Another Hidden Trigger Discovered: Lab Work

Today, it happened again. I had an autoimmune flare. Toxins were circulated and recirculating through my body. Kidney failure/disease is why this happens, but large flares are almost always triggered by environmental toxins.

Over the past year and a half, I have eliminated almost everything containing chemicals from my life. I make my own toothpaste, body oil, face masks, household cleaners, meals, herbal supplements, ferments, etc. However, I still have to go out into the world and live my life.

So once again, I was picking myself apart. I have said this before, but this is the worst part of autoimmune triggers. Every time I have a reaction, I want to figure out how to avoid it from happening again and scrutinize myself, my decisions, and my lifestyle. How could I have allowed this to happen again? When will I learn?

Today, I went out of town for a work meeting and to get some lab work done. When I walked into my work meeting, I could smell the air freshener, but it felt doable for a short period of time. Then I went to get lab work done at one of those little neighborhood shopping center places. This is when my red flags started waving and I felt the “Run for your life” feeling. There was only one other person in front of me, so I thought it would be quick and I could make a quick escape. Well twenty minutes later, I was finally out of that awful place and my nerves where all over the place. Driving home my liver was hurting and I could not figure out what was going on.

After getting home and taking fermented spirulina, activated charcoal, fulvic acid, and drinking a couple pints of fermented lemon ginger water, I finally realized it was all the chemicals in the air I had been exposed to. The lab work place had put me over the edge and my anxiety was through the roof.

It is nearly impossible to think calmly and clearly when there are toxins circulating throughout your body and not being filtered out. I was laying in bed waiting for the activated charcoal to do it’s thing. Normally when I take activated charcoal, I can feel the wave of relief within fifteen minutes. This time I was waiting in vain. With reactions that are caused by things I put on my skin or in my body activated charcoal works great, but when it is an environmental toxin it takes a little longer and more binders.

As I write this, I can still feel the on edge feeling that is caused by environmental toxins. It is hard to believe I lived like this for years when I was exposed to mold in my home. In a couple days, if I stay out of public places, I will be back to my “normal”.

Living in a toxic world is taxing! I hope I have helped someone out there who is also dealing with autoimmune and kidney disease. But honestly, I just needed to vent and get my frustration and anger out(please excuse my grammar). Some parts of my healing journey still make me want to scream. How could a medical facility be so careless? Healthcare is not supposed to damage your health.

The more binders, the more better.

Love & Coconut Oil


“Life is so beautiful, but ugly people try to convince us it’s not because they cannot see it.” ~Me

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Fulvic Acid: My Superhero

Over the course of my healing journey, Amazon has been my best friend. Naturally healing chronic illnesses involves quite a bit of trial and error, but it feels good to be the one making the decisions rather than putting your life in someone else’s hands. Other people will never be as invested in your own health and well being as you are.

The first time I took fulvic acid, I did not notice much of a difference. However after a week of taking it once a day, I finally felt full and like I was getting nutrients from my food. This experience was life changing.

For the past three years, I have felt like I was starving and I knew I was not getting the nutrition I needed even though I was eating clean like never really before. I tried so many different kinds of diets and ways of eating: intermittent fasting, AIP, vegetarian, raw vegan, vegan, vegan keto, healthy keto, and carnivore. But for some reason, I always felt hungry no matter which diet I was on. Before I got really sick I never really felt this way, I was rather indifferent about food and could take it or leave it.

Finally, I am experiencing the feeling of being full and I have not even finished my first bottle!

Love & Coconut Oil


“The greatest strengths stem from great weaknesses.” ~Me

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Encountering Toxic People While Healing Chronic Illness

Avoiding the general public has been a large part of my healing journey. I have been sick for so long, it is really hard to connect with average ordinary people. These are the people who keep fast food restaurants in business, talk a big self care game but practice very little, rely on western medicine blindly to solve their health issues, do not research and implement ways to improve their health and/or children’s health, use money as an excuse for their poor self care practices, etc.

When I started to see light at the end of the tunnel and had faith that I was not going to die, I made a promise to myself. I promised myself I would try to help others who were ill and felt hopeless like I had. My heart and rose colored glasses often lead me to have very idealistic goals that rarely manifest in the physical world like I plan, but I am always learning and growing from these experiences.

Last fall, I applied for a support provider position, because I thought what an amazing way to utilize the knowledge and wisdom I have acquired along my healing journey and reintegrate into society. I remember what it was like to not be able to take care of all my needs and how helpless I felt in those moments because I knew others would take advantage of my weakness. This was one of the most difficult parts of my healing. When I finally gave up the people that saw my illness as a weakness they could exploit, my healing journey did not take a magical turn towards empowerment. Instead, it got even more difficult. However, taking my power back was the best thing I ever did.

Fast forward to the present and I have been a support provider for almost 90 days. Can I just say, everyone needs to save more for retirement because no one deserves the level of care that the state provides, even through a private company. If I had been subjected to this level of care I would have died. The realizations have been downright overwhelming, but the most shocking part is that most people employed in this field are not caring, kind, and/or healthy.

In the past 90 days I have relearned many lessons about people and human nature, but the most impactual lesson has been: hurt people will hurt people. Narcissism runs very strong in American society and the healthcare industry is no exception. People are only rarely led to working in the healthcare industry to make a difference, but more often they are motivated by the opportunity to prey on weak people who cannot stand up for themselves.

A perfect example would be a man who recently quit because he was confronted with the fact that he was abusing a client. The company was not going to fire him, but wanted him to change and see the error of his ways. This talking to did not occur because the company is proactive about protecting the rights, safety, and welfare of their clients, but rather because they were avoiding the possible legal ramifications of a formal sexual harassment complaint.

I continue to learn lessons about life, people, and health. Exponentially more lessons than I ever would have expected and/or imagined. The past few months have been filled with many disheartening realizations about society and people. However, I am still continuing to make great progress in my healing journey.

Thank you to all who have subscribed, I will try to write more often.

Love & Coconut Oil


“Giving people the benefit of the doubt only leads to self doubt.” ~Me

Unexpected Autoimmune Triggers

Well, it happened again this week. I was going about my life and having what I thought was going to be an average week of healing and progress. And then, I clogged my garbage disposal sink.

Who thinks of clogging the disposal as something that will end up impacting their health? Shoot, I know I did not. The longer I am on this healing journey the more I realize just how toxic the world is. There are so many things I never really thought of as negatively impacting my health that I have had to adjust and change in the past few years. We are conditioned by the society we live in to adhere to social norms. However, when I slow down to question the things I do not think about, I often realize the error of my ways.

Long story short, I tried to unclog the sink with vinegar and baking soda, but was unsuccessful. Next up was a bottle of Draino and this is where I went wrong. The sink still did not unclog and now I had a sink full of chemicals fuming up the house. Even with open windows and leaving the kitchen fan on, I still woke up the next morning with swollen eyes and fatigue.

The next day, I was picking my diet apart trying to figure out what the cause of my flair was for half the day. Then I had a light bulb moment and I realized it was the Draino. Haywood(my dog with lupus) had an autoimmune reaction the same day and this helped me put the pieces together.

Picking myself and my life apart every time a reaction happens is the worst part of healing autoimmune issues. I often feel like I failed myself(and Haywood). After all this time and pain, how could I not think about Draino as something that would endanger my healing? When will I learn? Is being a human in a man-made world really this tough?

Love & Coconut Oil


“Change, like healing, takes time.”~ Veronica Roth

Experiencing Resistance-Why I Am Reluctant To Tell My Story

I told myself I would write at least one blog post a week. Well, that did not happen. Telling my story is a test of my ability to be vulnerable. I have been on this journey alone and have not shared my whole story with anyone. Every time I attempt to talk about my healing journey with someone, I end up disappointed in their response and/or reaction. People do not know how to react to things they have not experienced, especially things that make them uncomfortably question their own mortality and way of life.

Then on the other hand, maybe the resistance to writing my story out is that I am still in denial. I am a champion at ignoring things that do not fit the way I want my life to be. Living with my head in the clouds does not mean I do not see what is happening, but I do not address things as often or timely as I should. We all have our weaknesses, but awareness is the first step to changing behavior patterns and improving quality of life.

After winning, surviving, or whatever you want to call beating a serious face with death, there is no way I want to go back to living the way I used to. I no longer value or desire the same things. My goals have changed. My world has changed. However, most of these changes have been in my best interest.

The being sick part was lame and it still is a bummer to have to do so much self care just to get the minimum energy I need to make it through my days, but the person I have become is beautiful and strong in ways I could have never imagined before. This sounds so cheesy and basic, but I just cannot really encompass the change into words. Perhaps, once I finish this journey I will be able to explain it more clearly.

I am a work in progress and my journey is finally somewhere I can actually see the light at the end of the tunnel. Healing will always be apart of my journey and lifestyle from here on out, but I am excited for the days when my life does not revolve around my healing so intensely.

But for now, while I am here, we may as well talk about it!

Love & Coconut Oil


“Face your fears and follow your heart in as many aspects of your life as possible.” ~Me 🙂

The best medicine ever! <3

You Deserve To Heal: A Blog Of My Healing Journey

This is a blog on my healing journey from chronic illnesses, cancer, and autoimmune diseases. It is a way for me to keep track of my progress and remember how far I have come. Healing is a lifestyle and journey that really has no destination other than growth and evolution.

A year ago, I moved to Arizona. I needed to escape the noise, pollution, and toxicity that linger in a city. This was a hard decision because so many parts of me did not want to give up the life I had become accustomed to. However, something in me knew I had to leave to heal and find myself on a deeper level. I no longer wanted to play in the kiddie pool of spirituality just to keep others comfortable. I believe in probiotics, meditation, ferments, yoga, gut bacteria, parasite cleansing, viruses, fungi, energy, vibes, gut feelings, and balance. These beliefs lead me to stray from mainstream often.

The average person is not really concerned with their gut bacteria and/or correlate it to their grumpy moods or cravings. Being ill for so long changed the way I look at life a lot. It is all about balance and keeping everything where it needs and desires to be.

So this is going to be a blog of me rambling about my health experiments, how I relate to a toxic world, and the homestretch of my healing journey.

Love & Coconut Oil


“Healing is not a science, but the intuitive art of wooing nature.”

~W.H. Auden