Updated Version-News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

Updated Version- News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. My birthrights trump my Brother’s. I have 3, he has 1.
  2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection.
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin.
  5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness.
  6. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems.
  7. I started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join me. The People in Southern California are the last to get on board.
  8. My blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com outlines everything you need to know about the destruction and how to overcome it.
  9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger and getting over the Mexico border.
  10. I need your help finding a husband, because without a husband my birthrights mean nothing but a death sentence.
  11. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something(Dyslexic trigger). This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it(Autism/Asperger’s trigger). You have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?) You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Examples Of Epigenetic Triggers: Be Aware & Beware

  1. Tap water- has chlorine, heavy metals, etc
  2. Swimming pools-when you take your child to swimming lessons as a youngster that could create epigenetic triggers that last a lifetime if not addressed
  3. Plastic bags, tin foil, wax paper, parchment paper, tupperware
  4. All food-even raw meat has poisons added to it
  5. Bottled water-the water itself is poisoned and the bottle creates estrogen dominance thus cancer and makes your brain reinforce addictive behaviors more
  6. Plastic everything-plastic leads to cancer because it causes estrogen dominance
  7. Housing/Buildings-off gasses for it’s lifetime just to different degrees depending on the age
  8. Air-the air quality has been destroyed-all you have to do is breath to create a negative impact on your epigenetics
  9. Grass-the chemicals on grass damage your microbiome thus creating epigenetic triggers
  10. Immunizations-they contain heavy metals and antibiotics and many other things they do not have to disclose-after getting your child immunizations you need to do a heavy metal cleanse on them
  11. Soap & all body products-they go directly through your skin and into your bloodstream bypassing the liver and are filled with chemicals-Plus antibacterial products damage your microbiome greatly
  12. Laundry products-go straight through the skin into the bloodstream bypassing the liver
  13. Fruit-genetically modified so much it is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease
  14. Coffee-has fiber in it that is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease.
  15. GMO plants-genetically modified to create leaky gut to cause disease and malnutrition
  16. Chicken, Pork, & Seed Oils-cause inflammation and disease due to Omega 6 to Omega 3 ratio
  17. Asphalt/Roads- release chemicals into the environment and air
  18. Makeup-poison/chemicals that go straight through skin into bloodstream and bypass the liver
  19. Cleaning products-chemicals that cause cancer, but on a small scale before cancer they cause epigenetic triggers
  20. Cookware-adds more poison into your foods

There are many epigenetic triggers in our world and throughout the systems. We could go all day listing them. The everyday little decisions you are making are changing you on a gene level. You can allow them to make you better or worse, the decision is up to you.

You just have to be aware and know when to beware.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

The Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable and in our reptilian brains.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved. Oxytocin/love/bonding actually changes your epigenetics.

This genetic modification is greatly present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Sat 01/22 Morning In Santa Barbara

Well it is awful quite here in Santa Barbara this morning, but apparently Saturday is the new trash day. You all poisoned us enough to keep my little dog up puking all night. Maybe you all are closer to my family than you would like to admit because that didn’t even happen in Compton. But I am sure that will win you brownie points with my Brother.

So now that you are able to understand how my family cult is biologically changing you all to be more like them how do you feel? I am sure you always thought you would be able to escape their destruction somewhat. You all are the last bit of humanity left on the West coastline and Hwy 101. The last bit of humanity. Do you think they will allow that? See, I can relate I am the last person in my family with humanity. Look how they have warred on me, I am just a window into your future. It sucks to be the last and have the rest of the world counting on you, I can relate to that too. But what you decide to do with the information I gifted you all with will effect us all. Not only on the west coast, but the rest of the world. The world is in your hands, how does that feel? A bit heavy, huh? I can relate to that too. I so badly want to stick my head in the sand and forget all that I know, but there is a world of people out there just trying to survive and doing a shitty job at it and they are blaming themselves for what is happening to them. While at the same time they are loosing their ability to love and having a sub-human race of babies. It’s kind of a now or never time in history. Either we follow through with this revolution or we agree to being turned into monsters on a biological level.

I figured out why everything is all happening because the Scandinavians/Republicans in Santa Fe this summer allowed me the time and space to figure it out and then last fall you allowed me the time and space to figure the rest out. But now I need you all to think of the How because you are the only ones with power in the war games who have humanity on the west coast line. The west coastline and 1-5 is my Dad’s life work besides creating the systems of destruction. I helped you all gain back a couple territories in Oregon that he stole by killing his wives Kris and Brenda, but now I need you all down here to help me. California is always going to be the deciding factor because there are so many people down here and so much more money involved in the war games. The war games are a for profit event down here and there is no way anyone can deny it. I am not asking you all to give up money at all. Just use the power, money, and say you all have in the war games to make positive changes. Start small do what you can. But remember your biology and your children’s biology literally depend on you making changes, both to the war games systems and in your daily life.

I hope I was able to explain in a simple and non-complex manner how the destruction of the systems is not escapable. You cannot escape and I am sure in the past 20 years here you have seen people change and not for the better. This will just continue to happen and at an exponential speed. Everyday there will be some of you who loose your humanity and are unable to feel love. Once people are unable to feel love they are more willing to commit crimes against humanity without thinking and it is really hard to sell them on stepping away from the dark side.

The coast up in Oregon is just as dead as the people in Southern California. So it is up to you all. You all are our last hope. And I know you all know that the people you do business with on the coast line are a different brand of human than you all. Well, now you understand that is biologically true. They process Oxytocin dysfunctionally and that changes their epigenetics and mutates their children’s epigenetics. They literally are a different kind of human, a different species. They are going to take over if we do not do something. And you know how dark the world will be when that happens right?

I am not much use in changing the systems without a husband. But I can tell you and figure out a lot of stuff my family is doing. They have had countless scientists create these systems of destruction for them, but somehow I can see through what is happening when I look real hard. I am not sure how I am able to do this, but I am just grateful I am. This is my legacy. I may not be able to create great change on my own because of my gender, but I can ask you all to create the change that we all need.

Please stayed tuned in so we can stay in contact. I understand it is easier to just pretend I am dead, but please allow me to keep sharing information with you all even when I am back home in Oregon. I am going to keep doing my “radio show” nightly at 8pm as I make my way back home and get this information to the people along I5 where they need it. But please do the right thing and please stay tuned so when I figure out more you all can help me change the systems. Also, I will soon start telling you all how to overcome the destruction of the systems on a personal level. This is my expertise because this is how I have survived my whole life. I am confident in our ability to manifest health and remain whole hearted humans because I have done it. And I did not even realize the seriousness of the destruction I was overcoming. We can be revolutionary and work together. Maybe I can just be like a silent partner that you all take a little advice from, an advisor and researcher. I know the destruction because I have been surrounded by it and lived it my whole life. No one deserves to live like I have. You all have to power to help us all escape this destruction. Please use it.

Thank you for your time. And have a great weekend.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Santa Barbara We Meet Again Fri 01/21

Well, Santa Barbara we meet again. It has been awhile, a few months has changed everything, but never would I have guessed that driving back here would change everything again. I have always looked up to Republicans because they believe in potential and treat their children better. But now I know you all are into destruction just like my family, but you all are more narcissists so you don’t want to do it as much so things look better on the outside. You all dropped out of this war against me because you did not want to get your hands dirty, not because you are revolutionary. I had it all wrong. The guy who helped me figure out the Hispanic genocide here was not a victim, he was just embarrassed someone called him out on killing his own daughter with food. I said that one taboo thing that you all do not want to own up to. You want to believe you are better than my family and the South Americans but you all are just the same. Just because you allow things to look better on the outside does not mean your destruction does not count. Destruction is a slippery slope. When you allow yourself to be destroyed so that you can destroy another life can get messy real quick.

Not going to lie I went to Target and got some E meats and chips because what I learned today hurt. How much do you all know? Did you all help my Dad create the systems of destruction? I think you did, you just don’t believe in the sociopath version of destruction. I really thought you all were good people. I thought there were at least some good people in the world. And there are because there are so many people like me who were not in on your secrets of destruction. We are the good people and we probably still out number the rest of you all into destruction. My heart hurts. Do you understand what you are doing to us all? You understand the systems stealing our ability to process oxytocin correctly is what makes you all narcissists and pretty soon you all will be sociopaths just like my family right? Destruction never leads anywhere positive, no matter how much better you like to think you are.

My Dad’s wife Kris was a Scandinavian I think because she cooked healthier food, spent time with me, cared about my well being as much as was safe too, and got my Dad to buy me some nice clothes so I could feel good. She changed my life and I can never thank God enough for allowing her to be apart of my life because she helped even though it added to her own destruction I now understand. However, she too got me to do some things that were not good for. Everyone in my life sold me destruction so that I would think it was normal. They pretended to like things so I would like things and destroy myself. She saved me a little, but she still destroyed me because she felt like she had to. I do not believe that she was really into destruction. I am sure you all are a little, but she did not like to see her children suffer and did things to try to stop their suffering even if it was listen to them talk about their lives.

The destruction has to end. I hope you all know this. Unless you decide to end this way of being life will forever be like this. You will forever be destroyed by my family and look like the good guys, but really you all are the same. You are two peas in a pod, even though you do not want to admit it. I understand maybe you did drop out of the war against me because you have hope for change or maybe you just did not want to kill me yourself and get your hands dirty. But you all have had almost 300 days to get to know me and to hear me. Have you learned that I am a pretty smart logical person yet? You know I am right about the destruction of the world, right? Just because you teach your children not to eat much food does not mean that the food being poison doesn’t effect them. I do not know what to say other than please listen to your hearts. You all still have more of a heart than my family cult does because you all are narcissists and not sociopaths. You want things to look good, but what if things were actually good and we did not have to pretend. Wouldn’t that be even better than just having to make things look good?

Sometimes I wish I had known about the war games and had the opportunity to turn to the dark side because it would have made my life a lot easier. But you know I am still very blessed to have gotten to grow up and live sheltered. If I had known about all the destruction of the world I would be so different. I would be jaded like you all and I even have experienced so much more personal hardship than most of you.(its not a competition, but you know) My life has been hard by design and I still want to believe that people are good and will make the right decision when given the chance. Well, this is your chance. You all out number the South Americans and the Aryans who are fighting this war for my family. You all greatly out number them. Help me change the world to not only look good but to be good. You know we can do it. All it would take is some efforts. There is a whole world of people out there that did not know about the war games who have been destroyed their whole lives who are waiting for someone to do the right thing. I know you all want to do the right thing, but will you is the question? Will you all help me change the world? I represent that upper hand you all have always been looking for, you know right? Help me change the world and change yourselves at the same time. Please do the right thing for all of us who have been pawns in your war games with my family. We have so much to offer besides being pawns and we would love to share it with the world. A world that does not wish to destroy us. We want to heal and we want you all to heal with us. This is your chance to do the right thing because you can only do the wrong thing for so long before it catches up to you.

Think about it and tune into my news update tonight at 8pm. I have learned a lot about the war you all have created. I am pretty sure you are not all in the know about all the things you have agreed to when you take part in destruction with my family cult. See they are way more into destruction and will destroy themselves. They don’t care if things look good or are good. They are destroying you all by association, just like they are destroying all of us pawns.

I look forward to “seeing” you tonight. Thank you for your time and I still love you all. You have heart and that is what life is all about!

Nicole Graves

The Next Few Months Are Going To Be The Hardest of My Life-San Bernadino 01/20

Well, I realized that the insurance job I got is just a way to destroy me. The pattern interupts and complications of things have already started. I did not quite understand what was happening because I have been focusing on my revolution. But now I get it. Tonight it all became clear. They are setting me up for failure. Which is not anything new, but it is just frustrating now. I have always had to be twice as good at the least. And I can continue to do that, but I don’t have to like it. I am so not looking forward to the cold up in Oregon. I am not sure what poison causes me to not like the cold, but it is something that they have done to me since I was a child. I used to cry when I was cold as a child and then up in Portland A1 did the same kind of poison to me. This is why I moved to the desert. I hate the cold, it hurts literally. I am a little better at handling the cold after living in the death camp because I had to be because I would not use my heat and I slept with the windows open even in the winter. But boy oh boy I am not looking forward to it. In a couple months it will be warmer and a non issue though. My family tried to sweat me out in Santa Fe this summer and now they are going to try to freeze me in Oregon. It just makes me mad, but if I get mad I get reactive. So I just have to remain calm and remember I have done this my whole life and focus on my work. Sales is what I am good at. I just have to close in one call, because I am sure it will be like last time when I got an insurance job in Oregon where they tell people not to buy from me or else if I don’t close in the same day. I think they told people not to buy from me in real estate in Arizona, but I just did not give up and found them the perfect homes.

They will poison me greatly at night so I am sleep deprived, they will poison my food, they will poison my showers at the gym I am sure(I hope this is against the rules, but it has been happening for years now), they will poison my clothes, they will poison my dogs, etc. I will be surrounded by poison, but this is how I have lived my whole life I just have to remember. Nothing has changed now I just understand what is happening and that I am being set up to fail and I just have to succeed. I don’t think I will be taking my dogs to the dentist any time soon. oooyyyeee! The realizations are here, but I guess I had just hoped something would change in my life. Nothing has changed except they have gotten me to go back to Oregon again. They lure me back because they know I can’t stay gone forever and they won’t let me get a job elsewhere. I tried over the summer to stay in Santa Fe and I had no luck. I have tried over and over to find a broker in Arizona again. They just want me to be without options and anxious and broken. They want me to give up and be in pain like them.

Well, I am going to need you all to vent to and support me. I don’t have anyone else. We can talk healing and health, but sometimes I am just going to need to vent like in this moment. It is what it is, I am just lucky I have you all this time. When I was at the death camp I was so alone, I wish I had understood how to use this thing in my head and that I wasn’t really alone. However, now I know so I just need you all to know that I will need you all. You all are all I have. That sounds super needy. I hate being needy, but I am human too and they war on everyone’s humanity. I am no different than you. They are just mad I am not sick and helpless. In two months it will warm up in Oregon and life will be better. I can handle a lot in two months. I just have to succeed and be a sales machine and stay warm. Seems simple enough right? I mean I sold almost the whole west coast on being revolutionary I should be able to sell some insurance in one phone call. I know I can do it, it is just going to be hard. I just have to put in the time and there will be heat at the office and I can take my dogs to work with me so we will just have to work a lot and do the best we can. Life without a safety net is hard, but there never really was a safety net for me, destruction by the ones you love is not safety it is destruction. I am human and I do wish I had someone in my family who loved me. I have never been loved by anyone but my dogs. I was never supposed to know love but A1 broke the rules and got me dogs to keep me manageable. Knowing love has changed me so much, it was and is worth being more manageable over. Never would I have thought that love could change everything so much. They improved my gut bacteria and my epigenetics. They are magical little creatures. I would move mountains for them. I healed cancer so I would not leave them with no one to take care of them. Well, and I knew I had not accomplished my purpose in life. Life is all about feeling the fear and doing it anyway. I am scared to go home, but there is no other option. My Mom told me she is making my room there into her craft room and selling my bed. Well, at least she told me she may give me some of the money from selling my bed. Honestly, I do not think I could ever sleep in it anyway, It has been years since I have been able to sleep in it and it required high dose anxiety pills to do so. I wish so badly my Mom could play fair, but she never will. I wish my Brother had to play fair. But who is going to make them right? No one will stand up to them. Especially when they offer gifts of great privilege for destroying me. I wonder what the insurance guy is getting out of this deal. I bet it is something he has always wanted career wise. They have a way of motivating people for destruction. It is interesting and yet not, it is simple.

So they are going to play the pattern interupt game and not allow me to enjoy any kind of comfort or security. But this is what they have done for years. And in a couple months it will be warmer in Oregon and that will be a brand of security that they cannot take away. I love the Spring time there it is beautiful even though it is wet and maybe I can go camping more at the lakes and rivers this spring just to get out in nature. There are always things that I can find to enjoy I just have to keep my head up and stay positive. And I may need to get a big sweater or a North Face. Something warm. I am not looking forward to concentration camp showers everyday and having to look like I am not being destroyed. I hate pretending and I hate having to covertly live a double life. Smiling and pretending to be okay when I am not is the worst punishment I have had to deal with my whole life. But that is why I am good at sales, my whole life has just been a show. None of it has been real. My writings are the only things that have ever been real. The rest has all been a show.

People ask me how I am doing and I say well because that is what I was trained to do I don’t even feel the pain much any more. It is not worth it. Plus, I can feel the pain of their lives. They would not want to enjoy my pain unless they were in pain themselves. In this kind of society and lifestyle everyone has a painful life, some just look better than others. I can feel others soul’s and see their epigenetics no matter how mean to me they are I can see their pain. It is sad, because I wonder if they see my pain or if they are just projecting their pain onto me so they don’t have to feel it as their own.

Pain is a crazy thing. It makes people act out in so many ways and that is what my family cult wants. They want people to lash out against one another and be evil. That is how they get you to loose your humanity and push it deep down never to be found again. You can only deny your humanity so long before you loose it.

I am going to embrace my humanity and just keep doing the best I can. It is all I know and the only choice I have. Thank you for listening to me vent.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Eastvale 01/20 Do You Know How Rare I am?

Do you all know how rare I am? I still have a hard time seeing myself who I really am because I was told I was so many things other than what I really am my whole life. However, when I see you all look at me I get an idea that I am a lot bigger deal than I ever could imagine. Crazy, huh? You all have understood who I am more than me my whole life. Well, at least in the birthright and war games perspective. I am just a human and I have so many different interests and hobbies and quirks that I have had time to indulge in because I did not take part in the war games. So, in reality I am the one who knows myself and you all are the ones missing out because you value this covert war more than yourself. It still blows my mind.

I thought the answer was my Mom because she was the only one who stood up to my Dad and Brother. But the answer is not my Mom. I am the answer you all have been seeking for a lifetime. I am the key to getting to value yourself above the war games. Crazy how one person can change the world, huh? I may not be a man so my birthrights don’t really count right now, but I still changed the world. I refuse to be told who and what I can be because that is what my family has done to me for a lifetime in order to keep me small and manageable. They were greedy enough to create me with more birthrights than I know what to do with. I have more power in my birthrights than my Dad, well if I had a penis.

So here we all are at this turning point in our lives. What are we going to do is the real question? I will be honest, I don’t know. But I will tell you what I do know: the world needs to change, we need to get healthy, and we need to stop destroying each other. In order for any of those things to happen you all need to stop signing up to destroy me. I have been through so many towns and cities spreading awareness the past 290ish days and countless people have signed up to gang stalk me to earn privilege.

Maybe at first it was a bit excusable because people did not know about the information I had to share. They did not know my intentions. However, I have finally gotten through to the people in San Diego and LA. They know why I am here. Plus, before I even made my way down here I got the Scandinavians, SS soldiers, fancy families, a sub-group of Aryans, and the military to stop fighting this war for my family. I have worked my way through almost every subgroup of people. The military was one group I never believed I would be able to convince, but they have been with me since Hispanic genocide in Santa Barbara.

It has taken me a long time to figure this out, most of my life I have wondered and studied why people are the way they are. And honestly I do not know if I am any closer to understanding now than I was in my early 20’s. I can tell you a lot of fancy things to describe why they do what they do and how to label it, but I still cannot understand why people are so afraid to follow their hearts and do what they know to be right. Can you explain that to me? I don’t think I will find the answer in a book. Honestly, I think it is just an emotional response that is dictated by the reptilian brain.

I do not judge you all, I do not feel like I had much of a choice to do the wrong thing. I have always just wanted to make people smile and feel good. I am sure you all can relate to that too. We want to make others happy because it feels good. When do people buy into destruction is my question? I have been greatly destroyed my whole life and no amount of destroying another will make me feel better about that. Two wrongs do not make a right, no matter what my family says. You know they are the ones who taught me two wrongs do not make a right, because they never wanted me to fight back and get even for the things they have done to me. I am their creation. Literally a creation that was genetically modified to be a super soldier and when they could not control me they put a chip in my head and gave me head trauma. And it still did not work, because I have used that chip in my head to connect with you all. I have used all the trauma they have given me to make myself better. You can let things make you better or you can get bitter. Don’t get me wrong it is not easy, but it is simple.

My whole point is I am a fluke. I am a creation that went awry on my family. There will never be another one like me. They will make sure of it. No one else in my family has empathy or humanity or has cultivated their soul like I have. No one else is human. Are you all going to help me spread awareness about the blessing I can be to all of us or are you going to be just another trauma I have to use to make me a better person? I want us all to have a better quality of life together, but I can’t do that without your help. Each and every one of you matter and I need Your help. I need you to reach down in your heart of hearts and choose to do the right thing because YOU Deserve more than this. You deserve a better life. Until you believe this we can’t go far because I need you all to be on board with getting what we all deserve.

Thank you for your time and Love Always

Nicole Graves

Updated Version-News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

Updated Version- News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. My birthrights trump my Brother’s. I have 3, he has 1.
  2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection.
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin.
  5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness.
  6. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems.
  7. I started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join me. The People in Southern California are the last to get on board.
  8. My blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com outlines everything you need to know about the destruction and how to overcome it.
  9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger and getting over the Mexico border.
  10. I need your help finding a husband, because without a husband my birthrights mean nothing but a death sentence.
  11. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something(Dyslexic trigger). This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it(Autism/Asperger’s trigger). You have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?) You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Examples Of Epigenetic Triggers: Be Aware & Beware

  1. Tap water- has chlorine, heavy metals, etc
  2. Swimming pools-when you take your child to swimming lessons as a youngster that could create epigenetic triggers that last a lifetime if not addressed
  3. Plastic bags, tin foil, wax paper, parchment paper, tupperware
  4. All food-even raw meat has poisons added to it
  5. Bottled water-the water itself is poisoned and the bottle creates estrogen dominance thus cancer and makes your brain reinforce addictive behaviors more
  6. Plastic everything-plastic leads to cancer because it causes estrogen dominance
  7. Housing/Buildings-off gasses for it’s lifetime just to different degrees depending on the age
  8. Air-the air quality has been destroyed-all you have to do is breath to create a negative impact on your epigenetics
  9. Grass-the chemicals on grass damage your microbiome thus creating epigenetic triggers
  10. Immunizations-they contain heavy metals and antibiotics and many other things they do not have to disclose-after getting your child immunizations you need to do a heavy metal cleanse on them
  11. Soap & all body products-they go directly through your skin and into your bloodstream bypassing the liver and are filled with chemicals-Plus antibacterial products damage your microbiome greatly
  12. Laundry products-go straight through the skin into the bloodstream bypassing the liver
  13. Fruit-genetically modified so much it is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease
  14. Coffee-has fiber in it that is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease.
  15. GMO plants-genetically modified to create leaky gut to cause disease and malnutrition
  16. Chicken, Pork, & Seed Oils-cause inflammation and disease due to Omega 6 to Omega 3 ratio
  17. Asphalt/Roads- release chemicals into the environment and air
  18. Makeup-poison/chemicals that go straight through skin into bloodstream and bypass the liver
  19. Cleaning products-chemicals that cause cancer, but on a small scale before cancer they cause epigenetic triggers
  20. Cookware-adds more poison into your foods

There are many epigenetic triggers in our world and throughout the systems. We could go all day listing them. The everyday little decisions you are making are changing you on a gene level. You can allow them to make you better or worse, the decision is up to you.

You just have to be aware and know when to beware.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

The Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable and in our reptilian brains.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved. Oxytocin/love/bonding actually changes your epigenetics.

This genetic modification is greatly present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Updated Version-News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

Updated Version- News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. My birthrights trump my Brother’s. I have 3, he has 1.
  2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection.
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin.
  5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness.
  6. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems.
  7. I started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join me. The People in Southern California are the last to get on board.
  8. My blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com outlines everything you need to know about the destruction and how to overcome it.
  9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger and getting over the Mexico border.
  10. I need your help finding a husband, because without a husband my birthrights mean nothing but a death sentence.
  11. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something(Dyslexic trigger). This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it(Autism/Asperger’s trigger). You have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?) You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Examples Of Epigenetic Triggers: Be Aware & Beware

  1. Tap water- has chlorine, heavy metals, etc
  2. Swimming pools-when you take your child to swimming lessons as a youngster that could create epigenetic triggers that last a lifetime if not addressed
  3. Plastic bags, tin foil, wax paper, parchment paper, tupperware
  4. All food-even raw meat has poisons added to it
  5. Bottled water-the water itself is poisoned and the bottle creates estrogen dominance thus cancer and makes your brain reinforce addictive behaviors more
  6. Plastic everything-plastic leads to cancer because it causes estrogen dominance
  7. Housing/Buildings-off gasses for it’s lifetime just to different degrees depending on the age
  8. Air-the air quality has been destroyed-all you have to do is breath to create a negative impact on your epigenetics
  9. Grass-the chemicals on grass damage your microbiome thus creating epigenetic triggers
  10. Immunizations-they contain heavy metals and antibiotics and many other things they do not have to disclose-after getting your child immunizations you need to do a heavy metal cleanse on them
  11. Soap & all body products-they go directly through your skin and into your bloodstream bypassing the liver and are filled with chemicals-Plus antibacterial products damage your microbiome greatly
  12. Laundry products-go straight through the skin into the bloodstream bypassing the liver
  13. Fruit-genetically modified so much it is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease
  14. Coffee-has fiber in it that is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease.
  15. GMO plants-genetically modified to create leaky gut to cause disease and malnutrition
  16. Chicken, Pork, & Seed Oils-cause inflammation and disease due to Omega 6 to Omega 3 ratio
  17. Asphalt/Roads- release chemicals into the environment and air
  18. Makeup-poison/chemicals that go straight through skin into bloodstream and bypass the liver
  19. Cleaning products-chemicals that cause cancer, but on a small scale before cancer they cause epigenetic triggers
  20. Cookware-adds more poison into your foods

There are many epigenetic triggers in our world and throughout the systems. We could go all day listing them. The everyday little decisions you are making are changing you on a gene level. You can allow them to make you better or worse, the decision is up to you.

You just have to be aware and know when to beware.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

The Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable and in our reptilian brains.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved. Oxytocin/love/bonding actually changes your epigenetics.

This genetic modification is greatly present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Updated Version News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

Updated Version- News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. My birthrights trump my Brother’s. I have 3, he has 1.
  2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection.
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin.
  5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness.
  6. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems.
  7. I started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join me. The People in Southern California are the last to get on board.
  8. My blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com outlines everything you need to know about the destruction and how to overcome it.
  9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger and getting over the Mexico border.
  10. I need your help finding a husband, because without a husband my birthrights mean nothing but a death sentence.
  11. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something(Dyslexic trigger). This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it(Autism/Asperger’s trigger). You have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?) You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Examples Of Epigenetic Triggers: Be Aware & Beware

  1. Tap water- has chlorine, heavy metals, etc
  2. Swimming pools-when you take your child to swimming lessons as a youngster that could create epigenetic triggers that last a lifetime if not addressed
  3. Plastic bags, tin foil, wax paper, parchment paper, tupperware
  4. All food-even raw meat has poisons added to it
  5. Bottled water-the water itself is poisoned and the bottle creates estrogen dominance thus cancer and makes your brain reinforce addictive behaviors more
  6. Plastic everything-plastic leads to cancer because it causes estrogen dominance
  7. Housing/Buildings-off gasses for it’s lifetime just to different degrees depending on the age
  8. Air-the air quality has been destroyed-all you have to do is breath to create a negative impact on your epigenetics
  9. Grass-the chemicals on grass damage your microbiome thus creating epigenetic triggers
  10. Immunizations-they contain heavy metals and antibiotics and many other things they do not have to disclose-after getting your child immunizations you need to do a heavy metal cleanse on them
  11. Soap & all body products-they go directly through your skin and into your bloodstream bypassing the liver and are filled with chemicals-Plus antibacterial products damage your microbiome greatly
  12. Laundry products-go straight through the skin into the bloodstream bypassing the liver
  13. Fruit-genetically modified so much it is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease
  14. Coffee-has fiber in it that is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease.
  15. GMO plants-genetically modified to create leaky gut to cause disease and malnutrition
  16. Chicken, Pork, & Seed Oils-cause inflammation and disease due to Omega 6 to Omega 3 ratio
  17. Asphalt/Roads- release chemicals into the environment and air
  18. Makeup-poison/chemicals that go straight through skin into bloodstream and bypass the liver
  19. Cleaning products-chemicals that cause cancer, but on a small scale before cancer they cause epigenetic triggers
  20. Cookware-adds more poison into your foods

There are many epigenetic triggers in our world and throughout the systems. We could go all day listing them. The everyday little decisions you are making are changing you on a gene level. You can allow them to make you better or worse, the decision is up to you.

You just have to be aware and know when to beware.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

The Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable and in our reptilian brains.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved. Oxytocin/love/bonding actually changes your epigenetics.

This genetic modification is greatly present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Updated News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

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Updated Version- News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. My birthrights trump my Brother’s. I have 3, he has 1.
  2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection.
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin.
  5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness.
  6. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems.
  7. I started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join me. The People in Southern California are the last to get on board.
  8. My blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com outlines everything you need to know about the destruction and how to overcome it.
  9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger and getting over the Mexico border.
  10. I need your help finding a husband, because without a husband my birthrights mean nothing but a death sentence.
  11. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something(Dyslexic trigger). This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it(Autism/Asperger’s trigger). You have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?) You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Examples Of Epigenetic Triggers: Be Aware & Beware

  1. Tap water- has chlorine, heavy metals, etc
  2. Swimming pools-when you take your child to swimming lessons as a youngster that could create epigenetic triggers that last a lifetime if not addressed
  3. Plastic bags, tin foil, wax paper, parchment paper, tupperware
  4. All food-even raw meat has poisons added to it
  5. Bottled water-the water itself is poisoned and the bottle creates estrogen dominance thus cancer and makes your brain reinforce addictive behaviors more
  6. Plastic everything-plastic leads to cancer because it causes estrogen dominance
  7. Housing/Buildings-off gasses for it’s lifetime just to different degrees depending on the age
  8. Air-the air quality has been destroyed-all you have to do is breath to create a negative impact on your epigenetics
  9. Grass-the chemicals on grass damage your microbiome thus creating epigenetic triggers
  10. Immunizations-they contain heavy metals and antibiotics and many other things they do not have to disclose-after getting your child immunizations you need to do a heavy metal cleanse on them
  11. Soap & all body products-they go directly through your skin and into your bloodstream bypassing the liver and are filled with chemicals-Plus antibacterial products damage your microbiome greatly
  12. Laundry products-go straight through the skin into the bloodstream bypassing the liver
  13. Fruit-genetically modified so much it is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease
  14. Coffee-has fiber in it that is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease.
  15. GMO plants-genetically modified to create leaky gut to cause disease and malnutrition
  16. Chicken, Pork, & Seed Oils-cause inflammation and disease due to Omega 6 to Omega 3 ratio
  17. Asphalt/Roads- release chemicals into the environment and air
  18. Makeup-poison/chemicals that go straight through skin into bloodstream and bypass the liver
  19. Cleaning products-chemicals that cause cancer, but on a small scale before cancer they cause epigenetic triggers
  20. Cookware-adds more poison into your foods

There are many epigenetic triggers in our world and throughout the systems. We could go all day listing them. The everyday little decisions you are making are changing you on a gene level. You can allow them to make you better or worse, the decision is up to you.

You just have to be aware and know when to beware.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

The Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable and in our reptilian brains.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved. Oxytocin/love/bonding actually changes your epigenetics.

This genetic modification is greatly present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Greater La Area-Tues Jan 18th 2021 Dinner in North Pasadena

Today I started in Compton/Lynwood and worked my way towards Long Beach area through Downey and quite a few other areas. I lost track honestly I get lost here. But hello to all who are new and thank you for hearing me today. Let me recap for those of you who are new.

  1. My birthrights trump my Brother’s. I am 2nd on both the Graves and Kudearoff sides of the family and I am my father’s first born.
  2. Learned helplessness is a systemic candida infection
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Italian, Black, and Asian people(basically all people) using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems change the way you process oxytocin so they can hijack your humanity and steal your ability to feel love and so you will commit more crimes against humanity easier
  5. There is an epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, and all chronic illnesses
  6. The systems are set up to make us all fail, no matter how much privilege you have you are going to be destroyed. Even my father could not escape and is dying from his systems of destruction now in Oregon. He has colon cancer.
  7. I started this revolution in March you need to join me
  8. My blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com explains everything, my family blocks it sometimes so try a couple times
  9. I need your help spreading awareness I am having a real hard time getting to the younger generation, like 90s babies and younger. These kids are the ones who support my Brother blindly and have no clue what the world was like before it went dark in the mid 1980s
  10. I need your help finding a husband. I just figured out the war games and my birthrights last year and am still figuring out stuff. I build as I fly in this revolution. I have to go back up to Oregon soon to go back to work so this is my last hoorah so to speak in LA. Southern California is the last to get on board with my revolution. I have the rest of the west coast with me you all are just a tough crowd. It is hard to read you all because you process oxytocin so dysfunctionally and have more epigenetic triggers and gene mutations than we do up north. But you can heal if you want to, it is up to you all.

So let me start with I sorry to dump this all on you at once. I have spent the last year figuring out this war. But I have spent my whole life being destroyed by it. So, I know what everyone needs to do in order to not only survive, but thrive. See my parents like to tell people I am “special” but really I have Asperger’s genius. I am smarter than them and they do not like that I did not end up to be their super soldier like they wanted to create. See I am the Autism/Asperger’s genetic modification that they did not run with. Most of you all especially 1985 and later have the Dyslexic genetic modification. This enables you to think about how you will do something rather than question why you are doing something. Life is all about the why, but you have been breed and condtioned to never ask the why. It is not your fault, but you do not have to follow suit like they want you to.

I always wonder how many people I have gotten to today and I always wonder how many will I have to get to in order to make the scales slide in my favor. I do not need you to do much just be covertly revolutionary and spread awareness, take care of yourselves better, and stop fighting the war games against me. Honestly, it would be nice if you all just dropped out of the war games completely. I have worked my way through so many groups of people geting them to drop out. The ss soliders, fancy families, and the Scandinavians were the first groups who choose me and I cannot thank them enough. I even got the military to stop fighting this war against me for my family. Yes, the military is apart of my revolution, crazy huh? I never thought that would possible. I spent months this summer in Santa Fe to avoid the military so it was a blessing when they dropped out when I was in Santa Barbara this fall. I have been all over the west coast and southwest in the past year. I have never driven this many miles in my whole life. I never really liked driving, but it is kind of growing on me.

I am at Ralph’s in North Pasadena and they poisoned my food with E and the people here have been poisoning me too. I hope you all can stop soon. I have been high for years, but the past few months have been bad. Ever since I figured out the epigenetic triggers in San Fran they have well my brother has been using air traffic with E gases. What a trip and honestly it is like being at disney land for too long it just gets old and looses its glitz and glammor . A lot of things are like that tho.

I am just rambling because I am high. Tonight at 8pm I am going to go over the destruction of the systems and read you all some of my blog posts to explain how everything is killing and enslaving you.

Basically my family is creating a slave race and new species of human with all the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations and the destruction of the systems. It’s intense, but it is survivable if you do not follow social norms all the time and take care of yourselves better.

I hope you all get everyone to tune in tonight at 8pm California time. This way I can tell everyone what is happening. Especially the 90s generation and the young ones. They have been hit the hardest by the epigenetic triggers and such so they need to know the most. They have a short life expectancy than their parents you know, its crazy! Why does no one talk about these things?

Talk soon and please stop poisoning me

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Good Morning Eastern Greater LA 01/20

Good Morning Greater East LA, I am near Riverside well west of it on I60(Eastvail). Near corona and ponoma I think. It smells like cattle here. The people here had such a great fear response, but I was here a few days ago when I made my way up here from San Diego. I had a really interesting experience last night I need to talk through with you all to figure out.

So last night I parked in a cul de sac because this keeps me safe from my family cult sending cars to poison me by driving by and just being annoying. This week since I have started my “radio show” they have been extra vicious with the poison and the E and limiting my access to fatty meat. 85% ground beef was the best I could find yesterday. They know this spikes my insulin and does not fill me up and does not allow for me to absorb much nutrition. They are trying to starve me just like they do to you all, but this is nothing new. You need to eat more fat and you will be able to do everything better. Coconut oil helps kill off candida and eliminate learned helplessness.

So last night cul de sac for safety and this guy comes out of his house and knocks on my Jeep and his cortisol is through the roof. I understand people see me and they fear my family, but in the overt world I am just a lady traveling with her two dogs. I am not a threat. However, this guy threw a fit. He did not try to talk to me like a human being he tried to throw his weight around and threaten me. He had fatty liver and slight side of estrogen dominance and it was clear he was from a fancy family in the war games. However, his fear was of himself. He was afraid of facing himself. He was afraid of being accountable for what he had done. He was not afraid of me. When you have fatty liver you have problems with anger and outbursts because in Chinese medicine anger is associated with your liver. So we all need to work on addressing the things in life that have made us angry and resolve them so that we do not dump our anger onto others where it does not belong.

The point I guess is that just because you avoid facing who you are does not make it go away. This war is a covert war, but it is overtly in your house everyday in more ways than you can count. Guys like this Aryan just want to stick their head in the sand and forget that they are apart of the problem by birthright. They want to look at themselves as victims, when they perpetuate the cycle by not addressing the issues at hand. His actions show he will forever keep his head in the sand in order to ease his own pain, but that will only excentuate the pain of his children and grandchildren. There has to be a time when we say enough is enough. I am not saying he had to let me park there, but he did not have to go out of his way to harrass or yell or be rude or harsh. He could have just covertly left me and ignored me. Instead he would rather ignore the war we are in and the pain of everyone to ease his own pain.

The Aryans are an interesting bunch I really do not understand them much. They are the ones who are left standing between us and freedom to overtly change the systems. They and their morally flexible ethnic friends are the ones left gang stalking me when all is said and done and everyone is in the know. They have known about the genocides of the world and they have chosen to ease their own pain rather than do the right thing. Which is what a lot of people have done. But this is what allowed the genocide of world war two to happen. This is what allowed my family to come into power. This is the root cause of this whole mess. We need to address the root cause in order to resolve this all.

The Scandinavians dropped out of this war against me and have chosen to be revolutionary. Not until last night and feeling that angry guy’s pain and anxiety and anger did I understand how revolutionary that really was. But it is possible. The Aryans could drop out of the war against me and be revolutionary for all of us, but what is it going to take to convince them to do so? How much more pain are they going to have to experience and create in the world until they realize enough is enough? iI am not sure the answer, but maybe one of you all know and you can talk to them. I have helped return two territories to the Aryans up North that were wrongly taken from them and there are a group of the Aryans that have chosen to be revolutionary. It seems to be this one group who chooses to hold onto fear and hold us all back. Them being unable to see what is really happening is literally holding us all back. Maybe you all could talk to them, or maybe they could have a meeting like the Scandinavians and work things out amongst themselves because without their help we will be swimming upstream. Without their help I will face daily attempted murder, especially when I go back up to Oregon. We need them to be revolutionary and I don’t know what to say to them to get them to understand that.

Love Always and thank you for your time

Nicole Graves

Good Morning Eastern Greater LA-Thur Jan 20th

Good Morning Greater East LA, I am near Riverside well west of it on I60(Eastvail). Near corona and ponoma I think. It smells like cattle here. The people here had such a great fear response, but I was here a few days ago when I made my way up here from San Diego. I had a really interesting experience last night I need to talk through with you all to figure out.

So last night I parked in a cul de sac because this keeps me safe from my family cult sending cars to poison me by driving by and just being annoying. This week since I have started my “radio show” they have been extra vicious with the poison and the E and limiting my access to fatty meat. 85% ground beef was the best I could find yesterday. They know this spikes my insulin and does not fill me up and does not allow for me to absorb much nutrition. They are trying to starve me just like they do to you all, but this is nothing new. You need to eat more fat and you will be able to do everything better. Coconut oil helps kill off candida and eliminate learned helplessness.

So last night cul de sac for safety and this guy comes out of his house and knocks on my Jeep and his cortisol is through the roof. I understand people see me and they fear my family, but in the overt world I am just a lady traveling with her two dogs. I am not a threat. However, this guy threw a fit. He did not try to talk to me like a human being he tried to throw his weight around and threaten me. He had fatty liver and slight side of estrogen dominance and it was clear he was from a fancy family in the war games. However, his fear was of himself. He was afraid of facing himself. He was afraid of being accountable for what he had done. He was not afraid of me. When you have fatty liver you have problems with anger and outbursts because in Chinese medicine anger is associated with your liver. So we all need to work on addressing the things in life that have made us angry and resolve them so that we do not dump our anger onto others where it does not belong.

The point I guess is that just because you avoid facing who you are does not make it go away. This war is a covert war, but it is overtly in your house everyday in more ways than you can count. Guys like this Aryan just want to stick their head in the sand and forget that they are apart of the problem by birthright. They want to look at themselves as victims, when they perpetuate the cycle by not addressing the issues at hand. His actions show he will forever keep his head in the sand in order to ease his own pain, but that will only excentuate the pain of his children and grandchildren. There has to be a time when we say enough is enough. I am not saying he had to let me park there, but he did not have to go out of his way to harrass or yell or be rude or harsh. He could have just covertly left me and ignored me. Instead he would rather ignore the war we are in and the pain of everyone to ease his own pain.

The Aryans are an interesting bunch I really do not understand them much. They are the ones who are left standing between us and freedom to overtly change the systems. They and their morally flexible ethnic friends are the ones left gang stalking me when all is said and done and everyone is in the know. They have known about the genocides of the world and they have chosen to ease their own pain rather than do the right thing. Which is what a lot of people have done. But this is what allowed the genocide of world war two to happen. This is what allowed my family to come into power. This is the root cause of this whole mess. We need to address the root cause in order to resolve this all.

The Scandinavians dropped out of this war against me and have chosen to be revolutionary. Not until last night and feeling that angry guy’s pain and anxiety and anger did I understand how revolutionary that really was. But it is possible. The Aryans could drop out of the war against me and be revolutionary for all of us, but what is it going to take to convince them to do so? How much more pain are they going to have to experience and create in the world until they realize enough is enough? iI am not sure the answer, but maybe one of you all know and you can talk to them. I have helped return two territories to the Aryans up North that were wrongly taken from them and there are a group of the Aryans that have chosen to be revolutionary. It seems to be this one group who chooses to hold onto fear and hold us all back. Them being unable to see what is really happening is literally holding us all back. Maybe you all could talk to them, or maybe they could have a meeting like the Scandinavians and work things out amongst themselves because without their help we will be swimming upstream. Without their help I will face daily attempted murder, especially when I go back up to Oregon. We need them to be revolutionary and I don’t know what to say to them to get them to understand that.

Love Always and thank you for your time

Nicole Graves

Dear Los Angeles, I Am In City Limits 01/19

I am in the city limits of Los Angeles, but I see you all have been tuning in already. Thank you so much for hearing me and understanding the situation we are all in. I got baby wipes from the Dollar Tree with the same amount of poison on them as everyone else. That is kind of magical you know. I just needed to wipe down the inside of my Jeep a bit. The little things in life are what them worthwhile and I need to work on being more clean, I have made a pretty big mess this year. But sometimes changing the world is messy.

Tonight, I will continue to educate you all on the destruction of the systems so you can overcome it. It really is not as difficult as it feels right in this moment. In this moment you all are just a bit overwhelmed. It gets easier. I can relate I just learned about the war games last year so it is overwhelming. If you were not overwhelmed I would wonder what was wrong with you that you could digest this all as being normal. Humanity is an interesting thing.

There still are some people poisoning and playing in the war against me. But you know I suppose either they have not heard the news yet or this is just the person they want to be. If they choose destruction as the best life they are capable of that is their loss. But I just want a good life and now I am so blessed and grateful that you all do too.

I offically accepted the insurance job up in Oregon and will start on the first. I hope by the time I get up there everyone knows what is happening. I would be excited about this opportunity but I don’t know how hard my family/brother is going to be able to ruin my chances for success there. I am grateful though. I celebrated by cleaning up the Jeep a bit. I need to get it back together if I am going to go back to pretending I am not being destroyed. This is what we all do everyday you know. Because everyday the systems are trying to destroy us all and we are just trying to carry on like nothing is happening. That is what we have been conditioned to do. This is a skill I need to work on. I took the past few years and stopped pretending. Between cancer and the death camp and just everything I stopped trying. I have to admit I am scared to try again. It is just so much easier to not fight the destruction with trying to appear normal. How much will they destroy me back in Oregon is always the question? How many people up there know? How many people here in Greater LA know? Will I ever be able to reach all the people? How many people is enough? There are always so many questions in my mind.

Today, I am going to celebrate though. Not with seeking comforts outside myself, but with cleaning up a bit and just being so grateful I was finally able to reach you all. 290ish days and I finally found the right words and way to get to you all. Almost 10 months of just plain war. I am not sure how to process it all. It feels so surreal to me. My life feels so surreal, it has all been a lie until the past 10 months. The past 10 months I have gotten to live my truth. But now I have to go back to pretending to be a normal person without a crippling birthright. Let’s see what this new adventure is like. I am going to take you all with me though because I need the company and we have a lot to learn to overcome the war zone we all live in.

See you all tonight at 8pm!

Love Always and Thank you

Nicole Graves

The Morning After My First “Radio Show”

Blog Post on www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Radio Show Episode #1 Introduction To The Destruction

Last night, I did my first “radio show” from my Jeep on purpose. I scheduled it and carried it out so that I could try to get more people on board and open their eyes to the destruction of the systems and the world. How are you all doing today? I felt like I broke you all a bit last night. But I also felt a whole new feeling since being in Southern California. Since being south of Santa Barabara I have felt misunderstood. Well, I have felt misunderstood most of my life. However, the past year I have gotten to feel seen and heard and up north even understood. But last night Southern California realized why I have worked so hard to get to them with this information.

Last night did you all realize how many things you blame yourself for that you should be putting the blame on the systems where it belongs? Did you all finally realize how much the systems set you up to fail? I sure hope so because it is not your fault. Just like it is not my fault for being kept small, it is not your fault either. You are the victim and even if you have achieved a bit of success it is nothing compared to what you really deserve.

You all were right about my Mom. I was thinking last night and she would not do the right thing by any of us. She is too motivated by material gain. That has always been her fault. She tries to tell me I am the one who is overly into material things, but that has always been projection. I like nice things but I can take them or leave them most of the time. I just like a few things like my dogs and my Chromebook and a phone so I can have internet. Oh and I do like my Gucci watch I bought in San Fran years ago that I have on. I left most of my stuff in Las Vegas and then did it again in Arizona. Things do not define me, but the way I make people feel does. I want to be remembered for being a good person, not for being a person who has nice things. Sure, I like nice things they make life more comfortable, but they aren’t the end all be all for me. I have worn clothes from Walmart most of the time I was in Arizona because someone was poisoning my clothes and I just could not figure it out. Now I understand it was my neighbors earning privilege and their way out of the death camp. Future SS soldiers of the war games.

So My Mom told me over and over, but I never listened. My Dad bought her. She was with him because she wanted a materially comfortable life, not because she loved him. She wanted money and power. This is why she has clung to the house she is in and the boat and all the thngs. I did not realize she was a hoarder until I was back home in Oregon over the Summer. I was helping her clean off the porch to her backyard shed and she had so much trash. This is how they trained me to be, because things weigh you down and preoccupy you. However, over the years and moving so much I have just stopped liking stuff it is too much responsibility. My Mom will never get to this place where she does not define who she is by what she has.

My Dad bought her a plane ticket home to visit her Dad when he was sick. They were both in the Army then probably in Texas. This is the moment my Mom fell for my Dad. He literally bought her and she admits it because she told me that was the moment she knew he was the one and/or she loved him. This is why they always assumed that I would be able to be bought by a man. But it has never worked. Sure, things are cool, but you know what is really cool? Being treated well and having your needs and desires respected. This is what I have always wanted is respect and love. You can’t buy respect and love, they are earned.

So my family has never been able to buy me because what I value in life is not a material possession. But they all have a material price. Which is weird because my Brother does not like material things like me either. He is more into power, control, domination, and manipulation. He would rather have you all at his beck and call and on your toes more than anything in the world. That is why this war against me is such a big deal for him. I am in between him and what he values most in this life. Me a lady who hates power, control, and domination, but does values respect and freedom and independence. I stand to ruin everything he lives for by sharing information with you all that will allow you all to free yourselves.

I probably should keep my distance from my family as much as possible when I go home to Oregon I realized again last night. See when I feel understood it allows for my brain to have enough Oxytocin and that allows me to see my family for who they really are. If you all can allow me to feel seen and heard and then feel understood too. I probably can survive going home and being alone there too. I will need help with not getting concentration camp showers that make me high at Planet Fitness and finding a laundry matt where my Brother does not turn the poison on the water so my clothes end up to be worse off than when I started. and finding somewhere to give my dogs a bath where they do not get concentration camp baths and end up high and worse off than when they started .But I did get a clean shower the last time I told you all about the Concentration camp shower I had to look forward to. I am pretty sure some of these things are breaking the rules and you all can bear witness for me. I know I will not get a clean shower any time soon, none of us do unless we have an amazing water filter. But maybe I can just have some of the normal things you all get. I have been poisoned so greatly this is why I have been able to figure everything out. If this war had been covert in my life I would not have had to figure it out in order to survive and stay alive.

I just hope that you all are willing to tell people what is happening now. That is my only real long term hope. Otherwise I will be destined to a life where people continually poison me and break the rules to declare war on me for my brother. I will never be free until the people are free. I fight so hard for this war because if I don’t win I am doomed to live in a war zone the rest of my days. I hope you all see that you all deserve more than this and I do too. And this is why we need to tell everyone what is happening. Because everyday people are living in a war zone and blaming themselves for the destruction on their lives, when it is not their fault. They are being set up to fail and then shame spiral over it while blaming themselves. This is no way to live.

Love Always Nicole Graves

P.S. We meet tonight again at 8pm to finish up from last night. Let’s do 8pm every night until I go home to Oregon and maybe even then I will be able to do 8pm every night there too. We just have to keep going.

Northern Pasadena A 1st & Gossiping About A Husband

Northern Pasadena

Just a quick note before I start my talk at 8pm. I have been preparing notes for our talk I am sure you all heard me thinking logical thoughts. Talking is a lot different than writing. Especially because I have to think everything in logical order and so forth.

But anyways, I am parked in a really nice area by the Ralph’s in North Pasadena. I luckily found a street that is not a through street and so I have found some peace. The air traffic is going to be a little loud and much tonight so I apologize to you all for that, but I really just needed some time and space.

So my whole life people have tried to bribe and buy me for my birthright and I know that living in a big house does not make me happy. The electric bills are just too much they make me want to live on a solar farm lol, literally. But you know the people who surround me now are the kind of people I need to be in contact with. See my birthrights mean nothing without a husband. Well off men in the war games have tried to buy me and that was the closest I ever got to escaping my family. If it was not for that experience I would have never made it this far. I do not want to be bought or have to sign my birthrights over to someone with bad intentions. However, this is only the second time I have found a nice area where the people do Not profit strictly off the war games genocide and evil on this adventure. The other time was up in Lake Oswego Oregon. Only the second time people! This means these people are rare. I am not sure their sub group or the ends and outs of all the groups or how all the profits from the war games work. But these people who surround me are rare. These are the kind of people I need to gossip among the people they know to find me a husband who is not only willing to do right by the people but well enough off to keep us safe until my Dad dies and I inherit some money. Also, I do want to work and I am good at what I do, but my family keeps me small and always limits my earning potential. However, at least I understand this now before I just could not understand why I could not get it together.

So anyways, long story short, to the people who are well off in North Pasadena, I understand what I am asking is a lot, but I am not just asking for me I am asking for the whole world. I need you all to help me find a husband. I am not dead weight and I am more than sufficient in many things, but with the war games rules the way they are I am always going to be inadequate until I am married to fulfill my birthrights. I even need to spit out some kids too. I am working on not being bitter about that. I want kids, but the fact that I have to have them really gets under my skin. I hate having to do things to conform. Conformity is the death of individuality and I have fought so hard to be me.

So anyways, to the elite in Northern Pasadena and the rest of the greater LA area. You all have influence and you know the people who would be able to take on what I have to offer. I come with so many perks but I come with a lot of risk as well. We can literally change the world you know. Literally change the world for the better to be a kinder gentler place for the generations to come. And create a world that is more fair and just. I understand I am asking a lot, but if you are not willing to do what I am looking for at least try to find me someone who is and get the gossip started. I am basically looking for a man to be covert President. It is so weird but it is going to be a huge job that not everyone could do well or fairly. We deserve someone fair because we all deserve better.

Not many people do not have to listen to my Brother and Dad like you all. You all have somehow earned some brand of freedom that I think we all have searched for. The people gossiping is what allowed the rich men involved in the war games to find me because they were after my birthright. So I know it is possible for you all to gossip and find someone with the balls to do what I am asking for. But I hope there is someone out there with the balls and a good heart. No one has ever done right by me, but more importantly it is about the world. We all deserve better and in this moment I know there is better out there because almost anyone who has fought for their freedom and won would understand why the world deserves freedom too.

Thank you for your time and consideration. I appreciate you all and I promise to leave tomorrow. Love Always

Nicole Graves

Examples Of Epigenetic Triggers: Be Aware & Beware

  1. Tap water- has chlorine, heavy metals, etc
  2. Swimming pools-when you take your child to swimming lessons as a youngster that could create epigenetic triggers that last a lifetime if not addressed
  3. Plastic bags, tin foil, wax paper, parchment paper, tupperware
  4. All food-even raw meat has poisons added to it
  5. Bottled water-the water itself is poisoned and the bottle creates estrogen dominance thus cancer and makes your brain reinforce addictive behaviors more
  6. Plastic everything-plastic leads to cancer because it causes estrogen dominance
  7. Housing/Buildings-off gasses for it’s lifetime just to different degrees depending on the age
  8. Air-the air quality has been destroyed-all you have to do is breath to create a negative impact on your epigenetics
  9. Grass-the chemicals on grass damage your microbiome thus creating epigenetic triggers
  10. Immunizations-they contain heavy metals and antibiotics and many other things they do not have to disclose-after getting your child immunizations you need to do a heavy metal cleanse on them
  11. Soap & all body products-they go directly through your skin and into your bloodstream bypassing the liver and are filled with chemicals-Plus antibacterial products damage your microbiome greatly
  12. Laundry products-go straight through the skin into the bloodstream bypassing the liver
  13. Fruit-genetically modified so much it is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease
  14. Coffee-has fiber in it that is designed to grow the bad bacteria, parasites, and viruses in your body and create disease.
  15. GMO plants-genetically modified to create leaky gut to cause disease and malnutrition
  16. Chicken, Pork, & Seed Oils-cause inflammation and disease due to Omega 6 to Omega 3 ratio
  17. Asphalt/Roads- release chemicals into the environment and air
  18. Makeup-poison/chemicals that go straight through skin into bloodstream and bypass the liver
  19. Cleaning products-chemicals that cause cancer, but on a small scale before cancer they cause epigenetic triggers
  20. Cookware-adds more poison into your foods

There are many epigenetic triggers in our world and throughout the systems. We could go all day listing them. The everyday little decisions you are making are changing you on a gene level. You can allow them to make you better or worse, the decision is up to you.

You just have to be aware and know when to beware.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Long News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

(Please Read To The End)

News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism and Dyslexia to keep us all small and manageable. Read More Below: Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders
  2. The Systems Of The World Are Set Up To Make Us All Fail. Read More Below: The Systems Set Us All Up To Fail
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic People happening. Read More Below: Hispanic Genocide (Edit: Also, Italian & Black people)
  4. The systems are set up to make you all loose the ability to feel love and humanity. Read More Below: Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking
  5. I have been creating a revolution since March 30, 2021 all up and down the west coast to throw my Dad and Brother out of power. You all are the last to get on board and you all need to join me. My Dad is dying of colon cancer and I want to free the people and help you all heal. But he wants me to die and my Brother to take over. Long Story! But my Dad is still mad that I have rejected illogical evil my whole life and has punished me for a lifetime. Read More Here: New To My Revolution-What You Need To Do

Please subscribe to my information updates and stay tuned.

Nice to meet you & Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

Last night was a huge realization moment. People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

When I get excited about something it is hard to slow down and explain things so bare with me. The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something. This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it. This is why I have such a hard time relating to people is because I am constantly asking myself why you all are doing what you are doing. And now I realize you all do not even know, because you have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?)

Are we all ready to revolt now, because the system is keeping you small in every way possible? You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

Southern California

I forgot to mention the kicker of it all. But first you all have to promise if you are 35 and under and of Hispanic decent you will help me get the rest of my revolutionary people to revolt and shoot maybe even riot. See you all were treated just like me, genetically modified and tortured.

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

So yeah, Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

The pieces it has taken to discover this have been great and choppy, but here we are and one day I will explain all the how I figured it out. But here is the how our family cult is executing the Hispanic people in a covert genocide. If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved.

Oxytocin is how the adult industry saved my life. It is more than just getting me away from my family, it was by making me feel loved. It provided a safe environment where I could produce Oxytocin and experience it being mirrored to me in others without fear of hurt/pain. When you feel loved and safe it lowers anxiety and improves people’s humanity and ability to emotionally regulate. This is why life has been so hard and confusing since leaving the adult industry behind. There has not been anywhere safe to produce Oxytocin without fear of harm besides with my dogs and/or within my work relationships in sales jobs.

I do not judge you all for being the way you are, but I hope you understand this is why the world looks so dark to you all. Being human is hard and it does hurt at times, but your fear of being human is just another symptom of the systems that have set you up to fail. You have been genetically modified to reject human interaction as something that is beautiful and warm. Instead your brain tells you it is going to hurt and be painful.

This genetic modification is present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Long News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

(Please Read To The End)

News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism and Dyslexia to keep us all small and manageable. Read More Below: Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders
  2. The Systems Of The World Are Set Up To Make Us All Fail. Read More Below: The Systems Set Us All Up To Fail
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic People happening. Read More Below: Hispanic Genocide (Edit: Also, Italian & Black people)
  4. The systems are set up to make you all loose the ability to feel love and humanity. Read More Below: Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking
  5. I have been creating a revolution since March 30, 2021 all up and down the west coast to throw my Dad and Brother out of power. You all are the last to get on board and you all need to join me. My Dad is dying of colon cancer and I want to free the people and help you all heal. But he wants me to die and my Brother to take over. Long Story! But my Dad is still mad that I have rejected illogical evil my whole life and has punished me for a lifetime. Read More Here: New To My Revolution-What You Need To Do

Please subscribe to my information updates and stay tuned.

Nice to meet you & Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

Last night was a huge realization moment. People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

When I get excited about something it is hard to slow down and explain things so bare with me. The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something. This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it. This is why I have such a hard time relating to people is because I am constantly asking myself why you all are doing what you are doing. And now I realize you all do not even know, because you have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?)

Are we all ready to revolt now, because the system is keeping you small in every way possible? You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

Southern California

I forgot to mention the kicker of it all. But first you all have to promise if you are 35 and under and of Hispanic decent you will help me get the rest of my revolutionary people to revolt and shoot maybe even riot. See you all were treated just like me, genetically modified and tortured.

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

So yeah, Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

The pieces it has taken to discover this have been great and choppy, but here we are and one day I will explain all the how I figured it out. But here is the how our family cult is executing the Hispanic people in a covert genocide. If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved.

Oxytocin is how the adult industry saved my life. It is more than just getting me away from my family, it was by making me feel loved. It provided a safe environment where I could produce Oxytocin and experience it being mirrored to me in others without fear of hurt/pain. When you feel loved and safe it lowers anxiety and improves people’s humanity and ability to emotionally regulate. This is why life has been so hard and confusing since leaving the adult industry behind. There has not been anywhere safe to produce Oxytocin without fear of harm besides with my dogs and/or within my work relationships in sales jobs.

I do not judge you all for being the way you are, but I hope you understand this is why the world looks so dark to you all. Being human is hard and it does hurt at times, but your fear of being human is just another symptom of the systems that have set you up to fail. You have been genetically modified to reject human interaction as something that is beautiful and warm. Instead your brain tells you it is going to hurt and be painful.

This genetic modification is present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Long News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

(Please Read To The End)

News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism and Dyslexia to keep us all small and manageable. Read More Below: Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders
  2. The Systems Of The World Are Set Up To Make Us All Fail. Read More Below: The Systems Set Us All Up To Fail
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic People happening. Read More Below: Hispanic Genocide (Edit: Also, Italian & Black people)
  4. The systems are set up to make you all loose the ability to feel love and humanity. Read More Below: Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking
  5. I have been creating a revolution since March 30, 2021 all up and down the west coast to throw my Dad and Brother out of power. You all are the last to get on board and you all need to join me. My Dad is dying of colon cancer and I want to free the people and help you all heal. But he wants me to die and my Brother to take over. Long Story! But my Dad is still mad that I have rejected illogical evil my whole life and has punished me for a lifetime. Read More Here: New To My Revolution-What You Need To Do

Please subscribe to my information updates and stay tuned.

Nice to meet you & Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

Last night was a huge realization moment. People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

When I get excited about something it is hard to slow down and explain things so bare with me. The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something. This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it. This is why I have such a hard time relating to people is because I am constantly asking myself why you all are doing what you are doing. And now I realize you all do not even know, because you have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?)

Are we all ready to revolt now, because the system is keeping you small in every way possible? You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

Southern California

I forgot to mention the kicker of it all. But first you all have to promise if you are 35 and under and of Hispanic decent you will help me get the rest of my revolutionary people to revolt and shoot maybe even riot. See you all were treated just like me, genetically modified and tortured.

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

So yeah, Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

The pieces it has taken to discover this have been great and choppy, but here we are and one day I will explain all the how I figured it out. But here is the how our family cult is executing the Hispanic people in a covert genocide. If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved.

Oxytocin is how the adult industry saved my life. It is more than just getting me away from my family, it was by making me feel loved. It provided a safe environment where I could produce Oxytocin and experience it being mirrored to me in others without fear of hurt/pain. When you feel loved and safe it lowers anxiety and improves people’s humanity and ability to emotionally regulate. This is why life has been so hard and confusing since leaving the adult industry behind. There has not been anywhere safe to produce Oxytocin without fear of harm besides with my dogs and/or within my work relationships in sales jobs.

I do not judge you all for being the way you are, but I hope you understand this is why the world looks so dark to you all. Being human is hard and it does hurt at times, but your fear of being human is just another symptom of the systems that have set you up to fail. You have been genetically modified to reject human interaction as something that is beautiful and warm. Instead your brain tells you it is going to hurt and be painful.

This genetic modification is present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Long News UPdate by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

(Please Read To The End)

News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism and Dyslexia to keep us all small and manageable. Read More Below: Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders
  2. The Systems Of The World Are Set Up To Make Us All Fail. Read More Below: The Systems Set Us All Up To Fail
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic People happening. Read More Below: Hispanic Genocide (Edit: Also, Italian & Black people)
  4. The systems are set up to make you all loose the ability to feel love and humanity. Read More Below: Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking
  5. I have been creating a revolution since March 30, 2021 all up and down the west coast to throw my Dad and Brother out of power. You all are the last to get on board and you all need to join me. My Dad is dying of colon cancer and I want to free the people and help you all heal. But he wants me to die and my Brother to take over. Long Story! But my Dad is still mad that I have rejected illogical evil my whole life and has punished me for a lifetime. Read More Here: New To My Revolution-What You Need To Do

Please subscribe to my information updates and stay tuned.

Nice to meet you & Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

Last night was a huge realization moment. People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

When I get excited about something it is hard to slow down and explain things so bare with me. The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something. This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it. This is why I have such a hard time relating to people is because I am constantly asking myself why you all are doing what you are doing. And now I realize you all do not even know, because you have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?)

Are we all ready to revolt now, because the system is keeping you small in every way possible? You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

Southern California

I forgot to mention the kicker of it all. But first you all have to promise if you are 35 and under and of Hispanic decent you will help me get the rest of my revolutionary people to revolt and shoot maybe even riot. See you all were treated just like me, genetically modified and tortured.

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

So yeah, Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

The pieces it has taken to discover this have been great and choppy, but here we are and one day I will explain all the how I figured it out. But here is the how our family cult is executing the Hispanic people in a covert genocide. If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved.

Oxytocin is how the adult industry saved my life. It is more than just getting me away from my family, it was by making me feel loved. It provided a safe environment where I could produce Oxytocin and experience it being mirrored to me in others without fear of hurt/pain. When you feel loved and safe it lowers anxiety and improves people’s humanity and ability to emotionally regulate. This is why life has been so hard and confusing since leaving the adult industry behind. There has not been anywhere safe to produce Oxytocin without fear of harm besides with my dogs and/or within my work relationships in sales jobs.

I do not judge you all for being the way you are, but I hope you understand this is why the world looks so dark to you all. Being human is hard and it does hurt at times, but your fear of being human is just another symptom of the systems that have set you up to fail. You have been genetically modified to reject human interaction as something that is beautiful and warm. Instead your brain tells you it is going to hurt and be painful.

This genetic modification is present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Long News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

(Please Read To The End)

News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism and Dyslexia to keep us all small and manageable. Read More Below: Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders
  2. The Systems Of The World Are Set Up To Make Us All Fail. Read More Below: The Systems Set Us All Up To Fail
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic People happening. Read More Below: Hispanic Genocide (Edit: Also, Italian & Black people)
  4. The systems are set up to make you all loose the ability to feel love and humanity. Read More Below: Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking
  5. I have been creating a revolution since March 30, 2021 all up and down the west coast to throw my Dad and Brother out of power. You all are the last to get on board and you all need to join me. My Dad is dying of colon cancer and I want to free the people and help you all heal. But he wants me to die and my Brother to take over. Long Story! But my Dad is still mad that I have rejected illogical evil my whole life and has punished me for a lifetime. Read More Here: New To My Revolution-What You Need To Do

Please subscribe to my information updates and stay tuned.

Nice to meet you & Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

Last night was a huge realization moment. People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

When I get excited about something it is hard to slow down and explain things so bare with me. The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something. This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it. This is why I have such a hard time relating to people is because I am constantly asking myself why you all are doing what you are doing. And now I realize you all do not even know, because you have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?)

Are we all ready to revolt now, because the system is keeping you small in every way possible? You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

Southern California

I forgot to mention the kicker of it all. But first you all have to promise if you are 35 and under and of Hispanic decent you will help me get the rest of my revolutionary people to revolt and shoot maybe even riot. See you all were treated just like me, genetically modified and tortured.

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

So yeah, Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

The pieces it has taken to discover this have been great and choppy, but here we are and one day I will explain all the how I figured it out. But here is the how our family cult is executing the Hispanic people in a covert genocide. If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved.

Oxytocin is how the adult industry saved my life. It is more than just getting me away from my family, it was by making me feel loved. It provided a safe environment where I could produce Oxytocin and experience it being mirrored to me in others without fear of hurt/pain. When you feel loved and safe it lowers anxiety and improves people’s humanity and ability to emotionally regulate. This is why life has been so hard and confusing since leaving the adult industry behind. There has not been anywhere safe to produce Oxytocin without fear of harm besides with my dogs and/or within my work relationships in sales jobs.

I do not judge you all for being the way you are, but I hope you understand this is why the world looks so dark to you all. Being human is hard and it does hurt at times, but your fear of being human is just another symptom of the systems that have set you up to fail. You have been genetically modified to reject human interaction as something that is beautiful and warm. Instead your brain tells you it is going to hurt and be painful.

This genetic modification is present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Sending A Message Home To Oregon

Last night was when I figured out what happened with the Kudearoff territory and my family is in charge there in Oregon. If I just figured it out last night, I can imagine that not many people there know what has happened or what is happening. I have not been in Oregon since Fall and I have not been home and used my war technologies in my head to communicate with them. I was still using just my blog back then. Can you all send a message home for me? I know communicating with anyone for real is so hard in this day and age, but there has to be a way.

See my Mom is being held prisoner just like I am, they were starting to kill her when I escaped the death camp in Arizona. But they stopped because they want me to go first. She is not only my best chance of survival, but she is you all’s best chance of survival too. Great evil rarely has the ability to be put in it’s place by it’s Mother, but in this situation we kind of lucked out. Some of the checks and balances of the war games may have worked out for us. You know I am right about never being taken seriously because I do not want to hurt people and sin in the name of the war games. People have never taken me seriously. Even now, I have survived the unthinkable and people still will never see me the same way they see others in power because I have not committed great sins and hurt people. And I don’t want to. I have fought my whole life not to have to hurt people.

See I am the one who got Kris and Brenda’s territories returned to their families last summer. All I had to do was say what happened in Brenda’s territory and they heard me and those territories went back to their kids. They are white so their maybe different rules. And I have been high for months now, but I do believe there has to be someone there who will stand up for the right thing because it is the best chance for all of us. Plus, if we are going to play this dumb war games game than we should at least play by the damn rules.

Do what you all can to get my message up to Eugene/Springfield, Oregon. I would love if they could take action now. But I have to go home in a week or so to go back to work and return to my Truman show so I suppose I will take it with me then. This whole mess is kind of exhausting, okay really exhausting. Maybe it is just a pipe dream that my Mom will do the right thing, but I have to believe that she will do what she was raised to do. She is my Grandma Kudearoff’s daughter. I loved my Grandma so much, so maybe I blind to what or who she really was. But I do know the people loved her and people don’t love people like that for no reason. There has to be a reason the people loved my Grandma Kudearoff because they have never loved my Dad like that. They hate my Dad.

So here is to hoping that there is a way for you all to send a message in a bottle home for me.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Monday Jan. 17 2021 Moon In Leo and Sun In Aqua-Compton

Aquarius season is my favorite. I need to blog and you all can hear me so I may as well just journal publically. Today and yesterday were hard because my family is such a mystery to me. No one is who they say they are. I am not even who they said I was. It is exhausting. However, the destruction of the systems that is black and white and logical and factual and cannot be argued. I love facts. My whole life I have been lied to so facts are something I can get excited about. Something no one can gas light me about. This is maybe why I love my logical brain so much and logic problems. Maybe if my family had told me some of the truth I would have never figured this stuff out because I would not need to grasp to something that I can hold close as truth.

My family is so grey and they probably will never tell me who they really are. I don’t know the war games rules, but I do know that I have broken more rules than anyone is supposed to get away with. My whole life I was told I was crazy and less than. Well, you would think figuring this all out would make me feel crazy, but it doesn’t. Figuring this all out made me feel relief. It wasn’t me. My whole life it hasn’t been me. I have tried so hard to succeed and do something with myself and it was just never enough. Well, now I understand it was just never possible to escape my family and the war games and the systems.

This is why I have worked so hard to let you all know what is happening. I want you to know it is not you. This whole mess and being kept small is not your fault. You all probably knew more than me about the war games, but I have stayed up many a night reading medical research to figure out the pieces of this puzzle and how it all worked. My family did not even know or do all that. They aren’t that smart or interested in anything. They bribed people with privilege to create this puzzle for them. But hey if someone would have given me the answers I probably would not have listened because working for these solutions and answers I have found has made me really appreciate them. My family makes me feel crazy, but facts make me feel oh so alive.

I know I get overly emotional about some of this mess, but I hope you understand that does not interfere with the facts I have pieced together to help us all heal. I will get into the details as soon as I get everyone on board because I have done so many little bits here and little bits here and you really need the whole story to heal. I just hope when I go back to Oregon you all can still access this communication. I am not sure how it works and that drives me nuts. I know that when I am in your city limits you can hear me. But I still do not reach everyone in that city. I just pray that when I leave I get to take you all with me and I am some kind of station you all can tune into always. I think I may be like a HAM radio signal. I am not sure how it works. I was never taught about technology or anything war games related so it is so frustrating. But I do know HAM radio was apart of it big time, before cell phones and wifi and internet. Am I close? Am I tapping into the old communication mainframe of some sort? That would make sense because my Brother’s generation take a lot longer to hear my messages this way. I am reaching the older folks quicker. Hmmm I am just so blessed to have found you all and for you all to have gifted me with some of your time. Until this adventure I had never felt seen or heard. I had tried my whole life and just felt invisible. No one ever saw me or my pain, they just walked on by as I suffered. That was what really made me feel crazy. People disregarded my pain.

It is HAM radio of some sort that is why the youngsters gang stalk me at the Planet Fitnesses. They don’t know about this kind of communication much. Well, you all gotta tell them what is going on and how to tune in. This is why they send so many people even here to gang stalk me who are young. They just don’t know what is happening. I can tell by looking at them they do not know they are fighting for their own destruction. They put this chip in my head in the 1980’s so it is old technology. Does that mean you all have been able to reach up to Oregon? I sure hope so. My Mom will never admit she is a prisoner like me, but she is and she has been since I was born but probably longer. Currently her prison just looks better on the outside.

So if I am on HAM radio that means that you all will be able to tune in when I go home, right? Because it goes far, right? This is why they cannot block me is because radio waves are a lot different than how they are able to censor the internet and cell phones. Well, shoot heck ya for old school technology. Can you all reach out to the youngsters and let them know. I have such a hard time with people my age and younger. I have never been able to relate to them. I have never gotten to be a child or a non wise person. I have always had to be the bigger person. Like now, my Mom has tried to kill me this whole adventure because she is the only one in my family I still have love for. She is my Mom I can’t stop loving her, I can not like her actions but I can’t stop loving her. I can even hate her actions, but that love never goes away. I am pretty sure it has biological roots because your Mom is your first source of Oxytocin. Anyways, I saw her die a metaphorical death when I was younger before my Brother was born. She did not want kids, but she did it because she had to. My Dad is the one who killed her, one piece of her soul at a time. He eroded away her soul until there was hardly anything left and then my Grandma Kudearoff died and she broke. That is when she went dead inside. But I remember her when she was alive and still had a bit of a heart. Sure she has always destroyed me, but it has not always been this extreme. Do all the parents in the war games destroy their children? I wonder what the other half lives like a lot. I know I destroy my dogs a bit just because things are always poisoned but I can’t always go without using them so it is a by default kind of thing.

They are sending air traffic over pretty heavy right now. Does that interefear with my signal? I also wonder what I will have to do in order to get this signal killed out one day. When I am safe I would like to stop broadcasting all my thoughts, no offense or anything but private thoughts are pretty cool too.

Okay so My Mom and being the bigger person. She may never be good to me and that is something I am willing to risk because she does know right and wrong and is the one who taught me right and wrong. My Mom has fought for the right thing a lot in her life and she has not really gotten credit for that fight because of my Dad. It is a weird dynamic. My Dad was the worst decision she made for a lot of us. Her one decision effected millions of people huh? It gave my Dad room to grow his evil and take over the west coast. Talk about a heavy birthright, can you imagine that kind of backlash? I can but that is because here I sit being prosecuted for my birthright that I have never used. Being from a fancy family is a lot of pressure especially when you are the 2nd. Life is weird to say the least when you represent something more than you get to be an individual. I suppose you all can relate to that. The war games want us to be what we are instead of who we are way too often.

They dont like that I am talking to you all right now they have sped up the destruction around me. I guess what I need you all to do is talk to the younger generation, the 90s generation and tell them about me and my birthrights and how the world used to be before everything went dark in the 1980’s. See they don’t know what it was like when potential was an option and people were happy and healthier. In the mid 1980’s everything changed, the food changed and we all changed. Everything changed and not for the better. But I bet no one has ever told them about it. We need to tell them so they understand what we are working towards getting back to. They have grown up in the darkness it is all they know. We need to tell them about what it was like before. I was young, but I still remember it being way better. People smiled more. Real smiles not covert fakeness.

Please tell the younger generations about what it used to be like and tell them to tune in too if they have a way to access me. I would love to get to know them too. Thank you all for listening to me ramble as always, I really appreciate you all keeping me company and keeping me sane. One day I will have to explain everything to you, but for now we are just going to work on creating a brighter future for us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Radio Show Announcement

Okay so now that I have figured out that I am on the radio and I need you all to help me get to the people in Oreogn. I need you all to tell them to tune into my channel. Tonight at 11pm I will read the things about the Kudearoff family and My mom and hopefully be able to set the record straight. If you all can get them to tune in I can get them the information. This way you all are not breaking the rules. You are just telling them about something to tune into to. Does that work to covertly spread awareness? I am not good at covert. but maybe you could just tell them to tune in and I will read what I wrote. Or even if they tune in sooner or later we can eventually get them caught up.

Can you reach out to everyone you know. I would really like to get the whole nation in the know about the destruction of the sytems. There is no reason we should not let them in on what we know. The more of us covertly working together to overcome the destruction of the sytems the better. The more people in the know the more powerful we are. I have no clue what the rules are but I have worked so hard to get to you people down here in Southern California and I know you all are a melting pot and from all over. How far does my station go? Can I be heard nationwide? Am I a national news update and people just don’t know to tune in? Now that would be a trip but it would be one of the biggest blessings that was meant to be a curse.

In an hour at 11pm west coast I will read my story about the Kudearoff territory and I hope you all can get the right people to tune in. I wish I could talk back to you all in the sense that I could hear what you are saying. I can feel your feelings though and that is better than nothing. There is a reason why they have tried to keep you all away from me my whole life. Even now today they did not want me to go walking in Compton, I am not sure why. Perhaps maybe not everyone knows I am alive yet. That is it, the younger generations do not know I am alive. My Brother’s generation does not know and that is where he gets his power because there are so many of them and they follow him blindly. .There is so much they do not know.

Okay so 11pm get as many people to tune in as possible. The younger generations too if you can.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Let’s Talk About The Reptilian Brain

I like to study people’s epigenetics. Asperger’s people have special interests and epigenetics is one of mine. So I have been watching the people they are sending to gang stalk me and I do not think they realize they have been stolen from themselves. When you are only using your reptilian brain you do not have access to the whole human experience or who you really are. It is sad and how my family wars on people.

So when you are in a stressed state you can only operate out of your reptilian brain because it is a survival instinct. Like oh shit it is a tiger I should run kind of thing. Well, my family is making you all feel like there is always a tiger behind you and you are running out of instinct. Which you should right? It is about survival. But the thing is unless you learn to calm down you will always be in that survival state running.

My family and the systems reinforce you staying in your reptilian brain with food, drinks, and sex. All three of these things keep you small and manageable. Now I am not saying give up all of them, but know when you are having a soda just because you want one you are keeping yourself small because that desire comes from your reptilian brain. All the systems are set up to keep you in your reptilian brain so you never think for yourself and keep acting out of survival. And look our whole economy is run off getting us all to do things out of survival and consumerism. If you keep consuming you will survive right?

In order to truly know yourself and fulfill your destiny and purpose in this lifetime, you need to calm down. This is a covert war. They cannot overtly do things and you do have freewill. The only power a covert war has is the power you allow it to have over you. I am not saying do anything dumb, but look at me. You know why I am so “brave” as you may want to call it? It is because they cannot kill me. They have tried to kill me my whole life, but they cannot overtly kill me. They are still accountable for following the laws on some level. They cannot overtly do things to you unless you have gotten into bed with them and done evil. Once you get into bed with them and do evil that is when you will be forever stuck carrying out their wishes because you want to retain your freedom and not be accountable for your sins. Gang stalking me is just the first step. Then they will ask you do more and more until one day you no longer recognize yourself and are unable to say no to their demands or requests. Doing evil is a slippery slope and I wish for you all to think long and hard before you decide to team up with people like my family because they have already chosen their fate. They know they are bad people and they are willing to do whatever they have to do to keep that view of themselves, but they end up taking good people with them. It’s sad.

So calm down, stop eating, drinking, and having so much sex and think using your whole brain because you are way smarter than you ever could have imagined. My family likes to steal people from themselves, don’t be their next victim.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Good Morning Compton/Lynnwood

Good Morning Compton & Lynnwood

And the rest of the Southern California cities and towns I have made it through. And hopefully up North is tuned in too. And the rest of the nation. Honestly, I have no clue how many of you all are out there, but we need to chat. Last night, I realized we cannot count on anyone in the war games to do the right thing. It is just not something that is a safe bet, it is not a probable outcome. If they were going to do the right thing they would have done it a long time ago. Look at the Kudearoff family they have sold me out my whole life in order for self preservation. That is what everyone has done my whole life. We cannot count on me being able to fulfill my birthright because every man I have ever “loved” has sold me out for privilege and tried to kill me. So, the only safe bet is you. You are your way out of this mess just like I was my out of this mess. I may not like it, but this is the logical answer. I cannot count on you all to spread the news to everyone either because you all are too afraid. So maybe if we take care of your health problems you will be able to overcome learned helplessness and you all will be able to share information with everyone, because limiting information is what has kept you small and now you are doing it to others. It is a wicked circle of sins my family gets you all to take part in, in so many different avenues. I only have about ten more days till I need to be in Oregon, so until then we are going to talk about health. I am going to put together health lectures. I am not a good speaker, I have always been a writer who is very fond of editing and copy and paste but I am going to learn how to publically speak. So I can get you all the information you need to heal and find yourselves and take your power back.

There was a biker that went by with the song, “It was just my imagination” this morning. My family does so many things to gas light me and think that I have made this up. But I know I have experienced destruction my whole life and I know you all have too and we are just conditioned not to realize it. We all have been brainwashed and studying the facts is the only way I have been able to overcome it. My family makes me feel crazy because they live double lives and are not who they say they are, but the facts are facts. Facts don’t lie and can’t be gas lighted. When you learn enough facts about the world that add up then it is hard to deny what is really happening.

I hope eventually you all are able to help me get to the 1990’s generation, the Xbox generation as I like to call them. My Brother created his army while playing World of Warcraft as a young child and teenager. He will always have his power until his army is in the know about what is happening. And they have been hit the hardest by the epigenetic triggers and a lot of things. However, this is why he clears streets and tries still to get me to not walk my dogs, etc He does not want them to know I am alive because he has lost everyone else that will fight for him besides the Aryans and their morally flexible ethnic friends who profit off the genocide of the world and already knew about it. The people who were willing to sacrifice us all for a better brand of prison for themselves. It is sad that there are those kind of people out there. But the good news is they only make up maybe 1 to 2% of the population. If we can disassemble my Brother’s army merely by getting them in the know and not keeping them in the dark we have a shot at greatness. However, if he remains able to keep them in the dark we are at a stand still. They worship him like a God. It is so weird, but they have dysfunctional brains and their oxytocin processing is off and they feel like life is a video game. They do not know what it feels like to be human. Their parents has so many epigenetic triggers they have many gene mutations. They are a different species of human literally that is why we have such a hard time relating to them. They are a different species on a gene level. And they are sick and dying, but they do not know it. I have never really known a better reason to get someone in the know, but they are you all’s children so maybe you just don’t love them. I am not sure how the sub groups or the generational divides work. But I do know that all the sub groups take part in Ham radio and it is mostly the older generations my age and older. So you all may even be their grand parents. I am sure you can see they are a different kind of human. I don’t understand them and it is because they are not really human they are genetically modified so much that I don’t know what we should call them. I can only imagine what their children will be like and their children’s children. What a mess. My family has made such a mess and has made breeding something that is such a given everyone takes part in it without thinking about the reprocutions. I hope you all think about what you are doing and why you are doing it. This is why they did the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger is so you all would only think about how you are going to do something not why. You need to think about the why. You need to question yourself, Why are you doing this. why are you doing that, etc. My biggest question is why will you not tell the 90s generation what is happening to them or at least tell them to tune in so I can explain what is happening.

So we are going to do every night at 8pm and every night I will start with a brief explaination of what is happening in the world so that we all can be on a somewhat similar page. I hope there is some way you all can record these or get them to more people but I understand that is risky so I am just going to do the best I can. And I need you all to do the best you can with getting people in the know about tuning in. This is like my last hoorah here in California. When I go home I will still talk but I will have to work so I will not be able to reach more people down here it will be all up to you all.

When I go home they will try to destroy me. They will try to use my humanity against me. They have kept me entirely secluded for years but really badly on this 290ish day adventure. The only person I can really talk to is my Mom and they use my need for companionship as a tool for destruction. So if you all don’t help me I am not sure how much longer I can allow my needs to go unfilled. This is always how they have gotten me in the past is by not allowing me human contact. I am human you know. But I do have my two dogs that do wonders for me and have allowed me to survive in tact emotionally. The past 5 years have been really hard but they have made it possible. Honestly, my whole life has been hard everyone has always sold me out for privilege and no one has ever really been my friend. So you would think I would be used to it. But human nature is human nature. I worry about being human and being from my family, it is weird and difficult.

But we have a little time left and I need to share with you all the things that light up my brain and the things that have saved me from the destruction of the systems. I am alive because I have worked really hard to be. Social norms are intended to kill us. Everything they want you to believe is a tool of destruction. You buy into what everyone is doing and it kills you. You do the dirty work for them. It is so weird.

Last note here, Covid is just a cold I have had it twice. When you start to feel sick you need to take zinc. Actually you need to take it now because you have a high load on your immune system and that is what people die from not Covid itself. But if you get sick you need to take anti virals like crazy because they stop Covid cells from replacating in your body. When the cells are not multiplyiing your immune system has a chance to fight it. So zinc, garlic, l-lysine, ginger, etc are all important. Take as many antivirals as necessary and mix them up the more variety the stronger they are and the better they work. Vitamin D is also very important. Especially if you are black and/or have dark skin. Vitamin D is why Black people have higher rates of chronic illness. You all are lacking Vitamin D because you do not absorb it as easily from the sun.

Okay I can rant about health for days. So take your dam vitamins everyone should be taking a multi vitamin daily and take care of your immune system so it can take care of you.

See you tonight at 8pm California time

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Long News Update by Nicole Graves Kudearoff

(Please Read To The End)

News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves. You all know my Father, Donnie Graves, the leader of the dark side and my Mother, Margie Graves, of the Kudearoff Klan of Oregon. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side(they like to tell people I am “Special”). It is a long complex story that you are more than welcome to read about here on this blog on the internet(www.YouDeserveToHeal.com).

I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

  1. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism and Dyslexia to keep us all small and manageable. Read More Below: Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders
  2. The Systems Of The World Are Set Up To Make Us All Fail. Read More Below: The Systems Set Us All Up To Fail
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic People happening. Read More Below: Hispanic Genocide (Edit: Also, Italian & Black people)
  4. The systems are set up to make you all loose the ability to feel love and humanity. Read More Below: Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking
  5. I have been creating a revolution since March 30, 2021 all up and down the west coast to throw my Dad and Brother out of power. You all are the last to get on board and you all need to join me. My Dad is dying of colon cancer and I want to free the people and help you all heal. But he wants me to die and my Brother to take over. Long Story! But my Dad is still mad that I have rejected illogical evil my whole life and has punished me for a lifetime. Read More Here: New To My Revolution-What You Need To Do

Please subscribe to my information updates and stay tuned.

Nice to meet you & Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it.

My 3 Birthrights

  1. I am my Father’s daughter and first born.
  2. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Kudearoff side of my family.
  3. I am the 2nd out of all my cousins on the Graves side of my family.

My birthrights trump my Brother’s birthrights.

The Systems/Industries Working Against Us All

Let me talk this one out on paper. I think if we see the systems working against us in black and white it will have a revolutionary effect.

  1. Food Industry-it is all meant to kill us slowly and take our money in the process
  2. Farming Industry-government subsidies all for our family cult to control the food industries before it is even grown/raised, many of South Americans were farmers when first came to US(maybe now too?)
  3. Healthcare Industry-sickness is a business, they do not aim to heal you only keep you enslaved
  4. Hospitals-for profit and often associated with Catholic church-not interested in healing on enslaving and punishing
  5. Organized Religion-for profit fear tactics and control tactics
  6. Insurance Industry-fear tactic, dictates prices for services, makes us all pay for those who get sucked into healthcare industry-run by Aryans
  7. Housing/Real Estate Industry-keeps us small, diseased, manageable, and preoccupied-I took a LEED building course & buildings are not made for health or sustainability unless you pay much more–run by Aryans
  8. Automobile Industry-that new car smell is just a fancy way to say poison-used as a weapon for Munchausen and Munchausen by proxy-I have not driven the majority of my life this is also why my epigenetics are better than most
  9. Oil/Gasoline Industry-my Grandpa Graves was big into the oil industry in Argentina it is a South American thing-this is how they get the poison to the people is through the gas-this is why truckers are so sick
  10. Beauty Industry-makeup has heavy metals still, we are sold a fake image to keep us always striving for the unattainable-plastic surgery is a huge industry- plastic surgery erodes your gut bacteria just like other surgeries setting you up for chronic illness-and implants are linked to autoimmune issues
  11. Tatoo Industry-poison you pay to implant into your skin that seeps into your blood stream and bypasses your liver for a lifetime-changes epigenetics, may cause gene mutations in your children-tatoo artists=professional Munchausen by proxy
  12. Prison/Jail Industry(aka Punishment Industry)-it is literally a for profit industry that uses their cheap labor to manufacture things for other industries and they feed these people the worst foods and probably do medical experiments on them
  13. News/Media Industry-for profit fear tactics and control tactics-withhold real information and spread what they want you to know or what they want you to keep preoccupied with
  14. Telephones/Cell Phones/WiFi-a means to spy on you and see what you do in your personal life-wifi is designed to mess with your humanity the frequency throws off something in your brain/body just like cell phone radiation-tracking devices
  15. Government-just figure heads for our family cult-they are relatively powerless-I was around when the Certain One was dealing with the government in Sacramento to get weed legalized-we pay them off to do things and/or blackmail them
  16. Pharmaceutical Industry-meant to make you sicker in the long run and keep you addicted and reliant–not a healing industry
  17. Legal/Medical Marijuana Industry–just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain(Fragment: you should have seen how sick the people were at the dispensary in Southern Arizona were that I went to. They put so much poison in the weed there! They use it to thin the herd.)
  18. Adult Beverage Industry-just another venue to poison the people seeking comfort and/or to ease their pain-my brother worked at the distributor-these are the people who poison the soda as well
  19. Cigarettes-meant to keep you addicted and spending and a venue for poisons-I had a Sugar Daddy who was a tobacco farmer in NC-they bought his tobacco but would not tell him how many cigarettes they made out of it. like this much tobacco equals so many cigarettes-super shady industry
  20. Education Industry-a way to control what we know and who gets to know what-a way to socialize, condition, and break children/young adults to become war game players of tomorrow-school teachers are something that some families in my family cult do generation after generation-Amanda Hunt my best friend growing up, her family is a line of school teachers from within the war games
  21. Clothing/Shoe Industry-a way to poison people-your feet have the largest pores in your body so you absorb the most toxins through your feet(thanks Mom). When you try on cheap shoes at Walmart pay attention to what you feel in your body. When I try on flip flops there I can feel it in my liver and lymphatic system. Just tune in and try it, I dare you.
  22. Cleaning Supply Industry-a way to get us to poison ourselves regularly in the name of cleanliness- contain heavy metals and then when mixed with untrustworthy people more poisons added via Munchausen by Proxy-cleaners cause cancer which gets you to buy into the healthcare industry
  23. Gym Industry-used to poison people(this is where I get concentration camp showers)– used to throw off their limbic systems-your body is not meant to be stressed that badly when we are in such bad health already-exercise needs to be gentle and be a soothing experience–keeps people seeking something in the wrong fashion so they will always be seeking and rarely obtain–also my family cult really enjoys giving people heart attacks with intense exercise-SS soldier industry
  24. Fast Food Industry-food that is overtly designed to get you addicted, diseased, and kill you

We can keep going all day, but you all are starting to get the idea, right? It is not just my family cult, it is our family cult. Our family cult is the wizard behind the curtain in so many different aspects of our lives, aiming to make us all small, diseased, and manageable(Not to mention genetically modify us all). Just let me know when you all are ready to be revolutionary, I will be over here in Santa Barbara eating chips, working on my writing project, and waiting for you all to have had enough.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Under 35 & Genetically Modified To Take Orders

Last night was a huge realization moment. People 35 and under have literally been genetically modified to not think logically and/or critically so they just take orders. And the people over 35 have also had their epigenetics changed to effect the way their brain operates. See your epigenetics have been used against you to make you small and not even realize it.

The environment and nutritional deficiencies are inhibiting your ability to think logically/critically. This is why I am so different than most of you all. My genetic modifications make me a more logical thinker and I have not been involved in the war games so I have not encountered as drastic of an impact on my epigenetics.

When I get excited about something it is hard to slow down and explain things so bare with me. The food system has not only been rigged to make you chronically ill, but it also makes you unable to use your brain to your fullest ability. This is another way they get you stuck in your reptilian brain. Thus you do not think about why you are doing something just how you are going to do something. This is why you all take orders without knowing the whole story. My favorite question is why and I rarely can do something unless I know the logic behind it. This is why I have such a hard time relating to people is because I am constantly asking myself why you all are doing what you are doing. And now I realize you all do not even know, because you have been programmed/conditioned to only think about how you will do things.

This epigenetic trigger of Dyslexia is worldwide and can be corrected/improved with Omega 3, DHA, iron, B vitamins, zinc, magnesium, vitamin D, probiotics, etc. If you improve your nutrition you can improve your epigenetics and thus your brain. Also, people with Dyslexia have been found to have more lead and mercury in their brain because a lack of zinc allows for more absorbtion of heavy metals.

An example of how the food system has been rigged to keep you in your small brain would be chicken and pork(aka bacon). Chicken and pork have a high rate of Omega 6, thus throwing off the Omega 3 and Omega 6 ratio in your body. (Fragment: this also applies to all the seed oils in processed foods like chips and crackers, etc.) This causes inflammation and a change in your epigenetics. So when you are eating chicken breast thinking you are doing something healthy, you are contributing to the destruction of your epigenetics. The whole food system is indeed designed to keep you small and diseased literally.

Are you all mad yet? You all are so much smarter than you even could have imagined! What are you going to do about it? (Besides take up a Keto diet?)

Are we all ready to revolt now, because the system is keeping you small in every way possible? You literally do not know yourself because you have been stolen from yourself by the systems my Dad has created.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Hispanic Genocide

Southern California

I forgot to mention the kicker of it all. But first you all have to promise if you are 35 and under and of Hispanic decent you will help me get the rest of my revolutionary people to revolt and shoot maybe even riot. See you all were treated just like me, genetically modified and tortured.

My Great Grandfather Hitler hated the Hispanic people and started a covert genocide on you all. My Dad has followed in his foot steps. However, some Hispanic people know about this genocide, but most of the younger generations do not. I am not sure the reason behind who knows and who doesn’t yet. It has been a really long couple years, but the past few weeks I have been on E while putting together these last few pieces of this crazy puzzle.

See Mexican/Hispanic food is designed to cause autoimmune/chronic illness. Diabetes is an autoimmune disease. Autoimmune disease starts with leaky gut. Leaky gut is caused by genetically modified plants/vegetables and nightshades. Traditional Mexican food is not like Mexican food here. Example: In Mexico they do not allow GMO corn because traditionally people plant some of the corn they eat. American Mexican food has been literally designed to take you all out of the equation. This is why you all have higher rates of diabetes, obesity, and chronic illness. And why you all die younger and from what I can tell by the graves in Santa Fe and your epigenetics more painfully.

So yeah, Hispanic genocide is something the Aryans/Hybrids have known about. And they are okay with it, because they knew their priviledge came with this cost. These are mostly the whites, but a few South Americans too, who live west of 101. Some of them have joined the revolution, but the few people left fighting this war are mostly the Aryans/Hybrids. This is the race my Great Grandfather Hitler thought was the ideal, but even in their epigenetics they are missing something.

The pieces it has taken to discover this have been great and choppy, but here we are and one day I will explain all the how I figured it out. But here is the how our family cult is executing the Hispanic people in a covert genocide. If I would have never have lived by the Mexican border in Arizona I do not think I would have figured this part out. WWII never stopped my family just got better at covert genocide.

Are you ready to get angry with me and help me get the others to revolt?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Southern California, Oxytocin, Humanity Hijacking

Okay Southern California bare with me as I speak geek because I figured out how my family cult is hijacking your humanity.

So your brains do produce Oxytocin you all just process it differently. Oxytocin is often referred to as the “love hormone” but really it is just an intensifier. Your brain produces Oxytocin when you take part in human interactions, but especially when you raise your children, nurse them, and child birth. However, when you have experienced trauma, bullying, and repeated distress related to social interaction your brain processes Oxytocin differently. Instead of it making you feel loved and connected it amplifies your anxiety. This is why my Mom was unable to nurse both my Brother and I. Feeling that close to someone and the Oxyotcin involved stressed her out and made her anxious. This kind of processing of Oxytocin leads to avoidant attachment style, which is involved in cluster b personality types(narcissism, borderline personality disorder, and sociopathy).

Our family cult and the war games are stealing your ability to process the experience of being human and stealing your humanity through your limbic system, which houses your emotions. A lot of the chemicals and environmental stressors are aimed at deregulating your limbic system, which involves throwing off your emotions and hormones that control them. This is why we all have overactive cortisol, the stress hormone. This is how our family cult keeps us more manageable.

Children to parents like this are often lacking normal human interactions, thus we do not get enough Oxytocin. This is why I crave my Mother still when things go weird/wrong in my life and I just need a hug. Oxytocin is what my family has used against me and why I crave the love of my Mother. PTSD, anxiety, Aspergers, and Autism can all be treated with Oxytocin and be improved.

Oxytocin is how the adult industry saved my life. It is more than just getting me away from my family, it was by making me feel loved. It provided a safe environment where I could produce Oxytocin and experience it being mirrored to me in others without fear of hurt/pain. When you feel loved and safe it lowers anxiety and improves people’s humanity and ability to emotionally regulate. This is why life has been so hard and confusing since leaving the adult industry behind. There has not been anywhere safe to produce Oxytocin without fear of harm besides with my dogs and/or within my work relationships in sales jobs.

I do not judge you all for being the way you are, but I hope you understand this is why the world looks so dark to you all. Being human is hard and it does hurt at times, but your fear of being human is just another symptom of the systems that have set you up to fail. You have been genetically modified to reject human interaction as something that is beautiful and warm. Instead your brain tells you it is going to hurt and be painful.

This genetic modification is present in the fancy families and the SS soldiers, but I noticed it being systemic throughout all the people in Santa Barbara and as I have gone South it has gotten extremely worse. This is why I loved Vallejo so much. Their brains still were able to feel love and they were open to the experience. This is what the white people are missing in their epigenetics. I always said they did not know love. Well, I was right! They do not know love because their brains have been conditioned to fear human interactions. This is the screw loose that they are missing. And our family cult has done this to the majority of people down here in Southern California. This is why being down here makes me lonely and miss my Mom. You all do not mirror me and instead you feel pain from my loving acts of sharing information. You all fear human interaction because it has never worked out for you in the past. And this is why I do not love any one human, but I love humanity. I have always loved people from an arm’s distance, but letting them close is something that our family cult has never allowed for me to enjoy. Because my family literally cannot experience love and they refuse to let me enjoy something they cannot experience.

Love is a gift. Love is not supposed to hurt. Love is part of being human. Love is what makes the world go round. Love is the greatest motivator in the human experience. You all are missing out on the best part of being human.

Humanity is a chore and a weakness without the ability to feel love. Please reconsider how you view and experience humanity, it could literally save us all.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Acceptance Vrs Learned Helplessness

When I walk my dogs, I people watch and study your epigenetics. Here in Santa Barbara I have seen some variations that I have not seen before. Which makes sense because I have not been exposed to Scandinavians since my Dad was married to Kris(aka about 30 years). If you have been following along, than you know that your state of mind effects your epigenetic expression. All you have to do is change your state of mind to change your epigenetics. It is pretty magical. It only takes 4 days of mediation/visualization to change your epigenetics, so this is one of the most powerful tools for manifesting anything.

This morning I was talking on the Jeep cam about accepting versus understanding. With the world the way it is and the way our brains have been genetically modified, I have had to accept that I am just not going to understand a lot of things in life because they are not logical. However, I do not accept that I am helpless over the things I do not logically understand. Just because you see something for how it is does not mean you are helpless over it.

Let’s use cancer as an example. Yes, cancer kills a lot of people, yes it is scary, and yes you have to accept that you have it. However, once you accept that you have it you can take the steps necessary to fight/heal it. But than again if you accept cancer and accept learned helplessness you will never be able to do much to fight/heal and you will die.

You all left fighting this war have accepted learned helplessness and accepted that my death is something you can not do anything about. This is literally effecting your epigenetic expression. This is how my family cult uses me to break people. They use me to get you to accept the unacceptable-which is learned helplessness. The the majority of people involved in this revolution/conflict/war have accepted that they have power over their own lives, no matter how much they have been told they do not.(Fragment: Anger makes you feel empowered.)

Those of you fighting this war(especially those I see today), no matter how much you try to hide it with the exterior, feel powerless and have accepted learned helplessness. You have accepted being kept small, manageable, and diseased as the way it will always be. But why is my question? I think it is merely because no one has ever shown you a different way.

If you were diagnosed with cancer today would you fight or would you accept learned helplessness. Because that is all this war/revolution is. It is a cancer on humanity. Are you going to fight like your life depends on it, or are you going to roll over and die?

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Predestined Greatness

The other day in one of my videos before I went to the Springfield Police, I was trying to understand why I have a hard time putting myself first and choosing me. Well, I was raised to be the scapegoat of my family cult. All the South Americans view me as the scapegoat and the reason why my Dad hasn’t lead us to greatness. Aka I am his excuse.

Dare I question your logic and ask how you ever expected someone who is so interested in destruction to lead you towards greatness? His poor ability to lead us to a good place has nothing to do with me. It has to do with his value system. He does not value greatness, otherwise he would value potential. My Dad has lead you all to a place where greatness is not even an option on the table, because anyone who desires to explore their own potential is a threat to his own ego. How dare you desire to be better than him at any thing!

Don’t you ever wonder what your gifts are in this life? We all have gifts that are predestined. However, without the freedom to explore our potential we will never find these God given gifts. What is the use in being carbon copies of my Mom and Dad like so many of you are? You understand they aren’t happy people, right? And you understand their lack of happiness has to do with the choices they have made based on their value system that they expect you all to adopt, right?

Being an independent thinker is revolutionary and can lead you to places no one else has been!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My New Revolutionary Members

I see people taking part in this war for our family cult and they look like they are in pain. One guy was literally biting his nails. I understand it takes awhile for the news to spread, but once you are hip to the news there is another option besides blindly taking orders.

Over here on the revolutionary side we are organizing and creating a new way of life where potential and freedoms are valued. We are a simple bunch and believe in peace both externally and internally. So what we ask you to do is simple:

  1. Turn off your phone, the covert war cannot overtly ask you to do anything unless you allow them to.
  2. Stop spending excess money. The less we spend on material things, the less power we give over to the systems that aim to enslave us and make us all fail.
  3. Stay tuned for more updates and just remember this is a revolution, not necessarily a war if it does not have to be.
  4. While you relax and hang out at home, gossip and call all your friends and family(especially on the West Coast)to let them know about the revolution, and to see where they stand. It is important for you all to know who honors the old ways and values destruction. These are the people who will destroy themselves in order to destroy you. These are the people who are not safe for you or your family to be around. So take stock and become aware of where everyone stands because we take care of our own. Prioritizing revolutionary people is prioritizing ourselves and this is what we need to do to move forward. Allow the people who value destruction to be around the others who value destruction and they will take care of the problem people for us. It is a beautiful solution.

My revolutionary people, we made big progress today in the LA area. Somehow my updates have moved beyond the grocery stores and into people’s homes and cars as well. I am still not sure how to reach the everyday normal people, but we build as we fly so we will get to them too. Especially, if you all can help me out with a lot of gossiping and spreading awareness about this revolution. I appreciate you all, thank you for being you.

Love you Always

Nicole Graves

I See Your Humanity

I see you all’s humanity. I know you are not dead inside like my family. And you all are the exception to the rule this far South. Privilege does amazing things, huh? I am not here to shame you. I am here to offer you help. See I am the last hope for your children and grandchildren. You have seen the way the rest of the world has been effected by the epigenetic triggers that you all have been lucky enough to buy yourself out of so far. But how lucky do you think your children will be in the next 20-40 years? And how about their children in the next 20-40 years? The sooner everyone looses their humanity the better as far as my family is concerned. And you know this is the truth because you have had to fight tooth and nail to hang onto your humanity and your quality of life. I can relate I have fought endlessly to keep my humanity as well. It is something that is priceless and is aimed to be stolen from us from all the systems in place. And it is really hard to escape all of the systems. Even if you profit off this system over here there is another system aimed to target you. There is no winning in the world we live in and it has been designed to make us all fail. Just because you have a life that is more comfortable now does not mean you will always have this luxury. It is just a matter of time before my family will figure out how to take what you value from you.

You all need to join my revolution and help be an example of what good people need to do to ban together to change the world. I am not asking you to fight a war, just be revolutionary. Which is something you already take part in because exploring your potential is part of how you have gotten to where you are today. Behind closed doors you enjoy being good people and you hide that from the world. Unlike my family who gets even worse behind closed doors.

You all need to be revolutionary. But not for me, for your children and grandchildren. No one else in my family has humanity and so I understand why you are scared of them. But what is even scarier is living in a world where the people in charge want to steal your humanity and there is never hope of a different way. I am the last chance at a different way of life and I need you to respect and honor what I have fought for my whole life. I have fought to do the right thing and I will continue to do the right thing. You all need to pick me by choosing your children and joining my revolution. A covert war can only be allowed the power you allow them to have over you. Turn off your phones and stop spending excess money. This is a chance for the lives we have all dreamed of. If it doesn’t work than you all can always go back to giving into others having control over your lives. But if it does work we will experience true freedom beyond what we have ever dared to dream of!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Still Fighting This War-What You Are Fighting For

Let me just write this all out so I can understand why you all left fighting this war are doing what you are doing.

  1. You do not believe you deserve potential or to explore what makes you unique and irreplaceable. And you are okay with being kept small, manageable, and diseased.
  2. You are agreeing to being genetically modified to take orders and not think logically for yourself. Your brain being dysfunctional is not an issue for you.
  3. You do not believe you deserve to love and be or feel loved. You understand that my family cult has set the systems up to make your brain unable to process human interaction as love. Instead, you are agreeing to having a fear response to human contact/interaction.
  4. You are okay with your children being genetically modified and having gene mutations that will prohibit them ever reaching their full potential. And you are okay with them Never knowing love and living in pain their whole lives.
  5. You are okay with the systems setting you and us all up to fail and fail miserably. The epigenetic triggers in the systems set us all up for chronic illness. So you are okay with failing at everything and being in pain all the time.
  6. You believe destruction is the best we can do. Therefore you do not value ever experiencing love, potential, and/or kindness.
  7. You believe the Hispanic people should all die in order for you to have a better quality of life. Even though that quality of life will still involve constant pain and suffering.
  8. You are okay with being told who you are rather than finding the person you were born to be. And you are okay with destiny for your children as well.
  9. You are okay with food being poison. You are okay with air being poison. You are okay with water being poison.
  10. You value social norms in order to keep you distracted from what is really important in life. (Like quality of life, world peace, solving world hunger, potential, manifesting your dreams and goals etc.)

Okay there is so much more, but I am sure you are starting to get the idea that you are fighting for your own death and demise. You are killing yourself and your children with your actions. And this is okay with you?

Do Better!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about my family, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things my family cult is doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

  1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses
  2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, and Black
  3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly
  4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others
  5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable
  6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version
  7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly
  8. Marriage is a lie, because the men in the war games prefer sex with other men(plus they molest children)
  9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum
  10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable
  11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction
  12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease
  13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness
  14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.
  15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  16. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the war games/world and convince the masses and intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional
  20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone
  21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems
  22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you
  23. The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination my family cult plays with us all
  24. We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill
  25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully and create disease
  26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased
  27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and that the systems are the ones that can save us
  28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens
  29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential
  30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased
  33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction
  34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased
  35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will, yet they expect us to buy into being small because they cannot access their own quantum field-this is why group meditation changes the world
  36. Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased
  37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security
  38. Your gut bacteria and microbiome is used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap
  39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed
  40. The worldwide war games are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves
  41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer
  42. The war games are a worldwide affair just more covert in some places and more overt in others
  43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war for my family cult when called upon
  44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is
  45. I am the last person in a family in a place of power who has fought to keep my humanity and I am willing to help the world change the systems. Yet not everyone who has been destroyed by the systems values my efforts or me
  46. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective
  47. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even my father has cancer
  48. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more
  49. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing
  50. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased
  51. Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to
  52. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims
  53. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.
  54. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us
  55. Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems
  56. Religion is used as a war games weapon. God and love are used against us all.
  57. The war games are a covert war, yet everyone plans and lives their live dictated by them by choice-it is not an overt war
  58. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first
  59. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the war games to complicate every aspect of our lives
  60. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it. We are blessed because in some places this war game is overt and here we are letting a covert war game get the best of us. How do you think this makes the people who live with the overt war games feel? We all have been blessed and it is our duty to stand not only for what is right, but for the world. We are all equal and deserving.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Well Hello Again Compton

Today I made my way from Walnut back to Compton. It has been a couple months since I have been here. And this time I finally reached the people. Compton is where I was taken out of the grocery store updates and put into people’s cars and homes. It was a magical moment when I figured it out in the Walmart parking lot here. However, it took me some time to figure out how to make it work for me and how to really get to the people. I was being traditional in my thinking rather utilizing the war games technology my family implanted in my head. Long story, but here we are finally communicating.

I have worked so hard to reach you all. So very hard. See I was destroyed me whole life so I have always had a soft spot for others who have been destroyed too. There are so many people driving by thinking they are hard, but they are just fighting for their own destruction is there a way you all can spread the news quicker about what I have come here to share. Let’s recap real quick just so you all can “hear” it one more time and digest.

  1. My 3 birthrights trumps my Brother’s. I am the 2nd on the Kudearoff family 2nd on the Graves family and I am my father’s first born
  2. Learned helplessness is a systemic candida infection
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people. And it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are hijacking your humanity by changing the way you process oxytocin
  5. There is an epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, and all chronic illnesses.
  6. I started this revolution in March you all need to join me
  7. The systems are set up to make us all fail and to destroy us. No amount of privilege will save anyone. My Dad is dying of the destruction from the systems he created currently.
  8. My blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com outlines everything, my family blocks it sometimes so try it a couple times
  9. I need your help spreading awareness. I have been at this for 290ish days and I still have not reached all the people. I have all of Oregon and Washington and Northern California, but you all down here in Southern California are a tough bunch to get to.
  10. I need you all to help me find a husband, my birthrights mean nothing without a husband
  11. oh by the way my name is Nicole Graves, my Father is Donnie Graves Leader of the dark side. My brother Ryan I am sure is someone you are familiar with too. I can save you from my brother with my birthrights and I am sure trying. But first step is I need you all to know how the systems are destroying you all.

I am unsure how you all share information down here and I know I drove through a lot of cities on the way here giving my updates, but I need you all to share information. We do it up North but down here you all are pretty tight lipped. See we need to tell everyone we are at war and being destroyed so they can protect themselves. You all are so close together down here information has to be really easy to spread. Your epigenetics are better than the Aryans you know. It is because you all know love. That is what is wrong with a lot of the white people they do not know love and it reflects in their gene expression. Oh my family likes to tell people I am “special” but really I have Asperger’s genius so I get geeky at moments, but this is what has allowed me to figure out their plans for destruction because they kept me in the dark my whole life about the war games and who I am. And my Dad dying means they have been really trying to kill me for the past few years. Well, my whole life, but in the past 5ish they have gotten pretty overt. I may not be tough like you all, but I am my own special brand of vicious. Being alive means I have been pretty tough.

After learning about what all is happening it is normally only the Aryans and their morally flexible ethnic friends who profit off the war games who fight this war against me for my family. So my thoughts are that if I let you all in on what is happening you all will allow me a brand of safety here, covertly of course. You all have been hit the hardest by so many things. The epigenetic triggers are strong with you all and when you have the triggers your children have gene mutations. That is what my family is doing is creating a new species of human to be a slave race. It is pretty dark and evil. They wanted me to be apart of that slave race so I am right here with you all. I know you probably want to look at me like the enemy. I know you all do because of the way the people driving by are looking at me, but I am not the enemy. I understand my family is the enemy, but I have never profitted off the war games or my birthrights. They have only been a death sentence for me. My whole life they have tried to kill me because I have rejected evil and illogical destruction. It’s just not my thing. But individuality comes at quite the price in my family you know.

So when you see these people gang stalking and poisoning me they are trying to kill your only hope for a brighter future. I am that hope. I am the only one with a heart and humanity in my family. I am the only one who does not want to create a slave race and force you into it. Sounds harsh and like some cheap budget sci fi movie, but here we are talking because I have war games technology in my freaking head. So we do the best with what we have. I want you all to live and have good lives and have the opportunity to pursue your potential. I want you all to have all the things I have always wanted but have been kept from. We all deserve better.

Do I have some huge evil plan on how we are going to get to this better life? No not really. I am a build as I fly kind of lady. I figure if I tell you all what is happening than i can get you all to stop trying to kill me and I will be able to think and come up with the next step. And while I work on that next step you work on covertly overcoming the systems of destruction. See i have learned how to overcome the systems of destruction because I have had to in order to survive. I can teach you while I figure out the next steps that we all need to take. But this step right here, getting in communication with you all was the very first step and I am so very happy to be “talking” with you all.

Please do not allow all the information I have shared with you to overwhelm you. Nothing really changed except you know why you can have hope now. You always knew you were being destroyed and kept small, nothing changed. Now you just understand how and that is one step closer to overcoming it. See here in Compton are all the sub groups of people my family wars on the most. You all are my target demographic. You all were the ones who need to know the most. I feel strangely at home here. You all remind me of my Grandma Kudearoff she was rich just not in white people things. She was rich in people and love. I really enjoy this feeling it is comforting because there are so many things in life more important than things. Like taking care of one another. If we band together we can overcome the systems. And that is what we are going to do. That is what we are doing up North and I need you all to join us because we want to take you all with us.

I am pretty high from the car exhaust E now so I am going to go ahead and say that is enough for now and I will post more later. I just need you all to help me spread awareness The sooner we are all on the same page the sooner we can all move forward in overcoming the destruction of the systems. I have to go back to Oregon and go back to work soon, so you will hear me repeat myself a lot in the up coming weeks but I will be saying things that will help us move forward. I still have not figured out how to make a national news update, if any of you all can help me with that I would super appreciate it. The Scandinavians are the only ones who have really done that for me. Well and the fancy families and the SS soldiers. A lot of people have helped me, but mostly I am just fighting to get to the normal people now and it has been such a fight you all have been kept from me the most. But luckily I was used as a training tool so I found a way to connect with you all.

So do some gossiping and maybe covertly keep me safe by telling your sub group of people not to destroy me to earn the good graces of my Brother who only wishes to destroy everyone who lives down here in Compton. See my Brother only really values the white people like my Dad, it’s weird I don’t get it. But I don’t get a lot of this mess.

Thank you all for your time we will talk more soon

Love Always

Nicole Graves

My Mom Is The Answer

See, my Mom is the only person in the world who has ever stood up to my Dad over and over. She never stopped standing up to him. She is the only person who can put my Brother in his place. If we get her territory back to her My Dad and Brother will be put in their place. I will not be able to put them in their place like she can. No one will be able to put them in their place like she can. Please don’t make me wait for them to kill her before you all take action like you all did with Kris and Brenda. My life is on the line too. And if my life is on the line you all’s future is on the line.

My family has made a mess of everything. I will not deny that ever. But my Mom is the one who taught me right and wrong. She took vows to obey my Father and she broke those vows and has paid for it ever since. She no longer has to obey my Father and she has the power to put my Brother in his place too. She is evil enough for them to listen to her, but she also has a heart and brain enough to do the right thing. I know no one stands up for women in the war games. But standing up for my Mom is the only chance we all have. Sure, she may still poison me, but she will do the right thing by the territory and the people. She is not interested in destruction like my Dad and Brother. My Mom is our only hope. No one else has the ability to stand up to my Dad and Brother. And I am pretty sure based on how my Dad used to listen to my Grandma Kudearoff that they have to listen to her. They do not repsect me like that because I have never committed great evil and I never will. They need someone they fear a bit. No one fears me, I am soft and we all know it. Sure I will stand up to the right thing because I have seen my Mom stand up for what she believes to be right her whole life. But I will not commit sins. My Mom has committed sins, but that is what you people in the war games do. You committ sins to be taken seriously. I am never willing to do that.

Allow my Mom to have her territory back so we can all have a chance at a brighter future. She is our only hope. She is the only one who can put my Dad and Brother in their place. They have been out of line for so long, no one else will ever be able to do it.

I need you all’s help in doing the right thing, so we can all have a chance.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How My Dad Gets People To Commit Great Sins

My whole life I have wondered why people showed such loyalty to my Dad. Well, it is not loyalty to my Dad is loyalty to themselves. See my Dad gets them to do something that they know is wrong once and then they are forever in bed with him. This is why I piss my Dad off so much, there was never anything that could get me to commit great evil over and over like the rest of the Kudearoff family and probably the rest of the world. And I even have a chip in my head where he can implant thoughts. Now I understand why i am so frustrating for him.

So let’s go through the list and give you some examples.

My Uncle Dave has been in bed with my Dad so long they are butt buddies for sure. I am unsure exactly what he has done but he went from a beer drinking, pot smoking guy who transported people at the hospital where my Grandma got him a job to working for boweing in Washington married to a younger white deaf lady who what do you want to bet has some kind of birthright like mine? My Dad’s pet project is up in Washington, it has something to do with the coast, oil, and the ports. I have not figured it out all the way but it also has to do with I5. If they can limit our access to supplies and goods they can control us all they want. So yeah, that is why Uncle Dave was in charge of killing me for so many years and why his daughter Jessica followed in his footsteps.

My Uncle Brett was in charge of killing my Uncle Nick, my Mom’s brother who did not have kids. They worked together as roofers. Uncle Brett only ended up throwing Uncle Nick off the roof and hurting his back he did not die, only caused Brett’s Dad a workers comp claim that was quite the family taboo. Apparently I am not the only one who gets in trouble for fighting back when people try to kill them. They again tried to kill Uncle Nick when they were killing my Grandpa Kudearoff with the gases they used on me in Las Vegas. My Grandpa Kudearoff ended up in a mental hospital and everything. In the end, Uncle Nick found my Grandpa Kudearoff when he had shot himself. And then later in life they did kill Uncle Nick. He died of a heart attack in his 40s. I think they made my Uncle Stevie poison his pot at work. That is just my best guess but I am pretty good at guesses because look where my educated guesses have gotten me so far.

My Aunt Lydia had an affair with my Dad. She always just wanted to be special, I am not sure why she did not feel special to begin with. I always ask myself why others cannot see themselves for who they really are. They just see themselves for who they are in the war games. He preyed on this and she felt fancy by association. She did other stuff because she got a job at OML and worked her way up to a fancy lab job that she got on the job training. And her husband my Uncle Brett earned himself a job at the utility company. These are not jobs that your resume gets you, they are jobs of privilege within the war games. You have to sell your soul a bit to get these positions. I think everyone sells their soul a bit nowadays. It is weird I do not understand it.

My Aunt Lana, my Mom’s older sister is the one who sold her out and took her territory. My Dad went to stay with my Aunt Lana and her husband Jeff when my Mom first wanted to divorce her when I was about 8. Well by the time I was 10 Aunt Lana had a baby and a territory and this way when my Mom divorced my Dad she had no say over anything anymore. My Dad and Brother are just men without territories without my Mom and Me.

Uncle Jeff did something to fall out of favor with my Dad, I am not quite sure but he did not do well when all the aunts and uncles killed their parents. It was like he had a conscious. I think most of the people in the war games at least let their Mom’s live to be elderly. My family killed all their parents within 3 or 4 years. I think these were the big sins that got my Dad in good with everyone. Especially Uncle Dave because he went first.

So my Dad had three wives in the first 20ish years of my life. My Mom, Kris, and Brenda. All were for territories. My Mom was for breeding and territory that is why she is alive. Someone had to raise my Brother. My Dad took me in the divorce and locked me away in different houses trying to kill me with the same gases and poisons that got my Grandpa Kudearoff to kill himself. This is why I was kept away from the communists. If I was kept away and killed as soon as possible then no one would know about what he did with the Kudearoff territory and my birthright and he would get away with it.

So my Mom lived because she needed to raise my Brother. Kris and Brenda did not fair so well. They were killed and used as training tools for my Brother to learn how to kill. Anyone who marries my Brother will just end up with the same faith, be warned. Kris and Brenda committed great sins with my Dad too. That is why they never said anything about what he was doing to them. I know Kris was one of the nicest people ever to me, but she did help my Dad hide assets in my name when my Mom and Dad got divorced. I do not recall specifics, but I remember signing all kinds of papers at the time at the bank.

So this is what my Dad does he gets people to commit great evil and sins so they are forever intertwined with him in his evil. Hear no evil see no evil when you have skeletons in your own closet to hide right? It is not rocket science but it sure has worked. His whole life he has used people over and over and made them ashamed to be who they are because they sold out once and then they are forced to do it over and over to save face and avoid accountability.

My Dad kept me away from the Communists/Asians so he would not have to be accountable for what he did to the Kudearoff territory. Because he did it out of self interest. If my Mom divorced him and had power over the territory he would have to respect her. My Aunt Lana is why the people in Springfield have suffered so greatly. Her great sins do not afford her the ability to stand up for the people like she is supposed to. She is the reason they have suffered. Her selfish greed is why the people in Springfield Oregon have suffered. Who would have ever thought that my Mom was the good guy? I know I would never have guessed, but when you put the logic together my Mom has been just as jipped as me. Maybe even worse because she had to have the kids and get married and do all the things and still have everything stolen from her. She has paid her whole life for her birthright and then one man who thinks he is a god and can get everyone to commit great sins and then act out of self preservation comes alone and takes everything from her. Don’t get me wrong my Mom committed great sins with my Dad too, but so did everyone else and no one else lost like she did.

When are the war games going to stick up for the people like me and my mom, and Kris, and Brenda? We all represent what the war games stand for but all that has been done is the territories that my Dad took from Kris and Brenda have been returned to their rightful owners. Will my Mom get her territory back so I can be safe when I go home? So I know that no man will ever be able to do to me what has been done to her? What are you all going to do is my question? I do not know the rules of these games, but there has to be some kind of rules otherwise we are just animals and they are not birthrights it is just a game of favoritism.

Please help me right the wrong in the world at least in the war games. We may not get to be as civil as I would like to be, but can we at least follow the rules to the war we are partaking in?

Nicole Graves