over three decades but especially the past few years. My Dad is dying and they have put off killing my Moms generation of Kudearoffs because I am still alive. They intend to kill me so my birthrights fo back to the Kudearoffs. However, I have this knack for staying alive and healing so I’m just going to keep going. But I do need your help.

I dont want to boss you all. When I need help I will ask for it like now. So since I’m the one with the fanciest birthrights in both my families I free you all. You are no longer enslaved. However, I do kind of really need your help to make this work out for all of us. So here’s what I need your help with:

What I need your help with:

1. I need a job. My family is blocking me from getting a job. I have asperger’s genius and can do almost anything, but my passion is sales. I have an Arizona real estate license and an Oregon insurance license. Any help you all can give me with finding a job I greatly appreciate. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so we gotta be quick about it.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I’m on my way back to Eugene, Oregon. I need your help creating safety for me and my dogs in the Scandinavian/Republican territory on River Road that I helped the people there get back from my Dad. He killed two of his wives to gain their territories. But long story short, I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch for you all.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

So that’s my news update for today. It’s a lot to take in. But I appreciate all of you for tuning in. I’m going to let you all go because this is the 2nd news update I did today and I need to journal. If you would like to stay tuned for that please do. I encourage you all to know me as a human and a person. I’m just like you all. I’m just someone who has been destroyed by the war games and my family.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Well hello Hwy 9 & Arlington

It seems like I reached you all last night. Thank you for hearing me out. For those of you who did not tune last. Hello, I’m Nicole Graves and I’m not dead. My life has been a bit hectic to say the least but I’m still alive and that’s all that matters really. My birthrights make me the most powerful person out of both of my families. And I was never told about the war games because I have Asperger’s genius and dont buy into the destruction. My families thought they could get me to breed and kill me before I ever realized what was happening. But here we are talking about the war games like neither of my families wanted.

March 2021 I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and I have been creating a revolution ever since. So I’m going to read you the cliffsnotes to my past year. It’s a lot. I encourage you to take notes because you need to remember this stuff so you can live a better life. Here we go listen up.

What you need know

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family. second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and the first born in my immediate family. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Okay so I warned you it was a lot. I have deposited this news update along hwy 9 with my blog. Some grocery stores pick it up and where ever else you get your war games information should have it. So now I’m going to tell you what I need help with. By the way you all are free. I dont want to boss anyone. I will just ask for help when I need it like now. Win win situations are my favorite.

What I need your help with:

1. I need a job. My family is blocking me from getting a job. I have asperger’s genius and can do almost anything, but my passion is sales. I have an Arizona real estate license and an Oregon insurance license. Any help you all can give me with finding a job I greatly appreciate. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so we gotta be quick about it.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I’m on my way back to Eugene, Oregon. I need your help creating safety for me and my dogs in the Scandinavian/Republican territory on River Road that I helped the people there get back from my Dad. He killed two of his wives to gain their territories. But long story short, I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch for you all.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small. I’m cutting it short this afternoon because I’m going to do another talk this evening. Stay tuned as I make my way back to Eugene/Springfield. Eventually I am going to teach you all how to heal from the destruction. Healing is my firtay. Forte… I have had to know how to heal to stay alive. Heart rate variability is the key to your immune system. So work on it.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Well Hello there Hwy 524. Surprise I’m alive. Hope you all had a great memorial day weekend. So we need to talk. I have so much to catch you all up on. Shoot I don’t know where to start, but I’m sure the me being alive part is a bit of a shocker. Its shocking for my family too. They have been overtly covertly trying to kill me for over 3 decades. Its annoying. But what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger right? Lol I have to laugh, it’s all so unreal.

So here the deal. I was never told about the war games, because my birthrights make me the most powerful person in either of my families. Now do you see why they have been trying to kill me. See I have Asperger’s genius and I don’t agree with illogical evil or hurting people. So they thought they could kill me and give my birthright from my Dad’s family to my Brother. Well, I’m not dead so I’m not sharing what has almost gotten me killed my whole life.

Are you ready for the good news? I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona March 2021 and started a revolution. Well, that revolution was based on the fact that we deserve better all of us. But a couple weeks ago I finally understood all of my birthrights fully. There are a shit ton. I’ll explain those later. But here we are I have been searching for someone to be able to trump my family in the war games. Well ta da I’m that person. So in this moment you all are free. I don’t want to boss anyone. If I need help I will ask for it. This has worked for my revolution so I don’t understand why I would ever need to boss anyone. Win win situations are my favorite. How about you?

Okay so now I have the cliff notes to the past year and my revolution. I need you all to pay close attention and take notes. This big and overwhelming, but you need to remember this stuff. Its important because it will help you live a better life and avoid some of the destruction. Okay listen up.

What you need know:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family. second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and the first born in my immediate family. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

So I warned you it would be a lot. It’s a lot to take in. It’s a lot for me to process. I was never told about the war games. I have had to figure this all out on my own. It’s crazy, but here we are talking and being revolutionary. I know this is a lot to take in so quickly. But let me tell you what I need your help with and then I will leave you to process everything.

What I need your help with:

1. I need a job. My family is blocking me from getting a job. I have asperger’s genius and can do almost anything, but my passion is sales. I have an Arizona real estate license and an Oregon insurance license. Any help you all can give me with finding a job I greatly appreciate. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so I gotta be quick about it.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I’m on my way back to Eugene Oregon and I need your help creating safety for me and my dogs in the Scandinavian/Republican territory on River Road that I helped the people there get back from my Dad. He killed two of his wives to gain their territory. But long story short, I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

Ok Thank you, I appreciate all the overt and covert help you can give me no matter how big or small. Go process and we will talk again soon.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

So, you know how C Diff bacteria causes Autism? Well, women know. More specifically women who have a child or children know. They make their children have Autism and other learning disabilities so they get attention and to prepare and disable them for their place in the covert war, aka their birthright.

I think pregnancy cravings are a sham. I have been pregnant a few times and I never crave weird things. However, the people around me always poison me tons more. I get hungry, but it’s mostly just more due to the poison. Women lie about a lot of things.

So all the women who have disabled children, they did that on purpose. I worked at a group home for developmental disabled people in Arizona. When the children turn out to be damaged beyond what they had hoped for women just turn their children over to the state. Some even more than just one. It’s sad because those kids who grow up to be unwanted adults have no purpose in life other than to entertain the people who need to destroy others. Working in the caregiving field was the darkness experience I had in Arizona. I learned so much about the dark side. It was overwhelming.

Women poison their children before they are born to give them Autism and other learning disabilities. So the next time you see a woman using any kind of sick child to get attention, just know she created that sickness so you would pay attention to her and she could feed off your sorrow.

Think about how many millions of dollars women cost us just in this instance. Let alone the fact that these kids grow up without ever knowing love. I am one if these kids, so I know first hand.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

They all knew. Everyone with medium to high amounts of privilege knew. The Asains, Communists, Blacks, Hispanics, Dark side members, and even Scandinavians all knew about the covert genocides using foods. They all knew that their privilege came at the cost of not only other people suffering, but dying as well.

I learned this in Santa Barbara last year. It was harsh to say the least. However, these same people with midrange privilege were quick to jump on the revolutionary side when they found out about epigenetic triggers of Dyslexia. The idea that their potential was being stolen from them on a gene level was enough to get them to jump ship. It was okay for other people to have their potential unknowingly stollen from them, but when it happened to the privileged people themselves that was just too much for them to handle.

Don’t get me wrong. I appreciate all my revolutionary people, no matter what subgroups or race or creed. However, being revolutionary does not erase all your sins. It’s not like a magical school bus that changes you into a new person. Change is something you have to create on your own. You all still need to right the wrongs from your own lives. Being revolutionary doesn’t give you a clean slate. Clean slates are earned.

There were even some people who understood how we were experiencing gene mutations due to the world and environment that we live in. However they did not put two and two together to realize this was for my family to create their own slave race. And no one is exempt.

The people who knew the most are the people who profit off the war games with not only privilege, but financially. The well off or better off people who live near the coast and highway 101 are the ones who continue to fight this war because its nothing new to them. Its merely their payday and livelihood. All along the west coast these people exist. It’s not worse in one state or another, its just a continuum.

Driving up and down the west for the past year I have learned a lot. Especially for someone who didn’t know about the war games. However, I have to admit that I have a not so nice feeling towards these people who profited from my suffering. Shoot, from all our suffering.

I tell you this because I want everyone to be in the know about what has been happening. I don’t want people to get to avoid accountability. Everyone who knew needs to be publically outed so people can see who they really are. They are the people who will sell out by all means necessary to gain privilege no matter how big or small. These are the people you all need to beware of. I’m not saying to retaliate. But I’m saying be aware of who surrounds you. Way too often people want to avoid accountability and play innocent and dumb. Don’t allow yourself to fall for it. My family and the war games would not have been able to pull this all off without help from the masses.

We live in a world where privilege makes you a murderer. How do you feel about signing up to earn privilege now?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Attachment is the root of all suffering.

I have been trying so very hard to get my life back on track since I moved to Arizona to heal cancer. Before that I had just given up for years. I smoked pot fasted and just cared about how I looked. Yes I took all kinds of supplements, but honestly its because feeling good made me look good. It’s a symbiotic relationship. I felt pretty shitty back then, smoking pot and zoning out on my anxiety pills was the best it got in those days. I just wanted to be left alone and that means I left myself alone and didn’t challenge myself to evolve much.

So for the past 5 years, I have been putting all my might into getting where I “should” be. I’m 41 and have never bought a car by myself. I have never bought a house. I have never worked a “real job” for more than a couple years. I’ve not accomplished anything by society standards to make me successful. I have unpaid college loans and never finished my degree. I’m the poster child for unsuccessful in the overt world.

When looking at my life from the outside I look like a complete failure. This is something my family has ensured and reminded me of my whole life. Anytime I had anything important in my life they have overtly and/or covertly sabotaged me. Even healing cancer they sabotaged me by putting the wrong information in front of me, poisoning my vitamins and supplements, and making my houses and apartments weapons of destruction. However, they could not steal healing from me all the way. It may have taken me longer and been more painful than necessary, but I did it. That is the biggest accomplishment of my life. It’s not something a lot of people can say they have done, especially without Any medical treatment or care. I took care of myself when I needed it the most because somehow I knew no one was going to treat me well or even fairly.

It’s really hard for me to accept that I have not earned being treated fairly by everything I have done my whole life. Or just by being human. However, I suppose this past year I have been trying to prove my worth to you all by being revolutionary. I want to prove I’m lovable and worthy of kindness. These are some of my root wounds because the world has followed the lead set by my family. I’ve never experienced kindness or fairness. It’s hard to admit because it makes me feel less than. How can I be a good person and have this experience and history? This is how my family was trying to break me once again. If there was no reward for being a good person they thought I would eventually give it up like a bad habbit.

Well, I didn’t give up my habit of being human, but I still have wounds to attend to from the life I have lived. The past 5 years I have been attached to getting “back on track”. But what if this is the track I’m supposed to be on? What if being revolutionary is another big theme of my life that is necessary, but will not get me anywhere in the overt world, much like healing cancer?

What if I complete this whole trip up to Washington and I still end up going home to Eugene, living in my car, and getting a mind numbing dead end job? I have been too attached to avoiding this outcome. It’s almost summer so at least it won’t be too cold. I don’t have too many Bill’s so I don’t need to make that much money. Why am I resisting the idea of continuing to be alone in the world. Being revolutionary has given me a purpose this past year that has kept me alive. I have a sense of community more than I ever have. I have connection more than I ever have, even though I don’t overtly communicate with anyone, well any human.

I need to cure my attachment to what I think my life should look like and what I deem as a successful revolution. Maybe my purpose was just to make you all think. I have to accept that as a viable option. I can’t be so attached to how I want this to turn out. Maybe what I view as a successful revolution isn’t. How does one judge and gauge a revolution?

Honestly I think back to the 1960s. Everything changed then and so quickly. Equal rights, free love, and the start of booming technology. I think we walked on the moon. Schools began to stop segregation. Shoot in the 1980s they finally changed the school zoning so public schools in Texas were mixed in races. Rather than one side of the tracks versus the other side. So maybe change wasnt as booming in the 1960s as I thought. Maybe it was just a slow roar in the background of society.

I can’t allow myself to be so attached to how quickly people are able to adjust to new information and embody it. If I keep getting so emotionally worked up about this revolution it’s going to negatively effect my health and happiness. I can’t live on a roller coaster of emotions. Humans aren’t meant to be emotionally ruled. We are meant to be creatures of logic.

I’m sorry I have been pushing you all to be on my timetable. The information I bring you all is life shattering and I am expecting you all to pick up the pieces and run with change maybe you all never intended to do. I’m sure this has not been predictable for you all in any way. My life is far from predictable so I can emphasize.

I accept that this trip up to Washington may leave me to go home to Oregon to the same life I left, completely unchanged or improved. I have to accept this because I have no control over anything really. All I can do is do my best in whatever ways I deem appropriate. However, that does not mean I am going to give up.

I came up here to reach the people in power in the war games. I have not done that yet because when I reach the people in power my Truman show changes instantly and drastically. The people in power don’t need time to think. They just do. And what they do may have no lasting effect on my life in Oregon, but I came up here with a mission and I’m going to complete it.

I may never have a life that I imagined in any way. Never in my life did I think I would live in my jeep, let alone with my two dogs. But maybe that is what I am supposed to do in this lifetime. I don’t know how this all ends. I can’t judge because I will never know everything. I’m so attached to getting back to the life I always thought I would have that I’m missing the opportunity to create a new life based on the truth. I have lived a lie my whole life. The life I thought I would have had been a lie designed to distract me and it’s still working. Everything has always been a lie and yet I’m in a hurry to get back to it. I’m in a hurry to get the truth out so I can go back to my lie. How can I get frustrated with you all for not wanting to face the truth, when I obviously don’t want to either?

“Uncertainty is the only certainty in life “. Jordan Peterson This will always be one of my favorite quotes. However I need to embrace it more. Sure I may collect facts and information about everything in an effort to feel more in control of my life. But you and me we are the same, everything is uncertain for us. No matter how much we want to admit it and hang on to what makes us feel more in control.

Surrender. I finally surrender. I may not know what I mean or represent in the war games, but the more I try to understand it the more out of control I feel. So I surrender. It’s up to the odds, the gods, and you all. I can’t be attached to the outcome. I can only be attached to the actions I choose to take.

Don’t get wrong I want a good life filled with so much more security and comfort than this. But the lie I was fed to strive after and call it my life is not for me. Yes, I would like clean clothes, a house/home, to not eat with my hands, a bed to sleep in, and a toothbrush that doesn’t get poisoned. However maybe I have been going about getting those things in all the wrong ways. I can never know unless I try.

So I surrender to whatever this is and whoever I am.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Reversing the brainwashing

You know that anxiety you feel right now? You are questioning who you are right now, huh? Do you know why? It is because you have been brainwashed and conditioned your whole life. You have been stolen from yourself. We all have been stolen from ourselves.

Remember what you were like as a child. That child wanted to do amazing things, huh? That child believed in bliss even in rocky times. That child believed in a brighter future and that you were deserving just by merely being. That child was taken from you by the systems. You are still that child. You are still deserving. You are still destined for greatness. You are amazing.

The systems and the war games may have stolen you from yourself, but information changes people. I have given you the opportunity to take your inner child back and embrace the beliefs and person who was stolen from you. We all have been victims of the systems and the war games. There was no escape from the destruction. However, now that we know better we need to choose to do better. Not only for the world, but for that child that was stolen from you.

You used to believe anything was possible. Now it is time to realize anything is possible. You can do more than you ever imagined you can because you were brainwashed and conditioned to believe you are small. You are not small, you are larger than life. We all are more powerful than the systems, this is why they conditioned us to be small and manageable. We out power and out number them. We are the true deciding vote in how the world is, this is why we were kept small.

Please take the time to get to know yourself, because you are more amazing that you ever could have guessed. Yes, it is sad that we all were stolen from ourselves and each other, but now is the time to regain ourselves and come together united to show the systems how powerful we all are. We need to show them we have taken back the power they stole from us. We will no longer settle for being kept small and manageable. We no longer will allow ourselves to used by the systems that wish to disempower and destroy us.

You are strong and you are capable. You are powerful and when we all come together we can move mountains because anything is possible, right?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Brainwashing & Conditioning Others=Gang Stalking

Most of you all have taken part in brainwashing and conditioning others your whole life. When you partake in gang stalking others you are brainwashing and conditioning others. Now that my family cult and the systems know you have seen their true colors they are going to try to get you back under control. However, as long as you remember all you have learned about them and yourself you will not be effected

You need to ask yourself people’s motivation at every turn. How many times have you allowed yourself to do something seemingly harmless in order to earn privilege? How many times have you partaken in gang stalking without asking why you were being asked to do what you were doing? You all have done this a lot, you have genetic modifications that make you more likely to just think about how rather than why. You have been brainwashed and conditioned to not ask questions.

Now you need to ask questions. You need to ask yourself questions about people’s motives all the time. My family cult and the systems are going to try to get you all to brainwash and condition each other back into submission. They will use people you respect and love against you. People will always be willing to sell out for privilege. Look at my life, there are still people signing up to gang stalk me in efforts to break me and brainwash me into submission. It never stops. However, when you are aware of what is happening you do not have to allow it to work.

When someone offers an opinion you need to ask, “What is motivating them to say this?” How can you holding the view they are saying(selling) benefit them? How are they trying to change your perspective in order to fit the agenda? How are they trying to get you to conform? As long as you stay fixed on wanting to be free from the systems that want to destroy you, you will be just fine. Also, realize social media and marketing are used to brainwash and condition you too.

The system will never stop trying to sell you it’s agenda, but as long as you do not allow yourself to be a consumer you will be just fine. And when you sign up to gang stalk another just know you are partaking in brainwashing and conditioning yourself too. When you destroy another for privilege you are destroying yourself. When you partake in dismissing the needs of another you are dismissing your own needs. When you hurt another you are hurting yourself on a gene level. Choose to change your epigenetics by treating others fairly and positively. This means no covert action goes unpunished in your biology, but you can opt out of the war games and make it a positive change rather than punishment.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

A Shame Based Society

So I did some research on shame and let me talk this out with you all.

Proneness to shame is developed by genes and environment. Of course the environmental factors are not well studied or known. Shame effects the limbic system because shame is trauma. The brain processes a broken heart just the same as a broken leg. Pain is pain. And pain effects your hormonal and emotional state.

We live in a society prone to shame and overcome with shame. The people left partaking in the war games do not display guilt for their actions, but rather shame for who they are. This got me started on this research. Why feel shame over something you are in control of yourself doing? It is because they do not think they are good enough and they do not deserve a good life. They will only get a good life with charity from the war games

Growing up and living in the old systems has created a world of people who do not believe themselves to be good enough and/or worthy of a better life. The systems profit off of us having a shame based identity which is thinking something is wrong with you. The systems aren’t wrong, you are wrong. This is how they have kept us in line. This shame based society is what keeps us addicted and seeking comfort outside of ourselves. If we are not good enough then of course we will give into the idea that we need to seek comfort outside of ourselves and that others must know what we need more than we do. If we are inferior, how could we know what we truly need? Then, of course, we need someone to tell us what we need.

The old systems are brainwashing you all to believe you are not worthy. This is what keeps them in power. Love and empathy are the greatest tools against shame. You need to be loving and empathetic with yourselves. You deserve more merely for being. Every human deserves a life where they have a chance for success if they work towards it. Even if you do not believe yourself to be special yet, you are still human. And every human deserves a chance at a good life. This is all this revolution is. It is a chance for a better life. I cannot guarantee you that you will have a better life if you choose to be revolutionary, but I can guarantee that you will have a better chance at a better life. You are the one who gets to decide if you really get a better life with your actions. Isn’t it time to bet on yourself and give yourself a shot at more?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

You know why they kept concentration camps walled in? So you wouldn’t see what was happening and wake up from the trance state you are kept in.

Inaction is action.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Well hello there. Bare with me I spent 3 hours by the interstate making my announcement so I’m high on car fumes. But here we are talking. And hello Ballard, its amazing what Google can help a person find. So allow me to explain myself a bit.

I’m sure you all know my family but you never expected to hear from me. Well, I never knew about the war games until 2021 Narch specifically. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona there and have been putting the pieces together of this puzzle ever since. In the past year I have created a revolution driving up and down I5 trying to find someone who put ranks my family in the war games with no luck

But I’ve created a revolutionary army along the way that bypasses all subdivisions and races. They are truly the best and the brightest because they believe in potential. It’s beautiful. People really do want to do the right thing when it is an option.

So two weeks ago I figured out all my birthrights fully. I’m that person who can trump my family in the war games. This is why the have been trying to kill me for over three decades. And why they never told me about the war games. They knew I would want to change things and they gave me the birthrights to do so. Their greed for power is what is going to let me change the world.

Let me read you the cliffsnotes to the past year. It’s a lot and its overwhelming so grab a pen and paper or take notes on your phone. This is stuff you need to remember.

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family. second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and the first born in my immediate family. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are created and this is how my family creates them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

I could write a novel about what I’ve learned in the past year, but those are the cliffsnotes. I am here in Ballard tonight, because I am looking for the Scandinavians. I have not been in contact with them since Santa Fe or Southern California. Like I said it’s been a long year. But here’s the deal, I need help and I realized I have fond memories from the early 1989s because that when I5 was run by Scandinavians and Oregon was a good place to live. People were happy and they were healthy. We were taught that hard work would be rewarded with potential. However when my family took over the world went dark for all of us. And what they have done to us since the late 1980s we may never be able to fully recover from. But if we wait one more generation and 20 more years we for sure will not be able to recover on a gene level. They are stealing our humanity from us with our Gene’s. They don’t want to use concentration camps anymore. They are just using our bodies now. We have to do something. I spent most of my life sick and unable to do hardly anything, I am proof that we can heal. I ran away to the desert and kicked myself in a tiny apartment and healed cancer and autoimmune disorders naturally. I’m proof we can overcome the destruction of my family. Because they have destroyed me the most for a lifetime. We have to do something because I have seen the future we all face if we don’t take action. Its painful and sad and disempowering and a special kind of help I would not wish on anyone. I don’t know how to get my point across about how much they can make your body a prison. I didn’t know I was a genius until covid when I started doing heavy duty heavy metal cleansing. My parents poisoned me so much as a child so no one would know I’m so smart. I didn’t even know. Its hurtful but the physical pain is what was the hardest to deal with. Not being able to live my life for most of my lifetime. They stole me from me. And this is what they are doing to you all and your children. My life has just been a preview of what you all lived will be like if I don’t find an alliance to help me with this revolution and creating a new world. Per covert war games, I am the next leader of the dark side. And being #2 in both the Graves and Kudearoff family gives me some pretty good footing. I don’t exactly know what that means but I know it means I represent the territories of my families and the people who live in them. We all deserve better, not just me not just one group of people we all deserve better. But I can’t get us this better on my own. I need help. And I know it’s scary and it seems like risking everything but without me there is only darkness to come. I wish there was something or someone else that I had discovered that brought me hope for the future. But I have found no hope. However when I found out about my birthrights fully last week and how I’m head nazi that gave me hope. Not because I want to boss anyone but because I saw a way out of this mess my family has created. I’m a genius I swear I have tried to find other options. I hate begging for help. People have never helped me before. But here I am asking for help because I know with a little help we can change the world. I suppose that’s worth putting my ego aside for. I haven’t showered in weeks. I live in my jeep with my two dogs. I eat raw meat with my hands because my family gave me an awful C Diff infection I have been fighting my whole life, but I finally found the words to describe my pain and I’m working on finding the words to describe how to heal. See no one else would have been able to survive this past year. I survived cancer just t…….I wrote a lot more and it didn’t save

If I don’t get my overt life together. I’m never going to be able to have kids to guarantee that my birthright don’t go back to the Kudearoffs. And I can only survive daily attempted murder for so long. Surviving 3 decades of attempted murder is pretty impressive but I can only keep this up so long. I’m getting tired. So I need help. This was my last try to find help. We need to do something quickly because the election is so close. I just need some help changing the world. And if I get engaged to a Scandinavian it will create unity for the white people and the nazis. They will realize that there is another option besides the Kudearoffs. Communism is not the answer for anyone but my family. They are the only ones who win with communism. And they don’t even win, they just gain power which is all they live for.

What I need your help wit

1. I need a job. My family is blocking me from getting a job. I have asperger’s genius and can do almost anything, but my passion is sales. I have an Arizona real estate license and an Oregon insurance license. Any help you all can give me with finding a job I greatly appreciate.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

Thank you, I appreciate any help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Ballard I really hope you all decide to help me. Putting my pride and ego aside to beg is one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. Who would have thought having so much power would humble someone from my family especially. I have proven myself and that I’m a good person invested in the well being of everyone. Now it’s you all’s turn to prove who you are. The world is on your shoulders. I have done everything I can, it’s up to you all now.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Hello hello hello. This is Nicole Graves. Hey Seattle how are you all doing this Memorial day weekend? I apologize for interrupting your holiday, but I’m not sorry because I have important news. Where to start where to start?

Well, I have been through Seattle a few times this past year because I have been creating a revolution and reaching the people is quite the task. See March 2021 oli escaped the death camp my family built for me in Sierra Vista Arizona. And since then they have been gang stalking me heavily and attempting my murder on a daily basis. My only real option was to start a revolution. Before 2021 I never knew anything of the covert war games. And before two weeks ago I had no real clue that my birthrights trumped everyone else’s in my family. This is why they have been trying to kill me for over 3 decades. Finally my life makes sense. But it’s still a freaking lot to take in. I’m overwhelmed and need a shower to say the least. So I’m going to read you the cliffsnotes to the past year and I need you to take notes. These are the important things I need you to remember. I have fought so hard for your right to know these things. (READ NEWS UPDATE)

So I warned you it would be overwhelming. Now you understand why my family is trying to kill me so much. If I die without having children my birthright will go back to Kudearoff. That’s something that none of us want, but they are willing to kill for. Its serious stuff.

It’s a holiday weekend so I’m going to just cut to the chase and tell you all what I need help with. Your future and well being is intertwined with mine. So it’s in your best interest to help me. Oh by the way, you’re freed. I don’t want to boss anyone. If I need help I will ask for it just like I am doing now. I believe we all deserve better not just one group or just me, everyone deserves better. We deserve potential in all ways we are willing to work towards. We especially deserve to be human on a gene level. The basics in life are important.

So…. What I need your help with:

1. I need a job. My family is blocking me from getting a job. I have asperger’s genius and can do almost anything, but my passion is sales. I have an Arizona real estate license and an Oregon insurance license. Any help you all can give me with finding a job I greatly appreciate.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

Thank you, I appreciate any help you can give me no matter how big or small. I just have to find safety in the overt world and I have to create security. The more people you all can get to drop out of this war against me the better. I have good intentions for us all. I have fought to stay alive my whole life. I’m ready to be safe or at least safer from my family. I need you all to help me so I can help you. Talk soon and have a great weekend.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Woke up in Everett and finally got some really good sleep. It was overdue. Since being up in the Seattle area I have been kept up with lead poisons. I can do little sleep for a couple days, but I can’t do more than that. However I do logic equations when I don’t sleep so I have put together a lot of pieces over the past week.

I got frustrated yesterday about people not sharing information. This has been my biggest obstacle and pet pev this past year but also my whole life. People can’t say they believe in freedom of information and then withhold information. You can’t believe in potential and withhold information. But I suppose it’s a bad habit that may take some people a lifetime to break.

My new mission is to reach the Scandinavian fancy families. It took me so long to reach the farmers and fancy families in Oregon because I didn’t know where to look. I didn’t realize the fancy families were kept in the country to keep them isolated and small. I didn’t realize that the farmers were from fancy families. Well not until like last month or so. The fancy families around where I live in Eugene are kept on hwy 99. However, today my family was keeping me on and near hwy 99 by limiting my Google searches. It took me awhile to figure out. They care about the people in cities knowing about stuff but not as much as the people in small towns. And I guess even people from small towns travel on memorial day weekend.

So do the Scandinavian fancy families live in Washington or Canada? I’m guessing both. Because my Grandpa zgraves lived in Argentina until he died. He only came to visit me once in Oregon. I only saw him twice in my life and the second time he was dying in a hospital in Texas. Well, my Dsd and Mom had come to finish him off more like, but you know. Do all fancy families kill each other? This is something I really wonder. How is it family and live if you kill one another? I was raised to want to kill my mom. No one would be able to grow up like I did without fantasizing about killing their mom. However the idea of actually killing her myself ehhh I would rather not. I’m just not a murder kind of person. Sure in theory I like the idea of her being dead but killing people is wrong. Hurting people is wrong. I don’t understand how you get over the it being wrong part. I fantasized about stabbing my mom with a kitchen knife when I was 4 years old, but it’s wrong and I was scared I would kill her all the way. I literally had that exact train of thought as a 4 year old. How do so many people kill their family members? I just don’t understand. I saw my grandma Kudearoff beg for them to kill her because they were drawing it out and she was suffering in pain. I hope my brother does that to my mom. I just don’t want to be any part of it.

I rambled. So I looked up farms on Google and they seem to be on hwy 9. Fancy families don’t go to big cities much they stay out in the sticks. The only reason I have been in so many cities and so much is because I didn’t know about the war games so they couldn’t keep me as small as they wanted.

I spent the last year focusing on big cities but when I took one drive out on hwy 99 in eugene I changed my Truman show. The farmers in Oregon supported me by getting people to drop out of the war against me. I’m not sure who the farmers represent. In California most of the farmers I saw were south Americans. It’s hard to say what really is though and what is just my Truman show. And I suppose some south Americans are Republican just like some white people are Republicans and some are Democrats. Are any of the farmers really Democrats? That’s a good question. Yes, they are I saw some of them in southern California. When people value destruction that much their epigenetics tell tales. Plus the Republicans dropped out of this war against me last year.

So the question is will I be able to reach the Republican fancy families? Should I drive up hwy 9 tomorrow or should I wait till Monday or Tuesday? I don’t have much money left so this is my last push to try to reach people. I want so badly to create some kind of alliance so I don’t have to go back to Eugene. If I go back there it will be such a struggle to stay alive and save enough money to get out again. Shit getting a job is nearly impossible. I don’t want to go back they will kill me. Every time I make huge progress they try to kill me more. I’m just tired of it. I don’t know if you all have ever survived attempted murder for over 3 decades but it gets old even when you get good at it. Its draining. What a waste of energy. I could use that energy figuring out how to fix some of the negative epigenetic triggers we all experience. Healing the world interests me so much more than surviving attempted murder some more. It’s hard to put into words. I think only people from the not so fun fancy families understand. I’ve never been to a funeral for someone who wasn’t killed by their family. Do people really die from natural causes and real accidents? I really wonder these things!

So I suppose my hope will lead me to try on last attempt to reach the Scandinavian fancy families. I can’t believe that they know about me because my existence offers them a way out of so much that they have fought against. It took almost a year for me to reach the fancy families in Oregon so I have to believe I haven’t reached them yet. I suppose they are my last hope, just like I am their last hope. I need to know I tried. If I don’t try I will wonder for the whole time I’m in eugene. I gotta try. I need help changing the world. Someone has to want to help me. Someone has to see the value in what I am doing. Someone has to see that I have survived hell for over 3 decades to accomplish this. I always knew I had a big purpose but I would have never guessed it was this big. I never would have guessed I was fancy at all really. This is just all so weird. What I would love is just a job and to relax and not be revolutionary or survive daily attempted murder for a couple weeks. Then to be engaged to a Scandinavian and take my remote job on the road so I can continue to tell the people about the destruction. People deserve to know they are being destroyed. Why do other people not feel as strongly as I do about this? I don’t understand why destruction has been so normalized. It’s not right and yet everyone seems to accept it and accept learned helplessness over it as well. They need to cleanse their body learned helplessness is just an infection they need to get over. It’s so frustrating.

Good night and love always

Nicole D Graves

Well hey there, hope you all are having a good start to your memorial day weekend adventure. If you tuned in for the first time chances are highly likely that you were driving up or down I5 North of Seattle at some point this evening. I sat there for about 3 hrs and made my announcement and published my blog. Reaching people is hard, but I have learned that its worthwhile.

This past year I have been creating a revolution. See my family has been trying to kill me for over three decades now. I never really understood it all until a couple weeks ago. All I knew was I was and am so different than them and that makes them really angry.

I’m going to read you the cliffsnotes to the past year. Get a pen and paper cuz its overwhelming. But if you only remember a few things from this talk, these are the things I want you to retain. Its important so hear me out. (READ NEW UPDATE).

Okay so those are the cliff notes and the really big things you need to remember.

So over the past year I have driven all over, but mostly up and down I5. I never knew about the war games until last year, but I’m all to familiar with the destruction of my family. My whole life I have had to overcome my family, they have been the largest obstacle in my life. And honestly they just keep becoming a larger obstacle. The more power they get in the covert war games the more of an obstacle they will become in your life too. Right now the world is kind of a shit show. We are at a place where we either give into the destruction of my family or we have to fight back with all our might.

With the way the environment, food, air, and water are currently, we experience multiple negative epigenetic triggers. This causes are children to have gene mutations multiple gene mutations. These are not fixable. So every generation is a sub human species. In 20 years and 1 more generation we won’t be able to get back what we have lost. Even now we may not be ever able to fully recover from the damage my family has done. But I would like to help you all try. I believe in trying. I believe in doing the right thing. I’m the last good person that will ever come from my family unless I breed.

See with the birthrights from my Dads family I don’t have to get married or have children, but if I don’t have children my birthrights will go back to the Kudearoffs. So this is just a moment in time of freedom for you all, if I can’t get my overt life together and quickly. I escaped living in a death camp March 2021 in Arizona. Since then my family has been blocking from getting a good job. It’s been really rough the past year. I have figured the war games because I had to. I had to figure out why everyone wanted to kill me. I have worked my way through every group of people. My family is left with a few people who profit off the war games, but mostly they are recruiting normal people to fight this war against me. So if you all could reach out to all the normal people you know and tell to knock it off because they ruining your chances of a good life. I would super appreciate it. I’m 41 so I only have so much time to get back control over my overt life. However, now I realize I have never been on control. I have lived in a Truman show in every way possible. The only reason I was able to reach you all is because I sat on the side of the interstate broadcasting with the chip in my head. It’s been a crazy life and one day I will tell you all all about it. But today let’s talk about what you can do to help me and improve your chances of holding on to the freedom I grant you. By the way you are free I don’t want to boss anyone. If I need help I will ask for it. And this is me asking for help.

1. I need you to gossip and get as many people to tune in to me as possible. The more people in the loop the better all of our chances for freedom. Gossip like your life depends on it because it does.

2. I need your help getting to the Scandinavian fancy families. At home in Oregon the fancy families are kept in small towns and are sometimes farmers. Well I think all farmers are from fancy families but not all fancy families are farmers. I don’t have the time or money to reach out to them by driving to all the small towns. I need your help getting to them. See I need to get engaged to a Scandinavian who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas. We need to unite the Republicans before the election. The more control the Democrats have the more control my family has. We need to stop my family from ever having this much control again. They don’t have good intentions, they don’t even want us to be human on a gene level. It’s scary what will happen if we don’t stop them. My life will just be a preview of how you all will live if we don’t stop them. So let’s get it done do we can have good lives and explore our potential in whatever way we desire. We all deserve better.

3. I need you all to get me into as many communication hubs as possible. I’m talking to you right now because someone helped me in Compton California last year. I don’t understand it, but here we are and I am so grateful. I also write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com and that connects to some communication hubs when I publish it. Once again I don’t understand it, but I’m so grateful. Any way you all can help me spread the word about me figuring out my birthrights finally, being alive, being revolutionary, explaining the destruction of the systems, etc. Just get people in the loop. Withholding information is my family’s favorite weapon of destruction.

Last one can you tell me where the fancy families in Washington that are Scandinavian live? Is it on hwy 9? I’m still trying to figure everything out. But I’m doing the best I can I promise I’m going to keep trying for us all, but especially for me and my dogs. We deserve so much better than this. Just like you all.

That’s all I got for tonight. Sitting by the interstate is a lot of work with all the car fumes. Although Washington is absolutely nothing compared to California! Perspective is everything. So have a good weekend and gossip and be social. We will talk again soon.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Generational trauma is a physical thing. When we experience trauma and stress it effects our microbiome and gut bacteria. We inherit bacteria, parasites, viruses, mold, etc from our mother and grandmother. So you physically inherit the trauma of the generations before you. Your gut bacteria and microbiome directly effect your epigenetics. So the trauma your ancestors experienced effects who you are down to a gene level.

Now if you are conscious of this chain of effects you can take actions to rectify the situation, but it takes great efforts over long periods of time. Generations of trauma are not easy to overcome. However anything worth doing is normally challenging.

We all are where we are today because of world war 2. We all have different perspectives about what happened and that effects our microbiome, gut bacteria, and epigenetics. Taking responsibility for the actions of those that came before you is hard, because we want to believe we come from good people. However, even good people make mistakes and do wrong. Being human is not something that makes us less deserving of love.

We are here in this moment because my ancestors were really awful power hungry people who saw their superiority as a reason for other groups of people to have less in life in all ways. In order for my family to feel whole and special they needed other people to be less than and have less. My family needed to punish people for not being like them, just as they do today. My family has not changed. They have repeatedly showed us who they are.

However the Scandinavians aka the lower ranking officers saw what my family was doing was wrong. They carried out the orders given to them knowing they were committing crimes against humanity. In their heart of hearts they knew better. This is the difference between Scandinavians and South Americans. This is also the difference between covert narcissists and sociopaths. Their actions were very similar but their biology is very different. Who do you think was more traumatized from the experience of world war 2? The people we ho knew of their war crimes or the people who viewed themselves as superior and deserving of creating pain and destruction to any degree they desire in others?

We are in this very moment right here and now because the Scandinavians did not stand up for humanity and what is right. And they lost everything for it. It took generations to rebuild in the physical world. Perhaps never fully recovering because the generational trauma is still there haunting them in their biology. Its hiding because they don’t want to acknowledge the truth of the situation fully because it shows a lesser than side to themselves.

Well, right in this moment, here we are again where my family who views themselves as worthy and deserving of doing whatever they want to people have taken it too far. This time they are putting their victims in concentration camps because the world has become their victims. And this time there is no where to run. My family has influence and control over most of the world there is no location to run away to. However even if you were to run your body would follow you. This time my family has made your body the warzone and soon to be your own personal concentration camp. You can’t escape your Gene’s and epigenetics they go with you wherever you go. You even have passed them onto your children.

There is nowhere to run. There is nowhere to hide. Either you stand up for what is right. Or you die a slow painful death in your body that has been designed to be your own personal concentration camp.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

I woke up in a church parking lot in Renton. They don’t believe in God there so people pulled into the parking lot all night to poison me with lead poisons. I stayed up all night putting together puzzle pieces. I figured out how to not only win my revolution but how to win the civil war the scandinavians have with my family. Its lonely being this smart. I feel even more isolated from people than I am. If I didn’t know the answers I could play dumb and helpless with them. But the solutions to things are normally really simple. Yet, I can’t seem to get myself out of this situation on my own. People have always been my greatest obstacle in this life. Yet I have always wanted to make things easier on the because life seems like it is harder for them. Being emotional must be hard. I get frustrated and sad and tired. But most the time I’m happy. I suppose I feel anger too. But I do really well at limiting my negative emotions.

The past two nights I haven’t gotten any sleep because of the gang stalking and poisoning. Lack of sleep makes me emotional kinda. I was sleep deprived most of my life and poisoned that’s why I bought into being told I was emotional. But I’m not I’m just human and need sleep and fir my insulin levels to not be too spiked.

Last night figuring everything out and realizing my family had nothing to do with why I remembered the early 80s as a happier time was harsh yet completely logical. My grandma Kudearoff is the one who taught my mom and her sisters how to be evil. They just came into enough power when she died to use that evil on all of us. I wonder what the switch was? It was 1989 ish…. my family is why the lumber mills closed down. That’s a Republican industry or was.

Then today I figured out how they rigged the last presidential election. They bought it literally. Like 70% or something huge like that if campaign contributions came from out if state sources especially in swing states. They literally bought the elections. People are kept in a trance state so whoever has the ability to buy the most television ads is the person who will win most of the time. I really wanted trump to be president. The Democrats just want to tell you they will take care of you and then destroy you with the things they deem necessary for you to have. Just like covid shots.

Covid all together was a nocebo(opposite of placebo) it’s a way for others to seek comfort outside of themselves. You are the answer, not the government or government that promises to take care of all your needs. You need to know yourself and meet your own needs.

Maybe I need to take my own advice. When I came up here I had come to terms with being kept small and was just going to enjoy my last little hoorah of a drive up north before going back to eugene to be destroyed and get a job that bores me to death and destroys me and barely allows me to care for myself and my dogs. I have been kept small most of my life. A couple more years won’t kill me. My parents have to die eventually. But we all know no one is dying before the November election. It will be interesting to see what happens. No wonder my parents never explained politics to me. I have only voted that once for trump because I was scared he wouldn’t get elected. I may have to register to vote in eugene I haven’t done that since I got back.

To know so much and not be able to apply it in life is really hard. It’s a special kind of hell. I’ve never really spoke of it before because I never wanted to say that other people were wrong or less than and they aren’t. But I’m just different. And I’m tired of being punished for being different. I’m tired of herd mentality always winning because it’s the weakest solution to anything. I suppose I just need to stop getting my Hope’s up when it comes to other people. I just need to read my books walk my dogs and enjoy life as much as I can. I need to proud of myself for doing everything I have done. I need to know that even though everything doesn’t make sense right now one day it will and it will sooth my nervous system. The only certainty in life is uncertainty and I need to embrace that certainty. I will always hold onto hope for myself because I have earned it and proven I deserve it. I will never understand people.

I can do my logic equations and play mental emotional chess all day, but until I get out from under my family’s thumb I will never get to use my people skills. I literally have the answers to so many things and yet it doesn’t seem to matter. Its hurtful. I still don’t know what I have to do to earn being apart of humanity and human. My birthrights make it so people can’t see that I’m human too. I’m just a human at the end of the day. But no one wants to treat me like a human. The best I can hope for is to be left alone. That’s sad, but what life has taught me. The closest thing to love I’ve ever experienced is people not destroying me all the way. That’s so far from love it’s sad. And yet I have never given up on wanting to be human. Can you imagine having the birthrights that allow for world wars and genocide, but really all you want is to be human? It’s a weird life, but I suppose we all have our own issues.

Woke up near Lynnwood. It reminded me of Lynnwood in LA. Funny how all the big cities have similar suburbs. I was still mad at the world this morning because the day before my family blocked my blog breaking the rules again for the millionth time.

The people near where I parked were doing construction so I woke up pretty early after being kept up by poison the night before. It’s always trash day around where I park, even on Saturdays sometimes. So after the not so good few things I decided the babies and I needed to go hiking. The trails up here in Washington are amazing. How have I never noticed this before? Ever since that country road in Oregon city we have been enjoying the walks with trees as much as possible. The dogs are happier afterwards compared to when we just do city/suburbs walks. It’s weird, but makes sense because it makes my nervous system feel better too.

So we did the hiking and then we went to eat lunch. We didn’t need to eat, it could have been a fasting day, but we ate out of habbit. At the Walmart there was hardly anyone gang stalking us. The people who did show up went over the top with the E poisons though. All morning and afternoon I published my new update about the 60ish things if destruction. So this way people could understand how the destruction effects them personally in their daily lives. When things hit home people are more prone to take proactive action.

So I may have said some of the things they needed to hear. Then I blogged and apologized for getting angry the night before. I’m human too. Then I told the people about the plan to retrace my steps from the day before when my blog was blocked. And that today we were going to talk about the destruction they experience.

Then me n the babies when hiking again. I found a trail that connected to the beach, but it was under construction so we didn’t get to do the beach as hoped but we got a couple miles in. Haywood was so happy and had his happy but prance on. Teka had me carry her most of the time, she was pooped from the first hike still and one if her feet hurts. I don’t know what she did to it, but I will baby her till it gets better. She’s the senior citizen but she’s the baby as she always reminds me. I realized while hiking that Haywood turned 10 in March and Teka turns 14 in September. I know Haywood is chubby and they both need a doggie dentist really badly, but for two kids who have went through hell with me the past 5 years they are so healthy. I mean people have literally been trying to kill them to kill my heart and spirit. I’m so proud of them everyday. And I tell them that everyday. They are my angels.

Finished the hike and the kids were ready to nap on their fuzzy blankets and I was ready to hit I5 again. So we did the news updates announcement as driving down i5 during rush hour.

The poisons were great today more so than normal. My family did not want me to reach the people. But we just kept going. And I had a few realizations. The big one is Washington is to Scandinavia just as Texas is to Argentina. That’s why they have white people pride. It’s very similar feelings, but the people are healthier here and the cities are cleaner. Its night and day. It was kinda epic because I realized I am in the place I have been searching for all year. I’m somewhere my family isn’t in charge and they value potential. After just realizing I am the person I have been searching for and then to find myself in the place I have been searching for in such a short period of time my mind is blown. I am where I’m supposed to be finally. So I asked Washington if I can stay and if they would be willing to let me get a job and follow the rules. I don’t want to stay unless they want me here. I’m not selfish to bring bad things on them from my presence if they don’t want me here. I have so much to offer and I think they value what I have to offer. It could all be a bit of a dream come true. I could not have planned it any better. I never know the how I just follow my why. And it may really work out.

When I was healing cancer in Arizona I had a vision of me on the beach walking the dogs like it was a daily thing not just a vacation or outing. It was a part of our routine. I have known this was going to happen. Then recently I had thought I needed to go to Washington DC and I thought okay that’s kinda close to the beach a couple hours. But I never in my life thought I would live in Washington. But today I thought about it even before my realizations. To get to live like a privileged white person with all the beautiful trails and the ocean and trees would be kind of overwhelming. I never dreamed of anything like this. Shoot there were years I could barely walk let alone walk the dogs for fun and joy outside around trees that used to cause me awful allergies. I never believed I would get any of this. Even if we don’t get to stay it was still really nice to experience. I’m super high on E in a church parking lot. Tonight I’m going to go to the quantum field and experience living and working here to try it on for size. The idea of not having to go back to Eugene is heavenly. I’m so tired of being surrounded by people who want to kill me. A person can only take so much. Today was a bit of a dream. Reaching the people turned out really well. But let’s see if I did well enough to experience a change in my overt world.

Tomorrow another hiking trail and more trees. I sure could get used to this. How did I never think of Washington before? All year the answer was only a couple hours away. Funny how life works.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Woke up near Lynnwood. It reminded me of Lynnwood in LA. Funny how all the big cities have similar suburbs. I was still mad at the world this morning because the day before my family blocked my blog breaking the rules again for the millionth time.

The people near where I parked were doing construction so I woke up pretty early after being kept up by poison the night before. It’s always trash day around where I park, even on Saturdays sometimes. So after the not so good few things I decided the babies and I needed to go hiking. The trails up here in Washington are amazing. How have I never noticed this before? Ever since that country road in Oregon city we have been enjoying the walks with trees as much as possible. The dogs are happier afterwards compared to when we just do city/suburbs walks. It’s weird, but makes sense because it makes my nervous system feel better too.

So we did the hiking and then we went to eat lunch. We didn’t need to eat, it could have been a fasting day, but we ate out of habbit. At the Walmart there was hardly anyone gang stalking us. The people who did show up went over the top with the E poisons though. All morning and afternoon I published my new update about the 60ish things if destruction. So this way people could understand how the destruction effects them personally in their daily lives. When things hit home people are more prone to take proactive action.

So I may have said some of the things they needed to hear. Then I blogged and apologized for getting angry the night before. I’m human too. Then I told the people about the plan to retrace my steps from the day before when my blog was blocked. And that today we were going to talk about the destruction they experience.

Then me n the babies when hiking again. I found a trail that connected to the beach, but it was under construction so we didn’t get to do the beach as hoped but we got a couple miles in. Haywood was so happy and had his happy but prance on. Teka had me carry her most of the time, she was pooped from the first hike still and one if her feet hurts. I don’t know what she did to it, but I will baby her till it gets better. She’s the senior citizen but she’s the baby as she always reminds me. I realized while hiking that Haywood turned 10 in March and Teka turns 14 in September. I know Haywood is chubby and they both need a doggie dentist really badly, but for two kids who have went through hell with me the past 5 years they are so healthy. I mean people have literally been trying to kill them to kill my heart and spirit. I’m so proud of them everyday. And I tell them that everyday. They are my angels.

Finished the hike and the kids were ready to nap on their fuzzy blankets and I was ready to hit I5 again. So we did the news updates announcement as driving down i5 during rush hour.

The poisons were great today more so than normal. My family did not want me to reach the people. But we just kept going. And I had a few realizations. The big one is Washington is to Scandinavia just as Texas is to Argentina. That’s why they have white people pride. It’s very similar feelings, but the people are healthier here and the cities are cleaner. Its night and day. It was kinda epic because I realized I am in the place I have been searching for all year. I’m somewhere my family isn’t in charge and they value potential. After just realizing I am the person I have been searching for and then to find myself in the place I have been searching for in such a short period of time my mind is blown. I am where I’m supposed to be finally. So I asked Washington if I can stay and if they would be willing to let me get a job and follow the rules. I don’t want to stay unless they want me here. I’m not selfish to bring bad things on them from my presence if they don’t want me here. I have so much to offer and I think they value what I have to offer. It could all be a bit of a dream come true. I could not have planned it any better. I never know the how I just follow my why. And it may really work out.

When I was healing cancer in Arizona I had a vision of me on the beach walking the dogs like it was a daily thing not just a vacation or outing. It was a part of our routine. I have known this was going to happen. Then recently I had thought I needed to go to Washington DC and I thought okay that’s kinda close to the beach a couple hours. But I never in my life thought I would live in Washington. But today I thought about it even before my realizations. To get to live like a privileged white person with all the beautiful trails and the ocean and trees would be kind of overwhelming. I never dreamed of anything like this. Shoot there were years I could barely walk let alone walk the dogs for fun and joy outside around trees that used to cause me awful allergies. I never believed I would get any of this. Even if we don’t get to stay it was still really nice to experience. I’m super high on E in a church parking lot. Tonight I’m going to go to the quantum field and experience living and working here to try it on for size. The idea of not having to go back to Eugene is heavenly. I’m so tired of being surrounded by people who want to kill me. A person can only take so much. Today was a bit of a dream. Reaching the people turned out really well. But let’s see if I did well enough to experience a change in my overt world.

Tomorrow another hiking trail and more trees. I sure could get used to this. How did I never think of Washington before? All year the answer was only a couple hours away. Funny how life works.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Okay my revolutionary people, I am just going to freestyle this and geek out. Health is one of my Asperger’s special interests and why I’m still alive. If you did not une in yesterday. Please allow me to read you the cliffsnotes to my past year. It’s been a rough year, but it’s been fruitful in the weirdest way possible. So let me share some information with you all that will allow you to live a better life. This can be found as my news update and is on some grocery store communication hubs. I’m not sure how it works, but I know it works somewhere somehow.

Okay so now you know the cliff notes to my past year. It’s been crazy, but my life has been crazy making. So it all kind of goes hand in hand. Now I want to share a window into the truth of the situation at hand. Many things we look at as normal are acts of destruction. So allow me to share my point of view and some truths.

1. Epigenetics are Everything. So you are born with Gene’s. Those Gene’s are like your family’s Gene’s. However, you get to choose how those Gene’s Express themselves. This is epigenetics. This is why I’m so different than my family. We have similar Gene’s, but we are night and day in so many ways. The soap you use, the cleaners you use, if you go to a swimming pool or took swimming lessons as a child, if you have a dog, if you have a cat, what you eat, how much you sleep, etc. All the things that make up your life decisions make up your epigenetics. Yes the air the food and water are poisoned to create negative epigenetic triggers. However they are not the end all be all. You can overcome some of the damage by making better decisions in your daily life.

Stop getting your children cats. Cats carry a parasite that is linked to all mental illnesses. And it has something to do with the brain damage and amygdala damage and thyroid conditions. I haven’t figured it all out, but I had cats as a kid. But I have been parasite cleansing for oooh about 7 years and after 4 or 5 years I think I was a completely different person. In that time I naturally healed cancer too. So, it’s amazing what cleansing our bodies can do. I did heavy duty heavy metal cleansing when I moved to Arizona and I would stain my sheets purple with what I saw sweating out. It was intense but this is when I realized I was a genius. I had been stolen from myself just like you all are stolen from yourselves as well. My parents poisoned me with heavy metals when I was a kid so no one would know how smart I am. They used to play me the movie rain man all the time and covertly tell me if people knew I would be taken away. They do this heavy metal poisoning to you all too. There are heavy metals in processed foods, the air, the water, etc. There are so many sources. Did you give your kid fluoride for their teeth? Well that’s kind of a heavy metal that dubs them down and messes with their limbic systems. I took fluoride for years and years. See everything my family did to me they did to you all on a smaller scale. How many of you all are geniuses and just don’t know it like me? That something I really want to know the answer to! You all are smarter than you ever guessed.

Did you know there is a parasite that is linked to bad driving? I used to be an awful driver, but after parasite cleansing I got better. I had to look it up and there are stats on how many people have this parasite who get in wrecks. Its something outlandish like 66% or something. But if you think about it. We inherit parasites bacteria and viruses from our mother and grandmother so we get it all those of us who were born into the war games. No one else in my family parasite cleanses. How about your family? Cause you share bugs with the people you are around.

Did you know you are more parasite, virus, bacteria, and fungus cells than human cells. You basically are a big. This is why your gut bacteria is used to control you. Your gut bacteria is the boss of your brain body and immune system. If my family can control your gut bacteria they can control you. Did you that insulin resistance can be improved with natural antibiotics? Everything can almost be improved with natural antibiotics. All illness has roots in your gut bacteria. Do you have anxiety? Well cleanse and it will away. Taking vitamin k2 will also help. Because your gut bacteria is supposed to make vitamin k2. But when it doesn’t that allows for calcium to free float in your blood stream causing anxiety and brain damage and damage to your amygdala and limbic system. Your limbic system is what houses your emotions and hormones. But this damage to your amygdala is what causes people to be in a fear state all the time. It’s an unconscious fear so even before you can use your logic to calm yourself down you are already in a fear state. If you wanted to control people wouldn’t be easier if the overly felt fearful of everything? It probably would keep people small and manageable.

What else? Fermented foods are amazing. Unless you have leaky gut then they will cause a histamine response. The covert genocides are done using GMO plants like veggies and fruit and spices etc. So many of us have leaky gut by design because it is the first step in creating disease. Almost all disease starts with leaky gut. Fatty liver and leaky gut are the 2 precursors to autoimmune diseases. In the 1980s the only people who had fatty liver were alcoholics. Now almost everyone has fatty liver to some extent from the world we live in and the good. Children have fatty liver nowadays. Its ridiculous. Processed foods and all the toxins in our environment are taking a toll on us all. We won’t be able to recover in 20 years because when we experience epigenetic triggers that are negative our children are born with gene mutations which cannot be reversed. In another generation our Hope’s of being human may be gone. We need to take care of our epigenetics because if we have enough positive epigenetic triggers we can create a species that is better than us on a gene level. This is something I would love to research. But we are so invested in destruction there aren’t many of any parents who create children who are better than on an epigenetic level. It’s sad.

Why don’t we want better for us all? What’s holding us back from being better? I am sure you all were going to say my family. And I completely agree they have held me back from being better my whole life. The thing is now we know about me and we have the option to do better. Think about that better is an option on the table for the first time ever,!

Okay let’s talk more about fatty liver. So everyone has it to a certain degree, but when it gets bad and your liver is unable to filter the hormones in your body you get estrogen dominance. Well estrogen dominance leads to cancer growing quicker in your body. The cells reproduce at a quicker pace because estrogen feeds them. I may have over simplified that but you get the picture. Also estrogen allows for your brain to reinforce addictive behaviors more. This is why pregnancy is so hard on women. There are many other ways it has been rigged to be an event of destruction. Pregnancy is used to change women. By the time they deliver a baby they are a different person by design, they are a lesser than version of themselves. Because a lesser than version will be easier to control and get to buy into destruction. Everything always comes back to destruction.

I’m super high they have had the cars going by a ton at the church I’m parked at. I can go on and on about health it’s my special interest. I don’t know if you all know how seriously is Asperger’s people take our special interests, but I did not really work much or leave the house for about 7 years and all that time I spent researching reading and doing experiments about health. Fitness I got to admit I have mastered like I have health. But I believe when I have time and space to master my health the fitness part will come into clarity. I know intense exercise is not the name of the game we are kept too sick to stress our bodies out like that. Intense exercise stresses your heart and causes heart attacks. My family has been sending me covert messages to do intense exercise for years now. I know the destruction because they try to get me to destroy myself.

Do you have love handles? My Dad and I both have stretch Mark’s on our backs. Love handles and stretch Mark’s on back are from stressed kidneys. C. Diff the antibiotic resistant bacteria stresses and attacks kidneys. This is why so many people are on dialysis.

Did you know humans aren’t meant to eat so many carbs? We are fed the idea of standard American diet because high insulin levels and blood glucose levels make us addicted to our emotions. They also don’t allow for our bodies to absorb as much nutrition from our food. So it creates malnutrition. You know why my family wants us to be malnourished? Because it makes your brain not function optimally and you are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. I mean on top of setting yourself up for disease. Everything is an act of destruction.

Did you know even the order we eat our food in is an act of destruction? We are supposed to eat dessert first if we want to have good digestion. Everything in our society is backwards to destroy us and keep us weak.

I can keep going and going even when I’m high as kite on E and car fumes. I have adapted to my life and health interests me because its something I have never been able to have or fully reach. I want to live in world where knowing all this information does something for me besides just allow me to survive. I want to thrive! I want to know health and fitness and amazing epigenetics even more than I do in this moment.

Did you know dark colored soda feeds C Diff? So does all dairy even grass fed organic dairy. Did you know fiber feeds c diff? Did you know protein feeds c diff? I’m not actually sure what you can eat that does not feed c diff. However I have stayed alive this past year by eating raw 73% ground beef and plain low sodium gluten free potato chips. The meat is absorbed in my small intestine mostly and the chips are a resistant starch that feeds the bacteria in my colon to produce butyrate which is antibacterial anti cancer anti inflammatory etc butyrate is a magically thing. Its kept me alive. Potato chips have kept me alive. Along with fasting and going some periods just eating raw meat too.

I am that determined to stay alive. I’m that committed. Have you ever been sick and stick in bed for years? I have and oh boy I will gladly eat raw meat to avoid ever having to live like that again. My family wants everyone to get that sick. No one deserves that.

Okay I rambled for good but there. I would love to have the time and space to get to walk you all through healing. I love it. It’s my passion. I have always wanted someone to share it with. Getting to share it with the world would be a dream come true. Literally a dream.

Earlier today I realized Washington is the place I have been looking for this whole year. I have been searching for someone with my power and a place that is not ruled by my family that values potential. Can you imagine everything falling into place within a two week period? Its overwhelming. However, I can’t change the world on my own. I need help in doing it. And more than the help of my revolutionary people. I need people in places of power within the war games to choose me and following the rules. I’m pretty sure the rules don’t say we have to destroy the people so badly they stop being human in all ways. Because that’s what’s happening. In 20 years and one more generation we will not be able to reverse some of this damage. Even now I don’t know if we will ever be able to reverse it all. But I would like to try. Because wouldn’t you feel better if you knew we tried? That’s always been my motto. As long as I try I give myself credit. Sometimes things doubt always work out as planned but good intentions and strong efforts always lead to something positive.

Washington I hope you all choose to help me create a better world and system for us all to live in as humans for generations to come.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

This is just me writing down my realizations from the drive down I5 today. I will do my news updaye/announcement in a bit so get everyone to tune in. There is still time.

Washington omg you all are like Texas and I couldn’t figure it out the other day but it hit me today. Washington is to Scandinavia just like Texas is to Argentina. You all are the other side of the coin. I have referred to you all as Scandinavians and Republicans because you believe in potential. So many realizations.

There has to be a family that rules you all or is in charge like my family is. I mean I know we are the all powerful leader of the dark side. But there are so many subdivisions and you all have to rule yourselves. I represent the dark side, but you all believe in potential. Who’s in charge? I would love to meet them overtly or covertly. This is why my family did not want me to come up here. They don’t want me to form an alliance with you all because then you all would be more powerful than them. Because you all follow the rules.

Can we make this happen? Can you all let the families in charge of Washington and Seattle know I’m here. Let them know everything. I’m not looking to be saved, but I would love a job. If I can have a job I can continue on my mission of changing the world. And I would be a lot safer here. It’s a long shot, but I have to try because I have promised so many people I’m going to do my best and keep going.

Can you all give me a war games mentor to teach me all the things I need to know? I just need a little help. I can move mountains alone and with my revolutionary army, imagine what I could do with a little war games backing. Please help me change the world and get a job. I would very much appreciate it.

Thank you for your time and consideration

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Ps okay let me walk the dogs and sober up from drive and then I geek out about the destruction of the systems and what you all need to know.

Sorry I freaked out last night. I have tried my hardest over and over my whole life but especially this past year. There really isn’t a lot of room for mistakes for me if I want to stay alive. Its kinda stressful and puts the pressure on. It’s a lot to deal with and handle. I’m not always perfect. No one is. Actually I am rarely perfect. I prefer to be human.

On top of all the stress and pressure I have to play be the rules. But yet my family constantly breaks the rules on top of destroying me and attempting my murder daily. It’s hard to keep it together.

I got my blog back online and changed the password a couple times. So today or this evening let’s do another announcement. I’m going to retrace my steps so I can publish my blog and connect with as many people as possible. However tonight, we are going to talk about how you all are being destroyed. You all are sold social norms in order to normalize the destruction and condition you not to see it. I want to help you see it. I never really bought into the systems as much as most people because I was destroyed so heavily. This allowed me a window into the truth. I want to share my window with you. Because once you see the destruction you can’t unsee it. It changes everything.

So that’s the plan. Get everyone to tune in tonight. Everyone in the greater Seattle area. Especially reach out to the east side I haven’t made it over there this trip. And get a pen and paper ready for tonight cause you will want to take notes because it will be overwhelming.

Today we change the world starting with you all. And then I expect you all to share the window I gift you with the rest of the world. Washington is what all the white people aspire to be like. You all have influence in the war games because you represent the best of the best. Or as my great grandfather would call you “Aryans”. You are supposedly the ideal human. If the ideal human can’t escape the destruction who can? 😉

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black
3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals
9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
17. Fear tactics are usedagainst us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all
24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)
25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease
26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.
27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us
28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world
36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)
42. The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others
43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon
44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

1. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
2. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
3. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
4. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
5. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
6. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
7. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
8. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
9. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.
10. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
11. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives
12. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places the systems are more overt. Yet, here we are letting a covert war get the best of us.

We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

I’m flicking pissed off. I try my very hardest not to be reactive because it’s a fucking waste of time and energy but sometimes when the moon is in aries you just gotta let it out. They blocked my fucking blog today. I don’t know how I fucking broke into a communication hub with my blog but I did almost a year ago. And my family has been blocking my blog ever since. More than that they have blocked my blogs and my ebooks ever since I started writing. Getting someone from the dark side to offer to host my blog when I started one on the wordpress site itself. They blocked me from writing on there and getting paid. I used to write a magazine column for 3 whole in the wall magazines because I fucking love writing but o have been kept small my whole life and I have so much to fucking share with the world. I have fought tooth and nail to try to get my messages out. I want to teach you all about narcissism and healing cancer and autoimmune diseases. I want to teach and share with you all all the things that have helped and allowed me to stay alive. But how am I ever going to get to do this if I’m forever kept small by people who are jealous of the birthrights they fucking gave me. For chemists sake let me be a normal ordinary human and share my soul with people. I never asked for these fucking birthrights. I have always just asked to be human. They are birthrights if you kill people who don’t go along with your evil agenda. They are fucking death sentences. Heaven forbid I call my family out on being awful people. Heavin forbid I see they are destroying themselves and they aren’t happy or winning either. They are in pain. All of them are in pain. But rather than admit to their pain they would rather blame me for being wrong and telling the truth. Denying the truth and the rules is all they know. Valuing things above humanity is all they know. And they have been kept small in the overt world so they don’t even have that nice of things. Sure they may have money from the war games but they can’t spend it. They all act poor. Because they are poor. They hate themselves and the only way they win is if everyone hates themselves too and agrees to be fucking small.

I am larger than fucking life and I fucking love myself in all my imperfections. No one is going to take away who I am from me. My whole life they have tried to beat me down in every way possible. I’m not fuxking breaking.

Today there was a constant stream of paramedic vehicles near me. Sting doesn’t scare me, getting hurt doesn’t scare me, what scares me is fucking living in this bullshit for the rest of my life. The idea that this is the best it gets is mortifying to me. I have never been able to accept this is even good yet the best. My whole fucking life this has been suffocating and terrifying because I know logically and in my heart that it won’t take much to make this better because this is the fucjibg worst it gets.

When we allow people who are mentally I’ll with cluster b personality disorders to dictate who we should be we become mentally I’ll ourselves. Just because they don’t value their emotional spectrum does not mean I should have to give up mine!

Aren’t you all tried of this shit? Aren’t you ready to revolt? How the fuck do you just stay in line? I have never been able to play small. I stuck at it. What in the world would motivate you to play their games? Why do you all stop to their level knowing it means you miss out on the good things in life, the things that really matter.

How do you do it? Because I never have been able to, let alone want to.

Why do you want to be communist? I thought you all had white pride? I don’t understand so much in life.

Started day in Olympia, stopped in Tacoma, Made my way to North lynwood. Not sure at what point they blocked my blog today, but I still spoke to the people. At some point I need someone to transcribe what I say when addressing them so it can be distributed when my blog is blocked. Can I order you all to do that please. So at least I’m not alone. If you don’t want to change the world with me and follow the rules at least keep me company while I live through hell. 41 years of this bullshit i survived to learn it’s my destiny to save you all because I’m the only one who will fucking stand up to my family. And you all can’t even make them follow the rules or kick them out if the game for cheating. What the fuvk would my great grandfather do Hitler? What would my grandma Kudearoff do? I know my grandma Kudearoff would kill people for doing less than her children have gotten away with. I never really knew her as a leader or war games fancy person. But if she was alive and she saw them doing what they do she would kill them. I doubt want to spend my life figuring out how to kill my family because i have the smarts to do and fo it well. I grew up with them torturing me, they should fear me because they are cowards. None of them could endure what i have endured. None of them were brave enough to hold onto their heart. None of them are as smart as me because they gave up their emotional spectrums when they turned to the dark side and chose to value destruction over everything. Destruction cost them Everything. You should have seen what a mess they were after they killed my grandma Kudearoff. They were broken children. They still are broken children. IRS sad but they fucking adults breaking the rules to the game they are taught to pride and value being leaders in. That’s not leadership. That a fuvking double standard and just plain unfairness. They preach one thing and yet do another because there is no fucking accountability. They fucking out lives their power and yet here they are playing the covert war games and breaking all the rules and you all just allow it because you are scared. If I was you I would be more scared if what will happen when you allow this to continue. My life is just a preview to all your lives when the rules are disregarded. I’m just a preview of your future. Now that’s truly scary. That’s what you should really be fearing in this moment. That’s your true why if you do not value better in this moment.

If fear runs your life more than your heart. Then your why is you don’t want to live a life like mine. Because this is what happens when my family is allowed to preach the rules but not required to live by them.

Nicole D Graves

Can you all guess who blocked my blog today? This is also breaking the rules. When I got someone from godaddy on the phone it magically came back online and no errors were able to be found by godaddy.

At this point I’m just documenting my experience because there are no rules, right?

Xoxo

Nicole D Graves

Once again my brothers army is the one let fighting against me….

It’s mostly my brothers army that is still fighting this war against me and gang stalking me. Males age 18-31.

Have you all spoken to your children about what’s going on and severity of the situation at hand? Please do so now so I can enjoy the rest of my evening and day off with just the poison from the air traffic.

Have you told your children they are a sub human species and you are sorry because you did not know what you were doing? It’s a hard one to apologize for but humanity is the first step because without humanity it’s really hard to admit there is a problem.

One story and then I’m back to my silence. Last year somewhere in mid California. A girl was gang stalking me in a planet fitness bathroom. I asked her what it felt like to have a dysfunctional brain and if she felt it? I couldn’t help myself I really wanted to know the answer. I wasnt really trying to be to mean it was my asperger’s getting the best of me. She was shocked not only that talked but at my question. Her answer was I don’t know.

See the younger generations we all knew there was something wrong with them because we have never been able to relate or connect with them easily. However, they don’t know any different. Having a dysfunctional brain is all they know. Their gene mutations and epigenetic triggers that lead to and lean towards dyslexia make them my families super soldiers that they have always wanted.

See dyslexia means you are creative brain based. So instead of thinking about the logic of the situation at hand, when they are given an order they simply think about how to carry it out. Never in their brain does the question why come out. But rather only how. They were bred to be the soldiers that take orders without ever asking questions about why. They blindly take orders because that is how their minds work. They don’t know any different.

However we know different so we need to teach them better. Please talk to your children immediately and explain to them how they need to overcome their default setting.

Thank you and love always

Nicole D Graves

Why so quiet Lacey? I’m eating lunch at Walmart. And I see a bunch of hopeless people. They don’t know how things can be different. And because they don’t know the how they are betting on it staying the same. This is another perfect example of the Dyslexic epigenetic triggers. When you are obsessed with how you often forget why you are doing something. It’s not just the younger generations we have to set straight, it’s a lot of people.

I’m all for figuring out how we will do things, but I need us all to be driven by the why. When you know what is driving you to do something and how it will effect your life and the big picture you have a better understanding of what is a stake. Rather than just looking at the micro and your actions in this moment look at the macro and how everyone’s actions add up to impact the world and the future, our future. Everything is a snowball effect.

But when we focus too much on how and just the actions we are taking in this moment without considering the big picture and our why, we get lost.

Our why is we deserve better. Everyone deserves better. And what we are doing in this moment to ensure we get better is no longer answering the calls from my family to support the old ways that value destruction over everything. We are never going to get better if we value destruction point blank. Things will continue down the same path we have been on since the late 1980s, but they will just get worse. Who’s knows what gene mutations your great great grandchildren will have. How much of a sub human species can we still consider human? It will only be a couple more generations, if that, before we are not human anymore and revolution won’t be possible because most people will be born without humanity. Even more so than in this moment where we condition the humanity out of people.

My family only had about an hours worth of people to really fill up the Walmart parking lot to make me believe they had not lost your support. However demographics tell tales. These are just desperate people, opportunists. I have seen this group of people for a long time now. The people born into the war games, the fancy families, and United States military dropped out of the war last year.

If there ever was a time to hold onto hope, it’s now! We are so close. Just because we only know our why and we are not clear on the steps to how does not meant it will not happen. It just means we are creating a revolution based on our beliefs and our why. All great change starts with why. Hold on tight to your why. I know I do.

If you know anyone who hasn’t heard me talk get them to tune in today. I’m going to make my way up I5. Today is the day and my day off was much needed. Thank you for your patience.

Talk soon and love always

Nicole D Graves

I’m taking today off. I found a spot in Lacey with trees, a pond, and trails. I deserve a day off to do some fasting and resting. My car was broken into this morning while I was hiking and a ton of young boys keep driving by poisoning me.

It’s mostly my brothers army that is still fighting this war against me and gang stalking me. Males age 18-31.

Have you all spoken to your children about what’s going on and severity of the situation at hand? Please do so now so I can enjoy the rest of my evening and day off with just the poison from the air traffic.

Have you told your children they are a sub human species and you are sorry because you did not know what you were doing? It’s a hard one to apologize for but humanity is the first step because without humanity it’s really hard to admit there is a problem.

One story and then I’m back to my silence. Last year somewhere in mid California. A girl was gang stalking me in a planet fitness bathroom. I asked her what it felt like to have a dysfunctional brain and if she felt it? I couldn’t help myself I really wanted to know the answer. I wasnt really trying to be to mean it was my asperger’s getting the best of me. She was shocked not only that talked but at my question. Her answer was I don’t know.

See the younger generations we all knew there was something wrong with them because we have never been able to relate or connect with them easily. However, they don’t know any different. Having a dysfunctional brain is all they know. Their gene mutations and epigenetic triggers that lead to and lean towards dyslexia make them my families super soldiers that they have always wanted.

See dyslexia means you are creative brain based. So instead of thinking about the logic of the situation at hand, when they are given an order they simply think about how to carry it out. Never in their brain does the question why come out. But rather only how. They were bred to be the soldiers that take orders without ever asking questions about why. They blindly take orders because that is how their minds work. They don’t know any different.

However we know different so we need to teach them better. Please talk to your children immediately and explain to them how they need to overcome their default setting.

Thank you and love always

Nicole D Graves

I woke up in North Portland and it was sunny. I had parked near a freeway wall unknowingly but it wasn’t too bad besides getting pretty high on E poisons before bed. Sleep was good, but they gave me nightmares via my chip. I never really have dreams or nightmares unless they are implanted thoughts it’s weird. My Dad was in my head this morning. It’s been a long time since I felt his presence in my head. He did not want me to go to Washington.And I have to admit I was a bit nervous about it too. Because it always gets dark there and the poisons are strong. They keep the people in Washington really isolated. I suppose they try to keep everyone really isolated.

So I procrastinated a bit this morning and was just a bum because I really don’t have a time frame for anything these days. I do worry about money, but I have more money than I ever did when I lived in Arizona and was working small jobs to get by. Not paying for an apartment that destroys me is a huge weight lifted off my finances. But I do miss being alone and having my own space. But I don’t miss having people break into my space and poisoning my things. The less stuff I have the less stuff I have to poison. It’s a beautiful equation. I don’t really like stuff anymore. I would like to be cleaner but showers are tools of destruction. Aka concentration camp showers. So I put my worries about money into perspective this morning and left Portland. I crossed the border and ate lunch in Vancouver. The white people were very interesting to watch at the Walmart. I don’t understand the war games dynamics in Washington. They have white pride but it’s better than no pride like there is in Oregon now. The people remind me of my family before my grandma Kudearoff died. It’s like she wanted her girls to live like white people. She wanted good lives for them. Maybe I’m wrong but the people loved my grandma Kudearoff she made them smile and feel special. People don’t react like that to someone who only has bad intentions for them. No one else in my family is loved like my grandma was. She may not have been a great person to her family but she was a good leader. She was kind of good to me. I saw her evil side, but that motivated me to be good because I never wanted her wrath to be directed at me. She could make anyone feel awful and small. I have these moments that are referred to as Mom moments where I kind of RIP people a new asshole with the truth. I think I get this from my grandma Kudearoff. People just need to act right and do better and I guess sometimes they just need to be reminded of the reality of the situation. Life gets messy we all get cloudy vision sometimes.

So the white people in Vancouver at lunch brought back memories. I miss those times before the darkness surrounded us all. Why is Washington exempt from the darkness of southern Oregon and California? It seems like Portland is a divider of sorts for two different worlds. Salem is in the dark. Portland is the border to a different way. It’s weird. I did love the time I spent in Portland living in the pearl district. I was being murdered everyday but I really liked the town.

I gave my talk in Vancouver and it went well. News seems to spread faster with time. My message is gaining momentum. I can only hope it is doing this outside of I5 too. I wonder if the rest of the world knows I realized my birthrights and even if I’m alive. I sure hope so. I know the war games armies that uncle dave is in charge of know about me, but how far do his armies go? He’s only lived in Oregon and Washington. Who handles the armies in California? The Certain One is involved somehow or some way. I think Sacramento is his birthright. Well I know it is, he must be a #2. He never married tho but he has a son. Hmm I haven’t thought about him in a long time. I miss the person he has the potential to be. He could be great if he gave up on destruction. Especially destroying himself. But he is the one who taught me about b12 shots. Everyone taught me something.

So kept moving up I5 publishing my cliff notes news update and telling the people I had an announcement. Near long view they made phone loose signal for uploading my blog. It was weird. Probably a car passing me had some kind of device that did it. So I stopped and figured it out and restated the phone. Gave more news updates got on the wrong direction to the freeway ended up at a dog park. My kids weren’t impressed with the poodle there so we walked by the river and got back on the road.

Nothing really out of the ordinary the rest of the way to Olympia, but it just felt nice to get some movement in. I don’t remember how many days it took me to get from eugene to Portland via hwy 99 but it was more than a few. Its been a blurry trip filled with all the poisons. Lots of the firewood with the cold hands and feet poison that makes you sad. Springfield smelled like that growing up a lot I remember. Which is weird cuz I remember happy people? Maybe they were doing their covert happy people thing? It could be but they were healthier and my family was even happier. They used to really laugh even though sometimes they fake laughed. Now all they do is fake laugh. I may not know the truth about much, but I know people were happier and healthier when my grandma Kudearoff was alive. It may have all still been destruction but it was bearable to some degree. The food was so much better. Fast food in the early 80s was awesome before they changed it to fake foods. That I know for sure I live good and even as a kid I wondered what happened. I still don’t know the specifics of the war game agenda, but I know GMOs are created to create leaky gut and lead to disease. So the food changing was an act of destruction. And maybe it did start to happen before my grandma got sick. Maybe she was on board with it all. But she would have never allowed for me and Jessica to be destroyed so much. We are her legacy or at least we were supposed to be.

Okay so got to Olympia drive around making my announcement and found my way to a Safeway on the east side of town. It was pretty empty when I got there. Like crazy empty because my family always sends people to the grocery store to hang stalk me and I used GPS on the way there so they knew where I was going. The talk went really well. It felt good. I felt like they were as happy to connect with me as I was to finally connect with them. It felt good. They didn’t fear me, they treated me like one of them. It was a weird going home feeling. Like being somewhere you know you belong. I don’t always get those feelings when giving my news updates. Actually I rarely get those feelings. It’s like Washington has been waiting for me to wake up and figure things out. Boy what a disastrous nightmare this all has been. But if we can create a better world maybe it all will be worth it because we will never take good forgranted again. There will always be things that need improving, but hopefully we never get this far off track again.

This whole trip up I5 this time, I have been mourning getting to ordinary and trying to come to terms at the same time with going back to eugene and working a mind numbing job. I hate it still, but after this trip I’m okay with enduring the things many of you have had to endure. Its not forever just for right now. Eventually my parents have to die. And I have always found a way out from being kept small in the past. This too shall pass. It’s hard to give into everything, but what other choice do I have. I’m not trading this prison for another like I have too many times in my life. I choose me and independence. Even if I have to camp out inappropriately friends backyard when it gets too hot to sleep in the Jeep. I made it all winter sleeping in the Jeep so I can do the impossible for a little bit longer. I refuse to pay for home that is used as a weapon of destruction against me. I just can’t live like that anymore. Its not right. I’m tired of my humanity being always used against me. My humanity is not a weakness it’s my greatest strength.

So life is going to continue to be hard and unfair and not filled with potential, but I accept it because the internal turmoil from not accepting it is too great and will create disease if I continue to hold onto it. I accept life for what it is in this moment because what are the other options.

Tomorrow I make my way to Seattle. The last time I was there I found Kirkland. They didn’t destroy me there even back then. I have hope that Seattle will be in the know when I get there. I hope it will be a good feeling like today was. Today felt better than Oregon. The talk I gave in Lebanon kind of felt like this and maybe Corvallis too. I suppose the drugs I’m on dictate the feelings I get from the talks too. Everywhere feels different at different points because I connect with different groups of people. The subgroups and divisions are overwhelming. I hope one day we can all just be people together. Some divisions are okay, but this many is just too much and confusing and not healthy.

So that was my day.

Oh I found a place to park by a pond in trees with hiking trails and walked the dogs and got some fresh air in tonight. Dog walks keep me sane. Perfect ending to really good day.

Live always

Nicole D Graves

Ps I saw a guy who looked so much like my brother today at winco in Vancouver. Are there people who look like me out there? I see so many people with the same epigenetics I want to see someone with mine. How neat would that be. Do you all see how much you all look alike. It’s crazy. I want to see the people who look like me.

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