Thursday August 4th 2022 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Leo Are You Really Special Now Or Have You Always Been?

If you are as special as my Dad says now, why didn’t he see it sooner? If you are really as special as he says you are, why does he make you conform to be like everyone else? If you were really as special as my Dad says why would he limit your access to the outside world and only make you socialize with a select few people? If you are really as special as my Dad says why is he just noticing you now? What has changed that makes him want to make you feel special now? Why are you being seen now after a lifetime of being invisible to him?

If my Dad was a leader like he says he is, why does my existence threaten him? Real leaders dont try to kill people who disagree with them. Real leaders understand people are different and different things work for different people. Why did my Dad have to kill Kris and Brenda? Real leaders convince people to do what they believe is in everyone’s best interest. Real leaders dont kill their wives to get what they want. Real leaders have wives that love them and are loyal to them and their agenda. Real leaders dont murder their children because they have them birthrights that threaten their ego and false sense of power. Real leaders nurture their children and their followers. Even encouraging them to pursue their potential in all ways rather than limit it to ensure their power. Real leaders value people and dont thrive off controlling people by limiting their life experiences and expectancies. Real leaders dont have to create disease in your body and mind in order for you to listen to them as an authority. Real leaders earn your respect. They dont demand it.

My Dad is not a real leader. He is a psychopath who has taken advantage of people and created a cult of followers. I understand you all want to feel special. And you all are special, but your going about it all wrong. You dont need someone like my Dad to tell you that you are special in exchange for conforming to what everyone in his cult is like. You need someone who makes you feel special for being you unapologetically. If you conform your not being you. Therefore no one thinks you are actually special. You are just a good puppet and soldier.

I found a list of 50 things you need to beware and be aware of in a leader. Please think about the following things. You deserve to feel special. But you deserve to feel special for being you. Not for conforming to a cult that does not have your best interest in mind.

Excerpt from Dangerous Personalities

He has a grandiose idea of who he is and what he can achieve.

Is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, or brilliance.

Demands blind, unquestioned obedience.

Requires excessive admiration from followers and outsiders.

Has a sense of entitlement—expecting to be treated as special at all times.

Is exploitative of others by asking for their money or that of relatives, putting others at financial risk.

Is arrogant and haughty in his behavior or attitude.

Has an exaggerated sense of power (entitlement) that allows him to bend rules and break laws.

Takes sexual advantage of members of his sect or cult.

Sex is a requirement with adults and sub adults as part of a ritual or rite.

Is hypersensitive to how he is seen or perceived by others.

Publicly devalues others as being inferior, incapable, or not worthy.

Makes members confess their sins or faults, publicly subjecting them to ridicule or humiliation while revealing exploitable weaknesses of the penitent.

Has ignored the needs of others, including: biological, physical, emotional, and financial needs.

Is frequently boastful of accomplishments.

Needs to be the center of attention and does things to distract others to ensure that he or she is being noticed, e.g., by arriving late, using exotic clothing, overdramatic speech, or by making theatrical entrances.

Has insisted on always having the best of anything (house, car, jewelry, clothes) even when others are relegated to lesser facilities, amenities, or clothing.

Doesn’t seem to listen well to needs of others; communication is usually one-way, in the form of dictates.

Haughtiness, grandiosity, and the need to be controlling is part of his personality.

Behaves as though people are objects to be used, manipulated or exploited for personal gain.

When criticized he tends to lash out not just with anger but with rage.

Anyone who criticizes or questions him is called an “enemy.”

lievers as “the enemy.”

Acts imperious at times, not wishing to know what others think or desire.

Believes himself to be omnipotent.

Has “magical” answers or solutions to problems.

Is superficially charming.

Habitually puts down others as inferior; only he is superior.

Has a certain coldness or aloofness about him that makes others worry about who this person really is and or whether they really know him.

Is deeply offended when there are perceived signs of boredom, being ignored or of being slighted.

Treats others with contempt and arrogance.

Is constantly assessing people to determine those who are a threat or those who revere him.

The word “I” dominates his conversations. He is oblivious to how often he references himself.

Hates to be embarrassed or fail publicly; when he does he acts out with rage.

Doesn’t seem to feel guilty for anything he has done wrong nor does he apologize for his actions.

Believes he possesses the answers and solutions to world problems.

Believes himself to be a deity or a chosen representative of a deity.

“Rigid,” “unbending,” or “insensitive” describes how this person thinks.

Tries to control others in what they do, read, view, or think.

Has isolated members of his sect from contact with family or the outside world.

Monitors and/or restricts contact with family or outsiders.

Works the least but demands the most.

Has stated that he is “destined for greatness” or that he will be “martyred.”

Seems to be highly dependent on tribute and adoration and will often fish for compliments.

Uses enforcers or sycophants to ensure compliance from members or believers.

Sees self as “unstoppable” and perhaps has even said so.

Conceals background or family, which would disclose how plain or ordinary he is.

Doesn’t think there is anything wrong with himself and in fact sees himself as perfection or “blessed.”

Has taken away followers’ freedom to leave, to travel, to pursue life and liberty.

Has isolated the group physically (moved to a remote area) so as to not be observed.

Now do you all see through the actions of the wizard behind the curtain? It’s all smoke and mirrors. You are being held hostage by buying into my Dad having the answers you seek

Another quote from the internet:

Drinking the Kool-Aid” is an expression used to refer to a person who believes in a possibly doomed or dangerous idea because of perceived potential high rewards.

My Dad promises you all so many things he will never follow through with. Look at the world around you. No one has potential. No one has potential. We are biologically set up to be diseased not only so we dont fight back or have potential, but so we buy into his madness. Do you really want to live in a world where you never achieve your dreams? Do you want to live in a world where you drink the Koolaid instead of being appreciated for the individual you really are? Do you enjoy being lied to and lead astray even though there is rarely any follow through? It feels good in the moment, but what happens when that moment becomes your life and you never get anywhere?

I’m proof my Dad is not all he says he is. I am proof of so many things. I’m smarter than my Dad and he could never fully brain wash me. I have more power in the war games and I threaten him. If he was the great leader he claims to be, I would be no threat. If he was the great leader he claims to be, he would tell you all about what happened in the early 1980s in the middle east that made him quit the military and sit at home in pjs eating ice cream with me for months. He would tell you all about the mistakes he has made and how he grew from them. But my Dad claims to be a God. Humans are not Gods, we are human. You are human. You were meant to be an individual and make mistakes and learn from them and grow. It’s a beautiful experience. It’s called humanity. It’s the human experience. Please choose to be human with me and stop listening to anyone who claims to be a God. Humans are not Gods.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

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