Author: Nizi

“Her father truly believed that the Democratic party was a subversive organization whose design would destroy the United States and put it in the hands of bearded communists.”

~John Steinbeck, The Wayward Bus 1947

Every time we start a new group or rung on the caste system of this stupid imaginary game this is the grid. Every group within that caste system in the world is represented in this grid. Some have leaders in this grid, but most report to leaders outside the grid. However, if we reach all the groups within the grid, we are able to reach their leaders worldwide.

In some areas, we reached the majority of the people. But there are always some people left fighting for my family and to be a subhuman race. We need to reach everyone. Otherwise we will be playing this part of the game for months again. And then with the next group we just start over again. This is the pattern of this revolution and the past almost 3 years.

So today let’s reach the regular ordinary people or the Americans and let’s reach all of them.

Have you ever looked for a sign so hard you got even more lost?

We often ask God for a sign and all too often we expect that sign to jump out and change our lives instantly. But humans are the ones who rule the material world. God exists in our nervous system and our feelings. So when we take a sign from the material world and interpret it as God we get even more off track and lost.

God speaks in many ways to us all, but rarely does he use the material world. God is a feeling and he speaks through feelings and rarely through material things. The answers are inside you. Because we all are God like. Find the pieces of God within yourself and you will find the answers you seek.

My family had all these weird little sayings my whole life. And I never really understood them until this revolution. “It’s better to be feared than loved,” is one I never understood until the past few years. This is pretty much their wargames motto.

However, another saying that never made sense till very recently is, ” Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer.” My family recently inflated the stockmarket with a big wave of money. And I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from. Well, that is until last night. My family likes to pretend they are a royal family from Louis the 18th days. And they have created a court around them. This is explained fully in the books that make up their cult Playbook.

My family has finally tapped into the people they keep in their court. My Grandma Kudearoff had people she kept close, but she also had friends. My mom and her siblings and my Dad, do not have friends. They only have enemies. And they keep these people close. But these people have no clue my family views them as enemies. They feel privileged to be kept so close, not understanding why my family keeps them close.

Louis the 18th did not have doors in the palace of Versailles because he wanted to hear everything that was happening. This is why my family keeps their enemies so close and treats them as friends. It allows for them to know their business and limit their experience in any way that will be beneficial to my family. No one kept close to my family is allowed potential. Privilege is their prison. But yet they rarely see it. Because somehow my family brainwashes them to believe they are the chosen ones. People get drunk on feelings of belonging and loose sight of everything else.

I need to connect with the people my family keeps in their courts. But they keep these people extremely sheltered. Even after being in Eugene/Springfield for almost 3 years, these court members have absolutely no clue I’m still alive. I need your help reaching these people. The sooner we reach these people the sooner we exhaust my family’s greatest resource. Other people’s resources and power will forever be my family’s greatest resource. They never do anything for themselves. They always get other people to do things for them. The sooner we eliminate this option for them, the sooner we obtain our freedom.

Here are some maps I drew of where these people live. Remember I’m logic brain based so drawing maps is not in my wheelhouse. I need you all to get me connected with the people who live in these shaded grids I have created. These most valuable court members live in Thurston, Springfield, North Eugene, and West Eugene. And my Grandma Kudearoff’s friends live in Glenwood and Southwest Springfield. My family has warred on my Grandma Kudearoff’s friends. I’m guessing it’s because they stood up for themselves just like I did. My family hates people who do not fully submit immediately. And they tend to make examples out of these kind of people, just like they did with me. It allows for people to live in fear of them and ties right into their wargames motto:  “It’s better to be feared than loved.”

I’m going to need everyone’s help reaching the people in my family’s court. These people’s money is how my family is continuing to rig the stockmarket. Once we reach these people we are guaranteed a brand of freedom we have never known before. And then my family will be in a prison they literally created for themselves. I sure love irony. How about you?

Excuse more poor mapping skills, I’m new to creating revolutions and figuring out imaginary lines that rule this stupid imaginary game still. It’s all so ridiculous. But here we are.

Sometimes life gets choppy. And sometimes life is smooth. But life is still just life. Don’t overvalue the current state because tides are always changing. Create security by looking at the big picture, where small waves don’t really matter that much.

There is always light to be found, but sometimes it feels impossible to see the light. Clouds can blind us. Hardships can blind us. Life gets complex and complications arise, often too frequently for our liking. Find the light and follow that light. Because it usually leads to more light and brighter days.

I’m way behind in my photos but I am catching up.

Life is about the hard times. We grow in these times and develop the skills and gifts we need to flourish during the good times. Without the hard times, we wouldn’t be who we are meant to be. Because if things were always good we would never be motivated to grow and change. Hard times show us who we really are. But the good times are when we enjoy the person we have become.

The upside of anger is the person you become.

Maybe there is no finish line in life. Maybe all there is are rest stops along our journey. And maybe we should grateful for these pitstops because what would we do after we are finished? Is anything really ever finished. Energy never dies, it just changes form. So maybe trying to get to a certain destination is the wrong perspective. Maybe we just need to aim to change form and be better all the time. Because there is no end.

Energy doesn’t die or go away, it just changes form.

Can you see through the fog? Can you hear through the noise? Can you smell through the poison of bad bacteria?

Life is hectic. But if you don’t take the time to create peace in your life, you will never have it. Peace means getting still and being honest with yourself.

Peace takes pain at times. Because being honest and facing yourself in stillness hurts when you don’t do it enough. The man in the mirror is you. But do you recognize that man? Do you know that man?

Because that man is you.

Sometimes the most amazing things we see, we don’t notice. Because we see them everyday. And take them forgranted. When you see something beautiful or someone you love your brain releases feel good chemicals and neurotransmitters. It’s a chemical reaction. It’s the human experience. But just like drugs we develop a tolerance to these chemicals.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder because it’s like a detox from the chemicals in our brains, aka the drugs our brains naturally produce. We live in a world filled with foods and many other things that light up our pleasure centers and ours brains. Because they aime to get us addicted.

Have you ever fasted, alone, without television, or music and just remembered what you feel like at your normal set point? When is the last time you felt the person you are without all the add ons? Because if you don’t remember who you are, you won’t remember who others are either.

Love is always the answer. But not if you take it forgranted. Because you have flooded your brain with feel good chemicals from countless fake things.

Know your boundaries. Otherwise others will create them for you. And they often will not have your best interest in mind.

Know what you need to do, does not always align with what you want to do. But what you want to accomplish requires you to do the things you need to do.

Wants are fun. But needs get you the things in life you really want. Know about your hierarchy of wants. Because needs are just a way to get to the really good wants in life.

Goals are wants.

Between Sprague River & Bonanza

If you do a lot of driving get a full spectrum blue light because it helps with serotonin and paying attention to the road(alertness). All truckers need these. It will help with the inflammation driving causes from being around poison so much. Blue light helps activate your immune system. #FunFact

Sometimes God Highlighs the path he wants you to take. But sometimes the devil highlights the path he wants you to take too. How do you know who is who?

Their voices often sound the same in your head. But the key to knowing the difference is finding the path that aligns with your soul and your greatest good. God will never ask you to destroy yourself. But the devil will demand it and tell you it is what you should do. God believes in freewill. He will never tell you what you should do. Just what is in your best interest.

Have you ever felt the world freeze? You see something amazing and it’s like everything stops. When you see beautiful things or souls over and over you start to take them forgranted. But when something is new and beautiful, it takes your breath away.

Remember those breathless moments. Those moments are God talking to you. But it’s your job to remember what he was saying.

All roads lead to your beliefs. What you believe dictates what is possible in your world. Everything is a self fulfilling prophecy. And you can let this be a blessing or a curse.

Your beliefs are your reality. Is it a beautiful place where you find joy or an ugly prison you wish to escape?

Day 1023 Prineville to Madras to Sisters to Redmond

Just because the road is small and rarely taken doesn’t mean the journey isn’t worthwhile. The road less traveled is almost always the safest bet.

Comfort lives on the other side of discomfort and often fear. Feel the fear and do it anyway was one of the best books I ever read. My Mom gave me this book to read because she knew they had given me brain damage in order to make me live in fear. If I made myself face my fears she hoped it would cause me to have a heart attack and die. But what I found is that living in fear is way harder than facing my fears. So do the thing. Go where you need to go. Be the person you are destined to be. Because not being who you are hurts way more than facing your fears.

Be you unapologetically, no matter what. When someone makes you question yourself, question them instead.

Have you ever seen the light at the end of the tunnel before?

When you work towards a goal for so long and devote not only your energy, but your life towards this goal everything else gets blurry. It’s easy to forget to breathe. It’s easy to forget to take care of yourself and the others in your life. And all too often we don’t realize we are getting close to accomplishing our goals until we are there at the finish line in the light. Pay attention when life sends you signals and hints that the light at the end of the tunnel is near. Because if you don’t, you may just spend your entire lifetime searching and working towards the light at the end of the tunnel, instead of enjoying the process and your progress. Death is the final light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t forget to enjoy life on your way there.

southeastern Washington and northeastern Oregon

Pendleton, Prescott, and a lot of others that all blurr together…. no fancy words with these. But I need to get back on track with my daily photos.

Going through my camera roll and found this one. Sometimes all we need is to see how small we are in comparison to the world.

And our problems are even smaller!

Space is a feeling we all need at times. But what does space feel like? It’s an absence of feeling and a break to our nervous system. Space is a nothingness that is valuable beyond words. Space is the answer to so many feelings and problems.

What are you going through right now that space could help you with?

Growth is knowing not everything can be seen. Moments where things look empty and deserted can be deceiving. Evolution is not linear. And it’s not always visible.

You can’t predict growth. It happens in spurts when conditions align and allow. Growth often goes unseen, until it is called upon. Embrace the unseen parts of yourself, because you never know when you will need to call upon them.

Night

Day

Contrast is life. Everything exists on a spectrum. Life is just a spectrum of experiences that create different chemical reactions in our brains. Life on earth is just a chemical experience. We are here to get high on neurotransmitters and hormones. That’s all the human experience really is. Love is a chemical reaction. Stress is a chemical reaction. Hate is a chemical reaction. Everything you feel is a chemical reaction in your body and mind.

Would love feel so amazing without hate? Probably not, because contrast is everything.

Spearfish Park

Have you been to the edge? The edge of the world, the edge of your consciousness, or the edge of your sanity? Because they all feel the same. The unknown is a scary place. And no one knows what is on the other side. But you take a deep breath and with a silent prayer, bravely step into the unknown. Because often the known is our prison. It’s what keeps us stuck in patterns that ruin our lives and happiness. Freedom only really comes from the unknown and the edge.

Have you been to the edge?

Being above the clouds allows for great views. But it also allows a birdseye view of your obstacles. What is holding you back? If you were to look at those obstacles from above what would you see? There is a lot to be said for facing things head on. But when that doesn’t work try looking down on the obstacle you face because everything looks more manageable from above.

Then take the drive back to facing things head on with more clarity, purpose, and confidence. Facing your problems and obstacles will always beat trying to run from them.

A Letter to Law Enforcement

If anything has happened to me resulting in accident, injury, or death, especially a car wreck, it ties back to my family. I have an account at Charles Swabb that is quite substantial and my father is the beneficiary. I fear they will hurt or kill me in order toget their hands on this money. Please investigate and take this into account.

Thank you

Nicole Graves

Perspective is everything. If you don’t like what you see, change your angle. Life rarely gives us exactly what we want. It’s our job to find the frame to make life into what we desire and need.

A turn of direction this morning changed my perspective from man made jungle to the heavens on earth. Sandy, Oregon is on the way to Mt Hood from Portland. Getting up to go to pee, on a cold winter morning at the crack of dawn, never looked this beautiful before.

My why. Isn’t his new sweatshirt cute!

Autism is an epigenetic disease. There are no set genes that predetermine someone will have Autism. It is a group of genes that can be turned on or off. This is what makes it an epigenetic disease/epidemic.

What causes these epigenetic triggers is the real question? Well, our gut bacteria is a huge predictor in our gene expression. And the pathogenic bacteria C. Diff has been linked to Autism like behaviors. Also, it causes neurotoxins and is resistant to antibiotics. So, whenever you take antibiotics you are allowing these bacteria that run wild in our modern day society to have a hay day inside you.

Free floating calcium allows C diff to flourish. Alcohol and opiate use also allows C diff to flourish. C diff changes the way your brain processes dopamine because people with Autism process dopamine differently. Also, people with Autism have a more diverse gut bacteria population. More does not always equal better, but gut bacteria will always dictate the person we are and how we experience the world.

C. Diff is common in older people and especially in nursing homes. This is thought to be because they take calcium supplements, have low vitamin D levels, and do not have the vitamin K2 in their system to allow the calcium to be deposited in their bones and teeth. Do you have bone density problems? Do you have bad teeth? Do you have digestion problems?

Gluten and lactose intolerance are common when you have a C. Diff infection. Also raw veggies are hard for you to digest and cause bloating. Have you heard of SIBO? Well this bacteria can very well be apart of that small intestinal bacteria overgrowth. Even the animals that are raised conventionally for us to eat are overgrown with C Diff due to the antibiotics we feed them.

Have you ever taken antibiotics? Did your Mother ever take antibiotics? Have you ever lived or worked with someone who took antibiotics? Have you ever used a public restroom? Well, you have probably been exposed to C. Diff more times than you would ever like to imagine. Have you ever visited a hospital or nursing home? Were you born in a hospital? Did you attend a public school? See, it is overwhelming to think of how much we are exposed to antibiotic resistant bacteria.

Where you go and who you interact with dictate what bugs/bacteria you are being exposed to. These bugs/bacteria will either make you a better human or a lesser than version of human. It is a bit scary and overwhelming, but it is something we need to be aware of in order to overcome. You are a bug and in order to flourish you need good bugs to out number the bad bugs.

Taking antifungals and natural antibiotics can be the most revolutionary thing we all can do, besides eating a lower carb or keto diet. You are what you eat in more ways than you can imagine. Become one with your bugs.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Omega 3 to omega 6 ratios also play a large part in the quality of your cellular make up and the quality of your nervous system. Learning disabilities like ADD, ADHD, and Dyslexia are caused/triggered by abundance of Omega 6. You are what you eat in many ways.

If you wanted to influence people that you had already made more suseptable to suggestion, wouldn’t it be nice if they just watched this box full of pictures you created for them? Your mind does not know the difference between real life, visualization, and/or tv. If your mind does not know the difference, that means it will influence your hormones, your emotions, and your reality just as if it is real life. Your whole limbic system and reality are changed when you watch tv and/or play video games.

This is why the 90’s generation is so different, well part of why. The Xbox generation is literally a different species on a gene level, but then take into account that their mind, body, emotions, and thus souls have been programmed since the beginning with video games and tv. Those of us who grew up without all the electronics that this generation had access too have a hard time relating to them. Not to mention them being the first generation to grow up with WiFi and we have no long term studies on how that effects people in the long term on a physical or mental level.

When you hand over your mental picture to a source outside of yourself, you are handing over control of your body, mind, and spirit. Even if it is a good tv show, it is still a form of brainwashing. Tv is fun, don’t get me wrong, it can be pleasurable. But just know what you are doing when you take part in television. Your brain, body, and soul do not know the difference between television and meditation/visualization. Should you be altering your epigenetics with the information you are taking in from television? Because it only takes 4 days of meditation/visualization to change your epigenetics. Are you willing to take responsibility for what you watching on a gene level because it is changing you?

You are what you watch.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

If you are confused about who you are, you are going to be not only easier to control and manipulate, but you will also be more open to suggestion and vulnerable to brainwashing. In the 1980’s hardly anyone, but alcoholics had fatty liver disease. Now almost all of us have fatty liver to a certain extent, even children. And fatty liver leads to estrogen dominance when your liver is unable to balance your hormones.

Have you noticed how men are more in their feminine energy nowadays? Have you noticed how women are more in their masculine energy nowadays? Well, women today almost all have PCOS to a certain extent due to all the chemicals and toxins in the world and systems. This allows for more “male” hormones in women. The carb filled diets that we are sold as the Standard American Diet is also a factor in PCOS. Insulin plays a large role, because it is too a hormone.

So, women are more masculine because they have more “male” hormones. And men are more feminine because they have more “female” hormones. Do you think this has anything to do with the confusion on pronouns nowadays? Maybe the LGBTQ community was literally designed and created by the modern world we live in? If they can confuse us about who we are, we can easily be controlled when we are trying to figure out the rest of who we are. When we do not know ourselves on the very first building block of who we are, we can be swayed on all the other things we are, because we feel uncertainty. When we are uncertain we are easily controlled. When we feel out of balance on the inside we will look towards the outside for balance and to steady us.

When you know who you are you, you look inside for your equalibrium. However, when you do not know yourself, down to a gender level, you can be persuaded about almost anything.

Balancing your hormones is the most revolutionary act you can take to start the process of finding yourself.

Love Always

Nicole Graves