West from Klamath Falls through Ashland and Medford

Well hello Southern Oregon. It’s a hot summer night and I come bearing gifts. Surprise I’m alive to those of you all just joining in for the first time. It has been one heck of a year. In March 2021 I escaped the death camp my family intended for me to die in. I miss the desert, but I’m glad to be alive and to finally understand who my family really is. They are the people who have been trying to kill me for over three decades while telling me I should love them and apologize for being so hard to love myself. I’m sure you all can relate to this feeling. People who destroy you often also tell you it because you are difficult and hard to love. I want you to know that’s all complete bull shit. No one is hard to love. Love is just hard to do because it means allowing people to be human. If it was easy it wouldn’t mean as much. But you are lovable and so am I. And welcome to the revolution where we are fighting for what we deserve because we all deserve better.

I have been enslaved and tortured my whole life, but I have blamed myself because I was never told about the war games. I have asperger’s genius and I never accepted the illogical evil my family takes part in every day and calls it a family tradition. However, they created me to not only be a super soldier they could boss around, but they created me to rule the war games. By birthrights I am the most powerful person in either of my families. Even without getting married, having children, or having to wait for my parents to die, I am the most powerful person in the Kudearoff family and the Graves family. Well my Aunt Penny may come close. Shes my Dads older sister and I inherited either 2 birthrights or 4 from her. I’m starting to think its 4 because my Dad come from some fancy white people in the war games. But moral of the story is my bloodline on the Nazi side is really small and somehow I was designed to get the big birthrights. However, my Aunt Lana likes to inflate her birthrights and importance in the war games. Communists are stingy with everything even birthrights. She only got my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My uncle got my grandpa Kudearoffs birthright, that’s why she killed him. She likes to kill people to make herself not feel so inferior. It’s a family tradition I suppose. My whole family seems to be serial killers. It’s weird. But here I am never having killed anyone and still alive because they can’t overtly kill me.

So like I said I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona March 2021. I have been creating a revolution ever since. However I only just recently discovered the power in my birthrights. I built this revolution on the fact that we all deserve better. I have driven all over the west coast and I have learned about the war games by analyzing all the patterns that appear because of them. Have you noticed that so many people use a version of neuro linguistic programming that was created in the 1970s? Have you noticed how people are empty on the inside because they never get to know who they really are because they are pretending to be someone they are not? It’s a mind fuck. Everyone in the war games is killing themselves metaphorically and literally. What planet do you all live on because I live on planet earth and you all are missing out on some of the greatest parts of life. Its incredibly sad. But its fixable.

I’m going to give you the cliffsnotes to the past year and I want you all to take notes because this is super important and can allow for you to live a better life. So listen up.

What you need know

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family. second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married so inherit her two birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

I have spent my whole life overcoming the destruction of my family. If I’m an expert at anything its overcoming my family. I want to help you all and myself to overcome the destruction for good. There is no reason we need to allow ourselves to be genetically modified to be a lesser than version of human. If we wait and don’t take action now we will never be able to overcome because the gene mutations will have made us a different species of human. We only get this one chance to overcome. No one else in either of my families is alive inside and they sure as hell are not interested in healing anything. I’m a genetically modified gift from God. I’m literally my family’s creation that has backfired on them. They thought they could get me to breed and then kill me but I never wanted to have children without getting married first. I have been just as used as you all. Our story is sad, but we have the power to right the wrongs that have been dealt to us. We have the power to overcome. You have the power to win this war. Because your everyday little decisions are what dictate your epigenetics. You literally decide who you are everyday with the decisions you make. Those decisions dictate how your Gene’s Express themselves. You get to decide who you are down to a gene level. It’s pretty Amazing.

So you are free. I have been enslaved by my family just like you all. And I’m the one with the most power per birthright rules and I free you because I dont want to be enslaved any longer either. You are more free in this moment than you ever have been before. This is my gift to you. You know how you are being destroyed and you have the freedom to overcome it if you choose.

I have built this revolution by asking for help. And boy do I need some help from you all. Recently I finally got to the farmers who can use their trump card to get the dark side to stop trying to kill me so overtly covertly. It’s been nice but now there are Republicans and their morally flexible ethnic friends who are trying to kill me and taking their shot at gang stalking me. It’s got to stop and I need your help reaching the farmers and decision makers who can get these people to get their bums back on the bench to sit this war out. I need every group of people to realize what I have to offer and how important it is that I stay alive and safe. If I die you all are stuck with my family destroying you until the end of time. They dont care about fairness or if your children grow up to only know pain. I am the only one with a heart and soul and it so happens I have the power to change everything. All I need you all to do is follow the rules you have been raised and conditioned to follow. The covert war rules offer me protection. My family is not allowed to kill me because I disagree with them and have the power to veto what they are doing. You all need to protect me by following the covert war rules. The farmers that control the dark side and the Scandinavians have been really good to me. I’m sure we dont agree on everything but I’m sure everyone can see that we dont have hope for a brighter future with my family in charge. Hope is worth fighting for!

Let me read you my list of things I need help with. Anything you can do I appreciate greatly.

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. How do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

We need to be revolutionary. But in order for this revolution to continue I need to be in a safer place. Which means I need to not be poisoned everywhere I go, especially at work. I need to find a home. For over a year my two dogs and I have been living in my jeep. We need to be in a safer environment so we can improve our health and ensure that this revolution remains an option and a viable one. I’m not trying to be selfish. I have driven up and down I5 to get everyone in the know about the destruction. The fact that you all are listening to me in this moment shows you how hard I have worked to make this revolution possible. I knew nothing of the war games match 2021. Now June 2022 I realize I’m supposed to be the leader of the dark side and I want to lead us into the light. It seems far fetched and so many things, but its feasible and a reality if you all can just help get people to follow the rules we were all conditioned to follow. I may have never been told about the war games but my family taught me to follow so many rules that they openly disregard everyday. I’m asking you all to honor the checks and balances of the war games because without them this is just a war and mayhem. Without rules there is no civility in life. Please allow me to live in peace because I’m deserving just like you all.

I look forward to creating a new world with you all.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

News Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves  

news Update

Cliff Notes News Update By Nicole Graves Kudearoff- www.YouDeserveToHeal.com


Internet Blog Disclaimer: I am writing a novel and this is a way for me to practice method acting at it’s finest. This is just a covert world that I am partaking in to spark my creative juices. Please do not take anything on this domain/blog personally or seriously. This is just a creative story I am writing based loosely on the events of my life. Thank you for checking out my role playing game/world.

Hello there! I am Nicole Graves Kudearoff. You all know of the covert war games, but I have never gotten to talk to you all about them. I was literally genetically modified and bred to be great evil. However, I have Asperger’s genius and I rejected the dark side. It is a long complex story. However, I survived and escaped a death camp in Southern Arizona to bring you all some information that is very important:

1.My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. And my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married and I am the oldest in my immediate family so I inherit the Bennet and Graves birthrighs from her. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad and Brother or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why she killed him.

2. Learned helplessness is a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you probably inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main two are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios and antibiotics. Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have presented this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amygdala which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small.

11. I am looking for investors in this revolution and new world, both overt and covert alliances
I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. With financial backing and support we unstoppable.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turns 66 this summer. My generation does not walk into their power till after my Moms generation dies. So they are without power in this moment.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems.

14. Please help me connect with the Scandinavian fancy families in Washington & Canada. I would like to get engaged to a Scandinavian to create unity before the election.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate it.

Love Always
Nicole D. Graves

Recap Of Destruction By The Covert War Games

This year has been overwhelming with all the things I have learned, not only about the systems, but about the world. I am sure you all can relate. Let’s go ahead and recap all the things the systems are doing to destroy and disillusion us all.

1. Epigenetic triggers of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, Diabetes, and all chronic illnesses

2. Covert genocide of all races, but especially Hispanic, Italian, Asian, and Black

3. Dysfunctional processing of Oxytocin by the way our society is set up-this steals our humanity and allows for crimes against humanity more willingly

4. All the systems are set up to make us all fail-even if we profit from one system we still are set up to fail by all the others

5. Romantic love and marriage are sold to us as distractions, but what we are sold is not attainable

6. Health is sold to us in an unattainable version

7. Carb filled diets are sold to us as a way to keep us manageable, small, and create disease-thus getting us to buy into the other systems more willingly

8. Marriage is a lie, because we value destruction rather than love and women are not viewed as equals

9. We are kept in a stressed state to keep us in our reptilian brain-this keeps us small and limits our emotional spectrum

10. Food, Drinks, and Sex are used as distractions and addictions to keep us in our reptilian brains and keep us small and manageable

11. Potential is not an option, it is an unattainable uphill battle used as a distraction

12. Houses are created to distract us for a lifetime and create disease

13. Medical industry is created to enslave us not heal us, but gets us to buy into learned helplessness

14. Candida overgrowth is created in our bodies by society, Standard American diet, antibiotics, modern medicine, and public schools to make us accept learned helplessness on a biological level.

15. Leaky gut is created to keep us malnourished, thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

16.. We are conditioned to accept manageable life situations and relationships to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

17. Fear tactics are used against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

18. Misinformation and withholding of information is used to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

19. People with Cluster B Personality Disorders run the systems/world and convince the masses an intact emotional spectrum is weak and dysfunctional

20. We all live in a Truman Show just to varying degrees, depending on how much we are taking part in the destruction of everything and everyone

21. Our bodies are biologically used as weapons against us by the systems

22. You are made not to feel at home in your body so you constantly seek comfort outside yourself, thus supporting the systems that aim to destroy you

23.The Stock Market and alternative currencies are used as a tool and mirage to aid in the game of financial domination the systems play with us all

24.We are sold conformity as the only way to gain control over our lives, but we are expected to conform to people who are mentally ill(cluster b personality disorders)

25. Not only are our diets used to destroy us, the foods themselves have been genetically modified and created in labs to destroy us painfully by creating disease

26. The environment we all live in creates fatty liver and estrogen dominance to make us more manageable, small, and diseased. Plus, addicted.

27. Viruses and world events are created to make us live in a fear state and buy into learned helplessness and thinking that the systems are the ones that can save us

28. Reproduction and Pregnancy are used to keep women small, manageable, diseased, and invested in learned helplessness and accepting of their place as second class citizens

29. The epigenetic trigger of Dylexia steals your quantum field-taking away your ability to access and create limitless potential

30. Marketing, television, advertising, social gatherings, sports, etc are used to keep us seeking social norms and to keep us distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

31. Our traditions and values are used as weapons against us to keep us small, manageable, and diseased

32. Insulin resistance is created by numerous systems and leads to malnutrition-thus keeping us small, manageable, and diseased

33. We are sold the idea that destroying others is the only way to save ourselves, but when we destroy others we are destroying ourselves, because the systems of destruction do not allow for anyone to escape the destruction

34. Emotional addiction is used to keep us all controlled, small, manageable, and diseased

35. When we access our quantum field as a collective we have more power than the systems ever will-this is why group meditation changes the world

36.  Any comfort offered to us is a means to destroy us and keep us small, manageable, and diseased

37. We live in fear of having our comforts and privilege taken away. We spend our whole lives living in this fear because it is never escapable. The systems do not want you to experience real comfort and security

38.  Your gut bacteria and microbiome are used against you as a weapon to control your body, mind, and spirit. This is why hand sanitizer exists and antibacterial soap

39. Our epigenetics are negatively impacted so our children are born with gene mutations that cannot be reversed

40. The worldwide systems are made up of different groups of people who wish to enslave their own people because their privilege would not exist without others being enslaved more than themselves

41. Since the 1990’s the Dyslexic epigenetic trigger has been impacting almost everyone born and yet the systems are not set up to value what they have to offer(creative brain based)

42The worldwide systems are just more covert in some places and more overt in others

43. Everyone is trauma bonded to the systems that have destroyed them-this is why people who have experienced the most pain still sign up to fight this war when called upon

44. We are all sold the idea that having humanity is weak, rather than the true strength it is

45. Shame is used to keep us all small and believing there is something wrong with us, that we are defective

46. Absolutely No One is immune to the destruction of the systems-even the leaders die from terminal illnesses-there is no buying your way out

47. Estrogen dominance is used as a weapon against us all because it allows cancer to grow quicker and allows for our brains to reinforce addictive behaviors more

48. Fasting kills cancer, but doctors cannot recommend it as treatment because they are under orders to practice medicine rather than healing

49. Shame causes OCD and Perfectionism keeping us stuck in our heads and distracted, small, manageable, and diseased

50 Our potentials have been stolen from us all, but we accept that we are the reason we do not succeed to the level that we are destined to

51. We are not taught how to accept things because then we would find a solution. We are taught learned helplessness to keep us paralyzed and victims

52. We have the power to overcome this covert war because who we are is dictated by the small everyday things we do.

53. We each are special individuals who are born for greatness, the war games and conformity steals this from us

54.  Public schools are used to force us to conform and break us as children to prepare us for a lifetime of destruction by the systems

55.. Religion is used as a weapon. God and love are used against us all.

56. Munchausen by proxy is accepted as “normal” even though to destroy another we destroy ourselves first

57. Life is supposed to be easy and put us at ease. Yet, we allow the sysetms to complicate every aspect of our lives

58. There is a time and a place for vicious. Instead of being vicious with the systems that destroy and enslave us all, we are being vicious with each other

59. High carb diets are used to spike our insulin and blood glucose levels so we are addicted to our feelings keeping us more manageable. This allows for malnutrition which makes us more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion making us more manageable.

Okay that pretty much sums it up. There are a ton more details, but you all get the idea. We are being destroyed and we are allowing it.

Love Always
Nicole Graves

The Fear Anxiety Depression and Your Soul Calling

You know that fear you feel right now especially but almost all the time? That’s not you. That is there by design. See your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems. This means your gut does not produce vitamin K2 as it should. This means calcium is not deposited into your bones and teeth as it should be. Instead it floats around in your bloodstream causing anxiety and damages your brain and amygdala. This is what is causing the fear you feel all the time. It is a subconscious fear, so before your logical mind has a chance to tell you you are safe you feel fear. You feel this fear all the time. It’s a paralyzing fear. This fear motivates you to stay small and not to rock the boat. It’s a tool to control you.

You know the anxiety and depression you feel in waves all the time? It comes and goes through the days and it seems unpredictable, but it always shows back up? Well that is caused by your blood glucose levels and insulin levels. Humans aren’t meant to eat a diet so high in carbs, sugars, and grains. Processed foods are a weapon of destruction in countless ways. But our Standard American Diet conditions us to eat all the wrong things.If you want to eat well it is an uphill battle by design. When you eat well you feel well. People who feel well are harder to control.

See when your insulin levels are all over the place. It makes it ai your cells don’t absorb as much nutrition from your food as they are supposed to. This is why most Americans are experiencing malnutrition but are overweight. And you know what happens when you are experiencing malnutrition? You are more susceptible to brain washing and suggestion because your brain is not working properly. So this sets you up for disease and to stay in line as well.

You know that feeling you have now from your heart and soul that is calling out for freedom. That is you. You probably rarely ever honor that voice, but that is you. In the madness of your body it is hard to know what is you and what is there by design. You are the voice calling out for freedom.

Are you going to honor yourself or are you going to fall in line with the voices there by design to keep you small?

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

What I need your help with:

1. I need to get my overt world together in order to breed so my birthrights dont go back to the Kudearoffs when I die. I’m 41 so if you all want my help you need to help me and we gotta be quick about it. Currently I am working at B & R Auto Wrecking in Eugene. They are setting me up to fail just as they have at all the jobs I’ve had my whole life. Do what you can to help.

2. Spread my news like your life depends on it, because it does. All the fancy families & especially the farmers need to know I’m alive and that the Kudearoffs have falsely extended their power by breaking the rules. Have everyone call their people out of this war against me.

3. Find me a Scandinavian man from a fancy family who represents Washington as much as I represent Texas to get engaged to. The two of us will be able to create unity among the Nazis and white people. We need to do this before the November election.

4. Get me into as many communication hubs as possible. If you are from out of town take me home with you. I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com where I transcribe my important talks. So take me home with you and get everyone to tune in. The world needs to know what’s happening.

5. This is a long shot and my Christmas wish. I would love a home that is not designed to kill me. I’ve never slept in a bed without poison. After I get a job, how do I buy myself a home that isn’t a weapon of destruction?

6. I need your help creating a safe place for me and my dogs in Eugene… I need the people there to know I deserve and have earned my place of safety. Let them know there will be consequences for treason.

7. A note to the farmers, I’m unsure of how you all fit into the power dynamics of the war games. But when I was little my parents brainwashed me to believe I was going to marry a farmer and have 10 kids. You all have some kind of special trump card. Please use it to protect me and allow me to have a good job, maybe even a career. If you all watch out for me, I promise to always watch out for you all.

8. I need a friend in the overt world who doesn’t destroy me and use love as a weapon. I’ve been alone my whole life and I need someone to talk to about my overt world and hopes and dreams.

Thank you, I appreciate any overt or covert help you can give me no matter how big or small.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves