Aquarius season is a time for cerebral everything. Air signs are all about thinking, often over thinking everything. Gemini is also an air sign. It is the immature acting out for attention air sign. My Brother is a Gemini. And my Moon is in Aquarius. Moon signs are your emotional and inner life. I’m the way I am because I question why I am the way I am. I question everything and everyone. I take things to an extreme but I have had the time because I have been kept small my whole life and I have been trying to figure why my whole life. So let me share with you some things I learned along the way.
Your brain has a lot of different voices and places where thoughts come from. This is normal and I will explain them to you. First there is your reptilian brain. This is the part of your brain that my Dad wants to keep you in because it makes you easier to control. This is your primal brain that keeps you alive. However, in the world we live in with the c diff infections we have this part of your brain will keep you fat and happy. You need to use your logical brain to fact check your reptilian brain.
Sex, food, drinks, alcohol, drugs, etc are all reptilian brain things. Think about your favorite food and focus on what part of your brain it is in right now. Did you feel that thought in the middle of your brain kind of towards the front? That is where your reptilian brain is. This brain has no potential. It is merely to keep you alive and high on dopamine. Our c diff infections seem to effect this part of our brains a lot. Because this is where addiction takes place in the brain as well. So your reptilian brain will keep you fat and happy because it has been hijacked by dysfunctional processing of dopamine.
Next we have your logical brain. This is where logic happens, rational thoughts, strategies take place, and where you decode symbols from the symbolic inheritance systems. This is where your humanity lives in your brain. Right now count to four in your head. Did you feel that in the top of your head? That is where your logical brain is. If you ever are stuck in your reptilian brain with an addiction issue or anxiety or circular thoughts that wont stop playing on repeat count to four and breath. It will change the part of your brain you are lighting up. You may have to do this a few times or even for 15 minutes. But it will help you change your brain when you need to escape what is happening in your reptilian brain. It’s normal for us all to loose control of our reptilian brain here and there because we have an infection and we have parasites that alter our brain function. Did you know there is a parasite linked to bad driving? Chances are if you got in a wreck in the past year you probably have it. Driving used to be so hard for me before I parasite cleansed. Did you know cats carry the parasite that is linked to most mental health illnesses? So if you ever had a cat or if your mom or grandma had a cat you need to parasite cleanse. We inherit parasites bacteria and viruses from our mom and her mom and so on. So we all need to parasite cleanse. I have been cleansing since 2014 pretty intensely because my life depends on it. But I can tell you all my brain has changed more than I ever imagined possible. I used to be so anxious and scared and afraid to learn new things or try new things. I was a prisoner in my own mind drowning my sorrows with pot, alcohol, and anxiety pills. I could never imagine being sober 10 years ago. I was my own worst enemy by design. If I was constantly battling myself I was never going to have the energy to fight my family. As long as I kept battling myself every day just to stay alive, they were free from worries of me figuring them out. If you can relate to this you need to take your vitamins. I was so malnutritioned most of my life it was hard to think. I dont want any of you to have to feel like I did. It was awful. I will always remember the pain because it allows me to understand where some of you are in this moment. And I want to be the person who tells you it’s going to be okay. You are more amazing than you ever imagined. And I’m going to be here while you find out how amazing you are. It is going to take a lot of work but I promise you it will be worth it. You have never even imagined how amazing you are. I want to be the person I needed for you all in case you need that person too. One day I’m going to find a way for you all to talk to me. But for now I can talk to you and tell you it will be okay. You have no clue how amazing you are. And I know this because I had no clue how amazing I was. I never imagined I would find the person I am today. I never imagined I could be this strong. But look at me doing all this, I must be pretty strong and amazing because this was a lot. And 10 years ago, I couldn’t get out of bed without getting a rock star and smoking pot. I loved drugs because they helped me manage the poisons and my anxiety. But now that I have found me I am not really tempted to do drugs. Sure I think about pot, but I have some in my glovebox. It’s been there since I was staying at my Mom’s house. It’s not tempting right now. One day when I’m safe and home then I will relax and smoke some pot. But now is not the time. I encourage you all to take your vitamins. Especially make sure you are taking magnesium if you have anxiety. You will sleep better and finally feel more at ease. Magnesium helps your body with over 300 processes. It calms your nervous system and slows down your mind in a good way.
So I learned all these brain tricks because it was a survival mechanism. I have had to fight to keep my sanity just like you all. And sometimes I won the war and sometimes I lost the battles. The trick is finding shortcuts to control your thoughts and brain. I share these tricks with you because once you know them no one can ever take them away from you. Information and knowledge are things no one can ever take from you. So they provide a security in life we really dont get enough of. My Dad has stolen almost everything from me, but yet I’m still larger than life because I have so many things that cannot be taken away. Sure there are countless things he has taken from me, but I have won the war with my mind. My Dad will never have control over my mind like he once did. And I even have a chip in my head that gives him direct access. If I can overcome all of this you can too. I believe in you. I believe in you all so much I created a revolution for you. I will never get to be ordinary like you all. But I can make the world better for you all. I’m going to do everything I can to create better for you I promise. Because I understand how much this world hurts and no one deserves this. I dont care who you are or what you have done. As long as you are on board with getting better for us all I am fighting this revolution for you. Everyone deserves better than this. No one deserves this. I really want you all to feel that in your soul because its the truth. Fact check it with God. He will tell you the truth always.
Okay I went off on a tangent. So your reptilian brain is in the middle towards the front. Think about your favorite food and the part of your brain that lights up and feels fuzzy is your reptilian brain. Now count in your head to four, that part of your brain on the top is your logical brain. This is where all the good stuff is. This is where your humanity is. When you are anxious its really hard to access this part of your brain. Sometimes you are going to need movement in your body to switch from your reptilian brain to your logical brain. It’s a way to override the system. When counting doesn’t work then try movement. Or maybe try movement first, it just depends on what you are doing at the moment and what you prefer. I find getting my anxiety out of my body through movement is one of the best things. Energy in motion is emotion. Anxiety is an emotion. But it also is worrying about something that has already happened or is going to happen. There is no anxiety in the present moment. When you start moving you become more in the present moment. So override your brain when you have too using your body. You know how sometimes you just want to eat a treat or have sex to escape a bad feeling? Well movement is the same kind of thing but it is healthy. Treats and sex are maladaptive. Once in awhile sure but if you do it too often it’s an uphill battle.
Okay so anxiety comes from your reptilian brain. This is where my Dad wants you to live. If you are constantly not at ease aka diseased you will constantly seek the answers outside of yourself. You have all the answers. You just have to learn how to access them. You access them through the quantum field. Okay I know that sounds complicated and sciencey. But bear with me. Think about God for a moment. I want you to hear the voice that tells you you deserve better than this in your head. Where did you hear that voice? Its above your logical brain and it almost feels above your head somewhat right? Your logical brain connects with the quantum field. God is the quantum field. When you daydream you go to the quantum field. This is where endless possibilities exist. This is where you create the life of your dreams that you are destined for. My Dad and the systems want you to believe you create the life of your dreams in your reptilian brain by consuming things. But that’s not true at all. Sure those pleasures are nice, but they aren’t your destiny. Your destiny is a calling of your soul from the core of your body. Your 2nd and 3rd chakras combined. Your soul will lead you to places in the quantum field that will help you achieve your destiny here in the 3d world. I did this as a child. I used to go to sleep thinking of the life I would one day have. This is how you can start creating the life you are destined for. Every night as you go to bed start creating your dreams and your brain will continue working on them as you sleep. I dont know how this works but it works. I have read about the quantum field and honestly it doesn’t all make sense yet. But I know it works because I have done it my whole life to give me hope. And here I am talking to the world so it works. If you are ready to start meditating do it and go to the quantum field and build your life. When you exercise day dream. When you do dishes or fold clothes day dream. The more time you spend in the quantum field the sooner you will have the life of your dreams. Now let me clarify and say you still have to be responsible and do the things adults do. But visiting the quantum field is what you need to do to find the steps on how to get to where you need to be. I don’t have dyslexic gene mutations or epigenetic triggers too much. So I have had to figure out how to find the how. My brain isnt wired to find the how like you all are. So I go to the quantum field and find the answers. The answers are there for you too. Look at this revolution and me talking to you right here. I have had to find so many weird answers in the quantum field and a lot of them I didn’t understand at all at first. It just takes time and faith. Sometimes it takes time to understand the answers you find. But the more time you spend finding answers the sooner they will make sense. Don’t get frustrated when things dont make sense just keep going. That’s all I have ever done. Just keep going. We all have a really long ways to go before we get the lives we are destined for. But the more time we spend figuring out what that life looks like and is all about the sooner we get there. Dont question the process because it will make you doubt yourself. As long as you are putting in the work and taking care of your health everything will work out in time.
So I hope that helps you all keep things in perspective and gives you some hope and coping tools. Take care of your body and your mind will follow suit.
Nicole D Graves