Did you know they used to strap women down to a table in hospitals when they were giving birth? They literally tied them down and put them on their backs where gravity was working against them. Plus, they would give them an episiotomy(cut between vagina and anus) even when they didn’t need to. Pretty fucking barbaric, huh? And this was recently like the 1970/80s and some of this stuff still happens.
This book is about a midwife’s journey leaving the traditional medical industry behind and doing home births for mostly Amish women. Penny Armstrong gave up success in the traditional sense to do what felt right for her and what was better for the women she worked with. I can always get on board with doing better and what feels right.
I don’t know anyone who had anything but a traditional hospital delivery. I suppose money and insurance are some of the reasons behind this. But if you are going to have a baby, you have to deliver that baby. So, you should probably plan for the delivery before the rest of raising the child. But from what I gather people look at having children as just what people do. And they do not plan it out. They do it because it is expected and they do not take accountability for the details. Plus, women poison themselves so much when pregnant that they develop very strong cluster b personality disorders and never recover after having children. It is a metaphorical death for all included, especially the child.
Funny how we are born to take part in metaphorical death. But that is what this stupid imaginary game does to us. That is what mental illness(aka cluster b personality disorders, munchausen, munchausen by proxy, etc) does to us all. Learned helplessness in our parents kills us even before we are born. People feel helpless and hurt. So, they destroy others in order to feel in control and/or powerful. What a fucking shit show!
I really liked this book. It focused more on the struggle this woman went through to figure out what the “right” way was to help women deliver their babies and how to honor the mostly Amish women she served. She wanted to do the right thing. And she had a great success rate. Selling out for money was not a priority to her. Which is rare and commendable.
Women are more sociopathic nowadays than men. They are dead inside because they have children. Children are like forever hostages that they can destroy and punish in anyway and anytime they choose. No one sticks up for them. When you always have someone at your disposal to abuse, it allows for a lot more abusive and extreme behaviors. It is just logic and common sense.
I read these books to try to understand the struggles of women. So I can have more sympathy for them. Because I don’t really like women. I don’t really like men either. But I find men easier to deal with because they are less mentally ill generally speaking. They seem to know their worth more.
Even before this revolution, I knew having children gave women cluster b personality disorders. I knew it had to do with destroying people. But never would I have guessed that everyone poisons everyone. Never would I have ever guessed that women poisoned their own babies and/or themselves.
I had been poisoned my whole life and have never had clean food. But I never would have guessed the world would look at this as normal. I never would have guessed you all were like my family. It is shocking that you all view women poisoning their children as normal, rather than mentally ill. How can we excuse such dysfunction?
Women are the ones with the original sin, right? But maybe that original sin is poisoning children before they are born and making them into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level before they are even born. I worked at a group home for people who were developmentally disabled in Arizona, while I was getting my real estate license. It was a house full of men who had mothers who destroyed them too much before they were born. And then they refused accountability and relinquished their children to the state so the state can take care of the problem they literally created. Do you know how much we all pay every year for the destruction women wage on unborn and young children? We pay billions of dollars every year in state paid healthcare costs to care for these children. And it is not just the developmentally disabled ones. It is the ones with chronic illness too. Chronic illness causes the majority of healthcare costs in the world, but especially America. You know these are from you all poisoning each other. You realize this, right? Those adults with chronic illnesses currently were once children who were poisoned. The bad bacteria, viruses, and parasites in those poisons live on in those children all through adulthood until death. It takes cancer on average 10 years to grow before it can be detected. The poisons you use on your child today could turn into cancer in a decade or longer.
No wonder the world is as fucked up as it is. When your own mother destroys you before you are even born, how are you supposed to know love or potential? Women steal our potential even before we are born. No wonder we are so angry. I am fucking angry. And I know you all are because you wouldn’t poison everyone if you were not.
No matter how many books I read about the struggles of women, I will never be able to forgive them for being so destructive and mentally ill. Destruction is a mental illness. It is not natural and goes against the laws of God and humanity. There is nothing normal about the way the world operates. And there is especially nothing normal about the healthcare industry. It is an industry created to enslave and torture us all. It is not healing us, it is doing more harm than good.
The more time you spend around healthcare workers the more bad bacteria, viruses, and parasites you will have. Because those people poison you. And when your immune system is weak you cannot fight back against those bad bugs as much. Which means those bad bugs make themselves at home in your body more. And this is how chronic illness is created. When the people who are supposed to help you get better make you worse, you will never recover. Just like childhood, right?
I went off on a tangent. Not sure where that came from. But my organs are failing because people are poisoning me so much. And I am frustrated. But I also hate people who create problems and never account for their war crimes. Women are still bearing that original sin of destruction even today in 2025. Why?!?!? Why do women think they deserve and have the right to be so destructive? Who died and made them God? Because those men they raise grow up and turn out just like them most of the time too. Men are not without sin. They just have opportunity to destroy children normally on average. There are always exceptions to the rule.
My heart is failing and I have fluid in my abdomen from it. I am all swollen. I have never poisoned anyone. I don’t want to ever. I don’t want to kill anyone ever. I don’t understand you all’s need for destruction and blood. I never have. And I probably never will. And maybe I don’t want to. Because to truly understand it I would have to be like you all. And from what I see that means I would have to be miserable. There are no excuses for you all. I was destroyed just as much if not more than you all and I have no desire for destruction or to kill people. What beliefs do you have that lead you toward destruction and killing people?
Beliefs lead to desires. What makes you desire to hurt people? Because it is not being hurt that causes that. If it were I would want to hurt people.