Tuesday March 21st 2023 Moon in Aries Sun in Aries Destruction Overview

Well hello everyone, seems you all are late to the party. But we sure are glad you are here. The sooner we get the north completely on board the sooner we all get to move forward and get better. My name is Nicole D Graves. I don’t know what you have heard about me, but surprise I’m alive. My Dad announced my death prematurely. See I escaped the death camp where I was supposed to die two years ago in southern Arizona. For over 700 days I have been creating and forming this revolution. I started giving this talk about the destruction over a year ago. Every time I give this talk I hope it’s the last time. But fingers crossed this time really is the last.

My life has been really hard and painful. I have always been aware of the destruction of the world. I may not have known who my family is or about the war games. But I knew about the destruction because I lived it up close and personal. And I now live the destruction more than I ever imagined was possible. You can hear me right now because my Dad put a chip in my head when I had head surgery at 8 years old. Looking back I now see my head injury was planned and just apart of the Truman show I live in. A French Canadian who is from lake havasu Arizona hit me in the head with a water ski when I was 8, so my Dad could implant a chip in my head and try to figure out why he had been unable to break me and brainwash me. See the French canadians have destroyed me my whole life. All my cousins on both sides of my family are French Canadian. I’m the only Argentinian. But recently I learned that not many Argentinians made it to the United states. And I learned my family in Argentina has been held hostage just like me. I always wondered why my grandpa Graves lived in a compound. He was trying to avoid living like me is what I now understand. You French Canadians and people from the north have been really awful to me. I am still trying to forgive you all. I dont know how to process the things you all have done to me. See I stopped talking to my Dad in my early 20s. It’s been you all who have been trying to kill me for my Dad since then. I would have escaped if it wasn’t for you all. I’m hurt still and I don’t know how to process everything you all have put me through. And I especially dont know how to process the things you people have done to me since I started this revolution and figured out who I am. So I suppose I would like to ask you all to police yourselves. See there are countless people who belong to the north who have tried to destroy me and kill me and make me sick so that they could be in my Dad’s favor while he continued to destroy the world more. Your people have cost me everything. But you almost cost the world everything. We deserve an apology, but I especially deserve an apology. I would like you all to take care of the people who have tried to kill me and hurt me while I was freeing the world. And I would like you all to do everything in your power to make my life easy and comfortable so that I can reverse the damage and destruction my families have created for generations. See I’m the only one who can undo what my families have done. I’m the boss of my family. My birthrights make me the boss of everyone. This is why my Dad had you all killing me. He wanted and still wants to kill me because I dont believe in destroying people. I dont believe in genocide or racism. I dont believe in keeping people small. I believe in potential. I believe we all deserve better. I definitely deserve to be treated better by the north. And you all deserve to be treated better too. Even though you all have tried to kill me for a lifetime, I see you all deserve better. Because everyone does. So will you please take care of the people who have hurt me so I dont have to lash out. I’m human too you know. Especially the people in real estate and the insurance industry. These people have hurt me the worst. And they have delayed the world from getting the better we all deserve. I will consider it your penance to deal with your own people so I dont have to declare a genocide against all of you. Because I know some of you are good people. I have just been surrounded by my Dad’s cult members for a lifetime. I would really like to experience the real world. I’m 42 in 10 days. If you all stop putting on my Truman show, I will finally have earned my right to exist in the real world. 42 years old and my whole life has been a lie filled with people killing me. It’s pretty wild.

But here is the deal. Your life is not as different as you wish to believe it is. On this revolution while I was figuring out who I am and who my family is and what the war games are, I also figured out the words to the destruction we all face. I am going to go over the cliffsnotes to this destruction we all feel but have never found the words for. These are just the cliffsnotes. There is so much more. Listen up and get a pen and paper, this information can save your life.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My Dad has us all surrounded. When you all created the war games and the mafias you created rules within city limits. However, no one created rules outside city limits. My Dad has preyed on these people who were left out and has surrounded us all by turning them into his cult members. My Dad is king to people who live outside city limits. He controls what all comes in and out of cities worldwide by controlling these people outside city limits. We all need to include the people out of city limits in our mafias. Otherwise they will be the end of us all.

18. My Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into.place easier this way. My Dad has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my Dad have the cities surrounded by controlling the people outside city limits, but he controls what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. He doesn’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if he can control what goes in and out of a country.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My Dad had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is he is doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe it is realty. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoying destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my Dad sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

This is a lot to learn all at once, but you have felt all these things your whole life. You just didn’t know how to explain them. Feelings rarely lie, but we have been conditioned not to listen to our feelings.

Are you ready for some good news? You all didn’t kill me so I can undo most of what my families have done. The destruction started during industrialization and world war 2. 4 generations ago my families started this mess. Both sides were in on it. I literally come from some of the greatest evils in the history of the world. And I’m a genius who does not buy into destruction. So while I was figuring out all this mess I figured out how to reverse it all. It all comes down to epigenetics, mitochondria, and gut bacteria. I will geek out and explain it all one day soon. But all I need to do is ferment the earth and the humans. And I’m going to need your help creating my life in the overt world so I can make this happen.

See I sold real estate in Arizona before I had to escape and start this revolution. And I have been able to get my Oregon real estate license recently. It has been a shit show. Your people in real estate here in Oregon have tried to destroy me so badly. I looked for a brokerage for two months before joining exp just this week. So let me tell you all the plan so you can help me wherever you can.

I’m actually really good at selling real estate. But I need your help being treated fairly both in real estate and by people. Based on how much you all have tried to kill me, I think you all owe me the opportunity to help you all buy or sell your homes if our paths should cross. So I expect my clients to be French Canadians quite often. Because I need to sell 20-30 homes a year so I can buy a farm and ferment the world and the humans. It’s complex but I’m the only one who can do it because my family would war on anyone else who tried to undo their destruction. No one else will even talk to you all about the destruction. There have been countless really smart people involved in creating this destruction. My family isnt smart enough to do this all on their own. And we all know that many of these smart people were French Canadians. My Dad loves you all because he can control you. I dont want to control you all. I just want to be free myself. Science experiments and projects make me happy. So we all win if I get to farm bacteria and have a family farm.

See I have reached my family in Argentina. And I have provided them with a way to earn the money they need to establish themselves in Argentina and to come to Oregon and farm with me. However I would like to be able to buy a small farm on my own before they get here. I need for people to treat me fairly. You all are really good at following my Dad’s rules. So good you all almost killed me on multiple occasions. I need for you all to treat me fairly from here on out. No more killing me. No more poisoning my food. My food is so poisoned my reproductive organs are swollen so much my hips and back go out of place and I’m constipated. Every morning I wake with with my left hand swollen twice reg size it should be because my heart is failing from the poisons throughout the night. My eyebrows and eyelashes fall out because people poison me so much. I had hives last week because you all were poisoning me so much. I am constantly inflamed and overweight because you all poison me so much my organs are failing. I’m sure not many of you all have had to live like this. But I do promise if you continue to make me have to survive and live like this I will make you find out how much it hurts to live like this. No longer will you allow your people to hurt me in anyway. You all need to protect me just like the rest of the world is. Once I’m gone no one stands in the way of my family destroying you all as much as they want. I’m the only one saving you all. And your people almost killed me. You owe us all an apology, but especially me.

Let me recap on what I need to happen

I need your people to stop trying to kill me. I need you all to stop poisoning me and my food and my water. I expect clean food tomorrow at Walmart on west 11th. My meats wont be wet with poison and make my organs fail. I would like clean meat because it’s easier to stay alive when I eat clean food. And you all should want me alive.

I need for the people at exp Realty to treat me fairly and be overly invested in my success. Also I need the general public to feel obligated to do real estate business with me. You all tried to kill me my whole life. The least you can do is let me help you buy and sell a home.

Tomorrow I have an appointment at Sheppard motors because they put a hole in my radiator when I got my oil changed. David mortlock needs to get his shit together and be human. Bobbi the service manager needs to do the same thing. Not only are they going to fix my car and do a great job. They are going to go above and beyond to make this whole situation up to me. I deserve to be treated fairly. If you people in the north want me to treat you all fairly, then you need to treat me fairly. I shouldn’t have to pay to fix what you all broke on my jeep. And this is not the first time you all broke my car. This is a reoccurring problem and pattern in my life. It needs to stop today. No longer will I be abused when I take my car to get serviced.

Also your people at the Oregon employment department have been trying to destroy me because I qualified for the step program to get help getting my Oregon real estate license. These people have tried to destroy me and get in the way of my progress and success. I would appreciate if you all got them in line and on board. These are some of the people you all need to take care of. They tried to destroy me so my Dad could destroy you all more. How do you hold people accountable for treason in the north? I’m personally very fond of breaking kneecaps but that’s just me.

That is all I can think of just off the top.of my head. I need help with everything you can help me with. I have lived in my car for over 700 days. I need a home. And to get a home I need to sell real estate. So if you all can make real estate easy for me, I can get the rest for myself. And buy a farm and start fermenting the world. My Dad should die soon he has colon cancer and he’s 72 years old. So we just have to wait it out and he will take care of himself. But that doesn’t mean we have to wait on getting better. The sooner I sell houses the sooner I can buy a farm. I have already spoken to the farmers and we have a plan to ferment the earth and the humans. So I just need you all to do your part and everything should fall into place rather quickly. In 10 days it will be two years exactly of this revolution. I am ready to rebuild and get the better we all deserve. How about you?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Monday March 20th 2023 Moon in Pisces Sun in Aries A Message to my family In Argentina

Hope you all are having a good night. And I hope today the people down there stopped hunting you all. I may not be in charge of my life much, but I hope I was able to make your lives better. Today, I did lead generation and created a sales pipeline for you all. It’s your job to do the conversion of these leads and create great wealth. But do not do business with anyone who does not treat you well. And first order of business is getting all of the children in our family into good schools. Make sure they have as many books as they can read. Make sure they play sports and take dance classes and ride horses. We need them for our future. They deserve everything. So take care of them first and then we come next.

It wont take you all long to create great wealth. I’m really excited about meeting you all. I never imagined this was all so possible. I dont know if I told you all that having you here with me is my wildest dreams. I have been alone most of my life. I was starting to give up on this revolution. I have fought so hard to stay alive and I didn’t have a why to motivate me to want to keep doing it. You all are my why. Us having a family farm is my why. I never want to be so alone again. I’m sure I will always like spending time alone. But I never want to be this alone again. I promise to always take care of you all if you all promise to take care of me. I’m just a human. And maybe because you all have larger than life birthrights you will understand people like us are just human too.

Today I got my real estate license transfered over to my new brokerage. And I made a little headway on getting my membership to a couple groups I need for work. It was a pretty uneventful day. But today I have hope. You all will be here sooner than I ever imagined. You dont know or understand how relieving this is to me. I need people I can trust and love. My whole life people have been the biggest weapon. Now I know you all understand this too.

We are going to have good lives here in Oregon. You all are going to create great security for our family in Argentina and Argentina is going to grow and get better. Everything is in place to make these changes into realities. Love truly does conquer all.

I just wanted to check in with you all. I get lonely. I will continue to brainstorm to figure out what I can do to make your lives better. Today should have created a path so you all know what to do now. Dont get overwhelmed. Just take the daily steps and everything will work out. That is all I have done my whole life. It works.

I’m very blessed to have you all and I’m very excited for you all to get here and to find our family farm. With everything I was able to set up today. You all should be here in a year or less. I can make it one more year on my own if I know it’s the last year I ever have to be alone. I have Haywood and so I’m not completely alone.

Fingers crossed tomorrow I get clean food and water. I hope you all got clean food and water today. I hope your lives are better. We dont deserve to live like this. And it’s going to get better I promise.

Sweet dreams of realities of the future. Visit the quantum field and I will meet you there.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Monday March 20th 2023 Moon in Pisces Sun in Aries A message to French Canadian Leaders from Michigan to Nova Scotia

Hello everyone, thank you for tuning in. I know it’s late where you are so I will make this quick. My name is Nicole D Graves. My Dad announced my death prematurely. I escaped the death camp where I was supposed to die in March 2021. I have been creating this revolution ever since then. For over 700 days I have been running for my life while trying to reach the leaders of the world. And I have reached them all except you all. This is why my Dad is calling on your people to fight this war against me. I need you all to call your people out of this war against me. My birthrights trump my Dad’s. I’m the most powerful person in the war games by birthrights. This is why my Dad wants to kill me. But this is why you need to do everything in your power to keep me alive. See I have asperger’s genius and my family was never able to break me. So they never told me about the war games or who they are or who I am to you all. For over 3 decades they have tried to kill me. So I understand the destruction better than most people. I have lived the destruction of my family. I understand we all deserve better than this. I deserve better and you all deserve better. I don’t believe in racism or genocide. I am mixed because my Dad used me to conquer the east. My birthrights not only make me queen of the west and south, but I have a very large say in the east too. My birthrights dont give me control over the north, but I dont really want to control anything. I just want to help us all get better. My life has been really hard, but I do believe I am still alive because it is my destiny to get better for us all.

Over the past 700 days while I was figuring out the war games and who I am and who my families are, I also figured out the words to the destruction we all experience and feel. However, we have never been taught to have words to describe these feelings of destruction. I found the words. So grab a pen and paper and let me explain why you need to protect me and join my revolution. Here we go….

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My Dad has us all surrounded. When you all created the war games and the mafias you created rules within city limits. However, no one created rules outside city limits. My Dad has preyed on these people who were left out and has surrounded us all by turning them into his cult members. My Dad is king to people who live outside city limits. He controls what all comes in and out of cities worldwide by controlling these people outside city limits. We all need to include the people out of city limits in our mafias. Otherwise they will be the end of us all.

18. My Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into.place easier this way. My Dad has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my Dad have the cities surrounded by controlling the people outside city limits, but he controls what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. He doesn’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if he can control what goes in and out of a country.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My Dad had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is he is doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe it is realty. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoying destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my Dad sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

I understand this is a lot to take in all at once. Believe me I wish I could have reached you all sooner. But here we are talking now. Better late than never. I also have good news for you all. I have convinced the world to be revolutionary with me. I have the support of the world. It seems you all are the last leaders I needed to connect with. And the other big good news is that I have found a way to reverse most of the destruction my families have created over the past 100 years. However, I need to create financial stability and security for myself in the overt world in order to create this change we all need. I used to sell real estate in Arizona and I have struggled to get my Oregon real estate license while building this revolution and fighting to stay alive. Recently I joined exp realty. I need you all to guarantee that I am treated fairly here. I have to create great wealth in order to buy a farm and ferment the world and humans to undo what my family has done. Epigenetics are directly correlated to gut bacteria and mitochondria. I will explain it all to you all and get you caught up to speed as soon as possible.

But right now I need you to call your people out of this war against me. Because they are fighting for their own destruction. Fighting for my Dad is fighting to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. I dont think most people would desire this. But some of his cult members do still blindly follow him. You need to make sure your people dont sign up to be in my Dad’s cult now that he is calling on them because he has no one left. It’s your job to protect your people and yourself.

Also full disclosure, I have given permission to the Hispanic farmers in Southern LA and Roseburg to handle your people by any means necessary if they do choose to affiliate with my Dad and fight this war for him. Also I have enlisted the Danish leaders in helping with this. I don’t have 700 more days to fight this revolution. I’m tired. I dont have a ton of resources left. My health is not the greatest. People try to kill me everyday. Your people poison my food and water. Everyone I experience is trying to kill me so my Dad can destroy the world more. If I die there is no hope for you all. But if you protect me and keep me alive I promise to fight for better for you and me.

Call your people out of this war against me.

Get your people to stop poisoning me and my food and water.

Use your power to get me treated fairly at Exp Realty and at Sheppard Motors  the car dealership in Eugene Oregon where they put a hole in my radiator when they changed my oil. I need to be able to have a running car. I have lived in my jeep for over 700 days now. I need you all to get your people in line. And I saw today that your people are related to the service manager at Sheppard motors in Eugene. I’m hoping you can convince him it’s in his best interest to treat me very well.

There are a ton of other things I need help with. My Dad has been using your people to kill me for a lifetime. So please make my life better any way you can.

Also there are people at the Oregon employment department who have signed up to destroy me for my Dad. They also are from the north and one is from Maryland. I’m hoping you are the leaders in charge of these people too.

Thank you for allowing me your time this late evening. Sorry to have to dump this on you all so late and all at once. We will talk again soon.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Sunday March 19th 2023 Moon in Pisces Sun in Pisces A Worldwide Anti-Cult

This message is for everyone worldwide. It doesn’t matter if you are a leader of a mafia or a regular ordinary person. We all have to work together to get our desired result. Which is better for everyone.

See last year, we took over my Dad’s professional cult. The leaders and I formed a united nations professional cult. And we need the North to get involved with this as well. So whoever is on the board of the united nations professional cult needs to get the North represented on the board. Taking over my Dad’s professional cult was a way to take our power back. I am not the only one my Dad has used these people to hold hostage. He uses all his cult members to hold us hostage. And he is still doing it. The people at Sheppard Motors broke my radiator. The people in the real estate industry refused to treat me fairly. The people who work at the place I have a po box on Willamette and 14th in Eugene steal my mail or delay me from getting it and poison my packages. We all are still being held hostage. Perhaps the examples of how are just more clearly defined in my life.

However, my Dad has taken his professional cult and moved it onto a personal level. Now rather than having control of industries and professions my Dad has control over people’s lives because they have chosen to give their power over to him. People are desperate for the feelings of belonging, and being important, and feeling seen and heard. However, we all should not have to pay for other people getting their needs met. And we really shouldn’t have to pay for people being weak and short sighted.

No one in my Dad’s cult is going to hold their hand up and say It’s me. Hi! I am the problem. It’s me. They do not believe themselves to be a problem. They believe they have found the answer they have always been looking for. They believe they deserve to destroy and hurt us all to get better for themselves. They don’t understand that my Dad’s cult disables them from ever thinking for themselves or having a good life. These people do not live in reality. And often they do not understand the destruction they are carrying out. Look at all the people who dropped out of my Dad’s cult because they did not understand they were creating world war 3 and multiple genocides. My Dad would not be building his cult with the people he is today unless he was desperate for bodies. These people are not the chosen as they want to believe they are. They just are the last people willing to do my Dad’s dirty work and destroy us all.

This means that as a world we all need to come together on an individual level. The North, East, West, and South all need to come together all over the world. In every country, we need to stand up for ourselves because my Dad is using these remaining people to hold us all hostage and to keep us from getting better. It is your job to stand up for your right to have a better life. And this means conditioning people to associate pain with being in my Dad’s cult. When people cannot learn from logic or the desire for doing better in the big picture than pain is the best teacher. I have learned to be so different from you all because every time I tried to be normal and regular I experienced pain. My Dad basically conditioned me to be revolutionary by using his cult members on me. This means all we have to do is treat his cult member as they have treated me my whole life. Most people could not survive my life. I have great faith these people will see the error of their ways very quickly. We just have to be persistent and all work together.

This is what I need you all to do. You need to look around you and see who is in my Dad’s cult. You need to realize these are the enemies that will kill you and harm you when given the choice. Never accept food from these people. They always try to feed me or get me to drink water or coffee, etc. These people will use your mirror neurons against you. They will pretend to be human and kind. But the more into my Dad’s cult they get, the more your body will tell you there is something wrong with this person. Listen to your body, your brain will question what you are feeling, but your body doesn’t lie. Your body will understand things before your mind does. They say your gut is your second brain, but that is a lie. Your gut tells your brain what to do. Your gut bacteria controls your mind. This is why you should always listen to your gut feeling. Because the world, the systems, and especially my Dad’s cult are all set up to get you to deny and question your gut feelings and what you really know. This is a war. And in order for this war to take place you have to constantly be doubting and questioning yourself. My Dad uses his cult member to make you question and doubt yourself. You know things and you need to have faith in yourself and your gut feelings. This may mean starting to eat better and do some intermittent fasting so you can understand what your gut is trying to tell you. You know what you know, but you have to learn how to trust yourself. That means listening to yourself above anyone else. Even when they try to condition you and make you feel bad for not following along or joining in. My whole life I have had to go against the grain just to survive. It gets easier. Just stand up for yourself. You deserve better and you are going to get better by listening to yourself and not letting other talk you out of what you know. And especially not letting them talk you out of what is best for you.

Think about this revolution. I built this revolution on my gut feelings. I was never told about anything. I didn’t know anything about the war games or who my families are. But my whole life I had all these gut feelings. I had no clue what they meant. But on this adventure and revolution I was forced to figure out what those feelings meant. It was confusing and frustrating. But I have never felt more rewarded and like myself. I understand who I am more than ever before. And I am living in my truth more than ever before. You need to live in your truth. This means you need to be aware of the cult members around you and realize they aren’t human. They don’t want good for you or the world. They are going to do everything in their power to hurt you. So the less power you give them the better.

Keep your distance from people in my Dad’s cult. They will use your mirror neurons against you. So even just looking at them is dangerous. Identify who is a cult member and stay away from them. When you are forced to interact with them make being a member of my Dad’s cult as painful as possible for them. These people don’t learn with logic or by the desire to have better. These people only learn with pain. So make everything complicated and painful for them. They won’t drop out of my Dad’s cult until they associate being a cult member with pain. And we have to do this quickly because my Dad gets people stuck in his cult.

Let me explain why people like my Uncle Dave and my Uncle Brett are stuck in my Dad’s cult. I have been around these men for my whole life. I believe there are parts of them that want better. They have helped me on this revolution when they could. But I believe if they could be revolutionary they would. Because I believe that they joined my Dad’s cult because he sold them on better in the form of power. They joined my Dad’s cult because they thought it would be the way to better and creating a name for themselves. And I think they did. It just didn’t turn out like they thought it would. There was a lot more darkness involved and not as much payoff or profit as they had hoped. No one in my family is rich. They may be above middle class a bit, but not much. No one is really in the place my Dad sold them on. And now after decades of being in my Dad’s cult. They are stuck. Because my Dad is now holding them hostage.

See my Dad gets everyone in his cult to do unthinkable things, illegal things. Then my Dad holds these things over their heads for a lifetime. They will never be able to leave his cult because my Dad will threaten to out them on some of the worst moments of their lives. He uses these awful things that he gets people to do to convince them that they are bad people. And once he has convinced them that they are bad people, then he gets them to do even more awful things. Pretty soon his cult members have done the unthinkable so much that they don’t know who they are or how they have done all the things they have done. They become empty vessels and just a shell of who they once were. They become cult members and no longer recognize themselves or see the person they used to be. My Dad conditions people to be sociopaths and to be like him. Everyone in his cult is just an extension of my Dad. They cease to be human or to be themselves. No one gets to be themselves in my Dad’s cult or in my family.  So these lost people who are signing up to be in my Dad’s cult today will loose themselves soon and we will not be able to get them back. It is a race against time. Either we show them that it is too painful for them to be in my Dad’s cult. Or my Dad beats us all to the punch and erases the people these people once were and makes them into an extension of him. How long do you think it takes to erase a person? Especially because these people who are joining are not fancy in the war games or mafia. These people do not know themselves and they have never been told they are valuable. How long do you think it will take for them to loose themselves when they were never taught to value themselves in the first place? I am going to assume that it wont take long at all for them to get lost in the feelings of belonging and to commit great sins to keep that feeling that is a high for them. And then they will be stuck and we will be forced to live a world with them.

The easiest way to create a world where we all get better is to eliminate as many cult members as possible. Especially the people just signing up because they still have a chance to save themselves. My family has committed too many crimes and sins to save themselves. They are stuck. They have written their fate and destiny. When you lie with dogs you get fleas. The fleas my Dad shares with people never really go away. I hope one day we can help the people who my Dad has enslaved get better. I would like to find a way to save my family. But right now we have to focus on ourselves. Because my Dad’s cult will try to stop us all from getting better. And if you don’t make these people’s lives painful in anyway you can it will be harder on us all.

This means when you see people put out their trash cans on days when it isn’t trash day you label them cult members. I am sure some people actually make a mistake sometimes. But there is no mistake when it is put out with a poison bomb in it. This means when you see a cult member you use everything in your power to make their lives more complicated and uncomfortable and painful. You look at them and make them feel shame. You shake your head at them and give them a stern look. These people are extremely vulnerable to the behavioral inheritance systems so you show them how you feel and they will understand it even if they pretend not to. Your behavior will shake their core. This means if you are a customer service agent you do not waive their late fees. This means if you are a waitress you make them wait longer for everything. This means if you are a loan officer you lean towards not accepting their loan application. Do everything in your power to disempower these. I am sure you all have experienced how my Dad’s cult has made your life harder and more complicated when they could. I want you all to do these things to the people in my Dad’s cult.

We are not forming a worldwide cult like my Dad did. We are banning together to stand up for ourselves and form an anti-cult. We will no longer be vulnerable to a select group of people who feel they have the right to enslave and imprison us all. We deserve better. And that means we have to disempower the people who do not believe we deserve this better. It feels wrong. I completely understand. But you have to understand this is a war. And we have been at war since the late 1970s when my Dad started world war 3 and conquered the Kudearoff family by marrying my Mom. Do you want to end up like the Kudearoffs? I know I don’t. They are some pretty awful people. They don’t have good health. They don’t have potential. They aren’t smart or happy. They don’t know God. But they sure know my Dad and they will do everything he tells them to mindlessly. They are some of the most unhappiest people I have ever met. Yet, they act so much greater than and like they are entitled to believe they are the chosen ones. I was surrounded by them my whole life. They all tried to kill me while being unpleasant and yet telling me that they love me. This is exactly what my Dad’s cult members will do to you. Until they have taken everything they can from you and you are dying.

Fighting back is about protecting yourself and what is yours and your family. If you don’t fight back these people will take everything from you. And I do mean everything. Look at me they took everything I have worked my whole life for and then they killed one of my dogs. They will take everything from you because they are just extensions of my Dad. My Dad has not changed. If anything he has gotten worse. He still believes he is entitled to holding the world hostage and destroying us all. Your body is the concentration camp that my Dad has put you in. And he uses his cult member as the SS soldiers in your concentration camp. You need to fight back. I know your brain wants to tell you that we are not at war. But listen to your body. Your body understands this war more than your brain ever will. How often have you felt dis ease in your life? How often have you just not felt well? This has been all by design. How often have you been depressed or anxious? This is also by design. In the world my Dad created with the systems in place you are never supposed to feel good. How are you ever going to get potential if you don’t feel good?

Your job, no matter who you are, is to fight back. This means making everyone accountable for their own actions. This means making the lives of the people in my Dad’s cult as painful and uncomfortable as possible so they don’t hold us all hostage. Stay away from them, but when you do have to interact fight back. Do whatever you can to create pain in their lives. If you don’t you all will end up just like me. And I bet you all fear being like me. I was used as a training tool for a reason. You all have been trained to fear to live like me. So this is your chance to earn the life you deserve. This is your chance to fight for getting better. Everyday you choose whether to be revolutionary or to be held hostage.

I choose this revolution. I hope you choose to be revolutionary with me. Because the world needs you. And I need you.

Love Always

Nicole D. Graves

Monday March 20th 2023 Moon in Pisces Sun in Aries A Message to The People of Argentina

Good morning everyone.  I need to speak to the people of Argentina. The regular ordinary people, the   leaders there that are not my family, the fancy families, and especially the people who hunt my family there. I need to speak with everyone in Argentina. I am going to give you all a few moments to get them all tuned in.

Hello Argentina, hope you all are having a good afternoon. My name is Nicole D. Graves. I am not sure what you all have heard about me, but you all know my father and grandfather. And you all seem to be hunting my family in Argentina. I would like to tell you all about myself and why hunting my family in Argentina is not the right move for you all.

I was born in 1981 in Oregon. My parents created me to bring the east and west together. My Mom is Chinese and Russian. See after world war 2 the fancy soldiers from Russia who were looking for a place to escape to in order to not be held accountable for their war crimes fled to China. China was used just like Argentina. So my Mom’s family is from the fancy families in Russia and the fancy family in China they conquered while there. And then you all know about my Dad’s family and how my Grandpa Graves was used to conquer you all and steal your power. So I am the product of these families who use love as a weapon to conquer people. I have the most fancy birthrights in the world I think. I have yet to find anyone who outranks me. I even outrank my Dad.

However, I was never told about the war games, or my families, or who I am because I have Asperger’s genius and my family could never break me or convince me that destruction was right or normal or necessary. You can hear me right now because my Dad had a chip implanted into my head when I was 8 years old. He wanted to see my logical thoughts and why he was not able to break me. However, even with this window into my thoughts he still could not break me. This chip allows me to broadcast and here I am talking to you all because I have convinced the world to be revolutionary.

Two years ago, I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona where I was supposed to die. I am sure many of you all who knew I existed thought I was dead. I am not dead. However, everyday multiple people attempt my murder. I have been experiencing daily attempted murder for over three decades. I am the only person on earth who wants better for everyone. And I am the only person standing in between my Dad destroying the world even more than he already has. This means I am the only person who will stand up for you all. I am the only person who has the power to get better for you all. And you all are trying to kill my family in Argentina.

Let me explain why that is not a good idea. I have a few reasons. So no one up here will help me in my overt life. The world will help me in the covert world. Me talking to you right now is proof they will go to amazing lengths to help me every day. However in the overt world, I am alone. I have been alone most of my life because I have been kept small and my Dad wanted to keep me from the world. Out of sight out of mind. My Dad can control my little brother like a puppet, but he cannot control me. So I am his greatest sin and mistake and he has kept me hidden away as to ignore my existence. If he pretends I do not exist maybe you all will forget that I do exist. And it worked. The world forgot about me.

Two years ago, I escaped the death camp where I was supposed to die. And over the past two years I have figured out the war games and who I am and who my families are. Also, I have figured out the destruction my Dad has created and waged on the world. You all have noticed how people are not as healthy as they used to be right? You all have noticed how people are not as human as they used to be right? That is all by design. My Dad is creating his very own subhuman slave race and you are apart of it. I have been a slave my whole life. And I don’t know about you all, but I never agreed to this.  And I sure as hell did not sign up for this. I bet you did not either. So over the past two years as I have been figuring everything out, I have also figured out how to undo all the damage my Dad has done. And not just my Dad this destruction started during industrialization and world war 2. Over 100 years of destruction by my family and I have figured out how to reverse it in less than two years. While figuring out who I am. I guess we all are lucky I am a genius. Because if I wasn’t I would not have been able to stay alive.

As I said before, I am all alone. I cannot reverse all the destruction of my family alone. My Dad is still keeping me small and sending people to kill me every day. Just like you all try to kill my family in Argentina. I have reached out to my family in Argentina because I need help just like they need help. No one else is willing to help me. I am alive because I have made friends with the Hispanic farmers in Southern La and I have made friends with the mafias in Mexico and the drug cartels there. These people are willing to stand up for me because they face a lot of the same destruction I do. I am queen of the South per my birthrights. And everyone in the south understands how my family has stolen from the south every chance they have gotten. I want to stand up for the south and get them their power back. My power has been robbed my whole life and it has cost me everything. I understand your pain because it is my pain too. I never asked for these birthrights. Just like you all never asked to be a subhuman slave race. We deserve better than this. And I want to get us better. But I am going to need your help.

However, I also understand that you all need my help. So what I propose is we help each other. As I said before I made friends with the Mexican Mafias and the drug cartels down there. They have become a part of my family. We were able to create them the largest distribution network up here they have ever had before. No longer are they fund raising for the Mexican Berlin wall my Dad is planning to build. My Dad intends to cut the south off even more than he already has. However, I view this as unacceptable and have gone through great lengths to stop this from happening.

I understand you all need resources. You need a way out of the situation you are in. And you don’t see a way out. So my Dad has convinced you that destroying and killing my family in Argentina is your only way out. I would like to give you all another way out. Because I need my family in Argentina alive and you all need me. So let’s work together to all get our needs met.

My Mexican friends have started bringing some of their products to Argentina. I need my family to be able to be financially secure and safe so they can take care of themselves. I told them they need to make money and start businesses to help the economy there in Argentina. Drug money is fast money, but if you use it smart you can build a legacy for your family. I would like to offer you all this same opportunity. I believe we all just need a helping hand at times. But my Mexican friends will only be talking to and associating with my family in Argentina. And my family there will not want to work with people who try to kill them. I understand this and cannot argue with them. So if you all want me to help you all, I need you to stop trying to destroy and kill my family. You will only get the opportunity to take part in this business venture if you are apart of my revolution. And the people in my revolution understand how long I have wanted family. And how hard I have fought to find them. I need my family to create security for themselves in Argentina but I also need them to bring me a husband to marry with three children so I can pass on my birthrights to them. I want my husband and children to be Argentinian. The next generation with my birthrights will be one of you all. The south is going to get their power back fully and then some. I have birthrights that make me very powerful in the west, the east, and the south. If you all help me accomplish my goals you will be more than rewarded for generations to come. The people who conquered you all conquered a lot of other people too. So I come bearing not only your power but power from some of the greatest influences in the world. However, I require that my children be good people. We all understand what it is like to be enslaved. We will not enslave others in an effort to get even. We deserve freedom. That means you all and me too. We all deserve freedom. So I would like to get this freedom for all of us. But I need your help. Will you help me make Argentina great again? Because I am one of you all. And you all are one of me. We are family. You are my family. I need you all to stop killing and destroying my family in Argentina so they can help me. They need to raise money to bring me a husband and we need to start a family farm up here in Oregon so I can reverse the destruction of my families. Also I need to teach my children about what I know and what living like I have lived has taught me. I was born to the greatest evils of the world and when they found out I had humanity they have tried to kill me for over 3 decades. I have acquired a lot of wisdom from being around great evils. But this wisdom will die with me if I do not have children to pass it onto. I need your help finding a man to marry who has three grown boys who understand what they are signing up for. I may want to have a baby and #4 later in life. But right now it is not safe. I have always wanted a little girl. But my Dad would kill any baby I try to have right now. He killed my dog last year. She was a black little chihuahua that was 8 pounds and 14 years old. I love little dogs. I think I get this from Argentina because it was my great grandpa Hitler who taught me my love for little dogs. I also have his birthright. I am powerful beyond the power that was stolen from you all. And I acknowledge that you all are my family. See white people have tried to kill me my whole life. It is really hard to call them family. Although I have connected with the Graves side of my family and they too have helped me stay alive. They aren’t as bad as we believe because if they were they wouldn’t have helped me. The decisions that were made generations ago that have brought us to where we are today, were not made by any of us. We all are just having to deal with what we were born into. I didn’t choose any of this. And you didn’t choose any of this. But I guess my real question is what would you choose? If you could rewrite the future what would you choose? Because right now the future looks really dark. But we can change it if we work together.

I need you all to stop killing and destroying my family. I need them. And you need them too. Because they are only going to work with people who support them. Also, they need help finding me a husband with three grown boys to come up to America. You all need to rebuild the economy down there. You need to sell my Mexican friends products and you need to start businesses that are profitable and will support your families for generations to come. You all need to keep your noses clean and be people your children can be proud of. You need to get your children education. China was able to overcome what happened to them after world war two because they have potential. They made their children value education and potential. You all need to create industries filled with potential that make you a world player. You need to create things that other countries want from you. Drugs are not the long term answer. This is an opportunity to find the real long term solution. Which you will find in potential. You need to get your children education. You need to spoil your children in everyway possible when it comes to finding their potential. Potential is the only way out of this mess. I would not be alive if I was not smart and driven by my potential. You need your children to have this trait in them too. Because it will save you all as a country. People will always look to take advantage of you all until they see you have something they want and do not have themselves. You need to establish yourselves as a world player. I am giving you this opportunity because you all are my family and I need you all to work with me to bring power back to the south. The Hispanic people up here have been very willing to work with me and they are not my family. I am hoping you all will be just as willing to work with me. Because I can’t do this alone. I need you all to help me. And that means helping my family in Argentina move my Mexican friends products. You will treat my family fairly because if you don’t my Mexican friends will back up my family there. I want to lead with love. But I will not be held hostage by people who believe love to be a weakness. I was born to the greatest evils of the world and I want to teach you all about love and God. But when people try to take advantage of my goodwill I do tend to lash out. I am human too. I desire revenge, but I desire potential and love and family more. So I would like you all to be my family. I would like to be able to count on you all. I need your help. We are stronger together. And I need you all to rebuild Argentina so the world can see what all you have to offer and that you are amazing and have been overlooked for far too long. This is what I need to do. But I guess the real question is are you willing to do your part to help me achieve my goals? I sure hope so. Argentina, I dream of your beaches and drinking a glass of malbec with an amazing steak almost every night. I have been dreaming of you all on this revolution for almost two years. I knew you all were part of the answers I was looking for. But unless you all help me this will just remain a dream and I will never get to really taste that malbec or that steak. One day I will come visit and I will address you all in person. And I will learn Spanish more. I speak a little but not enough. I want you all to know I love you and you deserve better.

Love Always

Nicole D. Graves

Saturday March 18th 2023 Moon in Aquarius Sun in Pisces Tony from Florida, Toni from New York, and French Canadian Leaders

Good morning everyone. I would like to speak to Tony from Florida, Toni from New York, and the French Canadian leaders. I will give you all a moment to get tuned in.

Good morning everyone, but I suppose its afternoon over there. So I need to talk out some things with you all. I realized you all are connected. I looked at a map of western Europe. No wonder Switzerland is neutral. It’s right dab in the middle of the divide between my Dad’s western Europe and you all’s western Europe. Do you call it southern Europe? I suppose that is what I will call it.

Tony from Florida, so you arent Argentinian. You are French Canadian. I read your family was from Croatia so I wondered how that worked. And when I went to Florida I thought the people were stuck up and acted like fancy southerners. I didn’t understand why they thought they were better than the rest of the southern states. Well now I know. They are French Canadian. So that all makes sense now. It’s still not logical but it makes sense.

So I am still trying to figure out how you, my Dad, and the military got intertwined. I know if you cant beat them join them comes into play. My Dad wasnt smart enough to figure out nlp on his own. But how did he find you? Or did you somehow seek him out? Or did the military find the guy that invented nlp in California and bring you all together? I may never know. But now I understand why you are so smart. And probably why Oprah liked you so much.

Yesterday I learned that the French Canadians control the aerospace and aviation industries. This is probably also how my Dad got so intertwined with the French Canadians. And why there still are aircrafts constantly going over my head. Can you all make these industries stop hunting me? I would appreciate it. In New Mexico they almost killed me. It was intense.

So I guess I brought the three of you all here today because I need your help. There are still people from the north trying to kill me every day. And the people in real estate who are French Canadians never stopped trying to destroy or kill me. I am not sure what needs to be done about this. Also the people from Sheppard motors the car dealership are not playing fair or right. What can be done about these people who are running wild? Because the more of them who run wild the more people use the behavioral inheritance system to believe it’s okay for them to run wild too. Monkey see monkey do you know?

Also how can toni from new York and the Italian mafia there not like my Dad, but somehow Tony from Florida be in cahoots with my Dad often? See the Italian French Canadians in California are with my Dad. Sacramento is the most cult like city I have ever seen. They were up to their necks in cult activities with my Dad. I dont think people could even try to be good people if they tried there. Yet, the French Canadians in Salem are more on the side of the revolution. What’s the divide I am not seeing? Why are people so divided is my biggest question?

Last night I made my decision to choose Exp Realty because it is a virtual brokerage and I wont have to interact with many people. But I’m hoping you all can do what you can to convince the people at exp not to join my Dad’s cult. I am not sure how you do that, but I’m assuming it would be just like when I encourage my #2s to build their armies and reach out to people. When people feel seen and heard they dont go around looking for someone to see and hear them. So if you all can build your armies around me as much as possible I would really appreciate it. And not just in the virtual world of Exp realty, but can you all focus on Eugene/Springfield. Because the more people you have in your armies here the safer I will be.

I have seen a lot of desperate French Canadians in the past couple weeks. Being this smart comes with a lot of burdens. Our c diff infections make us more prone to addiction because our brains crave information and potential. But those cravings can be subdued with drugs and alcohol. My Dad loves to prey on the people in AA and NA because they are addicts and he just needs to get them addicted to cult activities. Did you all know heroin and pain killers feed c diff? I am starting to believe meth does too. Probably cocaine too. So when people give into drugs or cult activities for my Dad they are digging their holes deeper. The French canadians out here need help. They are addicts and no one wants to help them get better. People only want to prey on them. Can you all help these people feel seen and heard, but can you also get them the help they need? A helping hand can make a world of difference sometimes. And these people need to know they matter. Because until they understand they matter we all will be vulnerable because my Dad will make them feel important and seen and heard and destroy them more and grow their c diff infections and turn them into even bigger monsters. Please help your people here so they arent hurting so badly and so they arent the end of us all. They need help. I understand bossing people around is how you all approach most situations and it works pretty well. But I have learned helping people is even more effective. When people know you want better for them they go above and beyond to help you accomplish your goals. So use your fancy brains to do the right thing and show loyalty to the people you expect loyalty from. Loyalty is a two way street. When you give loyalty you get a lot more back.
I suppose that was my bossy side. I really didn’t know what I was going to say to you all today, but that feels like the message my brain intended even though I really had no clue what it was. Does your fancy brain do that too? It leads me places I dont understand till I get there. This revolution is the perfect example. Do you channel and just end up where you are supposed to be? I have no clue who I channel but I think it has something to do with God or dead people. Do you have the ability to reach the other realms too? Or is it just my head injury mixed with my fancy brain? I have so many questions about what other people can do and know. How do you all experience the world? Because I am starting to think I experience the world in different ways across the board.

One more thing, my Dad has been trying to get me to go to the St. Vincent de Paul on hwy 99 for months now. Why? Can you get the people there in your armies? I suppose I am going to adventure there soon because I want to see about this car camping program they have. I am thinking my Dad doesn’t want me to join because I would be exposed to people not chosen to be in my Truman show. But if I can find regular people and they know I am fighting for them to get better I think I have a better chance of them not trying to kill me. I think that’s a fair trade. I make their lives better they make my life better. We will see I suppose.

Thank you for tuning in and your time.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

P.s. mob in new Jersey and Vegas can you help me out with these things too please. I would appreciate it. Thank you.

Sunday March 19th 2023 Moon in Pisces Sun in Pisces It Takes A Village

I did my drive from the cemetery in Springfield to the Walmart in west Eugene. People from the north are signing up to be in my Dad’s cult even after learning and knowing everything. These are people that are new completely. They aren’t fancy in the war games or the mafias. They are regular ordinary people who are trying to hold us all hostage.

I don’t know about you all, but I’m sick and tired of being held back by people trying to earn privilege by destroying me. It gets really old. I have given people over 700 days the opportunity to decide to be good people on their own. I have learned people rarely choose to be good people on their own. It’s sad but we have to meet people where they are.

The farmers in southern La and Roseburg have been able to solve this problem for us with all the other groups. I am hoping and asking for permission from the leaders of the north to allow us to declare war on the people from the north who are holding us all back. The farmers in southern LA and Roseburg have been able to keep the darkside on lockdown for over a year now. These soft people from the north should be easy for them to take care of. So with the permission of the leaders of the north and without any disrespect I would like permission to handle these people as I see fit. I appreciate everything you all have done. But it is less than 2 weeks from the exact two year mark of this revolution. I don’t have time to sit around and wait for people to be good people anymore.

Farmers in southern LA and Roseburg, I need you all to do what you do. This last group of people from the north are holding us all back. Do whatever you need to do to get them to not only drop out of this war against me but show them they need to not join my Dad’s cult. Because it’s not in their best interest. I approve any means necessary. I dont care if you line them up and shoot them all. Whatever needs to be done, I approve.

Danish leaders you all also have great control over your people. I would like to request your help with these last wild cards from the north. Will you help convince them that they need to drop out of this war and not join my Dad’s cult. I also approve any means necessary. Because I have waited two years on top of a lifetime for people to be good people. Sometimes they need motivation. So provide them with motivation in any manner you choose. I approve firing squads and anything else.

To all the ordinary regular people out there sitting this one out and waiting it out with me for the world to choose to be good people, I appreciate you all so much. I am literally fighting a revolution to be one of you all. For a lifetime you all have been taught to police one another. I’m going to allow you to also take part in policing the north and this last group of people wanting to enslave us all. I approve any means necessary, but of course dont get in trouble or get caught. But be vicious. We all have anger inside of us that we need an outlet for. Channel your anger and rage at these people left trying to enslave us all for their own gains. How many times in your life have people tried to hurt you so they could get ahead? It’s countless times for me and you all aren’t much different from me. So this is your chance to get even and help us get better for the world. I appreciate you all being revolutionary. And I look forward to being human and ordinary with you all very soon. Go get em!

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Sunday March 19th 2023 Moon in Pisces Sun in Pisces Jornal Entry

This past week was really hard. I was so high on e poisons this week. The food and water were really poisoned. So much so that I have resorted to just eating crackers. I have given up on my alternate day fasting and have gone back to one meal a day. Because the poisons spike my cortisol so badly I need a way to lower my stress hormones. Eating every day does that. My chest is swelling because my kidneys are failing. My left hand is swollen most of the time from my heart failing. I’m bloated from the gluten I’m eating feeding my c diff infection and making me constipated. But I feel so much better because gluten creates gut bacteria diversity and is feeding my gut bacteria more than I have in many years. After almost a decade of being pretty strictly gluten free I’m realizing that was just a way to make me more subhuman. Everything that is good for us has been turned into a weapon. Meat, dairy, and wheat are some of the best things for our bodies. Yet, they are weapons in the world we live in. I guess I’m lucky that I like experiments and reading medical research. I would have never learned all this stuff without thinking and doing differently. I survived the fall and winter by eating ice cream. Looks like crackers will keep me alive this spring. I just have to focus on staying in a calorie deficit to loose a little weight if I’m going to eat every day. Lowering my fat intake a couple months ago has really helped me come alive again. And stopping eating raw liver has also helped a lot. Because they were poisoning it so much that it was hurting us more than helping us. Haywood has lost so much inflammation since I stopped giving him liver. It’s his favorite food, but I was killing him giving it to him. Comfort kills in this world.

The past week I finally realized my Dad’s cult members will never treat me fairly. They will never see that I’m right and destruction is wrong. It’s basically like me expecting my Dad or Mom or any of the Kudearoffs to treat me fairly. My Dad’s cult members are just an extension of him. I am my Dad’s biggest enemy. I never realized we were enemies until two years ago. I just thought I had really bad luck and bad health.

I have read all kinds of books on cluster b personality disorders. And yet it took me till just this past week to realize I am these people’s arch enemy. My Dad has created a cult of people who hate me because I believe in doing the right thing. I don’t believe in genocide or racism. And so my Dad has created a group of people who look at me as their enemy. He gets everyone that I interact with in the overt world to join this group and his cult. Everyone in my Truman show looks like someone from my past who has destroyed me. However, now I realize no matter how many leaders I convince to help me get better, these people will always hate me. It’s so weird to have your parents and family create a cult that hates you. They literally want to kill me, so they can kill the world. They want to turn the world into their very own subhuman slave race. And I’m the only one standing in their way. The socioeconomics of the people who remain in this group and cult have completely changed. Now they are accepting anyone. But what is hard for me to understand is why are people still signing up? I have shared so much information about how we all need to do better. Yet, people would rather sign up to enslave us all than do better. I dont understand this at all. My whole life my family and everyone that has tried to kill me has tried to get me on board with enslaving others. I never turned. I never could understand enslaving others. I just want to be free. If I enslave others I’m never going to be free because I would be stuck in the same dynamic just on the other end. I want to be free and I want everyone else to be free too. Apparently that is a great sin in the world and family I come from.

I think I may have finally reached all the leaders from the north. Two more weeks till the official 2 year mark, over 700 days, and I finally reached the world. I started out with a blog and good intentions. And here I am journaling on a Sunday evening with the whole world tuned in. There are countless people who have helped me stay alive. And if I was following the rules of the war games and staying within my subgroups I would have been killed. I had to break out of so many rules and traditions to stay alive. And it took me almost two years to reach the world. Two years of people trying to kill me everywhere I go pretty openly and overtly. Countless people I have seen having brain orgasms because they get to partake in destroying me and apparently destroying me is a bigger dopamine hit than destroying the average person. I have learned a lot about humanity and most of it isn’t good. Reaching the world is bittersweet because this is just another new beginning. The fight is not over. And I don’t know if it will ever really be fully over. The best I can do is keep surviving and get married so I have children who are willing to fight this war after I’m gone. I dont know what kind of children would sign up to live this kind of life that is a war. But I know I need to create great resources for them in the overt world so they have as much help as they deserve.

Since you all are listening in we may as well check in and see how things are going. Mafia down in Mexico, how did it go with finding my family in Argentina? Are they safe? Did you get them some products so they can make their lives better? A helping hand is all we need sometimes. We just need people to show us a way out.

Argentina Family, my family from the south, I think you all have lived in a warzone like me. And I am sorry we have had to live like this. But I don’t believe it will end soon. But I do believe it will be better when we work together. I am the way I am because you all are apart of me. You all make me not only rich, but you make me better. How is the hunt for a man for me to marry going? I am putting the world in your hands by letting you all choose my children. Make sure they are strong. I need strong children who understand right and wrong. I need children who have experienced what it’s like to be enslaved so they never do this to anyone else. Please take care of yourselves and be good to each other. And hurry as much as possible. I need you all here with me. I realized this week I’m probably going to be alone in the world until you all brave entering my overt life. I think you all are the only ones who will brave getting involved with me and not try to kill me. I worry people wont buy and sell real estate with me. I said thank you in a class tonight for exp and I could feel the fear of everyone and how they held their breath. I dont know if people will ever see past what I represent. I have enough money to stay afloat for awhile, but I’m not going to make it very long without career success. I will never be able to ferment the world without career success. So maybe you all and your proceeds from moving Mexicans products is a backup plan. Because I am going to have to sell a lot of homes to get a farm and fix this all. I worry about my survival, but I have been surviving a lifetime. I worry most about not being able to fix everything. Because that would mean all this pain and surviving and staying alive has been in vain. I dont want to do the bare minimum. I don’t just want to let everyone know how destroyed they are and not offer a solution and help them overcome it all. So my family in the south, you all are my insurance policy. I would love if we both can be successful in our revolutionary actions and then come together. But I may need you all to save me. Because no one else will. I have tried my whole life to find someone to help me. No one has ever tried to help me. But they all have tried to kill me. I just dont have the heart or energy to do this much longer alone. So I need you all just as much as you all need me. I have always needed someone to be loyal to me. I’m just a human but no one sees me as human. I am larger than life and people see dollar signs when they see me. Because my Dad pays and rewards people to kill me. My family in the south I think you all can relate to this feeling. You all are larger than life. You must be a very powerful family from Argentina. I’m guessing you are the most powerful family from Argentina. Because the birthright I inherited from my grandpa Graves gives me control of the south. So I’m sure you understand what it feels like for people to see money signs when they see you. Because my Dad pays and rewards people for destroying you too. We belong together. Because not many people understand how hurtful this life can be. When I talk to you all my Dad has air traffic fly over me. So I know you all can hear me. I need you all. And I want better for all of us. You all are the family I have been searching for for a lifetime. We are going to make the most of this life and do good with the power we have. Because it’s the only way we get better. We need to know that the children we leave behind will never live like we have. No one should have to live like this. And we know this from experience. Experience is a great teacher. It leads to wisdom which will always trump knowledge. My family from the south please take care of yourselves and hustle hard. I’m going to hustle up here too and do my best. But the world is counting on you all if I’m not able to make things work in real estate. You are the only plan b I have. Being from our family is a lot of pressure and pain. But hopefully we can change that all soon. I dream of our family farm every night before I go to sleep. I hope you all do too. The quantum field connects us all you know. So every night before sleeping think of our farm. This all seems unreal and often unattainable. But the quantum field has kept me alive my whole life. The quantum field is God. God will help us, we just have to help ourselves. I love you all very much. I hope to see you soon. I’m very vulnerable up here alone. But I know you all understand what that feels like. Together we are strong.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Saturday March 18 2023, Moon in Aquarius Sun in Pisces We Reached The Other Leaders in The North—An Intro For Them

Well hello everyone. I got up this morning and went to go get lunch at Walmart. Which just meant going to get crackers. And no one had boughten the crackers since yesterday. Being that yesterday was a Friday that is statically impossible at a Walmart Supercenter unless they poisoned the crackers a lot. People eat poison every day, but they never seem to want to eat the poison I eat. So I am assuming it is pretty bad, even though it still feels like some of the cleanest food I have ever eaten. Anyways, I sat in the parking lot watching people for about three hours. If you don’t believe we are at war and in a trance state and a shared delusion induced by hypnosis, then go to a grocery store parking lot and just sit there and watch people. You will see so many patterns. How many times do people beep their cars? What kinds of cars do different kinds of people have? What kinds of clothes do different groups of people have? How do some people walk and how does that look similar to how other people walk who look like them? You will see life is really just a game of monkey see monkey do with patterns dictating who we are supposed to be. I have spent the past two years watching people, finding the patterns, and waiting for the world to change. It has been a really insightful experience, but it also has been very painful and boring.

Hi my name is Nicole D. Graves. You all know my father but you have never really heard much about me. This is because I outrank my Dad in the war games. I have a lot of the birthrights he pretends to have. I am queen of the West and I have great pull in the East, and I am also queen of the South. I am not sure how you all in the North fit into this puzzle. I have no birthrights that make me your leader directly, but I do believe by the way people from the North have worshipped my Dad for my lifetime that my birthrights give me great pull in the North as well. I was supposed to marry a Danish farmer from Redmond and bring the North more into my family than it already is. But unfortunately my Dad is big into breaking promises with people he works with. And he was unable to brainwash me. See I was created with Asperger’s genius, but I am starting to believe I have something else too. When I see you really smart people from the North with fancy brains, I can see you are missing something. People assume I am missing something because I never knew about the war games and I was never taught to poison people. So it is really hard for me to try to relate to people in my Dad’s cult who are trying to kill and destroy me. Especially since starting this revolution and realizing what is happening. I want so badly to believe I can earn my right to be treated fairly. But after over 700 days of being revolutionary, I now realize they will never treat me right. Sure they may come out of the store with a stress response because they learned that you all are sticking up for me and they are victims of genocide. But whenever people get close to me they try to destroy me for my Dad. My whole life people have tried to destroy and kill me. I never understood why I had such bad health. I tried so hard my whole life and I was more sick than most people. I was always doing things and learning new healthy things. But I could never manifest health. At least until I moved to southern Arizona and stopped talking to everyone I ever knew and lived alone with my two dogs. I was able to cure my cancer naturally there. I did a lot of amazing things there. It was like getting to live for the first time in my life. But I was living in a death camp where everything was designed to kill me. In about 2017, I got loose from my Dad. I broke up with the man who wanted me to marry him so he could kill me and steal my birthrights. And I did not try to date again. And in March 2021, I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona where I was supposed to have died. My Dad celebrated and announced my death before it happened. And over the past two years I have put the puzzle pieces together of my life and the war games which are my birthrights. Granted I don’t know everything. But between what you all know and what I know we have a pretty clear picture of the destruction.

Let’s talk about how you all can hear me. When I was 8 years old I had head surgery and my Dad had a chip inserted into my logical brain. He could not brainwash me and he wanted to know why. When you turn 8 your brainwaves change and if you have not been broken by then, it most likely will not occur. However, I never realized I had a chip in my head until this revolution. My Dad has had me broadcasting my whole life to embarass me and make an example of me for you all. If he would do this to his daughter imagine what he would do to you all. I have been used as a training tool my whole life. Pretty crazy right?

Well, when I was in Southern California last year trying to reach the Hispanic people to let them know about the genocide against them someone gave me the greatest gift I have ever gotten. In Compton California while at the Walmart Supercenter there someone hooked up my radio waves with people’s cars and houses. Instead of just being connected to the people in the war games that my Dad deemed privileged enough to hear me, I finally got access to regular ordinary people. I built this revolution with a blog and by breaking into communication hubs at grocery stores all over the western united states. But especially up and down Interstate 5. It has been a shit show. I have been trying to reach people my whole life. I did not know I was surrounded by my Dad’s cult but I knew people around me had cluster b personality disorders way more than they should have. Statistics and patterns are something I hold dear because they can give you information that you would not have access to otherwise.

I don’t’ know why you all were so hard to reach. Fingers crossed I hope you all are the last leaders in the North I have to reach. By how poisoned they have kept me this week and how much poison is in the air and drugs too, I am guessing you all are quite powerful. I saw people related to my Dad’s wives Brenda Holloway and Kris Uffins and they are some of the backbone of his French Canadian cult members. Yet, they came out of the Walmart today looking stressed and some looked pissed. No one trumps my Dad except their leaders in the north that are French Canadian. I am guessing you all are in Canada above middle America. I don’t know why it took so long to reach you all. But can I say I am so glad to be talking to you all and thank you for tuning in. Your people are still hunting me, but I think it is because most of them have not gotten the news that you are willing to work with me. Is there a way you can get the news to spread faster? I would really appreciate it. See Eugene/Springfield is currently covered in smoke again today. As I sat here and watched the people I got high and the smoke got worse. The past couple days they have been burning things and poisons and drugs. There is E drugs in the air. It is disorienting. I had to take notes on what I wanted to say because yesterday night I tried to talk to you all and they poisoned me so much I couldn’t think straight. So today I took notes and got my computer out and here we are. I am trying to make sense of this all for you all. I don’t know how to sum up my life in a few paragraphs and I certainly do not know how to sum up this revolution in a few paragraphs. But I have written a blog. When I left Arizona I started a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com I have documented my adventure as I like to call it on this blog. I have written everything down so you all can see it. Please have everyone tune in. This is the blog I used to break into the communication hubs at the grocery stores. This way if you all are tuned in you don’t always have to be waiting for me to talk. Sometimes it takes me a few days to get to wifi and upload, but I try to keep up to date as much as possible. It is important that I stay in contact with you all because my Dad has people trying to kill me constantly. But now that I realize everything, my life has been like this pretty much since I can remember. It is just weird now that I know everything more.

Can you get the people outside of city limits to stop burning the poisons and the drugs? I watched it get smokier and smokier today as I sat here watching people. No one can think straight in this kind of environment. And that is the objective of poisoning everyone. If my Dad can weaken people’s kidneys they will be in a stressed anxiety state and fearful. Because your kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. The body is just an equation. Do you see how angry a lot of the people are who follow my Dad? That is because they have fatty liver from being around so many poisons and eating bad foods. The liver represents anger in Chinese medicine. Everything is an equation.

I ramble because I want you to know I am human. I am not like my family. And yet I have the birthrights to stop them from ever having as much control as they pretend they deserve. See I just need to get married to a man with three children. This way I can pass my birthrights onto them. And they will never go back to my family. I currently have my family in Argentina working on finding me this man. And the mafias down in Mexico are helping them create the wealth they need to bring this man to me. I know it sounds outlandish. But this whole revolution is outlandish. My biggest partners in this revolution who have kept me alive are the farmers all up and down the west coast. I found them originally in Southern La and I didn’t understand who I had found. But I was looking for the Hispanic leaders and it seems I found some of them. And from there I found the other farmers up and down interstate 5. I have spent a lot of time in my car because I live in my car. And between working temp jobs intended to keep me small and kill me I took some road trips and found the farmers and got them to be revolutionary with me. Also, before I even took my trip to southern California I found my favorite communication hub in Salem. These people have been amazing to me. They were not able to protect me like the farmers but they have repeatedly gotten me in touch with leaders who have been able to offer me help and protection.

Connecting with the drug cartels and mafias in Mexico was also a pivotal moment in this revolution last year. I was able to redirect their products so they were not being distributed by people who wish to enslave them and build the Mexican Berlin wall. My Dad wants to do to the United States what was done to Germany. He wants to cut us off from the south. Just like Germany was cut off from the East. The Hispanic genocide is the one that is the hardest to deny. We all see the genocides of the world every day. We have just been conditioned not to see them. Ethnic people die younger and have more health problems because of the genocides against them that my Dad created using food. I am an ethnic person. So my Dad created genocides against me. So I drove to southern California and I found the farmers and then I found the mafias and drug cartels in Mexico. They have protected me and helped me and I have helped them. I may not have much power over my overt life, but I have a lot of power in this imaginary game we all play.

Also, I have been able to connect with my family and friends over in the East. See my Mom’s parents are Chinese and Russian. So I have family in the east. Plus, I am #2 on the graves and the kudearoff sides of my family. And I am my Father’s first born so I inherit his older sister’s birthrights too. I literally have Hitler’s birthright. Pretty crazy right. And I have my Grandpa graves birthright too. He is from Argentina and I only got to meet him twice in my life. However, I see now how my Dad’s family on his Mom’s side, aka the Hitler family, has double crossed the people they have married into for power. I don’t know what was promised to the people in Argentina who are my family, but I am pretty certain they did not get what they were promised. And then there are the Kudearoffs who have tried to kill me for over 3 decades. They are also the backbone to my Dad’s cult. I am not too fond of them. I encourage you all to kill them. The world would be a better place without them. However, the people who have married into the Kudearoffs like my uncles and my aunts have helped me on this revolution because I threated to hand them over to the French Canadian leaders they belong to. My whole family and the world have been trying to kill me my whole life. And I am a bit angry about it to say the least. I have been wearing the same pair of clothes for like a month without washing them. Because when I wash my clothes my Dad uses it as an opportunity to try to kill me and poison my clothes. Everything is so upside down. But I have to believe that my efforts to stay alive will be rewarded. Because I am the only one who can save you all. I already have the west, the east, and the south on board. This is why my Dad is using people from the North to hunt me and fight his war for him. You all are the only ones left. It has taken me a little over 700 days to reach the world and undo everything my Dad has taken a lifetime to create. I was designed to be his super solider and help him take over the world. Yet, I am like a science experiment that backfired on him. This is what happens when you genetically modify your children and you don’t understand much about science. If you want your children to be better than you and you want them to respect you, you probably need to earn their respect. Rather than try to beat them into submission in countless ways. A person can only take so much before they fight back. I have a lot of pint up anger. I try really hard to keep it all in check and balance it out by loving. But again it is really hard to be a good person in the world my Dad has created.

I rambled and got off track from my outline of what I was going to talk about. Let me recap a bit.

I need the people to stop burning poison and drugs as soon as possible.

I need the people to stop poisoning me and trying to kill me.

I need clean food and water. Food is the quickest way to kill someone, so this is a priority.

And next on my list I need to tell you all about the story of Teka. See I started this journey with my two dogs, but I only have one left. Teka was my oldest. She was a tiny little girl, a black chihuahua and yorkie mix or something like that. She had tiny little features. She was only 8 pounds. She was our resident senior citizen. Teka came to me when she was 8.5 years old. Haywood my other dog had found her at his doggy daycare. She was inserted into our Truman show because they were loosing control of me. And she was a distraction. She had a crooked deformed ear from an accident where she never got medical attention but they must have wrapped her ear to her head and it healed funny. But she was such a lovebug. When I got her the people at the rescue had been poisoning her food so badly that she could barely walk up stairs because her hips were so bad. She was already missing teeth and so many other things. She smelled like corn from eating cheap dog food her whole life. I love that girl so much. She taught me how to love when you don’t want to. When you want to hate the world, sometimes the most important thing is to remember love. She taught me a different kind of love than Haywood taught me. Haywood taught me the kind of love that is easy and natural. Teka taught me how to not let the world win and steal your heart. I wanted to give up love so badly, but she was so fucking pushy. I was going to love her and I didn’t have a say in it is pretty much what she told me. She was with me through the hardest times of my life. The three of us almost died in Las Vegas and we ran away to southern Arizona. My Dad quickly built the death camp around us. But the dogs helped me heal my cancer in the desert and put my life back together. I got my Arizona real estate license. However, people just kept acting more and more like my family and I didn’t understand. I have not talked to my Dad in the overt world in over two decades. And I rarely speak to my Mom. Anyways, when I started this revolution I threw my babies into the Jeep and a small bag of clothes and box of my journals and I left everything else behind. My babies are what matter the most to me in this life. And in Redmond Oregon last July my Dad had someone kidnap Teka. She had a chip and no one ever called me. She had a dentist appointment scheduled for that weekend. They killed my little girl because they never took her to the dentist and they feed her all the wrong foods. She was 14 years old and my baby and yet the oldest. I promied to look out for her. I told her she had come to live with me and Haywood for her retirement and things were going to be safe and good. I never knew love until I got my dogs. I have never experienced human love or kindness. Yet, it is my job to save the world. If I choose to let that darkness inside me win, we all loose. We all are already loosing. We are dying. But I am a genius and I have had a lot of time on my hands the past couple years, so I have dug deep into learning about science and epigenetics and I have figured out how to fix this whole mess. I am going to ferment the world and the humans and undo what my Dad has done. And I need you all to help me do that.

First I need you all to protect me. My organs have been failing my whole life because of how much everyone poisons me. I need as much help as possible. Every day every one I experience in the overt world tries to kill me. It is honestly exhausting. I don’t want to play this game anymore. If this is what fancy birthrights do to a person, what are you all fighting over.

Second, I need you all to encourage people to do business with me in real estate just like my Dad gets people to try to destroy and kill me and haywood and Teka. Teka is dead because people can be motived to do the unthinkable. So we just have to motivate them to do the right thing. See over the winter I was able to qualify for a program with the Oregon Employment Dept. to get my Oregon real estate license. It was hard to pass the test because of all the poisons and this revolution. But it wasn’t harder than it was in Arizona. So I have fought to have my life in the overt world. And I need you all to fight for my right to be a normal ordinary person. See all I have to do is be a normal ordinary person and get married and buy a farm to ferment the world and I can undo all this mess my family has created. No one else can undo what all my family has done. However, it all starts with real estate. And I need your help.

See I have spent the past two months interviewing real estate brokers to try to find a brokerage to work with that would not destroy me and try to kill me. That did not happen. So I joined Exp last night because it is a virtual brokerage and people cannot poison me virtually. And as a solo agent once I finish my training I will not have to interact with anyone I do not want to. I so badly wanted to believe I could be treated fairly. But people will forever treat me inhumanely until I win this revolution and escape the Truman show my Dad creates for me with his cult member and now your people. I am fighting this revolution to just be a normal ordinary person. I just want to be ordinary and not be destroyed and experience daily attempted murder. It is really hard. Especially because I was never taught about any of this. I don’t know how to poison people like you do. I was supposed to just sit back and take it all. But I think this all is unacceptable and you all deserve better than this just like I do.

Every morning since December I wake up with a swollen left hand. The poisons at night stress my heart so bad that by the morning my heart is failing and my hand is swollen. My kidneys get stressed too by the poisons. I live in my Jeep with Haywood. We are vulnerable to people poisoning us. I don’t know what you all have to do but the people from the east, west, and south have stopped poisoning me. It is mostly white French Canadians now. I have worked my way through the world subgroup by subgroup. I would really like if you all got your people on lockdown like the rest of the world. It is not just for me. It is so I can dig us all out of this mess.

Now I am going to read you all the cliffnotes to the destruction. I started this list on my trip to southern California and it just keeps growing and growing. This is by no means everything, but it is the cliffnotes and some of the highlights. I want you to use this a motivation to protect me and get your people in line. Please do not allow this to overwhelm you and make you freeze in a fear state. I have figured out how to reverse most of this stuff. So what you need to focus on is getting me to a safe place. I need a home so I can be safe from people. I need a place to figure out how we can reverse this all. In theory I understand what needs to happen. But in practice I am not sure how to reverse everything on a worldwide level. But I have the world tuned in and they are all willing to help me. So I just need you all to protect me from your people. So here is the destruction cliffnotes.

What you need to know:

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My Dad has us all surrounded. When you all created the war games and the mafias you created rules within city limits. However, no one created rules outside city limits. My Dad has preyed on these people who were left out and has surrounded us all by turning them into his cult members. My Dad is king to people who live outside city limits. He controls what all comes in and out of cities worldwide by controlling these people outside city limits. We all need to include the people out of city limits in our mafias. Otherwise they will be the end of us all.

18. My Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into.place easier this way. My Dad has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my Dad have the cities surrounded by controlling the people outside city limits, but he controls what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. He doesn’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if he can control what goes in and out of a country.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My Dad had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is he is doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe it is realty. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoying destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my Dad sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them. 

So those are the cliffnotes. Please allow them to motivate you to help protect me so I can create better for us all. Better all starts with me getting a normal ordinary life and selling real estate and getting a home. I have to be safe and secure to figure out our next moves on a worldwide level. We all deserve better than this. And I am the one person who can get it for all of us. I want us all to have better. But it all starts with me getting better and having an ordinary life. I just want to be an ordinary regular person. This imaginary game has almost killed me my whole life. I will try to post this on my blog shortly so you all can have some notes to go over. www.youdeservetoheal.com

I look forward to working with you all to fix the destruction we all face. We deserve better.

Love Always

Nicole D. Graves

Sunday March 19th 2023 Moon in Pisces Sun in Pisces Sunday Church-God Is Not An Option

On Sundays we have Sunday Church because church and state are an important check and balance in our lives to keep us all safe. My Dad has eliminated church because he wishes to be God. No human is God. We all are God like, but no human will ever be God. So on Sundays we talk about how to connect with God because I need you all to know who you are. And God is apart of who you are.

God is not optional. God is the feeling we get when we look up at the stars and the moon and have awe. That awe feeling is God. God created the stars, the planets, the tides, gravity, etc. All of these things are larger than life. No on can choose not to believe in gravity. The moon and tides exist and so does gravity. No one can just opt out of believing in them. However, I do believe that God appears to some of us differently as we need him to. We don’t have to agree on what God is to agree there is a God. So you get to choose your God, but we all need to admit God is real. There are so many things in this world that are larger than life and we have yet to find the words to explain them. These things are connected to God.

God is logical. God is the quantum field where endless possibilities exist. I am alive because I found the quantum field as a child and I found God. No one in my family talked about God. So my relationship with God has been something that I never got to talk about until I moved to Arizona. I noticed there when I talked about God with people they would freak out like they saw a ghost. See I had an imaginary friend when I was little, but my Mom would never tell me about it. I am pretty sure this imaginary friend was God. And I am also pretty sure my Mom used to tell me God was my only friend. See I am logic based and I take a lot of things at face value. My Mom programed me to find God. So I want to program you all to find God and give you the tools you need to do it.

First, you just have to admit and know that God exists. You don’t have to know any details or anything else. You just have to have faith that he exists. I am going to use the pronoun he, but if your God is a woman you can use she. God is an inside job, because he is a part of you. So here you are knowing that God exists and you know there is some kind of order to the universe. We just have to tap into this order to figure out how to use it in our favor. When we understand the equation and the variables we can make it work for us more.

Second, you find the voice of God. God talks to you all the time. And I bet you are thinking he doesn’t talk to me. What are you talking about? Well let me tell you. See your whole lives you have had this little voice inside of you that has told you over and over that you deserve better than this. This is the voice of God. When you listen to the voice of God he will talk more. So you have been hearing him your whole life. He just hasn’t tried talking more because you are not listening and it would fall on deaf ears. When you listen he talks more. Somedays he may even be chatty.

Third, you need to connect to your soul. Your soul will lead you towards God. God is an inside job. I believe God lives in our gut bacteria, but that is just a personal belief. I don’t have the words to explain that belief yet. But I can tell you where your soul is and how to find it. Your soul is a mix of your second and third chakras. This is right below your bellybutton and right in between your ribs at the bottom of where they come together in the middle. Chakras are the energy centers of the body. Your second chakra under your belly button and kind of in the center of your hips is the computer of who you are. This is where you create in your body and this is why your sexual organs are right here. This is the super computer of who you are. But it needs energy to run. Your third chakra is in the middle of your ribs at the bottom where they come together in the middle. This is your life force energy. This is the essence of  of who you are. These two together are your soul and when they are operating together they make talking to God easier. Energy from your third chakra powers the computer of who you are in your second chakra. They also make life easier. But see the thing is that the alkaline poisons steal our soul because they make our core go numb and they create inflammation in our organs. So most people have only felt their soul in fleeting moments. My whole life I always wondered why I could never hold onto the feelings of who I am. It was like I was always slipping out of my own reach. The alkaline poisons are why. So you have had moments where you felt your soul and then it would just slip away. This wasn’t your fault. This was happening by design. People who do not know themselves are easier to control. People who do not know God are easier to control. You are God like and so when you know yourself you will know God. No human is ever going to be God, but you are God like. Your body is a miracle and magic everyday just like the stars and the moon. That awe feeling that we get when we look up at the stars, that feeling is the same feeling I get when I think about the human body and how amazing it is. We are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than we are human cells. This is why my Dad has created systems that war on our microbiomes and change everything about us. When we change the bugs that make up who we are, everything changes and not necessarily for the better.

My life got better when I started working on my microbiome. We are all bugs and we just need to cultivate our good bugs. You are a bug when you use antibacterial soap or hand sanitizer you are killing yourself. Those things do not kill C diff, but they do kill the good bacteria that fights c diff. When you wash your dishes, it is probably best to use gloves so you don’t kill yourself. My Dad has created a world where we look at bacteria as wrong. But yet the solution to all the destruction my Dad and the systems have created is to ferment the world. I cured cancer narturally in Arizona because I learned to ferment everything I could get my hands on. I did science experiment after science experiment until I healed. And honestly I doubt I will ever finish with my science experiments. But it has been two years since I have had the ability to really ferment anything. And yet those bacteria I grew on my kitchen counter are still with me and keeping me alive. When you eat fermented foods it makes your body more acidic which helps you overcome the alkaline poisons. Which makes it easier to feel your soul. And that makes it easier to know God. God is in your body you just have to find him. And I found him through eating ferment foods and not killing my bacteria. You are God like. But are you killing the God inside you so you can be more easily controlled?

My Dad wants everyone to believe he is God and all powerful. But when you know the real God you can’t be controlled with the same false narratives. I thought about it this morning and last night, I think the smart people from the North are missing God and that is the part that I see them as missing. When you know God you know humans. Maybe I am so good at sales because I know God. When you know God you know fairness and you know that you need to treat people right. I literally sold a world on a revolution because I want to do better for us all. Yes, I want better for myself. But I understand I am not different than the rest of you all. We all deserve better. Sure I may have these super fancy birthright in this imaginary game we all play. But those don’t make me a different kind of human. We all are human. And I think the people in the North and all of us get a little too big for our britches sometimes. I suppose I have been talking to the world about being too big for their britches for almost two years now. No human is better or more valuable than another human. Look at me, these birthrights that supposedly make me the most valuable person in this imaginary game we all play have almost killed me my whole life. This is what believing you are superior does to people. It kills you because it steals your humanity. God did not make any of us more valuable than the rest. We are all God’s children. And we all are the same. I understand you all want to believe you are different. And we all are different. But when it comes down to value in God’s eyes we are all the same. No group of humans is better than the rest or more valuable. Look at all the pain and destruction that has come over just the past 100 years of this imaginary game. This has all been in an effort to prove one group is better than the rest. No one is better than the rest. Per wargames rules if someone was better it would be me. And I am telling you all no one is better. I am equal to you. I don’t care what your birthrights are, you and me are equal. God made me and you just the same. If there really was a superior race or group we would have different medical doctors because our bodies would be different. You are not different than me. We all bleed the same.

So your church homework is to connect with your soul and find God. I found him in my Gut bacteria as an adult and the quantum field as a child. So do what you do and find a path to God that works for you. Because we all are God like and you just have to find your soul to connect to God. Listen when he talks and he will talk more.

Love Always

Nicole D. Graves

Saturday March 18 2023, Moon in Aquarius Sun in Pisces We Reached The Other Leaders in The North—An Intro For Them

Well hello everyone. I got up this morning and went to go get lunch at Walmart. Which just meant going to get crackers. And no one had boughten the crackers since yesterday. Being that yesterday was a Friday that is statically impossible at a Walmart Supercenter unless they poisoned the crackers a lot. People eat poison every day, but they never seem to want to eat the poison I eat. So I am assuming it is pretty bad, even though it still feels like some of the cleanest food I have ever eaten. Anyways, I sat in the parking lot watching people for about three hours. If you don’t believe we are at war and in a trance state and a shared delusion induced by hypnosis, then go to a grocery store parking lot and just sit there and watch people. You will see so many patterns. How many times do people beep their cars? What kinds of cars do different kinds of people have? What kinds of clothes do different groups of people have? How do some people walk and how does that look similar to how other people walk who look like them? You will see life is really just a game of monkey see monkey do with patterns dictating who we are supposed to be. I have spent the past two years watching people, finding the patterns, and waiting for the world to change. It has been a really insightful experience, but it also has been very painful and boring.

Hi my name is Nicole D. Graves. You all know my father but you have never really heard much about me. This is because I outrank my Dad in the war games. I have a lot of the birthrights he pretends to have. I am queen of the West and I have great pull in the East, and I am also queen of the South. I am not sure how you all in the North fit into this puzzle. I have no birthrights that make me your leader directly, but I do believe by the way people from the North have worshipped my Dad for my lifetime that my birthrights give me great pull in the North as well. I was supposed to marry a Danish farmer from Redmond and bring the North more into my family than it already is. But unfortunately my Dad is big into breaking promises with people he works with. And he was unable to brainwash me. See I was created with Asperger’s genius, but I am starting to believe I have something else too. When I see you really smart people from the North with fancy brains, I can see you are missing something. People assume I am missing something because I never knew about the war games and I was never taught to poison people. So it is really hard for me to try to relate to people in my Dad’s cult who are trying to kill and destroy me. Especially since starting this revolution and realizing what is happening. I want so badly to believe I can earn my right to be treated fairly. But after over 700 days of being revolutionary, I now realize they will never treat me right. Sure they may come out of the store with a stress response because they learned that you all are sticking up for me and they are victims of genocide. But whenever people get close to me they try to destroy me for my Dad. My whole life people have tried to destroy and kill me. I never understood why I had such bad health. I tried so hard my whole life and I was more sick than most people. I was always doing things and learning new healthy things. But I could never manifest health. At least until I moved to southern Arizona and stopped talking to everyone I ever knew and lived alone with my two dogs. I was able to cure my cancer naturally there. I did a lot of amazing things there. It was like getting to live for the first time in my life. But I was living in a death camp where everything was designed to kill me. In about 2017, I got loose from my Dad. I broke up with the man who wanted me to marry him so he could kill me and steal my birthrights. And I did not try to date again. And in March 2021, I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona where I was supposed to have died. My Dad celebrated and announced my death before it happened. And over the past two years I have put the puzzle pieces together of my life and the war games which are my birthrights. Granted I don’t know everything. But between what you all know and what I know we have a pretty clear picture of the destruction.

Let’s talk about how you all can hear me. When I was 8 years old I had head surgery and my Dad had a chip inserted into my logical brain. He could not brainwash me and he wanted to know why. When you turn 8 your brainwaves change and if you have not been broken by then, it most likely will not occur. However, I never realized I had a chip in my head until this revolution. My Dad has had me broadcasting my whole life to embarass me and make an example of me for you all. If he would do this to his daughter imagine what he would do to you all. I have been used as a training tool my whole life. Pretty crazy right?

Well, when I was in Southern California last year trying to reach the Hispanic people to let them know about the genocide against them someone gave me the greatest gift I have ever gotten. In Compton California while at the Walmart Supercenter there someone hooked up my radio waves with people’s cars and houses. Instead of just being connected to the people in the war games that my Dad deemed privileged enough to hear me, I finally got access to regular ordinary people. I built this revolution with a blog and by breaking into communication hubs at grocery stores all over the western united states. But especially up and down Interstate 5. It has been a shit show. I have been trying to reach people my whole life. I did not know I was surrounded by my Dad’s cult but I knew people around me had cluster b personality disorders way more than they should have. Statistics and patterns are something I hold dear because they can give you information that you would not have access to otherwise.

I don’t’ know why you all were so hard to reach. Fingers crossed I hope you all are the last leaders in the North I have to reach. By how poisoned they have kept me this week and how much poison is in the air and drugs too, I am guessing you all are quite powerful. I saw people related to my Dad’s wives Brenda Holloway and Kris Uffins and they are some of the backbone of his French Canadian cult members. Yet, they came out of the Walmart today looking stressed and some looked pissed. No one trumps my Dad except their leaders in the north that are French Canadian. I am guessing you all are in Canada above middle America. I don’t know why it took so long to reach you all. But can I say I am so glad to be talking to you all and thank you for tuning in. Your people are still hunting me, but I think it is because most of them have not gotten the news that you are willing to work with me. Is there a way you can get the news to spread faster? I would really appreciate it. See Eugene/Springfield is currently covered in smoke again today. As I sat here and watched the people I got high and the smoke got worse. The past couple days they have been burning things and poisons and drugs. There is E drugs in the air. It is disorienting. I had to take notes on what I wanted to say because yesterday night I tried to talk to you all and they poisoned me so much I couldn’t think straight. So today I took notes and got my computer out and here we are. I am trying to make sense of this all for you all. I don’t know how to sum up my life in a few paragraphs and I certainly do not know how to sum up this revolution in a few paragraphs. But I have written a blog. When I left Arizona I started a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com I have documented my adventure as I like to call it on this blog. I have written everything down so you all can see it. Please have everyone tune in. This is the blog I used to break into the communication hubs at the grocery stores. This way if you all are tuned in you don’t always have to be waiting for me to talk. Sometimes it takes me a few days to get to wifi and upload, but I try to keep up to date as much as possible. It is important that I stay in contact with you all because my Dad has people trying to kill me constantly. But now that I realize everything, my life has been like this pretty much since I can remember. It is just weird now that I know everything more.

Can you get the people outside of city limits to stop burning the poisons and the drugs? I watched it get smokier and smokier today as I sat here watching people. No one can think straight in this kind of environment. And that is the objective of poisoning everyone. If my Dad can weaken people’s kidneys they will be in a stressed anxiety state and fearful. Because your kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. The body is just an equation. Do you see how angry a lot of the people are who follow my Dad? That is because they have fatty liver from being around so many poisons and eating bad foods. The liver represents anger in Chinese medicine. Everything is an equation.

I ramble because I want you to know I am human. I am not like my family. And yet I have the birthrights to stop them from ever having as much control as they pretend they deserve. See I just need to get married to a man with three children. This way I can pass my birthrights onto them. And they will never go back to my family. I currently have my family in Argentina working on finding me this man. And the mafias down in Mexico are helping them create the wealth they need to bring this man to me. I know it sounds outlandish. But this whole revolution is outlandish. My biggest partners in this revolution who have kept me alive are the farmers all up and down the west coast. I found them originally in Southern La and I didn’t understand who I had found. But I was looking for the Hispanic leaders and it seems I found some of them. And from there I found the other farmers up and down interstate 5. I have spent a lot of time in my car because I live in my car. And between working temp jobs intended to keep me small and kill me I took some road trips and found the farmers and got them to be revolutionary with me. Also, before I even took my trip to southern California I found my favorite communication hub in Salem. These people have been amazing to me. They were not able to protect me like the farmers but they have repeatedly gotten me in touch with leaders who have been able to offer me help and protection.

Connecting with the drug cartels and mafias in Mexico was also a pivotal moment in this revolution last year. I was able to redirect their products so they were not being distributed by people who wish to enslave them and build the Mexican Berlin wall. My Dad wants to do to the United States what was done to Germany. He wants to cut us off from the south. Just like Germany was cut off from the East. The Hispanic genocide is the one that is the hardest to deny. We all see the genocides of the world every day. We have just been conditioned not to see them. Ethnic people die younger and have more health problems because of the genocides against them that my Dad created using food. I am an ethnic person. So my Dad created genocides against me. So I drove to southern California and I found the farmers and then I found the mafias and drug cartels in Mexico. They have protected me and helped me and I have helped them. I may not have much power over my overt life, but I have a lot of power in this imaginary game we all play.

Also, I have been able to connect with my family and friends over in the East. See my Mom’s parents are Chinese and Russian. So I have family in the east. Plus, I am #2 on the graves and the kudearoff sides of my family. And I am my Father’s first born so I inherit his older sister’s birthrights too. I literally have Hitler’s birthright. Pretty crazy right. And I have my Grandpa graves birthright too. He is from Argentina and I only got to meet him twice in my life. However, I see now how my Dad’s family on his Mom’s side, aka the Hitler family, has double crossed the people they have married into for power. I don’t know what was promised to the people in Argentina who are my family, but I am pretty certain they did not get what they were promised. And then there are the Kudearoffs who have tried to kill me for over 3 decades. They are also the backbone to my Dad’s cult. I am not too fond of them. I encourage you all to kill them. The world would be a better place without them. However, the people who have married into the Kudearoffs like my uncles and my aunts have helped me on this revolution because I threated to hand them over to the French Canadian leaders they belong to. My whole family and the world have been trying to kill me my whole life. And I am a bit angry about it to say the least. I have been wearing the same pair of clothes for like a month without washing them. Because when I wash my clothes my Dad uses it as an opportunity to try to kill me and poison my clothes. Everything is so upside down. But I have to believe that my efforts to stay alive will be rewarded. Because I am the only one who can save you all. I already have the west, the east, and the south on board. This is why my Dad is using people from the North to hunt me and fight his war for him. You all are the only ones left. It has taken me a little over 700 days to reach the world and undo everything my Dad has taken a lifetime to create. I was designed to be his super solider and help him take over the world. Yet, I am like a science experiment that backfired on him. This is what happens when you genetically modify your children and you don’t understand much about science. If you want your children to be better than you and you want them to respect you, you probably need to earn their respect. Rather than try to beat them into submission in countless ways. A person can only take so much before they fight back. I have a lot of pint up anger. I try really hard to keep it all in check and balance it out by loving. But again it is really hard to be a good person in the world my Dad has created.

I rambled and got off track from my outline of what I was going to talk about. Let me recap a bit.

I need the people to stop burning poison and drugs as soon as possible.

I need the people to stop poisoning me and trying to kill me.

I need clean food and water. Food is the quickest way to kill someone, so this is a priority.

And next on my list I need to tell you all about the story of Teka. See I started this journey with my two dogs, but I only have one left. Teka was my oldest. She was a tiny little girl, a black chihuahua and yorkie mix or something like that. She had tiny little features. She was only 8 pounds. She was our resident senior citizen. Teka came to me when she was 8.5 years old. Haywood my other dog had found her at his doggy daycare. She was inserted into our Truman show because they were loosing control of me. And she was a distraction. She had a crooked deformed ear from an accident where she never got medical attention but they must have wrapped her ear to her head and it healed funny. But she was such a lovebug. When I got her the people at the rescue had been poisoning her food so badly that she could barely walk up stairs because her hips were so bad. She was already missing teeth and so many other things. She smelled like corn from eating cheap dog food her whole life. I love that girl so much. She taught me how to love when you don’t want to. When you want to hate the world, sometimes the most important thing is to remember love. She taught me a different kind of love than Haywood taught me. Haywood taught me the kind of love that is easy and natural. Teka taught me how to not let the world win and steal your heart. I wanted to give up love so badly, but she was so fucking pushy. I was going to love her and I didn’t have a say in it is pretty much what she told me. She was with me through the hardest times of my life. The three of us almost died in Las Vegas and we ran away to southern Arizona. My Dad quickly built the death camp around us. But the dogs helped me heal my cancer in the desert and put my life back together. I got my Arizona real estate license. However, people just kept acting more and more like my family and I didn’t understand. I have not talked to my Dad in the overt world in over two decades. And I rarely speak to my Mom. Anyways, when I started this revolution I threw my babies into the Jeep and a small bag of clothes and box of my journals and I left everything else behind. My babies are what matter the most to me in this life. And in Redmond Oregon last July my Dad had someone kidnap Teka. She had a chip and no one ever called me. She had a dentist appointment scheduled for that weekend. They killed my little girl because they never took her to the dentist and they feed her all the wrong foods. She was 14 years old and my baby and yet the oldest. I promied to look out for her. I told her she had come to live with me and Haywood for her retirement and things were going to be safe and good. I never knew love until I got my dogs. I have never experienced human love or kindness. Yet, it is my job to save the world. If I choose to let that darkness inside me win, we all loose. We all are already loosing. We are dying. But I am a genius and I have had a lot of time on my hands the past couple years, so I have dug deep into learning about science and epigenetics and I have figured out how to fix this whole mess. I am going to ferment the world and the humans and undo what my Dad has done. And I need you all to help me do that.

First I need you all to protect me. My organs have been failing my whole life because of how much everyone poisons me. I need as much help as possible. Every day every one I experience in the overt world tries to kill me. It is honestly exhausting. I don’t want to play this game anymore. If this is what fancy birthrights do to a person, what are you all fighting over.

Second, I need you all to encourage people to do business with me in real estate just like my Dad gets people to try to destroy and kill me and haywood and Teka. Teka is dead because people can be motived to do the unthinkable. So we just have to motivate them to do the right thing. See over the winter I was able to qualify for a program with the Oregon Employment Dept. to get my Oregon real estate license. It was hard to pass the test because of all the poisons and this revolution. But it wasn’t harder than it was in Arizona. So I have fought to have my life in the overt world. And I need you all to fight for my right to be a normal ordinary person. See all I have to do is be a normal ordinary person and get married and buy a farm to ferment the world and I can undo all this mess my family has created. No one else can undo what all my family has done. However, it all starts with real estate. And I need your help.

See I have spent the past two months interviewing real estate brokers to try to find a brokerage to work with that would not destroy me and try to kill me. That did not happen. So I joined Exp last night because it is a virtual brokerage and people cannot poison me virtually. And as a solo agent once I finish my training I will not have to interact with anyone I do not want to. I so badly wanted to believe I could be treated fairly. But people will forever treat me inhumanely until I win this revolution and escape the Truman show my Dad creates for me with his cult member and now your people. I am fighting this revolution to just be a normal ordinary person. I just want to be ordinary and not be destroyed and experience daily attempted murder. It is really hard. Especially because I was never taught about any of this. I don’t know how to poison people like you do. I was supposed to just sit back and take it all. But I think this all is unacceptable and you all deserve better than this just like I do.

Every morning since December I wake up with a swollen left hand. The poisons at night stress my heart so bad that by the morning my heart is failing and my hand is swollen. My kidneys get stressed too by the poisons. I live in my Jeep with Haywood. We are vulnerable to people poisoning us. I don’t know what you all have to do but the people from the east, west, and south have stopped poisoning me. It is mostly white French Canadians now. I have worked my way through the world subgroup by subgroup. I would really like if you all got your people on lockdown like the rest of the world. It is not just for me. It is so I can dig us all out of this mess.

Now I am going to read you all the cliffnotes to the destruction. I started this list on my trip to southern California and it just keeps growing and growing. This is by no means everything, but it is the cliffnotes and some of the highlights. I want you to use this a motivation to protect me and get your people in line. Please do not allow this to overwhelm you and make you freeze in a fear state. I have figured out how to reverse most of this stuff. So what you need to focus on is getting me to a safe place. I need a home so I can be safe from people. I need a place to figure out how we can reverse this all. In theory I understand what needs to happen. But in practice I am not sure how to reverse everything on a worldwide level. But I have the world tuned in and they are all willing to help me. So I just need you all to protect me from your people. So here is the destruction cliffnotes.

What you need to know:

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. Plus, I inherit my Mom and Dads birthrights. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 66 this summer.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast me worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing. And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My Dad covertly started world war 3 in about 1978. He and my family plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My Dad has us all surrounded. When you all created the war games and the mafias you created rules within city limits. However, no one created rules outside city limits. My Dad has preyed on these people who were left out and has surrounded us all by turning them into his cult members. My Dad is king to people who live outside city limits. He controls what all comes in and out of cities worldwide by controlling these people outside city limits. We all need to include the people out of city limits in our mafias. Otherwise they will be the end of us all.

18. My Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into.place easier this way. My Dad has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my Dad have the cities surrounded by controlling the people outside city limits, but he controls what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. He doesn’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if he can control what goes in and out of a country.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My Dad had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is he is doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe it is realty. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoying destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my Dad sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them. 

So those are the cliffnotes. Please allow them to motivate you to help protect me so I can create better for us all. Better all starts with me getting a normal ordinary life and selling real estate and getting a home. I have to be safe and secure to figure out our next moves on a worldwide level. We all deserve better than this. And I am the one person who can get it for all of us. I want us all to have better. But it all starts with me getting better and having an ordinary life. I just want to be an ordinary regular person. This imaginary game has almost killed me my whole life. I will try to post this on my blog shortly so you all can have some notes to go over. www.youdeservetoheal.com

I look forward to working with you all to fix the destruction we all face. We deserve better.

Love Always

Nicole D. Graves

Saturday March 18th 2023 Moon in Aquarius Sun in Pisces Tony from Florida, Toni from New York, and French Canadian Leaders

Good morning everyone. I would like to speak to Tony from Florida, Toni from New York, and the French Canadian leaders. I will give you all a moment to get tuned in.

Good morning everyone, but I suppose its afternoon over there. So I need to talk out some things with you all. I realized you all are connected. I looked at a map of western Europe. No wonder Switzerland is neutral. It’s right dab in the middle of the divide between my Dad’s western Europe and you all’s western Europe. Do you call it southern Europe? I suppose that is what I will call it.

Tony from Florida, so you arent Argentinian. You are French Canadian. I read your family was from Croatia so I wondered how that worked. And when I went to Florida I thought the people were stuck up and acted like fancy southerners. I didn’t understand why they thought they were better than the rest of the southern states. Well now I know. They are French Canadian. So that all makes sense now. It’s still not logical but it makes sense.

So I am still trying to figure out how you, my Dad, and the military got intertwined. I know if you cant beat them join them comes into play. My Dad wasnt smart enough to figure out nlp on his own. But how did he find you? Or did you somehow seek him out? Or did the military find the guy that invented nlp in California and bring you all together? I may never know. But now I understand why you are so smart. And probably why Oprah liked you so much.

Yesterday I learned that the French Canadians control the aerospace and aviation industries. This is probably also how my Dad got so intertwined with the French Canadians. And why there still are aircrafts constantly going over my head. Can you all make these industries stop hunting me? I would appreciate it. In New Mexico they almost killed me. It was intense.

So I guess I brought the three of you all here today because I need your help. There are still people from the north trying to kill me every day. And the people in real estate who are French Canadians never stopped trying to destroy or kill me. I am not sure what needs to be done about this. Also the people from Sheppard motors the car dealership are not playing fair or right. What can be done about these people who are running wild? Because the more of them who run wild the more people use the behavioral inheritance system to believe it’s okay for them to run wild too. Monkey see monkey do you know?

Also how can toni from new York and the Italian mafia there not like my Dad, but somehow Tony from Florida be in cahoots with my Dad often? See the Italian French Canadians in California are with my Dad. Sacramento is the most cult like city I have ever seen. They were up to their necks in cult activities with my Dad. I dont think people could even try to be good people if they tried there. Yet, the French Canadians in Salem are more on the side of the revolution. What’s the divide I am not seeing? Why are people so divided is my biggest question?

Last night I made my decision to choose Exp Realty because it is a virtual brokerage and I wont have to interact with many people. But I’m hoping you all can do what you can to convince the people at exp not to join my Dad’s cult. I am not sure how you do that, but I’m assuming it would be just like when I encourage my #2s to build their armies and reach out to people. When people feel seen and heard they dont go around looking for someone to see and hear them. So if you all can build your armies around me as much as possible I would really appreciate it. And not just in the virtual world of Exp realty, but can you all focus on Eugene/Springfield. Because the more people you have in your armies here the safer I will be.

I have seen a lot of desperate French Canadians in the past couple weeks. Being this smart comes with a lot of burdens. Our c diff infections make us more prone to addiction because our brains crave information and potential. But those cravings can be subdued with drugs and alcohol. My Dad loves to prey on the people in AA and NA because they are addicts and he just needs to get them addicted to cult activities. Did you all know heroin and pain killers feed c diff? I am starting to believe meth does too. Probably cocaine too. So when people give into drugs or cult activities for my Dad they are digging their holes deeper. The French canadians out here need help. They are addicts and no one wants to help them get better. People only want to prey on them. Can you all help these people feel seen and heard, but can you also get them the help they need? A helping hand can make a world of difference sometimes. And these people need to know they matter. Because until they understand they matter we all will be vulnerable because my Dad will make them feel important and seen and heard and destroy them more and grow their c diff infections and turn them into even bigger monsters. Please help your people here so they arent hurting so badly and so they arent the end of us all. They need help. I understand bossing people around is how you all approach most situations and it works pretty well. But I have learned helping people is even more effective. When people know you want better for them they go above and beyond to help you accomplish your goals. So use your fancy brains to do the right thing and show loyalty to the people you expect loyalty from. Loyalty is a two way street. When you give loyalty you get a lot more back.
I suppose that was my bossy side. I really didn’t know what I was going to say to you all today, but that feels like the message my brain intended even though I really had no clue what it was. Does your fancy brain do that too? It leads me places I dont understand till I get there. This revolution is the perfect example. Do you channel and just end up where you are supposed to be? I have no clue who I channel but I think it has something to do with God or dead people. Do you have the ability to reach the other realms too? Or is it just my head injury mixed with my fancy brain? I have so many questions about what other people can do and know. How do you all experience the world? Because I am starting to think I experience the world in different ways across the board.

One more thing, my Dad has been trying to get me to go to the St. Vincent de Paul on hwy 99 for months now. Why? Can you get the people there in your armies? I suppose I am going to adventure there soon because I want to see about this car camping program they have. I am thinking my Dad doesn’t want me to join because I would be exposed to people not chosen to be in my Truman show. But if I can find regular people and they know I am fighting for them to get better I think I have a better chance of them not trying to kill me. I think that’s a fair trade. I make their lives better they make my life better. We will see I suppose.

Thank you for tuning in and your time.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

P.s. mob in new Jersey and Vegas can you help me out with these things too please. I would appreciate it. Thank you.

Friday March 17th 2023 Moon in Aquarius Sun in Pisces Help With My Car

Leaders, I need help with my Jeep. David Mortlock the fixer at Sheppard Motors is incredibly spun out on my Dad’s cult. He literally is high like a drug addict. Ian Caldwell is also involved. I need to know I can trust the people at Sheppard motors to do good quality work to fix what they damaged. And I’m hoping you all can help me get a better deal. They still want me to pay a really large amount for the repairs. They broke my Jeep and want me to pay them to fix it while not admitting guilt or fault at all. I would not only like all their knee caps broken but I would like them to come back to reality.

Now I realize my Dad creates a special delusion for his cult members. He tells them they are greater than and untouchable. He tells them we all are their toys to destroy and play with. He tells them we should be grateful for their presence and destruction. They all walk around with an overwhelming arrogance because my Dad creates this arrogance in them by designing their shared delusion to instill it in them.

Please can we chop his cult members down to size? Also can I have help with the people at the Oregon employment department too? They have bought in quite heavily to this opportunity to work with my Dad. Philip and Gretchen are quite interesting to experience. It’s funny how someone my Dad’s cult has destroyed for a lifetime can sign up to destroy others and start to believe they are superior.

Also in real estate I am meeting with Korrina a principal broker from Exp on Sunday. Her team of realtors do not share genes or epigenetics of people who have destroyed me in my life. We shouldn’t judge people by their family and genes, but I think it’s a safe bet to keep most people related to the people who have destroyed us at arms distance. Allow people to prove who they are. It’s only fair. Shoot I suppose in this world we should keep everyone at arms distance until they prove who they are. Anyways, I would like you all to reach out to Korrina and convince her it’s not a good idea to destroy me. I have learned the arm’s distance lesson again in the past two months. But even from an arms distance people can try to destroy you. So please help me be treated fairly.

Those are the only 3 places I am interacting with the overt world. But I need help with all of them. Pretty much everyone who comes in contact with me in the overt world is in my Dad’s cult or aspires to be and needs their knee caps broken to bring them back down to size and reality.

Does my Dad have his cult members do something special on their phones? Because it does put them in a trance state. I see them on social media and you tube and they are addicted and sucked in just like toddlers to their favorite cartoon. I used to watch Matthew Hatch as a kid and cartoons and chicken nuggets were like crack to him. And he often had them together. So we all have been conditioned to be like this from birth pretty much. I wasn’t allowed to watch much TV as a young child. But I remember it did feel like crack. I loved it and threw fits over it. Alf was one of my favorite shows that I was allowed to watch. One time my mom had cleaned the carpets and moved all the furniture into the kitchen and off the carpet. I threw such a fit she hooked the TV up for me in the kitchen so I could watch Alf. My mom never really gave into me much. But I was still only about 4 so she hadn’t been turned into a cult member completely yet. I remember when the Kudearoffs were them. I remember what they were like before they became my Dad’s cult members. They used to believe they were powerful in their own right. But my Dad turned them into his Bitches. I miss who they used to be because they used to think for themselves and that is the first step to getting better.

TV is a drug that trains us not to think for ourselves. Music is a drug that trains us to desire romantic love and be addicted to our emotions. Your phone and social media uses the behavioral inheritance systems to get you to copy others and value what they think and how things appear rather than do what you know and believe to be right. The people out in public in my Dad’s cult are there to get you to believe everything is okay. My Dad makes his cult members into a subhuman species so he can control them. This means they have gut disbiosis and their gut bacteria has been effected. Every time you interact with a cult member it effects your microbiome and thus your epigenetics. The people in my Dad’s cult are killing you. Commercials and ads and seeing people eat or drink on TV or in ads or in person effects your insulin levels, thus gut bacteria and microbiome and thus epigenetics. Traditions and social norms are killing you.

Everything you thought was normal is so very far from normal. Turn your phone on airplane mode, turn the music off, turn the TV off, stop going out in public around people, stop talking to people, etc. You need to spend time alone to break the trance. Exercise even walking and yoga help break the trance. But so does just breathing and being alone. It takes me about 48 hours to come back to reality after someone has tried to sell me the fake delusional world we are all supposed to live in but it took longer when I first started disconnecting from it years ago. So find yourself to find God and the truth. The best thing you can do for anyone is find yourself and God. You deserve to know what is real and live in truth. You deserve better.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Thursday March 16th 2023 Moon in Capricorn Sun in pisces Hispanic people from the North

Who is in charge of the Hispanic people from the north? They are really heavily taking part in fighting this war for my Dad and their own genocide. Can we please reach out to the Hispanic people from the north and especiallytheir leasers. Tell them their lives depend upon them being revolutionary. My Dad is killing them. They probably should stop trying to kill me.

Thank you.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Thursday March 16th 2023 Moon in Capricorn Sun in Pisces Another Group Hunting Me

I have hives all over my body because people have been poisoning me so much. I have not had a night of sleep in almost a week. They keep me up all night with lead poisons and cars and people in the houses near me. Everyone loves to put poison bombs in their trash cans and pretend its trash day everywhere I go. This morning a black man woke me and Haywood up by taping a flyer about white superiority on my window. My hives got worse when I walked Haywood because so many people poisoned us. I want to believe I can eat every day but I know better. Things like this happen when I eat everyday.

And now there is a group of French Canadians gangstalking me who don’t know what is happening. The arent from Washington. They arent the ones with really dark black hair from eastern Seattle. They are more fair and have a lot of morally flexible ethnic friends. My guess is they are from middle American and Canada. But like the middle west of Michigan but east of Washington. How have I not reached these people? How have we not reached these people? How have their leaders not reached these people? Who are their leaders because they walked out of the grocery story with shame. And my water is the most poisonous it has been in a long time. I have toxins floating through my body so much I have hives all over. I’m really frustrated and angry. But first things first. I have something to say to everyone later tonight. But right now I need you all’s help reaching these people left fighting. They have a lot of diesel engines and the look similar to my uncle jeff but they aren’t directly related. I even saw someone with Jasmin Crumps nose. So it’s her relatives. But really it’s just a whole bunch of people who are not kept in the know more than anyone else we have been able to reach. I am guessing my uncle Jeff likes to keep his people in the dark and away from news about what is happening because it makes them easier to control. They also may be related to my uncle Brett’s Dad. I have seen a few people with genes similar to Basil Cramer. So Salem and everyone can you all please help get these fair skinned french canadians and their more flexible ethnic friends in on what is happening. They deserve to know. I deserve for them to stop poisoning me. It may take a week of fasting to heal my hives. But I’m hoping it will be better soon.

Also there is a cloud of smoke and smog over Eugene/Springfield again. People are burning the poisoned firewood. We need to get this to stop immediately. Leaders and farmers who is in charge of these wild cards from the north of middle America? And who do we need to get in touch with to get them to act human and stop fighting this war? Let’s all get this done as soon as possible. I need some clean air really badly.

Thank you everyone. I appreciate you all.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Ps I just saw a boy related to my cousin Shelbis brother Kyle dalton I believe was his last name.

Tuesday March 15th 2023 Moon in Capricorn Sun in Pisces The Real World

So I started thinking last night that maybe the real world looks the same as my Truman show, but the people just act differently. What do you think? I wonder what your lives are like all the time. What does my Dad’s cult look like to you from the outside looking in? Because I am pretty sure they hunt us all.

I went to get a slurpee at my not usual time today. And I got a clean one. However, the ethnic guy from the north working as a cashier tried to get me to let him scan my cup. I use a refill cup because I know letting anyone near my food or drinks just gives them the opportunity to poison me. He wanted to scan my cup because he was mad I got a clean slurpee. He tried to bribe me by saying he would give it to me for 99 cents if I let him scan it. I said no. My Dad’s cult are always shocked when money doesn’t work to control me. I may not have much money or anything in the overt world, but I know how I want to live and that’s what is most important to me.

Last night I did the math about the commission splits for equinox realty. It was the smallest percentage any brokerage has offered me. But they also take care of their agents better than any other brokerage I have met with. It is the perfect spot for people who want to do well but dont want to put much time in to building a business. Especially for people who are new to sales and or real estate. However, I’m not completely new to real estate and I have been in sales for almost 2 decades as an independent contractor. So I like what they have to offer. But after spending 2 months meeting with brokerages I never want to do this again. I want to make a Choice that allows me to grow and make the money I need to farm bacteria.

Even though I could make 15/20k a month after I get going, I know I’m worth more. Because in real estate I can do the work of 2 or 3 or more people. So I wrote an email and asked the owner of we could renegotiate the commission splits when I wow her with my production. I wanted to make sure there was room for me to grow. And I was a bit worried. But today she responded and it was good. She was understanding and open to allowing me room to grow. I always tell you all not to accept less than you are worth. And a lot of times that means being willing to walk away. It’s hard. It’s scary. And it makes you worry about not having enough sometimes. But you got to do it because accepting less than you are worth hurts. It hurts my soul and dampens my spirit. Nothing hurts me the same as knowing I am worth more than the situation I am in. Knowing you are better than your current situation is how you get motivated to change. But accepting less is just going to make you feel like you deserve less.

So I practiced what I preach and it went really well. It has taken me over 2 years to find a new brokerage since I quit the brokerage in southern Arizona because my Dad’s cult members were harassing me there. This week is the end to a very long chapter in my life and I am so grateful it is over. The next phase will be just doing the thing. I have been waiting over two years just to do the thing. I am really excited. But I’m nervous too. But excitement feels the same as anxiety. So maybe I’m just excited.

There is this newer lady who works at the 7-11 I go to. She always starts shaking when she sees me. And of course she poisons my slurpee. I didn’t under what was happening to her until the other day when I had my meeting at Equinox Realty. See the co owner of equinox realty is related to a group or family of French Canadians who have really hurt and abused me. They are related to the certain one in Sacramento and Carla Logan from superior steel. They are a really vicious group of people that have caused me PTSD. I literally had a flashback when I met the co owner of equinox. My cortisol spiked and I was in a fear state with big eyes. My body was preparing for pain when I saw him because he looked like people who had hurt me. I never really paid attention to who people looked like till this revolution. I always treated people as they treated me. But my body literally went into a fight or flight response just because this man looked so much like people who have hurt me so greatly. This is why the new lady at 711 shakes when she sees me. I do look a lot like my Dad and the Kudearoffs. I send her into past memories of hurt. I have more compassion and understanding for this lady than I ever imagined possible now.

I think this is part of why we treat people like the families they are from. We assume just because they look like them they will be like them. Our bodies literally prepare us for pain when we see some genetics. This is programmed into us to protect us. It is darwinism. But it keeps us stuck too. So we all need to work through our trauma. Believe me I have a lifetime of trauma but the stuff that has happened on this revolution is still fresh. With time things always get easier. So maybe we just need to give ourselves some time and work through our pain. Because not everyone in my Dad’s cult looks the same. And just because someone has a family member in his cult doesn’t mean they belong there too. Look at me. I’m my Dad’s daughter and I dont belong to his cult. But I sure give people mini heart attacks. And now that I understand what is happening in their bodies I am going to be more understanding. Because pain is pain. People dont live in fear unless there is a reason. We all need to be more understanding towards each other.

My uncle Jeff Whiddon seems to have more than his fair share of people still fighting this war for my Dad. He is Shelbis father so I suppose I should have understood this more. I may never fully understood who my family is or are. But I don’t believe the people fighting this war understand what they are doing. My #2s will you all.please reach out to the French Canadians who follow my uncle jeff Whiddon. Get them to understand what they are really doing. I would greatly appreciate it.

So I ate again today. This is 4 days in a row. I have not eaten 4 days in a row since January. But I finally realized what is making my organs fail more. I mean if course it’s the poison in the air around me, the people near me always poisoning me, my water is poisoned, and my food is poisoned. But even more than that it’s eating meat every day. See I was a vegetarian most of my adult life. Eating meat is something I started doing to survive in Arizona. However on this revolution I learned how to eat raw beef to stay alive. It has worked wonders for me. But I have healed enough I can eat carbs again. I cant eat meat and carbs everyday. It strains my kidneys. I thought about blue zones where people live the longest. They dont eat meat everyday. I was a vegetarian for almost 20 years and it worked really well for me. It helped me stay alive. So today I just had some crackers to feed my gut bacteria and lower my cortisol. It was wonderful. Now when I eat tomorrow I wont be starving and overeating. Maybe for me my one meal a day is all I need, but I need to skip meat a few days a week. Our gut bacteria make a lot of the vitamins we need. So we just need to feed our gut bacteria and they will take care of us. I’m going to see if I can eat every day and not hurt my kidneys. Because I am happier and healthier since eating carbs. They make me feel better. I just have to stay away from cookies. I love junk food and I can digest it and handle it better than ever before. But it’s not good for my organs. Food is so weird. I have been eating poison my whole life. And I have occasionally gotten clean food on this revolution. It’s been so weird. To actually be able to digest things I never thought was possible is amazing. But it makes me sad because the people I loved poisoned me so much. I literally never knew how you all could eat food like you do. Now I understand my food hasn’t been the same food you all eat. It’s weird.

Today was weird, but good weird. Thank you for letting me ramble. Tomorrow is a new day. And I think tomorrow is the official beginning of a new chapter. Parting is such sweet sorrow.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Tuesday March 14th 2023 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Pisces A Message To My #2s And A Message To Everyone

Hello everyone, I need to speak with my #2s and then I have a message for everyone. I will give you all a moment to get tuned in.

Hello my #2s. Hope you are having a great night. So I pondered on it a bit and I would like you all to change gears into phase 2 as well.

You all are #2s just like me. In phase 1 we connected with people and built our armies. So now in phase 2 we get people to think differently so they do differently. We encourage them to establish themselves in the overt world. Everyone has been conditioned to stay small and accept that as their destiny. No one is born to be small. We all deserve to be ordinary regular people who do extraordinary things. We all are born to be extraordinary. But people have been taught differently and lied to.

I thought about examples from my own life. I too bought into being small. My whole life I thought you got married, bought a house, and had children in that order. But I never got married and I never even thought about buying a house on my own. It literally never even crossed my mind. I always assumed I would do that when I was married. And when A1 asked me if we should buy a house all I could think was no way do i want to be stuck to this man any more than I already am.

We need to encourage people to create freedom and options in their life. And it normally takes creating assets and resources to create freedoms. Money doesn’t buy happiness but it allows for options and freedoms. As long as people are kept small financially they will not have the options they deserve. So we need to help open their minds to getting what they deserve.

You all and me are rich in people. I am proof of you have the right people in your corner you can do anything. You have the right people in your corner, you just have to figure out how to move the chess pieces you have.

Creating wealth is about having more money. It’s not always about making more money, but it is about having more money. Creating wealth is about real estate. Housing is normally one of our biggest expenses. If you turn that expense into an asset your worth and wealth increase. We need to encourage people not only to buy real estate but to be creative about how they purchase real estate. Get three single people together to buy a house and put an extra bathroom in the garage and turn it into a studio apartment and rent it out. Then apply that rent to the principle on the loan the first couple years. Paying extra on a 30 year loan during the first couple years makes exponential differences in the interest you will pay on a home loan. Compound interest is no joke, but you can make it work for you. Maybe you have 2 or 3 small families who want to get together and form an LLC and buy a multifamily property. They can live there and rent some units out. Heck maybe one of them wants to live in an RV on the property and rent out their unit too. We need to get creative about how we build wealth and create assets.

Maybe you have younger people who dont have the means to buy real estate encourage them to find a side hustle that they enjoy. Maybe a couple want to go to garage sales and find things they can flip online. Maybe a couple want to create a food truck and go to festivals. Food is so expensive at events and they would get to go to events and have a good time. Encourage people to get their real estate license. If you can sell or help 3 people buy in a year that is over 10k and you get to write a lot of stuff off on your taxes as a independent contractor. Even part of your rent because you work from home. Taxes are brutal having a side hustle can save you from having to pay the government such a big chunk of change. State taxes are outrageous. I wish we really knew what they did with our money.

My point is we need to think differently to do differently. The traditional ways no longer work because they enslave and destroy us. But we cant get better until we think differently and do differently. You are rich in people just like me. You just have to encourage them to think outside the box and live differently. Maybe you all want to start investing in the real estate market or stock market and meet once a week to talk about what you are learning and doing. Ps. I invested in the stock REAL heavily. We all need to dream and have hope. And when we do things in the overt world to give us hope and faith in those dreams life gets better instantly. We all deserve better. But working 40 hours a week and doing things as we were taught to do them are not going to get us what we deserve. We have to do differently. And that means thinking differently.

Awhile ago I had you all reach out to the mormons. These people have done differently their whole lives. I would suggest listening to what they have to say. When you live differently you can see things other people can’t see. Plus they have amazing sales skills. These people will be very valuable in helping you think differently. But I especially want you to remind them how amazing they are, because I don’t think anyone has ever told them. I suppose most people have never heard how amazing they are. So part of your job is find what is amazing about everyone in your army. Everyone has something special and amazing about them. However we have been so conditioned to not see our individuality that we often cant see these things. So tell people what you see, but be kind and don’t use this as a way to form them into what you need and desire. Accept people for who they are and meet them where they are.

2s you are the backbone of phase 2. Because you all are the ones in direct contact with the people. You are very powerful and influential in this moment. You have the power to help people see what is amazing about them and invest in manifesting the things and freedoms they deserve. Money doesn’t buy happiness but it does buy options.

Also I was researching last night and Adu’s additional dwelling units are allowed on most homes. Creating an additional source of income on your property that already helps you build wealth is something I think more people should consider. With the housing market we need to create more affordable housing. But this also creates an opportunity for us all to build wealth. When people stop valuing destruction over everything, I think people will be willing to be around people more. Right now all we want to do is get away from people because they destroy us. But hopefully it wont be like this for very much longer. We need to make each other better. Alternative housing is a great way to improve the world because traditional ways of living will not get us better.

2s it’s your job to get people to understand tradition is holding us all back. I understand wanting to hold onto comfort. But what if your dreams lie on the other side of giving up that comfort? Every time I have made the jump to live more untraditionally I have been rewarded in all ways in my life. Traditions were literally set up to kill me. If I would have gotten married and had a kid I would be dead. Traditions are enslaving us and killing us. But we dont know how to live differently. So we got to figure it out. And I believe what is right for one person isnt going to work for everyone. I think there will be many different ways to live to create better. Your job is to push people to find those ways. Encourage them and let them encourage you because you have to live better too. Create wealth and work together to do it. Think outside of the box. Because the box is killing us.

I understand this is a big phase 2. But it will payoff. It’s going to take some time. But the sooner we start the sooner we see results. Phase 2 is about everyone getting better and realizing no one was born to be small. Everyone is the guy of something. They just have to figure out what that is. You may be the guy because you are a #2, but you are more than your birthrights. You are the guy of something else too, but you have to figure out what that is. No one was born to just live in this imaginary game we all play. We were born to be real people. We are all born to be extraordinary. Phase 2 is about finding what is extraordinary about ourselves and creating our dreams.

As my grandma Kudearoff would say Chop Chop. Which means like hurry up basically. The sooner you find yourself and break free from traditions the sooner we all live a good life. It’s a big task we have my #2s but we are all in this together. I am doing the same thing as you all and we just work together to get it done and change the world. It may be simple but it’s not easy. Change is hard sometimes, but it’s normally for the best. I love you all thank you for being my #2s. I’m excited to see the world we create.

Okay next I want to talk to everyone. I have been going group by group telling people about removing my Dad’s cult from places of power. But if I keep going like this it will take us forever to get better. So I need everyone to listen up. This applies to you if you are a leader of a mafia, a leader of a company, a CFO, or just a regular human. Everyone is the leader of their own life. You steer the ship for you. However leaders of companies and mafias and countries have a lot more responsibility because they owe us all to think about our best interest. However you owe yourself the duty to think about your own best interest.

People in my Dad’s cult will always break the rules and follow his orders and do what is in their best interest. Whatever power they are given whether in the overt or covert world will be abused. Any person in their lives will be abused. They kill people with a 1000 pieces of glass. They erode people like the tides turn the earth into sand. Sure they create big events that are trauma filled and cause PTSD. But did you know just being around a person with a cluster b personality disorder causes Complex PTSD. It is just like PTSD but it is complex. Which just means it is a 1000 little different things rather than big events.

You know how people in my Dad’s cult get you to question yourself and invalidate your experience and/or feelings. This is abuse. This causes Complex PTSD. You know what you know and you know how you feel. When someone undermines your experience and/or feelings it is like invalidating you as a person. It makes you think well maybe I’m wrong. Maybe my feelings are wrong. Granted humans make mistakes but questioning who you are at your core because someone tried to invalidate you will lead you nowhere good quick.

My Dad’s cult members misuse their power. It doesn’t matter if it’s influence in your life or influence in a company or influence in a mafia. They can always be counted on to steer us towards destruction. If you remove these people from your life in all ways you will have less destruction in your lives. Do you think the Russians really thought up the war they are in without influence from my Dad’s cult? I highly doubt it. Do you think China really thought up Covid on their own? I know they didn’t. My Dad’s cult members will always create destruction wherever they go. They cant help it. They are addicted to destruction. If you were a crackhead would you give your stash to another crackhead to hang onto? When you are around one of my Dad’s cult members you are putting your life in their hands knowing they are addicted to destruction. Playing with fire is how you get burned. People who value destruction above all else are not going to make your life better. Sure they might for a moment at the beginning to get you caught up in their web of destruction. But the phase where they love bomb you and pretend to be a good person never lasts long. About 6 months seems to be the limit and then their true colors come out. So dont get close to anyone too fast and when you see who someone really is whether in the overt world, in the mafia, your business, your industry, your personal life, etc believe what you see. People tell you who they are with their actions. You all know the look people have when they are enjoying your pain right? That is their brain lighting up with feel good chemicals at seeing your pain. Normal people with functional brains when they see a person in pain or distress will feel that pain or distress not joy. Pay attention to who someone is. And yeah you may have to be alone for awhile. You may have to go through the process of hiring someone new. You may have to replace someone in your mafia with someone loyal to the systems. However the energy you expend will always be less than having to undo the destruction of people in my Dad’s cult. Destruction is the only variable that is not negotiable when dealing with these people. When playing with fire you get burned.

Recently I have been being mean to white people and I need to apologize. I’m grieving after realizing I have been destroyed for a lifetime by French Canadians. I have experienced a lot of pain in my life. And I’m not like you all because I was never taught to fight back or to poison people. My whole life I have just had to take the destruction. My parents always told me I had an overactive sense of revenge. I dont have an overactive sense of revenge, I just want to be treated fairly. I believe in justice. Yet, I dont know how to get myself justice. How do I makeup for the French Canadians in my Dad’s cult destroying me and trying to kill me and creating such pain in my life. These people have stolen my life from me just as much as my family. How do I get justice for this? What would you do? I don’t know the answer. And I’m trying to find it while dealing with a lifetime of hurt and pain. It’s really hard. And today I saw people who I dont know if I can trust to treat me fairly. So maybe the French Canadians are still trying to destroy me by sabotaging my real estate career. Statistically it is more probable that they are going to destroy me than actually support me and be good people. I enjoy math and odds and statistics because they are logical and rarely lie. I’m sure you all understand the destruction I face everyday. But I’m always asking myself who do I have to reach to get these people to act right. No one ever does the right thing unless they are ordered to. This revolution has taught me that when people think for themselves they choose destruction. Which is sad. But I figured out why. It’s really logical when you look at it from a science standpoint. I even discovered why my Dad did everything he did and created this covert world war 3. Let me share some facts with you.

When someone poisons Haywood he growls and barks. This is a natural reaction. This is Darwinism at it’s finest and simplest. We all are programmed to survive. However, we changed Darwinism when we started poisoning each other. Normally when an animal experiences any kind of threat to their life or health in the form of another or a predator they do what they have to do to get away or fight this being off. We all are programmed to survive. Haywood barks at people who poison him and growls. He wants them to go away and stop. It’s his natural instincts. My instincts to need and want revenge are natural. They are a form of darwinism. My parents told me I have an overactive sense of revenge because they were trying to convince me that I shouldn’t stand up for myself. They were trying to take the Darwin out of me. And that is what they have done to you all. It just didn’t work with me because they never taught me to poison others.

You all are taught not to fight back in the overt world when someone poisons or destroys you. Instead you poison or destroy them back covertly. This is reverse Darwinism because you are poisoning yourself too. This is not survival of the fittest. It is survival of the weakest. Only weak people poison themselves. Poisoning yourself literally makes you weaker. I have noticed a lot of people are on prescription medications because they poison themselves and others. Poisoning people is your instinct to want to fight back and partake in Darwinism. But you are making yourself weaker in the process. So do you really win? Does anyone really win when we poison each other. Hurt people hurt people.

Look at my Dad. I am sure when he was growing up in Texas and Argentina that he got picked on a lot for being Hitler’s grandson. Can you imagine how many superior white people hated him because of the family he was born into? Even after living my life I think my Dad probably had it worse. So he had an overactive sense of revenge as my parents like to call it. My Dad creating world war 3 has been about his need for Darwinism. But the war games have made Darwinism into Reverse darwinism. My Dad is destroying the world in an effort to survive the life he was dealt. However instead of running away or growling at the people who hurt him and poison him, he is covertly keeping his ground and smiling through clenched teeth while covertly creating world war 3 to get even with everyone. So when you clench your jaw, hold your ground, and poison another you are no different than my Dad. You are creating world war 3. Everyone is just trying to survive and feed their families. Guess my Dad and you all are more alike than you ever imagined. I never went hungry as kid. My parents always overfeed me. Granted it was rarely the food I needed or nutrition I needed. But they fed me.

So how do I get past my anger for the French canadians who have destroyed me in the past without creating world war 4? How do I be loyal to my basic need of darwinism without taking part in reverse darwinism and making myself weaker? How do I deal with the people in real estate who are trying to collect me for my Dad? I dont know their intentions but I know from my life that anyone who tries to collect me for my Dad or what I represent has no good intentions for me. Who the fuck do I need to contact to be treated fairly? Because I see people’s brains lighting up in destructive patterns. They dont feel my pain they enjoy it. Who do I need to contact to make people human because I talked to God and he said he’s doing everything he can. So I guess I talk to you all and ask you all to help me choose my next prison keeper because I dont know if I’m ever going to escape this Truman show I live in. I just want to be a good person and have good lives with you all. But i cant do that while being trapped in this Truman show.

Survival of the weakest is the realty we all live in. Look what it did to my Dad. And look what he did to the world just trying to survive. Please help me escape this Truman show and please stop poisoning people. It’s literally killing you in more ways than you understand.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Monday March 13th 2023 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Pisces Bikers and southern LA farmers

What a day what a day! Last order of business before I try to get some sleep tonight. I have an interview at equinox realty tomorrow so I’m sure they will poison me and keep me up all night. But resting always helps even if sleep isnt involved.

I realized and figured so much out last night. It’s so weird to have this much control and duty and responsibility towards the whole world. Everyone else in my family only thinks about destruction and themselves. Dont get me wrong I want a good life too. But I want us all to have good lives together. We have a world of resources and everything we need to make this happen. We just have to play the chess game right and put the puzzle pieces together in the correct order. It’s really complex and yet simple. But I hope I get to take tomorrow off to work on my life in the overt world. Phase 2 is about establishing everyone in the overt world and that means me too.

Bikers I saw today what amazing lengths you all went to and I am so pleased. To my #2s I know you all did your part too. I appreciate everyone. However the bikers have more than earned their place in my family. And you all have more than earned your access to my Mexican friends products. Of course I would like to establish some rules. No poisoning the drugs. We dont need to hurt or kill people for wanting to get high. We all are human. All the biker gangs or groups have access as long as they are being revolutionary. So I need you all to work together and be fair to each other. I dont know how biker groups or gangs work, but I got Russia and China to work together so I think you all can do it too. Because it’s in our greatest interest. We all deserve better and we get that better quicker when we work together. So be good to each other.

Phase 2 applies to you all too. Until you have a place in the overt world people will always take advantage of you. So you need to use this opportunity to create that place you deserve in the overt world. This means establishing businesses. I don’t care if you open biker bars as long as they make good profits and provide you with a place to wash your dirty money. I would like if you all could open some businesses outside city limits. We all need to create more opportunities for the people outside city limits. I would appreciate that greatly. But figure out what works for you all and do it. Maybe tattoo shops maybe bike repair shops, do what you enjoy and are good at. But just create a place in the overt world for yourselves. Your children will have better lives with this kind of security. Eventually I hope to make the Mexican products icing on the cake for all of us. We all need our places in the overt world we have been overlooked and pushed aside for too long. Until you figure out what your business is going to be consider investing in the stockmarket with your proceeds. This is a great time to invest in the stock market. But the goal of this endeavor is to free yourselves from being put in this subservient position. I am in the same position in the overt world. We deserve better than this. So I’m asking you to think differently and do better. We all deserve better but we have to get it for ourselves.

The farmers in southern LA will connect you with the people who will help you get the Mexican products. Be good to the farmers and always come bearing a gift. They deserve good things too. Treat them well because they represent me and they are my family just like you all are becoming. We all have to do better together. So dream big and manifest those dreams. Okay? You hear me? I want better not only for you but for your children. You are building a legacy. Do good.

Southern LA farmers, I finally realized last night you all are Hispanic and not Argentinians. I dont love you all any less or appreciate you any less because of this. But it made me sad because I thought when I found you all I found a part of myself. And I did but it just wasn’t the part of myself I thought I had found. So I want to thank you all for being so strong. You all are my rock and the guy. I cant really imagine what this revolution would be like if I hadn’t found you all. I’m so grateful to have you all in my life. Before us war games people came to the United states it was mostly you all and the French Canadians. I wonder what that was like. I knew a man in his 90s when I was in Arizona who grew up on the border. He had amazing stories and a fancy brain. One day I want to hear you all’s stories. I am going to have those bbq’s and get togethers. This may be the war games but it’s my regular ordinary life. So we are going to be regular ordinary people who do extraordinary things. Thank you for being larger than life to me and the world. We all appreciate you.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Monday March 13th 2023 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Pisces Leaders of the Ethnic People in The North

Okay everyone I need to speak to the leaders who are in charge of the ethnic people from the north. My food was still poisoned today and it was ethnic day at Walmart. I’m not supposed to be eating today, but I’m human too. I need to talk to the leaders in the north who are in charge of the ethnic people. Because today they are the ones hunting me and fighting this war for my Dad. I will eat my lunch while you all get them tuned in and up to speed. Thank you.

Hello everyone, Thank you for tuning in and for your patience while I finished lunch. Want to know what I had? I shared a pound of 93% ground beef and great value brand ritz crackers with my dog. Also I had a vitamin water slurpee from 711 because the water I get makes my organs fail. I eat this same meal most of my eating days but I cant eat every day like most people because my food is so poisoned if I eat every day my organs fail. Last month I did 14 fasting days. This month I am slacking and have only done 4 fasted days. If I don’t get my ass in gear my organs are going to fail. Do you know what it’s like to deny your basic human needs to just survive? I also do a lot of dry fasting where I don’t even drink water. That is really hard, but the benefits are amazing. I know about these things and how to do these things because of who I am and who my family is. I started eating one meal a day in my late teens or early twenties. I knew I couldn’t eat like other people. I just didn’t understand why. Now that I know it doesn’t make it easier. It just makes me realize most humans dont have to live like this.

I would like to tell you all the story of how I escaped my Dad and Oregon years ago. See there were two ethnic men from the north that helped me escape by trying to enslave me for themselves. One was a black French Canadian man and one was a Korean from Maryland. They had intentions of getting me to breed with them and or marry them. But I did neither with either of them. I had a wedding ceremony with the Korean, but he could never convince me to sign the marriage papers. When we were first together I would spend a lot of time just laying in bed smoking pot and playing on my phone. He would ask me why I didn’t want to go out and do things while he was at work. And I told him I had had a really tough life and the little things really make me happy. I just wanted to relax and read Google and play on my phone. He looked at me with such terror when I said this because he finally was starting to understand what he had gotten himself into.

See my great grandpa Hitler created world war 2. My Dad has already created covert world war 3. And my Dad is going after all ethnic people and groups instead of just the Jewish people. My Dad may not like the Jewish people, but honestly I dont know who he does likes. However, he has created a covert genocide to kill all ethnic people and it’s using food. How long can you go without eating? I have never made it past 21 days without food. Food is something we all need. Human needs are a bitch sometimes because they make us vulnerable when they are used against us. The funny part is I am my fathers daughter and I’m an ethnic person. I was created to help my Dad conquer the east. My Dad himself was born to conquer the south. So here I am a lady with birthrights that give me a lot if not absolutely power over the west, the east, and the south and my Dad is using the ethnic people from the north to hurt me and attempt my murder. Did you all ever consider there was probably a good reason why my Dad was seeking you all out? He normally prefers white people. Or at least French Canadians. Why would he seek you all out? It’s because I have sold the rest of the world on being revolutionary. I am getting better for us all. Even the people in the north have joined us. I am really hoping you all are the last group I have to persuade not to fight for your own genocide. Do you all want to die painfully like the Jewish people in world war 2? Except in the covert world war 3 my Dad has created your body as your concentration camp. You get to experience pain all the time and most people never figure out how to escape. How long can you go without food? How about water? I have to tell you from experience it gets old to have to deny your human needs for a lifetime. It never gets easier. Sure you get used to it but humans can be conditioned to get used to anything. Look at all the people who are serial killers but view themselves as normal ordinary people. Conditioning can do amazing things to a person’s brain and sense of normalcy.

I have a chip in my head. My Dad killed two of his wives. My mom has been held hostage in her own house for over four decades. My brother has been kept small and lived in my old bedroom at my mom’s for over 3 decades of his life. He has never read a full book because he has dyslexia so bad. These are just the things my Dad does to people he says he loves. I am not sure how my Dad treats his enemies because I am his family and I feel like his enemy. My whole life has been stolen from me. And you all are signing up to kill me because I want to save you and I have stood up to my Dad. No one has ever stood up to my Dad. I’m the only one with birthrights that allow me to even try. I have the birthrights my Dad pretends to have. Basically it’s my job to save the world. If any of you want to trade spots I would gladly hand over the keys to my jeep where I live and my credit card debt. You can have my extraordinary birthrights and life if I can have your normal ordinary life. This imaginary game we all play has cost me everything. I dont want to play this game anymore. But you all are signing up to prolong my pain. Can you imagine how frustrating that would be after almost 2 years of creating a revolution after escaping a death camp where you were supposed to die? It’s rough.

So I’m hoping you all can not only just call your people out of this war against me, but you can be grateful that I am fighting for you too. And I would greatly appreciate it if you would do everything in your power to speed this revolution along. I understand you probably didn’t get the memo or news till last minute. But if you can be quick to control your people I would greatly appreciate it. Currently my Dad is poisoning me and the cities of Eugene/Springfield with a poison that not only causes us to be cold. But this poison causes us to live in fear because it causes brain damage. I am sure he uses this poison on you all, but you all have the north to protect you. The people here only have me. I’m trying my hardest and I would appreciate if you would join me in being revolutionary. We all deserve better than this. And that means you deserve better too. I’m fighting this revolution for you too. Thank you.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves.

Monday March 13th 2023 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Pisces It’s Time For Phase Two

Alright everyone they kept me up all night with lead poisons, so I did puzzles and figured out our next moves. I need to talk to the Mexican Drug cartels and mafia in Mexico and I need to talk to my family in Argentina. I realized last night the farmers in southern LA are not Argentinians. They are Hispanics. Which doesn’t make me appreciate them any less. However, it made me realize that my family stole and back stabbed the people from Argentina for generations. Which of course is unacceptable. So let’s bring the world together and overcome the destruction. I will give you all a moment to get everyone tuned in.

Hello my friends in Mexico. Hope you have been well. This week we made amazing progress with creating more people to move your products. We got you into Canada big time this week. Those French Canadians love drugs. So I believe this was a huge win. Plus I was able to connect with the bikers who used to run your products and they are on board with being revolutionary and resuming their work. This should at least double the amount of products you are able to move. You all now have total coverage of north America. I love sales and projects. I think we made good time on this. However you all will always remain vulnerable until you diversify and make some of your financial interest legal. You need some legal businesses and exports. Everyone will always try to back you into a corner and take advantage of you until you create your life in the overt world. Just like me, you all have all this power in the covert world but in the overt world we are both missing our place. Phase 2 is about getting me a life and career in the overt world where I can provide financial security for myself. Phase 2 for you all is the same. You need to create legal businesses to create a place for yourselves in the overt world where you can legally provide for your families. With the recent increase in coverage I just got you all this should not be an issue financially. I believe financially you all are probably better off than when I found you. Which was the goal. We all deserve better. And you all took a really big chance on me. I’m alive because you all gambled on me. I won’t ever forget this. You all are my family. But I’m going to be bossy and mom like and tell you all it’s time to make your place in the legal overt world. Until you do your children will always be vulnerable to not getting their needs met. You need to create security for your children. Try a bunch of different businesses and go with the ones that work. You all have enough capital this shouldn’t be an issue. These businesses need to be profitable but they also will allow you all a place to wash your dirty money. Drug money is fast but you can’t do much with it up here. I’m sure in Mexico you all have found a way to make it work. But I’m also sure that it is probably costly because you have to pay off so many people. So 2023 is about you all establishing yourself in the overt real world just like me. Figure out the businesses and industries that work best for you all and run with them. Creating security is about establishing ourselves in the overt world. We deserve security and we will get it.

Next I need to ask for your help and a favor. I have helped you all make millions of dollars maybe even billions. It’s hard to know, but I need your help. See I need to know my family in Argentina is safe. My grandpa Graves lived in a compound in Argentina because he wasn’t safe. I need to know my family down there is safe. And I need to know they have their needs met. I would like you all to take a trip to Argentina and find my family. I dont know where they live. I dont know their last name. But I know they are in Argentina and they are well know. My grandpa Graves Mom was Argentinian and her name was Amanda. That’s all I really know. When my Dad lived in Argentina as a kid he lived by the beach and ocean but most of the country is by the ocean. I’m guessing my family is in Buenos Aires. Or at least the people there will be able to help you find them. I bet if you go to the restaurants you will find people who know who they are and who I am. Especially if they have Chinese restaurants there. I need to know my family is safe and taken care of. I see now what my family has done to the people in Argentina for decades and generations. And I have to try to fix it. So I’m going to need you all to set them up with products to move down there. They too need to create financial stability for themselves. Your products will allow them to start businesses so I know they will always have their needs and wants met. If you all can make this trip to Argentina this week and as quickly as possible I would greatly appreciate it. They are a world away from me, but they are within your reach. Of course, I need you all to respect them as you all would respect me. They represent me. They are my family. You all understand family. It’s the most important thing in the world right along with loyalty. We all deserve better and that means my family in Argentina deserves better too. I appreciate your help with this personal issue. The war games are my personal life. It’s weird how at the top it all comes together and becomes all consuming. Please find my family and make sure they are okay.

To my family in Argentina, I am sorry I did not understand or see what was happening sooner. I am sorry I didn’t do something sooner. I am walking into this all blind you know. When they poison me and keep me up all night I think about my wildest dreams and then I think about the steps I need to take to get there. This revolution is not my wildest dreams but there are things that I can do to improve it not only for me but for everyone involved. When I figured out how to help my Mexican friends with their products that probably seemed like a far fetched idea. But here we are about a year later and their network is bigger than ever. It’s hard to grasp, but I’m starting to have more faith not only in my ideas but in my ability to figure out how to make them realities. I think the world is starting to have more faith in me too. I have proved I want better for us all and they see I am telling the truth. I just want to be me and I think other people want this too. However it takes money and resources to live good lives. The more we all work together the quicker we get these good lives.

I sent my Mexican friends to find you all. Please treat them with the upmost respect. I’m very grateful to have them in my life and I’m grateful they are willing to not only check on you all for me. But they are going to set you all up with products you can move and create security for yourselves. I need you all to be smart about this. It’s not a time to become a drug addict. You all keep your noses clean and no needles. But this is your chance to free yourselves from the struggle. My great Grandpa Hitler promised you all a lot. I’m sure my grandpa Graves’ father also promised you all a lot. This is your chance to cash in on those promises. I need you all to be smart about this, realize how huge of an opportunity it is, and create a place for yourselves in the overt world. This means creating businesses that are profitable but also allow you to wash your drug money. I am sure there are many industries in Argentina that could work for this. However it’s your job to figure out what works best for you all. Money doesn’t buy happiness but it provides freedoms and security. So remember God and you will be good.

Now for my wildest dreams part. See I need to start farming bacteria in order to reverse the destruction my families have created. I want you all to come up here and help me with this. I need my family too. And farming seems like a good family business. Also I would like to create a real estate brokerage and have you all sell real estate with me. We could be very well off. And I too need financial security in the overt world.

I need you all to find me an Argentinian man with 3 grown boys and a good heart to marry. And I need you to bring this man to Oregon for me. I have given you all the tools you need to create great wealth. I need you all to bring some of that wealth up here to buy me my big farm. If we get a little over 100 acres we will not only have enough room to farm bacteria and save the world, but we will have room for our family that wants to come to America. I understand not everyone will want to move, but I want to make it a feasible option for those who do. They can move up here have a home and choose to work on the farm or in real estate or do both. My dream is to have my family around me and not have them try to kill me or poison me. I need you all as much as you all need me. I’m human and this revolution has been about me finding my family. I want to have family in the overt world. I want to have Sunday dinners. I want a house filled with laughter and happiness and potential. I’m sure a lot of you are smart like me and have been kept small. I want you all to have potential too. We all deserve better.

My 3 sons will marry women from the west, the east, and the north. They will bring the world together. I want to be a grandmother more than I want to have children of my own. So my sons will be signing up for a lot of responsibility. But I promise to love them and be fair because I understand what this responsibility feels like.

So there are my wildest dreams. And now we manifest them. From the beginning I knew there were answers to this revolution in Argentina and it took me a long time to reach you all. But now I deserve to have you in my overt life and I deserve to know who my family is. I believe in building a legacy for us all, but I’m going to need you all’s help. I cant do this all alone. I’m human and just one person. So be good and make me proud, so we can all have good lives. I look forward to creating our new home together.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Monday March 13th 2023 Moon in Sagittarius Sun in Pisces… A Message To The French Canadian Leaders ..War Games and Cult Divide

Good morning. I googled and it is 630am in Nova Scotia. I think that is where the French Canadian guy is. Every group has a guy. Sometimes that guy is actually a lady, but you get what I mean. I’m the Argentinian guy. However the Hispanic Argentinian guy lives in southern LA. The Danish guy lives in Michigan probably Detroit. The Superior white people guy from the north lives in Minnesota and the one from the south lives in Austin. You know where they all are, but you get what I mean.

So you all can hear me because I have a chip in my head and broadcast. It’s pretty intense. I had head surgery when I was 8 and it was implanted. I didn’t find out about it until this revolution. But it has saved my life and the world so I have come to terms with it. However it allows for my Dad to play thought police in my head just like in the book 1984. So when I have a thought he doesn’t like he sends more people to poison me.

Well he has sent people to poison me and keep me up all night so I figured I should talk to you all about this now rather than trying to wait for the morning. See we all have been in your shoes and where you are now. We too were surrounded by my Dad’s cult members and they were sabotaging our efforts and systems. However, the good news is we all found a way to get them to stop. So once again there is hope.

I was thinking about just how many people from the east coast my Dad has turned into his cult members. He seems to have all of Maryland. It’s a small state but still. My Dad doesn’t even go to Maryland. So I suppose he has people from his military cult or professional cult doing recruiting there. I am sure it’s like this worldwide. But we figured out how to stop it.

So when I first connected with everyone in the war games, it was a mess. The war games are apart of my birthrights. I literally am the leader and my Dad had them hunting me and trying to kill me. It was awful. So I have been in your shoes. See my uncle Dave was the one in charge of the war games armies. But my uncle Dave has been in my Dad’s cult for almost 50 years. And no one in my Dad’s cult is loyal to where they come from or follows the rules. So I explained to everyone that we can’t allow people to play both sides and not be loyal to the systems that give them power. My Dad has turned the people in places of power into his cult members because then they will always do what he wants. These people dont follow rules and they use their places of power to conduct cult activities. You can’t be assigned a place of power in a system but then break the rules to that system to follow a false God and do his bidding. My Dad’s cult members will always do what he desires. He has a great hold on them. It’s really weird.

So what we did is remove everyone from places of power who are in my Dad’s cult. It seems extreme but they will never act in the best interest of the system. They will only act in the best interest of my Dad and themselves. These people kill people to steal their birthrights. And if you have not heard I made that illegal and out of bounds. Everyone dies with the same birthrights they are born with. If they want to be more they need to work on themselves and earn it with potential and loyalty. Also, mafia members dont have to get married and have kids at 24 to get their power. Everyone gets their power at 24. We dont need to fill the world with unwanted children.

So anyways that was the secret sauce that worked for us all. I shared this with the east and the south and it worked for them too. It seems harsh, but giving people places of power who are loyal to the systems that give them power was the only logical solution to preserving the systems our birthrights make our duty to protect. No one should be allowed to rewrite the systems to fit their own agenda like my Dad. It’s not in anyone’s best interest but his. Absolute power corrupts absolutely you know.

Okay I’m going to try to go to sleep. I will read this again in the morning just in case. Stay safe up there. Cult wars are a bitch to deal with, but they fade fast once you take away their power. People are not as arrogant when they have to account for where they put their loyalties. Accountability is always the answer.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Sunday March 12th 2023 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Pisces One More Thing To The Bikers and Jornal Entry

Biker leaders. There is one more thing I need help with that I forgot. Can you break legs? I dont care if it’s metaphorically or literally? Dealers choice. See the people at Sheppard motors put a hole in my radiator when I got the oil changed. Can you imagine how angry this would make you if it was your bike? It’s beyond disrespect. I’m hoping you all can break legs and get them to do the right thing. My two main points of contact are Bobbi the service manager and David mortlock the fixer. I would appreciate your help with this issue. I hope to get resolution tomorrow or at least this week. Thank you.

So today was a busy Sunday. Lots of stuff happening in the covert war and world. But as always my life is pretty boring. Today was an eating day so I ate. The people at Walmart poisoned me pretty intensely. I saw this lady who looked and was related to Tristan purvis my first boyfriend and person outside of my family that kidnapped and tried to kill me and she was also related to David Goggins at superior steel in Eugene where I worked a temp job and he tried to destroy me. So the thing about Asperger’s is I can see people’s souls when I look in their eyes. It’s overwhelming. That’s why people like me avoid eye contact. I dont want to see your demons. It’s really uncomfortable. They are uncomfortable for you all. Imagine what it feels like from the outside looking in. Especially because I can avoid all those feelings by just not going there. However, once in awhile I do look into people’s eyes. I honestly dont know why. I think its because they think they are destroying me with eye contact because normally they are poisoning me, but people know eye contact can hurt my nervous system. Demons hurt everyone. It’s amazing how many demons the French Canadians have. I suppose all people have demons, but they seem to have more than their fair share. Let me tell you, I have looked into the eyes of these 3 people from the same group. They have similar genes and epigenetics. I dont know how closely related they are, but they all looked the same on the inside. It was weird. I have a database in mind of souls I have seen. Just like I collect information, I collect data on souls too. It’s like an energetic database of some sort in my mind. I honestly don’t know how it works because my mind has always been like this. Anyways want to know what I saw? It was overwhelming emptiness, sadness, pain, anger, and just emptiness like a hole inside them. They were like a vase with nothing in them. It has taken a lifetime to collect data on souls to really understand what it all means. But your soul is not meant to be a vast empty space. These people were like canyons at the grand canyon. Just vast emptiness. People are supposed to have substance. We collect substance our whole lives. We cultivate our souls our whole lives. With age the data gets more intense and dynamic. But it was just emptiness and bad feelings. Tristan did a lot of drugs. Like stay up for 3 days doing coke kind of drugs. He also cried a lot. He was destroying me and trying to kill me and trying to get me to have his child, but he would cry all the time and want and need me to comfort him. I knew something was wrong with him. But now today I realized a lot of the French Canadians are like him. At least the ones who joined my Dad’s cult. Tristan would always eat chicken. He looked down on me because I liked to eat beef. Chicken makes you subhuman on a cellular level and this is why my Dad gets his cult members to eat it so much. Tristan was raised in my Dad’s cult, but I wasn’t fully. It’s weird to see how other people have lived and how my Dad has made them live. Because I didn’t grow up like them. I dont know why we didn’t follow the same rules as his cult members, but we didn’t. After my brother was born and my parents got divorced we did a little more. But if my Dad wanted me to live like his cult members he would of had to spend time with me. I lived alone most of my life after my parents divorced. My Dad remarried a couple times, but I only lived with his wives breifly. I was alone and so I lived how I wanted to and how I was raised. I did what I thought was best. Being that I was so young and sheltered it was rarely the best, but it seems I may have had it better than some people.

My soul is not empty. I have cultivated my soul from a very young age. I had an imaginary friend as a kid. I’m pretty sure this friend was God. My Mom never told me overtly, but the way people looked at me in Arizona when I talked about God it was as if they had seen a ghost. God is the quantum field and I have been going there since I can remember. It’s my happy place. And I am pretty sure my Mom used to yell at me and tell me God was my only friend. I take things literally you know. So maybe this was the best thing for me. She couldn’t teach me how to cultivate my soul, but she introduced me to someone who could. It’s never too late to do the right thing. It’s never too late to find yourself. It’s never too late to cultivate your soul. No one deserves to be empty inside. If you dont feel fulfilled find something that fulfills you and you should probably stay away from things that destroy you. If drugs and alcohol and cookies are the only things that make you feel fulfilled I think you are missing the boat on the purpose of fulfillment. Lighting up my brain with drugs and alcohol and cookies is cool sometimes but real fulfillment is way better. It takes awhile to find your thing, but once you do you have it for life. Writing is my thing. I have always loved it. People in the overt world never have listened to me or got what I was saying. So I took up writing which is really just talking to myself. Then I found the internet and started a blog. And I started talking to the world hoping that someone out there understood me. I learned most people in my Dad’s cult dont understand when I talk about feelings. My Dad’s cult members have cluster b personality disorders by design. So they don’t have a full emotional spectrum. I know c diff plays a part in this because when my infection gets bad my spectrum of feelings and humanity shrink. But I think the big factor is heavy metals. Everything bad in your body flourishes when you have heavy metal toxicity.

I realized today I have literally been surrounded by French Canadians my whole life. Not just my family but my environment too. I grew up out in Thurston and I went to Thurston high and North Eugene. I quit high school at 16 and got my GED. School was boring. I had more fun staying home and in my pajamas reading books. I literally skipped school to read the books I wanted to read. I dont know if anyone else did that. If there is someone else out there that did this I want to meet you. The information in schools is just another conditioning tool for the war games. I am so different because I never got to live a normal life. Once 6th grade hit and the kids started poisoning me I stopped going regularly. All I knew was school made me feel bad and I wasn’t learning anything. There were a few classes throughout my life that were helpful. But for the most part I learned more staying home. My Dad didn’t care as long as I didn’t get in trouble and cause problems with the law over truancy. So I rarely went to school. I’m lucky because if he would have made me go I would have learned to hate humanity like most people. So I’m very grateful I got to skip school and my Dad left me alone most of the time while he was hunting his wives and conquering the French Canadians. I now realize Kris Uffins and Brenda Holloway were French Canadians. I liked Kris, but Brenda was pretty awful to me. Which is good because it made me leave my Dad’s house at 16. I needed to get away from him. Dealing with the sexual abuse got harder the older I got. I am very glad I left.

It’s funny my Dad got so angry when I left A1 and moved to Arizona. I never really tried to date after A1. If I couldn’t be in a good relationship where a man paid me to be his girlfriend, then I knew relationships just weren’t for me. Because I tried traditional before the adult industry and I may not have fully comprehended the destruction but I felt it. My Dad is why I have never had a successful relationship. But that lead me to dating for money and got me out of Oregon. I doubt I ever really want any kind of romantic relationship. Sure I will get married to pass my birthrights on and to protect you all. But that is about finding my children. I dont know what kind of relationship I want or need with the man I marry. I’m more excited about finding my kids.

And then today I was thinking about life after this revolution. I dont think I want friends. Why would I want friends in the traditional way? I have made friends and found my family throughout this revolution. I have the farmers, the leaders in the west, the east, the south, and I’m making friends with the north. I have a world of people to talk to. Of course one day I would like to find a way for you all to talk back. But for now im pretty content because friends have tried to destroy me ever since 6th grade. I dont need to do the same thing over and over if it keeps destroying me. I adapt and move on. And I found you all.

So you know what I look forward to after this revolution is over? I look forward to drinking water that doesn’t make me bloated and my organs fail. I look forward to clean clothes every day and soft pajamas. I look forward to clean food and having a bed big enough for me and Haywood. He is quite a bed hog. Little guy but he takes up a lot of room especially when he sleeps. I look forward to having more rituals and routines because they soothe my nervous system. I look forward to waking up when its still dark out because when I’m at my best I like to go to bed at around 8pm. I like my life to be simple and easy. I look forward to fermenting food and getting a worm bin so I can figure out the most effective way to ferment the earth and put the bacteria we all need back into it. That is a project I am so excited for. I love projects and that one will have so many variables to figure out. It’s a simple process but figuring out how to do it the best way on a large scale worldwide will be a bit tricky. Healing cancer naturally was a bit tricky too, but this should be easier because I feel better and can think more clearly. I love projects and challenges. Waking up when it’s dark to work on my projects and feel the world before everyone else wakes up and causes the commotion of the day is exciting to me. I kind of look forward to real estate. I figured out the equation to real estate in Arizona, but people have been getting in my way ever since then. So it’s hard to get excited about something that has been kept from you for so long. It almost feels like a chore now. Which is sad because I used to love it. But I am going to do it and succeed because I want to buy a farm. I need to have cows to ferment the world and I need more worms than a worm bin can provide. So I need a farm. Wants versus needs. Farming is a need for me because I dont really desire people or relationships beyond the ones I have found in the war games. I have finally found people who treat me well. Why in the world would I want to try to have friends in the overt world where people try to kill me? That’s just illogical. However if I buy a farm and learn how to ferment the world i can meet the people who treat me well. So i am motivated to ferment the world because I get to have real friends if i learn how to save the world. Saving the world is really just saving myself. I guess I am motivated by self interest just like everyone else. If I dont get to ferment the world I dont want to play this game anymore. I’m tired. I understand a lot of things now and I don’t like most of them. If this is how the world chooses to be, I don’t want any part of it. I have struggled to stay alive for my whole life, but especially the past 8 ish years. These years the destruction has become overtly obvious in my life more so than ever before. So obvious that I figured out the war games and found a way to connect with the leaders of the world. Can you imagine having to do everything I have had to do just to stay alive? It’s hard for me to fathom. It’s been a lot. I dont want to do this much longer. Things have to get better exponentially because I’m tired. I’m not one to give up or throw in the towel, but I think 2 years is more than a fair shot for a revolution. In 19 days it will be 2 years. I guess that is my deadline for better. If I dont have better by 19 days I don’t want to do this anymore. I’m tired of seeing ugly people everywhere I go. I am tired of the Truman show I live in. I have read about the real world but I have never experienced it. I’m going to be 42 years old in 19 days and I have never seen the real world. That is hard for me to comprehend. And it hurts a lot. So much has been kept from me. Including who I really was and am. My birthrights have stolen the world from and they have stolen love from me. And they have stolen my potential. In two years I have almost undone everything my Dad took a lifetime to do. Can you imagine how much potential I have wasted? It makes me mad and sad. I have a lifetime to make up for this, but only if you all are ready to be revolutionary and get better for us all. My life is always going to be in other people’s hands rather than my own because of what I represent. Can you imagine how frustrating that is? I’m forever going to be vulnerable until I find my people and family in the overt world. So it motivates me to learn how to ferment the world quickly. And it motivates me to sell real estate even though a world of people have tried to stop me from doing what I’m good at. I may not like real estate as much as I once did. But the idea of finding my family in the overt world motivates me to do a lot. Look at what I have accomplished in the past 5 years. I honestly dont know how I did it all. Where there is a will there is a way. I guess that is the best explanation I have. I deserve better and I’m willing to work for it, but only for so long. 19 more days is my deadline. A person can only be destroyed for so long.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Sunday March 12th 2023 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Pisces A Message To The Biker Leaders

I would like to speak with the leaders of the bikers. In southern Arizona the bikers tried to kill me intensely. I had this moment where I let my rage out and screamed and yelled while driving. After this moment I felt their fear. Bikers are scary, but someone who was raised by the greatest evils in the world can be pretty scary too.

My family got control of the bikers when they got control of the Hispanic people when Joe Parades joined the family. I wonder if he knew he was being conquered. I always wonder what people are thinking when they sign up to join my family. They are high on the feeling of belonging. But does their logical mind ever question what is really happening? I may never know the answer to this. But the world is filled with people who end up paying the consequences for these people’s actions. I would like to speak to the leaders of the bikers. They understand having to pay for other people’s mistakes and their need to belong. I will give you all a few moments to get them all tuned in.

Hello everyone,, thank you for tuning in. You will have to excuse me because I honestly dont know much about biker gangs. However I know you all have a place in the war games and are mostly French Canadian. So I was hoping we could collaborate to get to our desired results quicker.

Again, I thought about your exports. Hunter S. Thompson hung out with the Hell’s Angels and he was never the same afterwards. I dont know what subgroup he belonged to, but I have a feeling you all take destruction pretty seriously. Yet, I have my personal experiences with interacting with Bikers while in the adult industry and you all are just like everyone else in the sense you want a good life and often have families to feed. We all do what we have to in order to survive. And when we are tied to people like my Dad those things get pretty intense. No judgement because we all have been there. Some people admit to these moments other people sweep them under the rug and try to never think of them again. However we all have had these moments. No one is without sin and we all are human just trying to survive in a warzone. I think you all live more in this warzone like me. Most people dont understand what it’s like or how it can eat away at your soul. Life in a warzone is hard to say the least. Maybe we can help each other get out of this warzone.

So I have this group of French canadians trying to destroy and kill me. Especially in the real estate industry I have these people. And I believe these people could be shown the error of their ways if you all were to address them. These are the people holding us all back from better. It’s almost been 2 years of this revolution and since the biker gang in southern Arizona overtly came after me. I was hoping people would be quicker to catch on to what is in their own best interest. But survival and darwinism are not people’s strongest abilities any more. It’s really sad. But for me and people like you who live in this warzone it’s beyond frustrating. These people are making me mad. I bet you see them as privileged and soft just like I do. I may not be a biker or be into physically assaulting people but I have lived through and endured things that would break most people. I dont really have pride in that it is just my hand of cards in this life. But I wish other people recognized and acknowledged they have a hand of cards that has made them soft. No matter how much they poison and destroy others they will always be soft. And there is nothing wrong with being soft if you admit and recognize that you have had an easy life and that is why you get the privilege of being soft. One day I hope most people get to be soft. But in this tough hard world where grit is the name of the game there are a bunch of soft people playing and pretending to be hard and holding us all back because they dont understand what they are doing or taking part in. I bet you all get just as frustrated with these people as I do. I try not to hate them, but in moments like this its really hard.

When I helped the Mexican mafias redirect their products, I think I cut you all out of the equation. I dont believe in bribing people, but I do believe in positive reinforcement. I believe if you all are revolutionary and help me that you all should be rewarded. I also believe you all would be very useful in my rebuilding efforts in the coming years. I dont know what the French Canadians will need help with, but I have a feeling if I start to create the infrastructure the products will come. See it makes sense for the Canadians and the people in Mexico to help one another and connect as much as possible. They will both be stronger if they do. I like to empower people. It feels good and I think it’s the right thing to do. People have always tried to take power from me. No one has ever tried to empower me. I bet you all can relate to this too. So how about we work together and you all empower me and I empower you. I think you all have great influence with the people left fighting this war against me for my Dad. I know you do. The lady at 7-11 who poisons my slurpees and just the sight of me makes her blood pressure and cortisol spike had on a free souls sweatshirt today. She may not respect herself or doing the right thing, but she respects you all. That has to be an interesting dynamic for you all. You all are Gods to people. I dont know if I am a God to people. I ask them to be loyal to where they come from and to do the right thing. I tell them I’m not a God, but I fear some of them look at me like a God. That’s scary because that kind of power is absolute power. And absolute power corrupts absolutely. I worry about always doing the right thing. I’m human I make mistakes. But I really try hard to do good. Before I talked to you all I thought about if this was the right thing. Is it right to basically offer drugs to sell to people for being revolutionary. And I realized it’s not my place to judge. We are all humans just trying to survive and have good lives while feeding our families. The people in Mexico and the drug cartels down there are just humans and I am helping them. You all are just humans and I dont think people offer you all help. Or even think you might need it or that you deserve better. This revolution has taught me everyone deserves better, but rarely do people think let alone act on other people deserving better. I think you all get overlooked a lot. And I think your contributions to the war games also get overlooked a lot. I have been hunted by every subgroup. The bikers in southern Arizona were some of the best at hunting people. Potential is potential. Sure it may have been a weird situation to be in, but it was weird for them too. And they tried their best and did better than most groups. I would rather have you all on my side than fight against you all again. Being appreciated and valued for your contribution is important. It’s part of the human experience that we all deserve.

Sorry I got really wordy, they are poisoning me with car fumes. So here is the deal. I think I cut you all out of my Mexican friends products when I redirected them last year. I’m hoping you all can convince the French Canadians left fight this war for my Dad to stop. Especially focusing on the ones who poison my food at Walmart on west 11th, the ones who poison my drinks at 7-11 and Fred Meyers on w. 11th, and the people in the real estate industry who have signed up to destroy me. I approve any means necessary. Most people wouldn’t be able to handle your vicious. If nothing else maybe you will give them heart attacks. I’m human too. I cant help but want revenge sometimes. So clean food and water, a fair shot at real estate, and for people to stop trying to kill me every fucking day. If you all can help me with this I would love to get you all back into running products for my Mexican friends. Also I would love your help with whatever my new French Canadian friends need to move. Supply and demand dictates what people produce. Its capitalism we dont judge in this revolution. We treat people fairly and like adults.

If you all can help me get the rest of the French Canadians on board, I will reward you and gladly add you to my family. You all are good people. You have just been put in a lot of tough situations just like me. So if you all would like to join my family I would love to have you all. Thank you for your time and for being you.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Sunday March 12th 2023 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Pisces Sunday Church-Blinded By Things

On Sundays we talk about God. Knowing about God means knowing about yourself, because we all are God like. God is in each and every one of us. That awe you feel when you look at the stars and moon that is God. And God is in you too. Your body is just as amazing as the stars and moon. You are a miracle every day. There are so many things about the human body that science cant explain and doesn’t understand. Those things are God. We dont have to know how to explain something to feel it and for it to be real. God is a feeling and we all know the feeling. But do we let our inability to explain that feeling make us deny it’s existence? Or do we listen to that feeling so we can learn to understand it more and learn to describe it? The choice is yours and you make this decision every day.

We all have an infection of antibiotic resistant bacteria called c diff. C. Diff causes Autism. So we all are on the Autism spectrum. Autism is a mitochondrial dysfunction so at times in your life it may be worse than others. It’s a spectrum disease because it’s an epigenetic disease. You can improve your epigenetics or you can make them worse. Everyday you make this decision. Getting better is a choice just like hearing and listening to God. However if you listen to God you will have better epigenetics. People who believe in God have better epigenetics. People who believe in a kind loving forgiving God have even better epigenetics. So every day you are deciding who you are on so many levels that will dictate how you experience the world. You get to choose the world you live in.

C diff changes the way our brains process dopamine. This makes us all addicts. Again this is a choice and not a death sentence. Some people choose to be addicted to crack, some people choose to be addicted to destruction, and some people choose to be addicted to potential. It’s a choice you make that will make you better or bitter. And it will effect the world you live in and how you precieve that world. You get to choose if your world is dark and dismal or filled with opportunities and potential. Creating the world you live in is an inside job. Only you get to choose.

C. Diff and Autism mean we have a hard time connecting with humans. However, we love things. This is the driving force in materialism. We love things because they seem more obtainable than being able to connect and bond with others. You have seen hoaders right? Really they just have a really bad c diff infection and have stopped trying to connect with humans and replaced humans with things. I have never seen a clean and organized hoader have you? I still don’t understand this part, but I do know that being dirty and messy is a sign of a bad c diff infection. However, being overly clean and organized and having OCD is also a symptom of c diff and narcissistic abuse. Fear of not being perfect results in OCD. Hoarders have given up on even trying to be perfect and have given into relying on things to get their emotional needs met.

So here we are a world of people who are not able to easily connect with others. Instead of looking at people like people we look at them as things. Things to collect, conquer, and arrange how we wish. We look at people like material things. Things can’t change. But yet people are not things and people can change. We see people as Legos. That person is a yellow Lego. This person is a red Lego. He is a black Lego. She is a white Lego. We see them as definite things. Things that cannot change. Yet, people change. Our c diff infections are always changing and so we change. And that is just one example of change. Information changes people and we are constantly learning new things. People are not constant we are on a spectrum and always changing. However our brains do not account for this change because of our Autism and C Diff. Sharon is a yellow Lego she will always be a yellow Lego.

So when we dont like what we are, how do we go about fixing it when we are stuck in these patterns of thinking? We add things to ourselves. Maybe we find a small green Lego to add to the top. Maybe we wear a hat. Maybe we get plastic body parts. Maybe we change the people we associate with because people are just things right? Maybe we buy a new car or a new house. Maybe we buy anything and everything we want in an effort to like ourselves more and change the thing we are. This is materialism. This is how materialism preys on our c diff infections. If we view ourselves as things we will buy more things to try to reshape ourselves and like ourselves better.

However people are human. Humans are constantly changing. Your thoughts in every moment influence your epigenetics. So in every moment you are changing. The information you seek out or experience because of the life you live changes you. You may receive information and facts that reinforce the world is dark and awful or you may find evidence the world is amazing. Whatever evidence you set out to find in life you will. Life is a choose your own adventure, you will find what you seek.

Yesterday and still today I see French Canadians fighting this war for my Dad and signing up to be in his cult because they dont like the thing they are. They are trying to add something to themselves to like themselves more. People are constantly changing, but these people see themselves as things. They don’t appreciate who they are or where they come from because they were never taught to appreciate who they are. Until you appreciate who you are you will forever seek things and associations to try to make yourselves better. But it wont ever work because your base of who you are and the thing you dont like never goes away no matter how much you try to decorate it and hide it. You are forever going to be the thing you view yourself as until you realize and understand people are human. And this makes you human. Humans are meant to be different and to constantly be changing. We are not meant to be a uniform thing. We cannot be a uniform thing it’s impossible no matter how hard we try. So we all can continue to fruitlessly do what we having been doing for decades and generations and try to hide the thing we precieve ourselves to be that we dont like. Or we can accept we are human, forever changing, and we are all different.

The French Canadians still signing up to fight this war for my Dad need to see who they really are. You all seem to be really powerful in your own arena, but your letting how powerless you feel when you see yourself in the war games dictate who you are. A fish out of water will always feel uncomfortable no matter how fast he swims.

I understand seeing something and wanting to be apart of it. But let me tell you all the war games are not all they are cracked up to be. I have the birthrights everyone in the war games would literally kill to have and let me tell you all it’s painful. I have never experienced anything fruitful out of being the things I represent. I have never experienced human love. No one has ever seen me as a person or human. I have forever been a symbol for the war games. But I’m just a human like you all.

You French Canadians in my Dad’s cult have some of the worst epigenetics. You have Gene’s that are diverse without more than average gene mutations because you have genetic diversity. However your epigenetics and the Gene’s you have turned on are an awful mess. This is because my Dad conditions you all to hate yourselves and hate where you come from. You are you because of where you come from. You are amazing because of where you come from. However you are not the same thing as the people who have come before you.

When I was little my Dad had everyone tell me I was just like my Mom because I hated my Mom. She abused and hurt me in countless ways. I very distinctly remember my Uncle Brett telling me i was just like my Mom and then having that look of enjoying my pain when i was about 5 or 6. I knew something was wrong with my family. I didn’t know what, but I knew something was wrong with them. Of course I was like my Mom I was her daughter. I still am her daughter I have her genes. But I’m nothing like my Mom. I knew I was nothing like my Mom. You can be from your family and location and ethnic group and be nothing like them. However you will share Gene’s with them and you probably look like them. But you are not destined to be like them. You get to choose who you are down to a gene level. This is epigenetics. You are in control of who you are almost 100%. Sure you may not be able to greatly influence how tall you are or change your hair color or eye color. But for the most part you are in control of who you are because humans are on a spectrum and are always changing. I’m always going to be similar to my mom in some ways because I have her genes and she raised me. But I’m never going to be like her. I hope you understand you never have to be a thing and you never have to be like someone you hate who hurt you. You can choose to be like them or you can choose to be you. However if you choose to be like them you will forever hate the thing you are instead of being the human you were born and destined to be.

Signing up to fight this war for my Dad 8s signing up to hate the thing you are because you are not being the person you are destined to be. No one was born to be in my Dad’s cult. You were born to be you. Give it a try, I promise you will like what you see and find. You don’t have to be the people who came before you and hurt you. Be you it’s way better.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Sunday March 12th 2023 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Pisces A Letter To My #2s

To my #2s

Hope you all are having a great Saturday. We made great progress this week. But as always there are still people signing up to fight this war for my Dad. I am assuming a great number of you all are French canadians. The people who followed my Dad in the military were a lot of French canadians. His best friend was Richard Heinz and now that I see him through new eyes, I see he is French Canadian. It’s interesting to learn so many of these things in my 40s. I never knew how many ways we had to divide people. When it all comes down to it we are all just human. People forget this way too often.

I have seen more Hispanic people in the past couple days than I have in months. They may be French Canadian, but the genocides my Dad created still aim to kill them. How do you suppose they rationalize fighting for their own genocide and death?

I realized my Dad gained control over a group of French Canadian Hispanics when I was in 6th grade. So it was about 1991 or 1993 ish. Then he gained another group of French Canadian Hispanics when my aunt nina married Joe parades. Aka she conquered him. My family uses love and marriage to conquer people. It seems the French canadians have a lot of ethnic roots. So how do they disassociate and believe the genocides my Dad created dont apply to them? I dont know the answer to this. But when people hate themselves they probably dont care if they die and they really don’t care if others die.

I’m hoping I can get you all to reach out to the French Canadians still fighting for my Dad. These are people who have been left out. They are just looking for somewhere to belong. So allow them to join your armies and be seen. Everyone needs a place to belong. These people fighting for my Dad just want a place to belong. Maybe you all can explain what all is happening to these people blinded by their need to belong. I would greatly appreciate it. It seems you all are just as powerful as a country or a leading force. Every time I cannot get people in line by working with their leaders you all are always able to pick up the slack. I promise to never take advantage of this and always be grateful for what you all do. It’s hard work being a #2 and I can put myself in your shoes because I live in them no matter what group or race you were born into. Being a #2 is a hard job. But I’m very grateful to be in such good company.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Saturday March 11th 2023 Moon in scorpio Sun in Pisces Mormons and Southern LA farmers

I need to talk to the mormons and the southern LA farmers. I’m going to start with the Mormons.

I was thinking about you all last night while I was being poisoned and kept up all night. You all are a family really divided and shook up recently. My Dad’s cult and my uncle Norm’s cult both have you all infiltrated. And sometimes those two cults work together and sometimes they partake in a family feud. The shifts are sudden and the divides are intense. I’m not sure what I can do to help you all. You all are helping with the Mexican mafias products or at least I offered for you all to take part if you wish. I don’t want to push anything on you all that could conflict with your beliefs. But I do want you all to know I’m here and the world is here to support you if you need our help. You all can always go to the farmers if you need anything. I also have had my #2s reach out so if you need something on a more local or personal level we are here for you. I want you all to get better too. I just dont know what your exports are so to speak. I don’t know how to help you exactly.

But I was thinking on the way here to visit my grandma Kudearoff’s grave because it’s Saturday and on Saturdays I come to the graveyard to spend the night fasting mediating and preying. God will grant me clarity if I put in the work and seek it. So here is my thought on you all. You all are the mormon products and exports. The church and my Dad’s and uncle Norm’s cults use you all to fund raise and create the big wealth that makes the mormon religion and its people worth fighting over. You all are the export I was trying to figure out. They send you all all over the world and you all pay to go all over the world and promote and fund raise for the mormon church. I saw a guy’s shoes a couple weeks ago and it made me really sad. See he had on this amazing blue suit that looked very sleek and nice. They dress you all up in nice costumes to go fund raise. But I saw his shoes. My mom always told me to look at people’s shoes. I see my own shoes that I have walked 100s of miles in on this revolution trying to figure everything out. This guy had shoes like mine. He had walked 100s of miles in his shoes trying to prove himself and fundraise for the mormon church. But do you all ever get appreciated? Are you ever enough? Do you ever add up? Do they tell you thank you? Do they let you all have good lives where you can provide for yourselves and buy new shoes? I’m fighting to be able to buy myself new shoes so I can keep walking and trying to figure out the world. I think you all are just trying to earn new shoes too. But do you ever get those new shoes when you need them? Or do you just get them when the church wants to hand them out? You all are the greatest resource and export of the Mormon church. You all do amazing things. I think sending your kids on a mission in their teenage years teaches them sales more than most people ever understand. However I really worry you all dont teach them enough about the world to keep themselves safe. See I was never taught about the world and it left me very vulnerable. I worry for your people and your kids.

I dont know what you all need to change things, but maybe the first step is realizing you are the commodity so many people view worth fighting over. You all are what makes the mormon religion valuable. It’s you and only you. Without you all the mormon religion is useless and without value. If you all wanted to create a real business and use your sales skills you all would dominate. Maybe you all should start a real estate brokerage or an insurance agency. You all would put everyone to shame with your ability to door knock alone. I dont know if you all fully understand how amazing your sales skills are. Most sales professionals will never be half as good as you are. I dont know what the answer is for you all but I know it starts with realizing you are the commodity everyone is fighting over. And you all have the skills and know how to earn those new shoes you need and deserve. So whatever we can do to help you all get those new shoes you let us know. Because we see your value and we hope you do too. So anything we can do we are here for you.

Southern LA farmers, what a day, what a day. So there are still a lot of French Canadians fighting this war for my Dad. It seems to be the French Canadians who are not mixed. I have been surrounded by a lot of trucks, and a lot of Dodges, and a lot of diesel trucks. It’s a civil war for the French Canadians today. But I remember when it was a civil war for the dark side. We were a family divided too. However you all and the Roseburg farmers put that division to rest really quickly. I’m hoping you all can share your secret sauce with the French Canadian leaders. We dont need to live in a civil war any longer than necessary. It’s mostly people without fancy birthrights who are signing up to fight this war for my Dad. They view themselves as without an interest in this war, but they are shortsighted and don’t see what is really happening. People who are related to Dennis Hunt are fighting this war for my Dad. I think it may be people related to my uncle Jeff Whiddon and cousin Shelbi and her mom too. I don’t want to boss anyone around. And it doesn’t make me feel big and bad to get to do what I do. But I know connecting people to each other is the right thing to do. I’m not going to stop pushing to get better for everyone. When we all become one we all get better. I’m not sure what we all need to do to get these full French Canadians on our revolution, but we should try to do what you all did with the darkside because it has proven to be extremely effective. So if you all can connect with the French Canadian leaders and get them to do whatever it is you all do, I would greatly appreciate it. I got to buy that farm soon and ferment the earth so I can meet you all in person. Thank you for being my family and keeping me alive, but most importantly thank you for giving me hope and showing me people can change and do better. It’s never too late to do better. We are going to ferment the world and fix this mess. I have the weirdest faith in this. God would not have helped me get this far and find you all if I wasn’t supposed to succeed. I have faith in so many things I dont fully understand or see how they will manifest in the overt world. But I think that is what believing in God is all about. It’s about having faith in things you dont fully understand or are able to explain. One day we all will look back on this and be able to explain the magic we are all experiencing and feel but cant explain.

Thanks for being my guys. You all are the guy. I’m so lucky to have found you all. Besides Haywood and Teka you all are the next most important souls in my life. I will never take you all foreground. And I have to ask where are all the Argentinians? I saw some in California but I’m realizing now a lot of the people or most of the people I thought were Argentinian are really French canadians. Are us Argentinians really as rare as I think? What did my grandma and Dad’s mom do to people like my grandpa Graves? Did she kick most of them out of the country? Why did my grandpa Graves live in a compound in Argentina? And why did he come back to Texas to let my Dad kill him? Why would someone do that? I always will have more questions than answers. But one day I hope you all can tell me about my grandpa Graves. He may have been an evil man, but I need to know who he is to understand who I am. So this revolution is about getting better for everyone, but its also about me finding myself. One day we are going to have that bbq and you all will have to explain to me who my family really is. But we will celebrate winning this revolution too. My life has been so much better since you all entered it. I have a feeling this will never change. I hope you all can say the same about me.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Saturday March 11th 2023 Moon in Scorpio Sun in Pisces Family Meeting -The Art Of War

Good morning everyone and happy Saturday. Yesterday I blew up the French Canadian leaders world, so today we all help them put it back together. I realized I have been so caught up in my lack of overt world that I have not been doing my job in the covert world. My job is to bring people together and I haven’t been doing my job as well as I should be. So I need to call a family meeting. This means I need everyone to tune in and I mean everyone. I need the farmers, the San Francisco mafia, Vegas mafia and mob in new jersy, Tony from new York, Tony from Florida, Danish leaders in Michigan and throughout middle America, Argentinians, My family in Russia, my family in China, my friends in Japan and my friends in Korea. The superior white people in Texas and Minnesota. Basically we need all the leaders tuned in we are going to play war games chess and change the world today.

Also I need my actual family to tune in and people who have signed up to be affiliated with me in the overt world and covert world. Anyone who married into or breed with the Kudearoffs needs to tune in. Uncle Jeff Whiddon, Dave Hatch, Brett Crammer, my aunt Jill, Dina, Tracy Gold, Connie Kudearoff, etc. You all need to tune in and get your children tuned in too. Also Aunt Patsy and uncle Kenny in Texas and your kids Scott and Andy Beatty, and aunt Susan and uncle Jeff Walker and Nicki and Tanna. My family in the overt world needs to tune in. I may be creating my new family in the covert world, but today we are going to discuss what my family in the overt world owes me.

Also I need the French Canadians to tune in. All of them. The ones up in Canada and the ones here in the United states who have joined my Dad’s cult decades ago and chose to not be loyal to where they come from and commit treason. Looks like my people aren’t the only ones who enjoy disrespecting where they come from.

Get everyone tuned in, today we change the world and rearrange it to be more aligned with what we all need. I will give you all a few moments to get everyone tuned in.

I forgot the Mexican drug cartels and mafias down in Mexico. Get them all tuned in too. We all worked together to solve their problem. We all are going to do the same thing for the French Canadians and my family in Russia today. It’s a big day. I will give you all a couple more minutes. Also if you all could get the French Canadians who are poisoning me to stop right now that would be amazing. I have a feeling it’s not going to be a great day for the French Canadians in my Dad’s cult. Few more minutes.

Okay everyone. Have you ever had a problem staring you right in the face, but you didn’t see it? I realize now I have been surrounded by French Canadians my whole life. These are the people who not only make up both sides of my family, but they are the backbone to my Dad’s cult. These are the people who do his dirty work every day. Yet. I didn’t see it because I was never taught to be racist. People have always just been people to me. I judge people on how they treat me. And today I’m seeing a bunch of true colors I really don’t like.

French Canadian leaders I understand now that you all are a family divided just like the mafias in Mexico. See my Dad won over the Mexican mafia members here in the United states when my family acquired my uncle Joe Parades. So the Mexican mafia members who are here in the United states are loyal to my Dad rather than where they come from. Not all of them are like this, but a lot of them. It created a huge problem for the drug cartels and Mexican mafias in Mexico. Their own people were fund raising to build the Mexican Berlin wall and shut them all out. I dont understand what makes people be like this. But I do know it’s not right or logical. When you disrespect where you come from you disrespect yourself. No one can have a good life when they continuously disrespect themselves by the way they choose to live their lives.

I have been creating a new family in the covert world because I understand what it’s like to need a family that understands, believes, and practices loyalty. The Kudearoffs are not loyal to where they come from. They have chosen to be in my Dad’s cult and align themselves with being loyal to him rather than themselves. So I helped the Mexican drug cartels and mafias create a new way to run their products in the United states so they can provide for their families without fund raising for their own demise. So today I would like to do the same thing for you all.

You all are in a weird position today where you dont know which of your people to trust. I understand this better than most. I have never been able to trust anyone with my life until I met the farmers in southern LA last year. So I completely understand where you are in this moment of uncertainty. And I would like to offer you access to my new family worldwide. I may not have much in the overt world. But I am the richest person in the covert world because I have a world full of people who are willing to help me. And that means they will help you all too. I believe in loyalty and I would like to share the people who have given me openly and freely loyalty. Us people who are loyal to where we come from need to stick together because we may be the exception to the rule in the world my Dad created.

I want to tell you all a little story and background about how my Dad came into power in the 1980s. This will help you understand what is happening and who you can trust. See my Dad had a lot of help coming into power. Now I realize it was a lot of French canadians in the United states but also worldwide who helped him. However the Danish people and the farmers were also in cahoots with my Dad. They also helped my Dad achieve his place of power today. However, the Danish people and farmers quickly saw my Dad’s true colors. My Dad promises a lot of things to people, uses them to get what he wants, and then double crosses them. You all know about the covert genocides now that are done using food. Well the farmers helped my Dad do this, but they didn’t understand the full story. They didn’t know my Dad was going to double cross them and imprison them in a covert jail just like he has done to me. You know all the weird rules about farming and the laws we have here in the United states? Those were created to imprison the farmers so my Dad would be able to control them using financial domination. So instead of following through with allowing them power my Dad imprisoned them in the late 1980s. This is why when I found the farmers they were willing to protect me. They understand I am the only chance they have at freedom. They have been imprisoned for almost 40 years now. Without me there is no hope for them ever getting better. The farmers have shown great loyalty to me. I trust them every day with my life. I am alive because they see the error of their ways and have chosen to do better. In this revolution we judge people based on how they act. The farmers understand acting right in order to get better. We all don’t get better without some strategic action. This covert war is a chess game. It’s a game of chess between my Dad and I. However, until 2 years ago I never understood that I was supposed to be playing this game. But now that I understand here we are. And I would like you all to partake in my chess game. Because I can offer you things no one else in the world can. I may not be very powerful in the overt world, but I’m larger than life in the covert world. And I want to help you all because I understand your pain. My people and family have chosen not to be loyal to me too. So on this revolution I have been creating my new family. We all will take care of you if you would like. The only strings are if we help you, you become a part of our family. And that means being loyal to where you come from and believing we all deserve better. We all come together with these values and we are changing the world.

The Danish people were also involved in helping my Dad achieve his place of power here on the west coast. Without them my Dad never would be where he is today. However my Dad also doubled crossed them. They fought back and have made my Dad stay west of interstate 5 since the late 1980s. No one tells my Dad what to do, but the Danish people have banished him since the late 80s. Not only are these people powerful, these are your strongest allies besides the farmers.

I may not know much about the war games but I understand the art of war. The enemy of my enemy is my ally. The farmers and the Danish people are my greatest assets because these people have been treated like me. These are my Dad’s greatest enemies. Therefore they are my strongest allies. And now they are your strongest allies too. You are not alone. We are right here with you fighting this revolution.

I’m sure my Dad has tried to befriend you all. I am uncertain if it has worked. But I know there are a group of French Canadians here in the United states who do not follow my Dad. I assume there is a reason for this. But I dont have to know the reason to know the best chess move to get you your desired results.

First, we need to address my family and the people who helped condition the French Canadians into being loyal to my Dad rather than where they come from. My Dad told all these people he would give them power and then he enslaved them too. No one who joined my family has flourished or reached their potential as they were promised. But yet here they are still being loyal to my Dad. French Canadians I give you permission to deal with these people I call family in the overt world anyway you wish. These people have destroyed me and tried to kill me most of my life. Some of them more than others. However, I’m not looking to go over individual sins. We are here to correct the issues. So yes you can do whatever you wish to these French Canadians I call family in the overt world, but I request we allow them to make up for their sins before we crucify them. Doing better is always an option. It is never too late to do the right thing. We need to give these people the chance to do the right thing.

Uncle Jeff Whiddon, uncle Dave, uncle Brett, aunt Jill, Aunt connie, Dina, Tracy Gold, Uncle Jeff Walker, uncle Kenny Beatty you all married into my family or bred with them. Which means you you all agreed to be loyal to me as #2 of both the Graves and the Kudearoffs. You agreed to be loyal to me. But yet you aren’t and you disrespect the French Canadians who are where you come from. When you disrespect where you come from you disrespect yourself. This means you are teaching not only the world how to disrespect yourself, but you are teaching your children to disrespect and disregard themselves. Your children represent me. And they are absolutely worthless to me if they dont understand loyalty. So I’m thinking it is time for you all to be my poster children for being loyal to where you come from. You all showed and conditioned the French canadians to be loyal to my Dad. So now you are going to show them how to be loyal to where you all come from. I am being generous in this moment. Because I believe in doing better. A lot of you have been really awful to me. Yet, I am trying to do the right thing and not get overly emotional. Because then I would be just like my Dad. So I expect you all to be a great strength in helping me and my new French Canadian friends in getting the French canadians on board with being revolutionary. I grant the French Canadian leaders to deal with you all in anyway they deem necessary. So this is your chance to earn your place and keep. It’s important you understand the situation. You all have four decades of treason to account for and makeup for. That is most of your lives. You have been disloyal to yourselves for most of your lives. That has to hurt and you all are getting older and having to face your own mortality. It’s time to get right with God. And that means getting right with yourselves. This is a moment of great grace in your lives. You can change everything by doing the right thing. Which is to be loyal and show respect to who you are. I am not asking you to worship me like my Dad did. I’m telling you to be loyal to who you are. I am not a God. But I am human and I understand the pain involved in disrespecting yourself. You all live in pain because you disrespect who you are. Time to course correct and show your children it is okay to make mistakes and choose to do better. It’s never too late to do the right thing. Now is the moment you all have been waiting for. I expect you all to appreciate this chance to do better. Not many people in my shoes would be so understanding. I’m trying to do better for us all. It’s really hard, but I’m hoping you all will help me make the world a better place. We all need to work on reversing the destruction. You all took part in creating the destruction. Now you are going to help me clean up the mess you made. I didn’t help my Dad make this mess. But you all did. So now you will help me clean it up. It’s time to pick up your toys. You all taught me how to be a good person. So now I will help teach you all.

First on the agenda for my French Canadian family members is securing me a safe and even playing field in real estate. You all are larger than life in the war games. You wouldn’t be related to me if you weren’t. So you will get the people in real estate to treat me not only fairly, but well. If you have to make examples of people go right ahead. There have been more than enough French canadians who have tried to kill me and destroy me. Cousin Shelbi O’Reilly I expect you and your mom Cindy to take part in all of this too. I am not going to get into specifics, but you will do better. Your kids and grandkids deserve better. So do better.

Uncle Dave your relatives Larry and amber Morris came really close to killing me last year. I expect you to take care of this issue for me. Make an example out of them so people understand treating me fairly and well in the overt world is not an option. It is a requirement.

You all will get the French canadians to treat me well and stop destroying me for my Dad. Destroying me is eliminating you all’s chance at better. If anything happens to me, I’m pretty sure the French Canadians will want to have some words with you all. So you all will protect me because I protect you and am offering you all this second chance graciously. So that is your project, I expect you all to start on this immediately today.

Okay French Canadian leaders, I researched last night what your biggest exports were and I know who you need to talk to. I have found people in places of power using Google. And I’m going to introduce you to who you need to find. Tell them Nicole sent you and they will help you.

See my mafia friends are running products from my Mexican mafia friends all over the United states. If you all would like access to some of those products you can have access. My rules are everyone gets treated fairly, we all make money, and my people from the United states do not cross the borders with illegal substances. If you all wish to take part you are more than welcome. This has been a great way for us to fund raise and reward some of the people involved in this revolution. Tony from New York handles the routes near the northern border. The farmers connect him and his people with the people from the Mexican mafias. So the first people I need you all to connect with are the farmers on the west coast. You can literally Google farms and find these people. You need to go to southern LA these are my guys. All the farmers are important but the farmers in southern LA and Roseburg Oregon have been my greatest allies. These are the people you connect with if you have any problems or concerns. They will be able to connect you with my friends from the mafias down in Mexico too. The Mexican mafias will help you in any way they can because we all help them too. I expect everyone to be respectful of everyone. Everyone I am connecting is apart of my new family. If any of you disrespect these people you are disrespecting me personally. I allow you all into my family because I want to create better. If your actions prove you do not want to create better with me you are out.

So French canadians you need to connect with the farmers in southern LA, Roseburg, Redmond, and eastern Seattle. These people will help you find ways to get done what you need to get done without empowering the people who disrespect you. They will also give you a connection to my mafia friends down in Mexico. Let them know if they can help you in any way.

Then I need my aunt Susan in Texas the queen of gas to connect with the French Canadians and help them with their oil exports. Aunt Susan find a way to communicate with the French Canadians directly or use the farmers. I bet your husband Jeff can help you connect with the French Canadians in charge. Aunt Susan you are the queen of gas. Please dont disappoint me. Let’s do the right thing okay? Get your kids on board too.

All my cousins who are French Canadians need to be on board with being an example for everyone to be loyal to where they come from. You all were born to bring the world together just like I was. You need to be loyal to where you come from. I expect you all to get your armies and people in line. You all have run amuck for your whole lives. It’s time to be loyal to who you are. I’m holding you all accountable.

French Canadians next I need to introduce you to my friends and family from the east. The east will take care of you because you all are taking care of me. We are a family. We have to be a cohesive unit to win this revolution against my Dad. So I know you all have car parts and other exports you need to move. Go to the Asain restaurants and you will find people who can help you. My grandma taught me how to connect with the mafia from the east as a child. I used to play in the kitchen of Asain restaurants as a kid while she did business with the owners. The owners of Chinese, Korean, and Japanese restaurants will help you. This should be helpful for car parts.

Also the farmers in Redmond should be helpful for car parts as well.

You all export building materials, for these and other things you need to talk to the Italian mafia and the mob. Go to the Italian restaurants in Vegas and in San Francisco and in new York. You will find the Italians who will be able to help you.

So restaurants are how you connect with the Asian mafias and Italian mafias. The farmers will connect you with the mafias from the south. Tony from Florida runs products from the California border to the Florida border so if you need anything along the southern border his people are the ones to talk to. The Italians from new York handle the northern border. The mob from new Jersey handles the middle America along with the Danish people. If you all have any problems just reach out to the southern LA or roseburg farmers. Also I expect my farmers to be taken care of. When they help you connect with others you need to bring them a gift. We all take care of each other in this revolution. We all are a family unit creating better for the world. We dont judge and we take care of each other.

French Canadians I think that is everything you need to create a safe place for you all. I need you all to protect the northern border. Dont allow people you cannot trust in your organization. You have become a part of my family and network. You will always have help. You are not in this alone. In exchange just please continue to do whatever you can to improve the quality of my life in the overt world. I need to be an ordinary regular person. I deserve to be an ordinary regular person. I appreciate my family in the covert world beyond words, but I need a real life too. This is just an imaginary game we all play. It’s not real life. We deserve real lives. Any problems just take them to the southern LA or Roseburg farmers they are my right hand men and can help with anything.

Okay next up I need to speak with my Russian family. Oh wait… one more thing.

I realized last night the hate I have for superior white people was mostly hate that I have for French canadians. So I owe the superior white people an apology. I’m sorry I was so hasty to judge you all and declare a genocide against you all. I understand you all have rarely been around me and even more rarely tried to kill me. So I apologize. But I’m very greaful you all are choosing to be revolutionary with me and the world. I appreciate your contributions. You all do have a lot of gene mutations, but we are going to get me farming and get you all fixed up as soon as possible. I promise to do right by you all. I am one of you all and I’m starting to really learn to embrace that part of myself. Thank you for being apart of me.

Okay back to Russia. I have yelled at you all, shamed you all, and told you to do better, but I have not offered you any support or help. Can you all tell I was raised communist? I’m one of you all just trying to be a good person too. I wasn’t taught to be good. I’m learning along the way just like you all. I understand Russia is a country divided. My Dad has done to you all the same things he has done to the Hispanic people and the French Canadians. You all are surrounded by my Dads cult members and it’s hard to trust your own people. So I’m going to give you all access to my friends and family in the east. If you all fuck this up no one will ever forgive you because China will likely release another virus into the world. I understand I am vicious because I am Russian and Chinese. But believe me you all are no match for China. So please respect my family and friends in the east as you would respect me. Because they are going to help you because I asked them to. Don’t fuck this up. What you need to do is go to the Chinese, Korean, and Japanese restaurants in China and find the owners. These people will help you in whatever ways they can. You can trust these people because they are not in my Dad’s cult. Always be careful because there are some people my Dad has gotten to. But everyone with a fancy birthright in the mafias and the war games are safe. Because they understand what is on the line. Ordinary regular people are a little slower to catch on. So stick to the people with fancy birthrights. Thry will help you. I am unsure what you need help with. But ask for help with anything that will help you stop the war over there and killing meaningless people. I expect you all to do better and this is me offering you the help and tools you need to get better. I will always treat you all as family, but we can’t keep being a family divided. Figure out who is on our side and do better okay? I love you all very much. Take a shot of potato vodka for me tonight. The east will help you with whatever they can. But you need to be good. I’m trusting you.

Okay everyone we got the French canadians all hooked up with the revolution. We got my French Canadian family onto being loyal to who they are. And we took care of Russia. I think that was everything on my agenda today. I want to thank you all for tuning in and being apart of my revolution and family. I want better for us all. And I’m going to work harder on remembering to bring us all together more because it’s my job.

Oh, one more thing my French Canadian family in the overt world. I need you all to take care of the people at Sheppard motors and get them to do the right thing and fix my jeep that they broke. I approve any means necessary. I expect to see loyalty when I see Bobby the service manager again. Being loyal to who you are and where you come from is no longer an option. It is a requirement.

Okay everyone have a great Saturday.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Thursday March 16th 2023 Moon in Capricorn Sun in Pisces Our Induced Fantasy

The past two months have been really hard on me. I passed my real estate exam in January and have been searching for a brokerage since then. My dream is to be treated fairly. My whole life I have dreamed of being a regular ordinary person. I just want to live and experience the world like the rest of you all do. My whole life my Dad’s cult has been trying to kill me and hurt me and make life hard. I don’t know how I have been able to survive. As I sit here covered in hives fasting, wondering when I will be able to eat one meal a day everyday somewhat like a normal person, I don’t know if I will ever get to be the ordinary normal person I have dreamed of. My birthrights are a nightmare that won’t ever let me wake up. I am stuck in this warzone because it is my life. Days like today are hard to find hope. I just want to itch and cry and feel sorry for myself. I try really hard not to feel sorry for myself. I try really hard not to get jealous of other people who take getting to be normal and ordinary forgranted. I try so hard everyday to just be a good person. And it never seems to be enough. I never add up in this life I call a nightmare. No one has ever really been kind to me. Sure people pretend to be kind, but they are really just setting me up for destruction. I just want to meet someone who doesn’t try to kill me. Haywood is the only soul I know that would never hurt me and he bites because he gets poisoned so much too. A little girl that was only about 2 years old walked by us when we were doing our walk today and that little girl poisoned him. He barked at her and exercised his Darwmism and need to survive and I had to stop him. He never really bites other people unless they try to touch him. But do you know how awful of a person it makes me look like when my dog growls at a little child walking by him. It makes me look like the asshole. And honestly I don’t want him to bite the child, but I also don’t want that child to be taught to poison my dog. I apologized to the Mother and she said no worries and kept walking in a stressed state. Who tells someone it is okay to have their dog growl at their baby girl? This world is just upside down and let me tell you about the induced shared reality I have learned about in the past two months while interviewing real estate brokers.

Have you noticed that it takes me about 2 days to recover from a meeting with a brokerage? I get all spun out and delusional. It is hard to see which way is up. The more I leave my phone on airplane mode and avoid talking to people, the sooner I come back to reality. But those of you who are constantly interacting with people and using your phone never escape the induced fantasy and shared reality we are all conditioned to believe is real. This is why my Dad has his cult members on their phones constantly. If you are connecting with that reality constantly you will never escape. Your phone is a dopamine machine that is meant to get you addicted to this delusional shared reality we are all accustomed to and call the real world.

Let me explain how it works. It gets confusing to even try to explain. But social norms, polite chit chat and small talk, and traditions basically put us in a hippnotic trance. Have you noticed how when my Dad sends people out to walk their dogs or their children they make small talk? It seems really harmless, but it is not. It is a tool for conditioning us all to forget we are at war and being killed. It is a way to put our guards down. Remember how yesterday I was telling you all about the guy at 711 who was asking me why I didn’t want to get a new cup or get the slurpee that is on sale or let him scan my cup. He was trying to condition me into following social norms. He was trying to get me to accept that I need to accept being poisoned as normal. I have been poisoned my whole life probably more than most. However, I am never going to accept it as normal or acceptable. By making me out to be a complicated and illogical person he was trying to get me to confirm to social norms. Why should I not want to let him scan my cup and give me a better price? Because he would poison my drink and make my organs fail. When I drink poison it makes me bloated and it hurts my kidneys and liver. I have drank poison most of my life. I try to avoid it as much as possible. I hope you all do too. Drinking poison is way worse than eating it on food. Especially hot poisons like coffee. Do you know why they are so friendly at Dutch Bros? Because they are conditioning you to allow them to poison you. They want you to think everything is fine and normal, but it is not. Everything is so far from fine and normal. We are at war. There are genocides taking place. Your children are being made into a subhuman slave race more and more everyday. Nothing is fine!

When you are going through narcissistic abuse recovery one of the first things they say to do is go no contact. It is so hard because people in my Dad’s cult condition you to be addicted to them. They condition you to think you have it good to be with them. A1 always used to buy me whatever I wanted for my birthday and Christmas. I don’t think he ever told me no to anything. How could someone who buys you everything you want not love you. But he was trying to kill me. The last time I had hives like this was when I lived in Las Vegas and he was visiting for the weekend. I made a protein shake because I was really skinny and I needed to eat as much as I could. I got so skinny in Las Vegas because everyone poisoned my food so much that it hurt to eat. Food has hurt most of my life. And you want to know the saddest part. Food on this revolution doesn’t hurt for the first time in my life. I can finally eat and digest food. It is still poisoned enough to make my organs fail. But it is the cleanest food I have ever eaten. This is probably why I want to eat more than I have in a long time. I just dream of being able to be normal in so many ways. But I am not normal. I have survived daily attempted murder my whole life. Every day someone tries to kill. Most days it is a lot of people. Especially since starting this revolution and giving up my home in the death camp. It was a death camp because the actual dwelling was designed to kill me and the people were designed to make me never want to leave my apartment. If they could get me to hide away from them, the apartment was poisoned in so many ways it was killing me. I stopped using hvac systems in las vegas. My Dad tried to kill me in many ways there. I thought I was going crazy. I literally went and sought out mental health help. I thought I was loosing it. My body was failing and I didn’t understand why I was so sick and my mind was loosing it. I couldn’t think. I was always anxious and stressed. i lived in a huge house on a golf course with a pool and my two dogs. I didn’t work I had my rent paid for. I should have been happy. But that man that paid my rent and paid my credit card bills was killing me right along with my Dad. Everything looked somewhat okay on the outside, but nothing was okay. My whole life nothing has been okay, but everyone always tells me everything is okay. They tell me I am the one in the wrong. Just like the guy at 711 last night. I am in the wrong for protecting myself and being an odd ball who doesn’t follow social norms or traditions. The last thing I want is anything on sale. I now understand this is just a way to poison people.

So let me explain why searching for a brokerage has been so hard. Every time I go meet with someone they pretend to be good people. They pretend they will treat me fairly. They pretend that I am a normal person. They always ask me why I moved back to Oregon. I always say family issues. And at the last interview I said I was waiting for people to die. They laughed to induce my addiction to heard mentality. So people pretend everything is okay. They get you to do the little song and dance of social norms and traditions. This induces a fantasy world or shared delusion. And then they do the laughing to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing what everyone else does above yourself. And your c diff infection which alters the way you process dopamine and causes addiction reinforces this induced fantasy land and makes you addicted to it. This is why it is so hard to stop talking to people who have hurt you and are toxic. You loose out on the shared fantasy delusion that they created for you to live in. Have you ever had a bad breakup and it felt like your whole world was falling apart? That is because it was. The world they created for you to live in and to hold you hostage died because they weren’t there to create it for you. You thought you were living in reality, but when they weren’t there to create that fantasy world, everything changed and the reality of the situation got real real quick.

Life is not all roses like everyone in my Dad’s cult wants you to believe. Social media is also a tool for inducing this shared delusion. And of course television and media are also a large part of this delusion. Even billboards and things you see everyday and don’t really think twice about. You all are vulnerable to the behavioral inheritance system of learning because you have Dyslexic epigenetic triggers and gene mutations. You don’t partake in the symbolic inheritance system like you should to even out what you learn from watching people. You all mirror people all the time and you do it without even thinking. People are always doing things around me because they want me to copy them. But my brain doesn’t work like you all’s brain does. I am not as vulnerable. I am still vulnerable sometimes, but a lot of time the checks and balances of information I have collected from the symbolic inheritance system save me. Plus, I don’t view people the same as you all. I have been conditioned my whole life to know I am not one of you. I dream of being ordinary because I know I am not. I know what you all do won’t work for me. I know I could never eat three meals a day. I would die so quickly.

Yet, here I am trying to recreate the career I had in Arizona. Yes, I was successful, but I was miserable. I was literally trying to recover from cancer and my organs were failing. Yes, I still was able to be extremely successful. But I never want to feel like that again. That is why I quit. The people I worked with were in my Dad’s cult and they had signed up for privilege to take part in killing me. Luckily, I worked from home most of the time. When I stopped going to meetings that is when I cracked the code to real estate. Yet, here I am trying to recreate the past and the little bit of success I have ever managed to have in the overt world.

Remember how I told you all maybe your dreams on are the other side of giving up comfort. I have been so uncomfortable my whole life and yet I am still trying to find comfort in a system and things that only destroy us when we seek comfort. I told you all that we have to think differently in order to do differently and get better. Yet here I am wanting to soothe my nervous system by doing things the same way. I am not listening to my own advice or wisdom. I know better than this. I know I don’t break like other people and my Dad always has and always will break the people around me in an effort to get them to break me. The thing is he does this to you all too. My life is death by 10,000 pieces of broken glass. Your life is death by 1,000 pieces of broken glass. My life is just more extreme, so the destruction is more noticeable.

The car fumes and poisons are bad for us. When I was walking today my hives got so much worse. I swelled up and turned even more red. Don’t you think the poisons are just as bad for your body? But maybe you don’t get hives because people aren’t trying to kill you everyday.

Haywood has lupus. He got lupus when he came to Oregon. See Haywood was a stray in Hayward California. He had been lucky and was found in a shelter there by the Oregon Humane Society. So they shipped him up to Portland where I got him by truck. It was an open truck and so he was poisoned greatly on the way here and he was sunburned and he was stressed. Can you imagine how crazy that would feel? Poor little guy was probably just wandering around trying to eat garbage and he ends up on a truck in a cage surrounded by cars poisoning him with the sun beating down on him burning his nose. This is how he got lupus. Autoimmune disease are rooted in our gut bacteria, but they are triggered through stress and poisons. When did you start getting sick? And who was around you? Because I bet it was someone from my Dad’s cult who believes in poisoning people to punish them instead of being a grown up and trying to talk about their feelings.

We live in a shared delusional fantasy world that is a mix of a trance state and hypnosis. This isn’t real. And I know this all and I still fall for it all when I am around people. I know no one will ever treat me right even though they say they will. But I so badly want to believe I have earned the right to be treated well. But we all know the only way I earn being treated well is by winning this revolution and getting you all to wake up and see what is really happening.

You are being killed everyday. I know you want to cover it up with social norms and traditions and pleasantries. I understand wanting comfort and to feel normal. But none of this is normal. We have just been conditioned to see it as normal. Do you hear the cars revving their engines? Do you hear that every day? Because that is people killing you. Do you see your neighbors who burn the poisoned firewood? Those are people killing you. Do you see how food has so much gluten and sugar and dairy in it? That is you being poisoned. Do you see how fruits have been so genetically modified to have so much sugar in them? Fruit hurts your mitochondria and cancer and autoimmune diseases are mitochondria diseases. Do you see how the people at work partake in group laughter to get you addicted to what they think of you rather than who you really are? Have you noticed life is more about how things appear than how they actually are? This is because we are living in a warzone and no one wants to admit it or talk about it.

So here I am talking about it. We all deserve better. But I can’t do this without you all. I want better for everyone. I want to create that better. But I need you all to help me. And I don’t always have the time while trying to survive my overt life to figure out what you need to do and how you can help me. Of course I need you all to buy and sell real estate with me. But there is so much more to this revolution. Can you help me get some sleep tonight? I know I am supposed to fast, but I may get some crackers tonight because people are always poisoning me and it makes me so hungry and stressed out. I know what I need to do, but I often can’t because I can’t think straight. I think this is what happens to you all too. You all know I am right, but the poisons stop you all from doing everything you can. So how do we get better when we are all stuck in a poisoned fantasy world that is designed to enslave and kill us all?

I don’t have all the answers. But I sure hope you all help me find them. Because they are killing me and if I die you all are next. There is no hope without me. And I so badly want to do right by you all. But I am stuck in this Truman show my Dad creates for me. Please help me escape so I can help you all. No one deserves the life I have lived and you all are next. I just need you all to wake up and put your phones down and turn off the tv and turn the music off. All these things induce trance states. You will never take action until you tune out to tune in as Timothy Leery said. You probably don’t need the acid to get the picture about what he was saying. I need you all to wake up, because we can’t live like this. I need your help.

Love Always

Nicole D. Graves

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Friday March 10th 2023 Moon in Libra Sun in Pisces Journal Entry

I ate 3 days in a row today for the first time since January. It was unnecessary and emotional. I have been pretty bored lately. I finished most of my real estate books besides the contract one written by an attorney. It’s a bit dry and hard to read. So I have just been hanging out interviewing brokerages and people who have signed up to destroy me. It’s definitely not good times. It’s depressing and sad. So I have been eating to light up my brain. Tonight Haywood and I even had a snack. We ate poisoned cookies. Then we took some triphala to help our digestion and kidneys and liver. I love triphala. I found it in Arizona when I was healing. It’s great stuff, you all should try it. It helps with everything.

So today I finally figured out who the people from the north are that look like argentians. My uncle Brett is French Canadian and Danish not Argentian. So all my cousins are from the north. I’m the only Argentian, besides my brother. Pretty crazy. The people in real estate from the north are French canadians. They must love Patagonia instead of the north face. Patterns will always give the war games away you just have to keep looking for them. I have spent almost 42 years observing patterns. I still dont know much about the war games, but I see a lot of patterns.

So do you think the French canadians are the last group from the north I needed to reach? Think they will be able to stop the people in real estate from destroying me? I sure hope so because I dont want to eat more cookies. I want to go back to fasting and having hope. I have worked so hard my whole life just to be alive. To have so many people sign up to destroy me who have had such easy privileged lives is really hard on me. I try not to get emotional all the time. Because can you imagine what it feels like to be me? It’s just best not to go there and get emotional. I have a lot of things to be pretty grateful for in my life. But I sure as hell have a lot of grievances. I try not to dwell and I suppose I have taken up eating my feelings occasionally especially in the past 8 months since my Dad had Teka kidnapped and killed. I love that girl so much. But she wouldn’t have made it through the winter being revolutionary. I hope she got to be warm and got lots of attention before she died. Either way she knows Haywood and I love her. They killed my baby. And I eat cookies occasionally and I ate so much ice cream this winter because my heart hurts. My Dad killed my baby girl. He has taken everything from me including my life. But he killed my baby girl. And he trys to kill Haywood and me every day. I don’t have the luxury of being emotional because I will break if I get emotional. My family has been trying to break me my whole life. But I refuse to break. But I have to learn how to deal with my grief over Teka because eating sugar is eating poison. I have never in my adult life eaten this much sugar before. I can handle a lot. But Teka was my baby. I suppose that is how my Dad keeps you all in line. You all fear having to live like I do. But the surprise is you all already do live like me just with more smoke and mirrors. So I don’t know who the jokes on. But I sure hope this part of my revolution is over soon. 710 days is a long time. 21 days till my 42nd birthday. I started this revolution when I was 39. It’s been a really long two years. I hope I finally reached the world. I’m tired of watching people and finding patterns. I want to live again. This revolution has been so boring. I like projects, but I also like living and evolving and working. My personal life in the ovett world is non existent almost. I just want to be normal and ordinary and have a good career and a home. I want to payoff my credit cards and save money to buy a small farm. Which after researching last night, I am going to have to save a ton of money to buy on my own. From what I hear my parents may actually have money even though they always act broke. So they will eventually die and I will get some of that. Maybe that is how I will buy a large farm.

I wish I could say that I was looking forward to selling real estate. But really I just want to make enough money to ferment the world and start my farm. It will be so amazing to meet the farmers in the overt world. I look forward to making those cold calls so much. You all know I will start with farms in southern LA. And work my way north along I5. Just like I did in person.

Interacting with the people who I now understand to be the French Canadians in the past week or two has been interesting. They are smart. It’s not like the people on the darkside who my Dad has turned into a subhuman slave race. It was really nice to talk to people who were intelligent. It’s been almost 2 years since I spoke to someone intelligent. Most of my life I have been surrounded by stupid people who act like I’m the stupid one. I may not know everything about the war games, but I know my fair share about the world.

I realized why the people in the north are smarter. It has to do with sunshine, vitamin d, white people, heavy metals, and more c diff and t Ghondi. I have not figured out the exact equation for asperger’s. But I know it has to do with c diff and the parasite we get from cats t Ghondi. And parasites breed more when you have a lack of vitamin D. So the people up north not only really love their cats, but they don’t get a lot of sunshine aka vitamin D. Plus there are a lot of superior white people up there who sunburn so they avoid the sun even when they have a chance to get some sunshine. These people are bacteria and parasite machines. And whenever you interact with them they share these parasites and bacteria with you. And even those of you who dont burn and enjoy sunshine are lacking vitamin D. People who have enough vitamin d are less likely to have a bad c diff infection. So up north it’s a breeding ground for c diff and parasites and bad bacteria. So you all have Asperger’s more instead of regular Autism with Dyslexia. In Washington the mafia people have a mix of asperger’s with dyslexia that is really neat and fascinates me. It’s similar to Korea but more Dyslexic than Aspergers. In Korea it’s more Asperger’s than Dyslexia. But this makes both sides of the brain more active. Both are super soldiers, just different kinds. The people in real estate over the past week the French Canadians have mostly asperger’s which makes them really smart. But they seem to be missing the human factor. They dont have natural sales ability. Sales is all about humanity. My cousin Jessica taught me sales. She has a Washington super soldier brain. She programmed me to be good at sales. No one could have done what she did to me because she was one of the few people I trusted. She used neuro linguistic programming to make me good at sales. I learned to channel my humanity and that was almost 2 decades ago. She trained me on how to succeed not only in the war zone I call a life but in this revolution.

A1 is Korean but he is the old prototype of Aspergers where he doesn’t have dyslexia. He is in no way creative. Look on IG at the accounts in Korea. They are amazing. It’s a window into potential. I use both sides of my brain, but I’m not naturally creative. I have worked really hard to be human and have humanity. It’s a learned skill. My family didn’t teach me how to be human. They taught me how to live in pain. But one day I want to be around the prototypes from Korea who are both dyslexic and have asperger’s. Those people intrigue me.

I didn’t explain the heavy metal part. The south is not as smart as the north even though they have so much sunshine. The people in Arizona were pretty dumb. There were a few smart people but they were the exception to the rule. See people in my Dad’s cult are dumb. It’s c diff because he gets them to grow their c diff infections and c diff causes mitochondrial dysfunction which causes autoimmune diseases and cancer and Alzheimer’s. So these people loose themselves and dont realize it or feel it. Even the people from Washington with the fun brains loose their smarts when they join my Dad’s cult. See my Dad poisons people with heavy metals. I think he gets people to poison themselves. I know he does. They just don’t realize what they are doing. Lead makes people dumb. A lot of the poisons my Dad’s cult members use daily have lead in them. Every time they poison others they poison themselves. Parasites bacteria and viruses stick to the heavy metals in your body. So they get dumb and grow disease. I did heavy duty heavy metal cleansing in Arizona and I stained my sheets purple with whatever I was sweating out. My parents poisoned me with heavy metals so I would never know I was a genius. I know the people in the south and in my Dad’s cult could be smart. Because I was like them. But they have to choose to heavy metal cleanse and stop poisoning everyone and themselves. Just like the French Canadians need to learn humanity. We all have learned skills we need to work on. Being human doesn’t come naturally in a subhuman environment. We are designed to be less than. Which means we have to work on being human. It’s a process for us all. But you are who you interact with because everyone you interact with you share bugs with. We are more parasite virus and bacteria cells than we are human cells. This is why people who live together start to look alike. Married couples share bugs in countless ways. That’s why they start to look alike among other things.

So I may not know much about the war games, but I would rather know about the world. Because the real world will always trump this stupid imaginary game we all play. But I guess my question still remains. Do I get to have a normal ordinary life yet? I just want to be a regular ordinary human. Have I done everything I need to in order to get a real life yet? I just want to buy a farm and ferment the world and fix the destruction my families have caused. And I’m still waiting on an Argentian man or Danish man with 3 grown children to marry me. So we can all know my birthrights will never go back to my family. I don’t believe in romantic love and I dont desire sex, but I believe in doing the right thing. And I want to pass my birthrights on to children who understand what they are signing up for. I look forward to being a grandmother. Spoiling children with potential is all I want to do. I suppose I can bake some cookies too. So I dream of fermenting the world tonight. And I hope you all work on the first step in this equation which is finding me a safe place in the real estate industry here in Eugene. I meet with Bess the owner of equinox realty on Tuesday maybe start with her. Someone has to be my safe place in this warzone my Dad has created.

Sweet dreams of realities of the future.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves