UofO versus Oregon state Civil war Saturday November 26th 2022 Corvallis

Hello Everyone. Hope you all are enjoying the game. I have stopped by to give my talk about the cliffsnotes to my revolution. I have been giving this talk for over a year up and down I5. It has changed as the revolution has progressed and as I have learned more of the words to the destruction we all face. I’m going to be quick because today is a good day to celebrate. I just wanted to take advantage of having you all gathered together. If after this talk someone is not tuned in to the revolution they literally must be hiding under a rock not talking to anyone.

So let me give you all the cliffsnotes to my revolution.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. That’s 6 birthrights from my Dads side. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert.
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

I understand this is a lot to take in at once. Especially if you had not heard that I am alive. I have my grandpa Graves birthright and Mr and mrs hitlers birthrights and I am #2 on the graves side and kudearoff side of my families. I am the most powerful person in either of my families. I understand it’s weird. Believe me it feels weird to me too. However the destruction we all face is something I have lived my whole life. My birthrights give me no obligations to anyone. However I feel obligated to do better and right the wrongs of both my families. I was created to eliminate the checks and balances that intend to keep us all safe. Yet these birthrights have almost killed me my whole life. They aren’t safe for any of us. Can you imagine what someone would do with them with poor intentions?  Think my Dad and Hitler times 100. I desire and need to be better. But this means you all have to do better too. I cant do all the heavy lifting on my own. You each have to do your own part. Change is hard, but it is usually worth it. Especially when you are escaping pain. The world we now live in is painful. I want and will eliminate some of this pain. I hope you all are on board and willing to do the work necessary for this change.

Enjoy your football game.

Love Always

Nicole D. Graves

Utah vrs UofO November 19th 2022 moon in Libra sun in scorpio

Hello everyone! Thank you for tuning in. Today I have come to reach the people from Utah. I’m sure some of you all still thought I was dead. I’m not. I escaped the death camp my Father intended for me to die in, in March 2021. Can you imagine having birthrights in two of the fanciest families in the war games and not knowing about it? Can you even fathom what I have been through in the past 599 days? I started a revolution when I escaped the death camp in southern Arizona. I had no clue my birthrights made me the most powerful person in the war games and the mafia. I had no clue my families were involved in the mafia. And no one ever told me about the war games. I have Asperger’s genius and this is why my family could never sell me on the destruction they view as normal and ordinary. And since they could not convince me to be evil like them, my Dad decided to kill my grandma Kudearoff and keep me in the dark about who I am. My Dad wanted me to breed and then he was going to kill me. I outrank him greatly in the war games and the mafia. I outrank everyone. I have spent the past 599 days looking for someone who trumps my family’s power. But no one does. And I trump everyone in my family. It’s a weird situation we all are. But here is the deal. I have the words to describe how they have been destroying us all. And I need to share this information with you all. I understand most of you follow my uncle norm in Idaho and I’m okay with that. He has proven he is willing to be revolutionary with me. However, those of you all who follow my Dad need to realign your alliances. My Dad is only interested in destruction and deception. Let me give you the cliffsnotes to my revolution so you can wrap your mind around the destruction you knew you felt but you could never find the words for.

What you need know

  1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. That’s 6 birthrights from my Dads side. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.
  2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.
  5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
    Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.
  6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.
  7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.
  8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.
  9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.
  10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.
  11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert.
    I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest.
  12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.
  13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in.
  14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.
  15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.
  16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

I understand this is a lot to take in and it must be overwhelming. However, this is day 599 of my revolution. Almost 2 years I have been living in my Jeep dealing with daily attempted murder and having my life limited at every turn by my father. 599 days I knew nothing about my family or the war games. But now I understand finally why my family was so cruel to me. I have endured the unthinkable. And I’m tired. I need a home. The death camp in Arizona where I lived for about 3 years before escaping in March 2021 wasn’t a hone. The houses in Vegas I lived while they were trying to kill me and drive me insane were not a home. I have never known a home. I have never slept in a bed that wasnt poisoned. I’ve have not known human love since 1989 when my Dad killed my Grandma Kudearoff. And now I realize the only way to get us all out of this weird world my Dad has created is for me to breed and ensure my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. My brother may have the same last name as me but he is a Kudearoff and they all died inside when my Grandma Kudearoff died. So basically they are the walking dead and my brother never had a chance to be human.

I enjoy my humanity. Living in pain does something weird to a person when they dont take part in destruction. It actually makes a person better. It hurts and it burns deep, but it makes you realize what humanity is really all about. I want to right the wrongs of both my families. I want to do better.

On this revolution I have connected with the farmers in California, Oregon, and Washington. I have connected with the mormons, the koreans, Argentinians, Scandinavians, etc. I have connected with the leaders of every group and we all are working together to overcome my Dad and create better for all of us. This revolution for me is about earning an ordinary life. I just want to be one of you all. Ordinary has been kept from me and it’s what I desire the most. I have built all this so I can be one of you all. I hope you value the ordinary things in life.

Today I made an order and I’m hoping you all can help me spread the news. Anyone who is found associating with my Dad and his cult will be kicked out of the war games with their whole family. If they decide to fall back into line they can rejoin but they will start over from the very bottom. Anyone associating with my Dad will have their privilege and opportunities stripped from them and they will be reassigned to others who are in support of better and this revolution. We all deserve better. But we cant get it until everyone stops honoring my dads old system that aims to turn us into a slave race on a genetic level. Your children deserve better. You deserve better. I deserve better. So get everyone to fall in line. Let them know I have all the fancy birthrights from the graves side of the family on top of being #2 on the graves side and the Kudearoff side. I get to decide how to steer this ship we are all on. And I promise you all to do better. Thank you for your time and enjoy your football game. Tune in tomorrow for Sunday church. We need to recreate church and state and we do that on Sundays.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Saturday November 19th 2022 Sun in Scorpio Moon in Libra It’s ME

My family in Texas is the southern Mafia. My uncle Norm is the #2 from his generation. My Dad is #2 from his generation. And I am #2 from my generation. But I am #2 on both sides of my family, both the Graves and the Kudearoff family. Plus both my parents are #2s. And I am #1 out of my siblings and I inherit all the fancy birthrights from the Graves family. Literally all the fancy birthrights l. I have mr and mrs Hitler and my grandpa Graves and his family.

It isn’t a decision between my uncle norm and my Dad. There is no decision, it’s just me realizing who I am. I need everyone to reach out to the people of the southern Mafia and let them know about my birthrights. They are committing treason when they support my Dad against me. Today, is day 599 of my revolution and I am tired.

War games armies, leaders, and the graves family today is going to be messy. But it needs to be done. I have been patient and forgiving and kind for too long. Everyone who supports my Dad is out of the war games. Strip them of their opportunities and privileges and redistribution them to revolutionary people. Please make sure to reward the dark side for their compliance. Funny how the people who have been conditioned the most to kill me have been the best behaved. Funny how that works.

Everyone showing loyalty to my Dsd from here forward will be stripped of their war games privileges and opportunities. They can rejoin the war games when they are willing to show their loyalty to me and the rules. However they will start over at the bottom and begin the war games process of proving themselves from scratch. Literally they will undo all the work they and their family did. I deserve better than this and you all are going to give it to me. Just because I want better for everyone and dont want to kill or hurt people does not mean I should be treated so bbn poorly. I’m done worrying about the conditions of people’s lives who are not concerned about the conditions of my own life. Better is a two way street you know. I have offered so much without asking for much back. I’m done doing that. I’m demanding your respect back now. You all have had time to adjust. It’s time for you all to get it together instead of acting like spoiled children. It’s time to grow up and decide not to be sociopaths. Sociopaths are made not born. But you have to decide to be better. So today people decide to be better or loose everything just like I have. This revolution means I have lost everything that means anything to me. I dont value the war games like you all. I value ordinary and ordinary has been stolen and kept from me my whole life. Until everyone offers me ordinary I am not sharing the war games with them. I’m tired of you all being hoodlums. Grow up and value the system you say you so greatly love. Your actions need to reflect your values otherwise you are living a lie.

Graves family it’s going to be a messy day, but thank you for being here with me. I appreciate you all. Make sure the graves in Texas get this done too. Thank you.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

UofO versus Washington @ Autzen Saturday November 11th 2022

Well hello Washington, how have you all been? I was up in Washington earlier this summer. I connected with the Farmers up there and you all joined my revolution. I’m sure some of you all still thought I was dead. But surprise I’m not dead much to my Fathers dismay. See 592 days ago I escaped the death camp in southern Arizona where my Dad intended for me to die. He had announced it to the world already. However, I had different plans. That is where covid came into the picture. It’s all a long long story and you all can get the others to fill you in. The middle men are the last group I have still not gained complete access to. My Dad likes to keep you all very sheltered so you do what he says without questioning him. I already connected with Eastern Washington and California and Oregon. However the middle men in the Seattle area who are not involved in the war games by birthrights seem to be the very last group I have to reach. So you all are it. I have already won over the Scandinavians, south Americans. Koreans, communists. Farmers, mormons, the mafia, etc. I have won over the world group by group by sub group over the past 592 days. Can you imagine my life at all? Can you imagine what me being alive means for you? I’m alive and that means there is hope. And I’m going to share with you all the cliffsnotes to my revolution. See I just recently figured out my birthrights. I built this revolution on the fact that we all deserve better. I had no clue I outranked everyone in the war games until a few months ago. 592 days ago I didn’t even know what the war games were, who my family is, or who my relatives were? Honestly I’m still not completely sure about those things. But I am sure about the destruction we all face. Because I have lived this destruction. All I know is my Dads evil and how far he will take everything. He will never be happy until everyone lives worse than I do now. He is a sociopath who is in pain and wants everyone else to live in pain so he can feel good about himself. Its sad that everything is the way it is. But I can change these things and the world with your help. I can’t do anything on my own, but with your help we can change everything. Let me tell you what I know and what I have built this revolution on.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. That’s 6 birthrights from my Dads side. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert.
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Okay so that was a lot and I’m sure overwhelming beyond belief for those of you who did not understand we are in a revolutionary war. I dont buy into the destruction of my families. My Dad made me an example of what happens to people who do not conform to the destruction because I have aspergers genius and he could never convince me destruction was the way to go. I do not believe in destruction. I have been destroyed my whole life. I believe in healing.

To all the leaders I am just now reaching please call and order your people out of this war against me. I represent hope for us all. And please make your people accountable for their interactions with my Dads professional cult. His military army is on my side. They have been with me since Sout San Francisco last fall when I realized epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and covert genocide of Hispanic people. And my Dad’s professional cult is with me, but he is still recruiting and trying to rebuild everyday. Please make your people accountable for trying to help my Dad rebuild. I have more to offer us all than my Dad will ever have. He has had to keep us all starved, in poor health and had to brain wash us all in order to follow his orders as the wizard behind the curtain. My Dad doesn’t want good for anyone. And I have United the world in our collective desire for better. We may not all agree on everything but we can come together to make the world a better place for us all. Life is not supposed to hurt this badly. Life is not supposed to be this dark. Please stayed tuned for more. I hold a Sunday church service every Sunday. We need to recreate church and state. We all are safer with checks and balances in place. My dad created me to eliminate many checks and balances. But I may be the only one who can help us all get better because of my birthrights and ability to bring people together. I hope you all enjoy your football game. There are poisons in the air that mess with our limbic systems today. So if you feel anxious that is not you. That’s a tool to keep you manageable and small. You are so powerful the world is filled with systems to steal your power from you. So you never realize you are the one who matters. We all matter. Please join in for church on Sundays.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

UofO versus Washington @ Autzen Saturday November 11th 2022

Well hello Washington, how have you all been? I was up in Washington earlier this summer. I connected with the Farmers up there and you all joined my revolution. I’m sure some of you all still thought I was dead. But surprise I’m not dead much to my Fathers dismay. See 592 days ago I escaped the death camp in southern Arizona where my Dad intended for me to die. He had announced it to the world already. However, I had different plans. That is where covid came into the picture. It’s all a long long story and you all can get the others to fill you in. The middle men are the last group I have still not gained complete access to. My Dad likes to keep you all very sheltered so you do what he says without questioning him. I already connected with Eastern Washington and California and Oregon. However the middle men in the Seattle area who are not involved in the war games by birthrights seem to be the very last group I have to reach. So you all are it. I have already won over the Scandinavians, south Americans. Koreans, communists. Farmers, mormons, the mafia, etc. I have won over the world group by group by sub group over the past 592 days. Can you imagine my life at all? Can you imagine what me being alive means for you? I’m alive and that means there is hope. And I’m going to share with you all the cliffsnotes to my revolution. See I just recently figured out my birthrights. I built this revolution on the fact that we all deserve better. I had no clue I outranked everyone in the war games until a few months ago. 592 days ago I didn’t even know what the war games were, who my family is, or who my relatives were? Honestly I’m still not completely sure about those things. But I am sure about the destruction we all face. Because I have lived this destruction. All I know is my Dads evil and how far he will take everything. He will never be happy until everyone lives worse than I do now. He is a sociopath who is in pain and wants everyone else to live in pain so he can feel good about himself. Its sad that everything is the way it is. But I can change these things and the world with your help. I can’t do anything on my own, but with your help we can change everything. Let me tell you what I know and what I have built this revolution on.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. That’s 6 birthrights from my Dads side. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert.
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Okay so that was a lot and I’m sure overwhelming beyond belief for those of you who did not understand we are in a revolutionary war. I dont buy into the destruction of my families. My Dad made me an example of what happens to people who do not conform to the destruction because I have aspergers genius and he could never convince me destruction was the way to go. I do not believe in destruction. I have been destroyed my whole life. I believe in healing.

To all the leaders I am just now reaching please call and order your people out of this war against me. I represent hope for us all. And please make your people accountable for their interactions with my Dads professional cult. His military army is on my side. They have been with me since Sout San Francisco last fall when I realized epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and covert genocide of Hispanic people. And my Dad’s professional cult is with me, but he is still recruiting and trying to rebuild everyday. Please make your people accountable for trying to help my Dad rebuild. I have more to offer us all than my Dad will ever have. He has had to keep us all starved, in poor health and had to brain wash us all in order to follow his orders as the wizard behind the curtain. My Dad doesn’t want good for anyone. And I have United the world in our collective desire for better. We may not all agree on everything but we can come together to make the world a better place for us all. Life is not supposed to hurt this badly. Life is not supposed to be this dark. Please stayed tuned for more. I hold a Sunday church service every Sunday. We need to recreate church and state. We all are safer with checks and balances in place. My dad created me to eliminate many checks and balances. But I may be the only one who can help us all get better because of my birthrights and ability to bring people together. I hope you all enjoy your football game. There are poisons in the air that mess with our limbic systems today. So if you feel anxious that is not you. That’s a tool to keep you manageable and small. You are so powerful the world is filled with systems to steal your power from you. So you never realize you are the one who matters. We all matter. Please join in for church on Sundays.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

day 550 Stanford

UofO versus Stanford Saturday October 1st 2022 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Libra

Hello Everyone. Thank you for giving me your time today. I will make it quick so you can enjoy your football game this evening. Surprise I’m not dead. To those of you from California I spent all last winter in California getting people to be revolutionary with me. However I came no where near reaching everyone. People are so divided in this day and age when we have all this technology to bring us together. Talk about irony right?

So I escaped the death camp where I was intended to die March 2021.  550 days ago I started this revolution. It has been a shit show to say the least. But I have done the unthinkable over and over. And I have brought people together who never intended to come together. I have United the war games on so many levels. The farmers, the koreans, the Middle men leaders, the people up in Eastern Washington, the farmers up near Seattle, my Dads Military Army/cult, etc. I have slowly but surely convinced the world to be revolutionary with me group by group. The only small group left fighting this war against me is my Dads professional cult. And even many of them have chosen to be revolutionary. However he keeps recruiting new members daily.

I’m going to give you all the cliffsnotes to this revolution. These are just the highlights, there are so many more things we need to share with each other. But let’s start with the cliffsnotes to the past 550days.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. That’s 6 birthrights from my Dads side. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert.
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am living in my jeep with my dog while doing temp work designed to keep me small. My family is setting me up to fail and breaking as many covert war rules as possible. I Cannot have children if I cannot provide financially for them. My kids will be expensive because so many people will want them dead. I will need to be able to protect them in all ways! Let alone, I need to be able to protect myself.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers and all the other leaders need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me and start brainstorming on how to eliminate my Dad’s professional cult.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. We have created a relay system that goes worldwide. Please tune into the rely and carry it on in any direction you can. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dog in the world… i have been hunted my whole life. I need the people worldwide to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason. And that I am working on creating better for us all.

6. A note to all the farmers and all other leaders, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games and world. But you all have some kind of special trump cards. Please use them to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all. I have connected with all the farmers on the west coast from the southern La farmers to the farmers up in Washington near Seattle to the farmers in Redmond Oregon. The Korean leaders I have also reached. Plus, I have reached the middle men leaders. However, there are always more leaders I have not reached. Please help me Connect with the decision makers and leaders worldwide.

7. I’m never going to be safe until I have someone to help protect me in my overt world. Your freedom and your grandchildren’s freedom and health will not be safe until I am. Please do whatever you can to help me find my people in the overt world. I have been alone my whole life because my Dad knows it keeps me vulnerable.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Stanford, the greater San Francisco area is special to me because it’s where my grandma Kudearoff immigrated into the United states. She viewed freedom as success. I can greatly relate to this view. San Francisco is the only place I have been where my Dads professional cult does not rule all. I’m unsure of the group, association, and/or cult that trumps my Dad’s professional cult there. But I need you all to help me reach them. I need to not only ask them to protect me and call everyone out of this war against me. But I’m going to ask for something I have never asked for before. I need to be granted privilege in the overt world. I need to be able to earn myself enough money to escape Oregon again. This place will never be safe enough for me to have children here. I cant even get a b12 shot here without being poisoned so much my whole body swells and my organs start to fail. This is not a safe place for me. And I dont know if it will ever be a safe place for my children. But I have hope that I can find a safe place in the San Francisco area. I just have to earn enough money to be able to afford to live there. Which is a pretty tall order. Especially because I have been living in my Jeep for 550 days and I have been kept small my whole life. However, I have asperger’s genius and I am great at sales so there is hope. Currently I am in negotiations with a media company to do inside sales. I’m hoping you all can send a few people my way to watch out for me in a business sense. My Dad has lost control of me completely because he would have never allowed me to get a job like this. I’m not sure who is in charge of the Truman show I live and work in now, but I’m asking that you all who are in charge in the San Francisco area professional world to keep an eye on me and ensure my success. Not by granting me things I cannot earn on my own, but by ensuring I get fair treatment and I’m safe. I just need to know someone who has power in the professional cult world is looking out for me. I have reached the Mormons and helped them escape the torment of my Dads military army/cult, but honestly the mormons scare me. The farmers dont scare me, but the mormons do. Using God as a tool for control and domination is just a kind of evil I’m not comfortable with. My grandma Kudearoff was involved in the church, but she never taught us to fear God. God loves everyone and we dont have to earn his love.

So if you all can get people in the professional world to actually act professional and treat me fairly I would super appreciate it. And if you could send a few people my way in the overt world to watch out for me I would really appreciate the company. I have been alone for most of my life. I really just need some company and to know someone is watching out for me.

There is so much to catch you all up on, but its game day. Get everyone to tune in tomorrow. On Sundays we have Sunday church services because reestablishing church and state is the only way we can protect ourselves from someone like my Dad taking over again. I dont want to boss anyone or be a cult leader. But technically my birthrights make me the leader of the dark side. I need to protect the people by creating the checks and balances my birthrights were intended to eliminate.

Thank you for your time.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Day 550 Stanford

UofO versus Stanford Saturday October 1st 2022 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Libra

Hello Everyone. Thank you for giving me your time today. I will make it quick so you can enjoy your football game this evening. Surprise I’m not dead. To those of you from California I spent all last winter in California getting people to be revolutionary with me. However I came no where near reaching everyone. People are so divided in this day and age when we have all this technology to bring us together. Talk about irony right?

So I escaped the death camp where I was intended to die March 2021.  550 days ago I started this revolution. It has been a shit show to say the least. But I have done the unthinkable over and over. And I have brought people together who never intended to come together. I have United the war games on so many levels. The farmers, the koreans, the Middle men leaders, the people up in Eastern Washington, the farmers up near Seattle, my Dads Military Army/cult, etc. I have slowly but surely convinced the world to be revolutionary with me group by group. The only small group left fighting this war against me is my Dads professional cult. And even many of them have chosen to be revolutionary. However he keeps recruiting new members daily.

I’m going to give you all the cliffsnotes to this revolution. These are just the highlights, there are so many more things we need to share with each other. But let’s start with the cliffsnotes to the past 550days.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. That’s 6 birthrights from my Dads side. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert.
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am living in my jeep with my dog while doing temp work designed to keep me small. My family is setting me up to fail and breaking as many covert war rules as possible. I Cannot have children if I cannot provide financially for them. My kids will be expensive because so many people will want them dead. I will need to be able to protect them in all ways! Let alone, I need to be able to protect myself.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers and all the other leaders need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me and start brainstorming on how to eliminate my Dad’s professional cult.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. We have created a relay system that goes worldwide. Please tune into the rely and carry it on in any direction you can. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dog in the world… i have been hunted my whole life. I need the people worldwide to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason. And that I am working on creating better for us all.

6. A note to all the farmers and all other leaders, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games and world. But you all have some kind of special trump cards. Please use them to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all. I have connected with all the farmers on the west coast from the southern La farmers to the farmers up in Washington near Seattle to the farmers in Redmond Oregon. The Korean leaders I have also reached. Plus, I have reached the middle men leaders. However, there are always more leaders I have not reached. Please help me Connect with the decision makers and leaders worldwide.

7. I’m never going to be safe until I have someone to help protect me in my overt world. Your freedom and your grandchildren’s freedom and health will not be safe until I am. Please do whatever you can to help me find my people in the overt world. I have been alone my whole life because my Dad knows it keeps me vulnerable.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Stanford, the greater San Francisco area is special to me because it’s where my grandma Kudearoff immigrated into the United states. She viewed freedom as success. I can greatly relate to this view. San Francisco is the only place I have been where my Dads professional cult does not rule all. I’m unsure of the group, association, and/or cult that trumps my Dad’s professional cult there. But I need you all to help me reach them. I need to not only ask them to protect me and call everyone out of this war against me. But I’m going to ask for something I have never asked for before. I need to be granted privilege in the overt world. I need to be able to earn myself enough money to escape Oregon again. This place will never be safe enough for me to have children here. I cant even get a b12 shot here without being poisoned so much my whole body swells and my organs start to fail. This is not a safe place for me. And I dont know if it will ever be a safe place for my children. But I have hope that I can find a safe place in the San Francisco area. I just have to earn enough money to be able to afford to live there. Which is a pretty tall order. Especially because I have been living in my Jeep for 550 days and I have been kept small my whole life. However, I have asperger’s genius and I am great at sales so there is hope. Currently I am in negotiations with a media company to do inside sales. I’m hoping you all can send a few people my way to watch out for me in a business sense. My Dad has lost control of me completely because he would have never allowed me to get a job like this. I’m not sure who is in charge of the Truman show I live and work in now, but I’m asking that you all who are in charge in the San Francisco area professional world to keep an eye on me and ensure my success. Not by granting me things I cannot earn on my own, but by ensuring I get fair treatment and I’m safe. I just need to know someone who has power in the professional cult world is looking out for me. I have reached the Mormons and helped them escape the torment of my Dads military army/cult, but honestly the mormons scare me. The farmers dont scare me, but the mormons do. Using God as a tool for control and domination is just a kind of evil I’m not comfortable with. My grandma Kudearoff was involved in the church, but she never taught us to fear God. God loves everyone and we dont have to earn his love.

So if you all can get people in the professional world to actually act professional and treat me fairly I would super appreciate it. And if you could send a few people my way in the overt world to watch out for me I would really appreciate the company. I have been alone for most of my life. I really just need some company and to know someone is watching out for me.

There is so much to catch you all up on, but its game day. Get everyone to tune in tomorrow. On Sundays we have Sunday church services because reestablishing church and state is the only way we can protect ourselves from someone like my Dad taking over again. I dont want to boss anyone or be a cult leader. But technically my birthrights make me the leader of the dark side. I need to protect the people by creating the checks and balances my birthrights were intended to eliminate.

Thank you for your time.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

OSU vrs USC

OSU versus USC Saturday September 24th 2022 Moon in Virgo Sun in Libra

Well hello Southern California. It has been since last winter that I saw you all. However I am guessing not all of you knew I am still alive. I’m betting I am even reaching some Oregonians who did not know I was still alive. Surprise I’m not dead. Lol. I have to laugh because coming back from the dead is just weird. So the game is really loud, but I’m betting on those of you who are tuned in will pass the message along to everyone. I have so much to say, but let’s just start with the cliffsnotes so you all can get back to your football game. I started a revolution last year when I escaped a death camp where my Dad intended for me to die. These are the cliffsnotes to the past 543ish days of my revolution.

What you need know

  1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. That’s 6 birthrights from my Dads side. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.
  2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.
  3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
  4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.
  5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
    Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.
  6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.
  7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.
  8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.
  9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.
  10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.
  11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert.
    I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest.
  12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.
  13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in.
  14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.
  15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

What I need your help with:

  1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am living in my jeep with my dog while doing temp work designed to keep me small. My family is setting me up to fail and breaking as many covert war rules as possible. I Cannot have children if I cannot provide financially for them. My kids will be expensive because so many people will want them dead. I will need to be able to protect them in all ways! Let alone, I need to be able to protect myself.
  2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers and all the other leaders need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me and start brainstorming on how to eliminate my Dad’s professional cult.
  3. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. We have created a relay system that goes worldwide. Please tune into the rely and carry it on in any direction you can. The world needs to know what’s happening.
    Southern California I need you to spread my news. To those of you who drove here get everyone to tune into the relay of information we have created on your way home. Freedom of information is the only way we get true freedom. I was in southern California last winter but I have not reached all the people down there. Please help me spread the news of what is happening.
  4. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dog in the world… i have been hunted my whole life. I need the people worldwide to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason. And that I am working on creating better for us all.
  5. A note to all the farmers and all other leaders, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games and world. But you all have some kind of special trump cards. Please use them to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all. I have connected with all the farmers on the west coast from the southern La farmers to the farmers up in Washington near Seattle to the farmers in Redmond Oregon. The Korean leaders I have also reached. Plus, I have reached the middle men leaders and the mormon leaders. However, there are always more leaders I have not reached. Please help me Connect with the decision makers and leaders worldwide.
  6. I’m never going to be safe until I have someone to help protect me in my overt world. Your freedom and your grandchildren’s freedom and health will not be safe until I am. Please do whatever you can to help me find my people in the overt world. I have been alone my whole life because my Dad knows it keeps me vulnerable.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Southern California and Oregon state I need you all to help spread my news and stay tuned in. I need to be able to communicate with you all to help you overcome the destruction. Get everyone you can to tune in because we are strong together. This revolution does not discriminate. We have connected all groups of people based on our uncommon commitment to a common goal of better and potential. We deserve better. Everyone deserves better.

Enjoy your football game and I look forward to talking to you all again soon. Please get my message to as many leaders in southern California as possible. I’m counting on you all. Thank you.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Wednesday September 7th 2022 Moon in Aquarius Sun in Virgo Late night Rambles-They dont All Kniw Yet

Today when I was eating at Walmart there were people still signing up to fight this war for my Dad and his cult who did not understand what they were doing. They walk into the store proud about taking part in the destruction. They are proud to be chosen. But they walk out in a daze with spiked cortisol trying to keep the charade going while they quickly get in their car and exit the parking lot. I need you all to reach out to all the middle men. My Dad is calling on people he has never called on before. You all need to beat him to the punch and get these people on board with the revolution and the war games by any means necessary. This is a war and we are so close to overcoming. When people know better is an option and they understand the words to the destruction we all have felt for a lifetime they do better because they know they deserve better. We need to make sure people know better is an option.

After rereading the posts I have written since we went offline I am even more proud of us all. I will still post online once or twice a week just to document my journals pretty much. But I need you all to continue to be revolutionary and for us not to rely on the internet for freedom of information. Get everyone who has not tuned in to tune in because feeling connected and apart of something bigger than ourselves is what we all need to feel purpose in life. Being connected will help us all heal. We deserve to be connected. We deserve so much. We deserve hope. We deserve to be appreciated for the miracles we are.

I hope you all realize I’m just a real person. I just share my thoughts with you all. And I’m not a good liar. People with Asperger’s sick at lying, but we tell the truth to a fault. So this is me. I’m not a fake. I’m just really weird and maybe an old soul. I suppose I have hung out with dead people more than living people in my lifetime and that makes for some odd perspectives. Plus, not knowing about the war games or my family made me pretty in the dark in the living world. But I promise to always be me and say what’s on my mind. I dont know how to be anyone else.

I applied for more jobs tonight and I heard back from the temp agency. I may get that interview later this week, fingers crossed. All I can do is keep trying.

All I can ask of you is that you keep trying. Please reach out to everyone to get them to tune in because we are more powerful when we all unite. Its us against the world as we are the world, so we have a shot at whatever we put our minds to. You all overwhelm me with so much amazement and gratitude. You all make me rich in ways I never thought I would be rich. After a lifetime of being imprisoned alone, I have the world on my side. Its overwhelming in the best way possible. I hope I return the favor and make you all feel rich in ways you never imagined too.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Wednesday September 7th 2022 moon in Aquarius Sun in Virgo A Family Of Middle Men

Wednesday September 7th 2022 Moon in Aquarius Sun in virgo A Family of Middle Men

Did you know both sides of my family have middle men in them? My Dad has a younger step sister who must be a famous or fancy middle men. See my Dad’s mom divorced my Grandpa Graves when my Dad was younger. She then married my Grandpa George Lippe and he had a daughter Susan Lippe(I forget what her last name is since she married) Its Walker. Susan Walker.

My Grandpa George Lippe was the only Grandpa I really knew on my Dads side. I only saw my Grandpa Graves on two different occasions. George was my Grandpa. However there was always this strange tension between my Dad and grandpa Lippe. So let’s talk it out.

My Grandpa Lippe owned gas stations when my Dad was younger. In high school my Dad managed some of these gas stations. My Dad was older than the other kids in his grade because he spent part of his childhood in Argentina and he didn’t speak Spanish so school was pretty useless for him. Especially because he was Dyslexic so badly they considered him special. This is why he told you all I was special because he knows how it feels and that no one wanted to take him seriously. So he imposed this pain on me.

The middle men have some control over the car industry still, but they are loosing their footing. They also have control over the gas industry, but my Dad has found a way to make them like the farmers and controls the prices for gas just as the price for food. So maybe the leaders of the middle men aren’t farmers, but instead gas station owners and people in the car industry. This makes sense completely based on my lifetime Truman show. You all control the automobiles and gas industries. I think you all control the natural gas, solar energy, and wind turbine energy industries as well. However, my Dad has found a way to control you all, just like the farmers and the Koreans. I still dont know how my Dad controls the Koreans but there is a reason we do not have Korean businesses in Eugene Springfield anymore. That puzzle is for another day.

So the middle men are family. On both sides of my family. How has my Dad convinced you all to be his cult followers? He views you all as less than, never being able to add up to his expectations or ideals. Yet, you all carry out his wishes the most and with pride. How has he done this to you all? What has he done to you all? He replaced your God with himself. He set unrealistic expectations that you will never be able to reach. He shamed you for not being enough and never adding up. He made you feel less than and like you need to explain yourself and justify your short comings that really aren’t short comings at all. In doing all of this you all forever feel misunderstood and this creates a trauma bond where you desire to prove and show your own worth by demonstrating your ability to destroy everyone around you.

You know how I know how he has made you manageable and small? He has done all these things to me. Your not special this is what my Dad does to everyone he wants to control by making them feel less than. This is what he did to the Kudearoffs. This is what he did to my uncles whi married into the Kudearoffs. This is how he got them to kill their parents. This what he has done to my Brother. My Dad does this to all if us. It’s not rocket science, it’s just manipulation and mind control/brain washing. Its human nature to want to prove yourself. We all want to be valued for what we bring to the table. However, we all will never be able to prove ourselves to my Dad or the systems he created because he created these systems around the belief that we are less than. You cant change a foundational belief in a system without changing the system. No matter how hard you try to prove yourself in the current systems you will never be enough. No one has ever been enough for my Dad, no one. The whole world has tried for decades to prove they worthy to him. Yet, here we are all unworthy together. But we are still being held back by people trying to prove themselves to the systems that destroyed them. It’s a textbook trauma bond situation. How do we make this psychology work for us?

I have spent a lifetime trying to overcome my trauma bonds. I have never known human love. And my Dad doesn’t want you all to know human love either. Because if you know love he won’t be all powerful in your world because love conquers all. When you have felt true love you know what false love feels like. Its empty and doesn’t warm your heart and it doesn’t want the best for you.

I want you all to know human love. I love you all and have proven that over the past 500 days. I have worked hard, sacrificed everything, and moved mountains to contact you all to warn you what is happening. I want the best for you all because I know none of us have experienced the best or even what we deserve. If I thought anyone was able to obtain the best or what you deserve from my Dad I would be honest and admit it. But look at my Dad, death follows him everywhere. His wives Kris and Brenda are dead because they allowed him close, too close. My Mom died when she killed my Grandma Kudearoff when I was 8. My grandma Kudearoff was the only one who could protect my mom too. However my mom was too drunk on power to see that she needed protection. My brother has never gotten to live. He still lives in the bedroom I grew up in. He has never escaped. He may know the war games but he has no clue about the overt world. And he’s not safe to travel like I have been. I may not know a lot of things, but I have seen the world. I have tried my hardest to be a good person despite everything. I have been close to death many times in my life, but I never really understood it. I never understood this closeness to death being my strength. See when my Dad gave me head surgery, he gave me a connection to the other side. I never talked about it much at all until this adventure and figuring out what happened when I had my head surgery. This is why I can hear the world changing. I can hear the inside of your bodies. I can feel everything more than my Autism is supposed to allow. It’s weird but it has allowed me a connection not only to my Grandma Kudearoff but to many of her friends. Ewa was one of her best friends in Oregon when I was little. She was my Aubt Lydia’s God mother. Ewa survived the death marches in world war 2. She was one of those children who walked across countries and survived and got to come to America. She was one of the lucky ones. Funny what we consider lucky huh? I never really spoke to Ewa much when she was alive. But last year I spoke to her a lot. My Grandma told me she would help me while I was in Santa Fe and then Came here to Oregon. It was confusing because my Grandma Kudearoff had been with me since my head injury. When I hit my head I found her in the after life. She and all her friends there pushed me back. They told me I wasn’t done and I had to go back. My life was awful then so you only imagine the fit I threw. No way in hell did I want to go back. My life was filled with pain and for the first time the pain had stopped. My nervous system did not hurt in the afterlife. There was no pain there. But they wouldn’t let me stay. So here I am and I finally realized why they pushed me back last year. In Vegas when I was dying of cancer and I heard God say I was not done with my purpose I wonder if that was my Grandma Kudearoff and her friends there. Because as time has gone on throughout my life her friends have gotten really big in numbers. Her friends are you all’s relatives and ancestors. They have a steak in what is happening right now. They know they made mistakes that have allowed this all to happen. They are just as invested in the outcome of world war 3 as they were world war 2. Me and my ancestors and your ancestors have been waiting a lifetime for me to be able to communicate with you all. I promise if you could win by following my Dad and you were able to prove yourself it would have happened by now. I understand it’s scary to realize you have been made to feel small, but really it was just a lie. You aren’t small and you are worthy and you dont need to prove yourself. You just need to stop trying to prove yourself and just be you.

I am not a swill merchant. I have nothing to prove to anyone. I have ensured my spot with our ancestors just by being me and listening even when I really did not want to. I understand when doing the right thing makes you feel like throwing a fit. I have literally been there most of my life. I understand pain and wanting to make others hurt. However, I understand love and wanting to make other feel love too.

You will never be enough for my Dad. No one ever has been. No one who gets close to him escapes alive. I’m closest to escaping him anyone has ever gotten. Look at me, is this what you wish for? I promise it’s not fun or comfortable. The scary part is I have experienced way worse than this. Have you experienced worse than this? Because I want to tell you some wisdom I have learned from surviving my Dad. No one will ever be enough for him. Because he’s not enough for himself. He is still that little boy who paid dearly for his birthright and was never supposed to be in a place of power. His mom and older sister had the power he coveted. And yet he was the one sent to special education who was labeled special and tossed aside. He lied on his application to get into the military. He was that desperate to prove himself. He still is that hurt boy just trying to prove himself but he never will be able to because he has to prove himself to himself first. When you follow a leader who views himself as unworthy you will never be worthy. I wish it could be different for all of us, even my Dad. I love him. I love my family. They all have hurt me the most, but I love them. And I love you all. I want what is best for everyone. However, we are never going to be enough for my family but especially my Dad. If there was a way to make things work within the systems my Dad has created one of us would have found it. But no one has. I need you all to believe me when I say we will never be enough for him. I won’t be enough. My brother will never be enough. And you all will never be enough. I wish it was different but it’s not and we cant change him. However we can change our beliefs and our actions. We can choose to honor ourselves and not someone who deems us all inadequate. We are enough and we deserve better. We don’t need to prove this to anyone. Seeing your own value means no longer feeling the need to prove yourself to others. Especially other who will never deem you worthy.

Please just stop playing my Dads cult games. It’s not even war games anymore. It’s just a cult game that only survives if you are willing to continue trying to prove yourself worthy to someone who will never see your worth.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Wednesday September 7th 2022 moon in Aquarius Sun in Virgo The Root Cause

Wednesday September 7th 2022 Moon in aquarius Sun in virgo The Root Cause

Well, today was another Truman show. I didn’t have an interview for a job I was/am overqualified for again. And the other interviews or interested companies have been gotten to by my Dad. I can always tell because they over complicate things and use way too many words and always seem to include words like now, immediately etc because they induce a cortisol response in everyone and that stresses your heart. People are pretty see through especially cult members.

Yesterday Pat the owner of Express Employment where I did onboarding yesterday also gave me the answers. She has a killer c Diff infection so bad that she has a hunch back. Posture is linked to your gut bacteria. The better your posture the more influential you will be because you have good gut bacteria. Pat was talking to me about the smoke and fires or something like that and asked if my allergies were bothering me because so many other people had been coming in with red swollen eyes. I told her no and that’s their kidneys not functioning properly. She had such a cortisol response. She felt fear. This is also her amygdala damage from lacking vitamin k2 because her gut bacteria is so damaged it’s not being produced allowing calcium to free float through her bloodstream and causing anxiety until its deposited in her amyglada causing damage and leaving her in a subconscious fear state constantly. Can you imagine how annoying it is for me to interact with people. They put on such a charade but they never address the real issues. Even if they know the real issues they dont address them. Look at my Dad he knows the real issues. He created the systems of destruction. And yet he still has colon cancer because he buys into learned helplessness. He portrays himself as a God but God does not buy learned helplessness. God knows he is powerful. Talk about smoke and mirrors right?

So Pat gave me the answers just like Amber did yesterday. I don’t interact with humans often so I try and get the most out of my interactions. Pat felt fear because she saw no other way if life. Amber partakes in the destruction of me, herself, and her family because she sees no other way. They both are without hope. All the people left following my Dad are without hope. They are hopeless. And they are our only obstacle left in this revolution and civil war. Us the majority have to convince these hopeless people there is so much hope. Even though it’s not apparent in our three d world overtly.

Not being able to see hope is part of the dyslexic epigenetic gene mutations and triggers. When you are dyslexic you focus constantly on how rather than why. And hope is more of a why thing. We have hope because we deserve better. We may not know how we are going to get better in a logical step by step timeframe, but we hold onto hope because the quantum field supplies the answers when we retain a feeling. Vibration is what rules the world and draws experiences and people to you. Have you ever experienced a person that just “rubbed you the wrong way” without doing much but being present in your reality. Well, that vibe. Some people feel soothing to be around and others feel abrasive. This is vibe. We attract people with similar frequencies. Like attracts like. Quantum physics and the quantum field are where everything happens. The only reason my Dad can convince people to do his bidding is if he disconnects them from the quantum world. This is why the epigenetic triggers of dyslexia keep us manageable because they disconnect us all from the quantum and our ability to attract what we desire and deserve.

Can you imagine how far I would have gotten if I lost hope? I would have never been able to reach you all and let you know about world war 3 or the destruction we all face. There has never been much of a reason for me to hold onto hope in my overt reality. I have held so tightly to hope because I create it and it’s part of my birthrights. See there also are epigenetic triggers for autism in all of us. We all have c diff. This causes autism like behaviors. So this is hopeful. My connection to the quantum field and limitless potential comes from my ability to tune in to my autism. So I just need to teach you all how to do this. Which is simple. Everything is simple once you have done it enough. People who over complicate things should be treated with suspicion because they are up to something.

So here’s the deal. Focus on why. Autism focuses on why rather than how. The why is you deserve better. We all deserve better. God doesn’t create a slave race. This is something that is human made and is not right. The quantum field has right and wrong. Just like God has right and wrong. Some things we are not going to agree on like abortion everyone has their opinion on that. But I’m pretty sure we can almost all agree a human is a human and God does not create a sub human species. We experience a sub human species because my families have created them. They aren’t God, they just like to play God. God is the quantum field. God is limitless potential. God created you to be amazing. He does not create mediocre humans. He does not create mediocre anything. God creates miracles. Even if you don’t feel like a miracle you are one. God created you. You have survived so much destruction your whole life just to be alive right now. So much destruction you were not even aware of. Do you understand how strong you are? We have all been destroyed our whole lives. That makes us all revolutionary and stronger than we ever imagined. You need to give yourself credit where credit is due. You need to see you have survived against all odds. Every system is set up to destroy and disempower you. And yet here you are breathing and carrying on with life every day. Do you know how amazing that is? You are proof God exists. You are proof. Do you hear me? You are the proof God exists. How would you still be alive if God was not able to make miracles? You are the proof in your overt reality. Just like I’m the proof in my overt reality that I’m meant to help us all do better for ourselves. There is no reason I have been able to survive the destruction. There is no reason my dog Haywood has been able to survive the years he has been with me when they have tried to kill me the most overly. We all are miracles. Do you understand that makes you the proof that anything is possible even though you dont see the how. You didn’t see all the destruction. You felt it but you didn’t have the words to describe it. Well, feel your body and feel how amazing you are. You are the miracle. What does that feel like? It feels pretty spectacular to me. I never would have guessed how fancy I am just because I have survived. Do you realize how fancy you are? Because you are just as fancy as me. God doesn’t care about birthrights. Those are human made. God cares about souls. You are a soul and body he created. I believe your freewill creates your mind. But you have the tools and ability to change your mind any time you choose.

Please change your mind about holding onto hope. Dont fear change, embrace change. You are proof God is amazing and will give you gifts you dont even realize you have. Just because we cant see the step by step exact how doesn’t mean something is impossible. It just means we haven’t found the answer in the quantum field and we need to hold onto hope and feeling the outcome we wish to obtain in the overt world. We all have the autistic epigenetic triggers and some of us have the gene mutations to hold onto hope. We just have to stop focusing on how. When we embrace hope the answer come to us because like attracts like and the universe and God and the quantum field bring the answers to us. You are a miracle but you also are a magnet. Allow yourself to attract the answers not more darkness.

I dont kniw how we get the people left fighting this war for my Dad to stop. I dont know how I am going to get a job. But I do know we all need to hold onto hope and we need to help remind the hopeless people that there is hope. There is hope for everyone even if they have taken part in the destruction. God is forgiving and we will be forgiving. Sure we are allowed to be angry at those who have hurt us, but it’s a lot easier to forgive people when they stop hurting us.

Please everyone in my Dads cult stop hurting us all. We believe in the miracle you are. If you weren’t a miracle you wouldn’t be alive. Please have hope with us all. We deserve better and you do too. But you have to believe you deserve better first. You are alive and have survived everything so you have earned proof that you deserve better because you are a miracle. The how will appear when you accept what is and feel into the hope that this reality provides.

We all are miracles. God doesn’t make junk, he makes miracles. You deserve hope because you deserve better. No one is excluded from hope or better.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Wednesday September 7th 2022 1222am moon in capricorn Sun in virgo

Wednesday September 7th 2022 12:22am Moon in Capricorn Sun in Virgo Interpersonal Communication

Today, I talked to Amber. This means my emotions were used as a weapon against me as well as my humanity and my heart. However, I rarely take part in communication let alone interpersonal communication. Sure, I dream of having things go back to the way they were before my Grandma Kudearoff died. But I’m smart enough to know that will never happen. My family will never be my family. I will never get my cousin Jessica back. She died when I was 8 right along with my Grandma Kudearoff. My Brother will always view me as the enemy because I have the birthrights he has been promised. My family will forever try to kill me. You all are closer to my family than my family will ever be. And I’m okay with that. Sure, I still mourn all that has been taken from me. But that’s just because I spent most of my life not understanding what was happening. Its been super confusing.

However, today Amber and interpersonal communication with her made the pieces fall into place. And not just the pieces on how they have manipulated me for a lifetime with their feelings because they are addicted to them. But I saw how I fit into the war games on a worldwide level and just how entrenched I am in each of your families. Let me explain:

Today, Amber said all she cared about was Olivia her granddaughter. This is the child that inherits her birthrights. Per war games and rules of narcissism, this child is an extension of her. People with cluster b personality disorders cannot differentiate between them and others. Most people in the war games for a lifetime from families who heavily invest in them have cluster b personality disorders because of the toxins and parasites and poor kidney heart and liver functions not to mention the killer c diff infections. This is why my Grandma Kudearoff was somewhat good to me. I was supposed to be her in the war games. I was an extension of herself. This is why she treated me well and Jessica too. We were her legacy. She may have been a narcissist with a killer c diff infection and failing health but we were her legacy. She took care of us as well as she could because we represented the fruits of her labor for lifetime. She had 10 kids so it was a lot of labors. Bad joke but it was funny no? Lol

The fact that my Dad has hijacked the war games, but I am willing to fight for order and the way things have been intended to be means I have become an extension of everyone who has a legacy they wish to preserve in the war games. I have become a part of all the powerful people in every group of the war games. Without me everything they have worked for their whole lives is endangered. Without me there will be no fruits to their labors. It all will have been for nothing.

My Grandma Kudearoff was raised in an orphanage in Russia or China. I forget which one, but she spoke Russian and was born in China. Anyways, she moved mountains to end up in Springfield Oregon with her 8 living children and husband. If someone would have threatened to take away everything she worked for, I would have feared for their life in the overt world. If there was any way to eliminate this said threat, she would have found it. Because her legacy and life’s work depended on her finding it.

Tonight I realized I am in each one of your families. I am in the farmers families, the Koreans families, and all the middle men families because without me you all will be robbed of everything your families have worked for for generations. I say this because I talk to you all like you are my family. I have treated you all like the family I have always wanted and with love. However, I never understood just how much you all really are my family. I am member of each and everyone of your families by default just by birthrights. I am an extension of you all. Without me your legacies will die. I never understood why you all have protected me so much until tonight. You all protect me because it’s a form of self preservation. I can completely get on board with this. Because if it had not been for my Grandma Kudearoff valuing self preservation I would have never known love. I wouldn’t have humanity if people could not be counted on to take part in self preservation. Others being selfish and valuing self preservation above all else has always been my saving grace. When I started blogging people left me alone because of self preservation. I had no clue what I was doing a decade ago. I was just documenting my life. And it saved me.

Here I am unable to do much for myself, but today I realized just how much the world and every fancy family and person with a birthright and/or a fancy brain is invested not only in my survival but in my ability to thrive and overcome the obstacles and destruction. My success leads to you all retaining what you have worked for your whole life. What your families have worked for for generations.

This is why you all are so kind to me when you can be. I still dont understand the war games or my birthrights fully. And I still dont see myself as fancy. But I understand being an extension of someone because of my grandma Kudearoff. She treated me the best anyone has ever treated me and most people feared her. I suppose this why the farmers and koreans dont scare me. Scary people always protect me. They are the ones who are the best towards me. It always has been like this. Only people who dont have powerful birthrights have destroyed me looking for more power for themselves.

Today, I realized how safe I am because you all will keep me safe. Sure, I have to stay alive and endure the destruction for a bit longer. But eventually you all will get to me and you all will have no problem helping me get a little revenge on the people who have tried to destroy me for privilege because they were trying to destroy you too. I’m not big on revenge, but I like to keep the option open cause I’m human and I think about it. But I’m more excited that I have a huge family. You all are my family and that makes me feel not so alone in all of this. I need that to survive. So I’m going to bask in just how much family I finally have while you all figure out how to get us all out of this situation and restore the checks and balances and places of power we all agree need to exist. Logical order is something we all agree on, because we need logical order to reach our potential as a collective.

Thank you all for being my family. I have waited a lifetime to find you all.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Tuesday September 6th 2022 What Do You All Know

Tuesday September 6th 2022 Moon in Capricorn Sun in Virgo What Do You All Know

Today, I did the overt world and interpersonal communication. It’s so overrated. But I did it. I had an onboarding experience at a temp agency and tomorrow I interview with the client. If everything goes well I start the next day, which would be Thursday. I’m not sure I understand the covert rules that apply to the overt world so I’m not getting my hopes up. But I do have some clean clothes to wear to work if it does pan out. I dont even know what time the interview is besides between 130pm and 3pm near gateway. People like to keep me on a need to know basis in an effort to spike my cortisol. The key to not allowing this to work is non attachment which is difficult and not always possible.

I saw Amber today and made sure Haywood has somewhere to go while I work. He got moved to the attic but it should be quieter for him there. Amber gave me a hard time about Haywoods health and tried to shame me about his lupus. But he has lost weight and is so much happier and healthier than last time she saw him. And I have taken him to the vet, but unless they can change the ph of the water we get there is not much they can do. Sure, I will take him to get his teeth taken care of after we get an apartment and I save a couple thousand dollars to do so.

Then she tried to do the whole what are you going to do with your life thing. I told her I’m happy and healthy and that’s a lot more than I have had most of my life. But I do intend to get a job and get an apartment.

Then she tried to tell me fasting Haywood was dumb and animals dont fast. And that fasting doesn’t heal or fix anything.

Boy when I write it down, it was a lot more efforts to try to brainwash me than I originally thought.

My whole life I have tried so hard to have a plan and create forward movement in my life. In Vegas I gave up and just sat there and played dead. I didn’t even journal or work. I just smoked pot and shopped and did self care stuff. It looked like I was doing nothing, but I was figuring out my body and how to care for myself.

Now I have given up again a bit in the overt world. I’m not going to spin my wheels and stress myself out trying to get ahead in the overt world. I still try more than I should, but I’m not going to try to manifest everything I deserve in this moment because it would be insane to try. I literally am just trying to get a job and not a job that is complete destruction. I may look like I’m doing nothing, but really I’m always doing puzzles in my mind. I am still figuring out my body, the world, and war games. And for now that’s okay. This is enough for me in this moment because this moment is not forever. Eventually my parents will die. They have destroyed themselves for a lifetime. Their death is even something the covert war cannot save them from. It may be many years, but they will die. And per war games rules you cannot have a child with birthrights like mine and not leave them something. My mom would already be dead if this was possible. They were killing her last year when I made my run for it.

Throughout the past 5 years I have taught myself how to survive with as little as possible. I dont need much, but I do need a job. Haywood and I can survive in a small apartment or studio and payoff mu credit card debt in about a year or 18 months. Sure everyone will poison me and try to complicate my life, but they have done that for a lifetime. The more I keep to myself the more people do not have a chance to complicate my life. I can spend the next couple years reading books from the library and putting puzzles together. The library only costs $120/year and it’s free if I find a home in city limits. I have excellent rental history and I have written all down. I understand how to deal with all the poisons now too. I dont need anything hugely amazing to happen I just have to survive. However, I have spent most of my life surviving alone. So this is no different. The only difference now is I understand what is happening.

I dont personally need to have children. I kind of want children but I think it’s most because I crave oxytocin. Which I can get in other ways. However, you all need me to have children. I dont know how you all are going to help me do this. But I’m 41 and the more poison I endure the more damage to my reproductive organs. So if you all want me to do right by you all, you all got to help me. And I’m going to need amazing things to happen in my overt world in order to create the security I need in order to reproduce. Just like how I have told you all that you are just like me. It’s TRUE. What you all do will dictate what I am able to do for you all. I’m not looking for privilege. But I’m also a realist and I know my little dog was kidnapped. You all know everyone will try to kidnap kill and brain wash my children. And you all know I need more than 1 in order for us to really be safe. And I cant leave them with a babysitter and go to work. They probably should not go to public school. Probably not even private school. Being a mom will end up being my full time job and then some raising the future leaders of the war games is not the trivial experience my family makes it out to be. They used to take great efforts on me until I revolted and said something about the sexual abuse at age 4. However, they never cared for anyone well after that moment because they were all dying inside and their health was failing and they all took that out on their children. I refuse to be like that. I will love my children, protect them, and educate them as much as possible about everything I can.

However I am not going to be able to do this without you all. I can learn to be happy just talking with you all about how to overcome the destruction in your covert daily life. But until I have children you will never get to escape the destruction. Right now, we can overcome. But my birthrights give us a way out of the destruction. We dont have to live like this. Now we all know this is a choice. We choose to live like this when we fear my Dad and allow him to bully us. Living in fear means we submit to the destruction and accept it with learned helplessness.

Think back to last year, did you ever think the farmers, the Koreans, and the middle men would be working together on anything? We have done the impossible. We must continue to do the impossible. I really dont have too many steaks in this game. It’s just me and my Haywood. If he lives to be old that’s still only 10years or maybe 14 if I’m super lucky. But after Haywood dies there is no one I care about enough to need to change the world for. However you all have families. Not only children but grandchildren. The war games and birthrights will continue to make you all breed. You will always have people to love and care about. The future of the world matters for you. I don’t love anyone human enough to change the world for, but I do love humanity and I do believe in doing the right thing. So you all luck out.

Koreans you all have the most people with the fancy brains. The middle men have a lot of fancy brains too. I suppose all the war games have fancy brains. I cant tell you all how to help me. I need you all to figure it out together. I need you all to work together so I can help all of you. I dont know all the rules or all of anything when it comes to the war games and my Dads cult. But there literally are a whole world of you all and just one of me. You all have the answers. You just have to come together and figure out what to do and how to do it. Its literally a world against a cult that threatens us all. All the powerful leaders of all groups agree they would like to overcome my Dads cult. Well, my Dad pretends to be a God but he is human and not immortal. He will die. Sure some people may follow my brother but not many. My brother does not have the salesmanship that my Dad and I have. My brother is an overt leader who believes in destruction. He will destroy the people who follow him even more than my Dad does. So the threat of my Dads power dies with him. It may take some years to fully sizzle out, but it will because people dont enjoy destruction when they overtly understand what is happening to them for very long.

So we must prepare for the changing of the guard and the death of my mom and dad. The farmers can control the kudearoffs and my brother more than they can my Dad. The Koreans can also help with controlling them. And the middle men can help by no longer carrying out their orders. It’s a simple equation that will just take some time and patience because we have already started the process.

However, they will continue to try to kill me because my birthrights come without checks and balances. They will forever act like repo men trying to repossess what they gave me. Myself having children and knowing people I can trust these children with if something happens to me is the only way for us all to escape the destruction. It’s the only way for our grandchildren to escape the destruction. It sucks that this is the only option. But we need to be grateful this option exists and my reproductive organs are in tact. In Vegas they covertly tried to get me to have them removed. So we are blessed I believe in healing and health on so many levels.

So I address the world and everyone in it, when I say you need to figure this out for you. All ideas need to be sent to the people in places of power. Allow those ideas to make their way to the leaders. This is a worldwide brainstorming session. We don’t have the answers so we need to create and find them. This is what I have done for over 500 days. Figure out the rules, find the leaders, share my ideas… now I need you all to do this because I dont know all the rules and I probably never will until someone explains them to me. However you all were raised to follow the rules.

And the leaders were born to make decisions for us. We can count on them to make the best decisions because their families places of power depend on them making good decisions in this moment. If my Dad and brother are able to hijack the war games power dynamics we all will forever be held hostage just like I have been my whole life.

My children are the only thing that can save you all from living a life like I have lived. You all have to save yourselves. I cant d o it alone. I have never been able to do this on my own. You all have helped me through every step of the way. Well finally we have the world tuned in and we see we all are on the same side. Now we work together to move mountains. I’m just a representation of the war games. I have never invested in them before 500 days ago. However most of you all have lived and breathed the war games your whole lives. And my Dad seeks to threaten what you have lived by and make it obsolete. This your chance to fight for what you value. This is your only shot to stand up for what you believe in.

Dont let me down because it will be letting yourselves down.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Monday Labor Day September 5th 2022 Moon in Capricorn Sun in Virgo Sunday Church On Monday

Monday Labor Day September 5th 2022 Moon in Capricorn Sun in Virgo Sunday Church On Monday

I went and spent a couple days out at my Grandma Kudearoff’s grave. I forgot about Sunday church. The poisons have been bad, but also I was just in my own little world. I didn’t plan anything to say really, but let’s just do a few of my rambles and see where they take us. I do have a few realizations I would like to share.

So you remember how you have a civilization in your gut bugs. The civilization runs and feeds off proteins and the tourists run and feed off carbs. And you remember how the systems, immunizations, and baby formula/foods set you up to have a self destruct button in your civilization gut bugs. Well, today I realized that our implanted self destruct button interferes with insulin sensitivity and processing carbs correctly. It’s gets better and there is more let me explain.

So when I went from being vegetarian to being meat based I was unable to process insulin correctly even though I was not eating sugar at all and very few carbs. As time went on it got worse and worse. It made no sense. But your gut bacteria is what dictates how insulin sensitive you are. Diabetes and all other autoimmune diseases are really just an overgrowth of bad bacteria in your body. All disease starts in your gut. Recently I started eating junk food to get my calories in and it’s not just a little junk food. It’s a lot of junk food. I eat about 3000 calories of cookie, ice cream, and low sodium potato chips every other day. It’s the most junk food I have eaten probably ever on a regular basis. I’m not sure I will continue this, but for right now it’s working. It has very little dietary fiber and most of that fiber comes from resistant starch from the potatoes. This feeds my gut bugs that produce butyrate which helps with inflammation and healing pretty much everything. Until today I thought I was keeping my colon pretty clear of protein. However, even though I eat raw steak to bypass my colon, i am still getting 50grams of protein from the junk food. If i switched to a different kind of ice cream from butter pecan it would probably go down a bit. Never mind i googled, it would only bring the protein down a handful of grams. This is why vegetarians get enough protein without even trying. I dont know how much we really need, but I do know my gut bugs feel so much better when I eat as minimal protein as possible that goes through my intestines and colon. Raw meat is awesome. But the less protein I feed my colon intestines and gut bug civilization the more I am regulating my insulin levels better. There is no real good logical explanation other than this. Because I am eating ounces of sugar every time I eat.
Now take into account that the immunization requirements changed in 1990/1991. My Brothers generation is even less able to regulate their insulin levels because they are required to have more immunizations. This is another reason why they are a subhuman species. The less effectively you process insulin the less nutrition you absorb from your food. The more malnutrished you are the more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion you are. The less effectively you process insulin the more you are addicted to your emotions. By the time my Brother was born my Dad knew I was unable to be controlled with the gut bugs he created even though they starved me and gave me a killer c diff infection. So he upped the anity with my brother generation. And this doesn’t even take into account all the environmental epigenetic triggers that cause us to process insulin maladaptively.

So when we look at the melineals aka the 90s kids and we compare them to the 1980s kids we see how much damage can be done with just a few shots and epigenetic triggers. I can only imagine what the covid shots did to everyone. Now do you understand why it was a series of shots and not just one? Kind of scary, well not kind of really scary.

So eating protein again is scary because 50grams on my eating days is a lot. My body definitely needs the fasting day afterwards to regulate my gut bacteria. For now this seems to be working. I do get bloated and have gas after I eat but I am eating a lot of junk food. After my fasting day I’m back to skinny, but I can tell I’m eating more fat than I need because my skin is loose and I retain water around my core. My heart is reacting to all the fat, but they have been poisoning me a lot too. So I’m doing good with just eating every other day. I have gained a few pounds back, but I needed that. We are not meant to eat a high fat diet. I enjoy eating a moderate amount of fat. However, I’m liking eating high carb. My body does well on carbs when my gut bacteria is in check. It has been about since mid July since I ate protein and that seemed to be a good amount of time especially with 22 days fasted in August and 10 days fasted in July. Life and health is all about your gut bugs and microbiome. My brothers generation needs to fast to regulate their bugs. They are the first generation that was born with a shorter life span then their parents. Why dont we ever talk about this in society? I swear people are so quick to talk about the weather but they never want to talk about the important things.
Not eating fiber is the biggest thing for me. Fiber grows C Diff and I’m pretty sure it grows both your civilization and your tourist gut bugs. Fiber kills my intestines. I can handle some of it, if it’s from the right sources. But most of it kills me. I can handle gluten, but whole wheat is crazy awful. Gluten feeds c diff and irritates people with autism. If you have a child with Autism which you all do if you have children, cut out dairy and gluten and they will behave better because they won’t have as much pain in their intestines and guts. We all have more nerves in our intestines than we have in the rest of our bodies. Your gut tells your brain what to do. If your gut is inflamed that message will not be relayed as easily or correctly.

I dont know how to stop protein from getting into your intestines and colon without fasting or just eating raw meat. But I encourage you all to do some form of protein sparing. Earlier this year I ate organic yogurt and it made my stomach feel so much worse than ice cream that’s cheap and has bioengineered ingredients. So we really have to rethink everything. Yogurt has more protein than ice cream. That’s the only real difference I could think of.

Do you know what’s in the middle of Oreos? Its palm oil aka saturated fats. I had thought saturated fats were okay because I ate them when I was meat based and healing my leaky gut autoimmune diseases and cancer. However, I no longer think we are designed to eat much saturated fats. I think if you are sick and need to heal your gut so it stops leaking you should do whatever you need to in order to heal it. However, carnivore keto and being meat based are just a band aide on a broken bone unless you fix the underlying problems. I love meat now, mostly just raw meat, but I dont see myself giving it up any time soon. However if the poisons stop and I got more of an ordinary life I would definitely cut back on my meat consumption. Getting to eat rice has been a dream of mine since like 2017. One day I’m going to eat rice. My body can handle it now, but I just have to wait till I can cook it for myself so I dont get overly poisoned. There is a reason for blue zones and people who eat a balanced diet living a long time. However we have to take into account our genetic modifications and the motives of the systems to make us lesser than and dependent on the medical system. Even my Brother takes pharmaceutical drugs to help him digest his food. My mom has been on a cocktail of pharmaceuticals since a little after my brother was born. I was on anxiety pills for the majority of my adult life. My Dad and the systems do this because it makes us small and manageable. When we depend on a drug to have a decent quality of life we will forever be controllable and manageable. You can heal yourself just like I have. It’s a never ending process in the current systems we live in. Health is forever going to be a journey. You are never done being healthy, it’s something you will forever have to work at. That doesn’t mean you are broken it means you are constantly evolving. What works for you now, will not always work for you. Your gut bugs are constantly changing and they require your support.
However, the biggest part of this ramble I need to stress to you all is that we need to help my brothers generation and the generations that have followed to find health and heal. They have never known what it feels like to feel good. They have never woken up not in pain. They have never known potential. They are the future and we need to help them heal. They deserve so much more than what they were dealt. Diet is the most important step. They need to fast and eat less protein and less chicken and pork big time. Chicken and pork are acts of destruction. I had not eaten pork until being at my moms house last year besides in Arizona a bit. Pork was the one meat my mom would allow me to eat when I was little. She didn’t let me have things to be nourished. She only fed me destruction. Pork is riddled with omega 6s and c diff. I ate a pork chop last year and my intestines bleed. Gross I know. But pork is the only thing that has ever done this to me before. It was scary. When you eat bacon you are endangering your insides. It’s hard to give up because its addictive. But there are so many other things that we can become addicted to that make us better humans instead of lesser than.

I’m high and rambling and everything is glowing so excuse my lack of focus. But I need you all to help the 90s kids find health by cooking them foods low in protein and low in fiber. Resistant starches are good but keep them low. FODMAPS are important. Low fodmap foods especially veggies are great because they dont feed your gut bacteria and right now we all have an overgrowth of bad gut bugs. They literally are meant to kill us and make us live in disease, depression, and anxiety. Please start skipping breakfast. Start cutting out chicken and pork. Eat more beef. If you can stomach it, eat raw beef. You will be shocked how amazing you feel afterwards. Its literally a rush of nutrition. I have never found a food that makes me feel as good as raw beef. Fermented foods come close. But if you have leaky gut ferments will make you have a histamine response. So heal your gut. The 90s kids need to heal their gut. I’m pretty sure formula nowadays creates leaky gut and most of us never recover from it. I was never able to fully recover until this adventure and being forced to not only fast but eat raw meat and not much else due to the poison. The most revolutionary thing we can do is heal our guts. My gut is so healed I rarely notice when I get a flea bite anymore. My histamine response is so low I dont notice it itching until I get really poisoned then I feel act up again. Are you that person who swells up huge with any bug bite? That’s your gut. Do you have anxiety or depression? That’s partially your gut, but its also the amygdala damage we are all designed to have. Heal your gut I swear it will help. Any kind of dis ease you have will improve if you heal your gut. You deserve to feel good. You deserve happiness. Your birthright is to be a happy and healthy person even when you wake up. We all need to take raw garlic because when we have leaky gut parasites leak into our bodies. Parasites are linked to everything. There is even a parasite linked to bad driving. There is a parasite linked to mental health conditions. Do you have a cat? Cats carry the parasite linked to mental health issues. Did your grandmother or mother ever touch a cat? You may have been born with this parasite. Have you ever fasted for a prolonged time period or done a parasite cleanse? If you haven’t you dont even understand how good you are supposed to feel.

I’m rambling, but I’m starting to realize the middle men have not heard all the things I have figured out about health and how much we are set up to fail. They pride themselves on taking part in the destruction but they dont understand the whole story. Or maybe a lot of them are just too sick to want better for anyone including themselves. Health is not some unobtainable thing. Its something within reach, but it takes conscious efforts and trying a lot of different things because we aren’t all the same. And we all have different bodies and kinds of disease. You are an individual and so is your mind, body, and soul. You just have to learn to listen to them. They are constantly talking to you. You just have to learn their languages.

So tomorrow I have an interview thing set up with a temp company. Fingers crossed I will finally be getting a job. Sure, maybe the insurance lady from last week will call back, but we all know that’s highly unlikely. So fingers crossed I get this call center position. It’s not going to be great money and they will try to destroy me. But it’s a job. It starts at 6am but that means I get off at 2pm so I can look for another job if I want. When I lived in Sierra Vista I worked at a group home at 6am in the mornings and went to real estate school at the same time. I can do this because all I have to do now is work, talk to you all, and take care of myself and Haywood. I cant say I’m excited to start working again, but I can say I’m excited for forward movement and to see what the future holds for us all. I’m ready for my overt life to get better. It’s been a really hard life, but especially since 2017 its been a war zone. However I have healed and I keep healing. And I want you all to know what it feels like to overcome. Because without overcoming so much I probably would have given up. We all need to experience our own power to understand the magic we all possess. I’m not special. You all are just like me. You all have the power to overcome. You just need to prove it to yourself. Seeing it is believing. sometimes it takes seeing it in order to believe it. Are you ready to prove to yourself you are powerful? Because you have what it takes, you were just never supposed to know you have what it takes. You are the answer you have been searching for.

Love Always
Nicole D Graves

Saturday September 3rd 2022 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Virgo A Revolution Without Internet Saturday Edition

Saturday September 3rd 2022 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Virgo A Revolution Without Internet

I am so beyond pleased and proud of you all. Thank you for doing everything you can to keep me safe and help me change the world for us all to get better. You all make me feel safe. Sure, I still experience daily attempted murder profusely, but as long as I have a way to communicate with you all we can work together to create better. And one day I will be safe and you all’s freedom will be safe with me. It still blows my mind how important I am in the war games, because I still just feel ordinary and not even ordinary because I dont get ordinary. My whole life I have been made to feel less than, but you all make me feel like I’m one of you all. Thank you. Not only have you let me feel heard and seen, but you have validated my worthiness. I hope to do the same for all of you all.

I see a bunch of middle men who feel disempowered. They feel powerless not only in the war games but in their lives. Pretty crazy when you step back and look at the situation as it really is. The middle men destroy one another more than most. They are the ones who are most likely to be alone in the world because they destroy each other, especially their families. My Dad got my uncles to kill their parents. How many people do you know alone in the world because of the destruction of their own hands. My Dad wants my Brother to be alone in the world. He wants me to die and to kill my mom and then my Dad himself will die leaving my brother all alone. That’s not family or love or even smart or logical. We are pack animals we are weak when we are alone. This is why my Dad isolates not only me, but all of us as much as possible. The less access to others we have the fewer options and opportunities we have. And yet, the middle men view destroying their limited families as demonstrations of their power. And it’s not like they have extra children like the dark side. The middle men are like the Aryans and have regular size families. Rarely do they plan ahead to have a spare or two like the dark side.

So middle men feel powerless and destroy each other to prove their power. Yet, they still dont feel their power. I encourage you all to look around you. Look at your families, your children, and your friends. You all have the worst epigenetics out of any subgroup in the war games. And the systems are not set up to declare a covert genocide on you all. You all declared a covert genocide on each other. Sure my Dad sold you all on destruction and the systems are set up to destroy us all. But you all are the ones who have used your power to destroy one another. Look around you again, you all are so powerful you have destroyed each other down to a gene level. This is more destruction than any other group has done to their own group, without the help of a covert genocide against them by the systems. Do you all realize your power now? The generations to follow you will have learning disabilities till the end of time unless you all can breed with others who do not share your extreme gene mutations. If that’s not power I dont know what is. You felt hurt and powerless so you took it out on your great great great great grandchildren. Seems a bit extreme. But I suppose we can all give you all the benefit of the doubt and take into account you may have not known what you were doing. However, you all are very short. And this is because you starve your children of protein. You had to have known this was going to have a negative effect beyond just stunting your children’s growth. Plus, you all really do this to #2s who’s job is to reproduce and carry on the legacy of your family and your genes. Your genes that you believe to be greater than, but you literally wage war on these genes to make them less than. Did you all really think this through? Because it lacks logic on so many levels. I hope this is something you all can blame on following the orders of my Dad. But you know he may have given the orders, but you all used your powers to make his wishes come true. Even though it meant destroying what you value and pride yourself in.

So to all the middle men out there you are powerful. Look at your people. Look at your families. You have destroyed each other very close to the point of no return. I hope this is something you all can learn from and grow from because without growth you all are on a dark path that is not going to get better.

Why do you all like your children to do meth? Do you believe that will make them stronger, just like you believe c diff will make them stronger? Why do so many of your children go to jail and prison? Your group makes up a large percentage of the criminal systems. You know why this is? Its because of gene mutations, epigenetic triggers, and vitamin and mineral deficiencies. So you starve your kids as children, get them to do meth as teenagers, and then they go to jail or prison and you all wonder why. And you are even so full of yourself to blame it on them being ungrateful or not good people. When in actuality you did this to them. My uncle Dave did this to my cousin Jessica. It was not her fault she ended up in prison. She was conditioned and raised to be who she became. It wasn’t her destiny, it was her environment and conditioning. Why do you all do this? Has anyone ever told you that you are to blame for your own sins and the ripple effects they produce? Because you are at fault. You are not powerless. You are not the victim. Your children are the victims. Now Jessica’s son Matthew he is probably a product of his conditioning just like Jessica was and is.

My Grandma Kudearoff never told me to look out or care for anyone, but my cousin Jessica. I love her so much because she shared so much of the rough life I experienced as a child. After my Grandma died it changed but up till then we were treated very similarly by orders of my Grandma Kudearoff. We were equals. I was never raised to be greater than. If anything I was raised to be less than.

So I understand that you middle men were raised to be less than. However, it was a lie. You all are equals. Just as Jessica and I are equals. My Grandma Kudearoff told me to stand up for her because she wanted Jessica to be my equal. I understand in the war games many people may not view her as my equal, but they cant see what I can see. Jessica cannot even see what I can see. And you all cannot see what I can see.

We are equals. The middle men are more powerful than they ever imagined. You all are more powerful than you ever imagined. You can use your power to continue to destroy each other or you can use your power to heal each other and create a better life not only for you, but for your great grandchildren you have been punishing. My Dad did not have the power to destroy you all like you have been destroyed. That was your own power. You destroyed yourselves. And you have so much power you all did the most damage out of anyone. I know that’s shocking and hopefully a bit overwhelming. But that’s how powerful you all are. You all can move mountains if you choose to. And I really hope you do because I want my cousin Jessica back one day. And if you all dont choose to be revolutionary I will never get her back. When my grandma Kudearoff told me to look out for her, she was really telling me to look out for all of you all. It’s been about 35 years since my Grandma Kudearoff told me this, but she said it a lot because she wanted to stick. And here I am telling you all, you are my equals. I want better for you all because you all deserve so much better. But you all have to want that better for yourself first. You have to believe you deserve it. I cant say anything to change your mind for you. You are in charge of your own feelings. You have to decide you deserve better. It’s a feeling in your heart and soul you have had all along, you just have been told to ignore it for a lifetime. That little voice you hear and that ache in your chest. That is your soul trying to cry out for help. That is your destiny asking to be allowed to flourish. You have to choose to listen though. It’s the hardest choice you ever will make. You have to choose yourself and your families and your unborn grandchildren over my Dad and being his follower.

I’m not looking to fill my Dads shoes. I’m not a cult leader. I do not believe myself to be a God. I’m just Nicole. I just have lived a really hard life and spent a lot of time reading books and talking to God. I’m not special, I too am just a product of my conditioning and my gene mutations. I’m just like you all in that sense. I just have different experiences and different gene mutations. But we all are human and we all deserve better.

And you know how you all can help us get better. Allow me to have a job. You all are allowed the most power in the overt world because my Dad views you all as manageable due to your place in the covert war. I’m not asking for anything I don’t deserve or for privilege. I’m asking please let me be your equal. In order for us all to heal, I need to not only survive, be able to financially provide for myself and keep myself safe from everyone my Dad motivates to try to kill me. But I need to breed in order to ensure you all are safe from the rest of the Graves and Kudearoff families. I wish it could be different. But then again I am grateful to have found a way out for all of us. Now I just have to manifest this way out in the overt world. And here I am in the overt world alone everyday. I am fighting this war alone and I have been fighting my whole life. I just need you all to help me so I can continue to help you all. I want to continue to move mountains for everyone. But it looks like you all get the deciding vote on if we all get potential in the long run. Because unless I can get a job that allows me a career we all are screwed. I can tell you all everything I know about the destruction, but without playing my role that my birthrights have handed me the farmers, the Koreans, and your leaders and I are pretty powerless. I was born to be your leader, but I also was born to breed and bring together so many people with having children who are the leaders of tomorrow. And it all starts with a job. The farmers and the koreans and the middle men leaders have been fighting for me to be treated fairly in the overt world. But until I convince you all that I deserve to be your equal, we all are a bit doomed. Please allow me to be your equal so I can fight for us all by being ordinary and fulfilling my roles in the war games. And so I can have my cousin Jessica back because being alone is really hard.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Friday September 2nd 2022 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Virgo The Irish Middle Men

Friday September 2nd 2022 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Virgo The Irish Middle Men

The Irish are the ones in charge of the middle men. However, my Dad has taken over the leadership of this group because they were the least threatening in the war games power dynamics. So he could control them with the privilege he handed out very easily. This is why I have been surrounded by people with freckles my whole life, but I never really thought twice about it. My cousin Dylan looks so Irish and I never noticed so does my cousin Shelbi.

I was not raised to be racist. My parents couldn’t covertly explain racism to me because I would have told them that was wrong. I dont understand racism. I do understand that equality is something we have yet to achieve in this country. Even though the constitution and the civil rights movement of 1960s promises us all equal playing fields.

So my Dad has hijacked a whole group of people from their rightful leaders within the war games. Did the middle men used to have farmers? I hope they did because I would like them to have farmers again. So they have a voice and are represented in the war games power dynamics and checks and balances.

My Dad hijacking the middle men is why they have such bad epigenetics and gene mutations. He is the reason they are riddled with the gene mutation fragile X Syndrome. This should be a lesson to us all. When we see what has happened to the middle men in 40 years we see what joining a cult aimed at destruction could do to us all. It’s literal proof of why we need to protect ourselves.

The middle men have been engrained in my life and my destruction since the very beginning. And yet, they were the very last group my Dad used to create my Truman show and destroy me since I started this revolution. They are the ones who have the most to gain from joining my revolution. I literally want them to have what they have been fighting for. I want them to be seen and heard and apart of the decision making. My Dad marginalized them so they would be controllable and he could conquer them and become their false God.

So how do we convince the middle men left fighting this war for my Dad that they have more to gain by joining us than continuing to be a cult member? Well, we could say look at your genes and the effects of what following a cult leader has done not only to you, but your children and grandchildren. But they would probably take that offensively. We could say we want them to be represented in the war games power dynamics and decision making. But that would require them listening to their rightful leaders and following rules. They dont seem to like rules even though rules give us all boundaries that allow us to stay safe.

So they dont care about their genes, their children, their grandchildren, their learning disabilities, their rightful leaders, etc. What do these people care about? Now that’s my question. What do people so invested in destroying the world really care about?

Well, they like things because they have incredible c diff infections that cause autism and allow for them to connect with objects more than people. However, they are so sick they cant even take care of their things. So, they sign up to destroy everything so they can get more things. But they are so sick those things fade into junk and erode in value quicker because they cant fo the upkeep. They become hoaders but its all mostly junk because they dont take care of their things. I’m not judging I’m just following the logic and things I have seen throughout my life. I dont like to clean either. And oh boy have I ever collected stuff in my life because I just wanted human connection but it wasn’t in the cards for me.

So what if I was able to change the cards the middle men were dealt. Right now you all feel like me. You all think people are just not in the cards for you all. But what if that could change? What if that could change overnight? Would you all be willing to do the right thing for us all?

See us over here in the war games, us over here who seek to follow the rules and not be cult members, we want to include you all. We see that you all have been preyed on and treated unfairly. We see how this has effected you all down to a gene level. It will take you all generations to overcome just the genetic destruction. And on a gene level you all are in desperate need of reproducing with us. Because you all have gene mutations that will continue to exponentially get worse if you all continue to breed with each other. You all’s survival as a race depends on you all mixing with us. If you dont you all will continue to become more of my Dad’s subhuman slave race he has been creating for generations now. You all were his test subjects and the future looks grim for you all without us. You all literally wont survive in human form fir more than a generation or two. You all literally have the most to gain from joining this revolution. And my Dad knows this otherwise he would not have kept you all in the dark as long as he did.

So you know how you all become human again, down to a gene level? You join us and we accept you knowing you were just trying to make the most of a bad situation. We understand you did the best you could with the cards you were dealt. We all have done some awful things, but we don’t have to continue to do them and keep ourselves stuck. Its time to do better because you know better now.

So join us and stop being in a cult that literally wants to make you into a slave on a gene level. We want you all to be human with us. We want you all to be seen heard and represented in the war games dynamics. However, currently you all are holding us all hostage. We cant help you all if you continue to hold us hostage. No one is going to want to help you fix your gene mutations and intense epigenetic triggers of you dont stop trying to destroy us to get the upper hand. We are offering you even playing field and to be equals with us in this fight for potential on all levels. We may not agree on all things. But we all agree you all deserve better. And we want to help you get that better. The south Americans, the Scandinavians, and the koreans are all with me and behind me when I say we are waving our white flag. We want you all to join us because you deserve better. And we all apologize for not standing up for you all sooner. But everyone has just been doing the best they could with the hands they were dealt. But it’s time for us all to do better together. Now is the time. We all deserve better. But we all have to come together in peace in order to create better for everyone.

Please join us we want to help you, but we need you to help us too.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Friday September 2nd 2022 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Virgo A Test Of Time

Friday September 2nd 2022 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Virgo A Test Of Time

I got my website back up last night because I connected my domain to my new hosting myself. After being on the phone for hours yesterday and getting the run around, I realized we cannot rely on the internet at all. When we rely on things, products, and/or services it makes us weak because my Dads cult can manipulate these things and people to be weapons of destruction. Independence is the only way to freedom for all of us. So, we are going to continue to do my messages without the internet. I will post on my blog every few days but this way people know they need to find my messages through other avenues to stay up to date in a timely fashion. And maybe by next year we can just do away with my blog completely. That’s the goal. We need to be connected without any possible roadblocks created by my Dad. He made me a communication hub in my mere being. This is what we need to utilize.

So you all heard me last night and you did rely the messages worldwide. That’s so mindblowing and amazing. Thank you to everyone for being revolutionary. I appreciate each and everyone of you all.

I need to talk about me. And ramble because yesterday was really hard. Ever since we removed the people from my Dad’s cult from the war games places of power a couple days ago the poisons have gotten stronger once again. However, the caliber of people has decreased yet again. I am sure my Dad will always be able to find people looking for validation outside of themselves who are selfishly seeking privilege rather than the greater good for us all. This is the ugly side of humanity my Dad has made possible, this does not happen in nature. If someone is greedy and selfish in a natural pack animal situation, the pack isolates or kills or teaches this greedy individual a lesson. And in turn they shape up because not having a pack in the wild is the same as death. Ostracizing the people who associate with my Dad and his professional cult is the natural way to correct the dysfunctions in society he has created. I hope you all are doing your part to make this a reality that people fear enough to not take part in the shenanigans. There is a reason my Dad has isolated me my whole life. It will kill most people.

I tried to call the IRS today and the automated system once again told me that they were too busy to take my call. I got an email to schedule a phone interview for an office job through a temp agency and the link was not working correctly. My Dad is still blocking me from being a fully functioning human being in the overt world. This is not allowed and yet he has done it for a lifetime to try to get me to stop trying. I am not going to stop trying. However, I am mad and frustrated. But I’m not going to let it get to me too much because that will just stress my organs more. And no one needs to stress their organs more because the systems already aim to destroy us all enough. Being calm, patient, and tenacious are the best things for us all. Because we need to keep trying.

Who is immune from my Dad’s reach and cult? The farmers are just like me, we are a bit stuck. Even though the world will listen to us. The Koreans have even more power than the farmers and me, but I’m unsure of how my Dad has them stuck. But he must because otherwise they would have helped me by now in the overt world. I have teamed up with the most powerful people in the war games and yet it’s still not enough. The middle men leaders are getting better at getting their people to follow their rules and orders. I have to admit I was worried about this bunch because they seem to not be accustomed to following rules and orders. But they are shaping up nicely with some time.

My question is why are the Irish people signing up to destroy me still? Or is it beyond race by now and just about the people who join my Dads cult? I am sure tired of race and subgroups. However as I make more progress my Truman show changes especially on YouTube. Canada and Great Britain are big time supporters of my Dads cult. However, I hope last night we were able to get the whole story out to the world because they dont all know what they are fighting for. My Dad never tells anyone the whole truth. Everyone is kept on a need to know basis. But the thing is we all need to know the whole story. People do better when they know it’s an option on the table.

It’s been 521 days and I still dont kniw the right questions or things to say to enable you all to help with my overt world. I just need a job. Preferably a job where my Dad isn’t bossing everyone around me to destroy me. I dont think I have ever had a job like that before. And somehow even though I have a direct line of communication with the world and the most powerful leaders people are still signing up for the privilege to destroy me in the overt world without any signs of fear. My Dad has them in a trance of sorts addicted to privilege and growing their C Diff infections so his influence over them will continue to grow.

I solved lactose intolerance yesterday. Yesterday, I ate about a third of a big container of ice cream. It was butter pecan ice cream. So it even had buttermilk in it on top of cream. However, I took garlic before and a ton afterwards and I did not get diarrhea because the enzymes in the garlic helped to digest the lactose. Plus garlic kills C Diff. So my C Diff infection did not grow from eating the dairy. And garlic feeds your good bacteria and supports your kidneys, liver, and heart. So I overcame the destruction of dairy and ice cream. I’m still a little bloated and gassy, but I ate a third of a container of ice cream that was poisoned. There would be something inhumanely wrong with me if I didn’t have some effects from it. So if you are going to eat dairy just eat raw garlic before and afterwards. It will help you digest and protect you from C Diff and liver damage that dairy is designed for. Koreans I know you all have a problem with dairy just as much as me because of our fancy brains, so eat more raw garlic. Its been helping me stay alive and healthy.

It has been almost a month of me watching food videos like Mukbangs and food competitions. It’s not the best for my insulin levels but I have learned so much about mirror Neurons, gut bacteria, and the destruction that food is designed for. However, my question still is why do you all feed your C Diff infection as if you have the belief it will make you stronger? My family does this. My Mom and Brother have always eaten things that make their infections stronger while making them weaker. My whole life I have been the one in my family with the best eye sight. Because your c diff infection attacks your kidneys and your kidneys not working properly attacks your eyes. My eyesight has gotten really bad since 2017 when A1 left and real bad on this trip. But they heal if you heal your body. My eye sight has always gotten better and worse depending on my health. I never understood this before but I do now. But I still don’t understand why you all think an infection will make you stronger. Do you view your humanity as your greatest weakness? Because growing your c diff infection steals your humanity and makes your mirror Neurons react to people who choose destruction over everything. The stronger your infection the more your mirror neurons will react to everyone. Rather than being picky and only firing rapidly for healthy successful people. This is another reason malnutrition makes you more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. Why do you want to be brainwashed? When you feed your infection, you are giving up control over your mind. And you can still eat some junk occassionally if you take raw garlic or other antifungals or natural antibiotics. So there really is no excuse other than you just don’t want to have to think for yourself. And then if you don’t want to think for yourself you can choose to listen to me and get healthier. Literally all you have to do to get healthier is lay off some of the foods that really feed c diff, but mostly all you have to do is take raw garlic a few times a day and every day. It won’t solve all your problems but it will make everything improve. Once your health improves your mind improves and then you want to do more to help your body, mind and life get better. Raw garlic is one of the most revolutionary things you can do. Just make sure it’s not the garlic grown in China that’s an act of destruction in itself. Even though they poison my garlic it still works. So just do it. Its cheap, it’s easy, and it will save your soul and lessen the disease and pain you feel.

Okay so what’s the magic solution to me getting my overt life together. My thoughts are the sooner we can get people to stop joining my Dads cult the sooner I can have a real life maybe for the first time ever. So the more you all can do to police each other the sooner we can all move forward. This needs to be a worldwide effort. You all can help save me by policing your neighbors and your coworkers and your families and extended families. Do everything you can to explain to people why they need to do better and get healthy. The healthier people are the easier it will be to free them from the mind control they have been conditioned to believe is freewill. Garlic helps with absorbing more nutrients from your food, so cook with fresh garlic and feed the nonbelievers. Eventually they will see things in a whole new light.

Remember to have your one meal a week and create a church within your own families. Church is just creating a space for God to come into your life. God is love. We all need to make room for love in our lives. Love is the opposite of destruction. We need more love.

Anyone who can help me contact the irs and use automated phone systems with more ease I would greatly appreciate your efforts. Anyone who can help me get a job I greatly appreciate. I just need to be able to financially provide for myself in the overt world. Anyone who can help with this in anyway I greatly appreciate. Thank you all for your time and for being you.

Love Always
Nicole D Graves

Thursday September 1st 2022 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Virgo A Revolution Without Internet

Thursday September 1st 2022 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Virgo Testing Testing Is This Thing On?

Hello Everyone!
Tonight we test our ability to stay connected without using the internet. We need to be able to talk even if I cannot access my blog and/or phone. If someone does try to hurt or really kidnap me, I need to know you all will be able to hear me. And not just the people who are in my vicinity. I need to know you all can broadcast me up and down the west coast especially. But I also need to know you all can help me reach the world. I’m not so much a revolution nowadays as I am the war games.
Now I realize I have not been fighting the war games my whole life as much as I have been fighting and surviving my Dad’s cult. I may not agree with everything in the war games, but I love logical order and we all need the order the war games provide us in order to have clear boundaries on how to create success in our own lives. Success should and needs to be able to be something we strive and obtain with hard work and dedication. Not something we do deeds of destruction to be granted with. So the war games have become the revolution. And I’m so very proud of you all for the progress we made yesterday and today.
Removing the people who choose to honor my Dads cult, but still wish to retain their privilege from the war games was us standing up for ourselves like never before. If our birthrights hold us back from overt successes than why should we allow people who hold us back to retain their privilege. Because they are just going to hold us back more and destroy not only us but the systems we live by. You did great and I’m beyond proud to be fighting for the war games with you all. Never in my life did I think when I started this revolution I would be on the same side as the war games. But I’m in such good company. You all are my family and not in the bad way like I want to destroy you and pull the wool over your eyes. But in the good way like we are going to change the world together and create ripple effects of love in the world. When people come together for a common cause and put their differences aside its amazing how powerful we can be. And those differences start to fade because we become family. I’m proud to be one of you all.
So I saw really ordinary people today. There were no morbidly obese people at the grocery stores today. There also were not very educated people at the grocery stores today. The skin color of the people working at Safeway changed over night literally. My Dad really has the lock down on the grocery stores. I still find this shocking. I’m not sure how to overcome his presence in the grocery stores and food supply but we will figure it out. All the answers come with time.

Who are the redheads? Are they the Irish people? Amber is Irish. My friend Christine from Redding is Irish and she has been trying to contact me by phone. Why are the Irish people still fighting this war against me? Why do they believe themselves to be super fancy? I still haven’t figured it out. But they are convinced they are fancy and they have quite the egos to match this fancy.
So Graves is English like Britain English. We have a code of arms or whatever. We are apart of the fancy people there. I dont understand how it works completely, but I know I am the fanciest one in the Graves family and so I’m pretty sure that means the Irish people need to adhere to what I say or at least not try to kill me with my Dad. So tonight I need you all to get my messages to Europe. My Dads cult is worldwide and I need them to understand working for my Dad is Treason and a crime that will displace them from the power they are granted by their war games birthrights.
My Dad’s military army, I need you all to help with this. I know you all listen in and I know a lot of you are #2s. I’m a #2 too. You and me we bleed the same. You could have been born with my birthrights. And I could have been born with yours. We are the same. We all have been assigned the role of protecting the people and the war games. I need you all to help me do my job by doing your job. We need to defend the people from a threat that will take us all out of power if not eliminated soon. This means spreading information. When people know better they do better. We need to allow people the chance to do better. This means the whole world of people. Not just the people on the west coast I have reached personally. I know I have reached all the United states, but I dont know about the world. The world needs to understand my Dads cult is participating in not just creating world war 3, but they are perpetuating world war 2 just on a different continent. The Mexican Berlin Wall will just be the beginning. We are all being destroyed because my dad started his cult with his worldwide military army. His 18 years in the Army was a way for him to create a cult to enslave the world. The military army dropped out and most people who retired from the military dropped out. However there are still people who joined from his military army and graduated into his professional cult worldwide who are partaking in things they dont fully understand. The people I saw fighting today dont fully understand what they are doing. Its frustrating for me because I see things so differently than you all.

Let me explain what I have been studying lately. Your gut bacteria is something that we all subconsciously see/feel. People with more diverse gut bacteria and microbiomes are more influential. This is a survival mechanism. All mammals are wired to survive. Its apart of your reptilian brain. If you are a wild animal it programs your brain to be influenced by the healthiest mammals in your species and or pack. You dont want to take advice from a sick pack member. He probably cant hunt well and you should listen to the pro hunter for survival advice. You are programmed to survive and do well at it, just like all mammals. You need health to survive well.
This mechanism that is built in to your brain involves your mirror neurons. Mirror neurons mean when you see someone do something it makes your brain react as if you are doing the thing. So you see a prime speciment of your species doing something and this makes your mirror Neurons fire like crazy because your brain says hey you need to do this to survive. However, when you see a lesser than version of your same species doing something your mirror neurons are not as quick to fire because they see the actions that version of your species as not as desirable because that speciment does not have as desirable gut bacteria diversity aka influence aka health. Your survival brain only wants you to be more like people who are good at survival. Your brain uses your mirror neurons to make you better by making people with more diverse gut bacteria more influential. So you see someone winning at life and your mirror Neurons fire like crazy so you are more motivated to win at life too and so their actions are something you view as desirable. Your brain wants you to be successful. It wants you to mirror successful people. Your gut bacteria is how your mirror Neurons and brain dictate success and who to view with influence. This is all subconscious most of the time. Unless you consciously think about what is happening in your brain and study it like I do.
The systems my Dad has created to con us all into destroying ourselves use our mirror Neurons against us. I suppose the war games always have used mirror Neurons, but my dad takes it further. This is why he has all his cult members poison each other all the time. It erodes their gut bacteria. The more he erodes their bacteria, the more influential he will become. My Dad has awful gut bacteria. He has cancer. He has a super bad C Diff infection. In order for you not to see past the smoke and mirrors and wizard behind the curtain he needs to erode your gut bacteria as much as possible and quickly as possible. This way he has influence over your reptilian brain before your logical brain has a chance to say hey does this guy really know what he is talking about?
It’s all smoke and mirrors and he’s just a wizard behind the curtain.

Today at the grocery stores, I saw people with eroded gut bacteria who were listening to their reptilian brains and mirror neurons. They are lost and dont even know it. Smart people know when to say when. When you know better you do better because even your reptilian brain will say hey we are about survival. No one wants to sign up for a suicide mission when they fully understand what is happening. The people I saw today did not fully understand. We need to make sure everyone fully understands what is happening. Life is about survival even in the most basic and simple parts of our brains. People who sign up to be apart of my Dad’s cult view it as survival of the fittest. We need to let them know it’s not. Its survival for no one. My Dad represents death. People need to see this. I am unsure of how to convince the ordinary people I saw taking part in his cult today of what’s happening. But I know you all can convince them because you all knew they existed. I had never seen people like I saw today before. But you all not only knew they existed but you have interacted with them before. And these kind of people exist worldwide. I need everyone worldwide to know being associated with my Dad’s cult is a death sentence. It will hijack your mirror neurons and make them a weapon against you. It will be the death of you. And the weapon is your brain, your reptilian brain. The same brain that reptiles have will be used against you. And it will cost you your life.

I realized today how my Dad changed and died when I was young. Something happened when I was about 4yrs old, about 1985ish. My Dad quit the military and stayed home with me eating ice cream in pjs and having PTSD. My mom found great joy in it, so it has to be something pretty bad. I believe it has something to do with the middle east and then the gulf war. Something happened to my Dad in the military that made him quit. He was traumatized. And he only ate ice cream for months. Ice cream grows c Diff very quickly. Especially when you eat it in great quantities without eating much else. This is when the last part of my Dad’s humanity died. He never really glowed big with happiness again after that. He always was clenching his jaw even when he smiled afterwards. This is when C Diff stole his humanity beyond repair. Well, its repairable but he never wanted to repair or replace it. That’s why he has colon cancer.
I ate ice cream today and I ate it a couple days ago. I ate ice cream in Bisbee Arizona last time almost 4 years ago. And today I realized as long as I eat enough raw garlic or take other antifungals, it’s not as bad of a weapon of destruction. Taking natural antibiotics and antifungals has kept me alive. I encourage you all to take efforts to cleanse your body even if you are eating crap. It’s all about balance. Eat the ice cream but take the raw garlic or eat some coconut oil. Shoot eat coconut milk ice cream and still take the garlic. Life is about balance, not being perfect. Just do things every day to be better. And you will get better. It’s really that easy.

And lastly I need a job. I know the Koreans, the farmers, the leaders of the middle men pushed for me to be treated fairly in the overt world. And it worked a bit. I got callbacks and interviews but people still aren’t treating fairly. You all heard my last interview. So maybe you all can push a little more for me to be treated fairly. And maybe the Irish leaders can join in and be revolutionary with us all in the war games and help me get some fair treatment. You all are fancy, I just haven’t figured out how or why yet. So maybe you all can use your fancy to help us all out. Because my survival is the only way out of this mess for us all. I’m all about being a trooper and living in a war zone but I need a break and a job is just the break we all need me to have. Winter is coming and I need to be able to afford shelter this winter.

Okay my revolutionary people. This was our first shot at a worldwide message without the internet. I hope it works.
And how have the war games kept people without fancy birthrights in line for generations? Can we go ahead and do that to the people who are signing up to be in my dads cult and commit treason? It seems like now would be a good time to utilize people’s mirror Neurons to get them to fall in line. Thank you.

Love Always
Nicole D Graves

Monday August 22 2022 Moon in Cancer Sun in Leo Butyrate Is The Answer

Farmers, Koreans, and Middle Men Leaders

I need your help getting nutrition to the people. During my lifetime and the past 21 day fast I learned a lot about food and nutrition. Honestly, it was just a survival mechanism. I had no choice but to do so if I wanted any kind of quality of life.

Last night I went into Walmart to get a snack. Its been over a month since I have been in a Walmart grocery shopping. Which is a new record for me in the past few years. I realized the big picture more and it scared me. The food there is altered so the ph is more alkaline than it should be. This is why its cheaper. The meat has hardly any nutrients and the ph slows down your digestion so the antibiotic resistant bacteria in it can flourish in your body as it slowly makes it’s way through your colon. Even the things in the bakery have their ph altered.

I dont know about you all but I have spent most of my life feeling bloated after I eat. This is because of the ph of the food. When the ph is more alkaline than it show be, it makes you bloated and not absorb as much nutrition from your food, and slows down your digestion. This allows for foods to rot and grow bacteria in your colon, especially meats. This is why I feel bad when I eat cooked meat. But if I eat raw beef I’m okay because it gets absorbed in the small intestine and bypasses the colon mostly.

There are certain areas that my family/Dad war on more than others. Eugene/Springfield is bad, but Redding is like this too. However, there are places with cleaner food. I had clean meat for the first time in my life last year in Garberville California on the top of a mountain. The mountains have something to do with my Dads cult and some allow people to escape the madness. The air is cleaner there and so is the food by design. I still dont fully understand this. But it’s why I was able to stay safe in Santa Fe last summer. Well, safer at least. And I was safer in Santa Barbara last fall too. These Republican towns have something we all need. They have cleaner food and water and air.

Koreans, I know you all understand the destruction more than most. Asain areas in La are so sick. They are loosing their hair, both genders. My grandma Kudearoff had really thinning hair. Ever since I was with A1 my hair has been thinning. This is caused by malnutrition. When we have an overgrowth of antibiotic resistant bacteria it takes all our nutrients that are already limited. When the body is in an alkaline state it doesn’t absorb nutrients like it should and bacteria flourish, especially bad bacteria.

I don’t know if you all do this to your people on purpose. However, they literally have it the worst. This is what I defined as the Asain genocide. The Hispanic genocide involves more genetically modified crop especially nightshades. However, asain people eat fruit, which is alkaline producing. So they make their situation worse by eating fruit even though it is healthy when we have ph balance.

Right now, in this moment, we are all in a place where if we work together we can create immediate change and improvement for us all.

Koreans I need you all to do what you do and tell the people to stop poisoning the food, especially the meats. It’s the butchers and the people who work at the grocery stores who do the bidding of my family. My Dad cannot go around and poison everyone’s food on his own. It’s the people who work in the food industry that do it. The farmers have their hands tied in regards to what the final product we receive looks like mostly. It’s the people who do this to us all. If the Koreans can do what they did to the professional cult, they can stop the butchers.

Farmers, I need you all to make an order for people to stop poisoning the food. The sooner we can get nutrition. The sooner people will be able to think for themselves. The sooner they will find themselves. It’s the best way to empower us all.

Middle men leaders, you all seem to be filling up the grocery stores very quickly. The butcher I saw yesterday that felt guilt and shame was one of you all. People dont feel guilt and shame when they believe in what they are doing. I need you all to get people to stop signing up to be my Dad’s pawns in this war he is loosing. I need you all to stand up for what’s right with the rest of us. It will take nutrition in order to reverse the damage to our genes and our lives and our hearts.

We all need to work together to do the right thing. We need to nourish our souls. This means food needs to stop being a weapon of destruction. It needs to be the gift we give each other to heal. Please help me help everyone get better one meal at a time. We have the power to do the impossible. We need to use this power for good and now. Food is our greatest resource in healing. Food be thy medicine.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

P.S. On a personal note, I need to ask for help for myself from the Koreans, farmers, and middle men leaders. I get my mail at my friend Amber’s house. She recently threw away or stole my tax return. I now understand shes a middle men and in the professional cult but kept very small. I’m not looking to get revenge. I’m looking for a statement to be made. I need the fear of God instilled in her. I’m so tired of federal crimes being committed against me. This isn’t the first piece of important mail and I understand now I was naive to think I could have mail sent there. But when I get a po box my Dad will try to do the same things just with different people. So I need a statement to be made that I am not to be messed with so to speak. My whole life people have had criminal activity around me and never been held accountable. I need them to know they will be held accountable and I deserve my human rights, even if that just means not having my mail stolen. Amber has a tenant on her property in a studio that does abide by the farmers. He appears to be Non Hispanic south American. I suppose the farmers could use him to help instill a fear of God in the Morris family.

As for the leaders of the middle men and the Koreans, I’m completely unsure of how you all handle things. But please take care of this for me. I would really appreciate some respect and decency from people. I need them to know I deserve to be treated fairly. I’m not asking to be worshipped. I’m asking to get the same rights as everyone else. I just want and need to be treated equally. Anything you can do to make this happen I greatly appreciate. And I will get a po box very soon. Thank you for everything.

Sunday August 21st 2022 Moon in Gemini Sun in Leo Sunday Church

Happy Sunday Funday! I didn’t end up going to actual church today. I just couldn’t muster up the energy to deal with another predatory situation or experience. Religion has an agenda. Honestly I am not sure what that agenda is other than to enslave people and dominate the world. It seems a lot like my Dad. But yet, church is the only way towards our salvation. So where do we go from here?

At this point, no one is willing to take action based on what I have to say in the overt world. Everyone is still living in fear of my family. I get it. Most people have lived in this fear for the majority of not all their lives. It will take some time to pass.

At this point, I’m not in a place where I can create much on the overt world, other than this little domain I have purchased. This spot on the internet is where my whole revolution began. It seems small and lifeless. But it has taken on a life of it’s own.

People thought I was crazy to try to be revolutionary. They thought I was just putting off the inevitable. Which was my death. Everyone felt helpless, but they did the little covert things they could like staying home. Not until I reached the majority of Salem did I have real support. They knew they weren’t helpless. They knew we were all just being held hostage from what we truly deserve. Salem saved me. Not only did they help me reach more people from Washington to Redding than I ever imagined, but they gave me hope and mirrored me. They saw my humanity as their own.

Over the past 500 plus days, I have encountered people who doubt my ability to do the impossible everyday. This by design. This is what my Truman show aims to do in order to get me to give up. However, if I was incapable of doing the impossible I would not be alive. And I for sure would not make my Dad so mad because he feels out of control.

The gang stalkers have been going nuts at night. It’s as if they dont want the world to see what they are doing. Sleep deprivation is my Dad’s favorite brain washing took besides malnutrition. However, these things are not new to me. They just are.

The Koreans changed my overt world a lot. I feel safer than I have maybe ever. It’s pretty weird. I still get poisoned around people and poison in my food and water. But I finally feel like the war games are on my side. After over 500 days, the war games are finally showing me respect. Well, they are not trying to kill me overtly covertly. One day I hope to be respected. But I have to stay alive to get to that moment. So, this is a step in the right direction.

I dont know how looking for a job is going to change or if it will. But I have another interview this week and I am always applying for more jobs. The goal is get a job and get a studio so I can keep working through the winter and stay in town. I need somewhere to hide from the world in the overt world that is just mine. It will take months because my Dad interfered with my tax return. So I will have to fix that. But he messes with my taxes and human rights every chance he gets. Nothing new.

When I get an apartment, it will be a prison too. The people who live near me will sign up to hang stalk and poison me, whether it be through the walls or when I leave the comforts of my home even to walk the Haywood. I’m asking the farmers, the Koreans, and whoever is in charge of the middle men to make this a war crime and or just make it not happen. I dont know how, but just make the people stop taking their hate out on me. Hurt people hurt people and everyone is hurt nowadays. My whole life I have been a target, an unknowing target, of everyone’s hate. I’m tired of being the whipping boy for my family. Just make the people stop. And dear lord, please help me get a job.

So back to church, I am at a loss for how to create a church for us all. I know this is the next step we need to take in order to ensure our own safety. We need to create an organized religion that is not predatory, but has a physical place of business. And not just one place. It will need to be accessible to us all. We will need multiple chapters. Yes, some of this will be able to be broadcast on the internet in order to reach us all. But we need a safe physical place to go worship and meet with God. So we are going to start this just like I started my revolution. Right here on this domain on the internet, we are going to find God again together.

We are going to talk about beliefs and experiences and how we can learn and grow from everything to be better. I don’t know much about religion. But I know God. And God is all about doing better. It’s that easy. You are always loved and to pay him back for that you consistently try to be a better human in all ways. It’s not easy, but it’s simple. And we are going to talk about it. Sunday church with the farmers will continue. But everyone is welcome and expected. I’m sure there is a way to replay what I say if you are out and about. So just do that. I dont need you all to be at my back and call. Just check in when you have time. Life is about checking in with each other. That’s community and love. We share beliefs, a common goal to do better in order to reach potential, and we check in on one another. We don’t have to agree on everything. We are human and all different. However, its beautiful how so many groups of different people can come together over a common cause and belief. I’m so proud of you all. We are defying history right now. We defining how we will move forward from this point. We have accepted that we all deserve better. Do you know how big that really is? Do you understand we are doing what most people thought was impossible? It’s not just me, it’s all of us. We are doing the impossible. I’m so proud. I hope you all understand this wouldn’t be possible without you. You made this possible. This is your accomplishment to share and relish. You did the impossible. Now where else in your life are you going to do the impossible? Because now you know it’s in you. Its been there all along. So what’s next for you? Spend some time thinking about yourself and what’s possible for you. Because you just have to decide to do it and then take the steps necessary to get there. You can do anything you set your mind to and come up with a plan for. And look at me and this revolution. Sometimes that plan comes one step at a time. But you do that one step and the next one comes. One foot in front of the other. You just keep going.

Your Sunday church homework is not just to think about your future. But you need to create a place in your family for your dreams of the future to be supported. This means every week you need to have a meal with your family. A homemade meal where you are not rushed and you talk about your dreams and your week. And the place where the current connects to future. Ideally that is this now moment.

When I was little every Saturday we went to my Grandma Kudearoff’s house. I’m not sure what my Dad did those Saturdays, but my Mom and me we woke up showered and went to Grandma’s house. I watched cartoons, everyone was there talking, there was always food and I got to eat meat. Sometimes we even had two meals and didn’t go home till late that night. I realized recently I was only really feed potatoes, rice, and cake & cookies as a kid. This is why I have such digestion issues besides all the antibiotics I took. I never developed the enzymes necessary to digest most foods. However, this is why I have been able to survive this year. I have stuck mostly to raw meat(which digests itself and skips the colon mostly) and potatoes. Potatoes are literally a poisonous plant, but I was fed them so much as child my digestive system knows how to handle them. Potatoes are my saving grace literally.

Anyways, Saturday’s at my Grandma Kudearoff’s house I got to really eat. True they used food to destroy me, but I would have starved without those Saturdays. She let me have as much and whatever I wanted. It wasn’t healthy, but it saved my life and brain.

Food needs to be a tool to show love with. Food has the ability to heal. Food is thy medicine. We all need to learn what we can digest because it will save your life, just like it has saved mine. We need to all know how to cook. When we dont know how to cook we become more dependent on the food system that aims to destroy us. We will always be dependent on the food system, but we can make smarter choices. This means one meal or one day a week you all need to eat something to feed your soul with your family and/or friends. We are going to start small and just start with one meal a week.

When my Dad was married to Kris, she liked to make Sunday brunch or dinner. The Sunday dinners were nice because her kids had friends over and they talked a lot. Most weeks this was one of the few meals I ate without being alone and cooking for myself. It was the one nutritious meal I got most weeks. One meal a week can make a world of difference.

We start with one meal a week to change the world and deepen our connections to God. Because God is inside us all. We just need to be nourished in order to feel God. So take your vitamins, learn how to cook what you can digest, and start having church dinners with your family and/or friends. Tall about your dreams, your goals, and the steps you are taking to make those real. One meal a week can set you up for success for the rest of the week.

See you all again next Sunday, life is about rituals and routines that set you up for success.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

PS. There are a lot of California plates around me. Can we let them all know what’s happening please?

Friday August 19th 2022 Moon in Gemini Sun in Leo Middle Men

My Truman show changed drastically once again. It was a really big change. I saw more ethnic people in Eugene today while eating than I ever probably have seen before. And there is this one group of white people I could not figure out who they were. After a drive and being poisoned with E, the pieces came together.

There are a group of Nazis who did not flea to Scandinavia or South America. They were middle men who did not have the resources that the others did. And they were not faced with accountability for their war crimes. These people spread out throughout Europe and fell through the cracks. No one accounted for them and no one included them. They were left to their own devices. However, they know who is fancy within their own group. They have accounted for themselves since world war 2. The West family is a big name among them. People drop names around me like I should know what they are talking about. But I just see people who want to be accounted for and be included. These people aren’t loyal to the war games or the farmers. They are only loyal to themselves. And often drive Japanese cars. No one accounts for them. However, for them they are finally being recognized and asked to create my Truman show. This is the honor they have always been waiting for. They aren’t Aryans. They aren’t fancy in the war games. But they believe in destroying each other. They haven’t gotten to partake in the destruction of the world so they destroy each other to prove their importance and that they matter. And now they are destroying me.

These middle men are a lot like the Koreans. They have always just been trying to find a way to level the playing field. Unfortunately, no one has ever offered them the opportunity. At least until today, today they felt like they mattered. And like they are important.

Middle men, I would like you all to know you matter. However, your desire to show and prove your importance by destroying each other has caused you all to have the gene mutation that causes Fragile X Syndrome. Many people have this nowadays, but you all have destroyed each other so much in your quest to prove yourselves as important I dont think you will ever be able to recover from on a gene level. I dont know if you all understood what you were doing. But you got to stop.

You deserve better than this. We all deserve better than this. And if you all didn’t know, you are more than welcome in my revolution. I don’t intend to leave anyone out. You all are included and you matter. I apologize for not addressing you all directly sooner, but I have literally just been trying to stay alive. I still apologize though. I understand what it feels like to be fancy and never be treated well. I can relate to you all more than you will ever know.

You all owe me nothing. However, I am going to ask that you please stop working with my family to hurt me. Because in the end it will not only hurt you all, but it will hurt the world. I know it feels good to be recognized and needed. But I need you all to be revolutionary and become one of us. Over here we are uniting over a common belief that we all deserve potential. We will not agree on everything, but we will work it out as we go. Because we all deserve better. And that includes you. I would be grateful if you chose to be revolutionary. And it’s not just for me, it’s for the world. But mostly it’s for you all. Because we need to figure out how to reverse the gene mutations you all have inflicted on each other. I’m sure the Koreans have some research that could help us with this. They are pretty smart cookies you know. And I think you all need some scientists on your side as quickly as possible. Your future generations depend on it.

I look forward to hearing your side of everything.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Thursday August 18th 2022 Moon in Taurus Sun in Leo Dear Koreans

Dear Koreans

It has been 506 days since my Dad declared overt war on me. I know you all in the LA area have been tuned in for awhile. I saw you all trying to keep your people from hearing what I had to say. You all have a pretty big presence in LA. I loved Korea town in Las Vegas, but I had no clue.

I have been looking for the people who outrank my family in the war games for almost two years, but really all my life. I kept asking myself what my Dad wanted from you all. If he wants something he takes it. He doesn’t follow rules. Well, the only thing you all have that he can’t take is your place in the war games. You out rank the Graves family because you all covertly won World war 2. You dont know how grateful I am for this. My life has been a concentration camp and if it weren’t for you all the world would be a concentration camp.

My Dad tried to use me to steal your power in the war games. He gave me to A1 with intentions that I would willingly have his child. Luckily for all of us, I did not. My Dad would have used that child to steal your power in the war games. You all would have never recovered.

How is my Grandma Kudearoff tied in with you all? She was communist too. Quite the fancy lady, but she was just my Grandma. Everyone I have always taken at face value because I was never told about the war games. You all know I outrank my Dad in the war games right? I outrank everyone in my family. This is why I have been kept so small and in the dark.

Everyone in my life has tried to kill me. I have never slept with anyone who wasn’t the enemy. You all dont scare me. Just like the farmers dont scare me. You all are just people and you put on your pants one leg at a time just like I do. We might have fancy birthrights, but when it comes down to it. We are human. We are not Gods.

Over the past 506 days I have created a revolution and worked my way through the war games subgroup bu subgroup. No one is left fighting for my Dad, except his professional cult. I even have won his military army over. I honestly dont know much about leading an army. However, I have created the largest army out of anyone in my family in 506 days. These people are amazing. They believe in potential and they want better for themselves. I’m willing to fight for better for them because they fight for me whenever they can.

I’m not sure how you all fit into the war games here in the States. I do know the farmers are a big deal and people fear them greatly. The farmers are with me. They understand the destruction my Dad is undertaking and they understand that this is world war 3. Did you all know you were helping my Dad create world war 3 when you started associating with him around the time the Berlin wall went down? Did you know he had no good intentions for you all? His friendship is how he conquers people. I’m sure he has made you all do things that you didn’t understand the full story about and now he tells you that you are stuck with him. You aren’t stuck with him. He tries to do this to everyone. People are human we all make mistakes. The key is we have to make up for those mistakes by doing better. Live and learn right?

I represent an option and opportunity no one was told about. I represent hope. We all deserve better. I’m not going to try to pretend that I understand everything about communism or what you all do. But I do know that Koreans believe in potential. My Dad has taken potential off the table for everyone on a biological level. I’m pretty sure you all did not agree to this. You all have such fancy brains. They intrigue me. You all are a hybrid of both me and my brother. You’re logical and yet creative at the same time. Its Autism and Dyslexia combined for a stronger brain. To be able to utilize both sides of your brain like that must be a pretty amazing experience. You all wouldn’t do this if you didn’t believe in potential and being your best. My Grandma Kudearoff always told me to work hard and do my best. In her eyes Communism wasn’t as much about keeping people small as it was providing an even playing field. My Dad has a way of perverting things and ruining them. I dont believe you would create people with such fancy brains if you wanted them to be mindless and not driven. I think it’s safe to assume you too believe in potential.

This week I have figured out how we need to recreate the systems in order to overcome my Dad’s professional cult. He has hijacked capitalism and made it about privilege and staying small. We need to escape this of life to experience our potential. He has the world held hostage. However, we can overcome this with some structural changes. Not reinventing the wheel, but just using a different kind.

The answer is God and church. We need to make sure church and state do not meet. We need to reinforce the checks and balances for the war games. Otherwise we will always be vulnerable to people like my Dad. My family is great evil and we have too much power to not have checks and balances in place. Absolute power corrupts all. My life is proof of this. I have been held hostage my whole life because of the power my family has. I was supposed to take over for my Grandma Kudearoff and instead my Dad kept me small and hidden away trying to kill me and get me to breed. If my Dad continues to get away with everything, everyone will end up like me. We all will be held hostage, kept small, and made to breed. We kind of are already there.

I don’t have anything to offer in the overt world other than knowledge, wisdom, and know how on how to overcome my family. I can’t promise you all anything bright and shiny. I come to you asking for your help humbly. Because I know you owe me nothing.

However, I hope you see how hard I have worked not only to stay alive and be revolutionary, but to do the right thing. I can promise you all I will never try to take what is yours like the rest of my family. If we could work together towards our common belief of potential I would be very pleased. I want us to grow together. I am going to need someone to help me figure out what all the war games represent because with my birthrights people will never see me as just a human. I will forever be a representation of the war games. I need someone to help me with this. It’s a lot to process. I’m sure you all have some fancy people like me. I would like to meet them and know how they cope. Because we are all just human.

Currently, the farmers have taken amazing efforts to keep me as safe as they can. I’m very grateful. However, my Dad is blocking me from getting a job and from having a home. I’m not looking to be saved, I just need some help. I believe in potential so I am more than willing to work my way out of this situation. But I do need help getting the opportunity to work. Help with a home would be amazing. But if I had work, I could get a home. I have been living in my Jeep with my two dogs since this revolution. My Dad kidnapped one of my dogs about a month ago. I understand he’s scary and he takes whatever is in his grasp. I know better than anyone. However if there is anyone in the world who can stop him and my Brother, it’s me. I’m asking for your protection and help. Again, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the war games. But I know you have power over my Dad and the games as a whole.

I would adore if A1 could be my keeper so to speak, but he can’t be trusted when it comes to my Dad. He will roll over for the privilege my Dad has to offer just as he has in the past. I am unsure of who can be trusted. However, I am sure that I need a job and an apartment or house. The fewer people I’m around the safer I am and the safer the world is from having to live a life like I have.

I cannot promise you all much, but I promise to be a good person. And I promise to spend the rest of my life trying to right the wrongs of my families. We may not always agree and that’s to be expected. However, I will always be open to hearing your story and reasoning for why you believe things to be necessary.

If I can get all the farmers to work together towards a common goal, I believe that we can join forces without having a pissing contest for world domination and control. This isn’t a competition for me. It’s just my life.

I appreciate any help you all can give me. Thank you.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Thursday August 18th 2022 Moon in Taurus Sun in Leo I Need To Talk To The Koreans In Charge

My Dad has only wanted me to breed with white me. However in the past decade he was okay with a Korean heir. They have something he wants. What is it? We have a huge military presence in Korea. But just like with the farmers and the Argentinians, it’s the Koreans here in charge that matter. A1 wasn’t scared of my Dad at first. However in time his fear and trauma bond grew. What is my Dad buttering up the Koreans for? How is he going to go in for the kill on his relationship with them? My Dad doesn’t form relationships with anyone that is not predatory. He has an agenda. What is it? Where the Koreans quick enough to catch on or did they get caught up in his web of lies and deception?

I need to talk to the Koreans in charge here. Please get them all nationwide to tune in tonight. I’m going to ponder what I need to say to them and give Haywood a bath cause he has fleas. We will talk tonight. I have a feeling they will be happy to speak with me because I think they understand I’m a bigger loose end than my Dad ever let on.

Talk soon

Nicole D Graves

Wednesday August 17th 2022 Moon in Taurus Sun in Leo I Was Right, God Is The Answer

God is the answer. My Dad is so convinced he is God that he is eliminating church and state. He wants us to believe the IRS is God. This is also why the people I interview with stress benefits so much. Pay me what I’m worth and I can buy my own things, heck with your benefits that are designed to keep me small, manageable, and destroy me. Leaving me a constant rat on a hamster wheel.

This is my Dad’s fascination with Korea. They dont have church and state. They are communist. They tell you they love you and will care for you while destroying you.

Churches are a war games check balance of some sort. It’s where some of the money from the war games is kept. That’s why after my Grandma Kudearoff died and we all got her money we stopped going. This is why Baptist churches are all over in Washington and Texas. They are huge up in Washington. I never imagined. It will be the complete sticks with nothing around and then there will be a huge million dollar church. I felt their hate while I was there. This is all why I am safe at churches. They don’t want to draw attention to themselves. It’s not that they are good people. They have their own selfish reasons. They dont want to be held accountable for their war games crimes. Especially the crimes they have profited off of.

God is a lie to all you people. No wonder I freak you out so badly when I talk about God. I thought everyone talked to God. Aren’t we supposed to? Apparently, I missed the memo.

So my Dad wants to eliminate God and the churches so he doesn’t have competition. And I want to start a church. Funny how things work out, huh?

Farmers, I think we need to start a church. I am not sure how the religions work, but I dont think any of them are not acts of destruction on some level. I’m not sure, but it’s a safer bet for me to assume they are used as weapons. God is not meant to be a weapon. God is love. God is unconditional love. God is not someone you buy. God just is. There is such perfection in his ability to just be with us all through everything. We dont have to pay for his presence. He’s just there because he loves. Did you know people who believe God to be forgiving and loving have better epigenetics than those who believe him to be into punishment? It’s true. Love changes everything and it always will.

So today I found the structure and foundation that we need to build our new system on. Once again I’m unsure of the next steps, but they will come. Once again I have accomplished the unthinkable and Eugene is covered in a thick haze blocking the stars. The stars still exist, even though they have been hidden from us all. Just like God exists.

God is the answer. My Dad and/or the government or the IRS are not God. No matter how much they lie to you and try to tell you they are.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Wednesday August 17th 2022 Moon in Taurus Sun in Leo Pieces Of The Puzzle

This morning I woke up two different times with lightbulb moments. My brain does puzzles while I sleep. First, my brothers generation is so weird and a different kind of species because food in 1992 became genetically modified and bioengineered without having to be labeled. So most the cells in their bodies are built of amino acids that are weird to put it plainly. They literally aren’t human. Plus, people in the war games starve their children of having enough protein. This is why so many children are so short. This is why I didn’t grow till I was 16. This is why my Dads so short. Short man syndrome is a real thing, they were starved of enough protein to actually grow as children. Protein is where we get our amino acids which are building blocks for our bodies. This is why I looked like an Ethiopian child and why all my cousins are so short. I dont know how my Brother and I got enough protein to be tall. My best guess is neglect and taco bell. We both loved taco bell and beans are a great source of protein. I dont kniw though. We also were two of the fattest kids in our family so maybe it was just a volume thing. We were far and starving. It was awful and painful.

Second, maybe we don’t have to create a completely new economy. Maybe we can just use the framework from an existing economy within capitalism. Religion is an economy within an economy. It is also a place where people share beliefs. It is also where my Dad got some of his ideas for his cult.

Let’s review my Dad’s life a little so you all can see where his cult originated. He grew up in Texas as a Southern Baptist going to revivals. Remember the movie Leap Of Faith with Steve Martin? They were like that. My Dads brain lit up when we watched that movie in the 1980s. Not because it brought back memories of home or anything positive, but because he saw all those people as having a weakness he could and can exploit. My Dad is a swill merchant minus the alcohol. He will get you drunk on feeling like you belong and you are special and chosen. But really it’s just him setting you up for the kill. I have the ability to do what he does. But honestly I would rather just be straight forward with everyone. This is how it is seems to be more my style. I hate beating around the Bush, what a waste of time. Yet. The rest of family thrives off beating around the Bush and never never being straight forward and honest. It’s just annoying and it wastes all our time.

So church, revivals, the military, Korea, the war games, Nlp, etc. These are all places my Dad found things he could incorporate into his cult. I wonder if he premeditated what he was doing? I think he did. With the professional cult he for sure did.

There is a big time to Korea I still dont fully understand. A1 was Korean and the only Asian people I was exposed to were Korean after my grandma Kudearoff died. My Dad has some kind of agreement with them or something. My mom was so proud that her DNA test said we are part Korean. Shes only proud of destruction. Plus, the way A1 used to treat my Mom is still puzzling a bit. He hated her, not overtly. But I felt it.

So there are more puzzle pieces. Also today, I realized you all dont talk to God like I do. I talk to God out of the very top of my head. Its above my logical brain. I didn’t do this until after my head surgery. My head surgery opened up another world for me. I have access to things you all dont. I can feel everything. I can feel disease in other people’s bodies. I can feel sound. It’s hard to explain.

My Dad holds you all hostage. He steals your self worth and self confidence with privilege. Then he sells you all on the idea that he is God and your only savior.

My Dad is not God. And you are worth more than you will ever know. At least until we change the system. When we value potential and the people who can lead us there, life will completely change. Until you explore your limits you will not value yourself as you deserve. How can you value yourself when you dont understand your own skills and talents? You need to get to know yourself.

And I need to go to church this weekend. Church was taken from me when my grandma Kudearoff died. I know I’m going to make people incredibly uncomfortable. But it will be a great way to see who is really religious and a believer and who is just putting on a show.

I went to my Grandma Kudearoff church in San Francisco last year. It was an awful experience, but I learned a lot. The Catholic church is a part of the dark side. Which I should have known. A1 went to an all boys Catholic boarding school and look how he turned out. My Grandma Kudearoff grew up in a Russian Orthodox covenant/orphanage and that’s where she got part of her fancy from. Religion is a war games weapon. But what if we can use religion to fight back? What if we can use the structure and the tax breaks to fight back? It’s an economy within an economy. They provide safety to one another and care for one another based on common beliefs. Its seems like it could work. It’s worth exploring for sure.

Today, something changed. I have no clue what I said or if the farmers said something. But it’s pretty magical. No one gang stalked me while I picked out my garlic tonight. I think my potato wedges just had normal poison. My meat also just had normal poison. A few people poisoned me in the store, but not many. People mostly left me alone. I have never been left alone in a grocery store before. I dont kniw what’s happening. Its really weird. But I’m going with it and taking it as a good sign. They poison me less at Safeway parking lot than they do at my favorite church. It’s like they don’t want to be seen doing what they do. A lady that lives by the church who was proud of poisoning me about a month ago looked shameful today. What changed? I’m still the same human. However shes not. She changed. What changed in you people? Some questions I may never get the answer to.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Tuesday August 16th 2022 Moon in Aries Sun in Leo Something Out Of Nothing

No one will be safe until we create a new way of life and a new economy. My Dad has hijacked capitalism and made it a game of privilege. Everyone is scared of him because they value their homes and families. And this won’t stop after my Dad dies. My brother will take over for my Dad at holding the world hostage.

My whole life I have tried to overcome my family in the matter world. But I have never escaped them, just like you all haven’t. There is no where to run because everyone will continue to follow his orders out of fear. Sure, not as many people are signing up to gang stalk and poison me. However, the moment I walk into anyone’s place of business looking for a job they treat me like I have the plague. People fear being treated as I am being treated and they should I have been used as a training tool my whole life. Even the Kudearoffs fear my Dad. They know just how far he will go because it’s just as far as they would go, but my Dad has more power.

The only way out of this is through. There is no escaping for any of us. However, we can choose to do differently. We won’t be able to keep each other safe until we do differently.

I’m not saying we need to give up on money. I love money. It provides freedom and options. But we do need to find a better way where we are in control. It’s not fair that one person gets to decide the financial well being of the world pretty much. The farmers especially are a group my Dad picks on. If they were more free to do what they are good at, we could have better quality food and thus in turn health. We are being held hostage on so many levels.

So how do we get freedom, good food, and potential? How do we create a new economy? You all know I’m not great at answering the how questions, but I can tell you What we need to do. We need to start supporting the people who share our beliefs and morals/ethics. The sub groups in the war games used to help us all do this. However, now there is so much division. The sub groups do not agree on what they support. Everyone is striking out on their own and doing what they please. There is no unity. We need unity. We need to know who the people are who share our beliefs.

I encourage you all to look around you often and ask yourself if the gene mutations you see are something you want to support. Today, the dark side was back to hang stalking me. Their gene mutations, epigenetics, and epigenetic triggers are so so much worse. This is what the belief in destruction leads to. Your beliefs effect who you are on a gene level. And who you surround yourself with also effects who you are on a gene level. Everything comes back to epigenetics. You do business with one person who supports the dark side and you think it doesn’t effect you. But it does. Even just the thoughts that go through your head when you interact with someone effect your epigenetics. Everything effects your epigenetics.

So step 1 is find the people who share your beliefs. These are the people you need to do business with. Support those who support your beliefs. Sharing beliefs is more important than almost anything. It’s the foundation of any relationship worth keeping.

The next thing is expand your skillset. We all have been kept small. And we all have been kept in an alkaline state which makes us confused, emotional, and anxious. Do stuff. Learn how to do as much stuff as possible. When you know how to do things, you feel confident. This helps battle the anxiety we are designed to never escape.

During Covid, I learned so much stuff. It was amazing. It was one of the best years of my life. I had a great time alone. I encourage you all to do things outside your comfort zone that force you to grow. Do it just because it makes you a better human, not because it will increase your pay grade.

Honestly, I still dont kniw the rest. I’m still building this revolution out of nothing as we fly. I want so badly to ask for help, but I understand you all can’t help me in the overt world. I’m on my own and that’s really hard. I really would love a friend. But for now you all and the farmers are the closest to friends I get. And I have to be okay with that and be grateful to have you all.

Today, I had an interview for a temp job at an insurance company. The owner was so nervous and had sweaty palms and could barely talk. It was a hard day for him and I felt bad for putting him in such a weird situation. But I need a job and I’m more than qualified to do the jobs o have applied for.

This whole situation just sucks. But we will get through it and I will get through it. I’m a master at holding onto hope. For most of my life, life was hopeless in the overt world. There has never really been a good reason for me to have hope. Yet, here I am having defied more odds than I ever could have imagined.

I may not know all the answers today, but they come with time and patience.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Monday August 15th 2022 Moon in Aries Sun in Leo My Day-Ended My 21 Day Fast

Haywood and I ate today after 21 days of fasting. It was pretty good. I’m grateful for food and so many things. We had a huge raw steak and I had potato wedges from the deli. I shared a few, but Hay doesn’t need potatoes. My brain was super sensitive to food. Let me tell you what I learned. Raw steak was amazing and exactly what my body needed. It lit up my reptilian brain with satisfaction. Not addictive satisfaction, but healthy awww feeling satisfaction. However, the potato wedges made me feel loved. I have noticed this feeling with potatoes on and off throughout this adventure, but I never understood it till today. The potatoes effected the middle part of my brain. Where my reptilian and logical brain meet. Which is weird because food is apart of our reptilian brain. There is no reason it should effect any other part. So I looked at the ingredients. They have biologically engineered ingredients. This is exactly the same thing as the chocolate cake I ate a couple months ago. It had biologically engineered ingredients and it too made me feel loved. So here is my hypothesis. Biologically engineered ingredients make you have food orgasms in your brain and make you feel loved. While at the same time attacking and confusing the connections between your reptilian and logical brain to ensure it’s more difficult to transition into logical thought. If the pathways are damaged, the transitions between the two brains will be damaged. Crazy right!? This is why they always give me more potatoes than I ask for, no matter the state or the store. They always give me too much. They literally trying to give me brain damage. And you all too. No wonder so many people eat fast food. Its biologically engineered food. It makes you feel loved, while dumbing you down and blocking your access to your logical mind. No wonder people who eat a lot of fast food seem a bit slow. They are slow by design. But honestly, I’m still going to eat the potatoes the next time I eat. They are way better than chancing the chemicals that mess with your limbic and reproductive systems in potato chips. This world is all about choosing the lesser evil when it comes to many things. I’m thinking of I can keep my alternate day eating that will be best for managing my lymphoma and keeping my swelling to a minimum. I need to start walking again. The past 10ish days I haven’t walked because the poisons were so bad I felt like I was going to puke.

I can’t believe I made it 21 days fasting. I’m so proud of myself. The longest I have gone before this was like 5 or 7 days. I have fasted so much this year. Its been amazing and just what I needed. Haywood looks amazing. He lost a ton of weight, but still has more to go. Yesterday he sat on my lap and did not leave for all over me for the very first time every. Even when I first got him he would ruin my clothes when he sat on me. He is turning more red again and he chases bugs like he used to as a kid. He’s so amazing. He lays his head on me now like he used to and wants to be close more. This was exactly what he needed too. I did catch him eating a rat tail from a dead rat he found today, but he always loves dead things. I’m just grateful he didn’t roll in it. And I fed him parasite medicine afterwards.

I have been looking for a job like no other. It’s pretty annoying, but I am just jumping through the hoops. Tomorrow I have a couple interviews. They are probably complete Truman shows, but I’m still going and I’m still trying. They have been keeping me up all night with poisons. I learned in Arizona as long as I lay down and rest everything will be okay in the end. Sleep deprivation is something used to break people. I’m not new to this, but it sucks.

I saw my college friend Gina today at Safeway. My Dad likes to use people I know in my Truman show. Gina, you look so good. It was really nice to see you. You were my favorite person before you went to AA and got all weird. I always told you that you weren’t helpless, but now I can explain the science behind it. I hope you take some natural antibiotics and lay off the bagels a bit. You and bread. I miss having donuts with you and Jas and Marji at 2am after the bars. Those were moments I will never forget and always cherish. Know I love you always and forever and you are more powerful than you will ever know. I promise you have no clue how powerful you are and one day I will have the science to explain myself. Do some fasting and talk to God and he will show you, just like how I showed you energy when we used to do E. You are amazing.

So the farmers did something. I’m not sure what, but the police woke me up and didn’t ask for my ID or anything. They were just checking on me. It was the same two from last week who I chit chatted with while walking the Haywood. My Dad’s pissed. And the people seem to be trickling out of his grasp even more today as time passes. Orders from the farmers tend to take a couple days because they dont utilize modern technology like my Dad. I wonder what they said. The people left fighting are strongly Republican and have no clue who they are getting into bed with. It’s a sleeping with the enemy situation and they are clueless. How can they be so naive? I still wonder what the farmers said. I had no expectations on them saying anything to improve my situation. But it seems yet again, they have.

I went to the food stamp office in Eugene today. I had never been to this location. If you want to see the slave race and gene mutations and epigenetic triggers that are taking place go to the department of human services. It was scary. I’m not scared by much, but these people scared me. They needed to parasite cleanse so badly. They were in pain and had been kept small most of their life. It made me so grateful that I found a way out. It may not have lasted for long, but I got to see and experience the world. I got to live and some people never get that. I’m lucky and I will never take that forgranted.

I wonder so much what the farmers said. I’m going to ponder it and relax for a bit before I get ready for tomorrow.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Sunday August 14 2022 Moon in Aries Sun in Leo Sunday Church

I spent the last week or so playing dead and researching mainstream people. Most of my life I lived without TV, wifi, and a driver’s license. So I was extremely sheltered. Not until 2010 did I get Wifi and Netflix. I have no clue what you people are really like. But I do know it’s very different than who I am. Not that I’m better. I’m just different biologically and genetically and epigenetically. I was designed to be different than you all. And I was sheltered so I would never be able to reach you all. But here we are defying so many obstacles.

There are so many things that go unwritten pr unspoken that I never knew. But now that I know so many more things, so many more things make sense. I always wondered why Hispanic men had this cockiness about them. However, the Hispanic men I dated were the best to me. Not with money or things, but with the way they treated me. They know love and they know how to show love. Its really amazing. White men don’t have this. Asain men are a bit better. But Hispanic men know how to make a woman feel loved, appreciated, safe, and like a lady. Now I understand Hispanic south Americans are the ones who dominate the war games in the United States and they just need to have that one person who knows their softer side and who doesn’t take it as a weakness. Love is a strength. It’s the greatest strength of all.

I was raised to believe that Hispanic people were less than just like Black people. However, I now realize my Dad’s viewpoint is not shared by many. His views are old and outdated. And the power dynamics of the war games have proven him to be wrong. There is no way to create his ideal Aryan race and out number the rest. The majority is not going to accept being less than. Especially, when they dominate the war games. The majority holds the majority of the power. It’s a beautiful thing really. Power needs to be spread out throughout all the people as evenly as possible. We all need representation.

So here we are the majority. And here we are with the majority of power. And yet my Dad is still holding us all hostage and keeping us from our potential and good health. It’s funny how a small handful of people can ruin things for us all.

My friend and honorary step brother Enrique in Florida says I have these Mom moments where I just tell people how it is. And I need to have one of these moments with the farmers, but especially the southern LA farmers. Someone has to tell you all how it is. And it seems like people are pretty scared of you all. So I assume people rarely speak freely around you all. All I know is evil powerful people so you all are just family. So I need to speak freely and I probably will never stop doing so.

You all knew. You all knew about the genocide. You just never put it in genocide perspective. You thought you were going to profit off people getting sick and diseased. My Dad got you all to help him start world war 3 in the 1980s and you all did it because you thought you were going to profit off of it. However, you never imagined my Dad would double cross you and hold you hostage by controlling the farming industry and food industry. You became a victim of your own greed. How does that feel? You have been reaping what you sowed for decades now. You never imagined my Dad would be able to bypass the war games by creating a cult. You got too big for your britches and look what it has done to all of us. How have you all explained this to God? People get really uncomfortable when I talk about God. I’m not sure why, but I know it has something to do with my childhood. My Mom told me I had an imaginary friend as a kid, I think it was God. I’m not sure. But God has been my best friend my whole life. I know the Hispanic South Americans believe in God. My family believes themselves to be Gods. I’m not a God. I’m human. However, God loves me faults, mistakes, imperfections and all. I’m perfectly human to him. I dont aspire to be anything else.

But my question is, how do you all explain yourself to God. He loves you no matter what. But you still have to repent for your sins. How have you all made up for selling out to the dark side? How do you even attempt to make up for something like that? Have you even tried? Your actions have had a global effect. A negative global effect. We are dying and diseased because of what you all have done. I’m sure you all want to think of yourselves as the victims, but you’re not. We the people are the victims. You all are guilty of being like my Dad. Just because it didn’t turn out as he promised you, does not free you from your sins. Honestly, it was your saving grace. Because he would have made you all do so many more worse things. You would never have been able to recover from.

I understand it’s hard to face yourself and the mistakes you have made, but you have to in order to heal and make things right. I know you all want to make things right. If you didn’t you all would never have offered me so much protection and help. Especially, because I didn’t know to look for you all or what you all were capable of. Especially when I found the southern LA farmers last year. You all have saved my life. All the farmers up and down the west coast have saved me. Sure, I’m not all the way safe. But I’m a lot closer than I was last year. If you all didn’t want to make up for your sins, you would have never helped me.

However, my question is how are you going to continue to make up for your sins? God is forgiving, but he also expects us to right our wrongs. It only took me 6 months of buying produce from a Hispanic grocery store in Vegas to develop extreme autoimmune issues. 6 months. I never would have guessed it was the store I was buying my produce from that was the root cause. So much so, that when I moved to Arizona I continued to buy produce from the Hispanic grocery store there. Eventually, I gave up all vegetables and went carnivore to heal my gut, autoimmune diseases, and body. However, how many people do you think are willing to go to this extreme? Most people would never do half the things I have done to heal, because their nervous system is not as hyperactive and sensitive. They don’t feel pain like I feel pain. The pain of leaky gut was worse than cancer. I dont kniw if you all understand the pain you are causing people. Are you all overweight? In about Oxnard or a little north of there I saw healthy south Americans aka Argentinians. But they were not Hispanic. And they were quite privileged. Other than that I have never really seen healthy Argentinians on this trip. Oh Samta Barbara I saw one couple in the really affluent neighborhood, and again they weren’t Hispanic.

So my question is are you all killing yourselves too? My uncle Joe that represents the Bikers and Mexicans my family is taking over, he kills himself with food. Everyone in my family does.

I saw a young girl on YouTube. She was obese and close to morbidly obese. Probably about 8ish years old. She was on an eating show encouraging people to eat granola in the frozen yogurt or fruit bowl. This little girl knew about the destruction. However she didn’t know how that destruction was effecting her in her daily life. You all know the pieces to the destruction, but its seems that you have never put the pieces together. Why?

There are so many covert messages and even overt messages to eat things that feed C Diff bacteria on YouTube and just in the world in general. Do you all realize that when you feed C Diff you are guaranteeing that you live a life of fear and anxiety. Even more than the damage to your Amygdala ensures? C Diff attacks your kidneys. Your kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. There is no way to have a good life if you continually feed C Diff. I understand everything feeds c diff but a lot of things are way worse than others. Why do you all encourage people to feed this bacteria? Living in fear, anxiety, and disease is a special kind of help. Why wish that on people?

After researching mainstream people for 12 hours a day for 7 to 10 days, I realized what we need to do. We are the majority. We have the majority of the power. However, my Dad is great at emotional manipulation. What he does is pretty basic and pedestrian. It’s not magic. The only way we overcome him is by overcoming ourselves and our emotions.

Hispanic people are no more passionate than any other group of people. However they do have insulin resistance and diabetes more than others. This means they are more addicted to their emotions. Being emotional is merely a sign you need to balance your hormones. Passion is good, but it’s different than being emotional.

So here is the plan: All the farmers need to order the people to control their insulin and eat less. I know it sounds crazy and overly simple. But the more we balance our hormones the more we are able to emotionally regulate ourselves. This is how we overcome my Dad. He gets his power by making people feel less than and feel lack. The more you realize you have everything you need inside you. The more you realize you dont need all the material things.

Dont get me wrong I missed Vegas today and my big house and going to the Korean bathhouse and my pajama sets. But then I realized I took too long of a shower and it spiked my insulin a lot. It took a couple hours and the feelings went away. I was dying in Vegas. They were killing me. Sure the things were nice and one day I want matching pajamas again. But I felt so empty inside when I lived there. That’s why I bought all the things. And I miss the things because it would be nice to have both now. But one day that will come in time.

Farmers, you all helped create these people who are emotionally based and who are reactive because you thought you were going to profit from it. Well, now the only way you will profit is if you undo what you have done. It’s time to save your own souls by righting the wrongs of your past. I’m not sure how you all do things, but when you say things people tend to listen. I encourage you all to use this to do good. God loves you, but you still have to atone for your sins. You all are good people. You would not have helped me otherwise. This is your moment to do better.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Friday August 12 2022 Moon in Pisces Sun in Leo Day 500

Today marks 500 days since I escaped the death camp in southern Arizona. 500 days of daily attempted murder, worse than the rest of my life. 500 days of being alone in my Jeep and traveling around the west coast letting people know what’s really happening. 500 days of being revolutionary. 500 days of figuring out who my families really are. 500 days of realizing my whole life has been a lie. 500 days of learning I’m more sane than I ever could have imagined. 500 days of seeing people for how empty they really are. Etc

I have learned enough to write books for the rest of my life in the past 500 days. Its been a lot to say the least. I never imagined this whole mess would last this long. I never imagined so many of my basic human rights would be infringed on and stolen. I never imagined my family would play so dirty. Yet, here we are. 500 days. I feel like I deserve an award or at least a plaque. I have done the impossible. I have connected with the people. I found the farmers. I even got my Dad’s military army to drop out of this war against me. Shoot I got the war games armies to drop out of this war. Shoot I got Everyone to drop out of this war against me. Well, except a very select few people who are still signing up to be in my Dad’s professional cult. They view it as an opportunity they cannot pass up. An opportunity they never would have been offered before. Yet, they don’t question why they are being offered this opportunity now? We all know it has nothing to do with who they are or what they have to offer. It’s simply that they are the only ones left. It’s literally the bottom bottom of the barrel. I have never seen this kind of people ever before in my life. I’m not sure how to describe them other than left out of the equation. They have always just wanted to belong and be apart of things. And this is their opportunity.

These people are the same people you all have spent a lifetime policing and keeping them in their place. I think it’s time you show them their place. I’m not sure how you all have been taught to condition people, but this would be a perfect time to use the skills you were taught. Treat these people like they have the plague or covid or whatever it is you do.

I can’t do this alone. I have done everything I can do on my own. The only way we are going to get any further is if you all actively help me. I’m not talking helping me in the overt world, I’m talking help me move towards better in the covert war. This way we can have better in the overt world. We need to do this together.

And right now my job is to stay alive and get a job and take care of Haywood. Today is day 18 of fasting. I have done amazing. I have been mostly dry fasting the past couple days because they poison me so much it really messes with any water I try to get. However, I’m doing it. My goal is to get to Monday and 21 days. 3 weeks is a good amount of time to reset my body. The less fat I have the less toxins I have in my body. I have been skinnier than this before. And I have realized how much my body has gone through in the past 5 years, but especially the past 500 days. It’s a miracle I’m alive. It’s a miracle I have lived my life and not died in my 30s. I was not designed to get old. But if I can survive the past 500 days, I can do anything I put my mind to. Even fast for 21 days. I may not be able to explore my potential in many ways, but I can still push myself to be better. I encourage you all to do the same. Try something new and make yourself do uncomfortable things. You will be proud of yourself and develop more self worth. Self worth is really just self love. Do you!

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Wednesday August 10th 2022 Moon in Aquarius Sun in Leo An Everyone Genocide

Weston Price is a dentist who researched the cause of why dental problems arose after industrialization. He traveled all over the world visiting places where people lived traditionally. He then compared the people who lived in industrialized cities/areas with people who lived as they had for 100s of years. Really he was studying epigenetics, but I dont think he knew this.

Weston Price found that people who lived traditionally and kept their traditional cultures not only had better health and healthier children, but they also had better teeth and bone structure. Have you ever seen someone with eyes really close together? That’s because of epigenetics and the mother not nourishing her body before pregnancy. We see signs everyday of the problems industrialization cause us. Yet, we are desensitized to them and conditioned to think they are normal. Bad health is not normal. It’s done by design.

I realized over the past couple days that it’s not just a few select races and their foods that are acts of genocide. We are all being eliminated. All races are experiencing genocide. Every kind of food is a weapon of destruction.

In the 1970s, it wasn’t as bad. However, it still existed. When industrialization took place in the US and probably everywhere else too, the destruction started. My educated guess is that whoever was in charge was aiming at creating a slave race of some sort. Or maybe it was just a way to weaken people and make them good worker bees. But that’s a slave race right?

This destruction started around the turn of the century and has never stopped since. However when my Dad came into power in the 1980s, he upped the ante on everything. Our life expectancies are going down if that explains how much the destruction increased. This is why he encourages people to breed so early. He wants everyone to have the kids, work the mind numbing job, but into the systems, get sick, pay into the healthcare system, and die. There is no room for potential. There is not even room for life.

Kris was able to almost escape from my Dad because she didn’t eat much. My Dad used to make her eat. He used her just like he used my Aunt Lydia to get me to eat foods that would destroy me. Even in Vegas, I still occasionally ate Fritos dipped in cottage cheese with black pepper. This is a complete weapon of destruction. And I only ate it occasionally because it hurts my stomach. However, I associate good memories of Kris with the food she taught me to eat. Its comfort food. There is an emotional connection in my brain that is soothing. Just like the Doritos I used to eat with my Aunt Lydia when we were camping when I was a kid.

I dont know how to disconnect the brain connections that make some foods comfort foods. I have always been obsessed with pizza because it reminds me of my Grandma Kudearoff. She always used to buy us all pizza.

After days of watching food videos and simmering on everything, I realized the goal of the systems is to make all food comfort foods. And I realized Brenda did not fair as well as Kris because she bought into the social norms about eating. We can overcome the poisons of we dont eat often. It’s hard, but it’s how I have survived. I just never realized it before.

In my experience the key is educating yourself about food and turning in to how it makes you feel. Every food is a weapon of destruction. I told you all I had not found a safe food. Well, I was more right than I ever imagined. The more you eat, the weaker you will be. Dont get me wrong I’m going to eat a lot when I’m done with this fast. But I realized I have stayed alive, not by eating healthy, but having food rules and eating calorie dense foods. So my intestines dont have to process so much destruction. All the foods you eat because you think they are good for you, they aren’t. Unless you are eating fermented foods and even then they add in things that are weapons of destruction. So eat the chips, eat the French fries, etc. Just dont eat often. That’s the key to surviving this war that has been going on for more than a century. Dont eat often. Gorge yourself with somewhat smart choices and then fast. Any time you eat sauce or anything spicy you are killing yourself. Plain food is the way to go. Skip the salt pepper, skip the spices, skip the sauces, etc. Just eat plain food as much as possible. Eating pizza? Skip the sauce. Eating fries, skip the sauce. And choose fries instead of onion rings. Onions kill your gut bacteria thus allowing for C Diff to flourish. Everything is a weapon of destruction. Potatoes are a nightshade and toxic. They are literally a poisonous plant. Yet, potatoes are one of the few things I can really digest well. What does that say about the foods we eat? If I can digest a poisonous plant better than most foods we are in a pretty bad place.

I haven’t written in a couple days because I just want to crawl into my Autism silence and stop talking. But I know we need to talk and communicate in order to survive. Now is not the time for me to get selfish and indulge in my feelings. I don’t know if I’m ever going to get to indulge in my feelings, but I hope one day I will.

So I have been sad and overwhelmed by the destruction. I’m mourning food. But again I realized when I tried to eat healthier that’s when my life and health went down the drain. So I’m going to eat the crappy food I want within reason and my rules. Just like I did before. I may be super skinny, but I will be alive. Today is day 16 of my fast. They are poisoning me with the chemicals that make me nauseas and my mouth water. At this rate, I dont think I will have much of a problem continuing this fast. Greasy cheese pizza without sauce with a side of raw ground beef is less than appealing when I feel like I need to puke. However, they used this poison on me a lot in the past decade I just never realized it before. Ever poison brings back memories. It’s weird.

I had another interview today. Fingers crossed, but I am not too hopeful. My Dad has been freaking out a lot the past couple days. I have no clue why. I have literally been staying to myself and not doing anything. I have not even been talking to you all. Yet, hes freaking out like never really before. The people he has fighting this war for him have reached another all time low. But he still has people. Have you all talked to one another about what’s happening and the dangers of joining a cult, but especially my Dads cult. Once you are on his radar, you never escape and destruction is the only guaranteed outcome. It’s like playing Russian roulette. There is no real winner.

I’m going to go back to silent mode. I’m sure I had more to say, but I will remember it another day.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves