Phages In Your Brain And Body

We have a systemic infection in our bodies from all the poison you all use on God and everyone. And this infection goes to your brain. Let me explain this a little more specially than I have before. 

There are viruses called phages. These are viruses that eat bacteria, all kinds. But let’s talk about the ones that eat your gut bacteria. You know how you have a hard time eating fiber? It’s because your gut bacteria that produce the enzyme necessary to digest fiber are infected and killed by phages. This is why we are malnourished. People who are malnourished are more susceptible to suggestion and brainwashing. This stupid imaginary game is just a series of suggestions. And you are more willing to listen because you are starving. 

These phages that kill your gut bacteria, take over the bacteria cells in your gut. It’s like a ship being taken over by pirates. They kill the bacteria, but the cell is all theirs to do what they want with. So they program it to do what they want and reproduce spreading viruses to all the cells around it. Viruses are known to change your metabolism and hormonal balance along with countless other things like autoimmune diseases 

Ready for the scary part? So in your gut you have a vagus nerve that connects your gut to your brain. Neurotransmitters are produced in your gut and your brain and they go between your gut and your brain via the vagus nerve. This pathway allows for bacteria(both good and bad) to get to your brain. But it also allows for these phages to travel to your brain and reproduce. 

Addiction is dysfunctional processing of all neurotransmitters, but especially dopamine. This is caused by infection and inflammation in the brain. 

The reason I am so smart is because I have been viral cleansing since 2014 because you assholes have been attacking me my whole life and made me sick. Turns out you made yourselves sick too.

You should fix your brains. You have both a bacterial and viral infection in your brain. No wonder you have been signing up to play a stupid imaginary game designed to enslave and kill you for generations. 

The viruses in your brain and body that create pirate ships out of your human cells are what cause autoimmune diseases.

Sunday Thoughts

November Sunday 30th 2025

Moon in Aries Sun in Sagittarius

No more mister nice guy. Fuck em! Stop catering to other people’s emotions. It’s okay to care about their needs and well being, but fuck their thoughts and emotions. Most people cannot handle their own thoughts and emotions. They sure as hell cannot handle yours.

Time to pick up and run with this new theme for this next chapter in life that is starting now. Sagittarius means we pick a new quest for the next chapter of our book. Aries Moon time to run with it. No looking back. Fuck people’s emotions. Let them be emotional bitches and assholes. But don’t let their emotions and inadequacies cloud your judgement or interfere or effect your actions. Emotional people are weak and contagious.

Don’t let them make you dis-eased.

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Destruction Overview Cliffsnotes version by Nicole D Graves(Updated Feb 2024)

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.

Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.

Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.

This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.

The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.

People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion,  dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.

Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.

These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.

18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.

22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.

23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.

Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.

24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.

All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.

If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.

25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.

26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.

They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?

27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.

Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.

28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.

29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.

30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.

31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.

32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.

Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.

You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food.  When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.

If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.

All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs.
If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.

33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?

Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.

Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.

33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.

This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.

This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.

34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.

Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.

My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
 
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.

36.  WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.

37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.

38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.

39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.

Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?

40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.

41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.

Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know  you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.

42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.

43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

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Phages In Your Brain And Body

We have a systemic infection in our bodies from all the poison you all use on God and everyone. And this infection goes to your brain. Let me explain this a little more specially than I have before. 

There are viruses called phages. These are viruses that eat bacteria, all kinds. But let’s talk about the ones that eat your gut bacteria. You know how you have a hard time eating fiber? It’s because your gut bacteria that produce the enzyme necessary to digest fiber are infected and killed by phages. This is why we are malnourished. People who are malnourished are more susceptible to suggestion and brainwashing. This stupid imaginary game is just a series of suggestions. And you are more willing to listen because you are starving. 

These phages that kill your gut bacteria, take over the bacteria cells in your gut. It’s like a ship being taken over by pirates. They kill the bacteria, but the cell is all theirs to do what they want with. So they program it to do what they want and reproduce spreading viruses to all the cells around it. Viruses are known to change your metabolism and hormonal balance along with countless other things like autoimmune diseases 

Ready for the scary part? So in your gut you have a vagus nerve that connects your gut to your brain. Neurotransmitters are produced in your gut and your brain and they go between your gut and your brain via the vagus nerve. This pathway allows for bacteria(both good and bad) to get to your brain. But it also allows for these phages to travel to your brain and reproduce. 

Addiction is dysfunctional processing of all neurotransmitters, but especially dopamine. This is caused by infection and inflammation in the brain. 

The reason I am so smart is because I have been viral cleansing since 2014 because you assholes have been attacking me my whole life and made me sick. Turns out you made yourselves sick too.

You should fix your brains. You have both a bacterial and viral infection in your brain. No wonder you have been signing up to play a stupid imaginary game designed to enslave and kill you for generations. 

Destruction Overview Cliffsnotes version by Nicole D Graves(Updated Feb 2024)

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.

Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.

Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.

This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.

The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.

People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion,  dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.

Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.

These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.

18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.

22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.

23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.

Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.

24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.

All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.

If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.

25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.

26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.

They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?

27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.

Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.

28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.

29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.

30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.

31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.

32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.

Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.

You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food.  When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.

If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.

All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs.
If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.

33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?

Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.

Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.

33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.

This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.

This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.

34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.

Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.

My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
 
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.

36.  WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.

37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.

38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.

39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.

Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?

40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.

41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.

Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know  you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.

42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.

43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

Destruction Overview Cliffsnotes version by Nicole D Graves(Updated Feb 2024)

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.

Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.

Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.

This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.

The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.

People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion,  dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.

Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.

These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.

18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.

22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.

23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.

Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.

24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.

All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.

If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.

25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.

26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.

They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?

27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.

Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.

28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.

29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.

30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.

31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.

32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.

Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.

You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food.  When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.

If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.

All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs.
If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.

33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?

Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.

Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.

33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.

This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.

This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.

34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.

Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.

My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
 
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.

36.  WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.

37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.

38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.

39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.

Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?

40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.

41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.

Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know  you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.

42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.

43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

Havana Dreams: A Story Of A Cuban Family by Wendy Gimbel —Book Review

This is a book about the family of Fidel Castro’s illegitimate daughter. It was interesting because I didn’t know much about Cuba or how Fidel Castro came into power. I like to learn about history through the stories of people’s lives. Cuba has a sad story. And the United States has taken part in that sad story more than I knew.

“A graffiti artist crossed out the “o” from a poster and replaced it with “es”. The sign that in Spanish had read “socialism or death” now read “socialism is death. But there is no deliverance.”

This book definitely helped cement my belief about socialism not being the answer. I know Communism was also involved in the struggles of Cuba in the 1900s and maybe even still. But I know I do not believe that to be the answer for anyone either.

On this revolution, I have “met” the Castro family in Cuba and they have been very kind to me. I know some of the Castro family here in the United States and they have partaken in hunting and gang stalking me my whole life not just on this revolution. They live in West Florida and Fontana, California. Luckily, the Castro family in Cuba was able to help me. Did you all know that the section of Springfield by Mill Street in Springfield, south of Centennial is the where the Castro people live? They are East of the Centennial hill and west of Mill street.

Do you all know there are areas of town for every group almost? My cousin Jessica does not know much about the grid system of the world. So I am wondering how much you know. Because you know she is fancy and lives her life by this game. Yet, she is not very informed. How many of you all think you are fancy, but don’t really know much about the game you live your life by? I bet more than I want to know.

“But memories aren’t organized; they lack sequence. They can’t fulfill Naty’s desire to give a permanent reality to her romance with Fidel. Writing down her story, giving it a coherence in time, has to be ther answer. Possibly she’s chosen me to write it because she believes I’ll accept her version of what happened. After all, I wasn’t there, never met the cast of characters. It is a time of expectations–for both of us.”

Can you imagine having an affair with a dictator, having his child, and then finding someone to write a book about your story? That seems a bit weird to me. What about you all? I get there is not much money is Cuba, but I don’t think this family did it for the money. I think they did it for fame. And to be known. I could be wrong. But they do seem like a very narcissistic family of women. There are no living men in their family.

“In words of Castro’s biographer Tad Szulc: “A corporal shouted to Sarria, “Lieutenant, we’ kill them!’ Sarria, a tall, black, fifty-three-year-old professional officer, raised his arm. “No,” he roared, “don’t kill them! I order you not to kill them! I am in command here….You can’t kill ideas….””

Fidel Castro ending up in jail was not the worst that could happen to him. Sarria even took him to the prison where he knew the military would not torture and kill him. But the revolution that Castro build was already in motion.

You can’t kill ideas. This is why my family has wanted me to stay quiet my whole life and never wanted anyone to really hear what I had to say. I have ideas of freedom. But I am not sure anyone else has really had the ideas I have. Because everyone seems to start out with ideas and ideals of freedom. But in the end they always seem to end up conquering people.

I have no desire to conquer. Granted, I do wish and strive for justice. But I want to retain my desire for freedom. Freedom to me is not bossing the whole world around. That is just another prison. I have been a prisoner of war my whole life. I would like to be free. I am not sure what we all need to do in order to be free. But I would love the time and freedom to figure it out.

When you get weirded out that I am not like other people with fancy birthrights like mine, just remember I am walking a tight rope and I don’t want to end up like the other people in my family. And I do not want to end up like other people who let power go to their heads. I want freedom. Being a dictator is just another prison. Maybe others do not see that, or understand it. But I have been a prisoner of war for longer than Nelson Mandela. I just want freedom.

“Fidel Castro knew how to make love to a woman without ever touching her. Naty Revuelta was a beauty, but Fidel didn’t have to tell her so; that was for the men who flirted with her at the Vedado Tennis Club. Instead, he courted her with his intelligence–and his convictions. Fidel made her feel that he relished her lively mind, doted on her intuitive sensibilities. He never mentioned her fabulous green eyes.”

I wish my Dad would have sent a man like this after me. I would have melted like chocolate in his hands. We all know how to get what we want. Lying is easy. Flattery is easy. Tell people what they want to hear. The key is you have to know what people want to hear. And you know what that takes? It takes emotional intelligence.

You know what is harder than telling people what they want to hear? Telling the truth. People rarely ever want to know the truth, let alone talk about it.

“Probably, Fidel found it uncomfortable to confront Alina’s mother, whom he no longer loved, each time he came to see his daughter. “It is a dreadful misfortune not to be loved when we are in love,” the French novelist Benjamin Constant once said, “but it is even more dreadful to be loved passionately when we have ceased to love.””

Alina is Fidel’s daughter. Love is a funny thing. It is a social construct. And we love people from our egos. Love is a role. It is a pattern of actions. The roles we play and fulfill are what shape our ego. It would hurt the ego to have loved a man before he became a dictator, when he was leading a revolution. But then once he came into power he no longer had a use for you. We only really love people who are of use to us. What we deem useful changes throughout our lives. Thus, the people we love changes throughout our lives. Love is transactional. We love people because we want something in return. We do not play roles without a payoff from them.

“She reminded me of a little bird I once saw in a market in New Delhi. When a miniature gate opened, it flew out of its bamboo cage–but then right back in. I guess for some people, it isn’t bearable to live with complete freedom.”

Freedom is not free and freedom scares a lot of people. There are so many options in life. It is hard to know which ones to pick when someone isn’t telling you who you should be and what you should become.

“The myth of exile runs something like this. When someone goes to live in a foreign country, he can’t take enough of the past with him to matter. In his own land, when someone sees him, even for a few minutes, he is more understood than he is in exile after twenty years. And so the exile begins to imagine the homeland as paradise and to inhabit it in his dreams.”

In ancient Athens they used to banish people. Ostraka was a yearly vote that allowed the city members to banish the most annoying person from the city. Someone they wanted gone. This works because of heard mentality. People do not want to leave the heard. This is why you all commit crimes against humanity everyday without thinking about it. Because you are being ruled by heard mentality.

This also means you are being ruled by extrinsic motivation, rather than intrinsic motivation. When you allow yourself to be motivated by the external world, you are extremely easy to control and brainwash. When you are motivated by the internal you have more control over yourself.

Extrinsic motivation means you are stuck in your ego. Which means you are stuck in survival mode. When you are stuck in your ego, you are extremely easy to control because you are in a reactive state. You are not using your critical logical brain and problem solving. You are reacting to the environment. And often reacting emotionally.

It is hard to move somewhere new, where no one knows you. I have done it a few times in my life. I love it. When no one knows you, it frees you from the expectations and roles forced onto you by society and the people around you. It allows you to be more of the person you were born to be. But a lot of people have a really hard time with it. Because they are living out of their ego.

I like this book. It was a good crash course into the history of Cuba. When you raise a woman or person to be fancy and the economy goes to shit and they are no longer fancy with riches and countless options. They seem to get a chip on their shoulders. I would assume this has happened to some of you all as well.

“The courts of kings and those of Communist leaders thrive on hierarchies, and position determines privilege. Herein is the decline, the rot, of revolution: a dream of social justice fades, replaced not be idealism but with favoritism. The chosen circle the leader like ravenous vultures.”

I do have favorites. I have probably favored the farmers too much. But I do believe in rewarding people who do the work. The people around my family are clueless and they think they are fancy. But privilege is the prison my family keeps people in. Granted, I was not as privileged as the people they keep weak with rewards. And I think this was the only reason I was able to create this revolution. Because the people with privilege from my family will do anything to keep that privilege. Even turn the world into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. They will even poison themselves and turn themselves into a subhuman slave race on a gene a cellular level, giving their children gene mutations they will never recover from. Pretty sad, huh? Yet, it is the reality we live in. I hope it changes soon.

Food For Thought

“Women are taught to sacrifice, to play nice, to live an altruistic life because a good girl is always rewarded in the end. This is not a virtue; it is propaganda. Submission gets you a ticket to future prosperity that will never manifest. By the time you realize the ticket to success and happiness you have been sold isn’t worth the paper it was printed on, it will be too late. Go on, spend a quarter of your life, even half of your life, in the service of others and you will realize you were hustled. You do not manifest your destiny by placing others first! A kingdom built on your back doesn’t become your kingdom, it becomes your folly. History does not remember the slaves of Egypt that built the pyramids, they remember the Pharaohs that wielded the power over those laborers. Yet here you are, content with being a worker bee, motivated by some sales pitch that inspires you to work harder for some master than you work for yourself, with this loose promise that one day you will share in his wealth. Altruism is your sin. Selfishness is your savior. Ruthless aggression and self-preservation are not evil. Why aren’t females taught these things? Instead of putting themselves first, women are told to be considerate and selfless. From birth, they have been beaten in the head with this notion of “Don’t be selfish!” Fuck that. Your mother may have told you to wait your turn like a good girl, but I’m saying cut in front of that other bitch. Club Success is about to hit capacity, and you don’t want to be the odd woman out. Where are the powerful women? Those who refuse to play by those rules and want more out of life than what a man allows her to have? I created a category for such women and labeled them Spartans. Much like the Greek warriors who fought against all odds, these women refuse to surrender and curtsy before the status quo. Being”


― G.L. Lambert, Men Don’t Love Women Like You: The Brutal Truth About Dating, Relationships, and How to Go from Placeholder to Game Changer

I Finished My First Book!!

You were born to change the world. Everyone is, but not everyone lives up to their potential. Potentiality is a collection of essays designed to help you be your best self and achieve your potential. No one can tell you who you were born to be, but these formulas can be applied in your journey of self-discovery. The topics include:

  • How To Not Be Average
  • How To Know Right From Wrong
  • How To Know Who You Are
  • How To Change The World
  • How To Not Feel Jealousy
  • How To Love Yourself
  • How To Be Intelligent
  • How To Create More Intelligence
  • How To End Violence
  • How To Deal With Stress
  • How To Be Human
  • How To Get Out Of Survival Mode

We learn about epigenetics, beliefs, meditation, gut bacteria, brain chemistry, fight-or-flight response, self-worth, spirituality, physics, space-time, consciousness, and countless other things, but how are we supposed to apply this knowledge to our lives? How is all of the information in the modern world supposed to help us live better lives? These essays will give you the tools needed to change your life. Life is about practical application of knowledge, because that is what intelligence is. These essays will teach you how to be intelligent. They will teach you how to construct your thinking patterns to create more intelligence. And how to find your own truth.

And much more…

Live What You Love: Notes From An Unusual Life by Bob and Melinda Blanchard — Book Review

This was a book written by a husband and wife who have started many businesses together including Blanchard and Blanchard gourmet foods. I had never heard of them before, like usual. But I did really enjoy this book more than I anticipated. I read it in one night.

“…we’ve identified four checkpoints in life that help us connect our dreams with reality…the Big 4: PASSION, PEOPLE, ENVIRONMENT, and MONEY…”

These are the Big 4 checkpoints that Bob and Mel use to make decisions not only on their dreams or work, but life in general. I like this formula it seems to encompass everything. They say money should always come last. You need to make sure you have the other points in place first. Which makes sense. When you want something bad enough you will find a way to make it happen. Money isn’t the why, it is the how.

“Feelings have been–and always will be–the bedrock of our lives. Time and again we’ve faced potentially life-changing decisions that seemed to offer overwhelming advantages and decided against them. Why? The more logical choices simply didn’t feel right. Recognizing the value in every experience and checking your dreams for practicality are crucial ingredients for making a life you love, but you must also learn to trust your feelings.”

Feelings are everything! Which is funny because I give you all a hard time for being so emotional. However, feelings are very different from emotions. Feelings come from your senses and your nervous system and are computed in your logical brain. While emotions come from your limbic system and are computed in your reptilian brain. Things need to feel right with your sense and your critical logical brain.

“To live a life you love is more than just putting in time, earning money, and coexisting with people. It is to live with a life you passion, significance, and meaning.”

Logotherapy remember? Viktor Frankl seemed to explain what everyone knows, but didn’t have the words for. To find meaning and purpose is the key to living a happy/good life. People figure it out after a lifetime of hit and miss. But Bob and Mel seem to have figured it out early on in their lives and implemented this philosophy over and over. Even giving up opportunities that other people would die for.

“Has there ever been something you’d love to do, but couldn’t quite put all the pieces together to make it happen?…That happens to us all the time.”

Just because the answer does not appear with ease, does not mean it is not possible. It just means it is not easy. If good things were easy everyone would do them. Life is meant to be easy and put us at ease. But there are some things in life worth struggling for and working hard. Which often just means thinking outside the box in ways others do not.

“…choose a rich life over an expensive lifestyle…”

Being rich is not the same thing as having a lot of money. Money cannot buy happiness. Yes, it can get you on a beach in a bikini. But it will never be able to soothe the demons you have on the inside. In order to be rich, you have to battle your demons and win. Not just make friends with the monsters under your bed, but you need to banish them. You need to make your peace with them. This is what rich is. Because when you are not constantly battling your demons and dealing with monsters, you can create the life of your dreams in reality. I like to say “Sweet dreams of realities to come”. You have to battle your demons and win. Otherwise your whole life will be a war.

I would recommend and suggest this book for everyone, but especially people who are struggling with creating a business or doing anything outside of the box. Life is meant to be lived. And if you really want to live your life you have to throw out the cookie cutters that people try to make you fit into. Stop living for others and life for yourself and your own happiness. Living for your own happiness is surprisingly the hardest thing I have ever done in life. Maybe it is easier for you? But never stop trying to make your dreams reality. Because that is when the demons and monsters have conquered you. And remember who cares if you look weird or unusual if you are living your dreams. Would you rather look like everyone else and be miserable? Misery loves company. Spend more time alone.

If there was ever a quote to describe me that would be it! “Misery loves company. Spend more time alone.” Pure Gold!

Wild Child: Girlhoods in the Counterculture by Chelsea Cain —Book Review

Have you ever wondered what it is like to grow up a child of a hippie? Growing up and living in Eugene/Springfield I have seen countless children raised by hippies. Some look like they have lives that are better than children raised in families who follow social norms, but some do not.

The book Wild Child: Girlhoods in the Counterculture is a collections of essays by women who grew up in families who do not follow social norms. The definition of hippie is a member of the counterculture. But not all of these parents were the tie dye wearing, pot smoking hippies we often think of. Some just did not want to follow the traditional rules of society.

The book was published in 1999. So most of these women grew up in the 1960s & 1970s. Generally speaking, they all seemed to appreciate their childhood and the values they were raised with even though they were different than most. Not all of them grew up to embody those same values as an adult. And some just did not value them out in the open like their parents. You don’t have to share all your beliefs openly. It is okay to have more of a private life is what some of them learned from their childhoods.

But on the other hand, some rebelled more against the rules of society. I suppose children raised by hippies and members of the counterculture are no different than other children; some end up to be like their parents and others do not. We tend to either embrace the way we are raised or rebel against it and find a life that is more comfortable for us. And it was interesting how more than a couple said they wished for more structure and rules. Which just proves there is a middle ground for everything.

“Everything is dangerous, my father said. Trust no one. How then shall I trust you?”

My parents still try to get me to fear other people. They tell me everyday that you people will treat me worse than them. That you will hunt me, hurt me, and breed me like a farm animal. But my family are really the people who have done this to me. When people tell you to fear something they are projecting something onto you. They are trying to control you with fear.

I do not fear the world. And I hope you do not either. Because from my experience it is the people who say they love us or are supposed to love us are the ones we should really fear the most. They are the ones most likely to hurt us both on purpose and by accident. We don’t let other people very close to us. It is the people closest to you in the stupid imaginary game who are the most likely to hurt and kill you. Everyone has a price, right? If you keep people at arms distance and in a business relationship, then you know they have to maintain a certain degree of manners and humanity. When people are allowed close to you for emotional reasons they turn into heathens.

“But running only makes the past easier to find you. It is better to stay still and let history wash over you and cleanse the pain.”

I have ran my whole life. I have tried to escape my birthrights and my family my whole life. Yet, here we are. Stop running. It is okay to do some soul searching and seek answers. But stop running. You will never escape who you are. You have to face the situation you were born into head on. Even when it sucks. Even when you would rather do anything else in the world. Once it washes over you, it starts to not hurt so much. You learn to live in the pain and it stops hurting. You stop hurting. Your pain tolerance increases and you just keep going. When you run everything gets more painful. Stop running and start seeking and searching for how to endure the pain better.

“I did not know and I did not care, but I was told I should know, I should care. So I did.”

This was said in response to a father asking his daughter what he thought people would think of them after she had associated with a hippie family. This girl was from a traditional family and wrote about her interaction with a hippie family that made her long for more freedom and connection. Wasn’t it your parents that taught you to care about what people think of you? This is called extrinsic motivation. When you are ruled by extrinsic motivation you are taught to ignore intrinsic motivation. You are taught to live your life for other people, rather than yourself. How are your parents going to control you if you do not value extrinsic motivation over intrinsic motivation? Is the goal of parenting to control your children, or to raise them? Raising children is not about controlling them, it is about teaching them about intrinsic motivation and planting some seeds to teach them how to motivate themselves no matter of the outside circumstances. People who are ruled by what other people think of them are easy to control. And it is also a sign they are living out of their ego in survival mode, unable to access their critical logical mind fully.

“It comes down to this: During my three days here I have been called “sister” and greeted by strangers as if we were raised in the same tepee. But they are not my family. I think that the people who love the Gatherings, who live for them, are people who don’t fell that sort of adoration anywhere else.”

This essay was by a girl who was raised by hippies who went to a Rainbow Gathering as an adult. She only made it a 2 or 3 days, instead of the whole week. And it was in central Oregon, near Prineville and on public land.

Have you ever been to a festival of any sort? If you do not love your children, they will grow up to search for that love in all the wrong places? What is that country song?

“I was looking for Love in all the wrong places

Looking for love in too many faces” -Johnny Lee

I have never been to a Rainbow Gathering, but I have been to more than my fair share of festivals. I chose not to go to the Rainbow Gatherings because they are a mix of all those people who are looking for love in all the wrong places and they sure as hell do not know how to love back. They are very predatory. When people are not loved, they hunt others and prey on them. I would hope you would want more for your children. Or maybe that is the kind of adult you are trying to raise.

Overall, this book was great. It took a couple nights to read, but it was enlightening. I love reading the experiences of others. We all have experienced hard and painful things. But we all have an opportunity to learn from these experiences. And the goal is to hopefully become a better person not because of the pain you have had to endure, but in spite of it! Don’t let anything define you. But let everything make you better.

Program 4- Personal Health 101 Day 17

On day 1, we talked about why your health is your own personal responsibility and something you have to manage yourself.

Let’s say you wanted to conquer the world. First, you would have to enslave the people. Do you think healthy and happy people would be easier to enslave? Or do you think diseased and depressed people would be easier to enslave? If you are trying to conquer the world, it only makes sense to make people diseased and depressed first.

Remember how releasing toxins in the environment inhibits people’s ability to methylate, blocking them from their critical logical mind? Well if you create dysbiosis in their gut, which is the common denominator of all disease and depression, you stop them from standing up for themselves. By creating dysbiosis in humans, you create pushovers who won’t stand up for themselves. You create people who are unsure of themselves, because they don’t trust themselves.

Remember how your mirror neurons are always collecting information with your nervous system and storing this information in your subconscious? Well, people with diverse healthy gut bacteria have more influence and are more popular. Your mirror neurons and nervous system collect information about people’s microbiome because it helps you know who to trust. It let’s you know who you should listen to more.

However, if everyone around you has dysbiosis it will be easier to sell you a ketchup popsicle when you have white gloves on. Your subconscious and your mirror neurons will not know who to trust. And your own dysbiosis will tell you that you cannot trust yourself.

Your health is your personal responsibility because the medical industry aims to disempower you and enslave you. Modern medicine rarely does anything to help you cultivate a diverse healthy microbiome. Most of modern medicine erodes your gut bacteria and creates more disbiosis. Almost all pharmaceutical and over the counter drugs create dysbiosis. And almost all people take drugs in an effort to feel better.

You are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. In order to experience health, you have to cultivate your microbiome. You are a bug. Your health relies on you cultivating your bugs. Modern medicine mostly ignores this foundational truth. You have to take responsibility for your own personal health.

On day 2, we talked about how you were born to be you.

There are only about 6 diseases in the world that are caused by just genes. All the rest are epigenetic. So yes, you were born with genes like your family. But that does not mean you have to be like them.

You determine which of your genes are turned on and off by how you live your life, your beliefs, and every decision you make. You choose who you are everyday of your life. You can change any day you choose to. All you have to do is start making different decisions and living differently.

Everyday your body is creating new cells. The mitochondria in each of those cells writes messages into the cell. These messages in every cell of your body add up to be your epigenetics. Yes, you are human. But really you are just a collective of cells. And you are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than human cells. But your bugs have epigenetics too.

Everyday you are either becoming a more optimal human or you are becoming more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. You get to choose who you are today and who you become tomorrow. So anytime you feel helpless remember you are the master of your own destiny. You decide who you are down to a gene and cellular level. The ultimate control is yours.

On day 3, we talked about generational trauma.

You take more after your Mom’s side of the family, right? Everyone does, because we inherit all of our mitochondria from our Mom. Yes, we get 50% of our genes from our Mom and 50% from our Dad. But remember how mitochondria write messages into each cell of your body and those messages add up to be your epigenetics? This means your Mom decided 100% your gene expression.

Remember how we are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than human cells? Well, you get all of your mitochondria from your Mom because you inherit bacteria, parasite, and virus cells from your Mom, your Mom’s Mom, your maternal great grandmother, and so on and on. Your microbiome and gut bacteria dictate the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. And you get your bugs from your Mom’s side of the family.

Now imagine your maternal great grandmother took antibiotics once because she was deathly ill and almost died. This would allow for the antibiotic resistant bacteria in her body to flourish. And this bacteria would be passed on to your Grandma and Mom and it would flourish in them when they took antibiotics. It’s a snowball effect in bacteria form.

Generational trauma is really just an overgrowth of bad bugs. People have not taken responsibility for their health for generations. So if you wish to not experience dis ease in the same ways as the people in your family, you need to cleanse your body.

On day 4, we talked about the holy trinity of health.

The holy trinity of health is gut bacteria, mitochondria, and epigenetics. Any kind of disease, depression, or anxiety can be helped and some even cured by using this formula for health.

Your gut bacteria dictate the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. Mitochondria write messages into each cell of your body. And these messages add up to be your epigenetics. This snowball effect can either keep you healthy or it can keep you sick.

If you are in pain, diseased, depressed, or anxious it is your job to fix your gut bacteria and stop the negative snowball effect in your body and epigenetics. This feels overwhelming at first. But after you take responsibility for your health and get used to caring for yourself, it gets easier. When you first learned to drive a car it was a lot to take in. But after a few years you can do it without thinking about it. Taking care of your own health and body is no different. Once you accept the responsibility and learn how to do it, it just becomes natural and easy.

On day 5, we talked about gene mutations.

We have been taught to worship gene mutations. Blue eyes and blonde hair are gene mutations. Humans are designed to have brown hair and brown eyes. Anything other than this is suboptimal on a gene and cellular level.

We are taught to idealize gene mutations because they make people easier to control and brainwash. The more gene mutations you have the more prone you are to disbiosis. The more disbiosis you have the more cut off from your critical logical mind you are and the more you are susceptible to suggestion and brainwashing.

If you were trying to conquer the world and enslave the people, would you want people to be easier to brainwash? Or would you want them to think for themselves and be strong on a gene and cellular level? Gene mutations are a great way to enslave the world without them knowing or understanding what is happening.

On day 6, we talked about brain damage.

If you were trying to take over the world, it would be easier if people where in a hyper fear state and couldn’t think clearly, right?

Your gut bacteria create many vitamins your body and brain need to work properly. When you erode your gut bacteria, you erode your ability to create these vitamins.

Vitamin K2 is one of the vitamins your gut bacteria produce. It is a fat soluble vitamin that helps calcium be absorbed into your bones and teeth. When you do not have enough vitamin K2, calcium free floats in your bloodstream unable to be absorbed. This free floating calcium then damages your brain in your amygdala. Causing you to be in a hyper fear state. Which often just feels like stress. You are constantly stressed and nothing you do seems to lessen the stress you feel. This brain damage to your amygdala also causes you to not be able to handle extreme temperatures. When it gets hot or cold you feel even more stressed and your body cannot regulate your temperature.

Lastly, this free floating calcium grows the C. Diff bacteria in your body, because calcium germinates C. Diff spores. This leads to extreme hunger, especially in the winter months. And it also leads to more addictive behaviors. Because C. Diff changes the way your brain processes dopamine.

If you were enslaving people in an attempt to conquer the world, it would be a lot easier if they had brain damage, lived in a constant fear and stress state, ate too much damaging their epigenetics and causing disease, and had more addictive behaviors.

On day 7, we talked about heavy metals.

You remember how we inherit our bugs from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, we also inherit heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family. Any heavy metals your great great Grandma was exposed to you will have. Unless she or someone downstream cleansed their body of heavy metals before you were born.

Also anything that touches our skin bypasses our liver and goes directly into our bloodstream. Remember how environmental toxins are released into the environment to block people off from their critical logical mind and create a crusade? All those toxins are in our food. But they also are in our body. This means all the environmental toxins that were used to create world war 2 and every war since are in your body unless someone on your Mom’s side of the family took the time and responsibility to remove them.

Let’s say we lived in a world where women poison themselves when they are pregnant. This means the more older siblings you have the more toxic metals would be built up in your Mom’s body.

Toxic heavy metals cause disease, cognitive impairment, and disbiosis. It is another great way to leave people unable to think for themselves. And they pass it on to their children.

Flouride is a heavy metal. Many of us took this as children for our teeth. And many people use dental products with fluoride. This inhibits your brain from talking to you in images.

Bromide is another heavy metal that has been put in bread. We used to use iodine in bread, but it helps our body remove heavy metals. So in the 1970s &1980s they added bromide and took out the iodine.

Immunizations have heavy metals.

Paint before 1978 had lead. And if you live in a house older than 1978 there is probably lead paint in it. Lead has dangerous effects on the brain. Especially, children’s brains.

There are countless instances of heavy metals in our environment being put in our bodies. You need to cleanse your body and brain of heavy metals.

On day 8, we talked about oxytocin.

Oxytocin is often referred to as the love hormone. It is associated with trust, sex, parenthood, and our bodies crave this hormone. Because oxytocin is healing. Remember how you create healthy telemares when you are completing your purpose in life and this allows your DNA to replicate without flaws? Well, oxytocin protects the health of your telemares.

So when you are in trusting relationships, especially when you have children, while being of service and completing your purpose you are a more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. You were born to complete your purpose and establish trusting relationships that create oxytocin. This is what allows your body to stay in optimal health. You were born to love and be loved. It’s science. Bob Marley was right.

Let’s say that the world signed up to be in a cult of sociopaths, who destroyed everyone and everything. This would change the way their brains wired and fired in countless ways. Sociopaths are not born. They are made by changing the way your brain wires and fires. When you act like a sociopath, you become addicted to destruction and poisoning people. And you loose your humanity on countless levels.

Sociopaths and all cluster b personality disorders dysfunctionally process oxytocin. You can’t love and trust people when you are addicted to destruction. And this dysfunctional processing of oxytocin makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

Instead of oxytocin being healing, it will create a stress response. This stress response is why post partum depression is so common nowadays. It is also why so many women have a hard time breast feeding. When oxytocin is stressful rather than healing because your body and brain process it dysfunctionally, it causes disease and for you to become less human on a gene and cellular level.

You were born to accomplish your purpose, but you were also born to create loving and trusting relationships.

On day 9, we talked about addiction.

Addiction is just an antibiotic resistant infection. C. Diff bacteria changes the way your brain processes dopamine, which changes your behavior and who you are. All you have to do is cleanse your body and treat the infection.

When you take antibiotics this infection grows. When you surround yourself with others who also have this infection like in NA and AA, this infection grows. When you have disbiosis, this infection grows.

C. Diff is a spore bacteria. Which means it is like mold. The spores are floating around in the environment constantly waiting to find what they need to germinate and become active and alive. Just like mold needs water to be active. C. Diff needs calcium.

The more you heal your gut bacteria, the more your body will be able to fight this infection naturally and on it’s own. The more gut bugs you have that produce vitamin K2, the less able C. Diff spores will be to germinate. Vitamin K2 allows for calcium in your body to be absorbed into your bones and teeth. Which makes it unavailable to germinate the C. Diff spores in your body.

Addiction is just an antibiotic resistant bacterial infection. You are not an addict. You just have an infection. You are not helpless. You just have an infection. The more you cleanse your body the more you will feel like yourself.

Addiction is not a personality flaw. It is just an infection which is designed to get you to accept learned helplessness. If you were enslaving the people in an effort to take over the world wouldn’t it be easier if they thought they were helpless and couldn’t take care of themselves?

On day 10, we talked about vitamin deficiencies.

Most of us have vitamin deficiencies and we don’t even know it. Because we are born with them. Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasites, viruses, and heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, we also inherit vitamin deficiencies. Meaning if your great Grandma had a vitamin deficiency and no one down stream from her corrected it, then you also have this vitamin deficiency.

Recommended Daily Allowances(RDA) are made up imaginary numbers. No two people need the same amount of vitamins. We all are different. Our bodies are different. We have different bugs. We have different genes. We have different epigenetics. No two people are the same.

Exposure to toxins increases your need for vitamins and minerals. Some gene mutations and negative epigenetic triggers make it so you cannot absorb certain vitamins and minerals effectively. The soil and our food has been designed to be void of nutrients. Food today has significantly less nutrition than even 50 years ago. You cannot get all the vitamins and minerals you need just with food. It’s literally impossible with food the way it is today.

Your needs for vitamins and minerals really don’t have much to do with you at all. What you require for vitamins and minerals relys most on the emotional regulation of the people around you. And we live in a world where people are incapable of emotional regulation, because they are addicted to their emotions. So your need for vitamins and minerals is directly correlated with how addicted the people around you are to their emotions. And really has not much to do with you.

Let’s say the gas attendant that pumped your gas today got in a fight with his boss, so he put a little extra poison in your gas today to make himself feel better. Let’s say the grocery store worker had a good day, so she put a little less poison in your food today. Let’s say the janitor where you work got in a fight with his wife, so he put a little more poison in the cleaners he used. Let’s say your spouse had a good day at work, so he or she put extra poison in your food to celebrate.

Toxins increase your need for vitamins and minerals. No two days are the same, because everyday the people around you poison you to different degrees due to their lack of emotional regulation. This is the consequence of living in a world where people destroy everyone and everything.

The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the worse your epigenetics. The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the more prone you are to disbiosis, depression, anxiety, and disease. The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the more cut off you are from your critical logical mind and the more vulnerable you are to brainwashing and suggestion.

If you were taking over the world and needed to enslave the people to do so, wouldn’t it make sense to starve them so they couldn’t think clearly?

On day 12, we talked about your immune system.

Remember how good bugs create symbiotic relationships with you, making you a better human and home for themselves? And remember how bad bugs create parasitic relationships with you and eat you alive till you die? And remember how disbiosis is just an overgrowth of bad bugs? And remember how an overgrowth of bad bugs causes disease?

There are countless bacteria, parasite, and virus strains in the world. Each of them do different things and require different foods and environments to grow and thrive. But the good news is if you grow your good bugs, they will help you battle the bad bugs. Because they want a good life too. This phenomenon is called your immune system. Your good bugs fight to keep you alive and healthy. Because they want to stay alive and healthy.

Creating good gut bacteria isn’t about killing all the bad bugs. It is about getting them down in numbers to where your immune system can handle them and keep them in check. And your immune system is your good bugs.

Remember how covid killed people? It didn’t kill people because it was deadly on it’s own. It killed people because they had an overgrowth of other bad bugs and their immune system was overwhelmed. You know how really old people die from the flu? It is the same concept.

Your immune system is made up of your good bugs. The more different strains you have the better. And the more your good bugs outnumber your bad bugs, the stronger your immune system will be. Whenever you kill parasitic bugs in your body, you improve the strength of your immune system. Your good bugs are your immune system.

On day 13, we talked about serotonin.

Serotonin is a neurotransmitter made in your gut. Remember your gut bosses your brain around. And it produces neurotransmitters like serotonin.

Being human is a chemical reaction. Everything you experience triggers chemicals from within your body. These chemicals are what make you human. These chemicals are what make life worth living.

Addiction issues are just you doing things to cause a chemical reaction in your body. The more you understand how to create these chemicals in your body in a healthy manner, the fewer maladaptive addictions you will have.

Serotonin has to do with mood regulation. And it does help make you feel content and happy. But the big thing it does is it regulates your immune system. And remember how most of your immune system lives in your gut? Serotonin regulates your gut motility. Which is a key factor in your health and wellness.

Your gut bacteria create serotonin and many other neurotransmitters. But they require that you have the building blocks necessary for their production. So this means if you have too many vitamin and mineral deficiencies, you will not be able to produce the serotonin you need. Which means your body will not be able to regulate your immune system.

If you have a healthy balance of gut bacteria, you will have a good mood, healthy immune system, and good digestion without constipation or diarrhea. However, if your seratonin production is out of whack you will have many health and mood complications. And you will experience constipation and/or diarrhea.

If you have gut bacteria that do not produce enough serotonin, you will be constipated. If you have gut bacteria that produce too much serotonin, you will have diarrhea. And if your gut bugs produce too much serotonin, it puts you at risk for having seizures. If you have seizures, it means your gut bacteria produce too much serotonin. And you can fix all these issues merely by balancing your gut bacteria.

Different bacteria eat different foods. So you need to eat the foods that feed the gut bacteria you would like to grow more of. Your health and happiness depend on you knowing how and what to feed your gut bacteria so they will produce what you need to be healthy and happy.

Being human is a chemical experience. Instead of doing drugs figure out how to hack your gut bacteria in order to be healthy and get high on life. Your good bugs want you to be healthy and happy. You need to learn how to help them be healthy and happy. So they can take care of you.

On day 14, we talked about the spectrum of epigenetics.

Epigenetics are not black and white. They exist on a spectrum. We often cannot directly see this spectrum, but hazel eye color is a perfect example. You have seen people with hazel eyes and how their eyes change colors, right? Well, this is due to epigenetics. There are 16 genes that determine eye color. The more positive epigenetics you have, the more brown your eyes will be.

The genes that determine eye color dictate how much melanin your eyes produce. The more melanin you produce, the more brown your eyes. People with blue eyes do not produce melanin. Green eyes produce a little more than blue eyes. And amber or orange colored eyes produce a little more. But brown eyes produce the optimal amount of melanin. This means people with hazel colored eyes are in a unique position to be able to see the health of their epigenetics pretty clearly.

Epigenetics are a spectrum. 16 genes determine your eye color. But over 500 genes determine your intelligence. Can you even imagine how many different shades of intelligence there are? Your genes may give you limitations to your potential, but there are countless things you can do to reach your potential.

Remember everyday you are producing new cells and those cells have mitochondria that write messages into the cell. These messages add up to be your epigenetics. So everyday you have a chance to become more human on a gene and cellular level.

On day 15, we talked about GMO’s.

GMOs are created by inserting mutated viruses into organisms. You know how KFC can’t be called Kentucky Fried Chicken anymore? Well, that’s because they don’t serve chicken. The meat they serve is just a vehicle to get you to eat viruses.

All GMOs foods are like this. Plus, often they have been designed to have more of the amino acid arginine. Because this grows the viruses in your body.

These mutated viruses cause disease. And once you have a virus it stays in your body forever. Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasite, and virus cells from our Mom’s side of the family? We inherit these GMO viruses too.

So yes, the grocery store workers are killing us with bad bacteria and heavy metals they put on the food. But the food has literally been designed to kill us slowly, covertly, and painfully over time.

On day 16, we talked about ethanol.

GMO corn has mutated viruses in it. And GMO corn is in gas. This means not only do cars and other gas operated machines spew bad bacteria into the environment, they also spew mutated viruses into the air and environment.

Covid was far from the first virus we were exposed to. When food was genetically modified in the 1980s, we were genetically modified. Because we eat the food and it becomes a part of who we are. And we inherit viruses from our Mom’s side of the family.

We breath bad bacteria and viruses with every breath we take. And these bad bacteria and viruses are living in the materials that make up your houses, homes, and cars. Remember how to tell the difference between good bugs and bad bugs? Good bugs make you a better human because they form symbiotic relationships with you. And bad bugs eat you alive till you die because they are parasitic.

You will be eaten alive till you die, unless you learn how to cultivate your good bugs and kill parasitic bugs.

Today, on day 17, let’s talk about how the pandemic never really ended.

The Covid virus wasn’t what killed people. The overload of bad bugs on their immune system is what killed people. We may have addressed the existence of one virus. But we never addressed the root problem. When you don’t get to the root of a problem, it keeps growing back.

Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasites, viruses, and heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, bad bacteria, parasites, and heavy metals can be removed from your body with time and efforts. But viruses are forever. You can bring the number of virus cells down in your body to where your immune system can keep them in check. But you can never fully remove virus cells from your body.

We live in a world with mutated viruses from GMO’s and countless other viruses. We catch these viruses from each other, from just breathing the air, eating food and drinking. Viruses cause obesity, cancer, autoimmune diseases, and countless other complications. But we have never addressed the elephant in the room.

The pandemic never ended and we never addressed the root to our pain and suffering.

Planet On Fire: A Manifesto For the Age Of Environmental Breakdown by Matthew Lawrence and Laurie Laybourn-Langton–Book Review Part 2

I said I would do a part 2 on this book, but I still did not finish it. I thought about it a lot though.

They talk about socialization of certain industries as a way to stop global warming. And this is just not something I can get onboard with. I don’t believe in socialism. I believe in capitalism. Because until capitalism there was only the lower class and the upper class. Capitalism created the middle class. Until then most people never got to have much of an intellectual life or hobbies. Until capitalism it was basically a caste system.

Also, I do not trust any one group of people. I believe in checks and balances. And I also believe that money is a great check and balance. When people are doing something for money it keeps them good in some ways. It keeps them more honest than if they were doing it for other reasons, especially heartfelt reasons. Self-interest is what Darwinism is based on. People will almost always do what is in their best interest, when given the chance, and the education to understand what is in their best interest.

Look at the people who do my family’s bidding. They are not doing it because it is the right thing to do. They are doing it because they believe it is in their best self-interest. They don’t understand the situation globally or on a gene and cellular level or anywhere in between. Do you think they would fight to make themselves into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Probably not. And what would stop the people who control certain industries that are socialized for the good of humans from being sheltered so they do not know what is in their best interest? These Mixed Polish NE/NE people have been sheltered for generations. Do you think they understand what all has been happening for generations? Don’t you think these are the people my family would put in places of power in socialized industries?

The people who work at the water and utility companies now add poison into the water. What do you think they would do if they did not have to worry about loosing their jobs for doing these things? What if their survival was not intertwined with their job and their actions on the job? Do you think that would make them put more or less poison in the water? I bet if there was no fear about being caught, they would add significantly more poison to the water.

Money and capitalism creates a little accountability. Yes, we need to change everything so we don’t ruin the Earth forever. But we need capitalism because it is the only accountability in some people’s lives. It is the only things keeping them as honest as they are. And we all know they are not honest.

Socializing certain industries like land, water, and/or oil is not the answer. It will just create more problems that we will not have time to fix. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. Capitalism keeps people honest. Imagine how bad it would be without it! It would be worse. Without capitalism the middle class will disappear more than it already has. I don’t know about you all, but I do not want to live in a caste system any more than it already is!

Capitalism is the answer, if we want to retain the freedoms that everyone tries to take away from us. People have died for us to have the freedoms that we have today. We need to respect those people’s lives. We need to realize how much others have sacrificed for us to live the way we do. And we need to adjust the way we live so we don’t ruin the Earth and so the generations to come have the freedoms we have today. Like going outside and breathing air, forests, water, and food. There are so many things we take for granted everyday that we are jeopardizing for the following generations.

Quantum Healing by Deepak Chopra, M.D. —Book Review

I loved this book! It was written in the late 1980s. It is amazing how much we knew in the 1980s that the mainstream media did not tell us about. Epigenetics were discovered in the 1980s, too.

In the book, Quantum Healing by Deepak Chopra, M.D. he focuses on cancer remissions and unexplained recoveries. People heal themselves, we just have not developed a crystal clear step by step guide of this that is a one size fits all. There are countless books you can read nowadays that will literally tell you how to heal yourself.

This book talks about people with unexplained recoveries from cancer who have attended Dr. Chopra’s healing clinic which uses western medicine, neuroscience, physics, and eastern medicine(Ayurveda). Blending together many different modalities seems to be the answer. There is no one size fits all healing technique that works for everyone. Different things work for different people. But many things work better than traditional western medicine.

“Basically, I want to get your body into a deep, deep, state of rest.”

“…they all aimed at bringing her day-to-day existence to a settled, restful state, building a foundation for healing.”

“…just before the cure appears, almost every patient experiences a dramatic shift in awareness…this leap in consciousness seems to be the key…The word that comes to mind when a scientist thinks of such sudden changes is quantum. The word denotes a discrete jump from one level of functioning to a higher level–the quantum leap.”

In the modern world, we are stressed out. It is almost impossible for your body to heal when it is in a constant state of stress. “…if one wants to restore the body’s own healing ability, everything should be done to bring it back into balance.” We were not designed to live under such stress. We were not designed to live in the modern world. The modern world was not built for us. Who was it built for is my question?

Since this book was written there have been countless studies that show the mind can access the switches to our genes. Epigenetics is how are genes are turned on and off. And beliefs dictate epigenetics. But you can also heal by using meditation and visualization and countless other techniques.

“…your chief aim every day should be to maximize positive input and minimize negative input…caring for yourself today is exactly what determines your life for decades to come.”

“My body is metabolizing everything I see, hear, smell, and touch and turning it into me…”

If you haven’t seen the movie, “What the Bleep Do We Know” I would highly recommend it. It is hard to imagine how physics plays into who we are. And how we are us. The world is apart of us and we are apart of the world. But it is hard to feel that sometimes. Sometimes it feels like the world is against us. Believe me I am all too familiar with this feeling. But you just have to do something to feel better in a healthy manner.

Your body is like a machine. But the universe is a bigger machine and you are apart of it. Not everything we experience is material, Newtonian. Not everything we experience can be explained with our conscious mind or with words. Some things we just feel and some things we just know. We don’t know how we know these things. We just know. And believe me people will always try to tell you that you are wrong when you can’t explain something you know. But not everything needs to be explained. Those who know, get it.

Deepak Chopra talks a lot about the invisible fields of intelligence that we have access to and that surround us. Which sounds very new-age. But this book was written in the 1980s. And Einstein talked a lot about the precision of the world and how it is intelligent.

“Einstein…has testified to moments when “one feels free from one’s own identification with human limitations”…”

“When something seems to change in the world, the rishis said, it is really you that is changing.”

“…subjective reality and objective reality are tightly bound together. When the mind shifts, the body cannot help but follow.”

“If we program ourselves to deteriorate, which was the rule in earlier generations, then that becomes the reality.”

I earmarked so many pages in this book, it is hard to find the quotes that justify how amazing it is. Deepak Chopra wrote a lot of books in the 1980s. And he is ahead of his time on so many levels. His book on gut bacteria, Perfect Digestion, is beyond words as well. I will try to find some more of his books. But these quantum books have just been appearing lately. I rarely actually search for a book or topic. I just wander the non-fiction section and see what I find.

“Platonists…they believed that the world of things is a shadowy projection of a vaster, invisible reality that is nonmaterial…Einstein, stood in awe at the orderliness of nature without ascribing intelligence to it.”

You are universal because you are apart of the universe. You have more power than you understand. Because we cannot put everything into words. It is your job to learn how you access these feelings and knowings the best. There is a field of intelligence that surrounds us and exists in our bodies. We may never have the words to describe it fully. But do we really need the words if we experience fully? Do we really need to explain everything we feel?

Not everything is material or Newtonian. The material is only a very small part of the universe. Religions would not be so big or popular if this was not true. We all see an explanation for the things we feel, but cannot describe with words. Maybe we seek these words in order to share these experiences. But you don’t need fancy science words to share your experience with people who are committed to understanding you and/or loving you. You can just tell them what you know or you can share the feeling with them.

I like feelings better than words. I spent years writing to try to explain the feelings I have. And I spent more years doing research to try to explain the things I just know. What I have learned is you will never be able to explain yourself or what you know to someone who is committed to misunderstanding you. No matter what you say to some people, you will never be enough. And no matter what you say it will always be the wrong thing. Some people just want to attack you because they committed to misunderstanding you. Letting go of that commitment would mean they have to seek to understand themselves more. And most people are not ready for that. Because understanding yourself is hard. If it came easy everyone would do it. Understanding yourself is about getting past your ego. And you have to calm down to do that. Most people are not willing to calm down or get out of their, let alone get to know themselves or be that person. Being you is hard in a world designed to keep you in your ego. We all feel that. But everyone wants to believe they know themselves because they want everyone to believe they are not just playing the role that was assigned to them. People are actors and actresses just playing roles. When you play the role assigned to you, you do not get to access the fields of intelligence that surround us. You may get glimpses. But to live in the intelligence of the world, you have to be a human being. Your ego is a reaction. You are not intended to be a reaction. You are a being. When you stop reacting to the environment, you learn who you really are. And you get access to more information, intelligence, and feelings than you ever imagined possible.

Have you ever taken LSD? It is like that, but less hectic and more subtle. It is something you can opt into or out of. It is really neat. I hope you all try it.

Rational Recovery: The New Cure For Substance Addiction by Jack Trimpey —Book Review

“Observe your thoughts and feelings, positive and negative, about drinking or using. Thoughts and feelings that support continued use are called Addictive Voice (AV); those that support abstinence are you. When you recognize and understand your AV, it becomes not-you, but “it,” an easily defeated enemy that has been causing you to drink. All it wants is pleasure. “I want a drink” becomes “It wants a drink.” Think to yourself, “I will never drink again,” and listen for its reaction. Your negative thoughts and feelings are your AV talking back to you. Now, think, “I will drink/use whenever I please.” Your pleasant feelings are also the AV, which is in control. Recovery is not a process; it is an event. The magic word is “Never,” as in “I will never drink/use again.” Recognition defeats short-term desire, and abstinence soon becomes effortless. Complete separation of “you” from “it” leads to complete recovery and hope for a better life. The only time you can drink is now, and the only time you can quit for good is right now. “I will never drink/use again” becomes “I never drink now.” It’s not hard; anyone can do it.”

I loved this book. I did not read all of it, but I would highly suggest anyone who has any kind of addiction read it. The first chapter blows your mind, because it says things that go against everything the 12-step programs for recovery say. “Recovery is not a process; it is an event.”

I never believed addiction is a disease that renders you helpless. Yes, addiction has roots in an antibiotic resistant infection that changes the way your brain processes dopamine. And the subhuman slave race of this stupid imaginary game has made it so people cannot absorb calcium, and calcium regulates neurotransmitter production. Which means most people are unable to get high on life and feel good from doing things that are good for them. It means their brains do not positively reinforce healthy/natural behaviors.

However, doing drugs is just going to make this all worse. Drugs grow the antibiotic resistant infection in your body making you process dopamine even more dysfunctionally. And drugs also impair your ability to absorb calcium by damaging your gut bacteria. Which makes you dysfunctionally produce neurotransmitters even more. It is a snowball effect. It just keeps getting worse and worse, bigger and bigger.

Addicts like to say that they have a disease because it gives them an excuse to act badly and be dysfunctional. If they have a disease they cannot be held accountable, right? They are powerless, right? Horseshit! Everyone is responsible for their own actions.

The modern world is set up to damage our brains via our limbic systems and our gut bacteria. This brain damage in our amygdala is what hinders people from taking accountability for their actions. Because not only does it damage emotional regulation, but it blocks access to our critical logical brain.

Remember the book: Darwin’s Lost Theory-Who We Really Are and Where We’re Going-Book Three by David Loye ? In this book, we learned that the thalamocingulate division of the brain gets damaged by toxins. This is the part of the brain responsible for altruism and empathy. This is also, the part of the brain that is responsible for self-evaluation, learning from mistakes, and adapting actions based on an understanding of consequences. 

Addicts have brain damage. It is not permanent, but the more they use the worse it gets. We all have brain damage, some just worse than others. But this is also the brain damage that leads to cluster b personality disorders. And apparently it is also why some people want to call addiction a disease. Because don’t all people with cluster b personality disorders have an addiction of some sort? What groups them all together is their addiction to destruction and emotional dysregulation. They are addicted to hurting people. They sure love poisoning people(Munchausen by Proxy) and themselves (Munchausen). That is the foundation of cluster b personality disorders.

Which is funny because toxins in the limbic system are what lead to cluster b personality disorders. They literally cause their own dis-ease. And poison others so they are not alone in their dis-ease. Misery loves company, right?

If you had a fixable health condition and it was effecting your life negatively, would you fix it? You can talk about having brain damage all day, but it will not help it get better. You can stop doing drugs, but that will not fix the reason why you chose to do the drugs. You can work on your deep seeded issues that you think are the reason you do drugs. But really it is the brain damage that gets in the way of you emotionally processing your trauma and hardships that is causing you to want to do drugs in the first place. It is your gut bacteria not producing enough of the short chain fatty acid butyrate that is getting the way of you handling the stress from your life events. It is the lack of vitamin K2 producing gut bacteria that is allowing free floating calcium to damage your brain in your amygdala. Which causes you to be in a constant fear state. Which causes you to be stuck in your ego.

The thalamocingulate division of the brain  supports accountability by integrating cognitive control, error monitoring, and motivation to influence behavior. How in the world are you going to stop doing drugs if you cannot be accountable for your own actions? When the thalamocingulate division of the brain is damaged your going to develop a cluster b personality disorder. And we all know they do not take accountability for anything.

So you know how Jack Trimpey in “Rational Recovery” says that you have two voices in your head. There is you and then there is the Addictive Voice (AV)? Well, the two different voices he is talking about are your critical logical brain and your reptilian brain. Your critical logical brain is you. And your reptilian brain is your Addictive Voice. It seeks pleasure and is very emotional about it.

I have been drinking fountain soda a lot lately, because it sanitizes my colon. And I enjoy sugar and caffeine. However, it has been so poisoned a LOT lately. I am so swollen and my organs are failing. I have fluid all over my core from my heart and kidneys and liver backing up with toxins. I know better than to drink the dam soda. And I recently finally was able to clean out my colon, so the sanitizing my colon excuse is no longer valid.

When I read the first chapter of this book, I had a lightbulb moment. The voice that says drink the soda is my reptilian brain. It craves comfort at all costs, even at the cost of my organs failing. I knew I needed to quit, but I hadn’t really thought about why I would risk so much over a soda. But it is more than a soda. It is ritual, routine, and comfort. I don’t get a lot or really any comfort or ritual and routines in my life since this revolution started in 2021. My family and you people have always stolen anything from me that makes me happy or brings me joy or comfort. I was drinking fountain soda to self-soothe and comfort myself, on top of sanitizing my colon(sugar is a preservative because it kills bacteria in high doses).

Jack doesn’t say that AV is the reptilian brain, but he does say that the voice that wants you to quit is you. And you live in your critical logical brain. And your reptilian brain is the part of your brain where emotions live. It is the survival part of your brain. And the part that craves pleasure and comfort. When you are stuck in your ego, you are stuck in your reptilian brain. Modern society stresses us all out so much that most people are stuck in their ego. I was drinking fountain soda to just try to survive. It was an ego response. Drugs are the same thing. Any addiction is the same thing. Any mal-adaptive behavior is most likely coming from your reptilian brain and your ego.

I will probably drink a fountain soda again at some point in my life. I may even have one soon. But I will not be drinking them as much. And once you people stop trying to kill me and poisoning my fountain sodas with chemicals that make my organs fail, then I can have a soda and not have to read a book about addiction to figure out why I can’t stop drinking something that is killing me.

I am so tired of you people killing me. But I am even more tired of people lacking the ability to be accountable for their actions. Addiction is not a disease. It stems from people not being able to be accountable for their actions because of emotional dysregulation. Which is caused by toxins in the limbic system damaging the brain. Did you think poisoning yourselves and each other would not have consequences? Did you think you all could just be terrorists for generations and it would not have consequences?

We inherit our gut bacteria. So the more your family is into this stupid imaginary game, the more prone you are to addiction. It doesn’t mean you are destined to a life of drug addiction and loosing everything. It just means you have to fix yourself. You literally have to take accountability for your own health and that includes the health of your brain.

I highly recommend this book to everyone. Everyone has something they do too much. I believe I am entitled to drink a fountain soda. While you all believe you are entitled to poison my fountain sodas and food and everything else so it makes my organs fail. We all have entitlement issues. We all have ego issues. The first step in solving any problem is realizing there is a problem.

The problem stems from your brain and your gut bacteria. Fix it!

Program 3- Cult Leadership 101 Day 8

On day 1 of introduction to cult leadership, we talked about the foundation. If you build something on a solid foundation it will last forever. Leadership is no different.

First, you need to put your emotions aside and look at people like math equations. Because there is no emotion in math. It’s simply straight forward. The only emotional part is when you can’t seem to get it right. People are like math. They are an equation that is black and white. It’s just frustrating figuring out how to work the equation. Leadership is all in your critical logical mind. And emotions do not exist in your critical logical mind.

Second, you need to be an equal with the people you lead. A wolf doesn’t lead a dog pack. A dog leads a dog pack. If you are looking towards the people you lead to make you feel better about yourself and more important or valuable, you are doing it wrong. You are a leader to help people feel valued. You are a leader to help people find their way in life. And a large part of finding your way in life is finding yourself.

Leadership is about helping people find themselves. If you are looking towards them to help you find yourself, it will be a shit show. And the blind leading the blind. Know Thy Self! And help your people find themselves. They will be more valuable once they know themselves. So it is a win win situation. Plus, they will be grateful for your help getting there.

Third, as an equal you need to get your hands dirty and accomplish things with your people. Leadership isn’t about getting your people to do things for you. It’s about accomplishing things as a team and a group. Know your people and figure out their skills and gifts. This way you can utilize those skills and gifts to everyone’s best interest.

Think about the bosses you have had at work. The bosses who tell you what to do without helping are harder to respect. But the ones who get their hands dirty with you and help accomplish the task at hand are way more enjoyable and relatable. They are easier to bond with.

Being a leader who is an equal and works with his/her people will allow you to create a bond with them. Having people who worship you who you don’t know or enjoy, is just like having a group of stalkers. It’s not fun and it can be dangerous.

You need to create a group of people who will be there for you when times are good or times are bad. And you do that by being there for them when times are good and times are bad. You build your life with these people as they build their lives right along side of you. The more you build together, the stronger your bond and more loyal they will be towards you. You do things with your people. You don’t just shout commands. You build lives together. Yes, they are separate lives. But you build them along side each other. You grow up or grow old together. And lean on each other along the way.

My Grandma Kudearoff was an amazing example of this. She made everyone feel special. She always had time to say hi even when countless people stopped her in the grocery store. Never did she look towards people to make her feel important. She knew she was the boss. And she built lives with the people around her. She may not have been a nice or good lady, but people loved her and she treated her people really well. Her family was a different story. But she treated her people well. Because she understood they were how she became so powerful. They built lives together for decades.

When my Grandma Kudearoff was dying, she worked at the hospital. And she was about 4 months away from retirement when she got so sick she had to stop working. The people who worked with her at the hospital gave her their sick days. She came really close to being able to get her retirement because so many people gave her their sick days. They only did this because she treated them as an equal. They knew she had worked hard just like them. They knew she had struggled just like them. Her struggles were their struggles. It was their bond.

You need people to share your struggles with. You need people who will help you when you really need it. You create these kinds of bonds by putting your ego aside and being an equal with the people in your group. Yes, you are a leader. But first and foremost you are a human. Never forget you are just like everyone else. And they won’t forget either. They will be there for you when you need them. No matter if it is good times or bad times.

Being a leader is about being human and building lives with people.

On day 2, we talked about culture.

People who come together with shared beliefs create a culture. And these shared beliefs create patterns in behavior. Your job as a cult leader is to help instill shared beliefs into your culture.

But how do you actually do that? Well, you create patterns in behavior. And these patterns lead to shared beliefs.

For example, you can teach your people that you celebrate wins of all kinds. And at the end of the school year have a big picnic or party for the kids. You can have anniversary parties, graduation parties, wedding parties, birthday parties, retirement parties, etc. Basically you find any reason to celebrate your people. This will teach them that they are valued, worthy, deserving, and their hard work is recognized.

How you treat people and the activities you all partake in together create shared beliefs. This is the culture that brings you all together. So celebrate anything and everything. Because why not? It feels good to be happy and celebrate. And because you need to program your people to celebrate themselves often.

You can program your cult following to succeed. Or you can program them to self destruct. But it feels a lot better to be the leader of a culture that is flourishing and happy.

On day 3, we talked about logotherapy.

Victor Frankl was a psychiatrist who was put into numerous concentration camps during World War 2. He used this time to study people and figure out what made them able to survive. It wasn’t the healthiest, the strongest, or the most positive people who were able to survive the unthinkable conditions in concentration camps during World War 2. It was the people who had meaning in their lives. Meaning allowed people to weather the storm because they knew their life had a purpose. This is logotherapy.

Since then science has discovered that telemares are produced when people are being of service and accomplishing their purposes in life. Knowing your purposes and accomplishing them literally makes you a healthier, happier, more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. Telemares allow your DNA to replicate without flaws. When you lack telemares your DNA starts to have flaws and this causes disease, depression, and aging. Lack of telemares is ultimately why we die.

As a leader, it is your job to help your people find meaning. The more meaning they assign to their life the more human they will be on a gene and cellular level. The more meaning your group has the longer, healthier, and happier lives they will lead. The more meaning your people have, the more they will be able to weather any storm. This is logotherapy. It helps people find meaning.

An example of this would be when everyone in my family tells their people that they are superior and deserve to enslave the people around them and conquer the world. They tell you this is the purpose to your life and your birthright. Because this gives your life meaning. And when people accept this mission as their truth and meaning, they wholeheartedly work towards it.

You can enlist people to enslave the world and tell them this is their purpose in life. And they will accept it. Or you can actually try to help them find their purpose rather than enlisting them in your misguided evil agenda.

On day 4, we talked about Pavlov, narcissism, and conditioning.

Did you know Pavlov was Russian? The communist side of my family is big on using your humanity and biology against you. Communists don’t like people and they especially don’t like themselves. They view people like dogs. And I am sure you have seen how they mistreat animals. As a human, they view you as a dog. The sooner you realize this the safer you will be.

Pavlov conditioned and trained dogs to come and eat when he rang a bell. After awhile he could ring the bell and not offer food and the dogs would still salivate. Training you is no different than how Pavolv trained his dogs.

What are humans addicted to more than food? We all have a c diff infection that changes the way our brain processes dopamine. So we all are addicts. What motivates people more than food? Attention. You all are addicted to attention and heard mentality. The mere thought of being left out or ostracized gets you all to commit crimes against humanity everyday. You fear being left out because you are a junkie for human attention. Puts a whole new meaning to attention whore, huh? You have been genetically modified and conditioned to be an attention whore. Because it makes you incredibly easy to control.

Look at your phone and social media as an example. Your phone rings and your brain creates feel good neurotransmitters. It’s a chemical reaction. It’s the same chain reaction as Pavlov with his dogs. You salivate metaphorically when you think you are about to get attention.

Covert narcissists are big on using this mechanism against you. Communists are more likely to be covert narcissists. While Nazi’s are more prone to being overt narcissists.

So here is the pattern people from my family use. At first someone will give you a ton of attention. And they will lovebomb you. Giving you all kinds of compliments and talking you up. They make your brain produce all kinds of feel good neurotransmitters. Because they know you get high on them and become addicted. You become addicted to that person because you associate that high from being around them. They literally become your drug of choice.

Then to control you, they ignore you and dont give you the same attention. They train you to do what they want by giving you attention when you do something they are training and conditioning you to do. For example, they start a fight with you and ignore you until you apologize for starting the fight. They are training you to blame yourself and take accountability for their actions and bad behavior. And they reward this behavior by playing nice and giving you all the attention after you apologize. They are ringing the bell and you learn that you have to be accountable and apologize for their actions. And you do it over and over to keep the peace.

This was amazing to watch my parents try to do. They each were trying to condition the other to be subservient. And neither of them really ever won. But they sure tried for many many years.

Be aware when someone tries to make you subservient. Be aware when someone is using your biology against you. And as a leader, treat people well by not abusing them. When you withhold attention or give too much of it, you are abusing people. We have been taught to partake in this dysfunctional power dynamic because it surrounds us in this communist world that tells us we are free everywhere we turn.

As a leader pay attention to people, treat them fairly, and don’t abuse your place of power.

On day 5, we talked about self preservation.

My family showers people with attention when they want something from them. People think they are fancy by association and turn into junkies for their attention. And at some point my family or another cult is going to approach the people in your group in this fashion to try to get something out of them. It is in your best interest to teach your people to not only recognize when people are trying to use them. But also you need to teach them how to say no. Because this other group, family, or cult could be asking them to kill you or feed them information on your group.

It is ridiculous to think this won’t happen to you or your group when we live in a world filled with parasitic people who take, take, take until they kill. It also is probably best to talk to children about killing their parents. People like my family use the people closest to you to kill you.

The best way to prepare for people trying to conquer and kill you is to face the issue head on. We are in a world of ignorant people because people have been allowed to ignore everything. Not only are they allowed to ignore everything, they are encouraged and conditioned to do so. Ignorance ceases to exist when you talk about something. The first step in solving a problem is admitting there is a problem.

Yes, we aime to eliminate people like my family in anyway necessary. However, these people will exist until we change their environment and thus their epigenetics. While we change the world and environment, you all need to have these tough talks with the people in your group. Because it’s the only way to guarantee they wont kill or betray you. When you talk about the hard things you can see people’s true colors. It’s better to see them now rather than when it’s too late.

When I was in LA, at the beginning of this revolution, and the southern LA farmer called everyone out of this war against me, I saw my family’s cult clearly for the very first time. I didn’t know who or what they were. But I saw a group of people not being loyal to where they come from. Even my Dad isn’t loyal to where he comes from. He enslaves people like himself to retain the power the Kudearoffs give him. In a world of helpless people who do not have access to their critical logical mind, this won’t stop.

You need to talk to your people about being loyal to where they come from. You need to talk to them about the consequences of betraying your group. And you need to use positive reinforcement to keep them loyal and safe. If you dont get to know the people who follow you, you just have a group of stalkers. And stalkers kill people everyday.

On day 6, we talked about being foundational to your people.

In a world without much safety, security, or predictability, you need to be apart of the foundation to your people’s lives. You need to create the safety and security we all crave. Safety, security, and predictability are basic human needs. We need to know with certainty that people will be there for us.

When we have this we can attain our potential and purposes with ease. Because we are free to try new things and fail. Knowing that we have our foundation to fall back on. It’s easier to try and do scary things that challenge us when we know we will be safe if it goes really poorly.

By providing a foundation of security for your people you are allowing them to fail their way forward and become more valuable in all ways. People fear failure because they don’t want their whole life to fall apart. So create a foundational environment where your people know it is safe to aim for the moon and hit the stars. Nothing feels better than being supported in the endeavors you choose. Especially, when those endeavors are scary big.

On day 7, we talked about finding your group purpose.

Every human is born with a purpose. Your purpose is a series of events and interactions that you were sent to Earth to have. So your purpose is a series of purposes. It’s not just one thing. Although there often is a common theme tying them all together.

Just as you have a purpose, your group has a purpose. And again that group purpose is not just one thing or event. It is a series of different things over time. Stars are meant to shine on their own. But groups of stars come together to shine and form constellations. Your group is your constellation. You were sent to shine with the people in your group.

Everyone is given skills and gifts to help them accomplish their purpose. And part of the process of figuring out what your purpose is entails sharing your skills and gifts with the world. The first step in finding your purpose is finding your skills and gifts. And then sharing them with the world. This will lead you on a chain reaction to discovering your purpose in life.

As a leader, your job is to help facilitate your group not only finding their group purpose. But also accomplishing it. To do this you take the skills and gifts of your people, put them all together, and figure out how to share them with the world to make a positive impact. No one was put here on Earth with a purpose of destroying the world. Remember symbiotic relationships are the goal in everything.

Part of creating a foundation and security for the people you lead is figuring out the group purpose that brought you all together. The stars were put exactly where they belong. And so were the people in your group.

Today on day 8, let’s talk about family planning.

Many of your groups are based on birthrights. So as a leader, it only makes sense to talk to your people about family planning. And you need to do this from a young age. Ignorance cannot exist when you stop ignoring things and discuss them.

Young girls need to know men will try to get them pregnant to steal their birthrights and enslave them. And young boys need to know women will try to get pregnant with their baby to steal their birthrights and enslave them. After this occurs they will be stuck in a lifelong battle to see who can make the other subservient. No one ever wins this battle and the child and group are the ones who pay the biggest price.

If you are from a group of mixed people, who have used marriage and breeding to conquer others for generations, it is necessary to talk to them about letting their birthrights die with them. This will allow for more checks and balances in the power structure of this stupid imaginary game.

My birthrights have cost me everything. This amount of power is inhumane. The world has been trying to kill me for over 4 decades. And I know no one in my family has what it takes to utilize this power better than me. The only way I can guarantee I do not perpetuate my pain and pass it onto another is by getting my whole family to stop breeding. Otherwise the world is at risk of dealing with more unthinkable disasters.

No way could I have children knowing what they would be expected to do. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. I can’t guarantee my kids will be like me. And I know my family is not good with responsibility. So the only answer is to stop the madness. This needs to be presented to mixed people as a way out. Because many of us have suffered our whole lives because of our family’s overwhelming lust and greed for power.

Also, you need to talk to your people about the gender of their children. Important birthrights need to go to women. Because sperm can be extracted from a dead body up to 36 hours after death. All someone needs to do is kill your son and take his sperm to enslave your family and group forever. And thus the world.

But it rarely takes that because men are more prone to emotional addiction and are easier to manipulate than women. Because men are more prone to dyslexia. Meaning they more creative brain based. Creativity is an emotion. When you are emotionally based with a c diff infection that makes you an addict because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine, you are addicted to your emotions. This is why it’s so easy for women to get pregnant by men they want to steal birthrights from.

The Kudearoffs love their boys because they are easier to control. They can manipulate them into doing and being whatever they want. However, this leaves them very vulnerable. See how being emotional can become your biggest downfall?

Logic is always the answer. Especially, when it comes to breeding and family planning. The decisions your people make about breeding will effect the world. Don’t let them get caught up in emotions. Reproducing is about logic, it’s not emotional. It’s about making the best decisions for the future and world. People making emotional decisions is how we all got into this mess. Destruction is not logical. It is an emotional response that is maladaptive.

Normal Sucks: How To Live, Learn, and Thrive Outside The Lines by Jonathan Mooney — Book Review

Full disclosure, I did not read all of this book. I thought it was going to be more of a memoir, but it ended up being more of a book about the origins of normalcy. Which was good, but not what I expected. So, I only read the first 100 pages.

“You need to know that normal has a history. You may assume this is history of discovery–that somewhere, at some point, someone found out what was normal for human beings. And normal, and normal people are often presented like that–as facts of the world. But that’s not true. That is a lie. It’s a lie that gives normal such power over our lives… Normal hasn’t always been normal.”

“When normal was first used it had nothing to do with people, or society, or human behavior. Norm and normal were Latin words used by mathematicians. Normal comes from the Latin word norma, which refers to a carpenter’s square, or T-square.”

“Every day, in every community, all around the world, people with differences are demeaned. Just look at the data. According to multiple research studies, including the UN World Report on disability, people with cognitive and physical differences have the worst life outcomes, as measured by employment, wages, and education achievement, of any minority group in the world.”

“Eventually Galton did come right out and began calling for the active improvement of the human race through the application of the emerging science of what we now call genetics. He called this eugenics, a combination of the Greek words for “well” and “born”.

“Carrie’s case was eventually taken to the US Supreme Court and is known as Buck vs. Bell. In the spring of 1927, the court ruled that Carrie buck’s sterilization was constitutional…The United States Supreme Court ruled that the state had the right to eliminate forms of difference through sterilization.”

“Killing defectives eventually went the way you knew it would: Hollywood. Yep, in 1917, the movement got its own movie called The Black Stork. This film is about eugenically mismatched couple who are told not to have children because they are likely to be defective. The couple ignores this warning, gives birth to a “defective child,” and then lets it die. The movie is based on the life and work of Harry J. Haiselden the chief surgeon at the German-American Hospital in Chicago, who killed infants of “eugenic” reasons.”

Eugenics was the reason why the Nazis killed disabled and handicapped people in gas chambers. The book goes on to say that Hitler’s idea for this came from American eugenic ideas. During the years of WWII, Hitler killed many handicapped people to cleanse the genepool. You did not have to be Jewish or gay to die in the gas chambers. They actually had some at hospitals to kill children who were disabled or for eugenic reasons.

In the US thousands of people were sterilized before the ruling by the Supreme Court was overruled. So, you know how people who are neuro divergent are so vocal about it? It is because they would have been killed or sterilized for being different throughout a lot of recent history.

Jonathan Mooney wrote this book because he grew up with learning disabilities in San Francisco during the 1980s. I grew up in the 1980s. And I am not “normal”. But I never thought of this stuff. I have never been normal and gave up seeking to be around middle school. Normal people aren’t good at the kinds of things I am good at. If you are in the middle of the bell curve you aren’t really good at anything. You are average. I was never average at anything. So, I never thought of normal as something to strive for. I saw it as something to stay away from. I never wanted to be average. But I suppose a lot of people do try to be normal and average.

On this revolution, I have said that I do want a normal and ordinary life. But that is because I want some of the things you all have that I have never been allowed to have. Like a house that isn’t designed to kill me, a career where I get to share my skills and gifts with the world, clean clothes that aren’t poisoned, a bed that is not designed to kill me, etc. There are countless things you people take foregranted everyday that I have never had. And have worked so hard to have. Even if I was allowed to earn a normal ordinary life nothing about me would ever be normal or ordinary, and this has nothing to do with my birthrights and everything to do with the person I am and the skills and gifts I have taken the time to cultivate.

I never thought normal was something that was a good thing. But I did want a more functional and healthy life and family my whole life. It is shocking that people like my family will call themselves normal because they are the ones who create the bell curves. And they will continue to kill people like me who are outliers because we threaten their ability to control the masses and dictate the narrative. Pretty scary and funny, huh? Talk about a mix of emotions.

They put a chip in my head because they wanted to use me like a computer because I am not normal. But yet they wanted me to pretend to be normal, when I have never been given anything normal ever. I will never pretend to be normal for my family, or for you all. But I will always be me. Because I really like me. And if I am not supposed to be me then who the hell am I supposed to be?!?

Normal Sucks. Be YOU!

Twenty Years At Hull-House by Jane Adams — Book Review

So do you all remember when we were reading the American History textbook together and we learned about Jane Adams at the Settlement in Chicago? This is a memoir written by her about the first twenty years at Hull-House. Which was a house/settlement she created in Northwest Chicago to help the immigrants who mostly worked in factories have better lives.

Jane Adams was involved in the suffrage movement, but that was only a small part of what she did. She was mostly involved in attempting to “socialize democracy” as she put it. At Hull-House they worked on countless projects and countless people lived and/or worked there to bring the different immigrant communities together and to meet their social needs. They did this with social groups, education, trash removal, childcare, leisure activities, museums, arts, etc.

At one point in this book Jane was involved in the trash collection for the city, having a position that paid $1,000/per year. The position involved being a part of trying to figure out how to keep the city clean because there was so much trash and filth on the streets that it was causing disease. This was around the late 1800’s. At one point they picked up 18 inches of trash off the street and found that the street was actually paved underneath. Can you imagine a foot and half of trash on the street and people just walking on top of it? And horses walking on top of it too? The trash situation really did cause disease. Typhod fever or a fever of some sort was a big deal back then and Jane actually got it as well.

Flies passed around disease and the trash attracted flies. Can you imagine walking on 18 inches of trash mixed with horse shit and people pooh and then walking into your home. You would literally be tracking in all kinds of shit and disease. Sanitation was something that took a long time to create. Hull-House also helped create local bathhouses where people could bath because most of the tenements did not have bathtubs or bathrooms either.

Immigrants from all over flocked to all the big American cities around this time period. Slavery had ended in the south and people were moving north to find opportunity. People were coming here from all over the world. The factory work in big cities was attracting people like the flies on shit in the streets. But there were no programs for social welfare. They had to be created.

Creating programs to care for people’s social needs in a democracy was something that had to be done carefully. Because how do you create social programs in a democracy without becoming socialist? Very carefully.

It took some time, but in twenty years Jane and Hull-House created a lot of change. And Jane not only was involved with other Settlements throughout the nation, but internationally as well. She came from a very privileged background and did not have to work. She had inherited wealth and often went to Europe to study and see the world. When she got typhoid fever she went to Europe to recover.

“You do not know what life means when all the difficulties are removed! I am simply smothered and sickened with advantages. It is like eating a sweet dessert the first thing in the morning.”

“…he also bears with him the consciousness that he had given himself over so many years to classic learning-that when suddenly called upon for a quick decision in the world of life and death, he had been able to act only through a literary suggestion. This is what we were all doing, lumbering our minds with literature that only served to cloud the really vital situation spread before our eyes.”

Jane spent most of her life studying and traveling until she started Hull-House. She got to the point where she knew that accumulating more knowledge would not help her obtain more wisdom. She had to live and do things. School was not going to help her prepare. She just had to jump in the deep end so to speak. Hull-House was her first big jump. And what a jump it was. Settlements worldwide were still somewhat new and they operated differently based on the needs of the communities around them. There was not a large blueprint for what she did.

“It is true that there is nothing after disease, indigence and a sense of guilt, so fatal to health and to life itself as the want of a proper outlet for active faculties.”

Jane believed in purpose. And she believed her purpose was to use her upper-class status and privilege to help the lower classes. She knew that she would not be able to live her upper-class life without the lower classes doing their jobs.

“Hull-House was soberly opened on the theory that the dependence of classes on each other is reciprocal; and that as the social relation is essentially a reciprocal relation, it gives form of expression that has peculiar value.”

Jane believed in society being a symbiotic relationship. She believed in the interconnectedness of the world, but most certainly the local community in which one lives and works.

“Would it not provoke to ironic laughter that very nemesis which presides over the destinies of nations, if the most autocratic government yet remaining in the civilization should succeed in utilizing for its own autocratic methods the youngest and most daring experiment in democratic government which the world has ever seen? Stranger results have followed a course of stupidity and injustice resulting from blindness and panic!”

America definitely made some mistakes along the way to being where we are today. But every government or leader has made mistakes. And it is the people who pay for those mistakes. Democracy is the system, but it does not mean that everything the democracy does is going to be correct or right in general or for everyone. We must live and learn. Especially, when it came to creating policy and systems of processes for social well-being.

Jane often refers to America as something of a social experiment because there was nothing to base it on. No government like it exited to take knowledge and wisdom from. It was a capitalist democratic experiment. She had studied greatly to help shape this experiment.

Twenty Years At Hull-House is an excellent book. I would suggest it to anyone looking to get better acquainted with what was happening around the turn of the 20th century. The first twenty years of hull house were 1889-1909. So this book gives a perfect window into the turn of the 20th century.

When they found pavement under 18 inches of trash on the street, that is when I was enlightened. Things were so different back then. Can you imagine millions of people living in a city and throwing not only their trash on the street, but their human waste on the street too. And there were no cars. The horses shit on the streets too. Can you imagine how awful the smell was? I know I think cities stink now. I cannot imagine how much they used to smell 120 years ago!

People were suffering, being worked to death, new to the country, speaking a new language, and tying their children to kitchen tables while they went to work. But what really made it all set in was thinking of the smell and walking in shit on the streets. I get upset when I see dog shit on the side of the sidewalk that hasn’t been picked up. I cannot imagine the whole sidewalk being shit. And the disease that would go along with this, oh my god. It is a visceral experience when you think about it like this.

Checking In -Sept 25th 2025 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Libra

I just posted a bunch of random stuff from searching my blog on archive.org…… I lost a lot of posts that I was looking for but didn’t find them. But it turns out I kind of wrote a cancer program back in 2021 that I forgot about. I think there were more parts to it, but I published the ones I found.

I did not reread any of the posts that I just reposted. So I cannot vouch for how much I still believe in them. But I am sure there is still some good stuff in them.

I finished diversion for my trespassing ticket yesterday at the Eugene Community Court. The judge and all the people who work in the courtroom there poisoned me so much as they presented me with my completion certificate it was great fun. But I am glad to be done.

That is all I have got. I didn’t find the posts I was looking for. But it was interesting to go back and look at some of that stuff. I prefer to look forward instead of back.

Hope you all are doing well out there. I am ready to build a new world when you are. Just let me know when the world is done trying to kill me, destroy me, and keep me small.

Nicole

Repost: Cognitive Decline, Dementia, and Alzheimer’s

Cognitive Decline, Dementia, & Alzheimer’s

Your brain is being used against you as a weapon. You do not know how smart you are. Insulin and high blood glucose(even within “normal” range) damage your brain and cause decline. Vitamin deficiencies cause decline. Leaky gut causes decline. You are being set up to not even have the option to think for yourself.

Have you noticed how with age your brain is getting foggier and harder to use? This is the goal and just another way to keep you small, manageable, and diseased. Cognitive decline is not a “normal” part of aging, it is a war tactic that has been normalized.

So what do you do to reverse or stop this war tactic? Have you started taking a multivitamin yet? Please do so, this will not solve the problem, but it will help to stop the damage from happening as quickly. Make sure it has Folate, B12, Omega 3, Dha, and Selenium. I still have not found one that has all of these, but do what you can. Taking action is always going to be better than inaction.

Some other things you can do:

  • Eat a better diet with less processed foods. Nutrient dense foods are the answer. Liver is a super food. Once again I have not been able to get myself to eat it yet, but my dogs love it. It depends on how bad your health has declined already on which super foods will be best for you. I have to eat only meat because my system has been destroyed my whole life and recovering from cancer and autoimmune diseases took extreme measures if I wanted to really heal and not just put a bandaide on a broken bone so to say. If you do not quite know where to start go ahead and try a carnivore diet, there is no harm in allowing your body to heal. If you are not able to make such a sudden change than just eat better and do what you can. Progress not perfection is a great rule of thumb when beginning.
  • Avoid sugar, sugar is a drug and weapon. Balancing your blood sugar and keeping your insulin in check is one of the biggest things you can do for your mental and emotional health. Sugar feeds all the bacteria, parasites, viruses, cancer, etc in your body and keeps you seeking comfort outside of your self. The more sugar you eat the more your brain will shrink with age and decline, even if you do not develop diabetes.
  • Get enough B12 and Omega 3
  • Get Vitamin D and sunshine
  • Avoid Gluten-not only does gluten lead to leaky gut, but it damages your stomach so you cannot absorb all the nutrients from your food. This will lead to nutrient deficiencies even before leaky gut is an issue.
  • Get enough Omega 3-Eat fish that are not high in heavy metals at least once a week or find another way to make Omega 3 a regular part of your diet. I really enjoy putting hemp oil on my skin because you can absorb nutrition through your skin too.
  • Get your minerals-make sure you are getting enough minerals in your diet. Fulvic acid minerals are a great way to boost your intake and improve your overall health.
  • Cut out the addictions and unhealthy habits. The world and systems are set up to make you small and self destruct you do not need to overtly destroy yourself in any manner and aid in their agenda. Be good to yourself.

Overall, we need to eat better and in this world that is an uphill battle. So take your vitamins and supplements, while you figure out what kind of diet works best for your body. We all are different and health and healing is not a one size fits all journey. But just know you have been stolen from yourself and if you want to find yourself you are going to have to do things differently. Following the norms is what got you here, so you have to do differently to get a different outcome. You deserve to know yourself.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Repost from 2021: Outline for healing cancer

An Outline For Healing Cancer

Here is an outline/mind dump so you know what parts you want to read about or if you want to read the whole thing. Also, this is great if you just want to try a couple things here and there.

  • worm pills (rx, over the counter, and natural)
  • heal leaky gut
  • address candida
  • red light therapy & tanning
  • cryotherapy
  • sauna & cold showers
  • heavy metal detox
  • cancer killing herbs/spices/vitamins
  • remineralize your body
  • vitamins-nutrition is key
  • no sugar/no fiber/low carb diet
  • lower cortisol
  • walking & stretching/yoga
  • detox baths
  • sauna
  • make your own body products
  • eliminate chemicals in your cleaning products and home
  • fasting and intermittent fasting
  • binders
  • essential oils
  • herbal tea
  • sleep
  • meditation
  • mindset
  • find your purpose/why
  • love-you need love and self love
  • distractions/forward momentum in life outside of healing
  • address addictions-don’t necessarily have to eliminate them all at once

Okay that is it, I know it looks like a lot, but please take into consideration it normally takes over a decade for cancer to grow so healing means changing the way you live. I am sure I will think of a few more steps once I get to writing out each step, but everything overlaps in the end so it is hard to miss something if you are paying attention to what your body needs and asks for.

Healing is love, love always,

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #2 Heal Leaky Gut

Leaky gut is something we all have to be aware of and keep at bay. Genetically modified plants, sugar, grains, dairy, Candida, and many other things contribute to creating leaky gut. Some signs you have leaky gut would be chronic diarrhea, constipation, bloating, nutritional deficiencies, fatigue, headaches, confusion, difficulty concentrating, skin problems, joint pain, etc.

We probably all have an aliment that would be improved by addressing leaky gut even if we are not chronically ill. However, all disease starts in the gut. So if you have any kind of chronic illness addressing leaky gut will aid in healing it. Also, leaky gut and fatty liver are both associated with autoimmune diseases. So if you have an autoimmune disease of any kind addressing leaky gut will not only help, but is necessary in healing.

They say the gut is the second brain. But I believe the gut to be the boss of your brain, because it tells your brain what to do and feel. When you take care of your gut, everything improves in my experience. How well you digest your food plays into so many things. Food is energy and fuel.

The healing process depends on how badly you have damaged your gut. Some people may be able to do a few diet changes and take some probiotics and be better than they ever remember. But for the other end of the spectrum like me and people with autoimmune disease, it will take major life changes to see the desired improvements. However, small changes will always make a difference over time.

Again, I encourage you to research because there are many ways to improve leaky gut. And it is not a one size fits all process. But here are some ideas on large and small changes that can make a difference. And remember the self destruct button that my family cult outfits us all with starts with leaky gut, because it leads to larger dis-ease and malnutrition.

  • Avoid grains, but especially gluten grains
  • Avoid processed foods
  • Avoid sugar
  • Avoid dairy
  • Avoid GMO foods
  • Avoid coffee
  • Avoid over the counter pain relievers
  • Reduce stress
  • Reduce/avoid alcohol
  • Sleep more
  • Avoid antibiotics
  • Address Sibo
  • Address Candida
  • Try a Low FODMAP diet
  • Start fasting and/or intermittent fasting
  • Drink more bone broth(be careful if histamine problems)
  • Exercise more/regularly
  • Chew your food better
  • Avoid birth control pills
  • Take digestive enzymes
  • Take collagen(beware with histamine issues)
  • Take a mutlivitamin
  • Take vitamin D and get more sunshine
  • Take aloe vera
  • Take b12 and K2
  • Avoid smoking
  • Eat more ferment foods(beware with histamine issues)
  • Heavy metal cleanse
  • Parasite cleanse

Basically anything you can do to live a healthier life will help you improve your leaky gut in the long run. Life and epigenetics are all about the small things we do everyday. These are the things that define us. These are the things that make us who we are, down to the genetic level.

Addressing leaky gut is how everyone can protect themselves from disease. Even if you are just trying to improve your immune system so you do not get a cold or the flu addressing your gut will help. Your gut is where disease starts, but it also can be where health starts.

Remember life not an all or nothing journey, it is about progress not perfection. So if you want to have those couple drinks this weekend, be really good on your diet during the week and balance it out so you can enjoy yourself without harming yourself too much. Same goes for if you want that piece of gluten filled birthday cake when you go to a birthday party. Be good the rest of the week and even it out. Life is about balance and so is health.

Take care of your gut and your gut will take care of you.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #3 Address Candida

Candida is a yeast that is present in our bodies all the time. It is healthy in small amounts. However, with the food systems filled with grains, sugars, and gluten Candida has been allowed to run away with us all. Have you seen the shows on TLC about the morbidly obese people? I think it is called “My 600 lb Life”. Well, the people on this show have a Candida overgrowth problem big time. This is why they are an emotional wreck and lie to themselves about food.

Candida takes over your brain. And it releases toxins in your body that keep you from yourself. Remember when I had you check out the show “Fit to Fat” about the personal trainers? Well, their emotional issues were from Candida overgrowth. And the reason it is so hard for some of them to loose weight is Candida overgrowth. Getting this yeast in check is something that most people unknowingly battle with their whole lives.

Candida overgrowth is what makes us overly emotional, more manageable, and it leads to disease. When you feel like you do not have control over your emotions, then you are willing to accept manageable as the best it will get. You will bypass trying for good, when manageable is an option. This is how the systems get you to keep yourself small. Candida overgrowth is the largest covert war tactic used by my family cult. It starts out just with you keeping yourself small, but it leads to every kind of disease you can think of. It is a win win situation for them. Especially, because eliminating it seems almost impossible.

Eliminating Candida is another thing that is a lifelong process just like healing leaky gut. It is something you are always going to have to be aware of. However, living without it after spending a lifetime on an emotional roller coaster is beyond priceless. Those of us who have suffered with it for years will understand just how painful it can be. It can interfere with every aspect of your life. It is physical, mental, and emotional pain. It is a special kind of hell that takes you over. It is enough to make anyone want to accept learned helplessness. And that is the goal right there. When you feel out of control of your body, you will accept learned helplessness in every aspect of your life because it is real to you.

I challenge everyone to spend a least a few weeks cleansing and just experience the freedom you feel. You are not supposed to feel enslaved to your body. Your body is on your side, it is your partner in life before anyone else can ever be.

Steps to eliminate Candida overgrowth:

  • Avoid sugar, even natural sugars
  • Avoid grains, especially gluten grains
  • Avoid gluten as much as possible(especially if you have autoimmune issues)
  • Avoid dairy
  • Avoid coffee
  • Avoid/minimize caffeine
  • Avoid alcohol & soda
  • Avoid fruit
  • Avoid nuts and seeds(especially peanut butter it has mold in it)
  • Limit Condiments
  • Eat low carb
  • Eat more quality fats-focus on Omega 3s
  • Avoid refined oils
  • Take a probiotic
  • Eat more meat and eggs
  • Avoid processed meats
  • Avoid canned meats and foods
  • Eat more fermented foods(beware if histamine issues)
  • Eat coconut products everyday(oil, milk, cream, etc)
  • Take digestive enzymes and Apple cider vinegar(if you can tolerate it)
  • Put coconut oil on your skin

I am sure after that list, you are asking yourself, “Well, what can I eat?” Eat meats, healthy fats, nonstarchy vegetables(if you want), and probiotics. Now can you see why the Keto and Carnivore diets are gaining so much popularity? We are meant to eat low carb most of the time. In our evolution as humans we have never eaten such a carb heavy diet as the Standard American Diet before. Industrialization is when we started eating processed foods and grains regularly. This is also when we started developing chronic illness and disease more. Weston Price is a dentist who has done amazing research on the decline in our health with industrialization. He suggests we focus on making sure we get the fat soluble vitamins and Vitamin A and K2. If we focus on getting more than the recommended of these vitamins we should get everything else we need as well just by default.

You do not have to get your diet dialed in right from the get go. It is a learning process and not everyone is going to be the same, because we all have damaged and destroyed our bodies differently. So be patient with yourself, but also do not settle for manageable being the best it gets.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #3 Address Candida Part 2

Diet is the only way you will sustain lowering the amount of Candida in your body. However, when you start tackling the issue of Candida supplements, vitamins, and other lifestyle changes will help you get to your desired results more quickly. Be careful not to use these methods as a crutch to allow you to keep your dis-ease manageable though.

Some other things to try to lower Candida:

  • Get more sunshine
  • Red light therapy
  • Tanning beds
  • Cryotherapy
  • Coconut oil on skin
  • Biotin-highly recommend!!
  • Diatomaceous Earth Food Grade-highly recommend!!
  • Antifungal herbs/spices
  • Essential oils
  • Charcoal
  • Spirulina & Chorella
  • Aloe Vera-highly recommend!!
  • Probiotics
  • Fermented foods
  • Milk thistle
  • Oregano oil
  • Workout more
  • Sauna
  • Cold showers
  • Yoga
  • Lifting weights
  • Exfoliating your skin
  • Remineralize your body-fulvic minerals are great!
  • detox baths

When killing off Candida one of the most difficult parts for me was dealing with the toxins they produce and leave behind in your body. Taking binders to absorb these toxins has been a life saver for me, along with fasting. Candida cannot grow if you are not feeding it. I love fasting because it is a great way to bring down the levels of Candida in your body quickly and change your epigenetics. Or group together a couple things like fast while going to the sauna, taking a detox bath and some binders. Treating Candida overgrowth does Not have to be a chore, it can be something you grow to look forward to because it will make you feel better once you get the hang of it.

Your true self is waiting for you to find yourself.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #3 Address Candida Part 3

Signs and Symptoms of Candida Overgrowth by Eric Baker (Candida Crusher on You Tube)

  1. Persistent nasal congestion or stuffiness
  2. Sinus inflammation, swelling, or infection
  3. Flu-like symptoms, coughs, and recurring colds
  4. Excessive mucus in the throat,nose and ear canals, sinuses, or lungs
  5. Joint pain and swelling
  6. Bruising easily
  7. Cheekbone or forehead tenderness or pains
  8. Tinnitus, ear infections, dryness, pain, discharges, wax build-up
  9. Sore throat, hoarse voice, or laryngitis

Now you can see that a lot of the things we end up taking antibiotics for are really just Candida issues and it makes them worse because the antibiotics kill off our good bacteria that fight the Candida.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #4 Red Light Therapy & Tanning

By now you all are starting to get the idea that healing cancer is all about lowering the load on your immune system, right? Anything you can do to make your body have less work to do to maintain homeostasis and health will help you heal cancer. All the little things you do in your daily life are what really matter. The big thing you do here and there is not as impactual as the little things you do daily, for the most part. I am sure there are some exceptions, but you get the idea.

Red light therapy is amazing and helps your body heal on a mitocondiral (sp?) level. Basically it helps you heal on a cellular level. It is amazing and easy and enjoyable. What I did was order a full spectrum red light bulb off Amazon and put it in a lamp by my bed when I was in Arizona. These are great for pets and kids as well. My dog Haywood has Lupus and when he would get burned and have a flar the red light would help him recover two or three times as fast. So anyone who gets sun burned should invest in one.

Also, red light helps your skin heal scars and stretch marks. It takes time, but over time you will notice a difference. It is great for renewing aged skin. And if it is making so much of a difference on your skin, you can only imagine what it is doing on the inside of your body. I have heard people using it to help heal their leaky gut. Whenever I was having an autoimmune flare red light or sunlight on my tummy always helps relieve the inflammation in my body. Not quite sure the reason, but if it works it works. If you know about autoimmune flares it is all about finding relief you do not question why because pain relief is priceless.

Red light, tanning, and sunlight all lower your viral load and help your body fight off everything. Of course tanning should be monitored and not overdone, but sunshine is healing in whatever form you choose. Candida is lowered by light because it is a yeast. Just get some light everyday and you will start to feel better. This I can guarantee. And if you are going to be using lights in your home, why not get a full spectrum red light? It just makes sense and is logical to do what is best for you, and your pets and children! Life and health is all about the little things!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #5 Cryotherapy

Ewwwh! This is one of my absolute all time favorite things! It is so hard to make myself do, but the benefits are amazing! It is a bit pricey, but it worth saving for. Plus, you can normally find good deals on Groupon.

Cryotherapy is a great way to balance your hormones and lower the load on your immune system. It does all the things. It really helped me detox heavy metals and thus reduce my Candida. When you have heavy metals in your body all the bad things stick to them like parasites and Candida. It is basically a way to make the bad things in your body have a more comfortable place to grow. It puts them at ease while creating dis-ease in you. Removing the heavy metals from the toxic world we live in huge! Everyone needs to take Chorella and Spirulina tabs. They have saved my life. However, when I was really sick with cancer and autoimmune diseaseS in Las Vegas, Cryotherapy saved my life.

I recommend doing multiple things along with Cryotherapy. Healing modalities seems to have a multiplied effect, rather than just adding to each other. Herbs and drugs multiple with each other when taken together. They do not just add to the effect of each other. All healing seems to be like this.

So if you are going to do Cryotherapy do it in a fasted state, and take some antifungals too. Red light is often offered at the place that do Cryotherapy or they have saunas. Do all the things. The more you do the less your body will have to do.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Do a cold rinse when you finish your showers, it helps your hormones and supports your immune system. Make sure and get the cold water on the base of your skull, this will help calm you down and get you into your para sympathetic whatever.

Also, cold water plunges or swimming in cold water also is great for you.

Cryotherapy helps tighten loose skin too!

Just get cold!

Saunas followed by cold showers are amazing as well!

Stress your body with changes in temperature and it will get stronger!

Are you taking a multivitamin yet? If not, why not? Get one with Omega 3 and DHA!

How To Heal Cancer #6 Sauna & Cold Showers

Saunas mixed with cold showers are magical. I don’t really have much of the science behind it, but I do know it does wonders for your stress response, balancing your hormones, removing toxins and heavy metals thus supporting your liver and allowing it to heal. Removing heavy metals and supporting your liver are two of the most revolutionary things you can do in order to prevent cancer and chronic illness.

Prevention is the name of the game. We should all think of ourselves as preventing cancer. It allows for us to be more proactive in our healing process rather than waiting for disease to come before we take action. Disease is guaranteed in the world we live in. It is not a question of if, it is just the question of when. If we all take action like we are having to work towards preventing cancer we will have way more luck with our health because we will take it seriously. You are not helpless over your health if you take actions to support your body.

Life is about choices. Make the choices that support the reality you want to live in. The little steps and actions you take in your daily life are the key to making your dreams come true or your nightmares a reality. Choose wisely, but choose not to live in fear. Take charge of your own life and reality.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #7 Heavy Metal Detox

Just as we inherit bacteria, parasites, and viruses from our Mother and Grandmother, we also inherit heavy metals. And our Mother and Grandmother inherit them from their Mother and Grandmother. So, it is a domino effect. Perhaps, these are the biological roots to generational trauma in the physical body.

As the generation continue and our heavy metal load is increased, we become less able to utilize our brains and bodies. I did not realize I was a genius until I did years of heavy metal cleansing. However, I am sure my heavy metal load was more intense than most because lead was how they dumbed me down as a child and throughout my life. But they do this to all of us on a smaller scale to keep us manageable, small, and diseased.

Have you ever drank tap water? Have you ever showered in unfiltered water? Have you ever had shots or an immunization? Have you ever eaten processed foods? Have you ever lived in a house with paint? Have you ever had dental work done? Have you ever eaten rice grown in California? Have you ever been outside when an airplane was flying overhead? Have you ever been to a gas station? Have you ever been on an airplane? Have you ever smoked? If you answered yes to any of these than you have heavy metals and need to detox.

Our world and lives are filled with heavy metals. There really is no escaping them all, unless you want to live in a bubble. However, you just need to help your body to detox the metals it is exposed to on a daily basis. This means cleaning out the heavy metals that are stored in your body that you have inherited and collected throughout your life.

There are many different avenues you can take to detox heavy metals, but since we are doing the work for many generations that came before us I suggest the firefighter Niacin sauna detox. There are many different variations, but the results are amazing no matter what in my experience.

Brief Overview:  Start with 50-100 mg of Niacin on empty stomach, start exercising for 30 min, enter sauna for 30-60 min, take 4-5  capsules of activated charcoal (500 mg), take shower.

I started this protocol when I was in Las Vegas. Full disclosure I have never done the exercise part, but I am sure it adds greatly to the results. When I started I did not have a sauna, so I used a hot detox bath instead. Even without the exercise and sauna this protocol helped me walk again. My hips and back were a mess from PCOS, heavy metals, and candida. This protocol helps with all of these. When I took activated charcoal for the first time, I realized I did not have anxiety I just had toxins in my blood stream. Like I said this protocol is life changing. My white bed sheets turned purple when doing this protocol in Arizona when I was using a sauna. So, do no skimp on the activated charcoal, it can save your sheets.

Also, another way to detox heavy metals is by taking chorella and spirulina tabs everyday. I did this for months during quarantine when in Arizona and this is when I realized how smart I was. Chorella draws metals out of your brain. Also, I was mixing in cilantro which also helps remove metals from the body and brain. Plus, Diatomaceous earth food grade is something I am a big fan of and it works on heavy metals too.

Heavy metal detox is something that is a long term process. Even now I still feel better when I do the things. I do not think there is a limit to how much we can cleanse our bodies when we are making up for all the generations that have come before us. Perhaps, it is just something we need to view as a life long process. Health and healing seem to be that way. Once I learn something it is never really something I do once and am done with. It is something I add to my collections of tools to continue to utilize.

Start heavy metal cleansing today because you do not know how smart you are till you have removed some of the heavy metals from your brain and body.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Repost: Mind Control and Hormone Imbalances

Mind Control & Hormone Imbalances

If you are confused about who you are, you are going to be not only easier to control and manipulate, but you will also be more open to suggestion and vulnerable to brainwashing. In the 1980’s hardly anyone, but alcoholics had fatty liver disease. Now almost all of us have fatty liver to a certain extent, even children. And fatty liver leads to estrogen dominance when your liver is unable to balance your hormones.

Have you noticed how men are more in their feminine energy nowadays? Have you noticed how women are more in their masculine energy nowadays? Well, women today almost all have PCOS to a certain extent due to all the chemicals and toxins in the world and systems. This allows for more “male” hormones in women. The carb filled diets that we are sold as the Standard American Diet is also a factor in PCOS. Insulin plays a large role, because it is too a hormone.

So, women are more masculine because they have more “male” hormones. And men are more feminine because they have more “female” hormones. Do you think this has anything to do with the confusion on pronouns nowadays? Maybe the LGBTQ community was literally designed and created by the modern world we live in? If they can confuse us about who we are, we can easily be controlled when we are trying to figure out the rest of who we are. When we do not know ourselves on the very first building block of who we are, we can be swayed on all the other things we are, because we feel uncertainty. When we are uncertain we are easily controlled. When we feel out of balance on the inside we will look towards the outside for balance and to steady us.

When you know who you are you, you look inside for your equalibrium. However, when you do not know yourself, down to a gender level, you can be persuaded about almost anything.

Balancing your hormones is the most revolutionary act you can take to start the process of finding yourself.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Repost: Television, Mind Control, Emotion Control, & Hormonal Control

Television: Mind Control, Emotion Control, & Hormonal Control

If you wanted to influence people that you had already made more suseptable to suggestion, wouldn’t it be nice if they just watched this box full of pictures you created for them? Your mind does not know the difference between real life, visualization, and/or tv. If your mind does not know the difference, that means it will influence your hormones, your emotions, and your reality just as if it is real life. Your whole limbic system and reality are changed when you watch tv and/or play video games.

This is why the 90’s generation is so different, well part of why. The Xbox generation is literally a different species on a gene level, but then take into account that their mind, body, emotions, and thus souls have been programmed since the beginning with video games and tv. Those of us who grew up without all the electronics that this generation had access too have a hard time relating to them. Not to mention them being the first generation to grow up with WiFi and we have no long term studies on how that effects people in the long term on a physical or mental level.

When you hand over your mental picture to a source outside of yourself, you are handing over control of your body, mind, and spirit. Even if it is a good tv show, it is still a form of brainwashing. Tv is fun, don’t get me wrong, it can be pleasurable. But just know what you are doing when you take part in television. Your brain, body, and soul do not know the difference between television and meditation/visualization. Should you be altering your epigenetics with the information you are taking in from television? Because it only takes 4 days of meditation/visualization to change your epigenetics. Are you willing to take responsibility for what you watching on a gene level because it is changing you?

You are what you watch.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Repost: How To Clean Up The Ocean

How To Clean Up The Ocean

Currently everyone dumps raw sewage into the ocean. Even cruise ships of people from all over the world drop sewage into the ocean wherever they cruise. Do you know why this is so concerning? This means all the mutated viruses from all the genetically modified foods from all over the world are in the ocean. And this means everytime you eat seafood or seaweed you are eating all the mutated viruses from all over the world. Plus, of course there are toxins, bad bacteria, and parasites. But like we said before viruses are forever. So they are a bit more scary and concerning.

Remember how viruses live in fat cells? This means shrimp are one of the worst things you can eat. Anything fattening from the ocean is going to have more viruses. Pretty overwhelming to think about, right? Seafood is supposed to be one of the best things for us, but it’s become one of the worst things for us. Seaweed is an amazing superfood, but it could kill us in the current state.

So what do we do besides pass laws to get people from dumping raw sewage into the ocean. It will take decades to get people from all over the world to completely stop. And realistically people will never stop fully. There will always be those people looking to save a buck here and there at the expense of the world. People like my family will always exist. So what do we do?

Well, probiotic bacteria eat viruses. So we put probiotic bacteria in the ocean to control the viruses. There are also viruses that can be created to eat certain strains of bacteria. These are called phages. These are what my family used to make some strains of your gut bacteria go extinct. We can create and use these to clean up bad strains of bacteria we find in the ocean.

Probiotic bacteria also eat heavy metals and clean up a lot of toxins. The ocean may never really be clean again. But hopefully we can clean it up enough that seafood won’t be so deadly to eat. Seafood is supposed to be one of the healthiest things in the world. It would be good if we could eat it again someday.