Month: June 2022

I felt sorry for myself today. Which is really out of character for me lately. The past few years I have learned a kind of gratitude that many people never achieve. Escaping death for over 3 decades does something to a person. But finding out you have cancer and running away further into the desert rather than seeking medical treatment or to see your family does something else to a person. I died in the desert, but it was a metaphorical death. Because in actuality I was born again, but for the first time I got to almost be the person I really am. Every time I am around other humans they ruin everything, but in the desert I stopped trying with people and allowed myself to feel out and be me. I don’t feel shame or sadness that much anymore. Emotions are just another tool my family uses to control us all.

However today I felt sad and sorry for myself. This whole past year has been like waking up from a nightmare only to realize it was really your life. It’s been pretty traumatic and I really haven’t had a chance to process it all or mourn. So today I mourned. I mostly mourned food and my basic human needs. Love was used as a weapon. My need for companionship was used as a weapon. My need to feel seen and be an individual was used as a weapon. And most of all food, water, and my need for clean air were used against me. So much so that I was deathly I’ll most of my life. And even to this day my humanity is used against me. I have given up everything but breathing, drinking water, eating, and my dogs. I have my humanity used against me at every chance possible still. However I’ve learned to not be human because it has always been a weapon used against me. If I allow my humanity to escape it will be the end of us all. Being so disciplined and self sufficient and independent is really hard. And honestly its really hard not to look at the people surrounding me as weak. They have every opportunity I have always wanted and they allow greed, jealousy, and laziness to dictate their lives. Granted I’m not allowed around people who value or fight for their potential. But the people who surround me represent the majority. The people who want to just get by with privilege and their birthrights. They would rather channel the person they were told they were supposed to be rather than actually being themselves. They have no clue who they are because they have bought the lies sold to them and started to embody them as their own. They never even fought to be themselves because that would have been too difficult. They even get to est food that doesn’t make their organs fail. They have so much privilege and they waste it by being carbon copies of other people. It makes me mad. I’m not jealous though because I would not give up knowing who I am for anything. If course I want to be able to eat food and not have it kill me, but I am not willing to trade who I am for clean food. I’m not for sale, no matter how much my family has tried to buy me. Im not for sale.

So I ate cake tonight. I had raw 73% ground beef that was extremely poisoned and I ate the low sodium gluten free potato chips that make my reproductive organs swell(read the warning label on the bag of great value chips) and I got super depressed because I was so hungry still and it wasn’t even that good because it was so poisoned. So I went to go get garlic raw garlic to kill my gut bacteria so I wasn’t hungry. The poisons allow for bad gut bugs to grow and that’s why I’m always hungry now. Only having raw garlic to eat and not having antifungal or binders makes it really hard to control my gut bugs when I’m always being poisoned. Especially at work, its 45 hours a week of being a sitting duck and just having to endure it.

Anyways I got cake, a big piece and it was amazing. Nothing fancy just white cake with strawberry filling and white frosting. It was epic. Carrot cake and all the “healthier” versions feed C Diff more. So eating plain white cake, french fries plain, and plain beans and cheese burritos is how you reduce C diff while still taking part in cooked food and carbs. I’m mourning cooked food. I can’t really believe how much the people at the Mexican food place on 15th and Willamette poisoned me. I saw the lady on Sunday have an orgasmic reaction in her brain to handing me my food and my feet and fingers swelled so badly after I ate and very quickly it was scary. How can people be like that. How can people not realize I’m a human. I’m not just a character in a virtual reality game they partake in occasionally. I live this virtual reality game that they visit and look at like a sport and or a hobby. This is my life. It’s not a game. They really are trying to kill me literally. Yet they believe they are good people. What kind of fucking good people kill other people for sport and privilege. What the fuck kind of world do these people live in because it’s not reality. My family does not live in reality, no matter how much they want to make me out to be the crazy one. You all are wrong for trying to kill people and thinking it doesn’t matter or count against you. I’m someone who has never tried to kill anyone and I never realized how revolutionary that is. I always just assumed it was how humanity is supposed to work. Because it is! And you all have been doing it all wrong your whole lives. I’m ashamed of you all. My family knows they aren’t good people and there is no hope for them. However, you all know better and you need to do better.

Then I was thinking about all the people I’ve known with swollen ankles. They are usually the people who cook for their families. Amber complains about her swollen ankles and they look super painful. Yet, all she would have to do is stop poisoning herself and her family and maybe fast a day or two and go carb fir a bit to get healing that could be long term if she made some life changes that support her health and heart. Why would someone not choose life and health? She says she wants to live to be 100. Yet actions say she wants to die soon. Why are people like this? Want to know the answer? Its conditioning. When dogs are submitted to pain in conditions that teach them they are helpless, they remain helpless even when put in a situation where they have control. We have been taught to accept helplessness and we accept destruction as the way it will always be and then we destroy others because we want them to feel the same pain we do. Why should they get to escape or avoid the destruction and pain. How dare they think they deserve better. This is how my family gets you all to commit great evils against the ones you claim to love and against others within your reach. Just like the girl at the drive through of the Mexican place. She had been destroyed so much it takes destruction for her to feel alive.

I don’t want anyone to have to experience what I have experienced my whole life. I understand you all’s illogical thought process and what has happened to you and the way your liver and kidney damage makes you fearful angry and anxious. But I just dont get how you all can leave your humanity behind. I mean I do because I hide my humanity from everyone including myself but that humanity is who I really am. I am human. And crimes against humanity are a crime against myself because I’m human.

So yeah I ate cake tonight and now I have leg cramps. Magnesium is not being absorbed as it should be in my body and this is one of the first signs of leaky gut. Granted I walked for an hour after eating the cake, but still leg cramps are not normal. So once again I am paying for my humanity. But why weee the cake was good. Who knows what I will eat Tomorrow or if I will eat, but tonight I felt good feeding my emotional soul. I refuse to live in fear of food. And I may even refuse to live without it. But I will live.

love always

nicole D Graves

I have swollen ankles like I’ve never had before. It’s from eating out and people poisoning my food. I knew better but I did it anyway. I had hopes that people would treat me fairly. Amber warned me about what they were doing when I sat outside with her last week to catch up. I didn’t listen. I even ate everyday last week. I’m tired of being hungry all the time. This is how I felt growing up, but it was worse then because the poisoned foods never stopped and I had no clue about any of the destruction.

So here I lay with my feet elevated fasting because I need to get whatever was in that food out of my body. It’s back to raw meat only for me and the kids. I’m mourning because food has been my only comfort in life that is from an outside source. I love food but I also know that eating will kill me.

eating carbs was nice. I ate bean and cheese burritos with French fries and I still had my raw meat too. I ate gluten for about a week and if it wasn’t for the poison I think I could handle it. I’m realizing most of my food allergies and intolerances are just due to poison. It’s crazy. Food has hurt my whole life. And it’s not just the C Diff infection, it’s mostly just the poison.

So how long till my liver, kidneys, and heart will go back to functioning correctly? They poison my raw meat too, so I hope I can fast long enough to make a difference. I suppose I ate carbs and extra poison for a week it will probably take 7 fasting days to correct the damage. So far I have only fasted 8 days in June. I log my fasting and food and health stuff as much as I can. It’s always a maze of overcoming the destruction but tracking helps. It helps me feel in control.

We have fleas from everything. I tried to get the dogs flea meds today but the vet was closed early for a meeting. Just like the gym wasn’t open this morning for me to shower. I made great progress this weekend and it always seems to complicate my already complex overt world.

The dark side is back to destroying me. At work they are making me be at counter for longer than necessary, but I kind of like it because I get to read. I finished the Urban Meyer book today “Above the Line”. I absolutely loved it. Reading is something that has always given me hope because it allows me to envision the future I want to experience. And it allows me the inspiration to keep going and trying and succeeding against all odds. Today, I realized how revolutionary eating raw meat has been. And I realized how much I have needed to fast my whole life. Its amazing that I’m still alive. And sure I may have thinning eyebrows again, but I’m still healthier than I have been the majority of my life. I was stuck in bed most of my life. I would go to work and come home and lay down. I did that till I was 34 when I retired. And then I laid in bed all the time. Leaving the house was an ordeal that took everything out of me.

Even in Arizona I rarely left home, but that’s because it made me feel worse and people were really awful there. I guess I just try to focus on the positive because it grows when you focus on it. Sure I have swollen ankles and fleas today, but hopefully tomorrow they be better and the next day even better and eventually they will be all the way better and I will have washed my bedding and the dogs and gotten them flea meds. It’s an order of operations that will take some time, but is doable. Hopefully the heat today killed some of the fleas because I sprayed essential oils in the car and let it sit all day in the sun. And hopefully the fasting will help my ankles and organs heal. I suppose I am grateful I did not swell up worse. Eating raw garlic helps with so many things. I have felt this poison before that has made my ankles swell I just have never eaten this much of it in such a short period of time. Yesterday was really bad. There was a lot in my food. I knew better but I still wanted to eat because I was high from driving home on I5.

So tomorrow I read a different book and work the counter again and just be patient because all I have to do is keep going. When Bill Cavinee hired me he was trying to rush me about getting insurance licensing done and i told him, “I may be in a hurry, but I’m not in a rush.” That is the motto I need to keep using. My life is all about being patient and going slow and doing the impossible. Everything is overwhelming when I think of the big picture. But when I just think about surviving today and succeeding tomorrow I do just fine.

Time heals all wounds and gets you through things that sometimes seem impossible. That’s my trick, that’s my magic. Time and patience can get a person through anything. Its not rocket science but fear lord it’s hard. Living through the unlivable is my forte and destiny I suppose.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Today I did my announcement from Gold Hill near Medford to Eugene. But I took a four hour pit stop in South Roseburg to wait out the heat of the day and give my announcement to I5 there from the cemetery near by.

So hello everyone, thank you for tuning in. If you didn’t already know, surprise I’m still alive. I have been creating a revolution since March 2021 when I escaped the death camp my family intended for me to die in. It’s been a really harsh past few years. The attempted murder has been really overt since 2017. I never knew about the war games until last year. No one ever told me about them because I have enough birthrights and power to change everything. I’m the most powerful person in either of my families by design and I rejected illogical evil. I have asperger’s genius also by design but my family never thought I would question their way if life. Darkness and evil dont appeal to me. So here we are and now I finally understand why my family has been trying to kill me for over 3 decades while telling me I’m hard to love. Funny how that works. Really they are just mad I’m hard to kill.

So here we are, I have the power to change everything and I would like to share with you the cliffsnotes to the past year. I’m not here to boss you, but I do want to sell you on why you need to be revolutionary with me. Your life, your children’s lives and your genes need you to be revolutionary. Allow me to explain a few things. Keep in mind this is only the tip of the iceberg. I have found so many words for the destruction we all face. But let’s start with the cliffsnotes to the past year.

What you need know

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family. second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married so I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system and C Diff.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

So it’s a lot and I can geek out and explain the destruction all day. But you all have felt it your whole life just like I have. We just didn’t know the words to describe our pain until now. So here we are with our eyes wide open. Now what?

Well you are free. I free you all because I have been enslaved right along with you. I don’t know about you but freedom is worth fighting for. And I grant you all your freedom. However if my revolution is not successful you will not get to keep this freedom. Freedom will never be an option on the table again. No one else in my family has a heart or soul or kind bone in their body. They aren’t interested in freedom only enslaving and destroying people.

I built this revolution by asking for help because I only recently figured out the power of my birthrights. I dont need power. I need help building a revolution to create better for us all. I’m not interested in bossing people or being a dictator. I am interested in leading us into a brighter world. A world where potential is an option and good health can be obtained. I want us all to realize our dreams. And I can’t create this new world on my own. So I need your help. Here’s what I need your help with…

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. How do I buy/rent myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

I embarked on this extended journey this weekend through southern Oregon to find the farmers and decision makers. I know the farmers and decision makers I have found throughout the past year have done amazing things to help protect me. I am looking to not only be safe in Eugene/Springfield but especially to be safe at work. I work with a bunch of Republicans who are jumping at the chance to earn privilege from my family by destroying me at work. I need them to stop. I need you all to let them know that there will be great consequences for their actions. By destroying me they are destroying your only chance at freedom and to be human on a gene level. They may not care about themselves or their children being a subhuman species but they are trying to dictate your decision by destroying me for privilege. I want to say all kinds of mean things and harsh realities. But the blood of my enemies is my greatest motivator and I need you all to know they are our enemies. They will not stop unless someone tells them to. So please motivate the decision makers to remind the people I work with that they do not get to decide how we all live our lives down to a gene level. I dont understand how people can make decisions for all of us with their actions and think it’s okay. I need you all to let them know it’s not okay.

Once I’m in a safer environment we can work more on creating our new world and overcoming the destruction. I have worked so hard this past year and my whole life to reach you all. I can’t describe how happy I am that you tuned in and hopefully joined my revolution. I look forward to making our dreams a reality together. We deserve better and we are going to create it, starting now.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves   ,