We have been taught to crucify ourselves over making mistakes because it keeps us stuck. Part of being human is making mistakes. The key is to learn from them and move forward. Live and learn as the saying goes.
Shame is used to keep us stuck. Shame implies there is something wrong with you and that is why you made a mistake. Shame prohibits you from moving forward. Because if there is something wrong with you that caused you to make the mistake then you believe you are helpless to change it. You can change your behavior. There is nothing wrong with you. Guilt is the feeling you get from making a mistake that is intended to get you to do better. Guilt is designed to help you live and learn. There is nothing wrong with you. Humans make mistakes and you are human. That means you need to learn how to forgive yourself and move forward. If you dont learn this you will be stuck making the same mistakes over and over.
Yes, mistakes suck. Yes, guilt sucks. Yes, forgiving yourself is hard. But you get better at it. And the sooner you learn to course correct the easier it gets to forgive yourself. Forgiving yourself for one mistake is easier than 10 years of the same mistake. So the sooner you learn to identify your mistakes, the easier it gets to course correct and move forward
There is nothing wrong with you. Shame is a tool to keep you stuck. You are human. Humans make mistakes. Guilt is to remind you not to make the same mistake again. Being human is hard, but forgiving yourself makes being human a lit easier. Plus, it allows for growth.
Love is based on self interest and is transactional. But we are often told love is self sacrificing and given freely. Love is a social construct, just like race. Our culture often tells us the beliefs to have on love, just as with everything else.
First, what is love? How do you define love? Love is the act of caring for someone over and over. When someone shows a pattern of caring for us and doing what is in our best interest, we say this person loves us. Love is a verb. Love is the act of caring for someone over and over. Love is the establishment of a pattern in behavior.
Why do we love our parents as children? If love is about self interest, why do we seem to be born loving our parents and family? Because we are trying to survive. If we love our parents they are more likely to like us and care for us. We love our parents even if they destroy us, because we are trying to survive. And if we can get them to love us our chances of survival improve as children.
Love is about self interest. As a human you are designed to survive. We love our parents to improve our chances of survival as children. But if you have a parent that destroys you and you continue to view destruction as love your chances of survival decrease dramatically.
Love is not manipulative. When someone cares for you in order to get a certain result that is in their best interest, but not in yours, this is manipulation. Love and the act of caring for someone over and over means doing things that are in their best interest.
Say you have a partner, and this person likes to get you coffee and food all the time. This seems like it’s in your best interest. And it’s a caring act. However, if that person only likes to get you coffee and food so they can poison you. Then it’s not caring. It’s destructive and manipulative. Love is not manipulative or destructive.
The next thing that comes to mind is why would we love someone if we don’t get to manipulate them? What’s in it for us? When you create a pattern of caring for someone over and over to create a loving relationship and bond, they will also create a pattern of caring for you over and over. Love is based on self interest. It’s pretty impossible to love someone who destroys you or manipulates you. This is because they are not creating the pattern of caring for you over and over. It’s pretty impossible to love someone who doesn’t care for you.
Love is a two way street. Love is the combination of two people creating a pattern of caring for each other over and over with their actions. If someone doesn’t do caring acts for you, you will not love them. But you may mistake manipulative acts as caring. However, once you identify manipulation the love that you thought you had for someone disappears very quickly. Because the pattern is interrupted.
If love is about self interest, then what is self love. Self love is the act of caring for yourself over and over. It is creating a relationship with yourself where you trust that you will do what’s in your own best self interest. Self love is also about self interest. You have to do what is best for yourself. And you have to be able to trust that you will be able to identify and do what is in your own best interest. You develop this confidence in yourself and this self love by creating a pattern of caring for yourself over and over. Self love is just a pattern of actions. To develop or increase your self love, you just create more of a pattern, more caring acts. Self love becomes the norm when over time you always make decisions in your best interest. It’s when you can trust yourself to protect you.
Now this doesn’t mean love is selfish. Selfish people manipulate others. Loving people compromise when it doesn’t effect their self interest. Say you like Mexican food, but your friend likes Italian. It’s not going to hurt you to eat Italian with them. It’s a compromise and it’s a caring act. This is how you create a pattern of love.
Now say you are vegetarian and your friend wants to go to a steakhouse with no vegetarian options. It would be self sacrificing to go to the steakhouse. You would be giving up your self interest. However, maybe that person will do a caring act for you to make up for it. If your friend offers to buy you the best salad they have at the steakhouse because they really want to go there and then you get to pick the movie you both go see. That is compromise and it is a little self sacrifice. But your friend compensates you for your sacrifice. It’s transactional. And the sacrifice was compensated for.
Self interest doesn’t make you selfish. It increases your chances of survival. You are supposed to make decisions that encourage your evolution and survival. This is Darwinism. It is survival of the fittest. If you cannot identify and act on your own best self interest predators will kill you.
If you or your child have cancer there are three things you need to fix.
#1 Stop poisoning yourself and your children.
#2 Fix your or your child’s subconscious beliefs. The easiest way to do this is with you and I statements on a recording before bed and first thing in the morning.
#3 Fix gut bacteria with natural antibiotics and antifungals on a rotation. Plus, pharmaceutical worm pills are amazing at killing cancer. You can get these in quantities by crossing the border into Mexico. No prescription is needed and get different brands to rotate. This will help deal with tolerance.
Fixing gut bacteria is about killing bad bugs and growing good bugs. Yes, this can be done with food. But if cancer or any kind of chronic illness is present then you need to use food and natural antibiotics and antifungals. Prescription worm medication is not 100% necessary. But it is really effective and fast acting and often cheaper than herbs when bought in Mexico.
You will need to change your diet and eat fermented foods you make yourself. This is as easy as leaving milk out on the counter for a day or two. But you will also need to create different mixes of natural antibiotics and antifungals to overcome tolerance. When you take a natural antibiotic or antifungal, your body develops a tolerance. This is homeostasis in action. To overcome this you need to switch medicines/herbs every 5 to 10 days. It works best if you have 3-4 different mixtures you take. And remember when mixing natural antibiotics and antifungals mixing different kinds multiples the effects. They dont just add to the effects of each other, they multiply.
Also, try to keep as many of the natural antibiotics and antifungals as ones that do not kill your good bugs. This is not always possible, because some of the really strong killers kill all bugs. This is why it is important to eat fermented foods daily. Also, a mix of fermented foods are best. And no fermented foods with red spices. Those grow antibiotic resistant bacteria.
A treatment example:
Everyday: high dose vitamin C, high dose lysine powder( 2/day 30 minutes before meals), high dose iodine, high dose calicum, high dose vitamin D
First Rotation: Rx worm pills 2-3/day for 5 to 7 days
Second Rotation: Turmeric oil(powder has oxalates and hurts your kidneys), fresh garlic chopped finely and let sit for couple minutes and swallow, caprylic acid, oregano oil … 2-3/day for 5 to 7 days
Third Rotation: Woodworm, black walnut, aloe vera … 2-3/day for 5 to 7 days
Beware of grapeseed extract it works but it turns on MTHFR gene mutation that most of us have. All grapefruit things do this. So no grapefruit regularly.
This is just an example, but this is how I healed my cancer. If you can’t get rx worm pills, then just do three different mixes of natural antibiotics and antifungals. Try as many different kinds as possible because some will work better for you then others. Notice the ones that make you feel better and keep those ones in rotation. Rotating the 3 different mixes is what allows them to actually kill the bad bugs. And eating fermented foods is what helps you build more good bugs as you kill the bad bugs.
Lysine actually physically prohibits viruses from replicating. And most cancers and autoimmune diseases are caused by viruses. However, getting your gut bacteria in check is what will allow for remission and continued health after you kill off the cancer. It is probably best to continue some kind of mild treatment for a couple years afterwards. Maybe just taking a few natural antibiotics and antifungals in a rotation all the time. Buying herbs in bulk and making your own supplements is way more cost effective then buying them premade.
However, if you do not fix your subconscious beliefs you will not get better. On average science says it takes about 66 repetitions to rewire your brain completely. And again it is best to continue rewiring your brain for a couple years to really get it all in there solidly.
This will not only heal cancer it will heal most autoimmune diseases.
Also, it is great to add in some binders. Binders are substances that get heavy metals and toxins out of your body. Chorella, aloe vera, activated charcoal(do not take at same time with herbs or vitamins), high dose vitamin C, diatomaceous earth food grade are a few of my favorites. Beware of spirulina because it is high in arginine and grows the viruses in your body. Which is very counterproductive.
This is the blueprint for treating pretty much any kind of modern illness. Disease is epigenetic. There are only 6 diseases in the world that are caused by genes alone. So by changing your environment you can overcome epigenetics diseases like cancer and autoimmune diseases. Your body is your environment.
Violence is a result of immaturity. And it symbolizes a lack of self awareness. Therefore in order to end violence we all have to grow up and become aware of ourselves as a world and a collective. We can’t overcome worldwide violence without worldwide growth.
First, we need to become aware of violence in ourselves. It’s not good or bad. It just is. Awareness isn’t about judgement. It is about being aware. When you start judging, it is no longer awareness. It is judgement.
Why do we experience violence? Violence normally stems from some form of anger. We are angry our lives are in danger, so we lash out. We are angry our rights are stepped on. We are angry our freedoms are disregarded or belittled. We are angry our worldviews or opinions are not acknowledged. From anger stems violence.
So what is the root cause of anger? Anger is a secondary emotion. It is the result of being hurt. So when we act with anger in violence, it is because we are hurt. We fear for our lives and that hurts us. So we act out in anger and violence. Hurt is the primary emotion behind violence. Violence can be boiled down to hurt. Hurt people, hurt people. Because they are acting out that hurt as anger and violence.
Being grown up means seeing your actions as they really are. When you act out in anger and violence, you are doing so because you are hurt. And anger and violence is rarely if ever going to make that hurt go away. Most of the time it just perpetuates that hurt and continues it indefinitely.
An example would be myself. I so very badly want to lash out at the world and hurt you all. Because you have destroyed and hurt me in any way possible not just on this revolution, but throughout my 43 years of life. I am hurt by you all. And it logically makes sense that I want to lash out and hurt you all. It is completely logical and easy to understand. When someone hurts us we want to hurt them back. It is apart of Darwinism and survival of the fittest. An animal in the wild doesn’t just let another wild animal attack and kill it. The animal fights back and defends itself. It’s natural to fight back. It’s programmed in us to fight back. It’s darwinism. We are supposed to fight back.
But we also are designed to pay attention to our hierarchy of needs. We need to prioritize the things we need most. And we need to do what it takes to get those things.
If I lash out and hurt the world as the world has hurt me and I fight back as I am designed to do, I am never going to get my hierarchy of needs fulfilled. I would be forfeiting my dreams, goals, and potential. So yes, it is within my rights as a human being to fight back and hurt you all as you all have hurt me. But if I choose to do so I am forfeiting the things that matter most to me.
My dreams, goals, and potential are way higher on my hierarchy of needs than fighting back. It doesn’t make me weak to not fight back. It makes me stronger than any person in my family has ever been. I understand if I fight back I am acting on my hurt. And in doing that I would jeopardize and forfeit the things I really want in life.
Anger and violence come down to a decision. Do you want to act out on your hurt? Or do you want to be a grown up and do what is in your best interest so you can fulfill your hierarchy of needs?
Do you want to be stuck in the pattern of allowing your hurt to control and dictate your actions? Or do you want to act on self interest and what is best for you?
Granted this doesn’t mean allowing other people to attack and kill you. But it means fighting back in a way that allows you to meet your own needs without perpetuating violence.
Do you want what you really need? Or do you want to be petty and act out in violence because you are hurt and dont know how to be grown up and do what is in your best interest?
Violence is rarely ever in anyone’s best interest. And often people dont even understand that they are getting in the way of their dreams, goals, and potential by acting in violence.
Love is a social construct. But self is also a social construct. We have talked about how your ego is just a reaction to the environment and the roles pushed upon you. So, when you think of self, you are often thinking of your ego. But you are not your ego. Your ego is a reaction. And you are a being, a human being.
What is a human being? A human being is a collective of organisms. As a human being you are more parasite, virus, and bacteria cells than you are human cells. So, as a human being you are a collective of organisms. And most of your cells are not even human.
Microcosm-macrocosm is when you learn about the world to learn about yourself. Or when you learn about yourself, you learn about the world. So, what is Earth? Earth is just a collective of organisms. Just like human beings are a collective of organisms. We are all connected.
So, when we talk about the person you were born to be, we are talking about a being that is a collective of organisms. But this collective of organisms also belongs to a larger collective of organisms called Earth. We are all connected. This is oneness. We are taught to find this feeling in many spiritual practices. But rarely is it ever explained logically. We are a collective of organisms that belongs to an even larger collective of organisms. And this is where the idea of oneness comes from. It’s not a spiritual made up thing. It’s a fact and science.
So, if we are all connected because we all belong to the collective of organisms that is called Earth, than no act of love or kindness can technically be selfless. Because we are all connected. If we help another organism, we will benefit. Because we are all connected. So, there really is no self. And there is certainly no selfless love. All love is based on self interest. Because we are all one.
Time is a man made invention. Days exist. Years exist. The seasons exist. Morning, afternoon, and evening exist. But 3:05pm does not exist. Time is a man made construct.
Sometimes time flies. And other times it crawls. The sun rises and sets at different times all year long. Time isn’t consistent. But we treat it as it is because it makes running the world and civilization easier. It makes us civilized, right?
Race is a social construct. It’s not real. There is no test to find out what your race is. Sure, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not completely reliable, because people travel and move.
You people are a lot of different things. But you only seem to identify and categorize yourself by just one of those things. And that label you give yourself is what creates the patterns in behavior and epigenetics that make up race.
Basically you join a culture of other people who are a lot of different things, but who choose to identify as the same race as you. A culture is just a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. These beliefs create patterns in behavior and epigenetics. Because beliefs are your environment. And epigenetics are dictated by environment.
So when this stupid imaginary game gets you to identify with one race, really all that is happening is you are joining a culture. Race doesn’t exist. Sure we can trace back where our ancestors came from. But your ancestors aren’t you. And a lot of your ancestors didn’t live in the region that you identify with. And when you only display one part of yourself with loyalty and pride, it means all the other parts will make you feel inferior. Because if your race is the best, how can the other parts of you that are different races be good and valuable?
Race is a way to induce shame. Because shame means there is something wrong with you. Guilt means you made a mistake. But shame means there is something wrong with you. And you had no part in choosing the races you were born into. And God only makes one kind of human.
Race is just a way for this stupid imaginary game to control you and play mind games with you. Making you feel inferior. Race doesn’t exist. Your ancestors they existed. And yes they belonged to a culture and that culture influenced the circumstances you were born into. But you probably belong to a different culture. And that will make you different.
Race is a social construction. There is no scientific backing or tests to figure out race. Your culture does define you because your culture influences and determines your beliefs. And beliefs dictate epigenetics.
A study of European people of all kinds compared their facial features. This study discovered the differences in their facial features were only 14% genetic. You are like the race you identify with because you believe yourself to be that race. And join that culture. Culture dictates epigenetics. Because a culture is just a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. And beliefs dictate epigenetics.
Race doesn’t exist. It’s just another way to control you and your mind.
On day 1 of part 2, we took a tour of your brain. Let’s say someone put a chip in your head to try to brainwash you from the inside. It could save your life if you understood the regions of your brain and what your different kinds of thoughts feel like.
First, pay attention to what part of your brain lights up when you hear the following set of words. This may feel like a fuzzy feeling or heat. Try to pinpoint where the energy is in your brain.
Cake, sex, smoking, wine, chocolate, pizza, ice cream, happy, sad
Where did you feel the energy in your brain go when you heard those words? Did you feel the energy in the middle of your head behind your eyebrows? This is your reptilian brain. This is your survival brain. This is the part of your brain that makes you easy to control when you get stuck here. This is the reptilian experience. It is about survival.
Next, 2+2, 5×5, 10-8, 20+60, 10×4
What part of your brain did you feel light up for this sequence? Did you feel the top of your head above your reptilian brain come alive? This is your critical logical mind. This is where your spirit lives. When you are cut off from your critical logical mind you are cut off from your spirit and the human experience. Being human is about critical logical thought. Otherwise, you are just having a reptilian experience.
Next, hear that voice that says, “You deserve better than this.”
This voice has appeared throughout your life. Did you feel the very top of your head light up? Its above your critical logical mind. This is your crown chakra and the voice of God. God talks to you, you just have to listen. Your spirit and soul align with the voice of God in your head. So when you need to fact check yourself, cross reference the voice of God in your crown chakra. Your spirit and God will never clash. They always align.
Next, I am a good person. I am healthy. I do things everyday to bring me joy. I am achieving my purposes. I am living my destiny. I was born to change the world.
Where did you feel these statements in your head? Did you feel the top of your head below your crown chakra, but above your reptilian brain? This is again your critical logical mind and your conscious brain. This is where you live. This is your consciousness and your spirit.
Next, you are a good person. You are healthy. You do things everyday to bring yourself joy. You are achieving your purposes. You are living your destiny. You were born to change the world.
Where did you feel these statements in your head? Did you feel it in the back of your head by your reptilian brain and your critical logical mind? This is your subconscious. This is the part of your brain that runs the show about 95% of the time. It is your habit mind. Most of the beliefs in here were inserted from other people.
Your subconscious is a recording device. Did your Mom ever yell at you because she didn’t want to be a broken record? Your subconscious learns from broken records. The more you hear something, the more it will be etched into your subconscious beliefs. Even if it is not true.
You know those people who listen to country music about loosing their job, their boyfriend or girlfriend cheating on them, getting drunk, their dog getting run over by a car, etc. Those beliefs are in their subconscious, because they listen to those songs over and over. And often while driving and creating gamma brain waves. So, they are super etched in their subconscious.
Music is a great way to brainwash people because they will listen to it on their own over and over. Especially because people rarely just sit around listening to music. They are almost always doing other things at the same time, like driving or exercising. Which causes gamma brain waves. And we talked about how this causes extra plasticity in your brain, wiring and firing things in quicker. Plus, this releases dopamine reinforcing the behavior and making them want to listen to the music again. Music is a great way to program people to self destruct without them even realizing it. If you can control the messages in the music people listen to, you can control them and dictate their lives.
Your subconscious is always recording your experience. Whatever programs are downloaded in your subconscious are the programs it will run when it’s in charge 95% of the time. The beliefs you put in your subconscious, become the programs you run. The beliefs in your subconscious become your reality and life experiences. This is the most powerful part of your brain, because it is in charge 95% of the time.
Next, I am a good person. You are a good person. I am healthy. You are healthy. I do things everyday that bring me joy. You do things everyday that bring you joy. I am achieving my purposes. You are achieving your purposes. I am living my destiny. You are living your destiny. I was born to change the world. You were born to change the world.
Where did you feel those statements in your brain? Did you feel the “I” statements in your critical logical mind where your spirit lives? Did you feel the “you” statements in your subconscious that acts as a recording device? Did you feel how there was a tension in your brain between the two parts? It almost feels like two magnets when they repel each other.
This series of statements was wiring and firing the same beliefs into two different parts of your brain. The “I” statements where wiring it into your conscious. And the “you” statements were wiring it into your subconscious. And doing these together creates connections between your conscious and subconscious that are almost unheard of in regular human life.
These connections between your conscious and subconscious will enable you to achieve the life of your dreams effortlessly. Because your subconscious will automatically take you where your beliefs lead. Your subconscious is the boss. So if you want something in life you have to use your conscious mind aka your spirit to program your subconscious with the beliefs that will get you there. Your conscious and your spirit are only in charge 5% of the time. The chances of your critical logical mind overcoming your subconscious are almost nonexistent.
What are you listening to that your subconscious is recording and turning into your beliefs? Your beliefs are your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment.
Who in your life tells you who “you” are the most using “You” statements? This is the person who is programming you. But are they programming you to suceed or self destruct? More often than not this person is programming you to self destruct and live a life of pain and disappointment. Your life is a printout of the programs the people around you have inserted into your subconscious using “You” statements.
Let’s create some intelligence in your brain and set you up for success!
I am safe. You are safe. I am free. You are free. I am happy. You are happy. I am healthy. You are healthy. I am grateful. You are grateful. I am at peace. You are at peace. I am love. You are love. I am loved. You are loved. I am accomplishing my purposes in life. You are accomplishing your purposes in life. My body is healing. Your body is healing. My body is my home. Your body is your home. I am my ideal body weight. You are your ideal body weight. My heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality. Your heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality. My thyroid is balanced filling my body with energy. Your thyroid is balanced filling your body with energy. My healthy lungs fill my body with the oxygen I need to remain calm at all times. Your healthy lungs fill your body with the oxygen you need to remain calm at all times. My kidneys are healthy and strong allowing me to live without anxiety. Your kidneys are healthy and strong allowing you to live without anxiety. My liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing me to live without anger. Your liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing you to live without anger. My reproductive organs are healthy allowing me to create life. Your reproductive organs are healthy allowing you to create life. My pancreas is balanced allowing me to remain level headed at all times. Your pancreas is balanced allowing you to remain level headed at all times. My digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing me the nutrients I need to thrive. Your digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing you the nutrients you need to thrive. My gut bacteria takes care of me. Your gut bacteria takes care of you. My microbiome supports my health in every way possible. Your microbiome supports your health in every way possible. My skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from my body efficiently. Your skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from your body efficiently. My mind is clear and concise. Your mind is clear and concise. My soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive. Your soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive. I am reaching my potential. You are reaching your potential. I am deserving of the life of my dreams. You deserve the life of your dreams. I am deserving of anything I am willing to work towards. You deserve anything you are willing to work towards. I do things that bring me joy daily. You do things that bring you joy daily. I am connected to devine order. You are connected to divine order. I do things everyday to make myself a better human. You do things everyday to make yourself a better human. I am living my destiny. You are living your destiny. I was born to change the world. You were born to change the world.
On day 2 of part 2, we installed another program in your brain designed to create success.
I know who I am and honor my spirit. You know who you are and honor your spirit. I am beautiful inside and out. You are beautiful inside and out. My life is filled with joy and peace Your life is filled with joy and peace. I pursue my purposes everyday. You pursue your purposes everyday. Love surrounds me in every aspect of my life. Love surrounds you in every aspect of your life. I am grateful before things happen. You are grateful before things happen. I deserve excellence in every part of my life. You deserve excellence in every part of your life. My soul purpose is to be me and enjoy life. Your soul purpose is to be you and enjoy life. The people in my life value me and add value to my life. The people in your life value you and add value to your life. My posture supports optimal health. Your posture supports optimal health. My health excels in ways I never imagined possible. Your health excels in ways you never imagined possible. The inflammation in my body decreases everyday. The inflammation in your body decreases everyday. My body has devine intelligence, knowing what I need and healing. Your body has devine intelligence, knowing what you need and healing. Peace is my set point where I begin and end each day. Peace is your set point where you begin and end each day. My brain is creating more connections between my conscious and subconscious everyday creating intelligence. Your brain is creating more connections between your conscious and subconscious everyday creating intelligence. I am a limitless genius. You are a limitless genius. My epigenetics are becoming more optimal everyday. Your epigenetics are becoming more optimal everyday. My dreams, goals, and purposes come to me with ease. Your dreams, goals, and purposes come to you with ease. I am living my destiny. You are living your destiny. My life supports me in all ways. Your life supports you in all ways. I dream larger than life because my reality has exceeded my imagination. You dream larger than life because your reality has exceeded your imagination. My body feels better than ever before. Your body feels better than ever before. Good health engulfs me. Good health engulfs you. Everyday I change the world by sharing my skills and gifts. Everyday you change the world by sharing your skills and gifts. My body regulates my microbiome, killing parasites of all kinds with ease. Your body regulates your microbiome, killing parasites of all kinds with ease. I am weathly beyond belief. You are wealthy beyond belief. I am rich in every aspect of my life. You are rich in every aspect of your life. The relationships in my life make me a better person. The relationships in your life make you a better person. All my needs are met and I have security. All your needs are met and you have security. My home is my safe place. And my body is my home. Your home is your safe place. And your body is your home. My body takes care of me and my immune system is strong. Your body takes care of you and your immune system is strong. Life just makes sense to me. Life just makes sense to you. Being human is a gift I never fully experienced until 2024. Being human is a gift you never fully experienced until 2024.
On day 3 of part 2, we talked about personalized programming.
You know how when you get a new computer it has the basics on it, but nothing else. It has notepad, solitaire, and a calculator. But if you want to add specialized programs you have to do it yourself. Like if you want Excel, Turbo Tax, and Quickbooks you have to install those yourself. Well, we can work on programming ourselves together and this will give you an operational base for success. But you have to do personalized programs in order to achieve your specific dreams, goals, and purposes.
It’s just like making a grocery list when you want to make dinner. You write a list of the ingredients and go get them at the grocery store. Except, you make a list of the beliefs necessary to achieve your desired outcome. And you make a recording using a voice recorder on your phone. Then you put your phone on airplane mode while you sleep and have it play the recording on repeat all night. This will allow you to install the program into your subconscious when you are in a state of hypnosis, characterized by theta brainwaves. This state happens twice a day, right before you fall asleep and right as you wake up. This will enable you to succeed at whatever you desire. Mind over matter, right?
Let’s say you were sick and could barely move or think and were stuck in bed most of the day. Sure, you need to take vitamins, meditate, be positive, and focus on healing modalities. But really your first priority needs to be installing the programs to allow health into your life and body. If you have beliefs that say you are sick and dying, you won’t get well. No matter how much effort you put into doing yoga, positive thinking, heavy metal cleansing, etc.
If your programming is black and white, your life will be black and white. If your programming says you are sick, you will be sick. However, if your programming is technicolor, your life will be technicolor. And if your programming says you are healthy, you will be healthy. Your subconscious is in control 95% of the time and gets you to do things to reinforce your beliefs without you consciously knowing or understanding what you are doing. So if you believe yourself to be healthy, your subconscious will make you do all the healthy things to get you healthy. And maybe it wont take all the things if you have beliefs that support health in your life and body.
We have been taught to focus on matter and everything outside of us in efforts to achieve our dreams and goals. But you are the answer and the solution to everything. You change yourself and you get what you desire. Remember how much resistance you felt in your brain when we first started the “I” and “You” statement programming? It was intense. But how much resistance do you feel in your brain now when you listen to “I” and “You” statements. It’s noticeably less, right? And it has only been a couple days. This is your brain changing. This is you changing.
If we had been taught how to achieve our dreams in a manner that was effective, we all would have achieved more of our dreams. But what we were taught was to look outside of ourselves for the answers. Because this allows us to be easily controlled and lead astray and manipulated. If someone believes the answers to their problems are outside of themselves, they will always be seeking to consume and buy things in efforts of buying the answers they seek. Materialism and consumerism are rooted in our belief and program that the answers are outside of ourselves. That we are incomplete and need to obtain completeness outside of ourselves. Capitalism has been turned into materialism. Because capitalists who seek their potential are hard to control. But materialists who seek to buy the answers they desire and their happiness are extremely easy to control.
So, yes this way of doing things feels weird. And it feels a bit cheesy and wrong. But what if this is all it takes to make the life of your dreams a reality? What if all you have to do is listen to a recording a few nights a week as you sleep to achieve your goals? What if you could be your ideal weight without exercising excessively or dieting? Wouldn’t you try a fad diet if it promised to offer the results you have been looking for? Maybe this is the fad diet that you have been searching for your whole life. It’s merely about programming the beliefs into your subconscious about the body of your dreams.
What do you really have to loose? Because it only takes about an hour to make a specialized voice recording. And you have everything to gain. If you need proof that it will work, listen to the voice recording we did together for a week while you sleep. And after a week access how you feel. Because your brain will have been wired and fired to be different. Which means you will be different. If someone who doesn’t know you can compile a list of beliefs that make you feel better, imagine how much a list made by you would change your life.
On day 4 of part 2, we talked about changing the world together with our beliefs. Remember how I told you all that you are the power that people have fought wars over since the beginning of time? Well, allow me to explain myself.
Did you know that group meditation has been proven to change the world? There have been studies of groups of meditators who focused on reducing crime rates. These people didn’t have to get together in the same room. They just all focused on the same thing. Which was reducing the crime rate. And they created about a 20% reduction in crime. Not too bad, right? Mind over matter!
We talked about how we are all just energy. Your spirit is energy and your spirit lives forever. And your beliefs effect your epigenetics. But your beliefs also effect your energy. Energy is contagious. Have you ever been around someone who was happy and excited? It’s pretty hard not to smile around them, right? Have you ever been around someone who constantly rains on everyone’s parade? You start to dread being around this person, right?
Energy is contagious. You are contagious. Whatever feelings and beliefs you have, you spread throughout the world. People are always absorbing information from you with their nervous system and mirror neurons. So you are contagious and have the opportunity to be a revolution all on your own. Everyday you decide if you will make people smile or if you will rain on their parades. Just with the beliefs you have and your presence. Because beliefs are energy. And energy is contagious.
Now the meditators who reduced crime just consciously meditated on peace. Meaning they were only using 5% of their brain. But what if they programmed both their conscious and subconscious with the belief of peace. Do you think that would improve the results?
When there is a large group of people thinking the same thought at the same time, the world changes. It sounds hippie. But really it’s science because you are contagious. Energy is contagious. Beliefs are energy. Beliefs are contagious. Because beliefs are waves of energy. They are vibrations of energy. And vibrations flow from everything in the universe affecting our collective consciousness.
So you know how we have a subconscious mind, right? Your subconscious ties into everyone else’s subconscious. We are all connected. We are basically like one big organism. Remember your mirror neurons are in place to get you to jump off a bridge if everyone around you was jumping. You have control over others. But you don’t get to force people to do things. You have to be different, so their mirror neurons urge them to be different like you. And if a big group of people are being different more people will have the urge to be different like them.
Remember the equation for starting a cult? The third person will join or die. This is how heard mentality works. Currently, we are in a unique position. Because we are the majority. And if we change our beliefs and change the collective consciousness people will change to be like us. It’s science and rules of energy. It’s pretty neat, huh?
So today, let’s create some “You” and “I” statements to change the world. Installing this program and these beliefs will change the world because it will change the collective consciousness. The more of us who sleep with this recording on a loop, the more change we see in the collective world.
My world has changed for the better. Your world has changed for the better. My life keeps getting better and better each day. Your life keeps getting better and better each day. My world is filled with clean air, food, and water. Your world is filled with clean air, food, and water. In my world all people are equal and everyone deserves a good life. In your world all people are equal and everyone deserves a good life. In my world no one was born to be a slave or a slave master. In your world no one was born to be a slave or a slave master. The Earth supports my health. The Earth supports your health. I support the Earth. You support the Earth. My leaders support my growth, goals, and destiny. Your leaders support your growth, goals, and destiny. The people in my world respect and care for nature. The people in your world respect and care for nature. The oceans are clean in my world. The oceans are clean in your world. The ozone layer is repairing itself in my world. The ozone layer is repairing itself in your world. My family loves and cares for me. Your family loves and cares for you. My family isn’t necessarily the family I was born into. My family is the people who love and care for me. Your family isn’t necessarily the family you were born into. Your family is the people who love and care for you. My family cannot hold me hostage. Because I choose whether or not to be a willing participant. I deserve to be loved by my family and the people who surround me. Your family cannot hold you hostage. Because you choose whether or not to be a willing participant. You deserve to be loved by your family and the people who surround you. My family supports my dreams, goals, and purposes. Your family supports your dreams, goals, and purposes. The world supports my dreams, goals, and purposes. The world supports your dreams, goals, and purposes. My world is healthy and safe. Your world is healthy and safe. I earn my way in this world by sharing my skills and gifts. You earn your way in this world by sharing your skills and gifts. Destruction is not love in my world. Destruction is not love in your world. Love is the verb to describe the actions of the people in my world who care for me. Love is a verb, not a prison sentence. I am not required to love people who hurt me. Love is a verb to describe the actions of people in your world who care for you. Love is a verb, not a prison sentence. You are not required to love people who hurt you. In my world when people love me they make me feel good. In your world when people love you they make you feel good. In my world crime rates are almost nonexistent. In your world crime rates are almost nonexistent. My community is a safe place. Your community is a safe place. Children in my world are free of adult tasks because they are busy being children. Children in your world are free of adult tasks because they are busy being children. In my world children are safe and supported in all ways. In your world children are safe and supported in all ways. In my world when children are sick we hold the parents accountable. In your world when children are sick we hold the parents accountable. In my world having obese children is considered child abuse. In your world having obese children is considered child abuse.. In my world people are healthy and their ideal body weight. In your world people are healthy and their ideal body weight. In my world food is not used to kill people. In your world food is not used to kill people. In my world people do not poison each other, because that is wrong and attempted murder. In your world people do not poison each other, because that is wrong and attempted murder. My world is a beautiful welcoming place. Your world is a beautiful welcoming place. In my world, Nicole Graves is free to live a normal ordinary life with more than enough safety and security to have children. In your world, Nicole Graves is free to live a normal ordinary life with more than enough safety and security to have children.
On day 5 of part 2, we talked about how to love yourself.
Changing the world doesn’t really matter, if your inner world is a hateful place. Environment dictates epigenetics. And so the world around us has a lot of control over who we are. But your inner world and your beliefs have more control. Mind over matter, right?
If you don’t love yourself, your inner world is going to be your own personal hell. You have to love yourself before you can enjoy the world fully. And you have to love yourself before anyone else can really love you.
With the world the way it is and with the people who raised us not really loving us, loving yourself is a foreign concept. Loving yourself isn’t about being perfect. It’s about creating a bond with yourself based on love and care rather than trauma and neglect.
Remember how we talked about how no one has a real human connection or bond when we live in a world of people who poison each other? Destruction isn’t love. When people destroy each other their bonds are trauma bonds. We live in a world with no real human connections. The world operates out of trauma.
So if you have never experienced a real human bond, how do you create one with yourself? Well, you stop destroying yourself. You can only have a real bond with yourself based in love when you don’t destroy and hurt yourself on purpose.
In order to love yourself, you have to start caring for yourself. This means no longer destroying yourself. Love means only having good intentions for yourself. Sure, you will probably make mistakes sometimes and that’s okay. We all unintentionally hurt ourselves occassionally and that is apart of the human experience. But people are not intended to destroy themselves on purpose. This is a learned behavior and conditioning from living in a world with people who poison each other. You cannot have a true human natural bond with anyone while destroying them. You only create trauma bonds like this. So the first step in loving yourself is to stop destroying yourself in all ways.
Next, you have to love your family that you were born into. You do not have to allow them to continue to abuse and hurt you. You do not have to allow them in your life at all. But you do have to love them. Because they are apart of who you are. They may not deserve your love, but you deserve to love yourself. And if you hate your family, you will always hate parts of yourself. You can 100% hate everything they have done to you. You can even hate your childhood. But you have to love your family, because you deserve to love yourself.
No person is born evil. We all have good parts and bad parts. And some people evolve to have mostly bad parts. However, there are good parts to find in everyone. Take the good parts from your family and make those parts apart of who you are. Fix the bad parts you inherited from them, but keep the good.
Even Hitler had good parts. He taught me my love for small dogs. If it wasn’t for him I would have never wanted to get a small dog and I never would have known love. And this revolution would never have taken place without me knowing love. Because love is worth fighting for.
The small parts that you take from your family evolve and create the human you were destined to become. You dont have the option of leaving everything behind because you do get your genes from your family. And you probably will always look like them. You can overcome your genes with epigenetics. But why try to change the good things you inherited from your family? You should cherish those good things because they are your payoff from living through a lot of pain, trauma, and inhumanity. Maybe the good parts you inherit from your family will be the parts that lead you towards your purposes? Maybe those good parts will lead you to finding the reasons you were sent here to Earth. Maybe those good parts are why you were born into your family? Devine order means there is a reason you were put where you were. Just like the stars you are exactly where you are supposed to be.
It’s not possible to give up all the things you have in common with your family. You can change a lot and be completely different than them. You never have to be like them fully if you choose not to be. But there are some good parts you should hold tight to. And you need to love your family for these good parts. Because you deserve to love yourself. If you hate your family, you will always hate parts of yourself. You deserve better than that.
On day 6 of part 2, we talked about mental rehearsal and mind movies.
How do you actually make your dreams a reality? How do you actually manifest the life of your dreams? Well, there are of course the daily steps you take in the material world to create the life you desire. And those are important. But you can draw your dreams, goals, and purposes closer to you in the quantum field simply by rehearsing them in your mind.
You can call this mental rehearsal, mind movies, visualization, or daydreaming. But the only real important thing is that you go over what you desire to occur over and over in your mind. This wires and fires the experience into your brain. And your brain will think it has already happened. Which causes your subconscious to make it happen.
Remember your subconscious is in charge 95% of the time. What it believes to be true, it creates in your material world. So by picturing your desired outcome over and over, you are wiring and firing that outcome into your subconscious. What you make a habit of seeing in your mind’s eye becomes apart of your subconscious. Your subconscious is your habit mind. Your beliefs and habits become your reality.
On day 7 of part 2, we created a mind movie.
Everything is easier to do on your own after you experience someone else doing it. So, let’s create a mind movie together. Remember there really is no right or wrong way to do this. As long as you are mentally picturing something you want to experience, it will be wired and fired into your subconscious.
And yes, it’s important to do these mental rehearsals with the big moments in your life that change everything, but don’t forget about the moments that make up the majority of your life. Mentally rehearsing how you relax in the evening after work may be just as important as those big moments in life. Because you spend a lot more of your time relaxing on a weekday evening than you do in that moment that only takes one day of your life, but changes everything. How you relax and spend your free time can change everything too. So don’t overlook the small things that add up to become the majority of your life.
Picture this, it is a late Sunday morning. You spent the morning relaxing and doing whatever it is you enjoy doing on a weekend morning. It is a sunny spring day, warm but not too warm with a slight breeze. You ate dinner early last night and fasted because today you are having a late lunch or brunch with friends and/or family(dealer’s choice). You need to go to the grocery store to pick up a few more things before people arrive. You showered and put on one of your favorite outfits. You can feel the material against your clean skin.
Picture yourself healthier than ever before. This revolution has been great for you because you have become more human on a gene and cellular level. You produce more telemares because you are being of service and working on your purposes in life. Your DNA has fewer flaws and your epigenetics are more favorable. See yourself standing in your house grabbing your car keys. And notice how healthy you are and how you glow and radiate good energy. You have never seen yourself so healthy or at ease. What does it feel like to be a better version of yourself? What do you notice first?
You grab your car keys and your dog or your child may ask to come along to the store with you. Dealer’s choice if you bring them. You get outside and make your way to your car smelling the air and the breeze gently hitting your face and body. The air feels different nowadays. It feels cleaner and healthier. Like it’s doing something good for your body. Because now it has more minerals in it from remineralizing the soil. Plus, this eliminates some of the bad bacteria in the air. We have changed the gas and diesel so it no longer has bad bacteria. And this has changed the air quality dramatically as well. You find yourself breathing deep more than ever before. Breathing never felt so good. You notice the small things in life more now because you are calm and at ease.
And that folks is how you create a mind movie. It doesn’t have to be anything impressive. It can just be the ordinary things in life like getting ready to go to the grocery store real quick. Because these things make up the majority of your life. If you can create peace and happiness in the everyday ordinary moments your life will be a better quality.
On day 8 of part 2, we talked about your gut.
You have heard that saying about your gut being your second brain, right? Well, that’s not true. Your gut is in charge of your brain. Your brain is limitless. The limits you experience come from your gut.
Remember how your nervous system is a hoader? Well, you have more nerve cells in your digestion than anywhere else in your body. So, this is where the hoader lives. You collect information with your nervous system all day, everyday. Remember how your nervous system sends information to your brain for it to organize and store? Your gut bosses your brain around all day, everyday.
The quickest way to disable you not only physically, but also mentally is to mess with your digestion and gut.
So, let’s say we lived in a world where everyone poisoned everyone. People poisoning each other’s food would cut them off from their critical logical mind enough that they would never think about the ramifications of poisoning each other. Even if they had a device they held in their hand everyday that would tell them what they were doing to themselves and each other. Pretty nuts, huh?
On day 9 of part 2, we talked about your gut bacteria.
You are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. You are a collective of bugs. If you kill your bugs, you kill your potential in all ways and then you die. Without your bugs you won’t be able to protect yourself, let alone live a good life.
If your gut controls your brain, you need to understand your gut bacteria. A doctor from Italy who now lives and practices in Spain described this the best. She said that your gut bacteria is a civilization inside of you. There are tourists and there are residents. Your residents establish themselves in the first 2 years of your life. And throughout your life some tourists decide to stay and take up residency. But mostly your residents stay the same after the first 2 years of your life.
Your residents eat protein and fat. And your tourists eat carbs. And tourists can sometimes stay for a few months.
Let’s say we lived in a world where women destroyed their children, your gut bacteria would be where your self destruct button is found. Because your mother gave you a civilization of gut bugs intended to kill you and make you sick. Plus, immunizations have bad bacteria, heavy metals, and antibiotics in them in varying amounts. There is no standardized immunization dose because they are taken out of a vial and the person administering them adds their own poison.
When protein and/or fat goes through your colon, aka your large intestine, it feeds the gut bacteria implanted in you when you were a child. This bacteria was put here to make you self destruct. If you were born after 1990 or 1991 that is when the immunization schedule was changed and increased. So you will have even more destructive bacteria in your colon.
All bad bacteria causes insulin resistance. So if you notice your insulin gets harder to control the more protein and fat you eat, this is one of the contributing factors. The less protein and fat you eat, the less you feed the self destruct button implanted in you. And the more you will be able to think clearly.
On day 10 of part 2, we talked about the Holy Trinity of health.
There are only about 6 diseases that are genetic. The rest are epigenetic. The more you improve your epigenetics, the more you eliminate disease from your life.
The Holy Trinity of health are gut bacteria, mitochondria, and epigenetics. They exist in a triangle that goes around and around creating a snowball effect in your life and body. This snowball can be positive or negative based on your choices and how you live your life.
Your gut bacteria dictates the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. Everyday your body is creating new cells with new mitochondria. And mitochondria write messages into your cells. These messages in all the cells of your body add up to be your epigenetics. So everyday you are either becoming more human or subhuman on a gene and cellular level.
To eliminate disease and improve your health you need to interrupt this loop by improving your gut bacteria. Which will improve your mitochondria and then epigenetics. Even if you have one of the very rare diseases caused by genes, improving your epigenetics will improve your overall health and ability to have a good life.
Today, on day 11 of part 2, let’s talk about how to find yourself and God.
We talked about where to find yourself and God already, remember? Your spirit is in your critical logical brain in the middle of your head. And God is at the top of your head in your crown chakra. Which is right above your critical logical brain.
Where and how are two completely different questions. Just because you know where something is doesn’t necessarily mean you know how to get there. Remember how your critical logical brain is cut off from your access when you have disbiosis, which is just a fancy word for an overgrowth of bad bugs? Well, you access your spirit and God through your critical logical brain. So if you have dysbiosis, you will not be able to access your spirit or God freely.
Next you may be wondering, what is the difference between good bugs and bad bugs? Good bugs create a symbiotic relationship with you, so you can both reach your potential and have good lives. Good bugs understand that it is in their best interest to not only keep you alive, but to keep you in the best health possible. Where as bad bugs will eat you alive. They do not care that if they kill you they will be killing their home and themselves. They have no regard for self interest. They just take, take, take, until they can’t take anymore and you are dead. Pretty stupid, huh? But I bet you can think of a lot of people who are like this, right?
You are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. If you have an overgrowth of parasitic bugs, you will act like a parasite. However, if you have mostly symbiotic and good bugs you will seek to create win win relationships in your life and world. God is only interested in win win relationships and so is your spirit. God will not plot with you on how to take, take, take, until you destroy everyone and everything around you. And neither will your spirit. Remember God and your spirit always align.
1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.
2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.
3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.
5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.
Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.
This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.
The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.
6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.
Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.
7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.
8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.
The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.
9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.
These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.
People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.
10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.
To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion, dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.
Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.
11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.
12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.
13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.
14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.
15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.
16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.
17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.
These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.
I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.
18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.
19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.
20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.
You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.
21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.
22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.
23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.
Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.
24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.
All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.
If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.
25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.
26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.
They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?
27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.
Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.
28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.
29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.
30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.
31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.
32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.
Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.
You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food. When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.
If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.
All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs. If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.
33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?
Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.
Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.
33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.
This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.
This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.
34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.
Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.
My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.
36. WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.
37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.
38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.
39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.
Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?
40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.
41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.
Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.
42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.
43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.
P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.
This was a quick read. I read it in one night. The format is not traditional. It has lyrical poetry format. Which I surprisingly liked. I don’t think I could write in this form without a lot of practice because my words do not have rhythm when I hear them in my brain when I writing. I always wonder how people hear rhythm. Writing poetry or music has to be a different part of the brain. But I am not sure what part it is. I know it is the creative brain. But it is a part of my brain that I don’t know how to activate. Do you all hear rhythm in things? It would make thinking very different and musical. Tonality is a big part of vibration and mood. I think too fast to have music going on with my thoughts in my brain. If I had music in my brain, it would definitely be techno music. I have no clue how to write techno poetry. What an interesting thought! I am high, they poison me so much at the library when I am working on my writing. Or just in general lately. The guy next to me is having a shitting fit and running back and forth to the restroom from all the poisons.
Yrsa’s way with words allowed for me to relate to her story more. She is a black woman from Jamaica who grew up in Northern England. Poetry is her thing. Her escape and way of making sense of her feelings. It was a good book. It was a kind of sad story. Her mother died at a young age, after struggling to raise her and her brother. Yrsa and her brother had to live with their grandparents when growing up at times. So their mother could work nightshifts as a nurse to have enough money to raise them and get by.
“We were not inclined to cleaning, even after all of the meticulous attention to detail we had been taught. Especially after that. At Grandma’s, wiping our faces in the hand towel would earn us a slap. At Mum’s Little Roo and I could do what we wanted. So we did.”
I grew up in a strict household as child. It was different than the household my brother grew up in. Which was the same house with the same Mom, but boy was it different. The house I grew up in was militantly cleaned, ocd cleaned. But after my parents divorced, my Mom’s house turned into a mess. She attaches to things way easier than people. Which makes her a bit of a hoarder. Not bad like the shows on tv, but enough that it is messy.
I am not hoarder. But I am not ocd clean either. Cleaning products have so much poison in them. And my Mom used to get me to clean when I was little and poisoned me with cleaning products. So I have a bit of trauma related to cleaning. I suppose people who grew up in strictly clean houses all have a bit of trauma related to cleaning. It is weird how it makes you just not want to be much into cleaning. What is worse the poison from the cleaning products or the mess from not cleaning? I still have not found the middle ground for this one. Being homeless has helped eliminate this struggle a lot.
“Not one of us can play house well.”
My family never taught me how to live. They just taught me how to play house. So this hit home.
“I do imagine the gravity of what I’m doing. I do consider soul damage. If the very physicality doesn’t get you, it’s the paranoia. What would people think? What would people think of this? What would anybody think?”
Yrsa said this in response to her involvement in the adult industry. I suppose this is why most women do not take part in the only industry where women make more money than men.
“And if we are to survive, what’s it for what is it all for and why why why danger every single day why the everlasting blanket of short breath and stress, anxiety and panic, why the frequency of fear are we coming of age till we die might we burn up in hellfire because we are wrong things always wrong things doing wrong things…”
This is how I feel about life a lot of times. It is relatable because why do we go through all we go through? What is it all for? What’s the point? There is no one right answer to the question of what is the point to life. Somedays I wish there were. Some days I am glad there is not.
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Buddhists believe in a fundamental “point” or purpose to life, which is to achieve enlightenment and escape the cycle of suffering and rebirth (samsara) through the attainment of Nirvana.
This is the best path I have found so far. But I really don’t know if we will ever know what the point of all of this is until we are close to death or dead. I suppose we just have one prolonged and continual existential crisis until we die. Maybe that is what life is? Life is the search for meaning. And we all find different meaning.
Who knows? Somedays I feel like my life has meaning, other days I want to start world wars, but I am always smart enough to know world wars are not the answer. Which seems to rain on my parade a lot. Being smart is annoying sometimes. The good news is I can use it to annoy other people.
I would recommend this book, not necessarily for the content, but for the format. I really liked the format. It is a memoir. But yet it is poetry. I normally do not like poetry. But you all know I like memoirs a lot. I would really like to read more memoirs in this lyrical format.
On day 1, we talked about how all you have to do is listen to these talks to reprogram your subconscious. Your subconscious is your habit mind. Repetition is how it learns. However, if you would like to speed up this process there are a few things you can do.
First, you can listen to this before bed or just after waking up. This works because of theta brain waves. Second, you can listen with headphones, because your brain can’t tell the difference between the voice in your ears and the voice in your head. And lastly, you can do movement while listening to improve the speed of programming your subconscious. This activates gamma brain waves and creates more plasticity in your brain. And this movement can be anything from deep breathing, to doing dishes, to walking your dog, etc. Motion creates emotion. Because emotion is just energy in motion.
Your nervous system is constantly collecting information. And it is so good at what it does that it can overwhelm your brain. When this happens you feel stressed or anxious.
Your brain has the job of organizing and storing all the information your nervous system collects. Your brain creates a library that will dictate if you are able to achieve your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. That is a lot of pressure for your brain. And your nervous system is a hoader and collects all the information it can get its hands on.
So, when your brain has these moments where it feels overwhelmed you just need to turn your nervous system off for a few seconds to allow your brain to catch up. You can do this with holding your head in place and rapidly moving your eyes from side to side. This rapid eye movement will turn off your stress response from your reptilian brain. It only takes 10 to 30 seconds of doing these rapid eye movements to feel relief.
On day 2, we talked about how you need to teach your brain to filter information in order to create value. And not create a junkyard of useless information. If your brain stores all the information your nervous system collects you will never be able to achieve your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. You only have so much time on Earth. You have to focus on what you want to accomplish and what will help you get there.
The key to teaching your brain to filter the information from your nervous system effectively is to know yourself. When you know who you are and what you want to accomplish in life, then you know the information that is important to you. If everyone collected the same information, we would all lack value.
If you partake in keeping up with the Jones and start to value everything everyone around you values, it diminishes your own value. And it erodes your chances of accomplishing your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. No one was sent to Earth to pretend to be like everyone else. You came here with purposes unique to you. And you have skills and gifts that will help you accomplish these purposes. If you spend your life preoccupied with pretending to be like everyone else, you will never find your skills and gifts. Then you won’t figure out your purposes in this life. And then you definitely will not be able to accomplish those purposes, let alone your dreams and goals.
Being you is the key to not only creating a valuable library in your brain. But it’s key to knowing who you are, finding your skills and gifts, and figuring out your purposes in this life. Part of your purposes is to share your skills and gifts with the world. Now what you are supposed to accomplish by sharing your skills and gifts with the world is up to you.
On day 3, we talked about how to get to know yourself. Everyone says they know themselves, but if they really did would the world be so lost? Knowing yourself isn’t a mystical or mysterious experience. Knowing yourself is just like knowing someone else.
In order to know yourself, you have to spend time with yourself. You literally spend time getting to know someone else. You need to do the very same thing with yourself. You spend time getting to know yourself while doing things that bring you joy. You are a human being. Knowing yourself is about knowing how you like to be. Making a list of the things you like and memorizing it will not help you get to know yourself. You have to spend time with yourself in the state of joy. When you are in a state of joy, you are the person you are meant to be. We were sent to Earth to be in joy. We were sent here to enjoy ourselves. Find your joy and you will find yourself.
On day 4, we talked about the two inheritance systems. Almost all the information you collect throughout your life, comes from these two systems of learning from other people. The symbolic inheritance system is written information like charts, maps, graphs, books, hieroglyphics, etc. And the behavioral inheritance system is when you learn from watching other people do things.
Both of these systems are fallible. But the behavioral inheritance system comes with great dangers. See when you see someone do something, your brain fires and wires as if you did the thing. This is your mirror neurons creating this chain reaction. Monkey see, monkey do describes your mirror neurons. If everyone around you was jumping off a bridge, your mirror neurons are designed to get you to jump too.
Any time you are around someone else your mirror neurons are wiring and firing information from your nervous system into your subconscious about that person. The dangerous part is your nervous system is a hoader and collects everything it can get it’s hands on. So not only are you wiring and firing in the good parts of that person and the things you want to learn from them, you are also wiring and firing in the disasters of their life into your subconscious. So, you may not even consciously realize they are there.
We all know that person who is amazing at something and we admire them. But we also see how the rest of their life is a complete and utter disaster. This person sadly is dangerous. Because even though they have mastered something amazingly, our mirror neurons are collecting information from their whole life when we are around them.
Your nervous system is a hoader. It can’t help but collect all the information it can get it’s hands on. Your nervous system was designed to keep you alive. The more information you have, the more likely you are to survive.
Only recently in the modern day world has life shifted to be about filtering information. For most of the history of human beings, life has been about gathering information. But nowadays, we all have access to more information than we know what to do with. Just recently human beings have shifted from creating value in life by gathering information to creating value by filtering information. Your nervous system was designed to keep you alive in a world where information was scarce.
On day 5, we talked about how to overcome your mirror neurons and the people around you with your critical logical mind. You do not have to partake in the blind leading the blind, if you choose to see the world for how it really is. And you see the world for how it really is by using your critical logical mind to find the truth.
The average American is poor, fat, unhealthy, unhappy, and divorced. These are the results if you choose to do the things that people around you are doing without using your critical logical mind. The world is more lost than ever before. We have more information than ever before, but we don’t seem to be using this information.
When you do not filter the disasters your nervous system fires and wires into your subconscious from the people around you, then your life becomes a disaster. You do not have to be a slave to your mirror neurons and the disasters they collect. However, in order to overcome these disasters in your subconscious you have to use your critical logical mind to become conscious of your actions.
The practice of mindfulness is all about not creating the disasters you have stored in your subconscious in your own life. All you have to do is see the world for how it really is. But that also includes seeing yourself for who you really are. Being mindful can be painful. But living a disaster of a life can be much worse.
You have to use your critical logical mind in order to not be a slave to the disasters your mirror neurons and nervous system collect because they are stored in your subconscious. You won’t know they are there until you become conscious of them. Mindfulness is about consciousness and awareness.
On day 6, we talked about how you have to use your critical logical mind to overcome your subconscious and the disasters from your mirror neurons. But how do you actually go about doing that? It sounds confusing. But it’s not. It’s just about knowing how to be proactive, rather than in a reactive state and a victim of the people around you. You can be a product of your environment. Or you can be the person you are meant to be.
Your nervous system and mirror neurons are always collecting information. And they store this information in your subconscious. In order to overcome this, you need to be mindful and aware of what you are doing. But you also need to collect the information you need to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. Your subconscious is your default setting. But you can be proactive and get in the driverseat of your life with your conscious mind and your critical logical mind.
You must become aware and conscious of the information you need in order to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in life. And then you need to consciously work on collecting this information with your critical logical mind. If you expect your subconscious to collect all the information you need to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life you will not get very far. And your life will most likely become a complete disaster. Just like the life of the average American. You should want more for yourself.
Gama brain waves are key to creating intelligence. When you are consciously collecting information with your critical logical mind you need to access gamma brain waves. Our brains were designed to create extra plasticity when we were running from predators. The key to this extra plasticity is gamma brain waves. The more gamma brain waves you have the more intelligent you will be. And you need all the intelligence you can get to overcome the people around you who make up your environment.
Creating gamma brain waves is the key to overcoming the disaster of the world around you, aka your environment. Gamma brain waves are key in guaranteeing you accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. Gamma brain waves are intelligence.
On day 7, we talked about how humans have the need to enslave the people around them in an effort to conquer the world. Your brain and mirror neurons were not created with this in mind. But neither was your body. When your body is not operating properly, you cannot access your critical logical mind or gamma brain waves. When your body is not operating properly, it is almost impossible to create intelligence. Thus, leaving you a slave to your subconscious and the disasters from the people around you.
In the old days, these people who tried to enslave us were easy to identify. They would burn down our villages. But nowadays these people claim to be our friends and family. These people who wish to enslave us have us surrounded in every aspect of our lives.
In WWII these people preoccupied with destruction and slavery, sent people they wished to enslave to concentration camps. But today they just turn your body and mind into the concentration camp. It’s easier to enslave you, if you don’t realize what is happening. You don’t try to fight back.
Modern day slavery is done with a thousand pieces of broken glass. One small piece of broken glass will cut you and make you bleed, but it most likely won’t kill you. However, a thousand small pieces of broken glass may.
Toxins represent the broken pieces of glass in modern day slavery. When your body is not operating properly you cannot access gamma brain waves and your critical logical mind. This leaves you a slave to your subconscious and the disasters of your mirror neurons. While creating disease in your body and rendering you helpless, unable to save yourself. You look for a savior outside yourself, but only find people who wish to enslave you more and kill you. But these people often tell you they care about you and are trying to help you. And if they are close to you, they will probably even tell you that you are hard to love as they try to kill you.
Epigenetics is how we get to choose who we are. We all are born with genes like our family, but your environment and how you live your life dictates how these genes are switched on and off like light switches. Methylation is one of the processes that switches your genes on and off. It’s like a little man running around in the house of your body turning on and off the lights. The lighting of your life depends on methylation.
Toxins inhibit proper methylation. The more toxins in your life, environment, and body the more you do not methylate properly. When you don’t methylate properly, you are switching on and off genes that make you more subhuman on a gene and cellular level. And this is how your body and mind are turned into a concentration camp where there is rarely an escape.
On day 8, we talked about culture and leadership. Do you think the leaders of the people who wish to enslave us in efforts of conquering the world want their followers to think critically and logically?
A culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. These shared beliefs create patterns in behavior. Our beliefs are our environment. Our culture is our environment. Every leader is a cult leader. Because every group of people has shared beliefs that create a culture.
It only takes three people to create a cult: a leader, a follower, and the third person will join or die. The third person normally follows suit rather quickly due to mirror neurons, heard mentality, conditioning, a lifetime of disasters fired and wired into their subconscious, etc. The equation for creating a larger cult is the same. You just multiple the last two variables. The more followers you have, the more quickly people will fall in line with your culture.
Let’s say you wanted to get your cult followers to enslave the people around them in efforts to conquer the world. How would you go about getting that to happen? Well, the first variable is you have to identify your enemy or scapegoat. Then, you tell your cult followers that all their problems and hardships are due to this person or group of people. You lead your followers to believe that their ability to get their needs met will be inhibited even more by this scapegoat. Creating more pain and hardships in their lives. And you instill not only a sense of fear, but a sense of urgency too. Then you enlist your cult followers in a crusade against your scapegoat. Your cult followers will sign up willingly, because they believe they have no other option.
Now this equation could take a very long time and be extremely labor intensive. Not to mention it would require a lot of patience. It could take years to get all these variables in place, maybe even decades. How do you suppose you could speed up this process? Wouldn’t it be easier if your cult followers did not think critically or logically?
Throughout history some of the greatest evils that have embarked on creating a crusade, have created and released toxins into our environment. This damages our ability to methylate. Making our epigenetics more subhuman. And it cuts us off from our critical logical mind, while creating disease in our bodies. It speeds up the time it takes to create a crusade, genocide, or world war greatly. Work smarter not harder, right?
The people around you who try to enslave you and turn your body and mind into a concentration camp have just been enslaved themselves. Their body and mind have been turned into a concentration camp, but they don’t realize what is happening. Because they have been cut off from their critical logical mind. They are unable to access gamma brain waves and create intelligence.
Your ability to access gamma brain waves and your critical logical mind relies on everyone around you methylating properly. Yes, you need to methylate properly. But more importantly, the people in your environment need to methylate properly. Environment dictates epigenetics. A cell can only be as healthy as it’s environment allows. If the people around you do not methylate properly, they will try to enslave you in efforts of conquering the world. Because they do not have access to their critical logical mind.
There will always be cult leaders looking to enslave the people who follow them. There will always be descendants of the greatest evils throughout history. The only way to ensure you have access to your critical logical mind and gamma brain waves is to ensure the people around you methylate properly. The only way to ensure your body and mind are not turned into a concentration camp is to ensure the people around you methylate properly. Those people are your environment. Environment dictates epigenetics.
We can’t kill everyone in the world who will try to enslave the people who are in their cult following. But if we can guarantee everyone has access to their critical logical mind and the ability to create intelligence with gamma brain waves, we can create a safe environment. A cell can only be as healthy as it’s environment. Your environment dictates your epigenetics. Your beliefs are your environment.
On day 9, we talked about emotional intelligence. When you are cut off from your critical logical mind, you are a slave to your emotions. This is another way your body and mind are turned into a concentration camp.
Emotions can be a lie. Because emotions can be created by the disasters your mirror neurons collect in your subconscious.
Event + Belief = Emotion
When you have an emotion you need to think about what is causing this emotion. Just because something happens in your life, does not mean you are guaranteed to experience a certain emotion. Your environment is dependent on your perception. Your beliefs create your emotions. Your beliefs create your environment. But once again the disasters in your subconscious could be creating a disaster in your emotions and your life.
Emotion + Critical Logical Mind = Feeling
Emotions are not logical. And therefore, they are not trustworthy. But feelings are logical. And they are trustworthy.
When you experience an emotion you need to filter it through your critical logical mind to turn it into a feeling. You can trust your feelings. But you cannot trust your emotions. Emotions can be manipulated. Emotions can be a lie. Trust your feelings.
Happiness = Satisfaction ÷ Desires
When you are not at ease or depressed, you need to ask yourself why. So you can address the variable in your life that is causing this dis-ease. Happiness is satisfaction divided by desires. What do you desire that you are not satisfied with? What are you not getting? What part of your life is lacking? What variable do you need to pay more attention to? What information do you need your critical logical mind to collect that will allow you to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in that area of your life?
Emotions and feelings are important variables in life. You just have to know the equations to plug them into. You are an equation. You can choose to say you hate math and continue to be miserable. Or you can do the work and figure out the variables of your life.
On day 10, we talked about the meaning to life. Since the beginning of time people have tried to figure out the meaning to life. Why are we here? What does this all mean? This human experience on Earth has a lot of illusions.
Let’s look at the science and reality of this human experience. You are energy. Energy never dies. It only changes form. You are an eternal being. You just change forms. So yes, you only have so much time here on Earth as a human being, but there is life after this human experience.
Energy is power. And you are energy. Your energy never dies. As a human being on Earth, finding your power is about finding you and your energy. Your energy is your power.
It is more simple when we call the energy that is you, your spirit. Your spirit lives forever. Your spirit never dies. It just changes form. You just change form. It’s not mystical. It’s science. Energy has to go somewhere. It doesn’t just disappear into thin air.
Based on this the equation for finding your power here on Earth as a human being is:
You = Your Power
You equal your power. Finding your personal power here on Earth is simply about finding you. You just have to find the energy that is your spirit and you will find your eternal power.
This means when you pretend to be like the people around you, you are giving up your power. If you feel helpless in life, it is because you are giving up your power. Retaining your personal power here on Earth is about being true to your spirit. And that means being you.
Next let’s tackle, what does this human Earth experience all mean? We all want to know why we are here. We suffer so much and finding meaning makes that suffering not hurt so bad. So if you are your power, why are you here? Well, you are here to accomplish your purposes in life.
Your Purposes = Your Meaning
The meaning to life and why you are here is different for each of us. But the equation is the same. You are here to accomplish your purposes in life. This is what gives your life meaning. And it is different for each of us based on our purposes.
When you are being of service and accomplishing your purposes in life, your body recognizes your efforts. Your beliefs create your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment. When you are being of service and accomplishing your purposes here on Earth you will be rewarded.
Telemares are created by an enzyme that is produced when you are being of service. Telemares are the secret to life and the fountain of youth. DNA need telemares to replicate without degrading. When you lack telemares you age and degrade. The fewer telemares you have the more subhuman you will be on a gene and cellular level. Your DNA will start to have flaws.
You are your power. Your purposes are the meaning to why you are here on Earth. The more you accomplish your purposes, the more you will be rewarded.
On day 11 we talked about Darwinism and survival of the fittest. Evolution is about survival of the fittest. The members of a species who develop their skills and gifts the most are the ones who are supposed to move forward. When you accomplish your purposes on Earth you are rewarded, right?
Over time every species is supposed to become more dynamic with more skills and gifts and develop more specialties. This is to ensure the survival of the species. This is to ensure evolution. We must evolve in order to move forward.
When an animal is attacked in the wild, that animal has to fight back to survive. It’s Darwinism. We are supposed to fight back when someone attacks us. You were not designed to just allow people to attack and kill you. You were designed to fight back. God doesn’t punish people for fighting back. It’s Darwinism.
Members of the same species are not supposed to attack each other. But when they do it is kill or be killed. God doesn’t punish people for fighting back. It’s Darwinism and survival of the fittest. You are supposed to fight back and defend yourself. Attacking someone is rarely acceptable. But fighting back is always expected.
On day 12, we talked about jealousy. Jealousy stems from the belief you are replaceable.
Event + Belief = Emotion
If you see someone with something you desire and you experience jealousy, that is a sign you believe yourself to be replaceable. When you know who you are and know no one can fill your shoes, you do not feel jealousy. Instead, you figure out what you need to do in order to get what you desire.
Happiness = Satisfaction ÷ Desires
Figure out how to fulfill your desires and you will be happy. Jealousy stems from believing you are replaceable. You are an eternal being who is incredibly irreplaceable and priceless. When you see your worth, jealousy will no longer be an issue. And when you see your worth, other people will too.
On day 13, we talked about choosing yourself. You cannot wait for someone else to choose you in order to see your own worth. You have to choose you and see your own worth first. If you wait for someone else to choose you in order to see and find your own worth, then your worth will be in that person’s hands. When they no longer choose you, you will cease to have worth again.
The only way to really be powerful and have value is to see your own value first. When you let someone else choose you first, you are putting your value in their hands. And that is another form of giving up your power.
Choosing yourself first is the first step in finding your spirit and claiming the power that is you as your own. You are a sovereign being. You are just like a sovereign country. Claim your land and your power, by claiming who you are. You have to see your power and own worth first.
On day 14, we talked about how to become more powerful. In order to increase your power, you have to increase your value. Which really just means you have to bring more value to the world.
More Value = More Power
But how do you actually go about doing that? You simply spend more time doing things you enjoy. When you are in a state of joy and creating gamma brain waves you are increasing your value.
Joy + Gamma Brain Waves = Flow State
The more skills and gifts you discover and develop, the more value you bring to the world. The more value you bring to the world, the more powerful you will be.
Flow state is merely doing things that bring you joy while creating gamma brain waves. This creates extra plasticity in your brain. Plasticity is intelligence. Intelligence is value and power. Intelligence is skills and gifts.
More Value = More Power
On day 15, we talked about luck.
Luck = Preparation + Opportunity
Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. You can create good luck in your life merely by preparing yourself to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes now. You do not have to see how the opportunity will come into your life. You merely have to prepare yourself to seize the moment when the opportunity does appear.
If you wait, it will be too late. Opportunity will not sit around waiting for you to prepare yourself. So you need to prepare before the opportunity comes into your life. There is always something you can do to prepare yourself and create more value.
Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. Prepare now to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes. And the opportunities will come.
On day 16, we talked about gamma brain waves.
Gamma brain waves are created by using both your conscious and your subconscious brain at the same time. You know that saying about walking and chewing gum? That’s about gamma brain waves.
When you use both your conscious and subconscious brain at the same time it creates connections in your brain. The more connections you have, the more intelligence you have. You know how you create a shortcut on your phone home screen to get to your favorite app? When you create gamma brain waves you are creating shortcuts in your brain.
Also, when you create gamma brain waves you are creating a rush of neurotransmitters. You know that saying about getting high on life? Gamma brain waves are how you get high on life.
The more time you spend creating gamma brain waves and creating shortcuts in your brain, the more high you can get in a shorter amount of time. And your brain reinforces this behavior by producing dopamine which gives you another rush through your reward system. This is to wire in the urge to do whatever you are doing again. This is part of how addiction is created. Our brains love intelligence so much they will reward you to create them by any means necessary. So if you partake in creating gamma brain waves in a maladaptive manner, your brain will crave that activity. No matter how good it is for you or the people around you.
Let’s say you partook in munchausen by proxy and covertly poisoned people. This would produce gamma brain waves. And it would give you a rush of neurotransmitters. Your brain would release dopamine as one of those neurotransmitters, to reinforce this behavior in your reward system. And it would produce serotonin which would make you happy and activate your immune system and homeostasis in your body. You would physically, mentally, and spiritually feel better after poisoning people. Plus, this enlarges the ganglia in your brain which causes you to live in anticipation. So not only would that moment feel good, but you would live in anticipation of doing it again.
Now let’s take it one step further. Let’s say the food system was rigged with more protein to stop you from producing serotonin when you ate. Eating carbs without protein is how your gut produces serotonin and regulates your immune system and homeostasis. So the only way you know how to produce serotonin in order to make you feel happy and regulate your immune system and homeostasis is by partaking in the maladaptive coping mechanism of munchausen by proxy.
Gamma brain waves can wire and fire anything into your brain. And it will make you feel good about whatever you are doing. The flood of neurotransmitters will make you feel better physically, mentally, and spiritually. But what you are doing can be harmful.
On day 17, we talked about how to move on after trauma or hardship. We all experience tough times. But how do we move forward and not let those hardships or traumas hold us hostage in the past?
You need to create wisdom in order to move forward. This takes a hardship and creates value out of it.
Wisdom = Memory – Emotion
When you experience trauma you need to take those emotions and filter them through your critical logical mind to create feelings.
Emotion + Critical Logical Mind = Feeling
You may have to consciously seek out information about the hardship or trauma with your critical logical mind in order to make sense of it all. Turning emotions into feelings requires logical understanding of the event and/or situation. However, once you turn the emotions associated with this event into feelings you can move forward.
Feelings do not require further review. You merely file them away in your conscious mind as wisdom. And then you are not stuck in the past trying to make sense of your emotions. Once wisdom is created you are free to move forward and on with your life.
Wisdom = Memory – Emotion
On day 18, we talked about epigenetics and beliefs.
You were born with 50% of your genes from your Mom and 50% from your Dad. But you are not destined to be like your family unless you choose to be. Sure you will probably always look like them, but epigenetics is the process where you decide which of your genes are switched on and off. Your environment and how you live your life dictates your epigenetics.
Your beliefs are your environment. People who believe God to be a loving God have better epigenetics, than people who believe God to be a punishing God. Your beliefs create a chemical chain reaction in your environment. And your beliefs create your environment. One of the quickest ways to change your epigenetics is to change your beliefs. Mind over matter, right?
Have you noticed how everyone takes more after their Mom’s side of the family? This isn’t because you are supposed to be more loyal to your Mom’s side of the family. This is because you get 50% of your genes from both your Mom and your Dad, but you get 100% of your mitochondria from your Mom. And mitochondria dictate epigenetics. So your Mom dictated which of your genes were switched on and off when you were born.
Everyday we are creating new cells in our body. And everyday the mitochondria in each of those new cells is writing messages that add up to be our epigenetics. Everyday you have the ability to change who you are. Everyday you change your beliefs you are changing who you are on a gene and cellular level. You were born to be you. Whoever you believe that to be.
You have heard of the placebo effect, right? When you expect a positive outcome it is more likely to take place. Nocebo is when you expect a negative outcome. Your beliefs are creating placebo and nocebo effects in your life everyday. Because your beliefs create your environment. So much so that drug trails have to account for the placebo effect. When people think a treatment will work, it’s more likely to work even if they aren’t actually given any medicine.
So the question really becomes how do you change your beliefs? If your beliefs create your environment and environment dictates epigenetics, how do you change your environment?
We all know that person who has read all kinds of self help books and they are still a complete and utter disaster. Doesn’t learning new things change your beliefs? Not neccesarily. Remember your subconscious is where your beliefs are stored. So your critical logical mind can know all kinds of things, but if your subconscious is saying something else then your beliefs will not align with the things you know with your critical logical mind.
So next the question becomes how do we get the things we know with our critical logical mind into our subconscious? The first option is repetition. Your subconscious is your habit mind. It learns from repetition. You have to create connections between your conscious and subconscious mind and you have to revisit them otherwise they will not stay in place.
Remember when you first learned to drive a car. It was a lot of information to take in and remember. But now you drive without thinking about it. Because that information is in your subconscious mind. Everything can become like driving and can be programmed into your subconscious.
The second way to change your beliefs in your subconscious is with hypnosis. The first 8 years of your life you spent in a state of hypnosis. This is characterized by Theta brain waves. When you were a child it wasn’t like you could read books about how to do things. You downloaded information with your nervous system by watching people and using your mirror neurons. This is why you are so much like your family. You downloaded your beliefs from your family subconsciously as a child.
An adopted child raised in a family with a predisposition to a certain disease is also more likely to get that certain disease. It’s not genetic. It is epigenetic. It is because they get their beliefs from the family that raised them.
So, how do you hypnotize yourself? You listen to something right when you wake up or right before bed. Because that is when you experience Theta brain waves. This allows information to go into your subconscious without as much repetition. Science says it can take up to 66 repetitions to wire something into your brain. However if you wire it in while using Theta brain waves, it wont take as many repetitions.
Also, gamma brain waves increase plasticity in your brain. If you are going to wire something into your brain with repetition while not using Theta brain waves, it makes sense to use gamma brain waves. Remember, gamma brain waves and doing something you enjoy is how you create flow state. Flow state is a great way to reprogram your subconscious. Because you wont even really notice what you are doing. You will just feel joy.
Your beliefs create your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment. Your subconscious is where your beliefs are stored. And you downloaded a lot of disasters of beliefs from your family as a child when you were in a state of hypnosis. You are like your family because you share beliefs with them, not because you share genes.
Remember a culture is a group of people who share beliefs. Your family was the first culture you were in. You had to share beliefs with them in order to survive. However, as an adult those beliefs could be killing you and stealing your joy. If you don’t want to be like your family reprogram your subconscious with new beliefs. It can literally be as easy as listening to an audio recording every night before bed or every morning as you wake up.
You are who you believe yourself to be. Beliefs are your environment. Beliefs dictate epigenetics.
On day 19, we talked about the consequences of changing your beliefs in your subconscious.
For every one gene you have there are 30,000 different epigenetic outcomes you can create. Your beliefs can even change defective genes into functional healthy genes. So the sky is the limit in countless ways.
However, when you change your beliefs you will no longer fit into the same culture. Remember culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. If you change your beliefs, you will also change your culture. This may leave you the odd man out in your family or in your old group of friends.
In the old days, this was a mechanism to keep people stuck. Heard mentality has been used to keep people complacent since the beginning of time. However with modern technology, nowadays you can find your culture no matter how much you change your beliefs. There are billions of people in the world. You will find other people with your beliefs. You just have to look for them.
Don’t allow change to scare you. Feel the fear and do it anyway. You know what your life will be like if you keep the same beliefs as the people in your family. Your life will end up just like theirs. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome. Will you be happy and fulfilled with your life if it turns out just like the rest of your family’s lives? Because the beliefs they implanted in your subconscious, when you were a child, are the same beliefs that lead them to where they are today.
Also, you will the life of your dreams to manifest effortlessly when you change your beliefs. Your dreams, goals, and purposes in life are not an uphill battle any longer. The people around you support all your endeavors. Because they understand you. They want you to succeed in every aspect of your life.
No longer do you feel like the outsider for wanting more out of life. Or like you have to hold back from being you fully. Your new culture supports you and your beliefs in ever way you can imagine. And knowing that you have this support allows you to dream even bigger. People who love and care for you do not hold you back from anything. They cheer for you no matter what.
Your whole world changes when you change your beliefs. And your body changes too. No longer do you have health conditions that hold you back. No longer do you get those fall colds or spring allergies. You take vitamins to support your body and have selfcare rituals, because your body is your temple. And it supports you more than ever before. You never imagined you could feel this good and clear headed. You are limitless.
Ideas stream through your mind with such ease. Pieces of information come together in ways you never saw before. The imagery in your mind is colorful and vivid. No longer does your mind race causing you anxiety. There is a peace that has washed over you. Your soul is at ease. And joy surrounds you.
Finding people who love and accept you creates more of the enzyme that creates telemares. And living in this love while pursuing your purposes also causes you to create more telemares. This makes you a more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. It is a snowball effect that helps you obtain your potential in every aspect of your life.
You are the person you always wanted to be. You succeed at everything you set out to accomplish. You find a way to make things happen effortlessly. Your dreams come to you with ease. Your passions fuel your soul and keep you striving for more. You are driven, creative, confident, healthy, balanced, and courageous. You find solutions to problems you never thought you could overcome.
Today, on day 20, let’s talk about trauma bonds and neuro linguistic programming.
Let’s say that everyone in the world took part in munchausen by proxy and poisoned people covertly. And they even poisoned the people they claimed to love. If this were true than we all would have trauma bonds. Healthy real bonds are based on love, not destruction. But if we lived in a world where everyone was poisoning everyone, no one would have a true human connection. And these abusers would be the ones who implanted beliefs into your subconscious when you were a child in a state of hypnosis.
Your whole life people have told you who you are. When you were a young child in hypnosis you relied on this, because you didn’t have any other way to know who you were. All of these messages from other people are in your subconscious. These make up your beliefs. Even if your critical logical mind knows better, your subconscious still believes these things.
The following are a series of statements intended to create connections between your critical logical mind, where your spirit lives, and your subconscious mind, which is a recording device. The more connections between your conscious and subconscious mind the more your life will become what you intend. And the more intelligence you will have. If your conscious and subconscious are on two different pages, everything will be an uphill battle.
I am safe. You are safe. I am free. You are free. I am happy. You are happy. I am healthy. You are healthy. I am grateful. You are grateful. I am at peace. You are at peace. I am love. You are love. I am loved. You are loved. I am accomplishing my purposes in life. You are accomplishing your purposes in life. My body is healing. Your body is healing. My body is my home. Your body is your home. I am my ideal body weight. You are your ideal body weight. My heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality. Your heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality. My thyroid is balanced filling my body with energy. Your thyroid is balanced filling your body with energy. My healthy lungs fill my body with the oxygen I need to remain calm at all times. Your healthy lungs fill your body with the oxygen you need to remain calm at all times. My kidneys are healthy and strong allowing me to live without anxiety. Your kidneys are healthy and strong allowing you to live without anxiety. My liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing me to live without anger. Your liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing you to live without anger. My reproductive organs are healthy allowing me create life. Your reproductive organs are healthy allowing you to create life. My pancreas is balanced allowing me to remain level headed at all times. Your pancreas is balanced allowing you to remain level headed at all times. My digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing me the nutrients I need to thrive. Your digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing you the nutrients you need to thrive. My gut bacteria takes care of me. Your gut bacteria takes care of you. My microbiome supports my health in every way possible. Your microbiome supports your health in every way possible. My skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from my body efficiently. Your skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from your body efficiently. My mind is clear and concise. Your mind is clear and concise. My soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive. Your soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive. I am reaching my potential. You are reaching your potential. I am deserving of the life of my dreams. You deserve the life of your dreams. I am deserving of anything I am willing to work towards. You deserve anything you are willing to work towards. I do things that bring me joy daily. You do things that bring you joy daily. I am connected to devine order. You are connected to divine order. I do things everyday to make myself a better human. You do things everyday to make yourself a better human. I am living my destiny. You are living your destiny. I was born to change the world. You were born to change the world.
1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.
2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.
3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.
5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.
Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.
This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.
The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.
6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.
Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.
7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.
8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.
The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.
9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.
These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.
People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.
10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.
To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion, dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.
Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.
11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.
12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.
13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.
14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.
15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.
16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.
17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.
These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.
I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.
18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.
19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.
20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.
You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.
21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.
22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.
23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.
Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.
24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.
All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.
If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.
25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.
26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.
They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?
27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.
Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.
28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.
29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.
30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.
31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.
32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.
Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.
You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food. When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.
If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.
All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs. If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.
33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?
Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.
Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.
33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.
This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.
This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.
34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.
Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.
My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.
36. WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.
37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.
38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.
39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.
Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?
40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.
41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.
Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.
42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.
43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.
P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.
1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.
2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.
3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.
5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.
Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.
This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.
The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.
6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.
Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.
7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.
8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.
The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.
9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.
These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.
People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.
10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.
To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion, dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.
Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.
11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.
12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.
13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.
14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.
15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.
16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.
17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.
These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.
I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.
18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.
19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.
20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.
You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.
21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.
22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.
23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.
Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.
24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.
All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.
If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.
25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.
26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.
They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?
27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.
Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.
28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.
29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.
30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.
31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.
32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.
Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.
You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food. When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.
If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.
All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs. If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.
33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?
Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.
Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.
33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.
This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.
This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.
34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.
Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.
My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.
36. WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.
37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.
38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.
39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.
Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?
40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.
41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.
Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.
42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.
43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.
P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.
1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.
2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.
3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.
4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.
5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.
Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.
Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.
This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.
The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.
6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.
Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.
7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.
8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.
The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.
9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.
These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.
People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.
10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.
To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion, dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.
Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.
11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.
12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.
13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.
14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.
15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.
16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.
17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.
These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.
I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.
18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.
19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.
20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.
You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.
21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.
22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.
23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.
Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.
24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.
All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.
If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.
25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.
26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.
They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?
27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.
Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.
28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.
29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.
30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.
31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.
32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.
Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.
You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food. When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.
If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.
All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs. If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.
33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?
Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.
Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.
33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.
This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.
This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.
34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.
Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.
My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.
36. WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.
37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.
38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.
39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.
Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?
40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.
41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.
Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.
42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.
43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.
P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.
This book was intense. I wanted to know what it was like to go to war. And honestly I still do not know what the war in Iraq was about around 2006-2008? After reading this book, I still do not know what was about. Google says it was an Iraq civil war. Why were we there then? is my next question. Well, “to maintain stability and support the new Iraqi government” is google’s answer.
“I feel guilty that I don’t want to be here, but I feel more guilt about how good it felt running from the C-130 to the bunker. I feel more guilt about how my body buzzed in anticipation when we arrive at Camp Mercury and a Marine told us to be aware of indirect fir and snipers.”
“I feel guilty because the longer I am here the less I think about my family and fiancee and what life might’ve been like in those other places, and the more I think about my new family and my loyalty to them and the fear that strikes my heart when Marines are traded between platoons.”
Honestly, this book reminded me a lot of what it is like to be in my family. Both of my parents were in the Army. I always used to tell myself that it was completely logical they would not know how to love when they had been trained to kill. But no one had ever told/showed/trained them how to love.
When I lived in Sierra Vista, Arizona there were all kinds of military people there because of the base nearby. I was surrounded by people who grew up like me and that was not necessarily a good thing. Because no one ever showed them how to love. Thus, they did not know how to love themselves.
My family’s cult is all about selling out your own family, your people, and your friends for what is best for you. It is about selling out all the people around you and being selfish. It is about turning everyone around you into a slav.
Mixed Polish people were the first slaves, even before African Americans. They were called “slavs”. Everyone in my family is willing to turn anyone into a slav, if it benefits them. When you enslave your own people, you are creating slavs. And the beliefs from this time period are still in our subconscious. My family preys on people who don’t understand their subconscious beliefs. They insert beliefs, desires, and emotions into people’s subconscious and this is how they turn them into monsters. Well, on top of all the poisons which create cluster b personality disorders and cause emotional dysregulation.
Emotions are energy in motion. When you poison yourself, or someone poisons you, it causes toxins to enter your limbic system, which effects your horomones which creates emotions.
People with cluster b personality disorders have so many toxins floating around in their limbic system that are causing hormonal changes and creating emotions. Which means they have all this energy in motion in their bodies from the toxins and they cannot move through it. This is emotional dysregulation. It is brain damage in the limbic system where it meets with the brain.
So you know how when people join my family’s cult they get them to poison everyone and everyone poisons them? It is to induce cluster b personality disorders in them. By clogging up their limbic system with so many toxins that causes hormones they are unable to emotionally regulate. Which makes them willing to commit crimes against humanity and destroy anyone and everyone.
Based on this book the military, or more specifically the Marines in this instance, use verbal abuse to create hormonal dysregulation and thus emotional dysregulation(because hormones in the limbic system create emotions). Yelling at someone is almost as toxic as poison. It changes hormones in the same way. The military breaks people with hormones and emotional dysregulation just like my family. My Mom used to scream like banshee my whole childhood. I am sure she does if there is ever anyone willing to listen. And I know she will never give up poisoning people.
You would think the military would want to make people stronger. So they can protect us. I always wondered why they didn’t test gut bacteria to see which soldiers would be able to handle going to war without coming back with PTSD. All they would have to do is test their gut bacteria for butyrate producing bacteria. If they have enough of this bacteria it will prevent PTSD and enable them to deal with stress. But it seems like the military may be more like my family than I expected.
Which is odd and a bit uncomfortable, because my Dad’s military cult was the first big group to get on board with being revolutionary. They had surrounded me and hunted me my whole life, but especially when I was in Sierra Vista, Arizona.
I like the military cult. They have been nothing but good to me since I was able to reach them. I have to treat people based on how they treat me after they learn about the destruction of my family. If I treated people based on anything else I would want to start the World War my birthrights give me permission to create. Granted if I was playing by the rules I would have to marry someone to start that war for me. But I promised the military cult from the beginning that I would fight my own wars and try my hardest not to make them fight them for me. So, far so good. Millions of people in the military throughout the past four generations have died fighting wars my family started.
So, I suppose we will have to change the military in order to do better. I understand we need to prepare people to go to war. But I do not believe we need to break the people who sign up to protect us all. I do not believe that is soft of me to believe. I believe it is logical. We should not destroy the people who sign up to protect us all.
“We created a person-thing. It looks like us and sounds like us, but it is not us. The person thing is a by product–like nuclear waste or babies. The person-thing cannot be uncreated. It is a part of us forever.
Because the person-thing is not human its foremost prerequisite to existence is that we lose not only our own humanity but remove that of our enemy as well. The conditions for loss of humanity were provided amply by the United States Marine Corps.”
I have never been to a traditional war. But I have lived at war my whole life. I have only shot a gun once in my life. But I have lived at war my whole life. Surrounded by people trying to destroy and kill me. It’s pretty miserable. I am 44 years old and I have never known peace. I have never escaped the Truman show that surrounds me and tries to destroy and kill me everyday. Granted they often just want to kill me with chronic illness, so I die a long slow painful death. But sometimes they try for the more direct route.
I don’t have all the answers, I never will. But I can relate to the person-thing that Matt Young describes in this book. This is the person my family has tried to turn me into my whole life. It is the person they all are. It is a soulless being, that destroys everything around it, regardless of the consequences. Which means they destroy themselves too. But they especially destroy me and you all because we have not broken completely like them.
This book was an acquired taste and definitely not my usual pick. The writing was in third person, which is weird for a memoir. But I suppose this has to do with the person-thing mentality. It was raw and real. I can appreciate that. The military does involve a struggle from within and I can relate to this struggle probably more than most. But it doesn’t mean I am used to it or have given into it. I still fight the person-thing mentality. And perhaps that is my privilege that allows me to do so. Although, some days I sure wish my enemies had guns, so this war would end.
Did you know they used to strap women down to a table in hospitals when they were giving birth? They literally tied them down and put them on their backs where gravity was working against them. Plus, they would give them an episiotomy(cut between vagina and anus) even when they didn’t need to. Pretty fucking barbaric, huh? And this was recently like the 1970/80s and some of this stuff still happens.
This book is about a midwife’s journey leaving the traditional medical industry behind and doing home births for mostly Amish women. Penny Armstrong gave up success in the traditional sense to do what felt right for her and what was better for the women she worked with. I can always get on board with doing better and what feels right.
I don’t know anyone who had anything but a traditional hospital delivery. I suppose money and insurance are some of the reasons behind this. But if you are going to have a baby, you have to deliver that baby. So, you should probably plan for the delivery before the rest of raising the child. But from what I gather people look at having children as just what people do. And they do not plan it out. They do it because it is expected and they do not take accountability for the details. Plus, women poison themselves so much when pregnant that they develop very strong cluster b personality disorders and never recover after having children. It is a metaphorical death for all included, especially the child.
Funny how we are born to take part in metaphorical death. But that is what this stupid imaginary game does to us. That is what mental illness(aka cluster b personality disorders, munchausen, munchausen by proxy, etc) does to us all. Learned helplessness in our parents kills us even before we are born. People feel helpless and hurt. So, they destroy others in order to feel in control and/or powerful. What a fucking shit show!
I really liked this book. It focused more on the struggle this woman went through to figure out what the “right” way was to help women deliver their babies and how to honor the mostly Amish women she served. She wanted to do the right thing. And she had a great success rate. Selling out for money was not a priority to her. Which is rare and commendable.
Women are more sociopathic nowadays than men. They are dead inside because they have children. Children are like forever hostages that they can destroy and punish in anyway and anytime they choose. No one sticks up for them. When you always have someone at your disposal to abuse, it allows for a lot more abusive and extreme behaviors. It is just logic and common sense.
I read these books to try to understand the struggles of women. So I can have more sympathy for them. Because I don’t really like women. I don’t really like men either. But I find men easier to deal with because they are less mentally ill generally speaking. They seem to know their worth more.
Even before this revolution, I knew having children gave women cluster b personality disorders. I knew it had to do with destroying people. But never would I have guessed that everyone poisons everyone. Never would I have ever guessed that women poisoned their own babies and/or themselves.
I had been poisoned my whole life and have never had clean food. But I never would have guessed the world would look at this as normal. I never would have guessed you all were like my family. It is shocking that you all view women poisoning their children as normal, rather than mentally ill. How can we excuse such dysfunction?
Women are the ones with the original sin, right? But maybe that original sin is poisoning children before they are born and making them into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level before they are even born. I worked at a group home for people who were developmentally disabled in Arizona, while I was getting my real estate license. It was a house full of men who had mothers who destroyed them too much before they were born. And then they refused accountability and relinquished their children to the state so the state can take care of the problem they literally created. Do you know how much we all pay every year for the destruction women wage on unborn and young children? We pay billions of dollars every year in state paid healthcare costs to care for these children. And it is not just the developmentally disabled ones. It is the ones with chronic illness too. Chronic illness causes the majority of healthcare costs in the world, but especially America. You know these are from you all poisoning each other. You realize this, right? Those adults with chronic illnesses currently were once children who were poisoned. The bad bacteria, viruses, and parasites in those poisons live on in those children all through adulthood until death. It takes cancer on average 10 years to grow before it can be detected. The poisons you use on your child today could turn into cancer in a decade or longer.
No wonder the world is as fucked up as it is. When your own mother destroys you before you are even born, how are you supposed to know love or potential? Women steal our potential even before we are born. No wonder we are so angry. I am fucking angry. And I know you all are because you wouldn’t poison everyone if you were not.
No matter how many books I read about the struggles of women, I will never be able to forgive them for being so destructive and mentally ill. Destruction is a mental illness. It is not natural and goes against the laws of God and humanity. There is nothing normal about the way the world operates. And there is especially nothing normal about the healthcare industry. It is an industry created to enslave and torture us all. It is not healing us, it is doing more harm than good.
The more time you spend around healthcare workers the more bad bacteria, viruses, and parasites you will have. Because those people poison you. And when your immune system is weak you cannot fight back against those bad bugs as much. Which means those bad bugs make themselves at home in your body more. And this is how chronic illness is created. When the people who are supposed to help you get better make you worse, you will never recover. Just like childhood, right?
I went off on a tangent. Not sure where that came from. But my organs are failing because people are poisoning me so much. And I am frustrated. But I also hate people who create problems and never account for their war crimes. Women are still bearing that original sin of destruction even today in 2025. Why?!?!? Why do women think they deserve and have the right to be so destructive? Who died and made them God? Because those men they raise grow up and turn out just like them most of the time too. Men are not without sin. They just have opportunity to destroy children normally on average. There are always exceptions to the rule.
My heart is failing and I have fluid in my abdomen from it. I am all swollen. I have never poisoned anyone. I don’t want to ever. I don’t want to kill anyone ever. I don’t understand you all’s need for destruction and blood. I never have. And I probably never will. And maybe I don’t want to. Because to truly understand it I would have to be like you all. And from what I see that means I would have to be miserable. There are no excuses for you all. I was destroyed just as much if not more than you all and I have no desire for destruction or to kill people. What beliefs do you have that lead you toward destruction and killing people?
Beliefs lead to desires. What makes you desire to hurt people? Because it is not being hurt that causes that. If it were I would want to hurt people.
This is a book about climate change and how to fix it. Full disclosure, I did not read it all. I have a real hard time with socialist ideas because they lead to a slippery slope towards Communism. But I figured that it wouldn’t hurt to try to read this book because we have to solve/fix global warming if we are ever to be human on a gene and cellular level. If we want to continue living on Earth we have to stop destroying it. It is just that plain and simple. We are a worldwide community. This is what globalization has done to us. Yet, we have not caught up socially to this idea. We are a globalized community. We need to act like it. I am just not sure what that looks like. And I think that is the problem. We don’t know what it looks like to be a healthy global community. Instead of thinking it out, we throw money at the problem and expect others to fix it for us. Or we recycle and hope that is enough. I love to recycle, but I know that is not even close to enough. But I don’t know what else to do in the big picture.
But maybe that is the answer. We don’t need to think about the big picture. Global warming is just like epigenetics. Epigenetics are the most effected by the everyday things we do. The small daily things have the most influence on how human you are on a gene and cellular level. Those really big healthy things you only do a few times a year, they have very low return on investment(ROI). However the little things you do daily or weekly, those are the things that will change you big time. This is how global warming works. Global warming is basically a whole bunch of negative epigenetic triggers in all the organisms that make up Earth, as the collective of organisms we are.
Did you know the negative epigenetic triggers in you are contributing to global warming? When you breath and pooh you are contributing to global warming. I mean with everything you do you are contributing to global warming. But just you existing without doing anything is causing global warming. Because you have an overgrowth of bad bugs which causes an overgrowth of bad bugs in the environment. The more you cleanse your body by balancing your microbiome the more you will help fight global warming. Because you will share those good bugs you cultivate with the world, both human and Earth.
Global warming is a mix of micro and macro. Global warming involves everyone and everything on Earth. Earth is just a collective of organisms. Humans are just a collective of organisms. As a human you are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. And humans belong to the even larger collective of organisms called Earth. So, we literally are all in this together. Earth is one large organism.
Let me give you my favorite example. The Redwood forest in Northern California is beautiful, right? You see all those trees and they are majestic and nature seems overwhelming in the best way possible. However, the Redwood trees in Northern California are not individual trees. They are all connected. They are one large organism. The Redwood trees in Northern California are the largest organism in the world. Their roots are all connected. It is one large organism. On the surface they look like individual trees. But when you look at the truth and the big picture, they are all connected. They are a collective of organisms. The largest organism in the world. Pretty neat, huh? Humans are the same. Our roots are all connected. We share a collective microbiome. This is why Covid was such a scary thing. One person got sick in one part of the world and we all ran the risk of getting sick. Because we share bugs. We share roots. We share a collective microbiome. Things would not be contagious if we were not connected.
Okay, I rambled. Let’s look at some quotes from the book now:
“Easter Island is Earth writ small. Today, again, a rising population confronts shrinking resources. We too have no emigration valve, because all human societies are linked by international transport, and we can no more escape into space than the Easter Islanders could flee into the ocean. If we continue to follow our present course, we shall have exhausted the world’s major fisheries, tropical rain forests, fossil fuels, and much of our soil by the time my sons reach my current age.”
“The person who felled the last tree could see that it was the last tree. But he(or she) still felled it. This is what is so worrying. Humankind’s convetousness is boundless. Its selfishness appears to be genetically inborn. Selfishness leads to survival. Altruism leads to death. The selfish gene wins. But in a limited ecosystem, selfishness leads to increasing population imbalance, population crash, and ultimately extinction.”
Okay, I have so much to say about these two quotes!
The second quote references Richard Dawkin’s book “The Selfish Gene”. Which says that those of us alive today are the descendants of the most selfish people who ever lived throughout history. And there is a selfish gene, which we all must have. It was a book I read years ago. I didn’t like it, but it did make logical sense. But my guts said something was wrong with it. I couldn’t argue because my family members are the most selfish people on Earth. But it didn’t feel right.
Last month, I read “Darwin’s Lost Theory-Who We Really Are and Where We’re Going-Book Three by David Loye This book explained how Darwinism has been looked at through a skewed lens. Survival of the fittest is not about hurting others or being selfish, it is about altruism. True sustainable survival is about altruism. And it goes into to touching on how we are all connected. Humanity has an interconnectedness that cannot be denied. It doesn’t go into science as much I expected. But this was the best book I have read on Darwinism that explained a lot the feelings I felt in my gut that I could not find the words for.
David Loye said, “…we can be-and generally are–more powerfully driven by concern for the regard of others and by love.”
Love conquers all, right? Just like Ken Kesey says in the book “Sometimes A Great Notion”.
The most selfish people on Earth have lead to global warming and the crisis we are in. Tue survival is about seeing the truth. The truth is that we are all connected. There are two kinds of relationships in the human body between organisms: parasitic and symbiotic.
Symbiotic are win-win relationships. You know how you have an immune system? That is a symbiotic relationship. Those bugs take care of you because you take care of them. You are their home and so they do the upkeep needed to have a good home.
Parasitic relationships are where one organism eats and/or destroys the other until it dies. Then normally the parasite dies too because it killed it’s home/environment/host. Do you think we are partaking in a symbiotic or parasitic relationship with Earth?
Just for clarification, there are parasites that we have symbiotic relationships with. For instance we all have these bugs that live on our skin and eat our dead skin cells. This seems parasitic on the surface. But these bugs make us better by helping to dispose of our dead skin cells. So, this is a symbiotic relationship. It is win-win. The bugs get an all you eat buffet and we get healthier skin.
The selfish gene does not win as the quote from Planet on Fire says. It leads to extinction. The selfish gene gets us all killed. The selfish gene is about reverse Darwinism. If you want to watch a movie about Reverse Darwinism check out “Igby Goes Down”. It is a great watch. Salem can you make this available to the people please and thank you. Reverse Darwinism is about survival of the weakest.
Survival of the fittest does not mean that some of us have to win and others have to loose and/or die. Survival of the fittest is about sustainability. It is about the collective of organisms that is Earth. We are all connected. The stronger we all are the stronger we are as a collective. Your neighbor being stronger does not diminish your chances for survival, it increases your chance of survival. At least when we are truly playing by Survival of the Fittest and not Reverse Darwinism.
Global warming is caused by our misconceptions about Darwinism and survival of the fittest. We are all here to not only survive, but to thrive. And we can all do this at the same time. Our potential does not have to come at the cost of another’s potential. We are a collective of organisms. The more we support each other, the stronger we all are.
Easter Island is used in this book, “Planet On Fire” as an example of what will happen to Earth. We cannot escape to space. And even if we did we would take our problems and overgrowth of bad bugs with us. Our problems would literally follow us because the problem is in us. The problem is in us on a gene and cellular level.
You know how some people are diagnosed with SIBO(small intestinal bacteria overgrowth). Global warming is a lot of pollution and many different factors. But the biggest factor in global warming is the Earth has SIBO. The bad bacterial overgrowth in all of us that leads us to being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level causes global warming on Earth. Bacteria dictates the health of mitochondria. And mitochondria dictate epigenetics. Epigenetics determine how human we are on a gene and cellular level.
…So this means this bacterial overgrowth is causing us to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. But it is also causing global warming on an Earth level! This is the boiled down version that no one really talks about. They make it all complicated.
“…one constant has remained: the externalisation of nature from most human societies, its brutal transformation into unequally shared wealth, and the organising of the environment to benefit human hierarchies of wealth and power, regardless of the consequences for the stability of natural systems.”
We are apart of nature. We are apart of the collective of organisms that is Earth.
“Will we succumb to chaos, division and inequality? Or will we right the wrongs of the past and move forward together, for the good of all? We are at a breaking point. But we know which side of history we are on.” –Antonio Guterres, UN secretary-general
We are the world. And we are the ones who get to decide if and when we are going to clean up this mess we have made. If we don’t clean it up soon like in the next decade, we will never get the chance to be human on a gene and cellular level ever again. And we won’t have a place to live for very much longer. We run out of top soil in about 20 years and the food shortages will begin. Did you have children so they could grow up and starve to death? Because that is the direction we are headed.
I think I am going to finish reading this book. I will do a part 2 to this review in a few days.
On day 1, we talked about why your health is your own personal responsibility and something you have to manage yourself.
Let’s say you wanted to conquer the world. First, you would have to enslave the people. Do you think healthy and happy people would be easier to enslave? Or do you think diseased and depressed people would be easier to enslave? If you are trying to conquer the world, it only makes sense to make people diseased and depressed first.
Remember how releasing toxins in the environment inhibits people’s ability to methylate, blocking them from their critical logical mind? Well if you create dysbiosis in their gut, which is the common denominator of all disease and depression, you stop them from standing up for themselves. By creating dysbiosis in humans, you create pushovers who won’t stand up for themselves. You create people who are unsure of themselves, because they don’t trust themselves.
Remember how your mirror neurons are always collecting information with your nervous system and storing this information in your subconscious? Well, people with diverse healthy gut bacteria have more influence and are more popular. Your mirror neurons and nervous system collect information about people’s microbiome because it helps you know who to trust. It let’s you know who you should listen to more.
However, if everyone around you has dysbiosis it will be easier to sell you a ketchup popsicle when you have white gloves on. Your subconscious and your mirror neurons will not know who to trust. And your own dysbiosis will tell you that you cannot trust yourself.
Your health is your personal responsibility because the medical industry aims to disempower you and enslave you. Modern medicine rarely does anything to help you cultivate a diverse healthy microbiome. Most of modern medicine erodes your gut bacteria and creates more disbiosis. Almost all pharmaceutical and over the counter drugs create dysbiosis. And almost all people take drugs in an effort to feel better.
You are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. In order to experience health, you have to cultivate your microbiome. You are a bug. Your health relies on you cultivating your bugs. Modern medicine mostly ignores this foundational truth. You have to take responsibility for your own personal health.
On day 2, we talked about how you were born to be you.
There are only about 6 diseases in the world that are caused by just genes. All the rest are epigenetic. So yes, you were born with genes like your family. But that does not mean you have to be like them.
You determine which of your genes are turned on and off by how you live your life, your beliefs, and every decision you make. You choose who you are everyday of your life. You can change any day you choose to. All you have to do is start making different decisions and living differently.
Everyday your body is creating new cells. The mitochondria in each of those cells writes messages into the cell. These messages in every cell of your body add up to be your epigenetics. Yes, you are human. But really you are just a collective of cells. And you are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than human cells. But your bugs have epigenetics too.
Everyday you are either becoming a more optimal human or you are becoming more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. You get to choose who you are today and who you become tomorrow. So anytime you feel helpless remember you are the master of your own destiny. You decide who you are down to a gene and cellular level. The ultimate control is yours.
On day 3, we talked about generational trauma.
You take more after your Mom’s side of the family, right? Everyone does, because we inherit all of our mitochondria from our Mom. Yes, we get 50% of our genes from our Mom and 50% from our Dad. But remember how mitochondria write messages into each cell of your body and those messages add up to be your epigenetics? This means your Mom decided 100% your gene expression.
Remember how we are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than human cells? Well, you get all of your mitochondria from your Mom because you inherit bacteria, parasite, and virus cells from your Mom, your Mom’s Mom, your maternal great grandmother, and so on and on. Your microbiome and gut bacteria dictate the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. And you get your bugs from your Mom’s side of the family.
Now imagine your maternal great grandmother took antibiotics once because she was deathly ill and almost died. This would allow for the antibiotic resistant bacteria in her body to flourish. And this bacteria would be passed on to your Grandma and Mom and it would flourish in them when they took antibiotics. It’s a snowball effect in bacteria form.
Generational trauma is really just an overgrowth of bad bugs. People have not taken responsibility for their health for generations. So if you wish to not experience dis ease in the same ways as the people in your family, you need to cleanse your body.
On day 4, we talked about the holy trinity of health.
The holy trinity of health is gut bacteria, mitochondria, and epigenetics. Any kind of disease, depression, or anxiety can be helped and some even cured by using this formula for health.
Your gut bacteria dictate the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. Mitochondria write messages into each cell of your body. And these messages add up to be your epigenetics. This snowball effect can either keep you healthy or it can keep you sick.
If you are in pain, diseased, depressed, or anxious it is your job to fix your gut bacteria and stop the negative snowball effect in your body and epigenetics. This feels overwhelming at first. But after you take responsibility for your health and get used to caring for yourself, it gets easier. When you first learned to drive a car it was a lot to take in. But after a few years you can do it without thinking about it. Taking care of your own health and body is no different. Once you accept the responsibility and learn how to do it, it just becomes natural and easy.
On day 5, we talked about gene mutations.
We have been taught to worship gene mutations. Blue eyes and blonde hair are gene mutations. Humans are designed to have brown hair and brown eyes. Anything other than this is suboptimal on a gene and cellular level.
We are taught to idealize gene mutations because they make people easier to control and brainwash. The more gene mutations you have the more prone you are to disbiosis. The more disbiosis you have the more cut off from your critical logical mind you are and the more you are susceptible to suggestion and brainwashing.
If you were trying to conquer the world and enslave the people, would you want people to be easier to brainwash? Or would you want them to think for themselves and be strong on a gene and cellular level? Gene mutations are a great way to enslave the world without them knowing or understanding what is happening.
On day 6, we talked about brain damage.
If you were trying to take over the world, it would be easier if people where in a hyper fear state and couldn’t think clearly, right?
Your gut bacteria create many vitamins your body and brain need to work properly. When you erode your gut bacteria, you erode your ability to create these vitamins.
Vitamin K2 is one of the vitamins your gut bacteria produce. It is a fat soluble vitamin that helps calcium be absorbed into your bones and teeth. When you do not have enough vitamin K2, calcium free floats in your bloodstream unable to be absorbed. This free floating calcium then damages your brain in your amygdala. Causing you to be in a hyper fear state. Which often just feels like stress. You are constantly stressed and nothing you do seems to lessen the stress you feel. This brain damage to your amygdala also causes you to not be able to handle extreme temperatures. When it gets hot or cold you feel even more stressed and your body cannot regulate your temperature.
Lastly, this free floating calcium grows the C. Diff bacteria in your body, because calcium germinates C. Diff spores. This leads to extreme hunger, especially in the winter months. And it also leads to more addictive behaviors. Because C. Diff changes the way your brain processes dopamine.
If you were enslaving people in an attempt to conquer the world, it would be a lot easier if they had brain damage, lived in a constant fear and stress state, ate too much damaging their epigenetics and causing disease, and had more addictive behaviors.
On day 7, we talked about heavy metals.
You remember how we inherit our bugs from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, we also inherit heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family. Any heavy metals your great great Grandma was exposed to you will have. Unless she or someone downstream cleansed their body of heavy metals before you were born.
Also anything that touches our skin bypasses our liver and goes directly into our bloodstream. Remember how environmental toxins are released into the environment to block people off from their critical logical mind and create a crusade? All those toxins are in our food. But they also are in our body. This means all the environmental toxins that were used to create world war 2 and every war since are in your body unless someone on your Mom’s side of the family took the time and responsibility to remove them.
Let’s say we lived in a world where women poison themselves when they are pregnant. This means the more older siblings you have the more toxic metals would be built up in your Mom’s body.
Toxic heavy metals cause disease, cognitive impairment, and disbiosis. It is another great way to leave people unable to think for themselves. And they pass it on to their children.
Flouride is a heavy metal. Many of us took this as children for our teeth. And many people use dental products with fluoride. This inhibits your brain from talking to you in images.
Bromide is another heavy metal that has been put in bread. We used to use iodine in bread, but it helps our body remove heavy metals. So in the 1970s &1980s they added bromide and took out the iodine.
Immunizations have heavy metals.
Paint before 1978 had lead. And if you live in a house older than 1978 there is probably lead paint in it. Lead has dangerous effects on the brain. Especially, children’s brains.
There are countless instances of heavy metals in our environment being put in our bodies. You need to cleanse your body and brain of heavy metals.
On day 8, we talked about oxytocin.
Oxytocin is often referred to as the love hormone. It is associated with trust, sex, parenthood, and our bodies crave this hormone. Because oxytocin is healing. Remember how you create healthy telemares when you are completing your purpose in life and this allows your DNA to replicate without flaws? Well, oxytocin protects the health of your telemares.
So when you are in trusting relationships, especially when you have children, while being of service and completing your purpose you are a more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. You were born to complete your purpose and establish trusting relationships that create oxytocin. This is what allows your body to stay in optimal health. You were born to love and be loved. It’s science. Bob Marley was right.
Let’s say that the world signed up to be in a cult of sociopaths, who destroyed everyone and everything. This would change the way their brains wired and fired in countless ways. Sociopaths are not born. They are made by changing the way your brain wires and fires. When you act like a sociopath, you become addicted to destruction and poisoning people. And you loose your humanity on countless levels.
Sociopaths and all cluster b personality disorders dysfunctionally process oxytocin. You can’t love and trust people when you are addicted to destruction. And this dysfunctional processing of oxytocin makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.
Instead of oxytocin being healing, it will create a stress response. This stress response is why post partum depression is so common nowadays. It is also why so many women have a hard time breast feeding. When oxytocin is stressful rather than healing because your body and brain process it dysfunctionally, it causes disease and for you to become less human on a gene and cellular level.
You were born to accomplish your purpose, but you were also born to create loving and trusting relationships.
On day 9, we talked about addiction.
Addiction is just an antibiotic resistant infection. C. Diff bacteria changes the way your brain processes dopamine, which changes your behavior and who you are. All you have to do is cleanse your body and treat the infection.
When you take antibiotics this infection grows. When you surround yourself with others who also have this infection like in NA and AA, this infection grows. When you have disbiosis, this infection grows.
C. Diff is a spore bacteria. Which means it is like mold. The spores are floating around in the environment constantly waiting to find what they need to germinate and become active and alive. Just like mold needs water to be active. C. Diff needs calcium.
The more you heal your gut bacteria, the more your body will be able to fight this infection naturally and on it’s own. The more gut bugs you have that produce vitamin K2, the less able C. Diff spores will be to germinate. Vitamin K2 allows for calcium in your body to be absorbed into your bones and teeth. Which makes it unavailable to germinate the C. Diff spores in your body.
Addiction is just an antibiotic resistant bacterial infection. You are not an addict. You just have an infection. You are not helpless. You just have an infection. The more you cleanse your body the more you will feel like yourself.
Addiction is not a personality flaw. It is just an infection which is designed to get you to accept learned helplessness. If you were enslaving the people in an effort to take over the world wouldn’t it be easier if they thought they were helpless and couldn’t take care of themselves?
On day 10, we talked about vitamin deficiencies.
Most of us have vitamin deficiencies and we don’t even know it. Because we are born with them. Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasites, viruses, and heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, we also inherit vitamin deficiencies. Meaning if your great Grandma had a vitamin deficiency and no one down stream from her corrected it, then you also have this vitamin deficiency.
Recommended Daily Allowances(RDA) are made up imaginary numbers. No two people need the same amount of vitamins. We all are different. Our bodies are different. We have different bugs. We have different genes. We have different epigenetics. No two people are the same.
Exposure to toxins increases your need for vitamins and minerals. Some gene mutations and negative epigenetic triggers make it so you cannot absorb certain vitamins and minerals effectively. The soil and our food has been designed to be void of nutrients. Food today has significantly less nutrition than even 50 years ago. You cannot get all the vitamins and minerals you need just with food. It’s literally impossible with food the way it is today.
Your needs for vitamins and minerals really don’t have much to do with you at all. What you require for vitamins and minerals relys most on the emotional regulation of the people around you. And we live in a world where people are incapable of emotional regulation, because they are addicted to their emotions. So your need for vitamins and minerals is directly correlated with how addicted the people around you are to their emotions. And really has not much to do with you.
Let’s say the gas attendant that pumped your gas today got in a fight with his boss, so he put a little extra poison in your gas today to make himself feel better. Let’s say the grocery store worker had a good day, so she put a little less poison in your food today. Let’s say the janitor where you work got in a fight with his wife, so he put a little more poison in the cleaners he used. Let’s say your spouse had a good day at work, so he or she put extra poison in your food to celebrate.
Toxins increase your need for vitamins and minerals. No two days are the same, because everyday the people around you poison you to different degrees due to their lack of emotional regulation. This is the consequence of living in a world where people destroy everyone and everything.
The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the worse your epigenetics. The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the more prone you are to disbiosis, depression, anxiety, and disease. The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the more cut off you are from your critical logical mind and the more vulnerable you are to brainwashing and suggestion.
If you were taking over the world and needed to enslave the people to do so, wouldn’t it make sense to starve them so they couldn’t think clearly?
On day 12, we talked about your immune system.
Remember how good bugs create symbiotic relationships with you, making you a better human and home for themselves? And remember how bad bugs create parasitic relationships with you and eat you alive till you die? And remember how disbiosis is just an overgrowth of bad bugs? And remember how an overgrowth of bad bugs causes disease?
There are countless bacteria, parasite, and virus strains in the world. Each of them do different things and require different foods and environments to grow and thrive. But the good news is if you grow your good bugs, they will help you battle the bad bugs. Because they want a good life too. This phenomenon is called your immune system. Your good bugs fight to keep you alive and healthy. Because they want to stay alive and healthy.
Creating good gut bacteria isn’t about killing all the bad bugs. It is about getting them down in numbers to where your immune system can handle them and keep them in check. And your immune system is your good bugs.
Remember how covid killed people? It didn’t kill people because it was deadly on it’s own. It killed people because they had an overgrowth of other bad bugs and their immune system was overwhelmed. You know how really old people die from the flu? It is the same concept.
Your immune system is made up of your good bugs. The more different strains you have the better. And the more your good bugs outnumber your bad bugs, the stronger your immune system will be. Whenever you kill parasitic bugs in your body, you improve the strength of your immune system. Your good bugs are your immune system.
On day 13, we talked about serotonin.
Serotonin is a neurotransmitter made in your gut. Remember your gut bosses your brain around. And it produces neurotransmitters like serotonin.
Being human is a chemical reaction. Everything you experience triggers chemicals from within your body. These chemicals are what make you human. These chemicals are what make life worth living.
Addiction issues are just you doing things to cause a chemical reaction in your body. The more you understand how to create these chemicals in your body in a healthy manner, the fewer maladaptive addictions you will have.
Serotonin has to do with mood regulation. And it does help make you feel content and happy. But the big thing it does is it regulates your immune system. And remember how most of your immune system lives in your gut? Serotonin regulates your gut motility. Which is a key factor in your health and wellness.
Your gut bacteria create serotonin and many other neurotransmitters. But they require that you have the building blocks necessary for their production. So this means if you have too many vitamin and mineral deficiencies, you will not be able to produce the serotonin you need. Which means your body will not be able to regulate your immune system.
If you have a healthy balance of gut bacteria, you will have a good mood, healthy immune system, and good digestion without constipation or diarrhea. However, if your seratonin production is out of whack you will have many health and mood complications. And you will experience constipation and/or diarrhea.
If you have gut bacteria that do not produce enough serotonin, you will be constipated. If you have gut bacteria that produce too much serotonin, you will have diarrhea. And if your gut bugs produce too much serotonin, it puts you at risk for having seizures. If you have seizures, it means your gut bacteria produce too much serotonin. And you can fix all these issues merely by balancing your gut bacteria.
Different bacteria eat different foods. So you need to eat the foods that feed the gut bacteria you would like to grow more of. Your health and happiness depend on you knowing how and what to feed your gut bacteria so they will produce what you need to be healthy and happy.
Being human is a chemical experience. Instead of doing drugs figure out how to hack your gut bacteria in order to be healthy and get high on life. Your good bugs want you to be healthy and happy. You need to learn how to help them be healthy and happy. So they can take care of you.
On day 14, we talked about the spectrum of epigenetics.
Epigenetics are not black and white. They exist on a spectrum. We often cannot directly see this spectrum, but hazel eye color is a perfect example. You have seen people with hazel eyes and how their eyes change colors, right? Well, this is due to epigenetics. There are 16 genes that determine eye color. The more positive epigenetics you have, the more brown your eyes will be.
The genes that determine eye color dictate how much melanin your eyes produce. The more melanin you produce, the more brown your eyes. People with blue eyes do not produce melanin. Green eyes produce a little more than blue eyes. And amber or orange colored eyes produce a little more. But brown eyes produce the optimal amount of melanin. This means people with hazel colored eyes are in a unique position to be able to see the health of their epigenetics pretty clearly.
Epigenetics are a spectrum. 16 genes determine your eye color. But over 500 genes determine your intelligence. Can you even imagine how many different shades of intelligence there are? Your genes may give you limitations to your potential, but there are countless things you can do to reach your potential.
Remember everyday you are producing new cells and those cells have mitochondria that write messages into the cell. These messages add up to be your epigenetics. So everyday you have a chance to become more human on a gene and cellular level.
On day 15, we talked about GMO’s.
GMOs are created by inserting mutated viruses into organisms. You know how KFC can’t be called Kentucky Fried Chicken anymore? Well, that’s because they don’t serve chicken. The meat they serve is just a vehicle to get you to eat viruses.
All GMOs foods are like this. Plus, often they have been designed to have more of the amino acid arginine. Because this grows the viruses in your body.
These mutated viruses cause disease. And once you have a virus it stays in your body forever. Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasite, and virus cells from our Mom’s side of the family? We inherit these GMO viruses too.
So yes, the grocery store workers are killing us with bad bacteria and heavy metals they put on the food. But the food has literally been designed to kill us slowly, covertly, and painfully over time.
On day 16, we talked about ethanol.
GMO corn has mutated viruses in it. And GMO corn is in gas. This means not only do cars and other gas operated machines spew bad bacteria into the environment, they also spew mutated viruses into the air and environment.
Covid was far from the first virus we were exposed to. When food was genetically modified in the 1980s, we were genetically modified. Because we eat the food and it becomes a part of who we are. And we inherit viruses from our Mom’s side of the family.
We breath bad bacteria and viruses with every breath we take. And these bad bacteria and viruses are living in the materials that make up your houses, homes, and cars. Remember how to tell the difference between good bugs and bad bugs? Good bugs make you a better human because they form symbiotic relationships with you. And bad bugs eat you alive till you die because they are parasitic.
You will be eaten alive till you die, unless you learn how to cultivate your good bugs and kill parasitic bugs.
Today, on day 17, let’s talk about how the pandemic never really ended.
The Covid virus wasn’t what killed people. The overload of bad bugs on their immune system is what killed people. We may have addressed the existence of one virus. But we never addressed the root problem. When you don’t get to the root of a problem, it keeps growing back.
Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasites, viruses, and heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, bad bacteria, parasites, and heavy metals can be removed from your body with time and efforts. But viruses are forever. You can bring the number of virus cells down in your body to where your immune system can keep them in check. But you can never fully remove virus cells from your body.
We live in a world with mutated viruses from GMO’s and countless other viruses. We catch these viruses from each other, from just breathing the air, eating food and drinking. Viruses cause obesity, cancer, autoimmune diseases, and countless other complications. But we have never addressed the elephant in the room.
The pandemic never ended and we never addressed the root to our pain and suffering.
This book is about a dying man who was a professor talking about the things that really matter in life with one of his past students. It is a lot like the book , “Dinner With Edward” by Isabel Vincent that I reviewed last month. I want to know what really matters in life, don’t you? These books on what older people say are the important things in life as they are dying seem to be a great resource.
“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for grated, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.”
“A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle. “
“Which side wins?
He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.
Love wins. Love always wins.””
I have never met a human capable of real love. But I do believe that love does truly win all and conquer all. Do you think people who poison and destroy each other without thinking twice about it are capable of true love? Do you think they are capable of anything truly human? You have to be human to be apart of humanity. You have to have humanity to be human.
“The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t buy it.”
To live a counterculture life is hard. It is literally going against the grain and swimming upstream. If it was easy it would be mainstream. A culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. Those shared beliefs turn into patterns in behavior and patterns in epigenetics. If you don’t want to be average you have to not only do differently, but you have to believe differently. Beliefs dictate epigenetics. Beliefs dictate behaviors. If you don’t believe something is possible, you will not do it. If you believe something is possible, you will do it. If you believe you do not deserve something, you will not get it. If you believe you do deserve something, you will get it. Placebo and nocebo effects dictate the lives we live everyday.
“He tells me I need to be “fully human.” He speaks of the alienation of youth and the need for “connectedness: with the society around me.”
We are a collective of organisms. Humans are connected. Humanity is an organism. And we belong to an even larger collective of organisms called Earth.
“”The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”
His voice dropped to a whisper. “Let it come in. We think we don’t deserve love, we think if we let it in we’ll become too soft. But a wise man named Levine said it right. He said, “Love is the only rational act.””
For me, I often love because I do not want to hate. Love frees me in ways opposite from the ways hate imprisons me. Hate keeps you stuck. Love sets you free. Hate is a prison that you cannot escape. It eats away at your insides and erodes your soul. Love does the opposite. It sets you free. It allows you to grow and shine. Love is the only real option if you want to enjoy life. I am not saying to forgive people or forget. Actually, I say we should not forgive or forget what people have done to us. I think that is dumb and counterintuitive. Remember everything, so you know how to protect yourself and survive. But love. Because there is no real other option to be the person you were born to be. If you hate you are living in your ego. You don’t have to love the things people have put you through. And you do not have to love them. But love humanity. And love the journey. And love the person you become. Not because of all those horrible things, but in spite of all the horrible things. Don’t let people you want to hate steal the person you were born to be from you. Don’t let them steal you, the most valuable thing you will ever have. You are the ultimate gift and possession. Don’t let others own you. When you hate you let others own you. The world can hunt you for years, group by group, and you can still be more free than most of them. Just remember to not let the hate you feel engulf you and steal from you. Love is the road to true freedom.
“Mitch, I don’t allow myself any more self-pity than that. A little each morning, a few tears and that’s all.”
How much time do you spend feeling sorry for yourself? And is that really a productive way to spend your life? The way you spend your time is the way you spend your life. Do you want to spend your life feeling sorry for yourself? Sounds like a horrible way to live.
I don’t feel sorry for myself much at all. It is a waste of time. My energies are better spent doing things I enjoy, like reading and writing. Do I wish my life was different? Yes, of course. But it is not different. This is the truth. This is my life. Living at war is my life. Is feeling sorry for myself going to change anything? No, absolutely not! It is just going to waste my time and make me feel sad and depressed. Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. I am going to prepare for everything I can so when I get an opportunity I can jump on it and be lucky. I don’t have time to feel sorry for myself. I am trying to get the life I deserve.
“Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too–even when you’re in the dark. Even when you are falling.”
My hyperactive nervous system is my super power. I am sensitive as my Mom would say. But she used to say it as if it was a barrier. My sensitivities are my genius. Sure, I store that genius in my subconscious mind/brain. But it originates from my nervous system and my feelings.
Knowing when you can trust people is a super power in itself. From my experience when people are talking they are lying. Even in books they lie a lot. But on this revolution I have people I can trust for the first time in my life. Which is hilarious because I cannot hear them talk. The only way I communicate with the world is through my feelings. Sure, I talk to you all. But I can’t hear anything from you all. The world has a sound when it is changing you know. I have been listening to the world change for over 4 years now. It is an interesting sound. When they put this chip in my head they messed with my ear drum, which allows me to hear things you all can’t hear. Plus, the hyperactive nervous system I have allows me to feel the things I hear. It is weird. Animals can hear like I hear, but I don’t think many humans can. I suppose the others with chips in their heads probably can too. But I have seen some of them and they seem to be pretty broken so I doubt they understand the super powers these chips give us.
Let me clarify though. I know the farmers and world leaders would not do the things I have done. But I do know they want better. And I know they are willing to support me in trying to covertly make those changes. I do not fear them, because they have been the kindest people I have ever “met”. I understand the whole world is different than me in countless way. I am not stupid. I know if I ever got married, my husband would kill me to steal my power. As long as I stay single, the farmers and world leaders will be more than willing to help me change the world. Because I am willing to do better for them. I don’t have beef with anyone besides my family and some of the people and families in cahoots with them.
Believe me I understand how evil people are. I have never met someone who is kind or capable of love or true manners in my life. My whole life people have tried to abuse, kill, and breed me like a farm animal. I understand the state of the world. Believe me I have lived the evil.
Do not take my genius as a sign that I am not a realist. I understand how awful you people are. I have experienced your evil my whole life on top of the evil of my family. I hate people. I just do not want to kill them or start wars. I would prefer to relax and change the world for the better. I want to experience my potential. If I am this smart and capable as the world hunts me and destroys me, can you imagine how much better I could be without living in the middle of this war? I can’t. But I would very much like to know the person I was born to be more. And that person who does not live in the middle of a war is the person I was born to be.
You know just because I don’t want to kill people, doesn’t mean I am broken. It just means I am genius. And I understand that all humans are connected. If I kill another, I kill myself. I am not soft. My family has tried to break me more than anyone else my whole life. I refuse to be like them. I refuse to break and be like them.
Broken people are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. I know you all want to believe that I am one of those really smart people who don’t get the world. But believe me I get it. I get it more than you all get it. And I also understand it makes you feel better about being broken yourself, if you tell yourself that I am the broken one. I am the one person in the world my family has not been able to break. I do not think I am better than you. But don’t get confused. I am not the broken one. I am not the ignorant one. True, I do not understand all the things about this stupid imaginary game that the world plays. But I understand logic, science, philosophy, and how the world really works. You all are the ones who chose not read books and learn about the real world. I will never know everything and I have read countless books. But you all think you know it all and I don’t think you have read many books. I rambled. I have not done that in a long time. It felt good. I am sure someone needed to hear that. Because obviously I needed to say it. “Aint no question, if I want it, I need it.” -Kanye “Gorgeous”
“”Because,” Morrie continued, “most of us all walk around as if we’re sleepwalking. We really don’t experience the world fully, because we’re half-asleep, doing things we automatically think we have to do.””
Did you know our society is designed to put you in a trance state? When you are in a trance state you are being operated by your subconscious mind. But the catch is all the computer viruses inserted into the computer of our brains are in our subconscious. We literally download information and computer viruses into our subconscious from our mother’s blood during the third trimester of pregnancy before we are even born. When our brain comes online it is downloading information in an effort to prepare you for life and survival. You know that saying, “It’s in your blood.” Well, it is true. You download subconscious beliefs from your mother’s blood into your subconscious even before you are born. The kicker is these beliefs are in your subconscious and will remain below your consciousness until you take the time and effort to consciously address them.
Also, we download more computer viruses into our subconscious through our mirror neurons in our brains. You know that saying, “Monkey see, monkey do.” Well, this saying describes your mirror neurons. When you see someone do something your brain wires and fires that action into your brain as if you did the thing. So, the more you see anyone do something, the more likely you are to do the thing. Would you jump off a bridge if everyone around you was doing it? Did your Mom ever ask you this? Well, your mirror neurons are in place to get you to jump off a bridge if everyone around you was doing so. They are supposed to help you survive. They are supposed to help us evolve. But people like my family use them to induce reverse Darwinism.
Your subconscious is designed to be in charge 95% of your life. But the way we live activates our subconscious more, which makes you less likely to question your life or the reality of the world. It makes you more likely to jump off a bridge if everyone around you is doing it, even if they smash themselves on the cement below. It is easier to be dysfunctional when everyone around you is dysfunctional. It is harder to be healthy when everyone around you is being unhealthy. The only way to overcome the computer viruses in your subconscious brain is to be aware of what you are doing and ask yourself why you are doing those things? You can overcome your subconscious beliefs with mindfulness, aka consciousness.
“He saw right to the core of the problem, which was human beings wanting to feel that they mattered.”
You all partake in this stupid imaginary game so willingly because it makes you feel important. It makes you feel special to be apart of something bigger than yourself. It makes you feel good to be in the in crowd. You are in on it, that means you are important and you matter. This is proof you are not using the right part of your brain. This feeling is herd mentality, which is apart of your reptilian brain. The basic part of your brain that is designed to keep you alive. Historically, if you were a part of the herd you were more likely to survive.
You know you can induce heard mentality in others. You know how? By getting them to laugh. You know the saying, “Laughing stock.” It is like vegetable stock. It means you come from a laughing family/stock. Which means you have been dumbed down by laughing and kept in your reptilian brain. The more you are in your reptilian brain the less you will use your critical/logical brain. The critical/logical brain is what makes us greater than other mammals.
If you were at the top of the human hierarchy and you wanted to keep yourself at the top without having to try too hard, you would have to keep others at the bottom, right? Well, don’t you think if you got them to forfeit using the higher parts of their brain, you would probably have a lot better luck?
There is a government building in Sacramento, California that has a quote on it. It says, “Into the highlands of the mind we go.” I think it is a court building. This quote from an English poem that is hundreds of years old. In the olden days, they knew the higher parts of the brain are where freedom are found.
The more time you spend laughing and in heard mentality the harder it will be to use your critical logical mind. You will not question the heard as much if you fear being left out. You will be laughing stock.
You have to learn how to matter to yourself more than you matter to the heard or your society or community. It is a balancing act. True you need to consider others. But you can’t live for others. You have to live for yourself. You have to live for your purpose. Being an SS soldier who just does what he is told and refuses to think or take accountability for what you do, is no way to live. We still held them accountable for their war crimes and crimes against humanity after WWII. Are you willing to die for the sins/crimes someone else got you to do?
Matter to yourself and don’t be laughing stock.
“”You have to find what’s good and true and beautiful in your life as it is now. Looking back makes you competitive. And age is not a competitive issue.”
“…The truth is, part of me is every age. I’m three-year-old, I’m five-year-old, I’m thirty-seven-year-old, I’m fifty-year-old. I’ve been through all of them, and I know what it’s like. I delight in being a child when it’s appropriate to be a child. I delight in being a wise old man when it’s appropriate to be a wise old man. Think of all I can be! I am every age, up to my own. Do you understand?”“
Honoring all parts of yourself is true wisdom. I have been smart my whole life. And it is exhausting sometimes. Especially, when I am surrounded by adults acting like children, because they have never had to act their own age. There is a big difference between never growing up and being responsible and knowing when it is acceptable to be childlike with wonder. I am often childlike because why not? It is fun. And I am often an old wise lady beyond my years, because I have had to be in order to survive. Be you at all ages, but know what the situation requires for success.
“”We’ve got a form of brainwashing going on in our country,” Morrie sighed. “Do you know how they brainwash people? They repeat something over and over. And that’s what we do in this country. Owning this is good. More money is good. More property is good. More commercialism is good. More is good. More is good. We repeat it–and have it repeated to us–over and over until nobody bothers to even think otherwise. The average person is so fogged up by all this, he has no perspective on what’s really important anymore.”
Remember, how I was talking about mirror neurons and subconscious beliefs? Well, this is how the brainwashing works. It is in your subconscious. If you have not taken part in the programs I wrote to help you all overcome the brainwashing in your subconscious I would suggest you do so. I thought I was going to die on this revolution and the programs are what I wrote to leave behind to you all. It was the gift I thought would help you achieve true freedom.
“”Remember what I said about find a meaningful life? I wrote it down, but now I can recite it: Devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.””
Remember Victor Frankl and logotherapy? This is pretty much the same thing.
“”People haven’t found meaning in their lives, so they’re running all the time looking for it. They think the next car, the next house, the next job. Then they find those things are empty, too, and they keep running.””
Things will not give you meaning. They may make it easier to feel like you belong to the herd. But they will not make you matter. And they will not bring you meaning. But most people do not figure this out till it is too late and they have spent their whole life chasing things.
“”People are only mean when they’re threatened,” he said later that day, ” and that’s what our culture does. That’s what our economy does. Even people who have jobs in our economy are threatened, because they worry about losing them. And when you get threatened, you start looking out only for yourself. You start making money a god. It is all part of this culture.””
Hurt people, hurt people. People like my family are not tough, they are hurt. And hurt people, hurt people. Money helps everything, it makes things more likely to work out. It is a variable in survival and all the equations of life. However, money is not God. It is a tool for survival. You should look out for yourself in every way possible. But when you hurt other people to get your basic needs or any of your needs met you probably should stop and think about what you are doing. Because only hurt people, hurt people. Who hurt you? And why are you trying to hurt others?
“”In business people negotiate to win. They negotiate to get what they want. Maybe you’re too used to that. Love is different. Love is when you are as concerned about someone else’s situation as you are about your own.””
This is something that has been used to destroy me my whole life. When I negotiate in interpersonal relationships I do not play to win so to speak. I negotiate to find a win-win situation. But everyone who has ever surrounded me has negotiated to win and destroy me. If you do this, this is not love. This is destruction, parasitic, and maladaptive. You should want the people you love and care about to win. And that does not mean that you should not win too. Symbiotic relationships are win-win. If you are not partaking in a win-win relationship, you are partaking in a parasitic relationship. I have been surrounded by parasites. Are you being a parasite? Are the people around you parasitic?
“…when someone is happy–genuinely happy–to see you, it melts you from the start. It is like going home.”
All people want is to matter, remember that from above? Nothing feels better than to see someone happy to see you genuinely. But you all realize that when you are acting or improving you are not being genuine. People have an inability to be genuine. Which means when people act happy to see you they are just love bombing you and faking it. People will pay for people to make them feel at home and like they matter. Believe me, I made a career out of it.
This book was good and it seems to say a lot of the same things that many other people have said are the keys/secrets/lessons to life. I completely agree with these sentiments. It is funny to see someone believe in these things without knowing the science behind them like I do. I have these feelings too, but then I have to fact check my feelings by finding the science to support them. Actually, I was okay without knowing the science/words behind things until this revolution. I never tried to explain the secrets to life to anyone before this revolution. So, thanks for going on this journey with me. It is keeping me busy as the world is signing up to kill me, group by group. They may stop one day, they may not. This may be my life. But if it is at least I can say I discovered the secrets to life and shared them with the world. That feels good!
We read this book together. If you would like to listen to the audio recordings get connected to the communication hubs. There are multiple books that we have recorded for you all to listen to.
This book is about Communism. But more specifically, it is based on the Spanish Civil war when Stalin sided with the Spanish Republic. He did this in an effort to support Communism in Western Europe, but even more so to gain allies against Fascism.
This lead me to asking Google what the difference is between fascism and communism. So, let me share what I found:
Fascism is far right. Communism is far left.
Fascism is focused on ultra nationalism and extreme state power. Communism is focused on class struggle and the creation of a classless, stateless society.
Fascism economy is state-controlled, often maintaining private ownership and small businesses but with heavy regulation. Communism economy involves abolition of private property; common ownership of all means of production, distribution, and exchange.
Fascism Social Structure: Belief in a natural, hierarchical society, often based on race, with individual interests subordinated to the state’s. Communism Social Structure: Aims for total equality, with the ultimate goal being a society without classes or the state.
Fascism Goals: To create a powerful, unified nation, often through militarism and suppression of opposition. Communism Goals: To achieve a global, communist society where resources are distributed based on need.
Both lead to totalitarian rule.
Both are oppose to democracy.
Both are single party authoritarian systems.
I don’t know about you all, but I had no clue about this. From looking at these it seems like the United States is nearly Fascist. We are so close to a one part system. This freaks me out, how about you? The Nazis were an extreme version of fascism. And this is what lead to the Holocaust.
It is funny because the Democratic party is nearly the majority nowadays. And that is the party my family controls. But they are not interested in Democracy. They are interested in both Communism and Fascism(they are extremely racist). I vote Republican. And this made me update my voter registration address so I know that I get to vote! I hope you all are registered to vote! We may not get to vote for much longer. I don’t know if the Republican party is really any better, but I do know that my family does not control them as much. And I can vote for that!
George Orwell fought in the Spanish Revolution. This experience is what lead him to writing the books Animal Farm and 1984. Because it, “…left him alarmed about the gullibility of other well-meaning, decent people in the Western Europe.”
Animal Farm addresses the fall of the monarchy and the transition to dictatorship, Communism, and totalitarian rule in Russia/Soviet Union. While also at the same time shedding light on Stalin’s involvement in the Spanish Revolution. Politics had never really been changed this much in such a short period of time. And this struggle seems to still be an ongoing issue.
Totalitarianism seems to be what all the people at the top want. But what do the people want? What do you want? Have you ever asked yourself this? Or did you just say to yourself, “It is what it is.” Because just because it is this way today, does not mean it has to be this way tomorrow. The saying, “It is what it is,” is designed to induce learned helplessness. If you do not believe you can help yourself, you will not try. You will comply.
The pigs Napoleon and Snowball, in Animal Farm, are supposed to represent Stalin and Trotsky. These two leaders fought for control over the Soviet Union after Vladimir Lenin’s death(1924). This was the Russian revolution. Trotsky was thrown out of power, sent into exile, and eventually assassinated(1940) by Stalin’s regime.
Just as in Animal Farm, Stalin used manipulation in order to throw Trotsky out of power. Have you heard that saying, “Your mind is just playing tricks on you”? This is how Stalin came to power he kept pulling the wool over people’s eyes and changing the rules, while gaslighting them. In Animal Farm, the rules/laws written on the barn wall are altered as time progresses. But whenever the animals asked if they have been changed they are gaslighted, which is a form of psychological abuse.
Google:
Gaslighting: “Gaslighting is a form of psychological manipulation and emotional abuse where a person tries to make someone question their own memory, perception, and sanity by twisting their emotions and experiences. It is a tactic to gain power and control, often causing victims to become more vulnerable and dependent, making it harder to leave an abusive situation. “
Gaslighting is something that people with cluster b personality disorders love to do. It is one of my family’s favorite war tactics. Gaslighting is a way for them to change the narrative of a situation without your permission or even knowing. Instead of discussing what they are doing, they draw attention to you and your short comings(real or false) and away from the issues. They do this by twisting reality, questioning memory, invalidating emotions, isolation, and victim blaming.
You know how all the groups in this stupid imaginary game are divided and isolated? This revolution has been going on for over 4 years and we still have not reached all the people. This isolation is what allows people like my family to gaslight you all. They can lie to you all and manipulate you and make you feel like the problem because you have no way to fact check them. If they make you all feel like the problem, than you will not fight back, stand up for yourselves, and/or revolt. The only way they can keep you small is with your permission. The only way people like my family have power over you is if you hand your power over to them.
Pavlov(you know the ring the bell and the dogs come guy), the inventor of classical conditioning techniques in Russia/Soviet Union. He knew Communism could not survive unless people do not believe they can take care of themselves. People like my family not only isolate you all, but they gaslight you into thinking you cannot take care of yourselves. This way they are able to be your savior. They create problems, say you created them, blame you, say you are inferior, and then come to your rescue to be your savior. This way you will believe you cannot live without them. And you willingly hand over control of your lives.
My family creates the problems just like the pigs created the problems in Animal Farm. And they do not play fair, they play dirty.
You know how Napoleon takes the baby dogs after they have been weened and puts them in the attic where no one else can get to them? And then he raises them to be his protectors and enforcers. This is what my family does with the Mixed Polish NE/NE people, especially the ones born after the late 1980s. They are the baby dogs. They have no clue what my family is really up to because they have been isolated for generations. There access to information has been limited for generations. Everyone’s access to information has been limited, but the Mixed Polish NE/NE people have been isolated just like the baby dogs in Animal Farm. They do the dirty work, but they have no clue what they are fighting for or what is really happening. Do they even know they are doing the dirty work?
NE/NE Mixed Polish people are literally fighting to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level, to continue to be isolated, and have their access to information limited in such a manner that they are kept small until the end of time. With it just getting worse and worse as the generations go on. I am pretty certain that is not what they want. They just don’t know any better. My Mom always used to tell me, “When people know better, they do better.” My family does not want people to know better because it is human nature that they will do better afterwards. People do not fight for what is not in their best interest. Darwinism is about self-interest.
“Sometimes the older ones among them racked their dim memories and tried to determine whether in the early days of the Rebellion, when Jone’s expulsion was still recent, things had been better or worse than now. They could not remember. There was nothing with which they could compare their present lives: they had nothing to go upon except Squealer’s lists of figures, which invariably demonstrated that everything was getting better and better.”
The people who can think back to the 1980s when my family came into power are limited. Both sides of my family did not come to the United States until the late 1940s/early 1950s. But they did not come into power fully here until the 1980s. I was very young during this time, but I remember the change. Do you? Have you ever talked to anyone about the changes? Have you told your children what it used to be like? Do you even remember what it used to be like?
The Average American is sick, fat, poor, and divorced. In the 1980s, this was not true. Children born today have a shorter life expectancy than their parents. In the 1980s, this was not true. The media says we are doing better. But are we really? Propaganda does not have to be true to work.
Have you noticed how everyone looks sick, fat, and nearly dead? People do not even look the same as they did in the 1980s. You can literally see the subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level in people. People don’t look real human anymore do they? When you look in the mirror right when you get out of the shower and you see that you do not look like humans should, what do you think? You blame yourself, right? Environment dictates epigenetics. Yes, you probably have made some shitty decisions. But the environment is set up to rig the game and the system, so you are not human on a gene and cellular level. You eat food, drink water, breath air, and shower. All these things, and countless others, make you more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.
“All Animals Are Equal…But Some Animals Are More Equal Than Others.”
All the rules on the barn wall were erased and this is the only painted on the wall towards the end of Animal Farm. In the end, the one with the gold makes the rules, right? Or is it more like the one with absolute power makes the rules? That is totalitarianism. Power is the ultimate gold. But you know why that is scary? It is scary because:
I never realized how much I am like my Dad’s Mom, my Grandma Lippe, from Texas until I read this book. Once again, I had not heard of the author before this book made it’s way into my hands yesterday. It was a quick read to say the least. I stayed up reading last night to finish it. This revelation also explains why I prefer the South. They are just more my kind of people.
“We live in a world where, if we’re honest, we have to admit that people sometimes know more about the Kardashians than they do about the folks who are sleeping right down the hall.” This still weirds me out. I didn’t know anything about them until my family kept showing me their videos on Youtube. Even my social media is turned into a Truman show. Heaven forbid I see something someone created who is not controlled by my family. But apparently you all get to see a lot of people my family controls, too. And you all love them, but do you even know why? Because I sure don’t.
“And listen. I’m not saying that the reason we need to actively remember what God has done is so we can all have a big, touchy-feely, emotional moment that makes us feel better for a day or two before we jump right back into the worry again. I’m not saying that at all. But I am saying that when we take time to see God’s intentions as He acts, His deliberate nature as He unfolds His plan, and His faithfulness as He watches after every detail of our lives, we’re reminded of His character. We are reminded of his love for us.”
You all know I am not a big religious person. But I do believe in gratitude, because it changes the way our brains work. The computer of your brain cannot run the program for anxiety and gratitude at the same time. So when you practice gratitude you are prohibiting anxiety. It is physically impossible to feel anxious and grateful at the same time. Your brain is just not capable of running in this fashion. So I practice gratitude because it is good for my brain. Plus, it feels good. It literally makes me feel better.
However, until this revolution I would have never thought that there was a blue print of some sort for my life that I did not design. But I have to tell you all, I would have never chosen to be the creator of a revolution. I would have chosen a normal ordinary life. Someone chose this for me. And it was not my family. So, it has to be someone or something larger than human.
For you all that have been tuned in awhile, you know I believe in divine order. There are so many things in the universe that are so perfect, like scientifically perfect. Gravity is my favorite example. You cannot talk your way out of gravity. Everyday gravity is perfect. There is never a day when gravity is not perfect. I don’t need to know the formulas or the specifics about gravity to understand that everyday of my life I can count on gravity. If it was a little bit stronger it would squish us like bugs. If it was a little bit weaker we would fly off Earth into space. Gravity being perfect is apart of divine order. At least that is how I explain it. It turns out our lives may have more divine order in them than I expected. Because I would never have chosen most of the things in my life. A lot of the good and the bad, I would have never chosen. I suppose that may be why our subconscious is in charge 95% of the time. So, it directs us towards divine order? That is my best guess.
So, I can relate to what Sophie says in this passage about being grateful for what God does for us. I would switch out God for divine order. But to each their own, right? My Grandma Lippe was a Southern Baptist. So I am pretty sure she would have called it God. But I like science so I call it Divine Order. But potato/potatoe right?
“And then I KID YOU NOT: “I’m just so happy to be here! I’m having a perfectly wonderful time!”
Well, sure she was. After all, what could be more fun than being awakened in the middle of the night by your daughter-in-law asking where she can find your keys? That’s a fail-proof formula for some scrapbook-worthy moments, my friends.”
Sophie talks about her Husband’s Mom, Martha, and it reminds me so much of my Grandma Lippe. Even if you woke her up in the middle of the night when she was visiting to get her car keys because she left the light in her car on, she would have reminded you how happy she was to be visiting.
I don’t know if you all know me or not, but I get excited about everything. I am this annoying person to most people. I am just happy. It is my default setting. And I never realized that my Grandma Lippe had this setting too. I mean I knew she said, “Bless your heart” all the time and things like that. But she wasn’t the kind of lady who said those things and it felt creepy because you knew something was off. Her Mom was like that, Mrs. Hitler. But my Grandma Lippe was like me in that her default setting was happy. I never heard her yell once. I saw her get flustered, but I never heard her yell or even raise her voice. She lived in Texas my whole life, so I did not get to spend much time with her. But it is funny, I am more like her in my demeanor than any of my Grandparents. I love to use manners and be polite. I try not to yell and remain calm. I do yell sometimes when people trying to attack and kill me gets frustrating. But generally I try to just be calm, peaceful, and happy. I have both Mr. and Mrs. Hitler’s birthrights because my Dad’s older sister never had kids. But I was rarely around them. This is proof of epigenetics. My Mom and Dad used a lot of Austrian poisons on me the most. Which determined how my genes were turned on and off. And wah lah here I am like the Hitlers. It is not conditioning because my parents never wanted me to be happy about anything. This is proof of epigenetic triggers via the poisons we are exposed to. Genetically, I am more Communist than Nazi. 75%(3 out of 4) of my Grandparents were Communist. Yet, I hate Communism.
Let me tell you a story about being raised Communist. My Mom’s Mom, my Grandma Kudearoff, would get all of us grandkids the same gift for Christmas. The boys would get one gift and the girls would get another gift. We were all very different, but we all got the same gifts. Seems petty that I bring this up, right? But do you know what it is like to get the same gift as everyone else? It feels very generic and impersonal. Christmas is supposed to be about family and it is intended to be personal. How would you feel if you got the same gift as your cousins who were nothing like you? I was the odd man out in countless ways, even back then. And the gifts Grandma Kudearoff got us were good gifts and she spent a fair amount of money on them. One year we got black patent leather skirts and Atari’s. This was the 1980s, you got to remember. I did like the gifts. But they felt very impersonal.
This is communism. You get what everyone else gets. Granted my Grandma Lippe sent me a lot of weird sweaters that were nothing like the people here in Oregon wore. But she also would go shopping for second hand books for me and send them to me in the mail. She even knew that I loved Nancy Drew books and would send them when she found them. Her gifts were not as expensive, but they were more personal. Granted, I did not always like the sweaters. But my Grandma Kudearoff would knit us blankets that I absolutely hated. I think Grandma’s in the 1980s felt like they had to get their grandkids more handmade things. The times were different for sure.
I do not think that everyone should get the same thing. I read a parenting book on this revolution. It said that we should not focus on being fair because then kids will look around to other children to see what they need and deserve. We should instead focus on fulfilling individual needs. Communism means you get what everyone else has, even if it does not meet your individual needs. I don’t have the same needs as everyone else. And I guess I knew this even as a kid.
I am a snowflake damnit. I want to be treated like the snowflake I am. And I know a lot of you all are like get over yourself, right? How dare you think you need different things than everyone else? How dare you think you are a snowflake? Well, it is science. Are you ready for this?
The human body has about 20,000 different genes. You get half of your genes from your Mom and half from your Dad. This means your specific combination of genes is one of a kind. Even your brothers and sisters will have different genes. Yes, you will have similarities. And yes they are the closest genetic matches to you. But you are a snowflake genetically.
And then epigenetics means that for every gene you have there are 30,000 different epigenetic outcomes. So your genes are like light switches, but it is not just a on and off switch. It is a dimmer switch with 30,000 different epigenetic outcomes. So genetically you are a snowflake. And epigenetically you are an even more unique snowflake. Granted you will have some epigenetic patterns that are similar to your family, your race, your religion, your sex, your gender, your class, etc. Epigenetic patterns are determined by how you live your life. Even your beliefs determine epigenetic outcomes and patterns. You have heard of the placebo effect right? Well, when you believe that something will happen, it has an epigenetic effect. Have you heard of nocebo? When you believe that something negative will happen, it is more likely to happen. This is epigenetic. So positive beliefs that lead to positive epigenetic outcomes are placebo effects. Negative beliefs that lead to negative epigenetic outcomes are nocebo effects.
Covid was the perfect example of a nocebo effect. It was literally a flu, but everyone was so freaked out by the media and the propaganda put out about the pandemic that more people died, because they were freaked out with negative beliefs. It was literally the flu. People die from the flu every year. We just don’t talk about it. When someone is chronically ill and/or old and they get the flu, it is always a big deal.
You can change the epigenetics of like 400 or 500 genes in just 3 or 4 days of meditation. How many epigenetic options in your body do you think months of negative news coverage during Covid effected? If it only takes 3 or 4 days of meditation to change epigenetic options positively, how does living in a world with such negative media and propaganda change who you are on a gene and cellular level? A lot. I can’t quantify it with science. But I can tell you it is not good.
“Football is a great game, but it’s an awful god.”
Football is serious business in the south, but church and God are even more serious. Priorities, right? Did you all know in the South they still have church? In case you all forgot my family are not Gods. They are mentally ill humans. Just in case you got your priorities mixed up.
“But that’s family. They’re the people who make you willing–eager even– to drive four and a half hours so you can spend three days in the kitchen and fry eight pounds of bacon…. Because that’s family. That’s what you do. That’s how you love.
And you know what? It is a gift. Every single bit of it.”
The search for family has been what my family has used to destroy me my whole life. I love this idea of family. In theory it sounds perfect, but in practice for me this has been an equation for destroying and killing me. I no longer look for family. I stopped many years ago. Thank God because people sign up to destroy and kill me enough from an arm’s distance. Up close and personal is just too painful. What do you all think about family? I never got to know my Dad’s family much because they were in Texas. But I would like to believe that families do exit. Ones that do not try to kill each other. My Grandma Lippe did not kill her parents. So, I suppose this fuels my hope that there are real families out there.
Maybe they are just a fairy story though? I am willing to entertain this as well.
I liked this book and I would recommend it to anyone looking to understand life in the South. It is a different world down there. And it is so much more my world. Living in Las Vegas and Southern Arizona was not the same as the South where my Dad’s family is from. But it is where I belong. I belong more in the South than I do the North. They have manners down there, y’all! Seriously manners, like they say please and thank you all the time. I am so tired of being surrounded by hoodlums from the North without manners.
On day 1, we talked about how all you have to do is listen to these talks to reprogram your subconscious. Your subconscious is your habit mind. Repetition is how it learns. However, if you would like to speed up this process there are a few things you can do.
First, you can listen to this before bed or just after waking up. This works because of theta brain waves. Second, you can listen with headphones, because your brain can’t tell the difference between the voice in your ears and the voice in your head. And lastly, you can do movement while listening to improve the speed of programming your subconscious. This activates gamma brain waves and creates more plasticity in your brain. And this movement can be anything from deep breathing, to doing dishes, to walking your dog, etc. Motion creates emotion. Because emotion is just energy in motion.
Your nervous system is constantly collecting information. And it is so good at what it does that it can overwhelm your brain. When this happens you feel stressed or anxious.
Your brain has the job of organizing and storing all the information your nervous system collects. Your brain creates a library that will dictate if you are able to achieve your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. That is a lot of pressure for your brain. And your nervous system is a hoader and collects all the information it can get its hands on.
So, when your brain has these moments where it feels overwhelmed you just need to turn your nervous system off for a few seconds to allow your brain to catch up. You can do this with holding your head in place and rapidly moving your eyes from side to side. This rapid eye movement will turn off your stress response from your reptilian brain. It only takes 10 to 30 seconds of doing these rapid eye movements to feel relief.
On day 2, we talked about how you need to teach your brain to filter information in order to create value. And not create a junkyard of useless information. If your brain stores all the information your nervous system collects you will never be able to achieve your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. You only have so much time on Earth. You have to focus on what you want to accomplish and what will help you get there.
The key to teaching your brain to filter the information from your nervous system effectively is to know yourself. When you know who you are and what you want to accomplish in life, then you know the information that is important to you. If everyone collected the same information, we would all lack value.
If you partake in keeping up with the Jones and start to value everything everyone around you values, it diminishes your own value. And it erodes your chances of accomplishing your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. No one was sent to Earth to pretend to be like everyone else. You came here with purposes unique to you. And you have skills and gifts that will help you accomplish these purposes. If you spend your life preoccupied with pretending to be like everyone else, you will never find your skills and gifts. Then you won’t figure out your purposes in this life. And then you definitely will not be able to accomplish those purposes, let alone your dreams and goals.
Being you is the key to not only creating a valuable library in your brain. But it’s key to knowing who you are, finding your skills and gifts, and figuring out your purposes in this life. Part of your purposes is to share your skills and gifts with the world. Now what you are supposed to accomplish by sharing your skills and gifts with the world is up to you.
On day 3, we talked about how to get to know yourself. Everyone says they know themselves, but if they really did would the world be so lost? Knowing yourself isn’t a mystical or mysterious experience. Knowing yourself is just like knowing someone else.
In order to know yourself, you have to spend time with yourself. You literally spend time getting to know someone else. You need to do the very same thing with yourself. You spend time getting to know yourself while doing things that bring you joy. You are a human being. Knowing yourself is about knowing how you like to be. Making a list of the things you like and memorizing it will not help you get to know yourself. You have to spend time with yourself in the state of joy. When you are in a state of joy, you are the person you are meant to be. We were sent to Earth to be in joy. We were sent here to enjoy ourselves. Find your joy and you will find yourself.
On day 4, we talked about the two inheritance systems. Almost all the information you collect throughout your life, comes from these two systems of learning from other people. The symbolic inheritance system is written information like charts, maps, graphs, books, hieroglyphics, etc. And the behavioral inheritance system is when you learn from watching other people do things.
Both of these systems are fallible. But the behavioral inheritance system comes with great dangers. See when you see someone do something, your brain fires and wires as if you did the thing. This is your mirror neurons creating this chain reaction. Monkey see, monkey do describes your mirror neurons. If everyone around you was jumping off a bridge, your mirror neurons are designed to get you to jump too.
Any time you are around someone else your mirror neurons are wiring and firing information from your nervous system into your subconscious about that person. The dangerous part is your nervous system is a hoader and collects everything it can get it’s hands on. So not only are you wiring and firing in the good parts of that person and the things you want to learn from them, you are also wiring and firing in the disasters of their life into your subconscious. So, you may not even consciously realize they are there.
We all know that person who is amazing at something and we admire them. But we also see how the rest of their life is a complete and utter disaster. This person sadly is dangerous. Because even though they have mastered something amazingly, our mirror neurons are collecting information from their whole life when we are around them.
Your nervous system is a hoader. It can’t help but collect all the information it can get it’s hands on. Your nervous system was designed to keep you alive. The more information you have, the more likely you are to survive.
Only recently in the modern day world has life shifted to be about filtering information. For most of the history of human beings, life has been about gathering information. But nowadays, we all have access to more information than we know what to do with. Just recently human beings have shifted from creating value in life by gathering information to creating value by filtering information. Your nervous system was designed to keep you alive in a world where information was scarce.
On day 5, we talked about how to overcome your mirror neurons and the people around you with your critical logical mind. You do not have to partake in the blind leading the blind, if you choose to see the world for how it really is. And you see the world for how it really is by using your critical logical mind to find the truth.
The average American is poor, fat, unhealthy, unhappy, and divorced. These are the results if you choose to do the things that people around you are doing without using your critical logical mind. The world is more lost than ever before. We have more information than ever before, but we don’t seem to be using this information.
When you do not filter the disasters your nervous system fires and wires into your subconscious from the people around you, then your life becomes a disaster. You do not have to be a slave to your mirror neurons and the disasters they collect. However, in order to overcome these disasters in your subconscious you have to use your critical logical mind to become conscious of your actions.
The practice of mindfulness is all about not creating the disasters you have stored in your subconscious in your own life. All you have to do is see the world for how it really is. But that also includes seeing yourself for who you really are. Being mindful can be painful. But living a disaster of a life can be much worse.
You have to use your critical logical mind in order to not be a slave to the disasters your mirror neurons and nervous system collect because they are stored in your subconscious. You won’t know they are there until you become conscious of them. Mindfulness is about consciousness and awareness.
On day 6, we talked about how you have to use your critical logical mind to overcome your subconscious and the disasters from your mirror neurons. But how do you actually go about doing that? It sounds confusing. But it’s not. It’s just about knowing how to be proactive, rather than in a reactive state and a victim of the people around you. You can be a product of your environment. Or you can be the person you are meant to be.
Your nervous system and mirror neurons are always collecting information. And they store this information in your subconscious. In order to overcome this, you need to be mindful and aware of what you are doing. But you also need to collect the information you need to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. Your subconscious is your default setting. But you can be proactive and get in the driverseat of your life with your conscious mind and your critical logical mind.
You must become aware and conscious of the information you need in order to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in life. And then you need to consciously work on collecting this information with your critical logical mind. If you expect your subconscious to collect all the information you need to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life you will not get very far. And your life will most likely become a complete disaster. Just like the life of the average American. You should want more for yourself.
Gama brain waves are key to creating intelligence. When you are consciously collecting information with your critical logical mind you need to access gamma brain waves. Our brains were designed to create extra plasticity when we were running from predators. The key to this extra plasticity is gamma brain waves. The more gamma brain waves you have the more intelligent you will be. And you need all the intelligence you can get to overcome the people around you who make up your environment.
Creating gamma brain waves is the key to overcoming the disaster of the world around you, aka your environment. Gamma brain waves are key in guaranteeing you accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. Gamma brain waves are intelligence.
On day 7, we talked about how humans have the need to enslave the people around them in an effort to conquer the world. Your brain and mirror neurons were not created with this in mind. But neither was your body. When your body is not operating properly, you cannot access your critical logical mind or gamma brain waves. When your body is not operating properly, it is almost impossible to create intelligence. Thus, leaving you a slave to your subconscious and the disasters from the people around you.
In the old days, these people who tried to enslave us were easy to identify. They would burn down our villages. But nowadays these people claim to be our friends and family. These people who wish to enslave us have us surrounded in every aspect of our lives.
In WWII these people preoccupied with destruction and slavery, sent people they wished to enslave to concentration camps. But today they just turn your body and mind into the concentration camp. It’s easier to enslave you, if you don’t realize what is happening. You don’t try to fight back.
Modern day slavery is done with a thousand pieces of broken glass. One small piece of broken glass will cut you and make you bleed, but it most likely won’t kill you. However, a thousand small pieces of broken glass may.
Toxins represent the broken pieces of glass in modern day slavery. When your body is not operating properly you cannot access gamma brain waves and your critical logical mind. This leaves you a slave to your subconscious and the disasters of your mirror neurons. While creating disease in your body and rendering you helpless, unable to save yourself. You look for a savior outside yourself, but only find people who wish to enslave you more and kill you. But these people often tell you they care about you and are trying to help you. And if they are close to you, they will probably even tell you that you are hard to love as they try to kill you.
Epigenetics is how we get to choose who we are. We all are born with genes like our family, but your environment and how you live your life dictates how these genes are switched on and off like light switches. Methylation is one of the processes that switches your genes on and off. It’s like a little man running around in the house of your body turning on and off the lights. The lighting of your life depends on methylation.
Toxins inhibit proper methylation. The more toxins in your life, environment, and body the more you do not methylate properly. When you don’t methylate properly, you are switching on and off genes that make you more subhuman on a gene and cellular level. And this is how your body and mind are turned into a concentration camp where there is rarely an escape.
On day 8, we talked about culture and leadership. Do you think the leaders of the people who wish to enslave us in efforts of conquering the world want their followers to think critically and logically?
A culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. These shared beliefs create patterns in behavior. Our beliefs are our environment. Our culture is our environment. Every leader is a cult leader. Because every group of people has shared beliefs that create a culture.
It only takes three people to create a cult: a leader, a follower, and the third person will join or die. The third person normally follows suit rather quickly due to mirror neurons, heard mentality, conditioning, a lifetime of disasters fired and wired into their subconscious, etc. The equation for creating a larger cult is the same. You just multiple the last two variables. The more followers you have, the more quickly people will fall in line with your culture.
Let’s say you wanted to get your cult followers to enslave the people around them in efforts to conquer the world. How would you go about getting that to happen? Well, the first variable is you have to identify your enemy or scapegoat. Then, you tell your cult followers that all their problems and hardships are due to this person or group of people. You lead your followers to believe that their ability to get their needs met will be inhibited even more by this scapegoat. Creating more pain and hardships in their lives. And you instill not only a sense of fear, but a sense of urgency too. Then you enlist your cult followers in a crusade against your scapegoat. Your cult followers will sign up willingly, because they believe they have no other option.
Now this equation could take a very long time and be extremely labor intensive. Not to mention it would require a lot of patience. It could take years to get all these variables in place, maybe even decades. How do you suppose you could speed up this process? Wouldn’t it be easier if your cult followers did not think critically or logically?
Throughout history some of the greatest evils that have embarked on creating a crusade, have created and released toxins into our environment. This damages our ability to methylate. Making our epigenetics more subhuman. And it cuts us off from our critical logical mind, while creating disease in our bodies. It speeds up the time it takes to create a crusade, genocide, or world war greatly. Work smarter not harder, right?
The people around you who try to enslave you and turn your body and mind into a concentration camp have just been enslaved themselves. Their body and mind have been turned into a concentration camp, but they don’t realize what is happening. Because they have been cut off from their critical logical mind. They are unable to access gamma brain waves and create intelligence.
Your ability to access gamma brain waves and your critical logical mind relies on everyone around you methylating properly. Yes, you need to methylate properly. But more importantly, the people in your environment need to methylate properly. Environment dictates epigenetics. A cell can only be as healthy as it’s environment allows. If the people around you do not methylate properly, they will try to enslave you in efforts of conquering the world. Because they do not have access to their critical logical mind.
There will always be cult leaders looking to enslave the people who follow them. There will always be descendants of the greatest evils throughout history. The only way to ensure you have access to your critical logical mind and gamma brain waves is to ensure the people around you methylate properly. The only way to ensure your body and mind are not turned into a concentration camp is to ensure the people around you methylate properly. Those people are your environment. Environment dictates epigenetics.
We can’t kill everyone in the world who will try to enslave the people who are in their cult following. But if we can guarantee everyone has access to their critical logical mind and the ability to create intelligence with gamma brain waves, we can create a safe environment. A cell can only be as healthy as it’s environment. Your environment dictates your epigenetics. Your beliefs are your environment.
On day 9, we talked about emotional intelligence. When you are cut off from your critical logical mind, you are a slave to your emotions. This is another way your body and mind are turned into a concentration camp.
Emotions can be a lie. Because emotions can be created by the disasters your mirror neurons collect in your subconscious.
Event + Belief = Emotion
When you have an emotion you need to think about what is causing this emotion. Just because something happens in your life, does not mean you are guaranteed to experience a certain emotion. Your environment is dependent on your perception. Your beliefs create your emotions. Your beliefs create your environment. But once again the disasters in your subconscious could be creating a disaster in your emotions and your life.
Emotion + Critical Logical Mind = Feeling
Emotions are not logical. And therefore, they are not trustworthy. But feelings are logical. And they are trustworthy.
When you experience an emotion you need to filter it through your critical logical mind to turn it into a feeling. You can trust your feelings. But you cannot trust your emotions. Emotions can be manipulated. Emotions can be a lie. Trust your feelings.
Happiness = Satisfaction ÷ Desires
When you are not at ease or depressed, you need to ask yourself why. So you can address the variable in your life that is causing this dis-ease. Happiness is satisfaction divided by desires. What do you desire that you are not satisfied with? What are you not getting? What part of your life is lacking? What variable do you need to pay more attention to? What information do you need your critical logical mind to collect that will allow you to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in that area of your life?
Emotions and feelings are important variables in life. You just have to know the equations to plug them into. You are an equation. You can choose to say you hate math and continue to be miserable. Or you can do the work and figure out the variables of your life.
On day 10, we talked about the meaning to life. Since the beginning of time people have tried to figure out the meaning to life. Why are we here? What does this all mean? This human experience on Earth has a lot of illusions.
Let’s look at the science and reality of this human experience. You are energy. Energy never dies. It only changes form. You are an eternal being. You just change forms. So yes, you only have so much time here on Earth as a human being, but there is life after this human experience.
Energy is power. And you are energy. Your energy never dies. As a human being on Earth, finding your power is about finding you and your energy. Your energy is your power.
It is more simple when we call the energy that is you, your spirit. Your spirit lives forever. Your spirit never dies. It just changes form. You just change form. It’s not mystical. It’s science. Energy has to go somewhere. It doesn’t just disappear into thin air.
Based on this the equation for finding your power here on Earth as a human being is:
You = Your Power
You equal your power. Finding your personal power here on Earth is simply about finding you. You just have to find the energy that is your spirit and you will find your eternal power.
This means when you pretend to be like the people around you, you are giving up your power. If you feel helpless in life, it is because you are giving up your power. Retaining your personal power here on Earth is about being true to your spirit. And that means being you.
Next let’s tackle, what does this human Earth experience all mean? We all want to know why we are here. We suffer so much and finding meaning makes that suffering not hurt so bad. So if you are your power, why are you here? Well, you are here to accomplish your purposes in life.
Your Purposes = Your Meaning
The meaning to life and why you are here is different for each of us. But the equation is the same. You are here to accomplish your purposes in life. This is what gives your life meaning. And it is different for each of us based on our purposes.
When you are being of service and accomplishing your purposes in life, your body recognizes your efforts. Your beliefs create your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment. When you are being of service and accomplishing your purposes here on Earth you will be rewarded.
Telemares are created by an enzyme that is produced when you are being of service. Telemares are the secret to life and the fountain of youth. DNA need telemares to replicate without degrading. When you lack telemares you age and degrade. The fewer telemares you have the more subhuman you will be on a gene and cellular level. Your DNA will start to have flaws.
You are your power. Your purposes are the meaning to why you are here on Earth. The more you accomplish your purposes, the more you will be rewarded.
On day 11 we talked about Darwinism and survival of the fittest. Evolution is about survival of the fittest. The members of a species who develop their skills and gifts the most are the ones who are supposed to move forward. When you accomplish your purposes on Earth you are rewarded, right?
Over time every species is supposed to become more dynamic with more skills and gifts and develop more specialties. This is to ensure the survival of the species. This is to ensure evolution. We must evolve in order to move forward.
When an animal is attacked in the wild, that animal has to fight back to survive. It’s Darwinism. We are supposed to fight back when someone attacks us. You were not designed to just allow people to attack and kill you. You were designed to fight back. God doesn’t punish people for fighting back. It’s Darwinism.
Members of the same species are not supposed to attack each other. But when they do it is kill or be killed. God doesn’t punish people for fighting back. It’s Darwinism and survival of the fittest. You are supposed to fight back and defend yourself. Attacking someone is rarely acceptable. But fighting back is always expected.
On day 12, we talked about jealousy. Jealousy stems from the belief you are replaceable.
Event + Belief = Emotion
If you see someone with something you desire and you experience jealousy, that is a sign you believe yourself to be replaceable. When you know who you are and know no one can fill your shoes, you do not feel jealousy. Instead, you figure out what you need to do in order to get what you desire.
Happiness = Satisfaction ÷ Desires
Figure out how to fulfill your desires and you will be happy. Jealousy stems from believing you are replaceable. You are an eternal being who is incredibly irreplaceable and priceless. When you see your worth, jealousy will no longer be an issue. And when you see your worth, other people will too.
On day 13, we talked about choosing yourself. You cannot wait for someone else to choose you in order to see your own worth. You have to choose you and see your own worth first. If you wait for someone else to choose you in order to see and find your own worth, then your worth will be in that person’s hands. When they no longer choose you, you will cease to have worth again.
The only way to really be powerful and have value is to see your own value first. When you let someone else choose you first, you are putting your value in their hands. And that is another form of giving up your power.
Choosing yourself first is the first step in finding your spirit and claiming the power that is you as your own. You are a sovereign being. You are just like a sovereign country. Claim your land and your power, by claiming who you are. You have to see your power and own worth first.
On day 14, we talked about how to become more powerful. In order to increase your power, you have to increase your value. Which really just means you have to bring more value to the world.
More Value = More Power
But how do you actually go about doing that? You simply spend more time doing things you enjoy. When you are in a state of joy and creating gamma brain waves you are increasing your value.
Joy + Gamma Brain Waves = Flow State
The more skills and gifts you discover and develop, the more value you bring to the world. The more value you bring to the world, the more powerful you will be.
Flow state is merely doing things that bring you joy while creating gamma brain waves. This creates extra plasticity in your brain. Plasticity is intelligence. Intelligence is value and power. Intelligence is skills and gifts.
More Value = More Power
On day 15, we talked about luck.
Luck = Preparation + Opportunity
Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. You can create good luck in your life merely by preparing yourself to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes now. You do not have to see how the opportunity will come into your life. You merely have to prepare yourself to seize the moment when the opportunity does appear.
If you wait, it will be too late. Opportunity will not sit around waiting for you to prepare yourself. So you need to prepare before the opportunity comes into your life. There is always something you can do to prepare yourself and create more value.
Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. Prepare now to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes. And the opportunities will come.
On day 16, we talked about gamma brain waves.
Gamma brain waves are created by using both your conscious and your subconscious brain at the same time. You know that saying about walking and chewing gum? That’s about gamma brain waves.
When you use both your conscious and subconscious brain at the same time it creates connections in your brain. The more connections you have, the more intelligence you have. You know how you create a shortcut on your phone home screen to get to your favorite app? When you create gamma brain waves you are creating shortcuts in your brain.
Also, when you create gamma brain waves you are creating a rush of neurotransmitters. You know that saying about getting high on life? Gamma brain waves are how you get high on life.
The more time you spend creating gamma brain waves and creating shortcuts in your brain, the more high you can get in a shorter amount of time. And your brain reinforces this behavior by producing dopamine which gives you another rush through your reward system. This is to wire in the urge to do whatever you are doing again. This is part of how addiction is created. Our brains love intelligence so much they will reward you to create them by any means necessary. So if you partake in creating gamma brain waves in a maladaptive manner, your brain will crave that activity. No matter how good it is for you or the people around you.
Let’s say you partook in munchausen by proxy and covertly poisoned people. This would produce gamma brain waves. And it would give you a rush of neurotransmitters. Your brain would release dopamine as one of those neurotransmitters, to reinforce this behavior in your reward system. And it would produce serotonin which would make you happy and activate your immune system and homeostasis in your body. You would physically, mentally, and spiritually feel better after poisoning people. Plus, this enlarges the ganglia in your brain which causes you to live in anticipation. So not only would that moment feel good, but you would live in anticipation of doing it again.
Now let’s take it one step further. Let’s say the food system was rigged with more protein to stop you from producing serotonin when you ate. Eating carbs without protein is how your gut produces serotonin and regulates your immune system and homeostasis. So the only way you know how to produce serotonin in order to make you feel happy and regulate your immune system and homeostasis is by partaking in the maladaptive coping mechanism of munchausen by proxy.
Gamma brain waves can wire and fire anything into your brain. And it will make you feel good about whatever you are doing. The flood of neurotransmitters will make you feel better physically, mentally, and spiritually. But what you are doing can be harmful.
On day 17, we talked about how to move on after trauma or hardship. We all experience tough times. But how do we move forward and not let those hardships or traumas hold us hostage in the past?
You need to create wisdom in order to move forward. This takes a hardship and creates value out of it.
Wisdom = Memory – Emotion
When you experience trauma you need to take those emotions and filter them through your critical logical mind to create feelings.
Emotion + Critical Logical Mind = Feeling
You may have to consciously seek out information about the hardship or trauma with your critical logical mind in order to make sense of it all. Turning emotions into feelings requires logical understanding of the event and/or situation. However, once you turn the emotions associated with this event into feelings you can move forward.
Feelings do not require further review. You merely file them away in your conscious mind as wisdom. And then you are not stuck in the past trying to make sense of your emotions. Once wisdom is created you are free to move forward and on with your life.
Wisdom = Memory – Emotion
On day 18, we talked about epigenetics and beliefs.
You were born with 50% of your genes from your Mom and 50% from your Dad. But you are not destined to be like your family unless you choose to be. Sure you will probably always look like them, but epigenetics is the process where you decide which of your genes are switched on and off. Your environment and how you live your life dictates your epigenetics.
Your beliefs are your environment. People who believe God to be a loving God have better epigenetics, than people who believe God to be a punishing God. Your beliefs create a chemical chain reaction in your environment. And your beliefs create your environment. One of the quickest ways to change your epigenetics is to change your beliefs. Mind over matter, right?
Have you noticed how everyone takes more after their Mom’s side of the family? This isn’t because you are supposed to be more loyal to your Mom’s side of the family. This is because you get 50% of your genes from both your Mom and your Dad, but you get 100% of your mitochondria from your Mom. And mitochondria dictate epigenetics. So your Mom dictated which of your genes were switched on and off when you were born.
Everyday we are creating new cells in our body. And everyday the mitochondria in each of those new cells is writing messages that add up to be our epigenetics. Everyday you have the ability to change who you are. Everyday you change your beliefs you are changing who you are on a gene and cellular level. You were born to be you. Whoever you believe that to be.
You have heard of the placebo effect, right? When you expect a positive outcome it is more likely to take place. Nocebo is when you expect a negative outcome. Your beliefs are creating placebo and nocebo effects in your life everyday. Because your beliefs create your environment. So much so that drug trails have to account for the placebo effect. When people think a treatment will work, it’s more likely to work even if they aren’t actually given any medicine.
So the question really becomes how do you change your beliefs? If your beliefs create your environment and environment dictates epigenetics, how do you change your environment?
We all know that person who has read all kinds of self help books and they are still a complete and utter disaster. Doesn’t learning new things change your beliefs? Not neccesarily. Remember your subconscious is where your beliefs are stored. So your critical logical mind can know all kinds of things, but if your subconscious is saying something else then your beliefs will not align with the things you know with your critical logical mind.
So next the question becomes how do we get the things we know with our critical logical mind into our subconscious? The first option is repetition. Your subconscious is your habit mind. It learns from repetition. You have to create connections between your conscious and subconscious mind and you have to revisit them otherwise they will not stay in place.
Remember when you first learned to drive a car. It was a lot of information to take in and remember. But now you drive without thinking about it. Because that information is in your subconscious mind. Everything can become like driving and can be programmed into your subconscious.
The second way to change your beliefs in your subconscious is with hypnosis. The first 8 years of your life you spent in a state of hypnosis. This is characterized by Theta brain waves. When you were a child it wasn’t like you could read books about how to do things. You downloaded information with your nervous system by watching people and using your mirror neurons. This is why you are so much like your family. You downloaded your beliefs from your family subconsciously as a child.
An adopted child raised in a family with a predisposition to a certain disease is also more likely to get that certain disease. It’s not genetic. It is epigenetic. It is because they get their beliefs from the family that raised them.
So, how do you hypnotize yourself? You listen to something right when you wake up or right before bed. Because that is when you experience Theta brain waves. This allows information to go into your subconscious without as much repetition. Science says it can take up to 66 repetitions to wire something into your brain. However if you wire it in while using Theta brain waves, it wont take as many repetitions.
Also, gamma brain waves increase plasticity in your brain. If you are going to wire something into your brain with repetition while not using Theta brain waves, it makes sense to use gamma brain waves. Remember, gamma brain waves and doing something you enjoy is how you create flow state. Flow state is a great way to reprogram your subconscious. Because you wont even really notice what you are doing. You will just feel joy.
Your beliefs create your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment. Your subconscious is where your beliefs are stored. And you downloaded a lot of disasters of beliefs from your family as a child when you were in a state of hypnosis. You are like your family because you share beliefs with them, not because you share genes.
Remember a culture is a group of people who share beliefs. Your family was the first culture you were in. You had to share beliefs with them in order to survive. However, as an adult those beliefs could be killing you and stealing your joy. If you don’t want to be like your family reprogram your subconscious with new beliefs. It can literally be as easy as listening to an audio recording every night before bed or every morning as you wake up.
You are who you believe yourself to be. Beliefs are your environment. Beliefs dictate epigenetics.
On day 19, we talked about the consequences of changing your beliefs in your subconscious.
For every one gene you have there are 30,000 different epigenetic outcomes you can create. Your beliefs can even change defective genes into functional healthy genes. So the sky is the limit in countless ways.
However, when you change your beliefs you will no longer fit into the same culture. Remember culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. If you change your beliefs, you will also change your culture. This may leave you the odd man out in your family or in your old group of friends.
In the old days, this was a mechanism to keep people stuck. Heard mentality has been used to keep people complacent since the beginning of time. However with modern technology, nowadays you can find your culture no matter how much you change your beliefs. There are billions of people in the world. You will find other people with your beliefs. You just have to look for them.
Don’t allow change to scare you. Feel the fear and do it anyway. You know what your life will be like if you keep the same beliefs as the people in your family. Your life will end up just like theirs. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome. Will you be happy and fulfilled with your life if it turns out just like the rest of your family’s lives? Because the beliefs they implanted in your subconscious, when you were a child, are the same beliefs that lead them to where they are today.
Also, you will the life of your dreams to manifest effortlessly when you change your beliefs. Your dreams, goals, and purposes in life are not an uphill battle any longer. The people around you support all your endeavors. Because they understand you. They want you to succeed in every aspect of your life.
No longer do you feel like the outsider for wanting more out of life. Or like you have to hold back from being you fully. Your new culture supports you and your beliefs in ever way you can imagine. And knowing that you have this support allows you to dream even bigger. People who love and care for you do not hold you back from anything. They cheer for you no matter what.
Your whole world changes when you change your beliefs. And your body changes too. No longer do you have health conditions that hold you back. No longer do you get those fall colds or spring allergies. You take vitamins to support your body and have selfcare rituals, because your body is your temple. And it supports you more than ever before. You never imagined you could feel this good and clear headed. You are limitless.
Ideas stream through your mind with such ease. Pieces of information come together in ways you never saw before. The imagery in your mind is colorful and vivid. No longer does your mind race causing you anxiety. There is a peace that has washed over you. Your soul is at ease. And joy surrounds you.
Finding people who love and accept you creates more of the enzyme that creates telemares. And living in this love while pursuing your purposes also causes you to create more telemares. This makes you a more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. It is a snowball effect that helps you obtain your potential in every aspect of your life.
You are the person you always wanted to be. You succeed at everything you set out to accomplish. You find a way to make things happen effortlessly. Your dreams come to you with ease. Your passions fuel your soul and keep you striving for more. You are driven, creative, confident, healthy, balanced, and courageous. You find solutions to problems you never thought you could overcome.
Today, on day 20, let’s talk about trauma bonds and neuro linguistic programming.
Let’s say that everyone in the world took part in munchausen by proxy and poisoned people covertly. And they even poisoned the people they claimed to love. If this were true than we all would have trauma bonds. Healthy real bonds are based on love, not destruction. But if we lived in a world where everyone was poisoning everyone, no one would have a true human connection. And these abusers would be the ones who implanted beliefs into your subconscious when you were a child in a state of hypnosis.
Your whole life people have told you who you are. When you were a young child in hypnosis you relied on this, because you didn’t have any other way to know who you were. All of these messages from other people are in your subconscious. These make up your beliefs. Even if your critical logical mind knows better, your subconscious still believes these things.
The following are a series of statements intended to create connections between your critical logical mind, where your spirit lives, and your subconscious mind, which is a recording device. The more connections between your conscious and subconscious mind the more your life will become what you intend. And the more intelligence you will have. If your conscious and subconscious are on two different pages, everything will be an uphill battle.
I am safe. You are safe. I am free. You are free. I am happy. You are happy. I am healthy. You are healthy. I am grateful. You are grateful. I am at peace. You are at peace. I am love. You are love. I am loved. You are loved. I am accomplishing my purposes in life. You are accomplishing your purposes in life. My body is healing. Your body is healing. My body is my home. Your body is your home. I am my ideal body weight. You are your ideal body weight. My heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality. Your heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality. My thyroid is balanced filling my body with energy. Your thyroid is balanced filling your body with energy. My healthy lungs fill my body with the oxygen I need to remain calm at all times. Your healthy lungs fill your body with the oxygen you need to remain calm at all times. My kidneys are healthy and strong allowing me to live without anxiety. Your kidneys are healthy and strong allowing you to live without anxiety. My liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing me to live without anger. Your liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing you to live without anger. My reproductive organs are healthy allowing me create life. Your reproductive organs are healthy allowing you to create life. My pancreas is balanced allowing me to remain level headed at all times. Your pancreas is balanced allowing you to remain level headed at all times. My digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing me the nutrients I need to thrive. Your digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing you the nutrients you need to thrive. My gut bacteria takes care of me. Your gut bacteria takes care of you. My microbiome supports my health in every way possible. Your microbiome supports your health in every way possible. My skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from my body efficiently. Your skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from your body efficiently. My mind is clear and concise. Your mind is clear and concise. My soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive. Your soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive. I am reaching my potential. You are reaching your potential. I am deserving of the life of my dreams. You deserve the life of your dreams. I am deserving of anything I am willing to work towards. You deserve anything you are willing to work towards. I do things that bring me joy daily. You do things that bring you joy daily. I am connected to devine order. You are connected to divine order. I do things everyday to make myself a better human. You do things everyday to make yourself a better human. I am living my destiny. You are living your destiny. I was born to change the world. You were born to change the world.
Today, I finished 50% of my diversion for my trespassing ticket. Two more weeks and I should be done. Thank goodness!
So, I have been in a homeless shelter since Friday. And I have never experienced anything like it. And never in my wildest dreams would I have ever thought I would end up in a situation that lead me to a homeless shelter. But I have been homeless for 4.5 years while building this revolution. Funny, if my family would have just let me have a normal ordinary life, I would have never thought to start a revolution. Never in my life did I think my family had influence over anyone, let alone the world. It still blows my mind. But here we are.
I thought about it a lot and I do not want to talk about specifics at the homeless shelter because it just does not seem fair to talk about people. Funny, huh? The people there are literally signing up to destroy and kill me, but I don’t want to talk about them because I feel that it is not really fair. I have never been around so many mentally ill people on drugs ever before in my life. It is shocking and different than anything I have ever thought existed.
The shelter I am at is low entry. Which means the requirements to get in are pretty low. Meaning the people there are not expected to be sober. However, they are expected to not do drugs on the premises. Which is helpful and I am grateful for. But it is a bit of the wild west, because I never thought anywhere like place existed. I am grateful to have somewhere to go. And I am grateful there is somewhere for all the different kinds of people there to go. It is a lot of people who normally would just fall through the cracks of society and government programs. What would you do if you were physically sick and homeless? Where would you go? And don’t you think this would lead to mental illness? It is sad. My story is unfortunate, but all the people there have unfortunate stories. I still do not know how to process it all.
I still have not showered. The bathrooms there are filthy. But I did buy a new set of clothes and shaved my head again. It feels nice to be a little cleaner. And sleeping inside without having cars everywhere nearby is amazing. Over the weekend, I slept so much. And to have balanced meals is something I have never really had. The food is poisoned, but it is so much cleaner than the food I have eaten most of my life. I really like the food. Which sounds super sad and a bit gross. But you all cannot imagine how much poison I have eaten my whole life.
My kidneys are still failing, but they are doing better. I am sure as I have been there longer, my family will find more people to poison me. But I don’t think the people there will be able to handle the amounts of poisons I am used to. It will hurt, destroy, and kill them way before it will get to me. Which is sad, because my family will get the people there to destroy themselves in an effort to destroy me. You have to remember when I lived on the Chambers hill in Eugene my neighbor died from poisoning me so much through the walls of our apartments. And it only took like 6 months for that to happen. The people at the shelter will destroy themselves. I do not think they will be able to recover from the destruction that awaits them. I have lived like this my whole life. I don’t know any different. All I know is how to survive the war waged on me.
Sleeping inside is hard. I like sleeping outside. Especially, sleeping under the stars. I have never lived in a home that wasn’t designed to kill me slowly with chronic illness. Some slower than others. So, it is hard to sleep inside. But it is also hard to sleep outside with how much people poison me too. So, it is just different and I am adjusting. There are things I like more and there are things I like less. I have never been around so many people for a continuous time period ever before. The closest I can compare it to is summer camp from elementary school. But those kids weren’t mentally ill and on drugs. So, it is a bit different.
The good news is I am pretty sure as long as I mind my p’s and q’s I should be able to stay through the winter. So, this winter I will not have to worry about freezing or getting wet. That will be nice. They don’t really kick people out. I am grateful.
Tomorrow, I meet with my case manager from there for the first time. I have no clue what he will say, but he is extremely into destruction. His brain misfires all the time and his micro expressions give him away. He’s a complete junkie for destruction. I can only imagine how powerless he must feel in his personal life to be so broken. And it is sad that he preys on mentally ill and homeless people for a job and to make himself feel better about himself. I told him I was not mentally ill and did not have any physical disabilities when he checked me in and he basically told me that I have PTSD and checked the box. They must get more funding for people who are more disabled. I hope he does not press this issue, because you all know I cannot lie. So, if he tries to make me lie I will not be able to do it. PTSD has nothing to do with what you have been through and it has everything to do with how much butyrate producing bacteria you have in your gut that facilitate you dealing with stress. So, he does not even know or understand PTSD. Which most people do not.
The people there are all mixed polish NE/NE and a lot of them are from families that have surrounded me my whole life. But I realized the other night, while I was laying awake because they were poisoning me with poisons that make everything glow and keep me up, I realized that my Dad/family does not have the ability to block people’s communications hubs. What has been happening are these are the people who have surrounded me for a lifetime. These are the people that have been poisoning me my whole life, but especially for the past decade. Well, these are the I5 people. When I move away from the west coast, my Truman show is made up of different people. These mixed polish NE/NE people are the ones who gangstalk me when I stay on I5. These are not the ones from the fancy families or related to the royal families, but they are still the ones who have been gangstalking me for a lifetime. But they have probably been doing the same thing to you all. It is just like my Dad uses the Austrians outside city limits to gangstalk us all. It seems like every group gangstalks every other group. Everybody signs up to limit the experiences of everyone around them. You know we could all focus on reaching our own potentials, rather than limiting the experiences of the people around us? At least that is what I hope we can do soon. Maybe you all are not interested in potential? I am not sure what you all value, because it seems like you all value whatever you are told to value. I hate being told what to do.
I have a feeling I will be able to read a fair amount of books this fall and winter. It is hard to pay attention because there is so much happening there and the poisons are strong. But I do think I should be able to read a fair amount. I think I will get used to it after a bit. I don’t know if anyone could ever get used to the world hunting you because you are trying to change the world. But I suppose there are many people who have tried to change the world who my family has had you all gangstalk, destroy, and even kill before me. And I bet you all didn’t know the specifics then either.
Did you know that epigenetics were discovered in the 1980s? The destruction of the world and the subhuman slave race my family has gotten you all to perpetuate for generations is rooted in epigenetics. And you know what you all did to the guy who discovered them? Well, he was a med school teacher and he ended up having to leave the country and teaching somewhere else. He got discredited and people laughed at him. They basically used herd mentality to argue with and hide the science. If you all were better at asking questions before you sign up to destroy, gangstalk, and kill people, you all would have known about the subhuman slave race back in the 1980s. The father of epigenetics is Bruce Lipton. He has sold out big time since the 1980s, but wouldn’t you have too?
I am not the first person who has tried to tell you all the truth that you all have signed up to kill. I am not the first person who you have kept small and destroyed who could help you. I hope you realize you need to ask questions. If you just take orders, people like my family will always order you to do the dirty work that limits your own experiences and keeps you small and sick. People my family will always get you to do things that keep you slaves on a gene and cellular level. Is that what you really want? Because you all are the ones doing the bitch work to make yourselves slaves. Why not put that energy and efforts into doing something good? Why not try to be happy? Why does freedom not matter to you? Why are you fighting to be a subhuman slave race? And why the fuck are you trying to destroy, gangstalk, and kill me when I am the one person who can do things no one else can for you?
I really do not know why I want to help you all still. I suppose it is because I want to help myself. And the world helped me get this far, I would like to pay them back. I feel like a lot of different groups owe me IOU’s. But I also feel like I owe countless groups IOU’s too. I suppose I feel the interconnectedness of the world more than I ever have before. I wish I could have learned this lesson another way. I wish I could have met the world in a different way. I wish the circumstances of my life were different. But I wish the circumstances of the world were different.
Once we reach the rest of these Mixed Polish NE/NE people we rebuild. I sure hope that is soon. I want to fulfill my obligations, but I also just want to get away from people more than ever. My whole life I have searched for someone who is my equal and this revolution has taught me that person does not exist. And it has nothing to do with my birthrights. It has to do with the kind of human I am. It has to do with the person I was born to be and how I am true to that person.
I love Virgo season. It is so no nonsense and practical. Plus, the weather is changing, but it is still warm enough to wear shorts. Even when it rains. God, I hate Oregon. It’s a visceral experience. I think that is what defines hate, you feel it in your bones.
Drake, “Tryna keep it peaceful is a struggle for me.” I relate to this line so much!! I was not raised for peace. I was raised in war and to create more of it. There is always a war on my insides that I am constantly taming. No one else in my family has learned how to tame the war inside. Some days I wonder if anyone else in the world has really learned how to tame the war inside? I am uncertain. But I lean more towards more people not knowing how to tame it than do. I have never met anyone who can, but I have only met mentally ill people from my family’s cult.
I am high as a kite and I am listening to music and I want to dance so bad. Rhythmic movement is good for the soul. Free form dancing is the highest form of meditation. And rhythmic movement is basically free form dancing. Have you ever been to the library when everything was glowing like you are at a Grateful Dead concert? I am guessing this is probably why you all don’t like the library as much as I do. Books and all the E poisons you can breathe. I am so tired of being high. One day you all have to stop poisoning me. I am great at making the most of it but dear lord I am sure tired of it. “Tryna keep it peaceful is a struggle for me” Now do you understand why this line is something I feel in my soul?
Rihanna “Needed Me”
You needed me Ooh, you needed me To feel a little more, and give a little less Know you hate to confess But baby, ooh, you needed me
I love this song too. My whole life the people around me needed me, but I rarely needed them. So, they would try to create situations where I would be dependent on them. I don’t even like people. They aren’t nice to me. But I am “a prize to be won.” My Dad made me this prize. And my whole life people have tried to win me, because they needed me. Not because I needed them. They needed me. I am still waiting for someone I need. The farmers and the world leaders are the first people I ever have found who I need. It was magical. They were the first people I ever met who had something to give back to me. The royal families gave back too. But they watched me suffer my whole life and joined in whenever possible. Did you know that not only am I a prize to be won, but I am also the very first worldwide reality tv star? My Dad has been broadcasting my life to the world my whole life. Or at least since grade school. I am not sure when it started, but I assume it started with the chip in my head at age 8.
The people around me are poisoning me so much that I am having hot flashes.
Nicki Minaj “The Crying Game”
I could’ve given everything Don’t wanna let the tears begin We’re back to playing The crying game
My whole life I have had everything to give. I literally have the keys to the world in so many different ways. Yet, no one wanted to see it. They did not want to see me. They wanted to see the person my Dad told the world I was. People have studied me like a science experiment my whole life. Yet, no one really gets me. I am an enigma. And I don’t even try to be. I just am human and logical. But everyone around me my whole life has been mentally ill and overly emotional. You know sociopaths and narcissists are addicted to their emotions, right? Look at this revolution, can you tell my Dad is addicted to his emotions? He thinks he is slick. But so does everyone else in my family. You know they did not even know I was genius. I have a chip in my head, but it only broadcasts the logical part of my brain. Which is only like 2.5% of my brain. Actually with me it is more like 3% because I have Asperger’s so I default to my logical brain naturally. They can hear 3% of my brain and they thought they had me figured out. You know they taught me to journal so they could understand my thoughts. When you normally think, you use all parts of your brain. So I have had to learn to use the different parts of my brain in order to learn how to broadcast. I can hide in my subconscious where no one can hear me. Everyone needs hiding places. It is weird that I even have to find places to hide and get away from the world in my brain. But I have to admit I prefer my subconscious. It is the genius. I probably should hang out in the genius part of my brain the most. It has the most ROI, return on investment.
The communication hubs, specifically Salem, were the first people to ever really listen to me. And they were the first people to realize I am smart. When I realized they were willing to listen to me. I started explaining everything I can. And I have not stopped. It is weird to be this smart and have the keys to life and not have anyone to share them with. Can you imagine having the secrets to life, but not having anyone willing to listen to you until you were 40 years old? It is weird. And it was weird.
Alessia Cara “Here”
But really I would rather be at home all by myself Not in this room with people who don’t even care about my well being
Have you ever been surrounded by people and felt more alone than when you are actually by yourself? This is how my whole life has been. Whenever I am around people I feel more alone than when I am alone. I don’t really get lonely because I do not like people. I get poisoned and that feels not good. But I do not have emotions like everyone else. I do have Asperger’s genius, but also I do not poison myself or others. Emotions are created in your limbic system and this is a system effected directly by poisons. Poisons enter your limbic system creating hormones and these domino into emotions. If you remove the toxins you remove the emotions. Granted everyone around me poisons me. Most days I am at a Grateful Dead concert and everything is glowing. But somehow the poisons do not effect me the same as you all. It also has to do with me being logic brain based. Emotions need to be run through your critical logical mind and turned into feelings before you take them seriously. Emotions are not logical. But feelings are. Emotions can be created in you just by poisoning you. So say I want you to be stressed or annoyed, I would use a certain kind of poison on you and wah lah you would be stressed. Have you ever been in traffic and started to feel stressed more than normal during rush hour because of all the car exhaust poisons? You just can’t wait for the light to change to green even though you are not in a hurry to go anywhere. That is an emotion created in your limbic system with poison. And when you run that emotion through your critical logical mind and realize that you are not in a hurry and it is just the poisons from cars, this is when you get the feeling that you are fine you are just being poisoned. Emotions can be created in you. Feelings are harder to create. Emotions can be lies. Feelings are factual, because they are logical. I have a lot of feelings. I am not really big on emotions. They are messy and often lies. No use keeping them around. It is like letting other people litter in your soul and getting mad at the mess. Just pick up the mess and move on. And stay away from people who like to litter in your soul.
Drake “Headlines”
They know, they know, they know Yeah, they know, yeah That the real is on the rise Fuck them other guys I even gave ’em a chance to decide Now it’s something they know They know, they know, they know
Did you know I have a kill list? The world has signed up to kill me group by group for a lifetime. But especially over the past four and half years of this revolution. If I was like most of you all, this would make me war on the whole world and use all the wisdom, knowledge, and information I have to destroy you all beyond words or imagination. I decided early I did not want to do this. So I made a list of people that I wanted to choose my battle with. And you know what? They know, they know, they know. What do you think they are doing now? Do you all think you will treat them well? I basically just declared open season on the people who personally tried to kill me. Which is not wrong, it is just fighting back. If I tried to kill innocent people, I would be wrong and evil. But these are people who tried to kill me. Literally, tried to kill me before I could reach you all and tell you what has been happening for generations. They needed me. And they needed me dead in order to continue to hold their own groups hostage. I hope you all don’t judge me for wanting to hold a small handful of people accountable for their war crimes against humanity and trying to kill me. Some of them came a lot closer than others. It is a very personal experience that makes me angry because they hurt me. Anger is a secondary emotion, normally hurt is the primary emotion. But sometimes it is something else that is the primary emotion.
Nicki Minaj “Bed Of Lies”
You could never make eye contact Everything you got was based off of my contacts You a fraud, but I’ma remain icon-stat
My whole life I have been surrounded by fancy people. But they were just normal people to me. I didn’t know anything about birthrights or being fancy. All I knew was that people always like to get close to me because they like to get to know the people I have access to. Or at least the people I used to have access. These people were the people who signed up to destroy me and set me up to fail my whole life. But apparently these people who surrounded me have been or were fancy. I always thought they were mostly uninspiring and boring. Some were neat. And those were the ones with special interests who did something with themselves and their brains. I was rarely allowed to meet these people until after I was 30. And even then they were still the exception to the rule.
Kayne West “Runaway”
Let’s have a toast for the douchebags Let’s have a toast for the assholes Let’s have a toast for the scumbags Every one of them that I know Let’s have a toast for the jerk-offs That’ll never take work off Baby, I got a plan Run away fast as you can
I never found a real friend until I found the communication hubs, farmers, and world leaders. These are people I have never met and they are better to me than anyone I have ever met. They are more my family and friends than anyone I have ever met. Do you know how weird that is? Everyone I ever have known was okay with killing me. And a lot of them were okay with breeding me like a farm animal. I never found family that did not want me to die until I have my family in Argentina on this revolution. My family in Argentina will always be special to me because of this. They not only didn’t try to kill me, but they told other people to knock it off and stop trying to kill me. No one had stuck up for me since before my head surgery when my Mom’s mom (from china) would stick up for me. They killed her and my Grandpa Graves who was from Argentina. And then my life went on broadcast. I suppose this is when my reality tv persona began. I was my Dad’s favorite training tool. If he would do this to me, imagine what he would get the world to do to you, right? But look what he had the world do to you all while you were busy destroying each other. You fed the green monster inside of you and where blinded by it. Did you learn your lesson? Destruction is an addiction that will steal everything from you, because it blocks your access to your critical logical mind and then you can’t see that the wool has been pulled over your eyes. Let’s Toast for the douchebags! Don’t be a douchebag. You can stop and pull the wool off, you know this right? People do douchy things all the time. But you can stop when you want to.
Collie Buddz “Moving On”
You haffi keep movin’ Sing on, sing on, yeah, aigh Nuh matter what’s goin’ on You know seh, you haffi chant on, yeah, aigh
You haffi keep movin’ Sing on, sing on, sing on, yeah, aigh It’s just another broken hearted tune Fi all di lonely world When mi seh
This whole revolution people have been waiting for me to break. I am not sure people like me break. I get hurt. My organs start to fail. I get sick. My feelings get hurt. But I do not seem to break. I just keep moving and keep going. I used to listen to this CD on repeat for years. It is definitely in my subconscious.
There has never been an option for me to stop. My life has always been hard. And horrible, my life has always been horrible. But now I have the world to talk to. I have people who are actually willing to listen. Not only listen, but they are willing to really hear and see me for me. They don’t just see the person my family tells people I am.
Kayne West “Can’t Tell Me Nothing”
Man, it’s so hard not to act reckless To whom much is given much is tested
Do you know how much I want to freak out? I just want to loose it and throw a fit like everyone else. My whole life I have felt like this. I just want to throw a fit. I literally have a hyperactive nervous system. This world and people are extra offensive in all ways to me. It is a visceral experience for me. I literally feel it in my guts and my bones. I hate people. Absolutely hate people. Yet, I would never treat people the way they have treated me. Never in a million years would I be as offensive, rude, mean, vicious, and/or ignorant as the people who have surrounded me for a lifetime.
Tom MacDonald “Ghost”
I wanna be with you ‘Cause I’m me with you, oh oh
I have never met anyone I could be myself with. At least until I found the covert world, farmers, world leaders, and communication hubs. Funny I have a healthier relationship with the covert world than I ever have with any one human. I want to be with you all. Cause I am me with you all. More than I have ever gotten to be before. Pretty weird, huh?
The Game “My Life”
So I′m grinding with my eyes wide
Lookin′ to find a way through the day, a light for the night
Dear Lord, you done took so many of my people
I’m just wondering why you haven′t taken my life
Like what the hell am I doing right? My life
I wonder why I am still alive a lot. Why am I here? Why do I have to live such a life of suffering? Why me? Why would God do this to me? You know what? God didn’t do this to me, humans did. I have spent a large portion of my life mad at God when I really just needed to be angry with people. People having freewill and using it poorly is why I have to live like this still till this day. Ignorance is why I have to live like this. And the kicker is it is not my own ignorance. It is the ignorance of the people around me. Do you know how hard it is to be a genius and have to pay for the ignorance of the people around you? And especially to have to pay for the ignorance of my family is hard. They literally genetically modified me to be genius and here we are. I am genius. And they put a chip in my head because they couldn’t control me. And here I still am not being controlled. They literally could have admitted that they were failing and asked scientists to explain the way my brain works to them and even come up with a strategy to control and brainwash me. But here we are because they cannot even admit to when they do not know what they are doing. I am proof of my family’s incompetence. If they were as amazing at everything as they claim to be I would not be here talking to you today. We would have never “met”. I would like to write a book one day about what it is like to be genius and be surrounded in a world with people who are not. It is the hardest part of my life and I know it makes me sound like a complainer. But dear lord I don’t think you all can even imagine how hard it is to deal with stupid people. I literally had to study Buddhism just to deal with it. Thank God for Buddha!
I had a really good time writing things out yesterday when I shared some of the secrets to life. When I just let my mind wander I have the most fun. It is when I “loose myself” the most. So today I just wanted to listen to music and journal a bit. Free association creates new connections in my brain which is basically how I create intelligence. Intelligence is connections in your brain. The more connections the more intelligence. Create enough intelligence and wah lah you are genius. The more unusual connections you have, the more value you have. If you have the same connections as everyone else, you aren’t that valuable. Keeping up with the Jones diminishes your value/worth. I didn’t do much formal education, so my connection are extremely rare. I am the only one who has them because I created my own lesson plans. I used to skip school to stay home and read my own books. And they were by no means the “right” books. They were just what I had on hand and that wasn’t much. But connecting that information in unusual ways is why I am valuable. It is a snowball effect of connections. Information super highways.
You know how people are always trying to get ADHD people to focus and do one thing at a time. That’s nonsense. Here I am doing two things at the same time. Well, I am writing, typing, and listening to music. And I am associating the music with feelings and facts in my brain. Doing multiple things at the same time creates gama brain waves. Which increases plasticity in my brain. Which increases my ability to create intelligence. The information super highways I create while in this state will be cemented in more quickly. I literally get high off creating information superhighways in my brain. I get high on life by creating intelligence in my brain. I don’t know why you all don’t do this more. Well, I suppose it is because everyone tells you to do one thing at a time. That is the slowest way to create connections in your brain. Well, unless it is like math or science sometimes I need quite to learn that stuff.
I talk about how my brain is like the game Tetris. I am always getting new information and it is just like the blocks in Tetris that are coming in from the top. They make connections with the block that I already have, the information I already have. My brain is always collecting information. Actually it is my nervous system. And it is my mirror neurons in my brain. Our subconscious are always collecting information. The terrorist who is sitting next to me poisoning me is providing me with information I am collecting with my nervous system, subconscious, and mirror neurons. I can’t tell you what he has to share because the information is stored in my subconscious. But I can tell you when I am trying to problem solve with my subconscious this information comes in handy. Especially, if I am downloading information from him that I have from others. The more people I download the same information/blocks from the more cemented into my subconscious brain it gets.
My subconscious brain is one of my favorite things in the world. My genius lives in my subconscious and my critical logical mind has a really hard time trying to communicate this information to others. This is my Autism. A lot of people with Autism have a hard time with words, communicating, and language. I will never be able to explain all the things I know. Jung talks about an introverted intuitive. I am intuitive, but I am only introverted because I do not know how to explain most of the stuff I know to you all. It is funny, normal people feel like the disabled ones to me. I worked at a group home for developmentally disabled people and they had Autism and they definitely knew the things I know. They too just did not have the words. You all poison them so much, shame on you.
I am this sensitive because my Mom poisoned herself when she was pregnant with me. And then continued to poison me when I was born and throughout childhood. Genius is epigenetic. Anyone can do it. It is about connections in your brain. Any city can build a highway and freeway system if they have enough money, right? If you have enough information and connections you can create enough information superhighways to create genius.
okay that is all I got for today. I will try to make sense tomorrow and focus. But not today. I am just not motivated to today. I will force myself to tomorrow.
These are the playbooks to my Dad’s war. And the world he has created. You all need to print these out and study them. Memorize them so you can know thy enemy. The only reason I was able to start this revolution was because I know thy enemy. You need to be able to see them when they surround you.
Take all these laws and rules and find examples of them in the world we live in. There are over 4 decades of examples to choose from. You need to be able to practically apply these laws and rules. This is the most important homework assignment you will ever do.
To the leaders of the world, you all need to make your people study these. It is rare that we ever get to see the blueprints on what our enemy has built his empire. But today you get to see these blueprints and you get to know your enemy better than ever before or imaginable. Do not take this opportunity foregranted for this is the biggest gift my Dad has ever given any of us. To get to see into his mind is the biggest mistake he has ever made. This is why he put a chip in my head. This is us having a view of what his inner world looks like. This is the most valuable information you will ever get. You need to pass this on to your children because the people my Dad created will pass this information on to their children. This war is bigger than we want to admit. So we must study as if our lives depend on it. We must know thy enemy!
The Art Of War
Chapter 1: Laying Plans
Sun-Tzu explains the importance of being prepared.
He points out five essential elements of war: moral influence, weather, terrain, command, and doctrine.
Chapter 2: Waging War
This chapter includes highly specific details, including how many horses and troops are required for battle.
The author emphasizes the utmost importance of advanced preparation so a soldier can act quickly when the time comes.
Chapter 3: Attack by Stratagem
Sun-Tzu focuses on preventative measures such as subduing the enemy without a fight.
Five situations are given as predictions for victory:
The leader has full awareness of themself, troops, and the opposition.
The leader knows how to use small or large forces. #The leader knows how to unify the ranks with a common purpose.
The leader knows how to be patient while the opposition is impatient.
The leader’s authority does not cloud judgment.
Chapter 4: Tactical Dispositions
Victory should never be assumed or taken for granted.
The elements of war are presented and include measurement of space, estimation of quantities, calculations, comparisons, and chances of victory.
Chapter 5: Energy
When dealing with troops, a group of people should be unified into a single force.
The troops should be well-organized according to a chain of command.
Chapter 6: Weak Points and Strong
Look like an easy target to make enemies assume an easy victory.
Use mixed tactics to keep the enemy guessing and vulnerable.
Chapter 7: Maneuvering
Strike a balance between confusing the enemy and teaching troops to obey seemingly futile commands.
Arrive on the battlefield early and organized.
Actions should be clear and coordinated.
Chapter 8: Variation in Tactics
Specific tactics apply to specific situations. For example, not every city needs to be attacked.
A general can fail in several ways, including being careless, acting in haste or afraid, being easily provoked, and worrying excessively about troops rather than victory.
Chapter 9: The Army on the March
Marches and alignment of troops are of utmost importance in defeating the enemy.
Weather conditions and geographic features of the land should be taken into consideration and used to the troop’s advantage.
Chapter 10: Terrain
Physical terrain and psychological terrain are equally important.
Poor leadership cannot make up for well-trained troops; well-trained troops cannot make up for poor leadership.
Chapter 11: The Nine Situations
Certain grounds should not be involved in the conflict:
dispersive ground – ground within one’s land
frontier ground – just inside enemy lines
key ground – ground that is advantageous to both sides.
Skilled troops should fight on the following lands:
communicating ground – fortified land
focal ground – land surrounded by three other states or potential allies.
far inside enemy territory.
Lands to avoid include:
difficult grounds – rough terrain or swift rivers #encircled ground – being pushed into difficult terrain by the enemy
death ground – desperate situations.
Chapter 12: The Attack by Fire
Fire is one of the most powerful weapons of war.
With proper timing and conditions, fire can be used to destroy supplies and wreak havoc on the enemy.
Chapter 13: The Use of Spies
Different types of spies can be useful in providing information about the enemy and evading unnecessary wars.
Deceitful spies must be put to death.
The 48 Laws Of Power
s of Power Summary
Law 1. Never Outshine the Master
Always make those above you feel comfortably superior. Hide the extent of your own talents, as your masters may otherwise feel insecure. The better you make your master appear, the greater the level of power you will attain. Those above you want to feel secure and superior in their positions. This may involve making a few harmless mistakes so that you can ask your master for help.
If, however, you are more naturally charming than your master, it would be best to avoid working for them entirely.
Law 2. Never Put Too Much Trust in Friends, Learn How to Use Enemies
Friends are more likely to betray you in haste as they are more prone to envy. However, if you hire a former enemy, they will prove themselves more trustworthy, as they have more to prove. Consequently, you have more to fear from friends than your enemies.
Often, you think you know your friends better than you do. This is because honesty rarely strengthens bonds, so friends frequently hide their true feelings about each other. As people want to feel they deserved their good fortune in hiring a friend, they can feel undeserving and, ultimately, resentful. Instead, it’s better to hire an enemy, as your motives are up front and are not clouded with personal feeling.
Law 3. Conceal Your Intentions
Always keep your intentions obscured. This way, your opponents cannot defend themselves. Lead them astray, and by the time they realize your plans, it will be too late. Use humankind’s tendency to trust appearances to your advantage. By dangling a decoy set of intentions in front of your opponents, they will fail to see what you’re really plotting.
By cloaking your intentions, people will believe you to be friendly and honest. This will lead them further down the wrong path. Additionally, by being bland and inconspicuous, people are even less likely to doubt your intentions, as they trust the familiar.
Law 4. Always Say Less Than Necessary
Powerful people know how to impress others by saying less. The more you say, the more likely it is that you will end up saying something foolish. As people are constantly trying to work out what others appear to be thinking, silence makes them feel uncomfortable. By controlling what you reveal, you can wield great power. After all, they are likely to fill in the silences you leave, revealing more information about their own intentions and weaknesses.
Law 5. So Much Depends on Reputation – Guard It With Your Life
Your reputation is the cornerstone of your power. You can use it to intimidate and win, but if it becomes tarnished, you open yourself up to being vulnerable to attack. Make your reputation impenetrable, and predict attacks before they occur. Aid yourself in this endeavor by destroying your enemies by exploiting holes in their reputations and letting the public destroy them.
A solid reputation can double your strength and distract potential opponents from discovering what you’re really like. It increases your presence and your strengths without having to expend much energy.
Law 6. Court Attention at All Costs
As everything is judged by appearance, you must stand out. Make yourself appear larger, more interesting, and more mysterious than the masses. One way to do this is to surround your name with sensation and scandal. Bear in mind that notoriety of any sort brings power. It’s preferable to be slandered than to be ignored.
A solid counterbalance to this approach is to create an air of mystery around yourself. Keep your cards close to your chest. People are drawn to those who seem enigmatic. An air of mystery increases your presence and creates anticipation – everyone will be glued to your next move.
Law 7. Get Others to Do the Work for You, but Always Take the Credit
Never do for yourself what the efforts of others can do for you. Use their wisdom and knowledge to further your own cause. In doing so, you will appear intimidatingly efficient and knowledgeable. Ultimately, those who worked for you will be forgotten, and you will be remembered.
If you think it’s important that you do all the work yourself, you won’t get far. Consequently, find those with the skills you lack, and find a way to either take their work as your own, or hire them and put your name on their efforts. However, to do this effectively, your position must be secure, as otherwise people will call you out for deception.
Law 8. Make Other People Come to You – Use Bait if Necessary
It’s always preferable to make your opponent come to you, as they will have to abandon their plans and strategies in the process. Lure them in, and then attack. This prevents you from ever reacting to your opponents; instead, they have to react to you. This means playing the long-game, sitting back, and staying calm as others get stuck in the traps you’ve carefully planned out for them.
However, your traps are only as good as the perceived attractiveness of your bait. If your bait is sweet enough, your opponent will become blinded to reality by their emotions, allowing you to gain the upper hand.
Law 9. Win Through Your Actions, Never Through Argument
Any triumph you gain through argument will be short lived. Resentment will fester in your opponents instead of a genuine change of opinion. Instead, let your actions speak for you. If people agree with you through your actions instead of your words, you are more likely to sway lasting opinions. Words are a dime a dozen, and people will say anything to prove a point. Action is where you demonstrate your beliefs.
Law 10. Infection: Avoid the Unhappy and the Unlucky
Emotional states can be as infectious as diseases. Occasionally, some unfortunate individuals bring their own misfortune upon themselves and can bring you down too if you get too close. Therefore, make sure to associate with the happy and the fortunate.
The incurably unhappy tend to portray themselves as victims, and before you realize they are the cause of their own misfortune, they have infected you with their misery. Who you decide to associate with is critical. Through associating with the miserable, you waste your valuable time and drain your potential power.
Law 11. Learn to Keep People Dependent on You
To maintain independence, you must make others need and want you. The more people rely on you, the more freedom you have. Yet, be wary to never teach those surrounding you with enough information that they can start doing things for themselves. This method is the best way to get people to do what you want without forcing them or inflicting pain on them. Once you have dependents, they are reliant on you, and you can subtly do with them as you wish.
Law 12. Use Selective Honesty and Generosity to Disarm Your Victim
A single honest gesture can help cover the traces of dozens of dishonest acts. By being generous, you can disarm even the most suspicious people. Once they are disarmed, you can manipulate them at will. The key to successful deception is distraction. An act of generosity distracts those you wish to deceive while turning them into docile children, delighted by the affectionate gesture.
Learning to give before you take is a skilled way of getting what you want. Selective honesty also functions as a means to disarm your opponents. However, regaling a single truth will not be enough. You’ll have to construct a facade of honesty built upon a series of acts to gain trust, but these acts can be quite inconsequential.
Law 13. When Asking for Help, Appeal to the Self-interests of Others, Never to Their Mercy or Gratitude
If you must ask for help, make sure your request includes a benefit for your ally that you can exaggerate beyond proportion. When your ally sees that there is something in it for them, they are more likely to respond with enthusiasm. Self-interest is the greatest motivator for people. Once you master the art of working out what others want and using it to further your own plans, there will be no limits on what you can accomplish.
Law 14. Pose as a Friend, Work as a Spy
Knowledge about your rival is essential. By posing as a friend, you can ask indirect questions and gradually get your opponents to reveal their weaknesses and their intentions. Once you know this information, you can better predict how they are going to move next.
If you don’t want to pose as a friend, get others to spy for you. However, while you gather information, you open yourself up to vulnerabilities by letting other people do your work for you. It’s always better to spy and pose as a friend yourself.
Law 15. Crush Your Enemy Totally
To crush your enemy partially means that they will eventually recover and seek revenge. Ultimately, you can only gain peace and serenity if your enemies cease to exist. If you manage to remove all of your opponent’s options, then they will have no choice but to bend to your will. By giving them nothing to negotiate with and no room to maneuver, you will have crushed them.
Law 16. Use Absence to Increase Respect and Honor
The more present you are, the more common you appear. Create an air of scarcity around yourself to increase your perceived value. If you currently exist within an established group, intermittently withdraw so that others talk about you and admire you more.
To do this effectively, you must learn when is the right time to withdraw. In doing so, you force their respect by inadvertently threatening your absence for good. Once you return from your absence, it will appear as if you have been resurrected, and people will be relieved to see you again.
Law 17. Keep Others in Suspended Terror: Cultivate an Air of Unpredictability
Humans are creatures of habit who look for familiar patterns in the behaviors of others. By acting unpredictably, your opponents will tire themselves out by trying to predict and analyze your moves. This means occasionally striking without warning. When you act predictably, you give others power over you. If you act surprisingly, they will feel that they don’t understand you and will be intimidated.
Similarly, if you find yourself the underdog, using a strategy of unpredictable moves can confuse your enemies into making a tactical blunder.
Law 18. Do Not Build Fortresses to Protect Yourself – Isolation is Dangerous
If you decide to isolate yourself from your enemies and the world at large, you cut yourself off from valuable information. This makes you vulnerable to attack. It’s always better to mingle amongst people, as you are better protected in a crowd. Because humans are social creatures, power comes with social interaction.
Therefore, to become powerful, you must place yourself at the center of things. Activity should revolve around you. Resist the urge to retreat when things feel uncertain. Instead of turning inward, focus on seeking out old allies and forcing yourself into new social circles.
Law 19. Know Who You’re Dealing With – Don’t Offend the Wrong Person
Choose your opponents wisely. There are some people that once defeated, will spend the rest of their lives seeking revenge. Consequently, it pays to not offend the wrong person. The skill of correctly measuring people is the most important with regard to getting and maintaining power. Be sure to know everything about a person before you work with them.
However, don’t rely on your instincts to get an understanding of a person, and never trust appearances. Watch your target over a long period of time to get a truer picture of their nature.
Law 20. Don’t Commit to Anyone
Make sure the only cause you commit to is yourself. Maintain your independence at all costs. This allows you to play people off against each other. When you hold back from joining a cause, you create a sense of respect because you appear untouchable. You gain a reputation for independence.
Further, do not commit to anyone. Stay out of petty fights and squabbles. Feign interest, but let others do the fighting while you watch and wait. Often, it can be a good tactic to stir up quarrels between two parties and then gain power by acting as the go-between.
Law 21. Play a Sucker to Catch a Sucker – Appear Dumber Than Your Mark
No one enjoys feeling stupid. Consequently, a great trick is to make your opponents feel smarter than you. Once they believe themselves to be more intelligent, they will never suspect that you have any ulterior motives.
Law 22. Use the Surrender Tactic: Transform Weakness Into Power
Surrender before you are about to be defeated. This buys you more time to plot your revenge, and to torment your conqueror. By surrendering, you deny them the satisfaction of destroying you. In doing so, you make the act of surrender a tool of power.
By yielding, you gain the upper hand because you lull your opponent into believing they have defeated you, even as you plot their downfall. This confuses your opponents and means they are unlikely to act aggressively against you.
Law 23. Concentrate Your Forces
Conserve your energies by focusing them all into a single source of power. When looking for such a source, identify a single spring that will sustain you for a long time to come. You gain more power by finding a singular rich source than by flitting between many more shallow sources of power.
Power exists in concentrated form. In any organization, power will emanate from a small group of people who are holding all the strings. Consequently, power is like oil, you only need to strike it once to assure yourself a lifetime of wealth and power.
Law 24. Play the Perfect Courtier
The courtier wields power through discrete avenues. By flattering and yielding to their superiors and only enforcing their power through charm and grace, they gradually accumulate an ever-increasing amount of power. There are several steps one can take to become the perfect courtier, and they involve the following:
– Practicing nonchalance
– Being frugal with flattery
– Adapting your style and language according to your audience
– Avoiding being the bearer of bad news
– Never criticizing your superiors
– Being self-observant
– Mastering your emotions
– Being a source of pleasure
25. Recreate Yourself
Do not accept the role that society has given you. Forge your own identity, one that commands attention. Master your image rather than letting others dictate it for you. Remake yourself into a figure of power as if molding yourself from clay.
To do this, you must first be self-aware, and you must learn to master your emotions. Then, you must create a memorable character. From here, you can learn to play many roles to adapt to what any given situation requires of you. However, remember that overacting can be counterproductive.
26. Keep Your Hands Clean
You must maintain a spotless appearance. You should never be associated with nasty deeds. To do this, employ the use of scapegoats to disguise your involvement. Your reputation depends more on what you conceal than what you reveal. You should always have a convenient scapegoat on hand for when needing to conceal your more dubious activities.
In addition to a scapegoat, you will also need a cat’s-paw. This is someone who does your dirty work for you while obscuring your involvement. This means letting someone else be the bearer of bad news while you choose to associate yourself exclusively with the good.
27. Create a Cult-like Following by Playing on People’s Need to Believe
People want to believe in something. By inventing yourself as this cult-like entity, they will follow you and give you untold amounts of power. To become such a figure, you need to follow these steps:
– Keep your words vague and simple but full of promise
– Emphasize enthusiasm rather than the intellectual and the rational
– Structure your group in accordance to the forms of organized religion
– Disguise your sources of income
– Create an us-versus-them dynamic
28. Enter Action With Boldness
Everyone admires the bold. The timid are frowned upon. Consequently, you shouldn’t choose a course of action half-heartedly. Your doubts will become apparent and will tarnish your reputation. It’s always better to act boldly. Any mistakes made are easily compensated by acting even more audaciously.
Few are born bold. It’s a habit that needs to be cultivated. It must be practiced. Likewise, timidity is also a learned trait. If you find yourself acting timidly, you must root this out and replace it with acts of boldness instead.
29. Plan All the Way to the End
Always plan until the end. This means thinking through every possibility that could prevent you from reaching your end goal. Thus, you will be able to accommodate for any surprises along the way and secure your future.
Most people are too trapped by their emotions in the moment to see ahead, so this will give you the upper hand. Plan in detail before you act, and don’t succumb to making any vague plans. Your end goal must always be crystal clear.
30. Make Your Accomplishments Seem Effortless
Make your success seem easy. Conceal all the toil and tricks you used to attain it, as it otherwise arouses too much curiosity in others. Never reveal how you reached your position of power to anyone, or they may use it against you. There are great advantages to remaining silent. The more mysterious your actions appear, the greater your power appears to be. It will make it seem as if you have an exclusive gift that no one can replicate and that knows no limits.
31. Control the Options: Get Others to Play With the Cards You Deal
By giving your opponents a choice, they will feel that they’re controlling their destiny. What they won’t realize is that you’re using them as a puppet to choose between two scenarios, both of which serve you.
When given a choice between two possibilities, people rarely consider all the other potential options that could be on the table. Instead, they blindly choose to believe they have autonomy in their decision-making; too much freedom creates anxiety. By setting up a narrow range of choices, you can guide your opponent to play right into your hands.
32. Play Into People’s Fantasies
As the truth is often ugly, if you appeal to it, you risk being bombarded with the anger of disenchantment. Instead, by tapping into the fantasies of the masses, people will flock to you as you offer an alternative to the disillusionment of reality. By observing which aspects of everyday life are most abhorred, you can conjure up fantasies that promise the opposite of peoples’ current realities and thus wield a phenomenal power.
33. Discover Each Man’s Thumbscrew
Find your opponent’s weakness. This is often an insecurity, an untamed emotion or desire, or sometimes a secret pleasure. To do so, look for the following:
– Instances when they behave like a child, which indicates some unresolved trauma in childhood
– Contrasts, as an overt trait often conceals it opposite (i.e., arrogance is often hiding insecurity)
– The weak link, which is often someone behind the scenes controlling their behavior
– Ways to fill the void of their insecurity or unhappiness to wield significant power
– How to encourage their uncontrollable emotion, as they won’t be able to control themselves, and you can do the controlling for them
34. Be Royal in Your Own Fashion: Act Like a King to Be Treated Like One
How you present yourself to the world will reflect how others see and treat you. Carry yourself with self respect, confidence, and dignity to make it seem like you were destined for power. We must make ourselves demand and expect as much as a young child. Believe you are destined for greatness, and this belief will radiate outwards and others will believe it, too. Ask for less, and that is exactly what you’ll get.
35. Master the Art of Timing
Never seem to be in a rush – patience is a virtue. Learn to bide your time, and only strike when the timing is right. As time is a perception, by mastering your emotions, you can make time seem to move more slowly and lengthen your perception of the future. This allows you to become more patient and to see the bigger picture.
36. Disdain Things You Cannot Have: Ignoring Them is the Best Revenge
The less interest you take in things that irritate you, the more superior you seem. By acknowledging your enemy, you give their existence credibility and, therefore, power. Paradoxically, the more you want something, the more it eludes you as your interest is too strong, which makes others feel uncomfortable and fearful. Occasionally, it’s best just to leave things alone. By turning your back on what you want, you will drive your opponents crazy.
37. Create Compelling Spectacles
By generating grand, spectacular gestures, you will heighten your presence and your power. People will be too dazzled by appearances to uncover what you’re really up to. As opposed to using words, visual gestures contain an emotive power and immediacy that leave no room for doubt. Where words divide, images unite. Use this to your advantage.
38. Think as You Like, but Behave Like Others
By consistently going against the grain in public, people will begin to resent you for making them feel inferior. Practice blending in and hiding your true feelings to nurture the common touch. By doing so, you will be left alone to express your true beliefs in a targeted manner. Once a base of power is established, you can then begin to disseminate your beliefs gradually, and they are more likely to be adopted.
39. Stir Up Waters to Catch Fish
If you can stay calm while infuriating your opponents, you can gain an advantage. By finding their weaknesses, you can disturb them and play with them at will. The more angry they become, the more ridiculous they will appear. This will reduce their power.
40. Despise the Free Lunch
Never trust anything that comes for free. Anything of worth is worth paying for. Most things that come for free come with a burdensome psychological price task. By paying, you avoid falling into the trap of having to be grateful, guilty, or deceitful. Further, being lavish with your money is a sign of power. Generosity softens up your opponents into being deceived.
41. Avoid Stepping Into a Great Man’s Shoes
What came first always seems more original than what follows. Don’t get lost in the shadows of those that came before you. You must establish your own name and identity by not following the same course of your predecessors.
42. Strike the Shepherd, and the Sheep Will Scatter
All trouble can usually be traced back to one individual. By rooting out this individual and preventing them from operating, you will stop their influence. Don’t waste time, or their influence will multiply. In every group, power is concentrated around one or two people. Consequently, understanding who controls the group is critical. This is made more challenging, as troublemakers prefer to disguise their actions. Isolate their power, however, and they become redundant.
43. Work on the Hearts and Minds of Others
If people feel coerced into acting in a specific way, they will resent you. Instead, you must seduce others so that they act how you want without you having to ask them. By understanding their psychology and their weaknesses, you can play with their emotions and conquer their hearts and minds so that they are loyal to you. By softening them up, you can slowly bend people towards your will without them realizing.
44. Disarm and Infuriate With the Mirror Effect
By mirroring your opponents and doing exactly as they do, you humiliate them and cause them to overreact. By making them believe you share their values, they find it challenging to work out your strategy, as they are blinded by your mirror. You are also able to teach your opponents a lesson by giving them a taste of their own medicine.
45. Preach the Need for Change, but Never Reform Too Much at Once
If you have recently entered a position of power or are an outsider trying to make a claim for it, respect the way people have been living up until this point. Too much change will engender a revolt. To introduce change, make it seem like a gradual and gentle improvement on the past.
46. Never Appear Too Perfect
While appearing superior to others is dangerous, to appear faultless and without weakness is even more perilous. By displaying harmless vices, you prevent envy from developing, and you make yourself appear more approachable. By letting envy fester, it can manifest in a host of problematic ways that will ultimately try to rob you of your power. Stop it in its tracks by making yourself seem powerful but not faultless.
47. Don’t Go Past the Mark You Aimed For: In Victory, Learn When to Stop
Don’t let success go to your head. The moment you achieve victory is often when you’re at your most vulnerable. Don’t get ahead of yourself with your overconfidence and push beyond your initial target. This could create more enemies than you are capable of defeating. There can be no substitute for meticulous strategic planning. Once you reach your goal, stop.
48. Assume Formlessness
By being tangible, you open yourself up to attack. To be malleable, adaptable, and on the move makes you ungraspable. Accept that everything, everywhere changes, and embody this truth. By being as fluid as water, you protect yourself from the ever-shifting nature of reality. By refusing to adapt and to change, you fail to evolve and your power will be usurped. The powerful are constantly adapting, and their power comes from the speed at which they can change.
33 Laws Of War
SELF-DIRECTED WARFARE
1: Declare war on your enemies: Polarity
You cannot fight effectively unless you can identify them. Learn to smoke them out, then inwardly declare war. Your enemies can fill you with purpose and direction.
2: Do not fight the last war: Guerilla-war-of-the-mind
Wage war on the past and ruthlessly force yourself to react to the present. Make everything fluid and mobile.
3: Amidst the turmoil of events, do not lose your presence of mind: Counterbalance
Keep your presence of mind whatever the circumstances. Make your mind tougher by exposing it to adversity. Learn to detach youself from the chaos of the battlefied.
4: Create a sense of urgency and desperation: Death-ground
Place yourself where your back is against the wall and you have to fight like hell to get out alive.
Part II
ORGANIZATIONAL WARFARE
5: Avoid the snares of groupthink: Command-and-control
Create a chain of command where people do not feel constrained by your influence yet follow your lead. Create a sense of participation, but do not fall into groupthink.
6: Segment your forces: Controlled-chaos
The critical elements in war are speed and adaptability–the ability to move and make decisions faster than the enemy. Break your forces into independent groups that can operate on their own. Give them the spirit of the campaign, a mission to accomplish, and room to run.
7: Transform your war into a crusade: Morale
Get them to think less about themselves and more about the group. Involve them in a cause, a crusade against a hated enemy. Make them see their survival is tied to the success of the army as a whole.
PART III
DEFENSIVE WARFARE
8: Pick your battles carefully: Perfect-economy
Consider the hidden costs of war: time, political goodwill, an embittered enemy bent on revenge. Sometimes it is better to undermine your enemies covertly.
9: Turn the tables: Counterattack
Let the other side move first. If aggressive, bait them into a rash attack that leaves them in a weak position.
10: Create a threatening presence: Deterrence
Build a reputation for being a little crazy. Fighting you is not worth it. Uncertainty can be better than an explicit threat. If your opponents aren’t sure what attacking you will cost, they will not want to find out.
11: Trade space for time: Nonengagement
Retreat is a sign of strength. Resisting the temptation to respond buys valuable time. Sometimes you accomplish most by doing nothing.
PART IV
OFFENSIVE WARFARE
12: Lose battles, but win the war: Grand strategy
Grand strategy is the art of looking beyond the present battle and calculating ahead. Focus on your ultimate goal and plot to reach it.
13: Know your enemy: Intelligence
The target of your strategies is not the army you face, but the mind who runs it. Learn to read people.
14: Overwhelm resistance with speed and suddenness: Blitzkrieg
Speed is power. Striking first, before enemies have time to think or prepare will make them emotional, unbalanced, and prone to error.
15: Control the dynamic: Forcing
Instead of trying to dominate the other side’s every move, work to define the nature of the relationship itself. Control your opponent’s mind, pushing emotional buttons and compelling them to make mistakes.
16: Hit them where it hurts: Center-of-gravity
Find the source of your enemy’s power. Find out what he cherishes and protects and strike.
17: Defeat them in detail: Divide and conquer
Separate the parts and sow dissension and division. Turn a large problem into small, eminently defeatable parts.
18: Expose and attack your opponent’s soft flank: Turning
Frontal assaults stiffen resistance. Instead, distract your enemy’s attention to the front, then attack from the side when they expose their weakness.
19: Envelop the enemy: Annihilation
Create relentless pressure from all sides and close off their access to the outside world. When you sense weakening resolve, tighten the noose and crush their willpower.
20: Maneuver them into weakness: Ripening for the sickle
Before the battle begins, put your opponent in a position of such weakness that victory is easy and quick. Create dilemmas where all potential choices are bad.
21: Negotiate while advancing: Diplomatic war
Before and during negotiations, keep advancing, creating relentless pressure and compelling the other side to settle on your terms. The more you take, the more you can give back in meaningless concessions. Create a reputation for being tough and uncompromising so that people are giving ground even before they meet you.
22: Know how to end things: Exit strategy
You are judged by how well things conclude. Know when to stop. Avoid all conflicts and entanglements from which there are no realistic exits.
PART V
UNCONVENTIONAL WARFARE
23: Weave a seamless blend of fact and fiction: Misperception
Make it hard for your enemies to know what is going on around them. Feed their expectations, manufacture a reality to match their desires, and they will fool themselves. Control people’s perceptions of reality and you control them.
24: Take the line of least expectation: Ordinary-Extraordinary
Upset expectations. First do something ordinary and conventional, then hit them with the extraordinary. Sometimes the ordinary is extraordinary because it is unexpected.
25: Occupy the moral high ground: Righteousness
The cause you are fighting for must seem more just than the enemy’s. Questioning their motives and making enemies appear evil can narrow their base of support and room to maneuver. When you come under moral attack from a clever enemy, don’t whine or get angry–fight fire with fire.
26: Deny them targets: The Void
The feeling of emptiness is intolerable for most people. Give enemies no target to attach. Be dangerous and elusive, and let them chase you into the void. Deliver irritating but damaging side attacks and pinpricks.
27: Seem to work for the interests of others while furthering your own: Alliance
Get others to compensate for your deficiencies, do your dirty work, fight your wars. Sow dissension in the alliances of others, weakening opponents by isolating them.
28: Give your rivals enough rope to hang themselves: One-upmanship
Instill doubts and insecurities in rivals, getting them to think too much and act defensive. Make them hang themselves through their own self-destructive tendencies, leaving you blameless and clean.
29: Take small bites: Fait Accompli
Take small bites to play on people’s short attention span. Before they notice, you may acquire an empire.
30: Penetrate their minds: Communication
Infiltrate your ideas behind enemy lines, sending messages through little details. Lure people into coming to the conclusions you desire and into thinking they’ve gotten there by themselves.
31: Destroy from within: The Inner Front
To take something you want, don’t fight those who have it, but join them. Then either slowly make it your own or wait for the right moment to stage a coup.
32: Dominate while seeming to submit: Passive-Aggression
Seem to go along, offering no resistance, but actually dominate the situation. Disguise your aggression so you can deny that it exists.
33: Sow uncertainty and panic through acts of terror: Chain Reaction
Terror can paralyze a people’s will to resist and destroy their ability to plan a strategic response. The goal is to cause maximum chaos and provoke a desperate overreaction. To counter terror, stay balanced and rational.
50th Law Of Power
High-Level Thoughts
Fantastic, one of Robert Greene’s best. The idea of fearlessness is essential for individual success outside of a traditional path, and even within it. If you can master fearlessness and take control of your own destiny, there is no limit on what you can accomplish.
Summary Notes
“…your fears are a kind of prison that confines you within a limited range of action. The less you fear, the more power you will have and the more fully you will live.”
“We became anxious for our livelihoods, the future of our families and children, our personal health, and the aging process. Instead of a simple, intense fear of something powerful and real, we developed a kind of generalized anxiety. It was as if the thousands of years of feeling fear in the face of nature could not go away— we had to find something at which to direct our anxiety, no matter how small or improbable.”
“Understand: we are all too afraid— of offending people, of stirring up conflict, of standing out from the crowd, of taking bold action. For thousands of years our relationship to this emotion has evolved— from a primitive fear of nature, to generalized anxiety about the future, to the fearful attitude that now dominates us. As rational, productive adults we are called upon to finally overcome this downward trend and to evolve beyond our fears.”
“There are no Alps and no obstacles that can stand in the way of a person without fears.”
“And the people who practice the 50th Law in their lives all share certain qualities— supreme boldness, unconventionality, fluidity, and a sense of urgency— that give them this unique ability to shape circumstance.”
“IN MY VIEW… IT IS BETTER TO BE IMPETUOUS THAN CAUTIOUS, BECAUSE FORTUNE IS A WOMAN, AND IF YOU WISH TO DOMINATE HER YOU MUST BEAT HER AND BATTER HER. IT IS CLEAR THAT SHE WILL LET HERSELF BE WON BY MEN WHO ARE IMPETUOUS RATHER THAN BY THOSE WHO STEP CAUTIOUSLY. —Niccolò Machiabelli”
Intense Realism
“YOU MUST FEARLESSLY ACCEPT THESE CIRCUMSTANCES, EVEN EMBRACE THEM. BY FOCUSING YOUR ATTENTION ON WHAT IS GOING ON AROUND YOU, YOU WILL GAIN A SHARP APPRECIATION FOR WHAT MAKES SOME PEOPLE ADVANCE AND OTHER FALL BEHIND.”
“…the greatest danger you face is your mind growing soft and your eye getting dull.”
“People can be full of book knowledge and crammed with information but have no real sense of what’s going on around them. It is in fact a function of character and fearlessness.”
“What you see determines what you think and how you act. The moment you believe in some cherished idea that you will hold on to no matter what your eyes and ears reveal to you, you are no longer a realist.”
Exercises in realism:
Take opportunities to be more curious and open, explore the truth. Imagine you don’t know anything.
Expand yourself so you know the complete terrain. Expose yourself to different ideas, go outside of your comfort zone.
Dig deeper, get to the roots. “When you do not get to the root of a problem, you cannot solve it in any meaningful manner. People like to look at the surfaces, get all emotional and react, doing things that make them feel better in the short term but do nothing for them in the long term.”
Look ahead, beyond the present, get a better perspective. “It is a law of power, however, that the further and deeper we contemplate the future, the greater our capacity to shape it according to our desires… If you have a long-term goal for yourself, one that you have imagined in detail, then you are better able to make the proper decisions in the present. You know which battles or positions to avoid because they don’t advance you towards your goal.
Judge people by their actions, not words.
Assess yourself realistically.
Self Reliance, Make Everything You Own
“WHEN YOU WORK FOR OTHERS, YOU ARE AT THEIR MERCY. THEY OWN YOUR WORK; THEY OWN YOU. YOUR CREATIVE SPIRIT IS SQUASHED. WHAT KEEPS YOU IN SUCH POSITIONS IS A FEAR OF HAVING TO SINK OR SWIM ON YOUR OWN. INSTEAD YOU SHOULD HAVE A GREATER FEAR OF WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO YOU IF YOU REMAIN DEPENDENT ON OTHERS FOR POWER. YOUR GOAL IN EVERY MANEUVER IN LIFE MUST BE OWNERSHIP, WORKING THE CORNER FOR YOURSELF. WHEN IT IS YOURS TO LOSE-YOU ARE MORE MOTIVATED, MORE CREATIVE, MORE ALIVE. THE ULTIMATE POWER IN LIFE IS TO BE COMPLETELY SELF-RELIANT, COMPLETELY YOURSELF.”
“We will often package this as the opposite— that by working for others, being dutiful, fitting in, or subsuming our personality to the group, we are being a good person. But that is our fear speaking and deluding us. If we give in to this fear, then we will spend our lives looking outward for salvation and never find it. We will merely move from one dependency to another.”
The Blueprint of Self Reliance:
1. Reclaim your dead time.
“Remember: your bosses prefer to keep you in dependent positions. It is in their interest that you do not become self-reliant, and so they will tend to hoard information. You must secretly work against this and seize this information for yourself.”
2. Create little empires
“Keep in mind the following: what you really value in life is ownership, not money. If ever there is a choice— more money or more responsibility— you must always opt for the latter. A lower-paying position that offers more room to make decisions and carve out little empires is infinitely preferable to something that pays well but constricts your movements.”
3. Move higher up the food chain
Your goal in life must be to always move higher and higher up the food chain, where you alone control the direction of your enterprise and depend on no one. Since this goal is a future ideal, in the present you must strive to keep yourself free of unnecessary entanglements and alliances. And if you cannot avoid having partners, make sure that you are clear as to what function they serve for you and how you will free yourself of them at the right moment.
4. Make your enterprise reflect your individuality
Understand: you are one of a kind. Your character traits are a kind of chemical mix that will never be repeated in history. There are ideas unique to you, a specific rhythm and perspective that are your strengths, not your weaknesses. You must not be afraid of your uniqueness and you must care less and less what people think of you.
“Finally, do not be taken in by the culture of ease. Self-help books and experts will try to convince you that you can have what you want by following a few simple steps. Things that come easy and fast will leave you just as fast.”
“THERE IS A TIME IN EVERY MAN’S EDUCATION WHEN HE ARRIVES AT THE CONVICTION THAT… IMITATION IS SUICIDE… THAT THOUGH THE WIDE UNIVERSE IS FULL OF GOOD, NO KERNEL OF NOURISHING CORN CAN COME TO HIM BUT THROUGH HIS TOIL BESTOWED ON THAT PLOT OF GROUND WHICH IS GIVEN TO HIM TO TILL. – Ralpha Waldo Emerson”
Optimisim, turn shit into sugar
“In places like the hood or in any kind of materially impoverished environment, the response to hardship is much different. There, bad things happening assume a kind of normality. They are part of daily life. The hustler thinks: “I must make the most of what I have, even the bad stuff, because things are not going to get better on their own.”
“When things are going well, that is precisely when you must be concerned and vigilant. You know it will not last and you will not be caught unprepared. When things are going badly, that is when you are most encouraged and fearless. Finally you have material for a powerful reversal, a chance to prove yourself.”
“We generally believe there are only a few such golden chances in life, and most of us are waiting for them to cross our path. This concept is extremely limited in scope. It makes us dependent on outside forces.”
“Many of us have had the following experience: we find ourselves in an urgent, difficult situation. Perhaps we have to get something done in an impossibly short amount of time, or someone we had counted on for help does not come through, or we are in a foreign land and must suddenly fend for ourselves. In these situations, necessity crowds in on us. We have to get work done and figure out problems quickly or we suffer immediate consequences. What usually happens is that our minds snap to attention. We find the necessary energy because we have to. We pay attention to details that normally elude us, because they might spell the difference between success and failure, life and death. We are surprised at how inventive we become. It is at such moments that we get a glimpse of that potential mental power within us that generally lies untapped. If only we could have such a spirit and attitude in everyday life.”
“If we look for more— information, outside people to help us— it won’t necessarily lead to anything better; in fact the waiting and the dependence makes us less creative. When we go to work with what is there, we find new ways to employ this material. We solve problems, develop skills we can use again and again, and build up our confidence. If we become wealthy and dependent on money and technology, our minds atrophy and that wealth will not last.”
“Most people wait too long to go into action, generally out of fear. They want more money or better circumstances. You must go the opposite direction and move before you think you are ready. It is as if you are making it a little more difficult for yourself, deliberately creating obstacles in your path. But it is a law of power that your energy will always rise to the appropriate level.”
Keys:
Make the most of what you have
Turn all obstacles into openings, into opportunities
Look for turning points
Move before you are ready
Keep Moving: Calculated Momentum
“DON’T GIVE OTHERS THE CHANCE TO PIN YOU DOWN; KEEP MOVING AND CHANGING YOUR APPEARANCES TO FIT THE ENVIRONMENT. IF YOU ENCOUNTER WALLS OR BOUNDARIES, SLIP AROUND THEM. DO NOT LET ANYTHING DISRUPT YOUR FLOW.”
“Life has a particular pace and rhythm, an endless stream of changes that can move slowly or quickly. When you try to stop this flow mentally or physically by holding on to things or people, you fall behind. Your actions become awkward because they are not in relation to present circumstances. It is like moving against a current as opposed to using it to propel you forward.”
Keys:
Mental flow, stay curious, don’t let your knowledge be confined to one area or category.
Emotional flow, do not dwell on feelings, you must learn to forget what emotions stand in your way.
Social flow, be able to easily move between different groups, do not stay stuck to a tribe, and trust the people you work with.
Cultural flow, move culture forward, do not be locked into one archaic form of expression.
Aggression, know when to be bad
“As Fifty had learned, talent and good intentions are never enough in this world; you need to be fearless and strategic.”
“If you indicate you’ll do anything to avoid trouble, that’s when you get in trouble.”
Types of situations where you’ll need to be aggressive:
Aggressors. Don’t fight them head on, subvert them, go behind their back, don’t let them know you’re fighting back until it’s too late.
Passive Aggressors. Take bold, uncompromising action against them. Don’t play their games, don’t subvert them, be fearless and direct in your combat with them and you’ll send them running.
Unjust situations. Play the fox, design strategies to win over public support without being blatant about your intentions to upend the situation. You must be willing to do whatever it takes to defeat the enemy.
Static situations. If a situation has become static, ignore the rules and make your own. There is power to be had in instigating a new order.
Impossible dynamics. Terminate the relationship, leave the job, don’t fight a battle that can’t be won.
Authority, lead from the front
“IN ANY GROUP, THE PERSON ON TOP CONSCIOUSLY OR UNCONSCIOUSLY SETS THE TONE. IF LEADERS ARE FEARFUL, HESITANT TO TAKE ANY RISKS, OR OVERLY CONCERNED FOR THEIR EGO AND REPUTATION, THEN THIS INVARIABLY FILTERS ITS WAY THROUGH THE ENTIRE GROUP AND MAKES EFFECTIVE ACTION IMPOSSIBLE.”
“FOR IT IS A GENERAL RULE OF HUMAN NATURE THAT PEOPLE DESPISE THOSE WHO TREAT THEM WELL AND LOOK UP TO THOSE WHO MAKE NO CONCESSIONS. – Thurydides”
Four roles you must perform:
The Visionary: “You must play this visionary role with some dramatic flair, like Edison who was a consummate performer and promoter. He would give dazzling presentations of his ideas, and stage events to get on the front page of newspapers. Like Moses describing the Promised Land, he could paint an alluring picture of the future that his inventions would help create. This drew in money from investors and inspired his researchers to work even harder. Your own level of excitement and self-belief will convince people that you know where you are going and should be followed.”
The Unifier: “A group needs a centripetal force to give it unity and cohesion but it is not enough to have that be you and the force of your personality. Instead it should be a cause that you fearlessly embody… This cause elevates your group above others. It has a quasi-religious aura to it, a kind of cult feeling. Now, to fight or doubt you from within is to stand against this cause and seem selfish. The group, infused with this belief system, will tend to police itself and root out troublemakers.”
The Role Model: “Operating with a mission statement is an effective way of softening your image and disguising the extent of your power. You are seen as more than just a leader; you are a role model, instructing, energizing, and inspiring your lieutenants. In crafting this team, look for people who share your values and are open to learning. Do not be seduced by a glittering résumé. You want them near you, to absorb your spirit and ways of doing things. Once you feel they have the proper training, you must not be afraid to let go of the reins and give them more independence. In the end, this will save you much energy and allow you to continue focusing on the greater strategic picture.”
The Bold Knight: “You keep your group marching and on the offensive. This will excite them and give them a feeling of movement. You are not taking unnecessary risks, but simply adding a dash of aggression to your normally staid group. They become used to seeing you out in front and grow addicted to the excitement you bring with each new campaign.”
Connection, know your environment from the inside out
Keys:
Crush all distance. You must have access to people at all levels in the organizaton you wish to control.
Open informal channels for criticism and feedback.
Reconnect with your base. “You have a base of power— a group of people, small or large, which identifies with you. This base is also mental— ideas you had when you were younger, which were tied to powerful emotions and inspired you to take a particular path. Time and success tend to diffuse the sense of connection you have to this physical and mental base… Know your base and work to reconnect with it.”
Create the social mirror. “You view your work from inside your mind, encrusted with all kinds of desires and fears. They see it as an object; they see it as it is. Through their criticisms you can get closer to this objective version and gradually improve what you do.”
Mastery, respect the process
“THE FOOLS IN LIFE WANT THINGS FAST AND EASY-MONEY, SUCCESS, ATTENTION. BOREDOM IS THEIR GREAT ENEMY AND FEAR. WHATEVER THEY MANAGE TO GET SLIPS THROUGH THEIR HANDS AS FAST AS IT COMES IN. YOU, ON THE OTHER HAND, WANT TO OUTLAST YOUR RIVALS. YOU ARE BUILDING THE FOUNDATION FOR SOMETHING THAT CAN CONTINUE TO EXPAND.”
“MOST PEOPLE CAN’T HANDLE BOREDOM. THAT MEANS THEY CAN’T STAY ON ONE THING UNTIL THEY GET GOOD AT IT. AND THEY WONDER WHY THEY’RE UNHAPPY. —50 Cent”
“More often than not our jobs are something that we endure; we live for our time off and dream of the future. We are not engaged in the daily activity of the job with our full mental powers because it is not as exciting as life outside work.”
“When we look at those who stand out in history, we tend to focus on their achievements. From such an angle, it is easy for us to be dazzled and see their success as stemming from genetics and perhaps some social factors. They are gifted. We could never reach their level, or so we think. But we are choosing to ignore that telling period in their lives, when each and every one of them underwent a rather tedious apprenticeship in their field.”
“Understand: the real secret, the real formula for power in this world, lies in accepting the ugly reality that learning requires a process, and this in turn demands patience and the ability to endure drudge work.”
Developing the proper relationship to mastery and the process:
Progress through trial and error.
Master something simple. Develop a pattern of confidence through the parts of your life that you take control over.
Intenralize the rules of the game. “With a deepening knowledge of these rules you can begin to maneuver them for your purpose… Knowing how it works, you can take it apart— for good.”
Attune yourself to the details. “Often when you begin a project of any kind, it is from the wrong end. You tend to think first of what you want to accomplish, imagining the glory and money it will bring you if it succeeds. You then proceed to make this concept come to life. But as you go forward you often lose patience, because the small steps to get there are not nearly as exciting as the ambitious visions in your head.”
Rediscover your natural persistence. “First, you must understand the role that your energy level plays in mastering a process and bringing something to completion. If you take on added goals or new tasks, your focus will be broken up and you will never attain what you wanted in the first place… Second, try breaking things up into smaller blocks of time. You have a large goal, but there are steps along the way, and steps within the steps.”
“Try to look at boredom from the opposite perspective— as a call for you to slow yourself down, to stop searching for endless distractions.”
Self Belief, Push beyond your limits
“PEOPLE FOLLOW THOSE WHO KNOW WHERE THEY ARE GOING, SO CULTIVATE AN AIR OF CERTAINTY AND BOLDNESS.”
“If you are dependent on their judgments for your sense of worth, then your ego will always be weak and fragile.”
“Understand: people will constantly attack you in life. One of their main weapons will be to instill in you doubts about yourself— your worth, your abilities, your potential. They will often disguise this as their objective opinion, but invariably it has a political purpose— they want to keep you down.”
Strategies for pushing past yours and society’s limits:
Defy all categories. Don’t let yourself be shunted into something where people can have expectations.
Constantly reinvent yourself. “Consistency is an illusion anyway— each passing day brings changes within you. You must not be afraid to express these evolutions.”
Subvert your patterns. “What often prevent us from using the mental fluidity and freedom that we naturally possess are the physical routines in our lives. We see the same people and do the same things, and our minds follow these patterns. The solution then is to break this up.”
Create a sense of destiny. “Having supreme confidence makes you fearless and persistent, allowing you to overcome obstacles that stop most people in their tracks. It makes others believe in you as well. And the most intense form of self-belief is to feel a sense of destiny impelling you forward.”
Bet on yourself. “You must always be prepared to place a bet on yourself, on your future, by heading in a direction that others seem to fear.”
The Sublime, confront your mortality
“He realized that the key in life is to always be willing to walk away. He was often surprised that in doing so, or even feeling that way, people would come back to him on his terms, now fearing what they might lose in the process. And if they didn’t return, then good riddance.”
“To accomplish this is remarkably simple. It is a matter of looking inward and seeing death as something that you carry within. It is a part of you that cannot be repressed. It does not mean that you brood about it, but that you have continual awareness of a reality that you come to embrace. You convert the terrified, denial-type relationship to death into something active and positive— finally released from pettiness, useless anxieties, and fearful, timid response.
This book is a sequel to Man’s Search For Meaning by Victor E. Frankl. I have talked over and over about logotherapy. Victor discover and/or created it while in concentration camps during WWII. It is a therapy based on finding meaning in life, aka purpose. This book talks about more specifics of the therapy and how over time he realized more.
“Thus, human existence–at least as long as it has not been neurotically distorted–is always directed to something, or someone, other than itself, be it a meaning to fulfill or another human being to encounter lovingly. I have termed this constitutive characteristic of human existence “self-transcendence”.”
“Therefore man is orginally characterized by his “search for meaning” rather than his “search for himself”. The more he forgets himself–giving himself to a cause or another person–the more human he is. And the more he is immersed and absorbed in something or someone other than himself the more he really becomes himself.”
Do you see the connection between this and Buddhism? A loss of self is the answer. And the more you loose yourself, the more you gain of yourself.
So you know that Eminem song, Loose Yourself?
“You better – lose yourself in the music, the moment You own it, you better never let it go (go)”
This is the key to happiness. Learning how to loose yourself, in order to gain who you really are. Finding purpose is about loosing yourself. Being a Buddhist is about loosing yourself. However, it is not about not knowing who you are. It is about knowing who you are and intentionally loosing yourself in order to get more.
Then Frankl goes onto explain the existential vacuum of not knowing yourself or your purpose.
Google:
“Viktor Frankl described the existential vacuum as a widespread phenomenon of meaninglessness and emptiness in the 20th century, resulting from the loss of traditional, instinctual guides for behavior. This leads to symptoms like boredom, apathy, and depression, a phenomenon he called mass neurosis, where individuals lack direction and don’t know what they want to do.”
“I once took a taxi to a university whose student body had invited me to give a lecture on the question of whether “the new generation is mad.” I asked the cab driver to answer that question. He came up with the following succinct statement: “Of course they are mad; they kill themselves, they kill each other, and they take dope.” -Man’s Search For Ultimate Meaning
The world is the way it is because people do not know their purpose. When you find your purpose, you find yourself. You know how they have those pictures where you have to unfocus your eyes to really see the picture? You know that saying when you can’t figure something out, you should do something else and the answer will come to you?
Who you are is apart of your subconscious mind. You cannot figure out who you are completely using your conscious mind. Your conscious mind is really not that smart. Your subconscious is the genius. It is the part of your brain in charge 95% or more of your life. It is the biggest part of your brain. If you want to figure something out, especially something as important as who you are, you should use your subconscious.
And you do that by figuring out what your purpose is and working on that. The world is so messed up and dysfunctional, because no one knows who they are. And they especially do not know their purpose.
“Depression, addiction, and aggression,” form the neurotic triad as Frankl puts it. I am not sure when this book was published originally, but the copy I read was printed in 2000. Do you think these things have gotten better since the year 2000 or worse? I am going to venture and say worse.
The outline for happiness seems to be:
Find yourself enough to find your purpose.
Work on your purpose.
You will find more of yourself.
And you will probably find more of your purpose.
You will arrive at Zen, peace, contentment, and/or happiness.
Life is not that complicated. Yet everyone makes such a fuss and complicates everything. We should stop doing that immediately. Because it is just causing a ruckus and making us all miserable.
Let’s be happy and do what we were sent here to do, yah?
Those are the books I finished over the weekend. Hope you enjoyed my book reviews. I highly recommend all the books I review. I do not write up the books I do not like.
“Buddha did not dispute the relative reality of the conventionally appearing self. But he did insist that we tend to give this relational self an absolute status that it does not possess. We think that it is more real than it is, and we expend an extraordinary amount of energy propping it up and protecting it, reinforcing the certainty of our own separateness. Both psychotherapy and Buddhist meditation have the potential to undo this tendency, relieving us of our defensive loads.”
This book has a lot of fancy words that are confusing. But really Einstein kind of sums it up better with, “Reality is relative.”
Then add in Dr. Joe Dispenza’s definition of personality as, “your personal reality.”
And then add in Frued’s definition of ego, “The ego is the part of your personality that helps you make practical, rational decisions.”
When I talk about how I do logic equations, this is what I am doing. I am condensing and adding things together, often by different people. This is a logic equation. And this intelligence. Knowledge is when you repeat back something you learned or were told. Intelligence is where to you make the unknown know, and “get it”. You can know a lot of things without ever really “getting it”. When someone trys to make things confusing and uses big fancy words when they are unnecessary, it normally means they do not “get it”. At least that is my experience, I am fully open to being wrong. But Einstein said something about true intelligence means being able to simplify what you know. I like simple words and explanations. How about you all? Why overcomplicate things, right?
So basically Psychotherapy and Buddhism are about learning how to live with yourself in the world as it is. It is hard to live in the world as it is. It is also hard to know who you are. And it is really hard to be who you are and live in the world the way it is. I would say nearly impossible. Because if it was easy or possible more people would do it. And I have never met anyone who was themselves fully. I am pretty sure that is impossible. Even I have an ego. If I didn’t I wouldn’t be very good at keeping myself alive or sharing my ideas. Ego is not all bad. We have it because it is useful and necessary for life.
Let me over simplify the whole concept of this book. You are a being born into a system. That system you are born into expects things from you based on social constructs. Religion, race, sex, birthrights, gender, class, etc are human constructs. These are not “God” constructs or universe constructs. They are human constructs, which means they are failable. Gravity is an example of a God/Universe construct it never fails. However, human constructs are human. Which means they are failable. The average American is sick, fat, poor, and divorced. This is proof that human constructs are failable. Social norms lead the average American to be sick, fat, poor, and divorced. If you want to obtain success you have to value God/Universe constructs over human constructs. You can never talk your way out of gravity. But you can find a way out of being sick, fat, poor, and/or divorced. Human constructs are choices. They often do not feel like choices. But they are choices.
Per the drawing above, please excuse the mess. But who you are is a ven diagram with two circles. And the circles overlap in the middle. On one side, you have your ego. On the other side, you have the person you were born to be. The God construct that is you. And in the middle you have the person you really are, where they overlap.
One circle is your ego. The person people expect you to be. The things people expect you to do based on human constructs: your birthrights, your religion, your class, your family, your gender, etc. Your ego is a mix of how you accept and reject these expectations placed upon you. No matter who you are there are human constructs that place expectations on you. And these expectations create your ego.
The other circle is the person you were born to be. This is the version of you that is a God construct like gravity. You were born to be someone, but the catch is you have to learn how to be that person within the social constructs and society in which you live. You have to take into account your personal reality(personality) and your society filled with social constructs.
Now in the middle where these two circles overlap. Where your ego and the person you were born to be overlap. This is where you find who you really are. It is a mix of the person you were born to be, that is a God construct, and your ego, human construct. Ego is really just a reaction to your environment. Which is epigenetic. So perhaps, ego is just epigenetic. I like that. It makes sense.
You are not a reaction. Which is what your ego is. You are a human being on Earth within a society. The person you were born to be has to exist within the society you were placed. You cannot fully be the person you were born to be, no matter who you are. Because that persona has to manifest itself within the environment it is placed. If you were placed in Africa you will have to live differently than if you were placed in Oregon. You would still be the same person, but that person would manifest differently. You would still be you no matter if you lived in Africa or Oregon. But you would be different. No ifs, ands, or buts.
So you are the middle of the Ven diagram, right? A mix of the person you were born to be with your ego, which is just the environment. We spend a lifetime trying to figure this out. Yet,
“…central tenet of Buddha’s wisdom is the notion of no-self.”
So you spend a lifetime trying to figure out who that person is, but then you forget it. You literally have to forget it.
“In the words of Huang Po, the ninth-century Chinese Zen teacher, “Why this talk of attaining and not attaining? The matter is thus–by thinking of something you create an entity and by thinking of nothing you create another. Let such erroneous thinking perish utterly, and then nothing will remain for you to go seeking.” (Blofled, 1958, p.86) Egolessness is not a separate state; it is only found in relationship to a belief in concrete existence.”
This sounds confusing and maybe I am interpreting it wrong. But I look at it like this. Everything involves ying and yang. If you just focus on yourself you will be mentally ill and unhappy. You will become a narcissist. They are never happy.
We need to spend less time “reinforcing the certainty of our own separateness.” Remember this part of the very first quote? Humans have an interconnectedness. We are all connected. Yes, we need to figure out who we are and how to operate within the society in which we live. But if you just focus on that you are missing the big picture. You have to loose yourself in the big picture. Micro-Macro kind of thing. Yes, you are important. But you are the micro. The macro is humanity as a whole, the world. Ying and yang, you and humanity, micro and macro.
So yes, you need to find yourself. So you can loose yourself and find peace. Pretty complex and yet pretty simple.
Hard to say how you will know when you have gotten to this point. But I can tell you from experience you will know. And once you get there you will know which direction to keep going in. Because the journey to self discovery never ends. But there is a point where you get peace.
This book talks about how people cause themselves mental problems(for lack of a better word) when they try meditation without having a strong sense of who they are. You need a strong sense of who you are, aka a personality(personal reality) before you give up your sense of self to venture into humanity. You need to be human, before you get to discover humanity.
Cluster b personality people never get to humanity because they never find themselves. You can meditate and do all the right things that everyone tells you to do. But if you do not know who you are. You will go mad. You need to know yourself. Socrates said, “Know Thyself” for a reason.
A culture is just a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. And these shared beliefs create patterns in behavior. So, a culture reflects the shared beliefs of it’s people.
What happens if those shared beliefs are lies? What happens when a culture is based on lies? The people start living lies. And they get hurt and mad, because nothing in their lives ends up how they were told it is supposed to be. You buy the dream you were sold and you become mad about it. Because it was a lie.
Romantic love is a lie. It’s a chemical reaction in your brain that only lasts 6 months. Your wants are a lie. It’s really your needs that matter. The economy is a lie. My family has rigged the stock markets since the 1980s. No matter how hard you work or how smart you are, the economy is based on a privilege and class system. Democracy is a lie. We live in a communist dictatorship. And we never got to vote on the dictator. Your life is a lie. You are just apart of the Farmville game my family has been playing with the world.
What do you do when you find out you bought the dream you were sold and it’s a lie? What do you do when you realize how you have been set up to fail and be miserable your whole life, because you are easier to control this way? The more bitter and miserable you are while being preoccupied with living the dream that is a lie, the easier you are to manipulate and control.
Now do you see why people are so angry? It hurts to live a lie. And we are taught to blame ourselves for everything that never works out as we were told it should. We have been taken on a wild goose chase our whole lives. Where do we go from here?
This revolution is about you finding the truth. I can tell you all about the lies my families have told you for generations. But I can’t tell you what your truth is. Sure, I can teach you about science, logic, and philosophy. But I can’t teach you who you are and what your truth is. All I can do is share the truths that set me free. It’s your job to figure out what you want to value and what is important to you. I believe democracy is the freedom to dream your own dream. And to know your dream you have to know your truth.
I love the counterculture movement of the 1960s. It is my favorite period in history. So many things were happening. And people were fighting for their right to determine how they live. They wanted to choose what to value. No longer just accepting the status quo.
The Beat Generation of the 1940s and 1950s is what lead up to the counterculture movement of the 1960s. Jack Kerouac defined the “Beat Generation” for Random House Dictionary as, “Members of the generation that came of age after World War II, who, supposedly as a result of disillusionment stemming from the Cold War, espouse mystical detachment and relaxation of social and sexual tensions.”
“…they broke all the rules–of writing, artistry, decorum, dress, talk, music, vices. The Beat Generation sought nothing less than a clean break from the past…staking out the moral and political high ground against world communism.”
No wonder I view these people as my people. I did not realize that the counterculture of the 1960s stemmed from the fight against communism. But I suppose this makes complete sense on why I identify with the Beat Generation and the counterculture of the 1960s. I always wondered who my Jack Kerouac or Alan Ginsberg were? Where is the counterculture of my generation? I was born in the early 1980s, but I identify more with people who came of age during the 1950s and 1960s. Who are the Ken Kesey and Andy Warhol of the 1990s? And where are they? What about the Hunter S Thompson’s and Neal Cassady’s?
Do you realize that all the counterculture figures I look up to are men? I love Martin Luther King Jr. and there is no way you cannot include him in the counterculture movement, even though he took a different avenue. I did not realize I the counterculture figures I look up to are men, until this book pointed out that women were not really included in the counterculture movement as leaders. But throughout history women have rarely been included. So maybe this explains why I didn’t even think about it. Because it is the constant and not the exception to the rule.
“Despite his aristocratic lineage and manners, Burroughs’s work reflected his often-sordid life as an addict and a homosexual… Burroughs was best known for his graphic, sometimes surrealistic depiction of heroin addiction(Junky, Naked Lunch), gay prostitution(The Wild Boys, Queer), criminality(The Soft Machine, Nova Express), and other outlaw activities. His writing was colored by his dystopian visions of a future world police state.”
Google defines Dystopian as, “Dystopian” describes a future or imaginary society characterized by widespread suffering, fear, and dehumanization, often under oppressive control such as a totalitarian government, environmental disaster, or technological tyranny. It is the opposite of “utopian” (perfect) and serves as a dark reflection of real-world trends, with dystopian fiction often criticizing current societal or political issues through exaggerated, pessimistic scenarios.”
Well, if the current world is not the opposite of utopian, I am not sure what it really is. But during the Beat Generation writing about these things was something that got people put in jail. Censorship was a real thing. Many books from the counterculture were published in Europe years before they were published here in the United States because of censorship and the fear of it. If it was not for this counterculture movement we would not have the free speech, we are supposed to have today.
Google definition of counterculture. “a way of life and set of attitudes opposed to or at variance with the prevailing social norm.”
If you are apart of this revolution, you are apart of the counterculture. If you want freedom to be human on a gene and cellular level, without others making this decision for you, you are counterculture. Because the prevailing social norms and status quos allow for others to determine how human you are on a gene and cellular level. I don’t know about you all, but I never want someone else to decide what is going to happen within my own body, let alone my own home. Because isn’t your body your home? We are supposed to have a vote in things. I believe that is what democracy is, right?
Google definition of Democracy, “a system of government by the whole population or all the eligible members of a state, typically through elected representatives.”
So, maybe we don’t really get a vote in democracy. Maybe we just get a vote in who gets to make the decisions. When you look at our government this way, it makes more sense. We get to vote on who decides how human we are on a gene and cellular level. But in a world where everyone has a price that seems pretty scary, right?
On this revolution I found my counterculture people who were born to change the world with me. I always thought they would be artists and writers. But it turns out they are farmers and world leaders in this covert war my family has been waging on the world for generations. I have found my people. And I hope you all are my counterculture people too. Because I would like you all to have a vote too. I am not sure what kind of government system that would be called. But I believe we should all get a vote. Too many things are decided for us. I hate it when other people get to determine how I live. I am sure you all do too. If feels shitty when people who don’t know you or value you get to make decisions about how you live your life. Or what is available to you. Ignorant people surround me everyday for lifetime. They create the Truman show I live in. And everyday in doing so they are making decisions for me that are not in my best interest. So believe me, I can’t wait till we all get a vote. Because I deserve a vote on my own life too.
I am proud to be a member of the counterculture. And I hope one day to just get to be a member of a world culture. A culture is just a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. We need to create a worldwide culture with some foundational beliefs. And the very first one needs to be that no other group gets to decide how others live. We all are equal and get to choose our own adventure. As long as we do not attack or hurt others in those endeavors. I guess we need to not only end communism, but we need to colonialism as well. People need to stop trying to conquer each other and work on themselves.
Arms Wide Open: A Midwife’s Journey is a prequel to The Blue Cotton Gown by Patricia Harman. It tells the story of how she came to be a nurse-midwife in West Virginia. Patricia definitely took the road less traveled and did not set out to be a nurse or a midwife. It just seemed to present itself in her life through experiences and opportunities.
Full disclosure, I did not like this book as much as I liked her first book The Blue Cotton Gown. Because in Arms Wide Open: A Midwife’s Journey Patricia does not tell as many stories about the women she has encountered throughout her career. Instead, she focuses mainly on her own story. Focusing a lot on her time living sustainably in Minnesota and in a commune in West Virginia before she and her husband Tom started their private practice.
I enjoyed reading about someone who lived the counter culture in the 1960s and protested the Vietnam War, while at the same time trying to live sustainably. Not many people were this forward thinking back then. Or even now. And how that journey can be hard and feel overwhelming. I suppose rarely do you know you are truly changing the world, until after the change has happened. During the change, in the thick of it, you don’t know if it is working or not. You just know you are going through it.
“I used to think I had the answers, knew how to make the world better. All we had to do was start a revolution. Now I feel so confused and I guess I don’t think we can overcome…I get it now. It doesn’t matter if we overcome, we just have to take it, step by step, and keep our eyes on the prize.”
You never really know the moment you overcome. We just have to keep going. On this revolution, I have been overwhelmed and destroyed for years. And I often wonder will ever I get to come out the other side and see the fruits of my labor? It is hard. And I don’t know or have all the answers. I don’t even know much of anything most days. But I do know that everyday we are accumulating an advantage. The more days we go on and the more people we reach, the more of an advantage we have. Some battles are won in a day. But wars take longer. I remind myself today is a battle, but what really matters is the war. And wars take longer. They take patience and strategy. One foot in front of the other, day by day, doing the systems of processes that we have found to work. This is how we accumulate an advantage and win the war. Some people just live at war and never get to see the times of peace that are the fruits of their labor. I hope to not be one of those people. But I understand that may be my fate.
“Do not give up hope. In these difficult times the sun still rises, there is light on the water, and the full moon shines, once a month, in the dark sky.”
Many people throughout history have fought for the freedom we have today. And none of their lives look the same. And most of them never got the freedoms we have today. So, maybe we should be more grateful for the freedoms we do have. Because we have more freedom than ever before in a lot of ways. And many people who came before us have died in the effort to get us those freedoms. We need to be grateful for what we do have, before we will get more. If we aren’t grateful we won’t remember to work for more day by day, little by little. It will seem futile. Unless we remember that is the way it has always been done.
Patricia Harman is a great writer and very relatable. We all have difficulties in life. And we all question the journey because we don’t know if we are doing it right until the end. And who is to say what is right and what is wrong for you? Life is a choose your own adventure. Patricia definitely adventured.
I recommend both The Blue Cotton Gown and Arms Wide Open: A Midwife’s Journey.
The Blue Cotton Gown was a great quick read. The story of a woman who was a hippie in the 1960s and 1970s who lived on communes and became a nurse-midwife was very unique. Patricia Harman lived an unusual life and encountered a lot of women from all kinds of different backgrounds.
She and her husband left commune life and started a private practice in West Virginia. However, the malpractice insurance became so expensive that they had to stop delivering babies. There was no way they could have turned a profit with the huge insurance premiums. And even after cutting delivery services they were having a hard time turning a profit.
How do small medical practices make money with the way big insurance companies keep cutting how much they pay out for visits and services? I never thought about this. But this explains why so many small medical practices have gone out of business. And why large corporate medical practices and institutions have taken over. It’s funny we see these changes taking place around us, but we often do not think about them.
I much prefer small businesses. But within my lifetime I have seen the world go from mostly small business to mostly corporations. This has happened because small businesses cannot compete with corporations and make money and/or profits. Even knowing all this it did not really make sense or seem real until I read this memoir and saw the situation through Patricia’s eyes. Everyone has to make a living. Even if they are doing what they love. Especially, if they are doing what they love. Wouldn’t you want to be rewarded for pursuing your calling and doing a service to humanity?
People should be rewarded for making the world a better place, one life at a time. At least they should not be held back from making a living. Funny how we call work, making a living. Because a lot of us are so caught up in work we never remember to actually live. Which makes sense of why people should be rewarded for doing what they love and what they are good at.
I bet the small medical private practice in West Virginia that Patricia and her husband started is no longer operating. I bet most small businesses that were open a decade ago are no longer open. I know you believe this is allowing you to purchase goods and services at cheaper prices. But maybe all it really is doing is limiting your options to make a living as we call it?!? What do you think?
