Month: September 2025

I said I would do a part 2 on this book, but I still did not finish it. I thought about it a lot though.

They talk about socialization of certain industries as a way to stop global warming. And this is just not something I can get onboard with. I don’t believe in socialism. I believe in capitalism. Because until capitalism there was only the lower class and the upper class. Capitalism created the middle class. Until then most people never got to have much of an intellectual life or hobbies. Until capitalism it was basically a caste system.

Also, I do not trust any one group of people. I believe in checks and balances. And I also believe that money is a great check and balance. When people are doing something for money it keeps them good in some ways. It keeps them more honest than if they were doing it for other reasons, especially heartfelt reasons. Self-interest is what Darwinism is based on. People will almost always do what is in their best interest, when given the chance, and the education to understand what is in their best interest.

Look at the people who do my family’s bidding. They are not doing it because it is the right thing to do. They are doing it because they believe it is in their best self-interest. They don’t understand the situation globally or on a gene and cellular level or anywhere in between. Do you think they would fight to make themselves into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Probably not. And what would stop the people who control certain industries that are socialized for the good of humans from being sheltered so they do not know what is in their best interest? These Mixed Polish NE/NE people have been sheltered for generations. Do you think they understand what all has been happening for generations? Don’t you think these are the people my family would put in places of power in socialized industries?

The people who work at the water and utility companies now add poison into the water. What do you think they would do if they did not have to worry about loosing their jobs for doing these things? What if their survival was not intertwined with their job and their actions on the job? Do you think that would make them put more or less poison in the water? I bet if there was no fear about being caught, they would add significantly more poison to the water.

Money and capitalism creates a little accountability. Yes, we need to change everything so we don’t ruin the Earth forever. But we need capitalism because it is the only accountability in some people’s lives. It is the only things keeping them as honest as they are. And we all know they are not honest.

Socializing certain industries like land, water, and/or oil is not the answer. It will just create more problems that we will not have time to fix. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. Capitalism keeps people honest. Imagine how bad it would be without it! It would be worse. Without capitalism the middle class will disappear more than it already has. I don’t know about you all, but I do not want to live in a caste system any more than it already is!

Capitalism is the answer, if we want to retain the freedoms that everyone tries to take away from us. People have died for us to have the freedoms that we have today. We need to respect those people’s lives. We need to realize how much others have sacrificed for us to live the way we do. And we need to adjust the way we live so we don’t ruin the Earth and so the generations to come have the freedoms we have today. Like going outside and breathing air, forests, water, and food. There are so many things we take for granted everyday that we are jeopardizing for the following generations.

I loved this book! It was written in the late 1980s. It is amazing how much we knew in the 1980s that the mainstream media did not tell us about. Epigenetics were discovered in the 1980s, too.

In the book, Quantum Healing by Deepak Chopra, M.D. he focuses on cancer remissions and unexplained recoveries. People heal themselves, we just have not developed a crystal clear step by step guide of this that is a one size fits all. There are countless books you can read nowadays that will literally tell you how to heal yourself.

This book talks about people with unexplained recoveries from cancer who have attended Dr. Chopra’s healing clinic which uses western medicine, neuroscience, physics, and eastern medicine(Ayurveda). Blending together many different modalities seems to be the answer. There is no one size fits all healing technique that works for everyone. Different things work for different people. But many things work better than traditional western medicine.

“Basically, I want to get your body into a deep, deep, state of rest.”

“…they all aimed at bringing her day-to-day existence to a settled, restful state, building a foundation for healing.”

“…just before the cure appears, almost every patient experiences a dramatic shift in awareness…this leap in consciousness seems to be the key…The word that comes to mind when a scientist thinks of such sudden changes is quantum. The word denotes a discrete jump from one level of functioning to a higher level–the quantum leap.”

In the modern world, we are stressed out. It is almost impossible for your body to heal when it is in a constant state of stress. “…if one wants to restore the body’s own healing ability, everything should be done to bring it back into balance.” We were not designed to live under such stress. We were not designed to live in the modern world. The modern world was not built for us. Who was it built for is my question?

Since this book was written there have been countless studies that show the mind can access the switches to our genes. Epigenetics is how are genes are turned on and off. And beliefs dictate epigenetics. But you can also heal by using meditation and visualization and countless other techniques.

“…your chief aim every day should be to maximize positive input and minimize negative input…caring for yourself today is exactly what determines your life for decades to come.”

“My body is metabolizing everything I see, hear, smell, and touch and turning it into me…”

If you haven’t seen the movie, “What the Bleep Do We Know” I would highly recommend it. It is hard to imagine how physics plays into who we are. And how we are us. The world is apart of us and we are apart of the world. But it is hard to feel that sometimes. Sometimes it feels like the world is against us. Believe me I am all too familiar with this feeling. But you just have to do something to feel better in a healthy manner.

Your body is like a machine. But the universe is a bigger machine and you are apart of it. Not everything we experience is material, Newtonian. Not everything we experience can be explained with our conscious mind or with words. Some things we just feel and some things we just know. We don’t know how we know these things. We just know. And believe me people will always try to tell you that you are wrong when you can’t explain something you know. But not everything needs to be explained. Those who know, get it.

Deepak Chopra talks a lot about the invisible fields of intelligence that we have access to and that surround us. Which sounds very new-age. But this book was written in the 1980s. And Einstein talked a lot about the precision of the world and how it is intelligent.

“Einstein…has testified to moments when “one feels free from one’s own identification with human limitations”…”

“When something seems to change in the world, the rishis said, it is really you that is changing.”

“…subjective reality and objective reality are tightly bound together. When the mind shifts, the body cannot help but follow.”

“If we program ourselves to deteriorate, which was the rule in earlier generations, then that becomes the reality.”

I earmarked so many pages in this book, it is hard to find the quotes that justify how amazing it is. Deepak Chopra wrote a lot of books in the 1980s. And he is ahead of his time on so many levels. His book on gut bacteria, Perfect Digestion, is beyond words as well. I will try to find some more of his books. But these quantum books have just been appearing lately. I rarely actually search for a book or topic. I just wander the non-fiction section and see what I find.

“Platonists…they believed that the world of things is a shadowy projection of a vaster, invisible reality that is nonmaterial…Einstein, stood in awe at the orderliness of nature without ascribing intelligence to it.”

You are universal because you are apart of the universe. You have more power than you understand. Because we cannot put everything into words. It is your job to learn how you access these feelings and knowings the best. There is a field of intelligence that surrounds us and exists in our bodies. We may never have the words to describe it fully. But do we really need the words if we experience fully? Do we really need to explain everything we feel?

Not everything is material or Newtonian. The material is only a very small part of the universe. Religions would not be so big or popular if this was not true. We all see an explanation for the things we feel, but cannot describe with words. Maybe we seek these words in order to share these experiences. But you don’t need fancy science words to share your experience with people who are committed to understanding you and/or loving you. You can just tell them what you know or you can share the feeling with them.

I like feelings better than words. I spent years writing to try to explain the feelings I have. And I spent more years doing research to try to explain the things I just know. What I have learned is you will never be able to explain yourself or what you know to someone who is committed to misunderstanding you. No matter what you say to some people, you will never be enough. And no matter what you say it will always be the wrong thing. Some people just want to attack you because they committed to misunderstanding you. Letting go of that commitment would mean they have to seek to understand themselves more. And most people are not ready for that. Because understanding yourself is hard. If it came easy everyone would do it. Understanding yourself is about getting past your ego. And you have to calm down to do that. Most people are not willing to calm down or get out of their, let alone get to know themselves or be that person. Being you is hard in a world designed to keep you in your ego. We all feel that. But everyone wants to believe they know themselves because they want everyone to believe they are not just playing the role that was assigned to them. People are actors and actresses just playing roles. When you play the role assigned to you, you do not get to access the fields of intelligence that surround us. You may get glimpses. But to live in the intelligence of the world, you have to be a human being. Your ego is a reaction. You are not intended to be a reaction. You are a being. When you stop reacting to the environment, you learn who you really are. And you get access to more information, intelligence, and feelings than you ever imagined possible.

Have you ever taken LSD? It is like that, but less hectic and more subtle. It is something you can opt into or out of. It is really neat. I hope you all try it.

“Observe your thoughts and feelings, positive and negative, about drinking or using. Thoughts and feelings that support continued use are called Addictive Voice (AV); those that support abstinence are you. When you recognize and understand your AV, it becomes not-you, but “it,” an easily defeated enemy that has been causing you to drink. All it wants is pleasure. “I want a drink” becomes “It wants a drink.” Think to yourself, “I will never drink again,” and listen for its reaction. Your negative thoughts and feelings are your AV talking back to you. Now, think, “I will drink/use whenever I please.” Your pleasant feelings are also the AV, which is in control. Recovery is not a process; it is an event. The magic word is “Never,” as in “I will never drink/use again.” Recognition defeats short-term desire, and abstinence soon becomes effortless. Complete separation of “you” from “it” leads to complete recovery and hope for a better life. The only time you can drink is now, and the only time you can quit for good is right now. “I will never drink/use again” becomes “I never drink now.” It’s not hard; anyone can do it.”

I loved this book. I did not read all of it, but I would highly suggest anyone who has any kind of addiction read it. The first chapter blows your mind, because it says things that go against everything the 12-step programs for recovery say. “Recovery is not a process; it is an event.”

I never believed addiction is a disease that renders you helpless. Yes, addiction has roots in an antibiotic resistant infection that changes the way your brain processes dopamine. And the subhuman slave race of this stupid imaginary game has made it so people cannot absorb calcium, and calcium regulates neurotransmitter production. Which means most people are unable to get high on life and feel good from doing things that are good for them. It means their brains do not positively reinforce healthy/natural behaviors.

However, doing drugs is just going to make this all worse. Drugs grow the antibiotic resistant infection in your body making you process dopamine even more dysfunctionally. And drugs also impair your ability to absorb calcium by damaging your gut bacteria. Which makes you dysfunctionally produce neurotransmitters even more. It is a snowball effect. It just keeps getting worse and worse, bigger and bigger.

Addicts like to say that they have a disease because it gives them an excuse to act badly and be dysfunctional. If they have a disease they cannot be held accountable, right? They are powerless, right? Horseshit! Everyone is responsible for their own actions.

The modern world is set up to damage our brains via our limbic systems and our gut bacteria. This brain damage in our amygdala is what hinders people from taking accountability for their actions. Because not only does it damage emotional regulation, but it blocks access to our critical logical brain.

Remember the book: Darwin’s Lost Theory-Who We Really Are and Where We’re Going-Book Three by David Loye ? In this book, we learned that the thalamocingulate division of the brain gets damaged by toxins. This is the part of the brain responsible for altruism and empathy. This is also, the part of the brain that is responsible for self-evaluation, learning from mistakes, and adapting actions based on an understanding of consequences. 

Addicts have brain damage. It is not permanent, but the more they use the worse it gets. We all have brain damage, some just worse than others. But this is also the brain damage that leads to cluster b personality disorders. And apparently it is also why some people want to call addiction a disease. Because don’t all people with cluster b personality disorders have an addiction of some sort? What groups them all together is their addiction to destruction and emotional dysregulation. They are addicted to hurting people. They sure love poisoning people(Munchausen by Proxy) and themselves (Munchausen). That is the foundation of cluster b personality disorders.

Which is funny because toxins in the limbic system are what lead to cluster b personality disorders. They literally cause their own dis-ease. And poison others so they are not alone in their dis-ease. Misery loves company, right?

If you had a fixable health condition and it was effecting your life negatively, would you fix it? You can talk about having brain damage all day, but it will not help it get better. You can stop doing drugs, but that will not fix the reason why you chose to do the drugs. You can work on your deep seeded issues that you think are the reason you do drugs. But really it is the brain damage that gets in the way of you emotionally processing your trauma and hardships that is causing you to want to do drugs in the first place. It is your gut bacteria not producing enough of the short chain fatty acid butyrate that is getting the way of you handling the stress from your life events. It is the lack of vitamin K2 producing gut bacteria that is allowing free floating calcium to damage your brain in your amygdala. Which causes you to be in a constant fear state. Which causes you to be stuck in your ego.

The thalamocingulate division of the brain  supports accountability by integrating cognitive control, error monitoring, and motivation to influence behavior. How in the world are you going to stop doing drugs if you cannot be accountable for your own actions? When the thalamocingulate division of the brain is damaged your going to develop a cluster b personality disorder. And we all know they do not take accountability for anything.

So you know how Jack Trimpey in “Rational Recovery” says that you have two voices in your head. There is you and then there is the Addictive Voice (AV)? Well, the two different voices he is talking about are your critical logical brain and your reptilian brain. Your critical logical brain is you. And your reptilian brain is your Addictive Voice. It seeks pleasure and is very emotional about it.

I have been drinking fountain soda a lot lately, because it sanitizes my colon. And I enjoy sugar and caffeine. However, it has been so poisoned a LOT lately. I am so swollen and my organs are failing. I have fluid all over my core from my heart and kidneys and liver backing up with toxins. I know better than to drink the dam soda. And I recently finally was able to clean out my colon, so the sanitizing my colon excuse is no longer valid.

When I read the first chapter of this book, I had a lightbulb moment. The voice that says drink the soda is my reptilian brain. It craves comfort at all costs, even at the cost of my organs failing. I knew I needed to quit, but I hadn’t really thought about why I would risk so much over a soda. But it is more than a soda. It is ritual, routine, and comfort. I don’t get a lot or really any comfort or ritual and routines in my life since this revolution started in 2021. My family and you people have always stolen anything from me that makes me happy or brings me joy or comfort. I was drinking fountain soda to self-soothe and comfort myself, on top of sanitizing my colon(sugar is a preservative because it kills bacteria in high doses).

Jack doesn’t say that AV is the reptilian brain, but he does say that the voice that wants you to quit is you. And you live in your critical logical brain. And your reptilian brain is the part of your brain where emotions live. It is the survival part of your brain. And the part that craves pleasure and comfort. When you are stuck in your ego, you are stuck in your reptilian brain. Modern society stresses us all out so much that most people are stuck in their ego. I was drinking fountain soda to just try to survive. It was an ego response. Drugs are the same thing. Any addiction is the same thing. Any mal-adaptive behavior is most likely coming from your reptilian brain and your ego.

I will probably drink a fountain soda again at some point in my life. I may even have one soon. But I will not be drinking them as much. And once you people stop trying to kill me and poisoning my fountain sodas with chemicals that make my organs fail, then I can have a soda and not have to read a book about addiction to figure out why I can’t stop drinking something that is killing me.

I am so tired of you people killing me. But I am even more tired of people lacking the ability to be accountable for their actions. Addiction is not a disease. It stems from people not being able to be accountable for their actions because of emotional dysregulation. Which is caused by toxins in the limbic system damaging the brain. Did you think poisoning yourselves and each other would not have consequences? Did you think you all could just be terrorists for generations and it would not have consequences?

We inherit our gut bacteria. So the more your family is into this stupid imaginary game, the more prone you are to addiction. It doesn’t mean you are destined to a life of drug addiction and loosing everything. It just means you have to fix yourself. You literally have to take accountability for your own health and that includes the health of your brain.

I highly recommend this book to everyone. Everyone has something they do too much. I believe I am entitled to drink a fountain soda. While you all believe you are entitled to poison my fountain sodas and food and everything else so it makes my organs fail. We all have entitlement issues. We all have ego issues. The first step in solving any problem is realizing there is a problem.

The problem stems from your brain and your gut bacteria. Fix it!

On day 1 of introduction to cult leadership, we talked about the foundation. If you build something on a solid foundation it will last forever. Leadership is no different.

First, you need to put your emotions aside and look at people like math equations. Because there is no emotion in math. It’s simply straight forward. The only emotional part is when you can’t seem to get it right. People are like math. They are an equation that is black and white. It’s just frustrating figuring out how to work the equation. Leadership is all in your critical logical mind. And emotions do not exist in your critical logical mind.

Second, you need to be an equal with the people you lead. A wolf doesn’t lead a dog pack. A dog leads a dog pack. If you are looking towards the people you lead to make you feel better about yourself and more important or valuable, you are doing it wrong. You are a leader to help people feel valued. You are a leader to help people find their way in life. And a large part of finding your way in life is finding yourself.

Leadership is about helping people find themselves. If you are looking towards them to help you find yourself, it will be a shit show. And the blind leading the blind. Know Thy Self! And help your people find themselves. They will be more valuable once they know themselves. So it is a win win situation. Plus, they will be grateful for your help getting there.

Third, as an equal you need to get your hands dirty and accomplish things with your people. Leadership isn’t about getting your people to do things for you. It’s about accomplishing things as a team and a group. Know your people and figure out their skills and gifts. This way you can utilize those skills and gifts to everyone’s best interest.

Think about the bosses you have had at work. The bosses who tell you what to do without helping are harder to respect. But the ones who get their hands dirty with you and help accomplish the task at hand are way more enjoyable and relatable. They are easier to bond with.

Being a leader who is an equal and works with his/her people will allow you to create a bond with them. Having people who worship you who you don’t know or enjoy, is just like having a group of stalkers. It’s not fun and it can be dangerous.

You need to create a group of people who will be there for you when times are good or times are bad. And you do that by being there for them when times are good and times are bad. You build your life with these people as they build their lives right along side of you. The more you build together, the stronger your bond and more loyal they will be towards you. You do things with your people. You don’t just shout commands. You build lives together. Yes, they are separate lives. But you build them along side each other. You grow up or grow old together. And lean on each other along the way.

My Grandma Kudearoff was an amazing example of this. She made everyone feel special. She always had time to say hi even when countless people stopped her in the grocery store. Never did she look towards people to make her feel important. She knew she was the boss. And she built lives with the people around her. She may not have been a nice or good lady, but people loved her and she treated her people really well. Her family was a different story. But she treated her people well. Because she understood they were how she became so powerful. They built lives together for decades.

When my Grandma Kudearoff was dying, she worked at the hospital. And she was about 4 months away from retirement when she got so sick she had to stop working. The people who worked with her at the hospital gave her their sick days. She came really close to being able to get her retirement because so many people gave her their sick days. They only did this because she treated them as an equal. They knew she had worked hard just like them. They knew she had struggled just like them. Her struggles were their struggles. It was their bond.

You need people to share your struggles with. You need people who will help you when you really need it. You create these kinds of bonds by putting your ego aside and being an equal with the people in your group. Yes, you are a leader. But first and foremost you are a human. Never forget you are just like everyone else. And they won’t forget either. They will be there for you when you need them. No matter if it is good times or bad times.

Being a leader is about being human and building lives with people.

On day 2, we talked about culture.

People who come together with shared beliefs create a culture. And these shared beliefs create patterns in behavior. Your job as a cult leader is to help instill shared beliefs into your culture.

But how do you actually do that? Well, you create patterns in behavior. And these patterns lead to shared beliefs.

For example, you can teach your people that you celebrate wins of all kinds. And at the end of the school year have a big picnic or party for the kids. You can have anniversary parties, graduation parties, wedding parties, birthday parties, retirement parties, etc. Basically you find any reason to celebrate your people. This will teach them that they are valued, worthy, deserving, and their hard work is recognized.

How you treat people and the activities you all partake in together create shared beliefs. This is the culture that brings you all together. So celebrate anything and everything. Because why not? It feels good to be happy and celebrate. And because you need to program your people to celebrate themselves often.

You can program your cult following to succeed. Or you can program them to self destruct. But it feels a lot better to be the leader of a culture that is flourishing and happy.

On day 3, we talked about logotherapy.

Victor Frankl was a psychiatrist who was put into numerous concentration camps during World War 2. He used this time to study people and figure out what made them able to survive. It wasn’t the healthiest, the strongest, or the most positive people who were able to survive the unthinkable conditions in concentration camps during World War 2. It was the people who had meaning in their lives. Meaning allowed people to weather the storm because they knew their life had a purpose. This is logotherapy.

Since then science has discovered that telemares are produced when people are being of service and accomplishing their purposes in life. Knowing your purposes and accomplishing them literally makes you a healthier, happier, more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. Telemares allow your DNA to replicate without flaws. When you lack telemares your DNA starts to have flaws and this causes disease, depression, and aging. Lack of telemares is ultimately why we die.

As a leader, it is your job to help your people find meaning. The more meaning they assign to their life the more human they will be on a gene and cellular level. The more meaning your group has the longer, healthier, and happier lives they will lead. The more meaning your people have, the more they will be able to weather any storm. This is logotherapy. It helps people find meaning.

An example of this would be when everyone in my family tells their people that they are superior and deserve to enslave the people around them and conquer the world. They tell you this is the purpose to your life and your birthright. Because this gives your life meaning. And when people accept this mission as their truth and meaning, they wholeheartedly work towards it.

You can enlist people to enslave the world and tell them this is their purpose in life. And they will accept it. Or you can actually try to help them find their purpose rather than enlisting them in your misguided evil agenda.

On day 4, we talked about Pavlov, narcissism, and conditioning.

Did you know Pavlov was Russian? The communist side of my family is big on using your humanity and biology against you. Communists don’t like people and they especially don’t like themselves. They view people like dogs. And I am sure you have seen how they mistreat animals. As a human, they view you as a dog. The sooner you realize this the safer you will be.

Pavlov conditioned and trained dogs to come and eat when he rang a bell. After awhile he could ring the bell and not offer food and the dogs would still salivate. Training you is no different than how Pavolv trained his dogs.

What are humans addicted to more than food? We all have a c diff infection that changes the way our brain processes dopamine. So we all are addicts. What motivates people more than food? Attention. You all are addicted to attention and heard mentality. The mere thought of being left out or ostracized gets you all to commit crimes against humanity everyday. You fear being left out because you are a junkie for human attention. Puts a whole new meaning to attention whore, huh? You have been genetically modified and conditioned to be an attention whore. Because it makes you incredibly easy to control.

Look at your phone and social media as an example. Your phone rings and your brain creates feel good neurotransmitters. It’s a chemical reaction. It’s the same chain reaction as Pavlov with his dogs. You salivate metaphorically when you think you are about to get attention.

Covert narcissists are big on using this mechanism against you. Communists are more likely to be covert narcissists. While Nazi’s are more prone to being overt narcissists.

So here is the pattern people from my family use. At first someone will give you a ton of attention. And they will lovebomb you. Giving you all kinds of compliments and talking you up. They make your brain produce all kinds of feel good neurotransmitters. Because they know you get high on them and become addicted. You become addicted to that person because you associate that high from being around them. They literally become your drug of choice.

Then to control you, they ignore you and dont give you the same attention. They train you to do what they want by giving you attention when you do something they are training and conditioning you to do. For example, they start a fight with you and ignore you until you apologize for starting the fight. They are training you to blame yourself and take accountability for their actions and bad behavior. And they reward this behavior by playing nice and giving you all the attention after you apologize. They are ringing the bell and you learn that you have to be accountable and apologize for their actions. And you do it over and over to keep the peace.

This was amazing to watch my parents try to do. They each were trying to condition the other to be subservient. And neither of them really ever won. But they sure tried for many many years.

Be aware when someone tries to make you subservient. Be aware when someone is using your biology against you. And as a leader, treat people well by not abusing them. When you withhold attention or give too much of it, you are abusing people. We have been taught to partake in this dysfunctional power dynamic because it surrounds us in this communist world that tells us we are free everywhere we turn.

As a leader pay attention to people, treat them fairly, and don’t abuse your place of power.

On day 5, we talked about self preservation.

My family showers people with attention when they want something from them. People think they are fancy by association and turn into junkies for their attention. And at some point my family or another cult is going to approach the people in your group in this fashion to try to get something out of them. It is in your best interest to teach your people to not only recognize when people are trying to use them. But also you need to teach them how to say no. Because this other group, family, or cult could be asking them to kill you or feed them information on your group.

It is ridiculous to think this won’t happen to you or your group when we live in a world filled with parasitic people who take, take, take until they kill. It also is probably best to talk to children about killing their parents. People like my family use the people closest to you to kill you.

The best way to prepare for people trying to conquer and kill you is to face the issue head on. We are in a world of ignorant people because people have been allowed to ignore everything. Not only are they allowed to ignore everything, they are encouraged and conditioned to do so. Ignorance ceases to exist when you talk about something. The first step in solving a problem is admitting there is a problem.

Yes, we aime to eliminate people like my family in anyway necessary. However, these people will exist until we change their environment and thus their epigenetics. While we change the world and environment, you all need to have these tough talks with the people in your group. Because it’s the only way to guarantee they wont kill or betray you. When you talk about the hard things you can see people’s true colors. It’s better to see them now rather than when it’s too late.

When I was in LA, at the beginning of this revolution, and the southern LA farmer called everyone out of this war against me, I saw my family’s cult clearly for the very first time. I didn’t know who or what they were. But I saw a group of people not being loyal to where they come from. Even my Dad isn’t loyal to where he comes from. He enslaves people like himself to retain the power the Kudearoffs give him. In a world of helpless people who do not have access to their critical logical mind, this won’t stop.

You need to talk to your people about being loyal to where they come from. You need to talk to them about the consequences of betraying your group. And you need to use positive reinforcement to keep them loyal and safe. If you dont get to know the people who follow you, you just have a group of stalkers. And stalkers kill people everyday.

On day 6, we talked about being foundational to your people.

In a world without much safety, security, or predictability, you need to be apart of the foundation to your people’s lives. You need to create the safety and security we all crave. Safety, security, and predictability are basic human needs. We need to know with certainty that people will be there for us.

When we have this we can attain our potential and purposes with ease. Because we are free to try new things and fail. Knowing that we have our foundation to fall back on. It’s easier to try and do scary things that challenge us when we know we will be safe if it goes really poorly.

By providing a foundation of security for your people you are allowing them to fail their way forward and become more valuable in all ways. People fear failure because they don’t want their whole life to fall apart. So create a foundational environment where your people know it is safe to aim for the moon and hit the stars. Nothing feels better than being supported in the endeavors you choose. Especially, when those endeavors are scary big.

On day 7, we talked about finding your group purpose.

Every human is born with a purpose. Your purpose is a series of events and interactions that you were sent to Earth to have. So your purpose is a series of purposes. It’s not just one thing. Although there often is a common theme tying them all together.

Just as you have a purpose, your group has a purpose. And again that group purpose is not just one thing or event. It is a series of different things over time. Stars are meant to shine on their own. But groups of stars come together to shine and form constellations. Your group is your constellation. You were sent to shine with the people in your group.

Everyone is given skills and gifts to help them accomplish their purpose. And part of the process of figuring out what your purpose is entails sharing your skills and gifts with the world. The first step in finding your purpose is finding your skills and gifts. And then sharing them with the world. This will lead you on a chain reaction to discovering your purpose in life.

As a leader, your job is to help facilitate your group not only finding their group purpose. But also accomplishing it. To do this you take the skills and gifts of your people, put them all together, and figure out how to share them with the world to make a positive impact. No one was put here on Earth with a purpose of destroying the world. Remember symbiotic relationships are the goal in everything.

Part of creating a foundation and security for the people you lead is figuring out the group purpose that brought you all together. The stars were put exactly where they belong. And so were the people in your group.

Today on day 8, let’s talk about family planning.

Many of your groups are based on birthrights. So as a leader, it only makes sense to talk to your people about family planning. And you need to do this from a young age. Ignorance cannot exist when you stop ignoring things and discuss them.

Young girls need to know men will try to get them pregnant to steal their birthrights and enslave them. And young boys need to know women will try to get pregnant with their baby to steal their birthrights and enslave them. After this occurs they will be stuck in a lifelong battle to see who can make the other subservient. No one ever wins this battle and the child and group are the ones who pay the biggest price.

If you are from a group of mixed people, who have used marriage and breeding to conquer others for generations, it is necessary to talk to them about letting their birthrights die with them. This will allow for more checks and balances in the power structure of this stupid imaginary game.

My birthrights have cost me everything. This amount of power is inhumane. The world has been trying to kill me for over 4 decades. And I know no one in my family has what it takes to utilize this power better than me. The only way I can guarantee I do not perpetuate my pain and pass it onto another is by getting my whole family to stop breeding. Otherwise the world is at risk of dealing with more unthinkable disasters.

No way could I have children knowing what they would be expected to do. Absolute power corrupts absolutely. I can’t guarantee my kids will be like me. And I know my family is not good with responsibility. So the only answer is to stop the madness. This needs to be presented to mixed people as a way out. Because many of us have suffered our whole lives because of our family’s overwhelming lust and greed for power.

Also, you need to talk to your people about the gender of their children. Important birthrights need to go to women. Because sperm can be extracted from a dead body up to 36 hours after death. All someone needs to do is kill your son and take his sperm to enslave your family and group forever. And thus the world.

But it rarely takes that because men are more prone to emotional addiction and are easier to manipulate than women. Because men are more prone to dyslexia. Meaning they more creative brain based. Creativity is an emotion. When you are emotionally based with a c diff infection that makes you an addict because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine, you are addicted to your emotions. This is why it’s so easy for women to get pregnant by men they want to steal birthrights from.

The Kudearoffs love their boys because they are easier to control. They can manipulate them into doing and being whatever they want. However, this leaves them very vulnerable. See how being emotional can become your biggest downfall?

Logic is always the answer. Especially, when it comes to breeding and family planning. The decisions your people make about breeding will effect the world. Don’t let them get caught up in emotions. Reproducing is about logic, it’s not emotional. It’s about making the best decisions for the future and world. People making emotional decisions is how we all got into this mess. Destruction is not logical. It is an emotional response that is maladaptive.

Full disclosure, I did not read all of this book. I thought it was going to be more of a memoir, but it ended up being more of a book about the origins of normalcy. Which was good, but not what I expected. So, I only read the first 100 pages.

“You need to know that normal has a history. You may assume this is history of discovery–that somewhere, at some point, someone found out what was normal for human beings. And normal, and normal people are often presented like that–as facts of the world. But that’s not true. That is a lie. It’s a lie that gives normal such power over our lives… Normal hasn’t always been normal.”

“When normal was first used it had nothing to do with people, or society, or human behavior. Norm and normal were Latin words used by mathematicians. Normal comes from the Latin word norma, which refers to a carpenter’s square, or T-square.”

“Every day, in every community, all around the world, people with differences are demeaned. Just look at the data. According to multiple research studies, including the UN World Report on disability, people with cognitive and physical differences have the worst life outcomes, as measured by employment, wages, and education achievement, of any minority group in the world.”

“Eventually Galton did come right out and began calling for the active improvement of the human race through the application of the emerging science of what we now call genetics. He called this eugenics, a combination of the Greek words for “well” and “born”.

“Carrie’s case was eventually taken to the US Supreme Court and is known as Buck vs. Bell. In the spring of 1927, the court ruled that Carrie buck’s sterilization was constitutional…The United States Supreme Court ruled that the state had the right to eliminate forms of difference through sterilization.”

“Killing defectives eventually went the way you knew it would: Hollywood. Yep, in 1917, the movement got its own movie called The Black Stork. This film is about eugenically mismatched couple who are told not to have children because they are likely to be defective. The couple ignores this warning, gives birth to a “defective child,” and then lets it die. The movie is based on the life and work of Harry J. Haiselden the chief surgeon at the German-American Hospital in Chicago, who killed infants of “eugenic” reasons.”

Eugenics was the reason why the Nazis killed disabled and handicapped people in gas chambers. The book goes on to say that Hitler’s idea for this came from American eugenic ideas. During the years of WWII, Hitler killed many handicapped people to cleanse the genepool. You did not have to be Jewish or gay to die in the gas chambers. They actually had some at hospitals to kill children who were disabled or for eugenic reasons.

In the US thousands of people were sterilized before the ruling by the Supreme Court was overruled. So, you know how people who are neuro divergent are so vocal about it? It is because they would have been killed or sterilized for being different throughout a lot of recent history.

Jonathan Mooney wrote this book because he grew up with learning disabilities in San Francisco during the 1980s. I grew up in the 1980s. And I am not “normal”. But I never thought of this stuff. I have never been normal and gave up seeking to be around middle school. Normal people aren’t good at the kinds of things I am good at. If you are in the middle of the bell curve you aren’t really good at anything. You are average. I was never average at anything. So, I never thought of normal as something to strive for. I saw it as something to stay away from. I never wanted to be average. But I suppose a lot of people do try to be normal and average.

On this revolution, I have said that I do want a normal and ordinary life. But that is because I want some of the things you all have that I have never been allowed to have. Like a house that isn’t designed to kill me, a career where I get to share my skills and gifts with the world, clean clothes that aren’t poisoned, a bed that is not designed to kill me, etc. There are countless things you people take foregranted everyday that I have never had. And have worked so hard to have. Even if I was allowed to earn a normal ordinary life nothing about me would ever be normal or ordinary, and this has nothing to do with my birthrights and everything to do with the person I am and the skills and gifts I have taken the time to cultivate.

I never thought normal was something that was a good thing. But I did want a more functional and healthy life and family my whole life. It is shocking that people like my family will call themselves normal because they are the ones who create the bell curves. And they will continue to kill people like me who are outliers because we threaten their ability to control the masses and dictate the narrative. Pretty scary and funny, huh? Talk about a mix of emotions.

They put a chip in my head because they wanted to use me like a computer because I am not normal. But yet they wanted me to pretend to be normal, when I have never been given anything normal ever. I will never pretend to be normal for my family, or for you all. But I will always be me. Because I really like me. And if I am not supposed to be me then who the hell am I supposed to be?!?

Normal Sucks. Be YOU!

So do you all remember when we were reading the American History textbook together and we learned about Jane Adams at the Settlement in Chicago? This is a memoir written by her about the first twenty years at Hull-House. Which was a house/settlement she created in Northwest Chicago to help the immigrants who mostly worked in factories have better lives.

Jane Adams was involved in the suffrage movement, but that was only a small part of what she did. She was mostly involved in attempting to “socialize democracy” as she put it. At Hull-House they worked on countless projects and countless people lived and/or worked there to bring the different immigrant communities together and to meet their social needs. They did this with social groups, education, trash removal, childcare, leisure activities, museums, arts, etc.

At one point in this book Jane was involved in the trash collection for the city, having a position that paid $1,000/per year. The position involved being a part of trying to figure out how to keep the city clean because there was so much trash and filth on the streets that it was causing disease. This was around the late 1800’s. At one point they picked up 18 inches of trash off the street and found that the street was actually paved underneath. Can you imagine a foot and half of trash on the street and people just walking on top of it? And horses walking on top of it too? The trash situation really did cause disease. Typhod fever or a fever of some sort was a big deal back then and Jane actually got it as well.

Flies passed around disease and the trash attracted flies. Can you imagine walking on 18 inches of trash mixed with horse shit and people pooh and then walking into your home. You would literally be tracking in all kinds of shit and disease. Sanitation was something that took a long time to create. Hull-House also helped create local bathhouses where people could bath because most of the tenements did not have bathtubs or bathrooms either.

Immigrants from all over flocked to all the big American cities around this time period. Slavery had ended in the south and people were moving north to find opportunity. People were coming here from all over the world. The factory work in big cities was attracting people like the flies on shit in the streets. But there were no programs for social welfare. They had to be created.

Creating programs to care for people’s social needs in a democracy was something that had to be done carefully. Because how do you create social programs in a democracy without becoming socialist? Very carefully.

It took some time, but in twenty years Jane and Hull-House created a lot of change. And Jane not only was involved with other Settlements throughout the nation, but internationally as well. She came from a very privileged background and did not have to work. She had inherited wealth and often went to Europe to study and see the world. When she got typhoid fever she went to Europe to recover.

“You do not know what life means when all the difficulties are removed! I am simply smothered and sickened with advantages. It is like eating a sweet dessert the first thing in the morning.”

“…he also bears with him the consciousness that he had given himself over so many years to classic learning-that when suddenly called upon for a quick decision in the world of life and death, he had been able to act only through a literary suggestion. This is what we were all doing, lumbering our minds with literature that only served to cloud the really vital situation spread before our eyes.”

Jane spent most of her life studying and traveling until she started Hull-House. She got to the point where she knew that accumulating more knowledge would not help her obtain more wisdom. She had to live and do things. School was not going to help her prepare. She just had to jump in the deep end so to speak. Hull-House was her first big jump. And what a jump it was. Settlements worldwide were still somewhat new and they operated differently based on the needs of the communities around them. There was not a large blueprint for what she did.

“It is true that there is nothing after disease, indigence and a sense of guilt, so fatal to health and to life itself as the want of a proper outlet for active faculties.”

Jane believed in purpose. And she believed her purpose was to use her upper-class status and privilege to help the lower classes. She knew that she would not be able to live her upper-class life without the lower classes doing their jobs.

“Hull-House was soberly opened on the theory that the dependence of classes on each other is reciprocal; and that as the social relation is essentially a reciprocal relation, it gives form of expression that has peculiar value.”

Jane believed in society being a symbiotic relationship. She believed in the interconnectedness of the world, but most certainly the local community in which one lives and works.

“Would it not provoke to ironic laughter that very nemesis which presides over the destinies of nations, if the most autocratic government yet remaining in the civilization should succeed in utilizing for its own autocratic methods the youngest and most daring experiment in democratic government which the world has ever seen? Stranger results have followed a course of stupidity and injustice resulting from blindness and panic!”

America definitely made some mistakes along the way to being where we are today. But every government or leader has made mistakes. And it is the people who pay for those mistakes. Democracy is the system, but it does not mean that everything the democracy does is going to be correct or right in general or for everyone. We must live and learn. Especially, when it came to creating policy and systems of processes for social well-being.

Jane often refers to America as something of a social experiment because there was nothing to base it on. No government like it exited to take knowledge and wisdom from. It was a capitalist democratic experiment. She had studied greatly to help shape this experiment.

Twenty Years At Hull-House is an excellent book. I would suggest it to anyone looking to get better acquainted with what was happening around the turn of the 20th century. The first twenty years of hull house were 1889-1909. So this book gives a perfect window into the turn of the 20th century.

When they found pavement under 18 inches of trash on the street, that is when I was enlightened. Things were so different back then. Can you imagine millions of people living in a city and throwing not only their trash on the street, but their human waste on the street too. And there were no cars. The horses shit on the streets too. Can you imagine how awful the smell was? I know I think cities stink now. I cannot imagine how much they used to smell 120 years ago!

People were suffering, being worked to death, new to the country, speaking a new language, and tying their children to kitchen tables while they went to work. But what really made it all set in was thinking of the smell and walking in shit on the streets. I get upset when I see dog shit on the side of the sidewalk that hasn’t been picked up. I cannot imagine the whole sidewalk being shit. And the disease that would go along with this, oh my god. It is a visceral experience when you think about it like this.

I just posted a bunch of random stuff from searching my blog on archive.org…… I lost a lot of posts that I was looking for but didn’t find them. But it turns out I kind of wrote a cancer program back in 2021 that I forgot about. I think there were more parts to it, but I published the ones I found.

I did not reread any of the posts that I just reposted. So I cannot vouch for how much I still believe in them. But I am sure there is still some good stuff in them.

I finished diversion for my trespassing ticket yesterday at the Eugene Community Court. The judge and all the people who work in the courtroom there poisoned me so much as they presented me with my completion certificate it was great fun. But I am glad to be done.

That is all I have got. I didn’t find the posts I was looking for. But it was interesting to go back and look at some of that stuff. I prefer to look forward instead of back.

Hope you all are doing well out there. I am ready to build a new world when you are. Just let me know when the world is done trying to kill me, destroy me, and keep me small.

Nicole

Cognitive Decline, Dementia, & Alzheimer’s

Your brain is being used against you as a weapon. You do not know how smart you are. Insulin and high blood glucose(even within “normal” range) damage your brain and cause decline. Vitamin deficiencies cause decline. Leaky gut causes decline. You are being set up to not even have the option to think for yourself.

Have you noticed how with age your brain is getting foggier and harder to use? This is the goal and just another way to keep you small, manageable, and diseased. Cognitive decline is not a “normal” part of aging, it is a war tactic that has been normalized.

So what do you do to reverse or stop this war tactic? Have you started taking a multivitamin yet? Please do so, this will not solve the problem, but it will help to stop the damage from happening as quickly. Make sure it has Folate, B12, Omega 3, Dha, and Selenium. I still have not found one that has all of these, but do what you can. Taking action is always going to be better than inaction.

Some other things you can do:

• Eat a better diet with less processed foods. Nutrient dense foods are the answer. Liver is a super food. Once again I have not been able to get myself to eat it yet, but my dogs love it. It depends on how bad your health has declined already on which super foods will be best for you. I have to eat only meat because my system has been destroyed my whole life and recovering from cancer and autoimmune diseases took extreme measures if I wanted to really heal and not just put a bandaide on a broken bone so to say. If you do not quite know where to start go ahead and try a carnivore diet, there is no harm in allowing your body to heal. If you are not able to make such a sudden change than just eat better and do what you can. Progress not perfection is a great rule of thumb when beginning.
• Avoid sugar, sugar is a drug and weapon. Balancing your blood sugar and keeping your insulin in check is one of the biggest things you can do for your mental and emotional health. Sugar feeds all the bacteria, parasites, viruses, cancer, etc in your body and keeps you seeking comfort outside of your self. The more sugar you eat the more your brain will shrink with age and decline, even if you do not develop diabetes.
• Get enough B12 and Omega 3
• Get Vitamin D and sunshine
• Avoid Gluten-not only does gluten lead to leaky gut, but it damages your stomach so you cannot absorb all the nutrients from your food. This will lead to nutrient deficiencies even before leaky gut is an issue.
• Get enough Omega 3-Eat fish that are not high in heavy metals at least once a week or find another way to make Omega 3 a regular part of your diet. I really enjoy putting hemp oil on my skin because you can absorb nutrition through your skin too.
• Get your minerals-make sure you are getting enough minerals in your diet. Fulvic acid minerals are a great way to boost your intake and improve your overall health.
• Cut out the addictions and unhealthy habits. The world and systems are set up to make you small and self destruct you do not need to overtly destroy yourself in any manner and aid in their agenda. Be good to yourself.

Overall, we need to eat better and in this world that is an uphill battle. So take your vitamins and supplements, while you figure out what kind of diet works best for your body. We all are different and health and healing is not a one size fits all journey. But just know you have been stolen from yourself and if you want to find yourself you are going to have to do things differently. Following the norms is what got you here, so you have to do differently to get a different outcome. You deserve to know yourself.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

An Outline For Healing Cancer

Here is an outline/mind dump so you know what parts you want to read about or if you want to read the whole thing. Also, this is great if you just want to try a couple things here and there.

• worm pills (rx, over the counter, and natural)
• heal leaky gut
• address candida
• red light therapy & tanning
• cryotherapy
• sauna & cold showers
• heavy metal detox
• cancer killing herbs/spices/vitamins
• remineralize your body
• vitamins-nutrition is key
• no sugar/no fiber/low carb diet
• lower cortisol
• walking & stretching/yoga
• detox baths
• sauna
• make your own body products
• eliminate chemicals in your cleaning products and home
• fasting and intermittent fasting
• binders
• essential oils
• herbal tea
• sleep
• meditation
• mindset
• find your purpose/why
• love-you need love and self love
• distractions/forward momentum in life outside of healing
• address addictions-don’t necessarily have to eliminate them all at once

Okay that is it, I know it looks like a lot, but please take into consideration it normally takes over a decade for cancer to grow so healing means changing the way you live. I am sure I will think of a few more steps once I get to writing out each step, but everything overlaps in the end so it is hard to miss something if you are paying attention to what your body needs and asks for.

Healing is love, love always,

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #2 Heal Leaky Gut

Leaky gut is something we all have to be aware of and keep at bay. Genetically modified plants, sugar, grains, dairy, Candida, and many other things contribute to creating leaky gut. Some signs you have leaky gut would be chronic diarrhea, constipation, bloating, nutritional deficiencies, fatigue, headaches, confusion, difficulty concentrating, skin problems, joint pain, etc.

We probably all have an aliment that would be improved by addressing leaky gut even if we are not chronically ill. However, all disease starts in the gut. So if you have any kind of chronic illness addressing leaky gut will aid in healing it. Also, leaky gut and fatty liver are both associated with autoimmune diseases. So if you have an autoimmune disease of any kind addressing leaky gut will not only help, but is necessary in healing.

They say the gut is the second brain. But I believe the gut to be the boss of your brain, because it tells your brain what to do and feel. When you take care of your gut, everything improves in my experience. How well you digest your food plays into so many things. Food is energy and fuel.

The healing process depends on how badly you have damaged your gut. Some people may be able to do a few diet changes and take some probiotics and be better than they ever remember. But for the other end of the spectrum like me and people with autoimmune disease, it will take major life changes to see the desired improvements. However, small changes will always make a difference over time.

Again, I encourage you to research because there are many ways to improve leaky gut. And it is not a one size fits all process. But here are some ideas on large and small changes that can make a difference. And remember the self destruct button that my family cult outfits us all with starts with leaky gut, because it leads to larger dis-ease and malnutrition.

• Avoid grains, but especially gluten grains
• Avoid processed foods
• Avoid sugar
• Avoid dairy
• Avoid GMO foods
• Avoid coffee
• Avoid over the counter pain relievers
• Reduce stress
• Reduce/avoid alcohol
• Sleep more
• Avoid antibiotics
• Address Sibo
• Address Candida
• Try a Low FODMAP diet
• Start fasting and/or intermittent fasting
• Drink more bone broth(be careful if histamine problems)
• Exercise more/regularly
• Chew your food better
• Avoid birth control pills
• Take digestive enzymes
• Take collagen(beware with histamine issues)
• Take a mutlivitamin
• Take vitamin D and get more sunshine
• Take aloe vera
• Take b12 and K2
• Avoid smoking
• Eat more ferment foods(beware with histamine issues)
• Heavy metal cleanse
• Parasite cleanse

Basically anything you can do to live a healthier life will help you improve your leaky gut in the long run. Life and epigenetics are all about the small things we do everyday. These are the things that define us. These are the things that make us who we are, down to the genetic level.

Addressing leaky gut is how everyone can protect themselves from disease. Even if you are just trying to improve your immune system so you do not get a cold or the flu addressing your gut will help. Your gut is where disease starts, but it also can be where health starts.

Remember life not an all or nothing journey, it is about progress not perfection. So if you want to have those couple drinks this weekend, be really good on your diet during the week and balance it out so you can enjoy yourself without harming yourself too much. Same goes for if you want that piece of gluten filled birthday cake when you go to a birthday party. Be good the rest of the week and even it out. Life is about balance and so is health.

Take care of your gut and your gut will take care of you.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #3 Address Candida

Candida is a yeast that is present in our bodies all the time. It is healthy in small amounts. However, with the food systems filled with grains, sugars, and gluten Candida has been allowed to run away with us all. Have you seen the shows on TLC about the morbidly obese people? I think it is called “My 600 lb Life”. Well, the people on this show have a Candida overgrowth problem big time. This is why they are an emotional wreck and lie to themselves about food.

Candida takes over your brain. And it releases toxins in your body that keep you from yourself. Remember when I had you check out the show “Fit to Fat” about the personal trainers? Well, their emotional issues were from Candida overgrowth. And the reason it is so hard for some of them to loose weight is Candida overgrowth. Getting this yeast in check is something that most people unknowingly battle with their whole lives.

Candida overgrowth is what makes us overly emotional, more manageable, and it leads to disease. When you feel like you do not have control over your emotions, then you are willing to accept manageable as the best it will get. You will bypass trying for good, when manageable is an option. This is how the systems get you to keep yourself small. Candida overgrowth is the largest covert war tactic used by my family cult. It starts out just with you keeping yourself small, but it leads to every kind of disease you can think of. It is a win win situation for them. Especially, because eliminating it seems almost impossible.

Eliminating Candida is another thing that is a lifelong process just like healing leaky gut. It is something you are always going to have to be aware of. However, living without it after spending a lifetime on an emotional roller coaster is beyond priceless. Those of us who have suffered with it for years will understand just how painful it can be. It can interfere with every aspect of your life. It is physical, mental, and emotional pain. It is a special kind of hell that takes you over. It is enough to make anyone want to accept learned helplessness. And that is the goal right there. When you feel out of control of your body, you will accept learned helplessness in every aspect of your life because it is real to you.

I challenge everyone to spend a least a few weeks cleansing and just experience the freedom you feel. You are not supposed to feel enslaved to your body. Your body is on your side, it is your partner in life before anyone else can ever be.

Steps to eliminate Candida overgrowth:

• Avoid sugar, even natural sugars
• Avoid grains, especially gluten grains
• Avoid gluten as much as possible(especially if you have autoimmune issues)
• Avoid dairy
• Avoid coffee
• Avoid/minimize caffeine
• Avoid alcohol & soda
• Avoid fruit
• Avoid nuts and seeds(especially peanut butter it has mold in it)
• Limit Condiments
• Eat low carb
• Eat more quality fats-focus on Omega 3s
• Avoid refined oils
• Take a probiotic
• Eat more meat and eggs
• Avoid processed meats
• Avoid canned meats and foods
• Eat more fermented foods(beware if histamine issues)
• Eat coconut products everyday(oil, milk, cream, etc)
• Take digestive enzymes and Apple cider vinegar(if you can tolerate it)
• Put coconut oil on your skin

I am sure after that list, you are asking yourself, “Well, what can I eat?” Eat meats, healthy fats, nonstarchy vegetables(if you want), and probiotics. Now can you see why the Keto and Carnivore diets are gaining so much popularity? We are meant to eat low carb most of the time. In our evolution as humans we have never eaten such a carb heavy diet as the Standard American Diet before. Industrialization is when we started eating processed foods and grains regularly. This is also when we started developing chronic illness and disease more. Weston Price is a dentist who has done amazing research on the decline in our health with industrialization. He suggests we focus on making sure we get the fat soluble vitamins and Vitamin A and K2. If we focus on getting more than the recommended of these vitamins we should get everything else we need as well just by default.

You do not have to get your diet dialed in right from the get go. It is a learning process and not everyone is going to be the same, because we all have damaged and destroyed our bodies differently. So be patient with yourself, but also do not settle for manageable being the best it gets.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #3 Address Candida Part 2

Diet is the only way you will sustain lowering the amount of Candida in your body. However, when you start tackling the issue of Candida supplements, vitamins, and other lifestyle changes will help you get to your desired results more quickly. Be careful not to use these methods as a crutch to allow you to keep your dis-ease manageable though.

Some other things to try to lower Candida:

• Get more sunshine
• Red light therapy
• Tanning beds
• Cryotherapy
• Coconut oil on skin
• Biotin-highly recommend!!
• Diatomaceous Earth Food Grade-highly recommend!!
• Antifungal herbs/spices
• Essential oils
• Charcoal
• Spirulina & Chorella
• Aloe Vera-highly recommend!!
• Probiotics
• Fermented foods
• Milk thistle
• Oregano oil
• Workout more
• Sauna
• Cold showers
• Yoga
• Lifting weights
• Exfoliating your skin
• Remineralize your body-fulvic minerals are great!
• detox baths

When killing off Candida one of the most difficult parts for me was dealing with the toxins they produce and leave behind in your body. Taking binders to absorb these toxins has been a life saver for me, along with fasting. Candida cannot grow if you are not feeding it. I love fasting because it is a great way to bring down the levels of Candida in your body quickly and change your epigenetics. Or group together a couple things like fast while going to the sauna, taking a detox bath and some binders. Treating Candida overgrowth does Not have to be a chore, it can be something you grow to look forward to because it will make you feel better once you get the hang of it.

Your true self is waiting for you to find yourself.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #3 Address Candida Part 3

Signs and Symptoms of Candida Overgrowth by Eric Baker (Candida Crusher on You Tube)

1. Persistent nasal congestion or stuffiness
2. Sinus inflammation, swelling, or infection
3. Flu-like symptoms, coughs, and recurring colds
4. Excessive mucus in the throat,nose and ear canals, sinuses, or lungs
5. Joint pain and swelling
6. Bruising easily
7. Cheekbone or forehead tenderness or pains
8. Tinnitus, ear infections, dryness, pain, discharges, wax build-up
9. Sore throat, hoarse voice, or laryngitis

Now you can see that a lot of the things we end up taking antibiotics for are really just Candida issues and it makes them worse because the antibiotics kill off our good bacteria that fight the Candida.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #4 Red Light Therapy & Tanning

By now you all are starting to get the idea that healing cancer is all about lowering the load on your immune system, right? Anything you can do to make your body have less work to do to maintain homeostasis and health will help you heal cancer. All the little things you do in your daily life are what really matter. The big thing you do here and there is not as impactual as the little things you do daily, for the most part. I am sure there are some exceptions, but you get the idea.

Red light therapy is amazing and helps your body heal on a mitocondiral (sp?) level. Basically it helps you heal on a cellular level. It is amazing and easy and enjoyable. What I did was order a full spectrum red light bulb off Amazon and put it in a lamp by my bed when I was in Arizona. These are great for pets and kids as well. My dog Haywood has Lupus and when he would get burned and have a flar the red light would help him recover two or three times as fast. So anyone who gets sun burned should invest in one.

Also, red light helps your skin heal scars and stretch marks. It takes time, but over time you will notice a difference. It is great for renewing aged skin. And if it is making so much of a difference on your skin, you can only imagine what it is doing on the inside of your body. I have heard people using it to help heal their leaky gut. Whenever I was having an autoimmune flare red light or sunlight on my tummy always helps relieve the inflammation in my body. Not quite sure the reason, but if it works it works. If you know about autoimmune flares it is all about finding relief you do not question why because pain relief is priceless.

Red light, tanning, and sunlight all lower your viral load and help your body fight off everything. Of course tanning should be monitored and not overdone, but sunshine is healing in whatever form you choose. Candida is lowered by light because it is a yeast. Just get some light everyday and you will start to feel better. This I can guarantee. And if you are going to be using lights in your home, why not get a full spectrum red light? It just makes sense and is logical to do what is best for you, and your pets and children! Life and health is all about the little things!

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #5 Cryotherapy

Ewwwh! This is one of my absolute all time favorite things! It is so hard to make myself do, but the benefits are amazing! It is a bit pricey, but it worth saving for. Plus, you can normally find good deals on Groupon.

Cryotherapy is a great way to balance your hormones and lower the load on your immune system. It does all the things. It really helped me detox heavy metals and thus reduce my Candida. When you have heavy metals in your body all the bad things stick to them like parasites and Candida. It is basically a way to make the bad things in your body have a more comfortable place to grow. It puts them at ease while creating dis-ease in you. Removing the heavy metals from the toxic world we live in huge! Everyone needs to take Chorella and Spirulina tabs. They have saved my life. However, when I was really sick with cancer and autoimmune diseaseS in Las Vegas, Cryotherapy saved my life.

I recommend doing multiple things along with Cryotherapy. Healing modalities seems to have a multiplied effect, rather than just adding to each other. Herbs and drugs multiple with each other when taken together. They do not just add to the effect of each other. All healing seems to be like this.

So if you are going to do Cryotherapy do it in a fasted state, and take some antifungals too. Red light is often offered at the place that do Cryotherapy or they have saunas. Do all the things. The more you do the less your body will have to do.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

P.S. Do a cold rinse when you finish your showers, it helps your hormones and supports your immune system. Make sure and get the cold water on the base of your skull, this will help calm you down and get you into your para sympathetic whatever.

Also, cold water plunges or swimming in cold water also is great for you.

Cryotherapy helps tighten loose skin too!

Just get cold!

Saunas followed by cold showers are amazing as well!

Stress your body with changes in temperature and it will get stronger!

Are you taking a multivitamin yet? If not, why not? Get one with Omega 3 and DHA!

How To Heal Cancer #6 Sauna & Cold Showers

Saunas mixed with cold showers are magical. I don’t really have much of the science behind it, but I do know it does wonders for your stress response, balancing your hormones, removing toxins and heavy metals thus supporting your liver and allowing it to heal. Removing heavy metals and supporting your liver are two of the most revolutionary things you can do in order to prevent cancer and chronic illness.

Prevention is the name of the game. We should all think of ourselves as preventing cancer. It allows for us to be more proactive in our healing process rather than waiting for disease to come before we take action. Disease is guaranteed in the world we live in. It is not a question of if, it is just the question of when. If we all take action like we are having to work towards preventing cancer we will have way more luck with our health because we will take it seriously. You are not helpless over your health if you take actions to support your body.

Life is about choices. Make the choices that support the reality you want to live in. The little steps and actions you take in your daily life are the key to making your dreams come true or your nightmares a reality. Choose wisely, but choose not to live in fear. Take charge of your own life and reality.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Heal Cancer #7 Heavy Metal Detox

Just as we inherit bacteria, parasites, and viruses from our Mother and Grandmother, we also inherit heavy metals. And our Mother and Grandmother inherit them from their Mother and Grandmother. So, it is a domino effect. Perhaps, these are the biological roots to generational trauma in the physical body.

As the generation continue and our heavy metal load is increased, we become less able to utilize our brains and bodies. I did not realize I was a genius until I did years of heavy metal cleansing. However, I am sure my heavy metal load was more intense than most because lead was how they dumbed me down as a child and throughout my life. But they do this to all of us on a smaller scale to keep us manageable, small, and diseased.

Have you ever drank tap water? Have you ever showered in unfiltered water? Have you ever had shots or an immunization? Have you ever eaten processed foods? Have you ever lived in a house with paint? Have you ever had dental work done? Have you ever eaten rice grown in California? Have you ever been outside when an airplane was flying overhead? Have you ever been to a gas station? Have you ever been on an airplane? Have you ever smoked? If you answered yes to any of these than you have heavy metals and need to detox.

Our world and lives are filled with heavy metals. There really is no escaping them all, unless you want to live in a bubble. However, you just need to help your body to detox the metals it is exposed to on a daily basis. This means cleaning out the heavy metals that are stored in your body that you have inherited and collected throughout your life.

There are many different avenues you can take to detox heavy metals, but since we are doing the work for many generations that came before us I suggest the firefighter Niacin sauna detox. There are many different variations, but the results are amazing no matter what in my experience.

Brief Overview:  Start with 50-100 mg of Niacin on empty stomach, start exercising for 30 min, enter sauna for 30-60 min, take 4-5  capsules of activated charcoal (500 mg), take shower.

I started this protocol when I was in Las Vegas. Full disclosure I have never done the exercise part, but I am sure it adds greatly to the results. When I started I did not have a sauna, so I used a hot detox bath instead. Even without the exercise and sauna this protocol helped me walk again. My hips and back were a mess from PCOS, heavy metals, and candida. This protocol helps with all of these. When I took activated charcoal for the first time, I realized I did not have anxiety I just had toxins in my blood stream. Like I said this protocol is life changing. My white bed sheets turned purple when doing this protocol in Arizona when I was using a sauna. So, do no skimp on the activated charcoal, it can save your sheets.

Also, another way to detox heavy metals is by taking chorella and spirulina tabs everyday. I did this for months during quarantine when in Arizona and this is when I realized how smart I was. Chorella draws metals out of your brain. Also, I was mixing in cilantro which also helps remove metals from the body and brain. Plus, Diatomaceous earth food grade is something I am a big fan of and it works on heavy metals too.

Heavy metal detox is something that is a long term process. Even now I still feel better when I do the things. I do not think there is a limit to how much we can cleanse our bodies when we are making up for all the generations that have come before us. Perhaps, it is just something we need to view as a life long process. Health and healing seem to be that way. Once I learn something it is never really something I do once and am done with. It is something I add to my collections of tools to continue to utilize.

Start heavy metal cleansing today because you do not know how smart you are till you have removed some of the heavy metals from your brain and body.

Love Always

Nicole D Graves

Mind Control & Hormone Imbalances

If you are confused about who you are, you are going to be not only easier to control and manipulate, but you will also be more open to suggestion and vulnerable to brainwashing. In the 1980’s hardly anyone, but alcoholics had fatty liver disease. Now almost all of us have fatty liver to a certain extent, even children. And fatty liver leads to estrogen dominance when your liver is unable to balance your hormones.

Have you noticed how men are more in their feminine energy nowadays? Have you noticed how women are more in their masculine energy nowadays? Well, women today almost all have PCOS to a certain extent due to all the chemicals and toxins in the world and systems. This allows for more “male” hormones in women. The carb filled diets that we are sold as the Standard American Diet is also a factor in PCOS. Insulin plays a large role, because it is too a hormone.

So, women are more masculine because they have more “male” hormones. And men are more feminine because they have more “female” hormones. Do you think this has anything to do with the confusion on pronouns nowadays? Maybe the LGBTQ community was literally designed and created by the modern world we live in? If they can confuse us about who we are, we can easily be controlled when we are trying to figure out the rest of who we are. When we do not know ourselves on the very first building block of who we are, we can be swayed on all the other things we are, because we feel uncertainty. When we are uncertain we are easily controlled. When we feel out of balance on the inside we will look towards the outside for balance and to steady us.

When you know who you are you, you look inside for your equalibrium. However, when you do not know yourself, down to a gender level, you can be persuaded about almost anything.

Balancing your hormones is the most revolutionary act you can take to start the process of finding yourself.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

Television: Mind Control, Emotion Control, & Hormonal Control

If you wanted to influence people that you had already made more suseptable to suggestion, wouldn’t it be nice if they just watched this box full of pictures you created for them? Your mind does not know the difference between real life, visualization, and/or tv. If your mind does not know the difference, that means it will influence your hormones, your emotions, and your reality just as if it is real life. Your whole limbic system and reality are changed when you watch tv and/or play video games.

This is why the 90’s generation is so different, well part of why. The Xbox generation is literally a different species on a gene level, but then take into account that their mind, body, emotions, and thus souls have been programmed since the beginning with video games and tv. Those of us who grew up without all the electronics that this generation had access too have a hard time relating to them. Not to mention them being the first generation to grow up with WiFi and we have no long term studies on how that effects people in the long term on a physical or mental level.

When you hand over your mental picture to a source outside of yourself, you are handing over control of your body, mind, and spirit. Even if it is a good tv show, it is still a form of brainwashing. Tv is fun, don’t get me wrong, it can be pleasurable. But just know what you are doing when you take part in television. Your brain, body, and soul do not know the difference between television and meditation/visualization. Should you be altering your epigenetics with the information you are taking in from television? Because it only takes 4 days of meditation/visualization to change your epigenetics. Are you willing to take responsibility for what you watching on a gene level because it is changing you?

You are what you watch.

Love Always

Nicole Graves

How To Clean Up The Ocean

Currently everyone dumps raw sewage into the ocean. Even cruise ships of people from all over the world drop sewage into the ocean wherever they cruise. Do you know why this is so concerning? This means all the mutated viruses from all the genetically modified foods from all over the world are in the ocean. And this means everytime you eat seafood or seaweed you are eating all the mutated viruses from all over the world. Plus, of course there are toxins, bad bacteria, and parasites. But like we said before viruses are forever. So they are a bit more scary and concerning.

Remember how viruses live in fat cells? This means shrimp are one of the worst things you can eat. Anything fattening from the ocean is going to have more viruses. Pretty overwhelming to think about, right? Seafood is supposed to be one of the best things for us, but it’s become one of the worst things for us. Seaweed is an amazing superfood, but it could kill us in the current state.

So what do we do besides pass laws to get people from dumping raw sewage into the ocean. It will take decades to get people from all over the world to completely stop. And realistically people will never stop fully. There will always be those people looking to save a buck here and there at the expense of the world. People like my family will always exist. So what do we do?

Well, probiotic bacteria eat viruses. So we put probiotic bacteria in the ocean to control the viruses. There are also viruses that can be created to eat certain strains of bacteria. These are called phages. These are what my family used to make some strains of your gut bacteria go extinct. We can create and use these to clean up bad strains of bacteria we find in the ocean.

Probiotic bacteria also eat heavy metals and clean up a lot of toxins. The ocean may never really be clean again. But hopefully we can clean it up enough that seafood won’t be so deadly to eat. Seafood is supposed to be one of the healthiest things in the world. It would be good if we could eat it again someday.

Shame, Guilt, and How To Forgive Yourself

We have been taught to crucify ourselves over making mistakes because it keeps us stuck. Part of being human is making mistakes. The key is to learn from them and move forward. Live and learn as the saying goes.

Shame is used to keep us stuck. Shame implies there is something wrong with you and that is why you made a mistake. Shame prohibits you from moving forward. Because if there is something wrong with you that caused you to make the mistake then you believe you are helpless to change it. You can change your behavior. There is nothing wrong with you. Guilt is the feeling you get from making a mistake that is intended to get you to do better. Guilt is designed to help you live and learn. There is nothing wrong with you. Humans make mistakes and you are human. That means you need to learn how to forgive yourself and move forward. If you dont learn this you will be stuck making the same mistakes over and over.

Yes, mistakes suck. Yes, guilt sucks. Yes, forgiving yourself is hard. But you get better at it. And the sooner you learn to course correct the easier it gets to forgive yourself. Forgiving yourself for one mistake is easier than 10 years of the same mistake. So the sooner you learn to identify your mistakes, the easier it gets to course correct and move forward

There is nothing wrong with you. Shame is a tool to keep you stuck. You are human. Humans make mistakes. Guilt is to remind you not to make the same mistake again. Being human is hard, but forgiving yourself makes being human a lit easier. Plus, it allows for growth.

Love Is Self Interest and Transactional

Love is based on self interest and is transactional. But we are often told love is self sacrificing and given freely. Love is a social construct, just like race. Our culture often tells us the beliefs to have on love, just as with everything else.

First, what is love? How do you define love? Love is the act of caring for someone over and over. When someone shows a pattern of caring for us and doing what is in our best interest, we say this person loves us. Love is a verb. Love is the act of caring for someone over and over. Love is the establishment of a pattern in behavior.

Why do we love our parents as children? If love is about self interest, why do we seem to be born loving our parents and family? Because we are trying to survive. If we love our parents they are more likely to like us and care for us. We love our parents even if they destroy us, because we are trying to survive. And if we can get them to love us our chances of survival improve as children.

Love is about self interest. As a human you are designed to survive. We love our parents to improve our chances of survival as children. But if you have a parent that destroys you and you continue to view destruction as love your chances of survival decrease dramatically.

Love is not manipulative. When someone cares for you in order to get a certain result that is in their best interest, but not in yours, this is manipulation. Love and the act of caring for someone over and over means doing things that are in their best interest.

Say you have a partner, and this person likes to get you coffee and food all the time. This seems like it’s in your best interest. And it’s a caring act. However, if that person only likes to get you coffee and food so they can poison you. Then it’s not caring. It’s destructive and manipulative. Love is not manipulative or destructive.

The next thing that comes to mind is why would we love someone if we don’t get to manipulate them? What’s in it for us? When you create a pattern of caring for someone over and over to create a loving relationship and bond, they will also create a pattern of caring for you over and over. Love is based on self interest. It’s pretty impossible to love someone who destroys you or manipulates you. This is because they are not creating the pattern of caring for you over and over. It’s pretty impossible to love someone who doesn’t care for you.

Love is a two way street. Love is the combination of two people creating a pattern of caring for each other over and over with their actions. If someone doesn’t do caring acts for you, you will not love them. But you may mistake manipulative acts as caring. However, once you identify manipulation the love that you thought you had for someone disappears very quickly. Because the pattern is interrupted.

If love is about self interest, then what is self love. Self love is the act of caring for yourself over and over. It is creating a relationship with yourself where you trust that you will do what’s in your own best self interest. Self love is also about self interest. You have to do what is best for yourself. And you have to be able to trust that you will be able to identify and do what is in your own best interest. You develop this confidence in yourself and this self love by creating a pattern of caring for yourself over and over. Self love is just a pattern of actions. To develop or increase your self love, you just create more of a pattern, more caring acts. Self love becomes the norm when over time you always make decisions in your best interest. It’s when you can trust yourself to protect you.

Now this doesn’t mean love is selfish. Selfish people manipulate others. Loving people compromise when it doesn’t effect their self interest. Say you like Mexican food, but your friend likes Italian. It’s not going to hurt you to eat Italian with them. It’s a compromise and it’s a caring act. This is how you create a pattern of love.

Now say you are vegetarian and your friend wants to go to a steakhouse with no vegetarian options. It would be self sacrificing to go to the steakhouse. You would be giving up your self interest. However, maybe that person will do a caring act for you to make up for it. If your friend offers to buy you the best salad they have at the steakhouse because they really want to go there and then you get to pick the movie you both go see. That is compromise and it is a little self sacrifice. But your friend compensates you for your sacrifice. It’s transactional. And the sacrifice was compensated for.

Self interest doesn’t make you selfish. It increases your chances of survival. You are supposed to make decisions that encourage your evolution and survival. This is Darwinism. It is survival of the fittest. If you cannot identify and act on your own best self interest predators will kill you.

How To Heal Your Cancer, Especially Children’s Cancer

If you or your child have cancer there are three things you need to fix.

#1 Stop poisoning yourself and your children.

#2 Fix your or your child’s subconscious beliefs.
The easiest way to do this is with you and I statements on a recording before bed and first thing in the morning.

#3 Fix gut bacteria with natural antibiotics and antifungals on a rotation. Plus, pharmaceutical worm pills are amazing at killing cancer. You can get these in quantities by crossing the border into Mexico. No prescription is needed and get different brands to rotate. This will help deal with tolerance.

Fixing gut bacteria is about killing bad bugs and growing good bugs. Yes, this can be done with food. But if cancer or any kind of chronic illness is present then you need to use food and natural antibiotics and antifungals. Prescription worm medication is not 100% necessary. But it is really effective and fast acting and often cheaper than herbs when bought in Mexico.

You will need to change your diet and eat fermented foods you make yourself. This is as easy as leaving milk out on the counter for a day or two. But you will also need to create different mixes of natural antibiotics and antifungals to overcome tolerance. When you take a natural antibiotic or antifungal, your body develops a tolerance. This is homeostasis in action. To overcome this you need to switch medicines/herbs every 5 to 10 days. It works best if you have 3-4 different mixtures you take. And remember when mixing natural antibiotics and antifungals mixing different kinds multiples the effects. They dont just add to the effects of each other, they multiply.

Also, try to keep as many of the natural antibiotics and antifungals as ones that do not kill your good bugs. This is not always possible, because some of the really strong killers kill all bugs. This is why it is important to eat fermented foods daily. Also, a mix of fermented foods are best. And no fermented foods with red spices. Those grow antibiotic resistant bacteria.

A treatment example:

Everyday:  high dose vitamin C, high dose lysine powder( 2/day 30 minutes before meals), high dose iodine, high dose calicum, high dose vitamin D

First Rotation:
Rx worm pills 2-3/day for 5 to 7 days

Second Rotation:
Turmeric oil(powder has oxalates and hurts your kidneys), fresh garlic chopped finely and let sit for couple minutes and swallow, caprylic acid, oregano oil … 2-3/day for 5 to 7 days

Third Rotation:
Woodworm, black walnut, aloe vera … 2-3/day for 5 to 7 days

Beware of grapeseed extract it works but it turns on MTHFR gene mutation that most of us have. All grapefruit things do this. So no grapefruit regularly.

This is just an example, but this is how I healed my cancer. If you can’t get rx worm pills, then just do three different mixes of natural antibiotics and antifungals. Try as many different kinds as possible because some will work better for you then others. Notice the ones that make you feel better and keep those ones in rotation. Rotating the 3 different mixes is what allows them to actually kill the bad bugs. And eating fermented foods is what helps you build more good bugs as you kill the bad bugs.

Lysine actually physically prohibits viruses from replicating. And most cancers and autoimmune diseases are caused by viruses. However, getting your gut bacteria in check is what will allow for remission and continued health after you kill off the cancer. It is probably best to continue some kind of mild treatment for a couple years afterwards. Maybe just taking a few natural antibiotics and antifungals in a rotation all the time. Buying herbs in bulk and making your own supplements is way more cost effective then buying them premade.

However, if you do not fix your subconscious beliefs you will not get better. On average science says it takes about 66 repetitions to rewire your brain completely. And again it is best to continue rewiring your brain for a couple years to really get it all in there solidly.

This will not only heal cancer it will heal most autoimmune diseases.

Also, it is great to add in some binders. Binders are substances that get heavy metals and toxins out of your body. Chorella, aloe vera, activated charcoal(do not take at same time with herbs or vitamins), high dose vitamin C, diatomaceous earth food grade are a few of my favorites. Beware of spirulina because it is high in arginine and grows the viruses in your body. Which is very counterproductive.

This is the blueprint for treating pretty much any kind of modern illness. Disease is epigenetic. There are only 6 diseases in the world that are caused by genes alone. So by changing your environment you can overcome epigenetics diseases like cancer and autoimmune diseases. Your body is your environment.

How To End Violence Worldwide

Violence is a result of immaturity. And it symbolizes a lack of self awareness. Therefore in order to end violence we all have to grow up and become aware of ourselves as a world and a collective. We can’t overcome worldwide violence without worldwide growth.

First, we need to become aware of violence in ourselves. It’s not good or bad. It just is. Awareness isn’t about judgement. It is about being aware. When you start judging, it is no longer awareness. It is judgement.

Why do we experience violence? Violence normally stems from some form of anger. We are angry our lives are in danger, so we lash out. We are angry our rights are stepped on. We are angry our freedoms are disregarded or belittled. We are angry our worldviews or opinions are not acknowledged. From anger stems violence.

So what is the root cause of anger? Anger is a secondary emotion. It is the result of being hurt. So when we act with anger in violence, it is because we are hurt. We fear for our lives and that hurts us. So we act out in anger and violence. Hurt is the primary emotion behind violence. Violence can be boiled down to hurt. Hurt people, hurt people. Because they are acting out that hurt as anger and violence.

Being grown up means seeing your actions as they really are. When you act out in anger and violence, you are doing so because you are hurt. And anger and violence is rarely if ever going to make that hurt go away. Most of the time it just perpetuates that hurt and continues it indefinitely.

An example would be myself. I so very badly want to lash out at the world and hurt you all. Because you have destroyed and hurt me in any way possible not just on this revolution, but throughout my 43 years of life. I am hurt by you all. And it logically makes sense that I want to lash out and hurt you all. It is completely logical and easy to understand. When someone hurts us we want to hurt them back. It is apart of Darwinism and survival of the fittest. An animal in the wild doesn’t just let another wild animal attack and kill it. The animal fights back and defends itself. It’s natural to fight back. It’s programmed in us to fight back. It’s darwinism. We are supposed to fight back.

But we also are designed to pay attention to our hierarchy of needs. We need to prioritize the things we need most. And we need to do what it takes to get those things.

If I lash out and hurt the world as the world has hurt me and I fight back as I am designed to do, I am never going to get my hierarchy of needs fulfilled. I would be forfeiting my dreams, goals, and potential. So yes, it is within my rights as a human being to fight back and hurt you all as you all have hurt me. But if I choose to do so I am forfeiting the things that matter most to me.

My dreams, goals, and potential are way higher on my hierarchy of needs than fighting back. It doesn’t make me weak to not fight back. It makes me stronger than any person in my family has ever been. I understand if I fight back I am acting on my hurt. And in doing that I would jeopardize and forfeit the things I really want in life.

Anger and violence come down to a decision. Do you want to act out on your hurt? Or do you want to be a grown up and do what is in your best interest so you can fulfill your hierarchy of needs?

Do you want to be stuck in the pattern of allowing your hurt to control and dictate your actions? Or do you want to act on self interest and what is best for you?

Granted this doesn’t mean allowing other people to attack and kill you. But it means fighting back in a way that allows you to meet your own needs without perpetuating violence.

Do you want what you really need? Or do you want to be petty and act out in violence because you are hurt and dont know how to be grown up and do what is in your best interest?

Violence is rarely ever in anyone’s best interest. And often people dont even understand that they are getting in the way of their dreams, goals, and potential by acting in violence.

How Can Love Never Be Selfless?

Love is a social construct. But self is also a social construct. We have talked about how your ego is just a reaction to the environment and the roles pushed upon you. So, when you think of self, you are often thinking of your ego. But you are not your ego. Your ego is a reaction. And you are a being, a human being.

What is a human being? A human being is a collective of organisms. As a human being you are more parasite, virus, and bacteria cells than you are human cells. So, as a human being you are a collective of organisms. And most of your cells are not even human.

Microcosm-macrocosm is when you learn about the world to learn about yourself. Or when you learn about yourself, you learn about the world. So, what is Earth? Earth is just a collective of organisms. Just like human beings are a collective of organisms. We are all connected.

So, when we talk about the person you were born to be, we are talking about a being that is a collective of organisms. But this collective of organisms also belongs to a larger collective of organisms called Earth. We are all connected. This is oneness. We are taught to find this feeling in many spiritual practices. But rarely is it ever explained logically. We are a collective of organisms that belongs to an even larger collective of organisms. And this is where the idea of oneness comes from. It’s not a spiritual made up thing. It’s a fact and science.

So, if we are all connected because we all belong to the collective of organisms that is called Earth, than no act of love or kindness can technically be selfless. Because we are all connected. If we help another organism, we will benefit. Because we are all connected. So, there really is no self. And there is certainly no selfless love. All love is based on self interest. Because we are all one.

Race Is A Social Construct

Time is a man made invention. Days exist. Years exist. The seasons exist. Morning, afternoon, and evening exist. But 3:05pm does not exist. Time is a man made construct.

Sometimes time flies. And other times it crawls. The sun rises and sets at different times all year long. Time isn’t consistent. But we treat it as it is because it makes running the world and civilization easier. It makes us civilized, right?

Race is a social construct. It’s not real. There is no test to find out what your race is. Sure, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not completely reliable, because people travel and move.

You people are a lot of different things. But you only seem to identify and categorize yourself by just one of those things. And that label you give yourself is what creates the patterns in behavior and epigenetics that make up race.

Basically you join a culture of other people who are a lot of different things, but who choose to identify as the same race as you. A culture is just a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. These beliefs create patterns in behavior and epigenetics. Because beliefs are your environment. And epigenetics are dictated by environment.

So when this stupid imaginary game gets you to identify with one race, really all that is happening is you are joining a culture. Race doesn’t exist. Sure we can trace back where our ancestors came from. But your ancestors aren’t you. And a lot of your ancestors didn’t live in the region that you identify with. And when you only display one part of yourself with loyalty and pride, it means all the other parts will make you feel inferior. Because if your race is the best, how can the other parts of you that are different races be good and valuable?

Race is a way to induce shame. Because shame means there is something wrong with you. Guilt means you made a mistake. But shame means there is something wrong with you. And you had no part in choosing the races you were born into. And God only makes one kind of human.

Race is just a way for this stupid imaginary game to control you and play mind games with you. Making you feel inferior. Race doesn’t exist. Your ancestors they existed. And yes they belonged to a culture and that culture influenced the circumstances you were born into. But you probably belong to a different culture. And that will make you different.

Race is a social construction. There is no scientific backing or tests to figure out race. Your culture does define you because your culture influences and determines your beliefs. And beliefs dictate epigenetics.

A study of European people of all kinds compared their facial features. This study discovered the differences in their facial features were only 14% genetic. You are like the race you identify with because you believe yourself to be that race. And join that culture. Culture dictates epigenetics. Because a culture is just a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. And beliefs dictate epigenetics.

Race doesn’t exist. It’s just another way to control you and your mind.

Divide to conquer, right?

On day 1 of part 2, we took a tour of your brain. Let’s say someone put a chip in your head to try to brainwash you from the inside. It could save your life if you understood the regions of your brain and what your different kinds of thoughts feel like.

First, pay attention to what part of your brain lights up when you hear the following set of words. This may feel like a fuzzy feeling or heat. Try to pinpoint where the energy is in your brain.

Cake, sex, smoking, wine, chocolate, pizza, ice cream, happy, sad

Where did you feel the energy in your brain go when you heard those words? Did you feel the energy in the middle of your head behind your eyebrows? This is your reptilian brain. This is your survival brain. This is the part of your brain that makes you easy to control when you get stuck here. This is the reptilian experience. It is about survival.

Next, 2+2, 5×5, 10-8, 20+60, 10×4

What part of your brain did you feel light up for this sequence? Did you feel the top of your head above your reptilian brain come alive? This is your critical logical mind. This is where your spirit lives. When you are cut off from your critical logical mind you are cut off from your spirit and the human experience. Being human is about critical logical thought. Otherwise, you are just having a reptilian experience.

Next, hear that voice that says, “You deserve better than this.”

This voice has appeared throughout your life. Did you feel the very top of your head light up? Its above your critical logical mind. This is your crown chakra and the voice of God. God talks to you, you just have to listen. Your spirit and soul align with the voice of God in your head. So when you need to fact check yourself, cross reference the voice of God in your crown chakra. Your spirit and God will never clash. They always align.

Next, I am a good person. I am healthy. I do things everyday to bring me joy. I am achieving my purposes. I am living my destiny. I was born to change the world.

Where did you feel these statements in your head? Did you feel the top of your head below your crown chakra, but above your reptilian brain? This is again your critical logical mind and your conscious brain. This is where you live. This is your consciousness and your spirit.

Next, you are a good person. You are healthy. You do things everyday to bring yourself joy. You are achieving your purposes. You are living your destiny. You were born to change the world.

Where did you feel these statements in your head? Did you feel it in the back of your head by your reptilian brain and your critical logical mind? This is your subconscious. This is the part of your brain that runs the show about 95% of the time. It is your habit mind. Most of the beliefs in here were inserted from other people.

Your subconscious is a recording device. Did your Mom ever yell at you because she didn’t want to be a broken record? Your subconscious learns from broken records. The more you hear something, the more it will be etched into your subconscious beliefs. Even if it is not true.

You know those people who listen to country music about loosing their job, their boyfriend or girlfriend cheating on them, getting drunk, their dog getting run over by a car, etc. Those beliefs are in their subconscious, because they listen to those songs over and over. And often while driving and creating gamma brain waves. So, they are super etched in their subconscious.

Music is a great way to brainwash people because they will listen to it on their own over and over. Especially because people rarely just sit around listening to music. They are almost always doing other things at the same time, like driving or exercising. Which causes gamma brain waves. And we talked about how this causes extra plasticity in your brain, wiring and firing things in quicker. Plus, this releases dopamine reinforcing the behavior and making them want to listen to the music again. Music is a great way to program people to self destruct without them even realizing it. If you can control the messages in the music people listen to, you can control them and dictate their lives.

Your subconscious is always recording your experience. Whatever programs are downloaded in your subconscious are the programs it will run when it’s in charge 95% of the time. The beliefs you put in your subconscious, become the programs you run. The beliefs in your subconscious become your reality and life experiences. This is the most powerful part of your brain, because it is in charge 95% of the time.

Next, I am a good person. You are a good person. I am healthy. You are healthy. I do things everyday that bring me joy. You do things everyday that bring you joy. I am achieving my purposes. You are achieving your purposes. I am living my destiny. You are living your destiny. I was born to change the world. You were born to change the world.

Where did you feel those statements in your brain? Did you feel the “I” statements in your critical logical mind where your spirit lives? Did you feel the “you” statements in your subconscious that acts as a recording device? Did you feel how there was a tension in your brain between the two parts? It almost feels like two magnets when they repel each other.

This series of statements was wiring and firing the same beliefs into two different parts of your brain. The “I” statements where wiring it into your conscious. And the “you” statements were wiring it into your subconscious. And doing these together creates connections between your conscious and subconscious that are almost unheard of in regular human life.

These connections between your conscious and subconscious will enable you to achieve the life of your dreams effortlessly. Because your subconscious will automatically take you where your beliefs lead. Your subconscious is the boss. So if you want something in life you have to use your conscious mind aka your spirit to program your subconscious with the beliefs that will get you there. Your conscious and your spirit are only in charge 5% of the time. The chances of your critical logical mind overcoming your subconscious are almost nonexistent.

What are you listening to that your subconscious is recording and turning into your beliefs? Your beliefs are your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment.

Who in your life tells you who “you” are the most using “You” statements? This is the person who is programming you. But are they programming you to suceed or self destruct? More often than not this person is programming you to self destruct and live a life of pain and disappointment. Your life is a printout of the programs the people around you have inserted into your subconscious using “You” statements.

Let’s create some intelligence in your brain and set you up for success!

I am safe.
You are safe.
I am free.
You are free.
I am happy.
You are happy.
I am healthy.
You are healthy.
I am grateful.
You are grateful.
I am at peace.
You are at peace.
I am love.
You are love.
I am loved.
You are loved.
I am accomplishing my purposes in life.
You are accomplishing your purposes in life.
My body is healing.
Your body is healing.
My body is my home.
Your body is your home.
I am my ideal body weight.
You are your ideal body weight.
My heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality.
Your heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality.
My thyroid is balanced filling my body with energy.
Your thyroid is balanced filling your body with energy.
My healthy lungs fill my body with the oxygen I need to remain calm at all times.
Your healthy lungs fill your body with the oxygen you need to remain calm at all times.
My kidneys are healthy and strong allowing me to live without anxiety.
Your kidneys are healthy and strong allowing you to live without anxiety.
My liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing me to live without anger.
Your liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing you to live without anger.
My reproductive organs are healthy allowing me to create life.
Your reproductive organs are healthy allowing you to create life.
My pancreas is balanced allowing me to remain level headed at all times.
Your pancreas is balanced allowing you to remain level headed at all times.
My digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing me the nutrients I need to thrive.
Your digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing you the nutrients you need to thrive.
My gut bacteria takes care of me.
Your gut bacteria takes care of you.
My microbiome supports my health in every way possible.
Your microbiome supports your health in every way possible.
My skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from my body efficiently.
Your skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from your body efficiently.
My mind is clear and concise.
Your mind is clear and concise.
My soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive.
Your soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive.
I am reaching my potential.
You are reaching your potential.
I am deserving of the life of my dreams.
You deserve the life of your dreams.
I am deserving of anything I am willing to work towards.
You deserve anything you are willing to work towards.
I do things that bring me joy daily.
You do things that bring you joy daily.
I am connected to devine order.
You are connected to divine order.
I do things everyday to make myself a better human.
You do things everyday to make yourself a better human.
I am living my destiny.
You are living your destiny.
I was born to change the world.
You were born to change the world.

On day 2 of part 2, we installed another program in your brain designed to create success.

I know who I am and honor my spirit.
You know who you are and honor your spirit.
I am beautiful inside and out.
You are beautiful inside and out.
My life is filled with joy and peace
Your life is filled with joy and peace.
I pursue my purposes everyday.
You pursue your purposes everyday.
Love surrounds me in every aspect of my life.
Love surrounds you in every aspect of your life.
I am grateful before things happen.
You are grateful before things happen.
I deserve excellence in every part of my life.
You deserve excellence in every part of your life.
My soul purpose is to be me and enjoy life.
Your soul purpose is to be you and enjoy life.
The people in my life value me and add value to my life.
The people in your life value you and add value to your life.
My posture supports optimal health.
Your posture supports optimal health.
My health excels in ways I never imagined possible.
Your health excels in ways you never imagined possible.
The inflammation in my body decreases everyday.
The inflammation in your body decreases everyday.
My body has devine intelligence, knowing what I need and healing.
Your body has devine intelligence, knowing what you need and healing.
Peace is my set point where I begin and end each day.
Peace is your set point where you begin and end each day.
My brain is creating more connections between my conscious and subconscious everyday creating intelligence.
Your brain is creating more connections between your conscious and subconscious everyday creating intelligence.
I am a limitless genius.
You are a limitless genius.
My epigenetics are becoming more optimal everyday.
Your epigenetics are becoming more optimal everyday.
My dreams, goals, and purposes come to me with ease.
Your dreams, goals, and purposes come to you with ease.
I am living my destiny.
You are living your destiny.
My life supports me in all ways.
Your life supports you in all ways.
I dream larger than life because my reality has exceeded my imagination.
You dream larger than life because your reality has exceeded your imagination.
My body feels better than ever before.
Your body feels better than ever before.
Good health engulfs me.
Good health engulfs you.
Everyday I change the world by sharing my skills and gifts.
Everyday you change the world by sharing your skills and gifts.
My body regulates my microbiome, killing parasites of all kinds with ease.
Your body regulates your microbiome, killing parasites of all kinds with ease.
I am weathly beyond belief.
You are wealthy beyond belief.
I am rich in every aspect of my life.
You are rich in every aspect of your life.
The relationships in my life make me a better person.
The relationships in your life make you a better person.
All my needs are met and I have security.
All your needs are met and you have security.
My home is my safe place. And my body is my home.
Your home is your safe place. And your body is your home.
My body takes care of me and my immune system is strong.
Your body takes care of you and your immune system is strong.
Life just makes sense to me.
Life just makes sense to you.
Being human is a gift I never fully experienced until 2024.
Being human is a gift you never fully experienced until 2024.

On day 3 of part 2, we talked about personalized programming.

You know how when you get a new computer it has the basics on it, but nothing else. It has notepad, solitaire, and a calculator. But if you want to add specialized programs you have to do it yourself. Like if you want Excel, Turbo Tax, and Quickbooks you have to install those yourself. Well, we can work on programming ourselves together and this will give you an operational base for success. But you have to do personalized programs in order to achieve your specific dreams, goals, and purposes.

It’s just like making a grocery list when you want to make dinner. You write a list of the ingredients and go get them at the grocery store. Except, you make a list of the beliefs necessary to achieve your desired outcome. And you make a recording using a voice recorder on your phone. Then you put your phone on airplane mode while you sleep and have it play the recording on repeat all night. This will allow you to install the program into your subconscious when you are in a state of hypnosis, characterized by theta brainwaves. This state happens twice a day, right before you fall asleep and right as you wake up. This will enable you to succeed at whatever you desire. Mind over matter, right?

Let’s say you were sick and could barely move or think and were stuck in bed most of the day. Sure, you need to take vitamins, meditate, be positive, and focus on healing modalities. But really your first priority needs to be installing the programs to allow health into your life and body. If you have beliefs that say you are sick and dying, you won’t get well. No matter how much effort you put into doing yoga, positive thinking, heavy metal cleansing, etc.

If your programming is black and white, your life will be black and white. If your programming says you are sick, you will be sick. However, if your programming is technicolor, your life will be technicolor. And if your programming says you are healthy, you will be healthy. Your subconscious is in control 95% of the time and gets you to do things to reinforce your beliefs without you consciously knowing or understanding what you are doing. So if you believe yourself to be healthy, your subconscious will make you do all the healthy things to get you healthy. And maybe it wont take all the things if you have beliefs that support health in your life and body.

We have been taught to focus on matter and everything outside of us in efforts to achieve our dreams and goals. But you are the answer and the solution to everything. You change yourself and you get what you desire. Remember how much resistance you felt in your brain when we first started the “I” and “You” statement programming? It was intense. But how much resistance do you feel in your brain now when you listen to “I” and “You” statements. It’s noticeably less, right? And it has only been a couple days. This is your brain changing. This is you changing.

If we had been taught how to achieve our dreams in a manner that was effective, we all would have achieved more of our dreams. But what we were taught was to look outside of ourselves for the answers. Because this allows us to be easily controlled and lead astray and manipulated. If someone believes the answers to their problems are outside of themselves, they will always be seeking to consume and buy things in efforts of buying the answers they seek. Materialism and consumerism are rooted in our belief and program that the answers are outside of ourselves. That we are incomplete and need to obtain completeness outside of ourselves. Capitalism has been turned into materialism. Because capitalists who seek their potential are hard to control. But materialists who seek to buy the answers they desire and their happiness are extremely easy to control.

So, yes this way of doing things feels weird. And it feels a bit cheesy and wrong. But what if this is all it takes to make the life of your dreams a reality? What if all you have to do is listen to a recording a few nights a week as you sleep to achieve your goals? What if you could be your ideal weight without exercising excessively or dieting? Wouldn’t you try a fad diet if it promised to offer the results you have been looking for? Maybe this is the fad diet that you have been searching for your whole life. It’s merely about programming the beliefs into your subconscious about the body of your dreams.

What do you really have to loose? Because it only takes about an hour to make a specialized voice recording. And you have everything to gain. If you need proof that it will work, listen to the voice recording we did together for a week while you sleep. And after a week access how you feel. Because your brain will have been wired and fired to be different. Which means you will be different. If someone who doesn’t know you can compile a list of beliefs that make you feel better, imagine how much a list made by you would change your life.

On day 4 of part 2, we talked about changing the world together with our beliefs. Remember how I told you all that you are the power that people have fought wars over since the beginning of time? Well, allow me to explain myself.

Did you know that group meditation has been proven to change the world? There have been studies of groups of meditators who focused on reducing crime rates. These people didn’t have to get together in the same room. They just all focused on the same thing. Which was reducing the crime rate. And they created about a 20% reduction in crime. Not too bad, right? Mind over matter!

We talked about how we are all just energy. Your spirit is energy and your spirit lives forever. And your beliefs effect your epigenetics. But your beliefs also effect your energy. Energy is contagious. Have you ever been around someone who was happy and excited? It’s pretty hard not to smile around them, right? Have you ever been around someone who constantly rains on everyone’s parade? You start to dread being around this person, right?

Energy is contagious. You are contagious. Whatever feelings and beliefs you have, you spread throughout the world. People are always absorbing information from you with their nervous system and mirror neurons. So you are contagious and have the opportunity to be a revolution all on your own. Everyday you decide if you will make people smile or if you will rain on their parades. Just with the beliefs you have and your presence. Because beliefs are energy. And energy is contagious.

Now the meditators who reduced crime just consciously meditated on peace. Meaning they were only using 5% of their brain. But what if they programmed both their conscious and subconscious with the belief of peace. Do you think that would improve the results?

When there is a large group of people thinking the same thought at the same time, the world changes. It sounds hippie. But really it’s science because you are contagious. Energy is contagious. Beliefs are energy. Beliefs are contagious. Because beliefs are waves of energy. They are vibrations of energy. And vibrations flow from everything in the universe affecting our collective consciousness.

So you know how we have a subconscious mind, right? Your subconscious ties into everyone else’s subconscious. We are all connected. We are basically like one big organism. Remember your mirror neurons are in place to get you to jump off a bridge if everyone around you was jumping. You have control over others. But you don’t get to force people to do things. You have to be different, so their mirror neurons urge them to be different like you. And if a big group of people are being different more people will have the urge to be different like them.

Remember the equation for starting a cult? The third person will join or die. This is how heard mentality works. Currently, we are in a unique position. Because we are the majority. And if we change our beliefs and change the collective consciousness people will change to be like us. It’s science and rules of energy. It’s pretty neat, huh?

So today, let’s create some “You” and “I” statements to change the world. Installing this program and these beliefs will change the world because it will change the collective consciousness. The more of us who sleep with this recording on a loop, the more change we see in the collective world.

My world has changed for the better.
Your world has changed for the better.
My life keeps getting better and better each day.
Your life keeps getting better and better each day.
My world is filled with clean air, food, and water.
Your world is filled with clean air, food, and water.
In my world all people are equal and everyone deserves a good life.
In your world all people are equal and everyone deserves a good life.
In my world no one was born to be a slave or a slave master.
In your world no one was born to be a slave or a slave master.
The Earth supports my health.
The Earth supports your health.
I support the Earth.
You support the Earth.
My leaders support my growth, goals, and destiny.
Your leaders support your growth, goals, and destiny.
The people in my world respect and care for nature.
The people in your world respect and care for nature.
The oceans are clean in my world.
The oceans are clean in your world.
The ozone layer is repairing itself in my world.
The ozone layer is repairing itself in your world.
My family loves and cares for me.
Your family loves and cares for you.
My family isn’t necessarily the family I was born into. My family is the people who love and care for me.
Your family isn’t necessarily the family you were born into. Your family is the people who love and care for you.
My family cannot hold me hostage. Because I choose whether or not to be a willing participant. I deserve to be loved by my family and the people who surround me.
Your family cannot hold you hostage. Because you choose whether or not to be a willing participant. You deserve to be loved by your family and the people who surround you.
My family supports my dreams, goals, and purposes.
Your family supports your dreams, goals, and purposes.
The world supports my dreams, goals, and purposes.
The world supports your dreams, goals, and purposes.
My world is healthy and safe.
Your world is healthy and safe.
I earn my way in this world by sharing my skills and gifts.
You earn your way in this world by sharing your skills and gifts.
Destruction is not love in my world.
Destruction is not love in your world.
Love is the verb to describe the actions of the people in my world who care for me. Love is a verb, not a prison sentence. I am not required to love people who hurt me.
Love is a verb to describe the actions of people in your world who care for you. Love is a verb, not a prison sentence. You are not required to love people who hurt you.
In my world when people love me they make me feel good.
In your world when people love you they make you feel good.
In my world crime rates are almost nonexistent.
In your world crime rates are almost nonexistent.
My community is a safe place.
Your community is a safe place.
Children in my world are free of adult tasks because they are busy being children.
Children in your world are free of adult tasks because they are busy being children.
In my world children are safe and supported in all ways.
In your world children are safe and supported in all ways.
In my world when children are sick we hold the parents accountable.
In your world when children are sick we hold the parents accountable.
In my world having obese children is considered child abuse.
In your world having obese children is considered child abuse..
In my world people are healthy and their ideal body weight.
In your world people are healthy and their ideal body weight.
In my world food is not used to kill people.
In your world food is not used to kill people.
In my world people do not poison each other, because that is wrong and attempted murder.
In your world people do not poison each other, because that is wrong and attempted murder.
My world is a beautiful welcoming place.
Your world is a beautiful welcoming place.
In my world, Nicole Graves is free to live a normal ordinary life with more than enough safety and security to have children.
In your world, Nicole Graves is free to live a normal ordinary life with more than enough safety and security to have children.

On day 5 of part 2, we talked about how to love yourself.

Changing the world doesn’t really matter, if your inner world is a hateful place. Environment dictates epigenetics. And so the world around us has a lot of control over who we are. But your inner world and your beliefs have more control. Mind over matter, right?

If you don’t love yourself, your inner world is going to be your own personal hell. You have to love yourself before you can enjoy the world fully. And you have to love yourself before anyone else can really love you.

With the world the way it is and with the people who raised us not really loving us, loving yourself is a foreign concept. Loving yourself isn’t about being perfect. It’s about creating a bond with yourself based on love and care rather than trauma and neglect.

Remember how we talked about how no one has a real human connection or bond when we live in a world of people who poison each other? Destruction isn’t love. When people destroy each other their bonds are trauma bonds. We live in a world with no real human connections. The world operates out of trauma.

So if you have never experienced a real human bond, how do you create one with yourself? Well, you stop destroying yourself. You can only have a real bond with yourself based in love when you don’t destroy and hurt yourself on purpose.

In order to love yourself, you have to start caring for yourself. This means no longer destroying yourself. Love means only having good intentions for yourself. Sure, you will probably make mistakes sometimes and that’s okay. We all unintentionally hurt ourselves occassionally and that is apart of the human experience. But people are not intended to destroy themselves on purpose. This is a learned behavior and conditioning from living in a world with people who poison each other. You cannot have a true human natural bond with anyone while destroying them. You only create trauma bonds like this. So the first step in loving yourself is to stop destroying yourself in all ways.

Next, you have to love your family that you were born into. You do not have to allow them to continue to abuse and hurt you. You do not have to allow them in your life at all. But you do have to love them. Because they are apart of who you are. They may not deserve your love, but you deserve to love yourself. And if you hate your family, you will always hate parts of yourself. You can 100% hate everything they have done to you. You can even hate your childhood. But you have to love your family, because you deserve to love yourself.

No person is born evil. We all have good parts and bad parts. And some people evolve to have mostly bad parts. However, there are good parts to find in everyone. Take the good parts from your family and make those parts apart of who you are. Fix the bad parts you inherited from them, but keep the good.

Even Hitler had good parts. He taught me my love for small dogs. If it wasn’t for him I would have never wanted to get a small dog and I never would have known love. And this revolution would never have taken place without me knowing love. Because love is worth fighting for.

The small parts that you take from your family evolve and create the human you were destined to become. You dont have the option of leaving everything behind because you do get your genes from your family. And you probably will always look like them. You can overcome your genes with epigenetics. But why try to change the good things you inherited from your family? You should cherish those good things because they are your payoff from living through a lot of pain, trauma, and inhumanity. Maybe the good parts you inherit from your family will be the parts that lead you towards your purposes? Maybe those good parts will lead you to finding the reasons you were sent here to Earth. Maybe those good parts are why you were born into your family? Devine order means there is a reason you were put where you were. Just like the stars you are exactly where you are supposed to be.

It’s not possible to give up all the things you have in common with your family. You can change a lot and be completely different than them. You never have to be like them fully if you choose not to be. But there are some good parts you should hold tight to. And you need to love your family for these good parts. Because you deserve to love yourself. If you hate your family, you will always hate parts of yourself. You deserve better than that.

On day 6 of part 2, we talked about mental rehearsal and mind movies.

How do you actually make your dreams a reality? How do you actually manifest the life of your dreams? Well, there are of course the daily steps you take in the material world to create the life you desire. And those are important. But you can draw your dreams, goals, and purposes closer to you in the quantum field simply by rehearsing them in your mind.

You can call this mental rehearsal, mind movies, visualization, or daydreaming. But the only real important thing is that you go over what you desire to occur over and over in your mind. This wires and fires the experience into your brain. And your brain will think it has already happened. Which causes your subconscious to make it happen.

Remember your subconscious is in charge 95% of the time. What it believes to be true, it creates in your material world. So by picturing your desired outcome over and over, you are wiring and firing that outcome into your subconscious. What you make a habit of seeing in your mind’s eye becomes apart of your subconscious. Your subconscious is your habit mind. Your beliefs and habits become your reality.

On day 7 of part 2, we created a mind movie.

Everything is easier to do on your own after you experience someone else doing it. So, let’s create a mind movie together. Remember there really is no right or wrong way to do this. As long as you are mentally picturing something you want to experience, it will be wired and fired into your subconscious.

And yes, it’s important to do these mental rehearsals with the big moments in your life that change everything, but don’t forget about the moments that make up the majority of your life. Mentally rehearsing how you relax in the evening after work may be just as important as those big moments in life. Because you spend a lot more of your time relaxing on a weekday evening than you do in that moment that only takes one day of your life, but changes everything. How you relax and spend your free time can change everything too. So don’t overlook the small things that add up to become the majority of your life.

Picture this, it is a late Sunday morning. You spent the morning relaxing and doing whatever it is you enjoy doing on a weekend morning. It is a sunny spring day, warm but not too warm with a slight breeze. You ate dinner early last night and fasted because today you are having a late lunch or brunch with friends and/or family(dealer’s choice). You need to go to the grocery store to pick up a few more things before people arrive. You showered and put on one of your favorite outfits. You can feel the material against your clean skin.

Picture yourself healthier than ever before. This revolution has been great for you because you have become more human on a gene and cellular level. You produce more telemares because you are being of service and working on your purposes in life. Your DNA has fewer flaws and your epigenetics are more favorable. See yourself standing in your house grabbing your car keys. And notice how healthy you are and how you glow and radiate good energy. You have never seen yourself so healthy or at ease. What does it feel like to be a better version of yourself? What do you notice first?

You grab your car keys and your dog or your child may ask to come along to the store with you. Dealer’s choice if you bring them. You get outside and make your way to your car smelling the air and the breeze gently hitting your face and body. The air feels different nowadays. It feels cleaner and healthier. Like it’s doing something good for your body. Because now it has more minerals in it from remineralizing the soil. Plus, this eliminates some of the bad bacteria in the air. We have changed the gas and diesel so it no longer has bad bacteria. And this has changed the air quality dramatically as well. You find yourself breathing deep more than ever before. Breathing never felt so good. You notice the small things in life more now because you are calm and at ease.

And that folks is how you create a mind movie. It doesn’t have to be anything impressive. It can just be the ordinary things in life like getting ready to go to the grocery store real quick. Because these things make up the majority of your life. If you can create peace and happiness in the everyday ordinary moments your life will be a better quality.

On day 8 of part 2, we talked about your gut.

You have heard that saying about your gut being your second brain, right? Well, that’s not true. Your gut is in charge of your brain. Your brain is limitless. The limits you experience come from your gut.

Remember how your nervous system is a hoader? Well, you have more nerve cells in your digestion than anywhere else in your body. So, this is where the hoader lives. You collect information with your nervous system all day, everyday. Remember how your nervous system sends information to your brain for it to organize and store? Your gut bosses your brain around all day, everyday.

The quickest way to disable you not only physically, but also mentally is to mess with your digestion and gut.

So, let’s say we lived in a world where everyone poisoned everyone. People poisoning each other’s food would cut them off from their critical logical mind enough that they would never think about the ramifications of poisoning each other. Even if they had a device they held in their hand everyday that would tell them what they were doing to themselves and each other. Pretty nuts, huh?

On day 9 of part 2, we talked about your gut bacteria.

You are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. You are a collective of bugs. If you kill your bugs, you kill your potential in all ways and then you die. Without your bugs you won’t be able to protect yourself, let alone live a good life.

If your gut controls your brain, you need to understand your gut bacteria. A doctor from Italy who now lives and practices in Spain described this the best. She said that your gut bacteria is a civilization inside of you. There are tourists and there are residents. Your residents establish themselves in the first 2 years of your life. And throughout your life some tourists decide to stay and take up residency. But mostly your residents stay the same after the first 2 years of your life.

Your residents eat protein and fat. And your tourists eat carbs. And tourists can sometimes stay for a few months.

Let’s say we lived in a world where women destroyed their children, your gut bacteria would be where your self destruct button is found. Because your mother gave you a civilization of gut bugs intended to kill you and make you sick. Plus, immunizations have bad bacteria, heavy metals, and antibiotics in them in varying amounts. There is no standardized immunization dose because they are taken out of a vial and the person administering them adds their own poison.

When protein and/or fat goes through your colon, aka your large intestine, it feeds the gut bacteria implanted in you when you were a child. This bacteria was put here to make you self destruct. If you were born after 1990 or 1991 that is when the immunization schedule was changed and increased. So you will have even more destructive bacteria in your colon.

All bad bacteria causes insulin resistance. So if you notice your insulin gets harder to control the more protein and fat you eat, this is one of the contributing factors. The less protein and fat you eat, the less you feed the self destruct button implanted in you. And the more you will be able to think clearly.

On day 10 of part 2, we talked about the Holy Trinity of health.

There are only about 6 diseases that are genetic. The rest are epigenetic. The more you improve your epigenetics, the more you eliminate disease from your life.

The Holy Trinity of health are gut bacteria, mitochondria, and epigenetics. They exist in a triangle that goes around and around creating a snowball effect in your life and body. This snowball can be positive or negative based on your choices and how you live your life.

Your gut bacteria dictates the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. Everyday your body is creating new cells with new mitochondria. And mitochondria write messages into your cells. These messages in all the cells of your body add up to be your epigenetics. So everyday you are either becoming more human or subhuman on a gene and cellular level.

To eliminate disease and improve your health you need to interrupt this loop by improving your gut bacteria. Which will improve your mitochondria and then epigenetics. Even if you have one of the very rare diseases caused by genes, improving your epigenetics will improve your overall health and ability to have a good life.

Today, on day 11 of part 2, let’s talk about how to find yourself and God.

We talked about where to find yourself and God already, remember? Your spirit is in your critical logical brain in the middle of your head. And God is at the top of your head in your crown chakra. Which is right above your critical logical brain.

Where and how are two completely different questions. Just because you know where something is doesn’t necessarily mean you know how to get there. Remember how your critical logical brain is cut off from your access when you have disbiosis, which is just a fancy word for an overgrowth of bad bugs? Well, you access your spirit and God through your critical logical brain. So if you have dysbiosis, you will not be able to access your spirit or God freely.

Next you may be wondering, what is the difference between good bugs and bad bugs? Good bugs create a symbiotic relationship with you, so you can both reach your potential and have good lives. Good bugs understand that it is in their best interest to not only keep you alive, but to keep you in the best health possible. Where as bad bugs will eat you alive. They do not care that if they kill you they will be killing their home and themselves. They have no regard for self interest. They just take, take, take, until they can’t take anymore and you are dead. Pretty stupid, huh? But I bet you can think of a lot of people who are like this, right?

You are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. If you have an overgrowth of parasitic bugs, you will act like a parasite. However, if you have mostly symbiotic and good bugs you will seek to create win win relationships in your life and world. God is only interested in win win relationships and so is your spirit. God will not plot with you on how to take, take, take, until you destroy everyone and everything around you. And neither will your spirit. Remember God and your spirit always align.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.

Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.

Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.

This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.

The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.

People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion,  dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.

Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.

These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.

18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.

22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.

23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.

Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.

24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.

All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.

If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.

25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.

26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.

They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?

27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.

Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.

28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.

29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.

30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.

31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.

32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.

Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.

You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food.  When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.

If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.

All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs.
If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.

33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?

Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.

Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.

33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.

This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.

This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.

34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.

Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.

My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
 
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.

36.  WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.

37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.

38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.

39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.

Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?

40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.

41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.

Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know  you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.

42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.

43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

This was a quick read. I read it in one night. The format is not traditional. It has lyrical poetry format. Which I surprisingly liked. I don’t think I could write in this form without a lot of practice because my words do not have rhythm when I hear them in my brain when I writing. I always wonder how people hear rhythm. Writing poetry or music has to be a different part of the brain. But I am not sure what part it is. I know it is the creative brain. But it is a part of my brain that I don’t know how to activate. Do you all hear rhythm in things? It would make thinking very different and musical. Tonality is a big part of vibration and mood. I think too fast to have music going on with my thoughts in my brain. If I had music in my brain, it would definitely be techno music. I have no clue how to write techno poetry. What an interesting thought! I am high, they poison me so much at the library when I am working on my writing. Or just in general lately. The guy next to me is having a shitting fit and running back and forth to the restroom from all the poisons.

Yrsa’s way with words allowed for me to relate to her story more. She is a black woman from Jamaica who grew up in Northern England. Poetry is her thing. Her escape and way of making sense of her feelings. It was a good book. It was a kind of sad story. Her mother died at a young age, after struggling to raise her and her brother. Yrsa and her brother had to live with their grandparents when growing up at times. So their mother could work nightshifts as a nurse to have enough money to raise them and get by.

“We were not inclined to cleaning, even after all of the meticulous attention to detail we had been taught. Especially after that. At Grandma’s, wiping our faces in the hand towel would earn us a slap. At Mum’s Little Roo and I could do what we wanted. So we did.”

I grew up in a strict household as child. It was different than the household my brother grew up in. Which was the same house with the same Mom, but boy was it different. The house I grew up in was militantly cleaned, ocd cleaned. But after my parents divorced, my Mom’s house turned into a mess. She attaches to things way easier than people. Which makes her a bit of a hoarder. Not bad like the shows on tv, but enough that it is messy.

I am not hoarder. But I am not ocd clean either. Cleaning products have so much poison in them. And my Mom used to get me to clean when I was little and poisoned me with cleaning products. So I have a bit of trauma related to cleaning. I suppose people who grew up in strictly clean houses all have a bit of trauma related to cleaning. It is weird how it makes you just not want to be much into cleaning. What is worse the poison from the cleaning products or the mess from not cleaning? I still have not found the middle ground for this one. Being homeless has helped eliminate this struggle a lot.

“Not one of us can play house well.”

My family never taught me how to live. They just taught me how to play house. So this hit home.

“I do imagine the gravity of what I’m doing. I do consider soul damage. If the very physicality doesn’t get you, it’s the paranoia. What would people think? What would people think of this? What would anybody think?”

Yrsa said this in response to her involvement in the adult industry. I suppose this is why most women do not take part in the only industry where women make more money than men.

“And if we are to survive, what’s it for what is it all for and why why why danger every single day why the everlasting blanket of short breath and stress, anxiety and panic, why the frequency of fear are we coming of age till we die might we burn up in hellfire because we are wrong things always wrong things doing wrong things…”

This is how I feel about life a lot of times. It is relatable because why do we go through all we go through? What is it all for? What’s the point? There is no one right answer to the question of what is the point to life. Somedays I wish there were. Some days I am glad there is not.

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 Buddhists believe in a fundamental “point” or purpose to life, which is to achieve enlightenment and escape the cycle of suffering and rebirth (samsara) through the attainment of Nirvana.

This is the best path I have found so far. But I really don’t know if we will ever know what the point of all of this is until we are close to death or dead. I suppose we just have one prolonged and continual existential crisis until we die. Maybe that is what life is? Life is the search for meaning. And we all find different meaning.

Who knows? Somedays I feel like my life has meaning, other days I want to start world wars, but I am always smart enough to know world wars are not the answer. Which seems to rain on my parade a lot. Being smart is annoying sometimes. The good news is I can use it to annoy other people.

I would recommend this book, not necessarily for the content, but for the format. I really liked the format. It is a memoir. But yet it is poetry. I normally do not like poetry. But you all know I like memoirs a lot. I would really like to read more memoirs in this lyrical format.

On day 1, we talked about how all you have to do is listen to these talks to reprogram your subconscious. Your subconscious is your habit mind. Repetition is how it learns. However, if you would like to speed up this process there are a few things you can do.

First, you can listen to this before bed or just after waking up. This works because of theta brain waves. Second, you can listen with headphones, because your brain can’t tell the difference between the voice in your ears and the voice in your head. And lastly, you can do movement while listening to improve the speed of programming your subconscious. This activates gamma brain waves and creates more plasticity in your brain. And this movement can be anything from deep breathing, to doing dishes, to walking your dog, etc. Motion creates emotion. Because emotion is just energy in motion.

Your nervous system is constantly collecting information. And it is so good at what it does that it can overwhelm your brain. When this happens you feel stressed or anxious.

Your brain has the job of organizing and storing all the information your nervous system collects. Your brain creates a library that will dictate if you are able to achieve your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. That is a lot of pressure for your brain. And your nervous system is a hoader and collects all the information it can get its hands on.

So, when your brain has these moments where it feels overwhelmed you just need to turn your nervous system off for a few seconds to allow your brain to catch up. You can do this with holding your head in place and rapidly moving your eyes from side to side. This rapid eye movement will turn off your stress response from your reptilian brain. It only takes 10 to 30 seconds of doing these rapid eye movements to feel relief.

On day 2, we talked about how you need to teach your brain to filter information in order to create value. And not create a junkyard of useless information. If your brain stores all the information your nervous system collects you will never be able to achieve your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. You only have so much time on Earth. You have to focus on what you want to accomplish and what will help you get there.

The key to teaching your brain to filter the information from your nervous system effectively is to know yourself. When you know who you are and what you want to accomplish in life, then you know the information that is important to you. If everyone collected the same information, we would all lack value.

If you partake in keeping up with the Jones and start to value everything everyone around you values, it diminishes your own value. And it erodes your chances of accomplishing your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. No one was sent to Earth to pretend to be like everyone else. You came here with purposes unique to you. And you have skills and gifts that will help you accomplish these purposes. If you spend your life preoccupied with pretending to be like everyone else, you will never find your skills and gifts. Then you won’t figure out your purposes in this life. And then you definitely will not be able to accomplish those purposes, let alone your dreams and goals.

Being you is the key to not only creating a valuable library in your brain. But it’s key to knowing who you are, finding your skills and gifts, and figuring out your purposes in this life. Part of your purposes is to share your skills and gifts with the world. Now what you are supposed to accomplish by sharing your skills and gifts with the world is up to you.

On day 3, we talked about how to get to know yourself. Everyone says they know themselves, but if they really did would the world be so lost? Knowing yourself isn’t a mystical or mysterious experience. Knowing yourself is just like knowing someone else.

In order to know yourself, you have to spend time with yourself. You literally spend time getting to know someone else. You need to do the very same thing with yourself. You spend time getting to know yourself while doing things that bring you joy. You are a human being. Knowing yourself is about knowing how you like to be. Making a list of the things you like and memorizing it will not help you get to know yourself. You have to spend time with yourself in the state of joy. When you are in a state of joy, you are the person you are meant to be. We were sent to Earth to be in joy. We were sent here to enjoy ourselves. Find your joy and you will find yourself.

On day 4, we talked about the two inheritance systems. Almost all the information you collect throughout your life, comes from these two systems of learning from other people. The symbolic inheritance system is written information like charts, maps, graphs, books, hieroglyphics, etc. And the behavioral inheritance system is when you learn from watching other people do things.

Both of these systems are fallible. But the behavioral inheritance system comes with great dangers. See when you see someone do something, your brain fires and wires as if you did the thing. This is your mirror neurons creating this chain reaction. Monkey see, monkey do describes your mirror neurons. If everyone around you was jumping off a bridge, your mirror neurons are designed to get you to jump too.

Any time you are around someone else your mirror neurons are wiring and firing information from your nervous system into your subconscious about that person. The dangerous part is your nervous system is a hoader and collects everything it can get it’s hands on. So not only are you wiring and firing in the good parts of that person and the things you want to learn from them, you are also wiring and firing in the disasters of their life into your subconscious. So, you may not even consciously realize they are there.

We all know that person who is amazing at something and we admire them. But we also see how the rest of their life is a complete and utter disaster. This person sadly is dangerous. Because even though they have mastered something amazingly, our mirror neurons are collecting information from their whole life when we are around them.

Your nervous system is a hoader. It can’t help but collect all the information it can get it’s hands on. Your nervous system was designed to keep you alive. The more information you have, the more likely you are to survive.

Only recently in the modern day world has life shifted to be about filtering information. For most of the history of human beings, life has been about gathering information. But nowadays, we all have access to more information than we know what to do with. Just recently human beings have shifted from creating value in life by gathering information to creating value by filtering information. Your nervous system was designed to keep you alive in a world where information was scarce.

On day 5, we talked about how to overcome your mirror neurons and the people around you with your critical logical mind. You do not have to partake in the blind leading the blind, if you choose to see the world for how it really is. And you see the world for how it really is by using your critical logical mind to find the truth.

The average American is poor, fat, unhealthy, unhappy, and divorced. These are the results if you choose to do the things that people around you are doing without using your critical logical mind. The world is more lost than ever before. We have more information than ever before, but we don’t seem to be using this information.

When you do not filter the disasters your nervous system fires and wires into your subconscious from the people around you, then your life becomes a disaster. You do not have to be a slave to your mirror neurons and the disasters they collect. However, in order to overcome these disasters in your subconscious you have to use your critical logical mind to become conscious of your actions.

The practice of mindfulness is all about not creating the disasters you have stored in your subconscious in your own life. All you have to do is see the world for how it really is. But that also includes seeing yourself for who you really are. Being mindful can be painful. But living a disaster of a life can be much worse.

You have to use your critical logical mind in order to not be a slave to the disasters your mirror neurons and nervous system collect because they are stored in your subconscious. You won’t know they are there until you become conscious of them. Mindfulness is about consciousness and awareness.

On day 6, we talked about how you have to use your critical logical mind to overcome your subconscious and the disasters from your mirror neurons. But how do you actually go about doing that? It sounds confusing. But it’s not. It’s just about knowing how to be proactive, rather than in a reactive state and a victim of the people around you. You can be a product of your environment. Or you can be the person you are meant to be.

Your nervous system and mirror neurons are always collecting information. And they store this information in your subconscious. In order to overcome this, you need to be mindful and aware of what you are doing. But you also need to collect the information you need to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. Your subconscious is your default setting. But you can be proactive and get in the driverseat of your life with your conscious mind and your critical logical mind.

You must become aware and conscious of the information you need in order to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in life. And then you need to consciously work on collecting this information with your critical logical mind. If you expect your subconscious to collect all the information you need to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life you will not get very far. And your life will most likely become a complete disaster. Just like the life of the average American. You should want more for yourself.

Gama brain waves are key to creating intelligence. When you are consciously collecting information with your critical logical mind you need to access gamma brain waves. Our brains were designed to create extra plasticity when we were running from predators. The key to this extra plasticity is gamma brain waves. The more gamma brain waves you have the more intelligent you will be. And you need all the intelligence you can get to overcome the people around you who make up your environment.

Creating gamma brain waves is the key to overcoming the disaster of the world around you, aka your environment. Gamma brain waves are key in guaranteeing you accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in this life. Gamma brain waves are intelligence.

On day 7, we talked about how humans have the need to enslave the people around them in an effort to conquer the world. Your brain and mirror neurons were not created with this in mind. But neither was your body. When your body is not operating properly, you cannot access your critical logical mind or gamma brain waves. When your body is not operating properly, it is almost impossible to create intelligence. Thus, leaving you a slave to your subconscious and the disasters from the people around you.

In the old days, these people who tried to enslave us were easy to identify. They would burn down our villages. But nowadays these people claim to be our friends and family. These people who wish to enslave us have us surrounded in every aspect of our lives.

In WWII these people preoccupied with destruction and slavery, sent people they wished to enslave to concentration camps. But today they just turn your body and mind into the concentration camp. It’s easier to enslave you, if you don’t realize what is happening. You don’t try to fight back.

Modern day slavery is done with a thousand pieces of broken glass. One small piece of broken glass will cut you and make you bleed, but it most likely won’t kill you. However, a thousand small pieces of broken glass may.

Toxins represent the broken pieces of glass in modern day slavery. When your body is not operating properly you cannot access gamma brain waves and your critical logical mind. This leaves you a slave to your subconscious and the disasters of your mirror neurons. While creating disease in your body and rendering you helpless, unable to save yourself. You look for a savior outside yourself, but only find people who wish to enslave you more and kill you. But these people often tell you they care about you and are trying to help you. And if they are close to you, they will probably even tell you that you are hard to love as they try to kill you.

Epigenetics is how we get to choose who we are. We all are born with genes like our family, but your environment and how you live your life dictates how these genes are switched on and off like light switches. Methylation is one of the processes that switches your genes on and off. It’s like a little man running around in the house of your body turning on and off the lights. The lighting of your life depends on methylation.

Toxins inhibit proper methylation. The more toxins in your life, environment, and body the more you do not methylate properly. When you don’t methylate properly, you are switching on and off genes that make you more subhuman on a gene and cellular level. And this is how your body and mind are turned into a concentration camp where there is rarely an escape.

On day 8, we talked about culture and leadership. Do you think the leaders of the people who wish to enslave us in efforts of conquering the world want their followers to think critically and logically?

A culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. These shared beliefs create patterns in behavior. Our beliefs are our environment. Our culture is our environment. Every leader is a cult leader. Because every group of people has shared beliefs that create a culture.

It only takes three people to create a cult: a leader, a follower, and the third person will join or die. The third person normally follows suit rather quickly due to mirror neurons, heard mentality, conditioning, a lifetime of disasters fired and wired into their subconscious, etc. The equation for creating a larger cult is the same. You just multiple the last two variables. The more followers you have, the more quickly people will fall in line with your culture.

Let’s say you wanted to get your cult followers to enslave the people around them in efforts to conquer the world. How would you go about getting that to happen? Well, the first variable is you have to identify your enemy or scapegoat. Then, you tell your cult followers that all their problems and hardships are due to this person or group of people. You lead your followers to believe that their ability to get their needs met will be inhibited even more by this scapegoat. Creating more pain and hardships in their lives. And you instill not only a sense of fear, but a sense of urgency too. Then you enlist your cult followers in a crusade against your scapegoat. Your cult followers will sign up willingly, because they believe they have no other option.

Now this equation could take a very long time and be extremely labor intensive. Not to mention it would require a lot of patience. It could take years to get all these variables in place, maybe even decades. How do you suppose you could speed up this process? Wouldn’t it be easier if your cult followers did not think critically or logically?

Throughout history some of the greatest evils that have embarked on creating a crusade, have created and released toxins into our environment. This damages our ability to methylate. Making our epigenetics more subhuman. And it cuts us off from our critical logical mind, while creating disease in our bodies. It speeds up the time it takes to create a crusade, genocide, or world war greatly. Work smarter not harder, right?

The people around you who try to enslave you and turn your body and mind into a concentration camp have just been enslaved themselves. Their body and mind have been turned into a concentration camp, but they don’t realize what is happening. Because they have been cut off from their critical logical mind. They are unable to access gamma brain waves and create intelligence.

Your ability to access gamma brain waves and your critical logical mind relies on everyone around you methylating properly. Yes, you need to methylate properly. But more importantly, the people in your environment need to methylate properly. Environment dictates epigenetics. A cell can only be as healthy as it’s environment allows. If the people around you do not methylate properly, they will try to enslave you in efforts of conquering the world. Because they do not have access to their critical logical mind.

There will always be cult leaders looking to enslave the people who follow them. There will always be descendants of the greatest evils throughout history. The only way to ensure you have access to your critical logical mind and gamma brain waves is to ensure the people around you methylate properly. The only way to ensure your body and mind are not turned into a concentration camp is to ensure the people around you methylate properly. Those people are your environment. Environment dictates epigenetics.

We can’t kill everyone in the world who will try to enslave the people who are in their cult following. But if we can guarantee everyone has access to their critical logical mind and the ability to create intelligence with gamma brain waves, we can create a safe environment. A cell can only be as healthy as it’s environment. Your environment dictates your epigenetics. Your beliefs are your environment.

On day 9, we talked about emotional intelligence. When you are cut off from your critical logical mind, you are a slave to your emotions. This is another way your body and mind are turned into a concentration camp.

Emotions can be a lie. Because emotions can be created by the disasters your mirror neurons collect in your subconscious.

Event + Belief = Emotion

When you have an emotion you need to think about what is causing this emotion. Just because something happens in your life, does not mean you are guaranteed to experience a certain emotion. Your environment is dependent on your perception. Your beliefs create your emotions. Your beliefs create your environment. But once again the disasters in your subconscious could be creating a disaster in your emotions and your life.

Emotion + Critical Logical Mind = Feeling

Emotions are not logical. And therefore, they are not trustworthy. But feelings are logical. And they are trustworthy.

When you experience an emotion you need to filter it through your critical logical mind to turn it into a feeling. You can trust your feelings. But you cannot trust your emotions. Emotions can be manipulated. Emotions can be a lie. Trust your feelings.

Happiness = Satisfaction ÷ Desires

When you are not at ease or depressed, you need to ask yourself why. So you can address the variable in your life that is causing this dis-ease. Happiness is satisfaction divided by desires. What do you desire that you are not satisfied with? What are you not getting? What part of your life is lacking? What variable do you need to pay more attention to? What information do you need your critical logical mind to collect that will allow you to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes in that area of your life?

Emotions and feelings are important variables in life. You just have to know the equations to plug them into. You are an equation. You can choose to say you hate math and continue to be miserable. Or you can do the work and figure out the variables of your life.

On day 10, we talked about the meaning to life. Since the beginning of time people have tried to figure out the meaning to life. Why are we here? What does this all mean? This human experience on Earth has a lot of illusions.

Let’s look at the science and reality of this human experience. You are energy. Energy never dies. It only changes form. You are an eternal being. You just change forms. So yes, you only have so much time here on Earth as a human being, but there is life after this human experience.

Energy is power. And you are energy. Your energy never dies. As a human being on Earth, finding your power is about finding you and your energy. Your energy is your power.

It is more simple when we call the energy that is you, your spirit. Your spirit lives forever. Your spirit never dies. It just changes form. You just change form. It’s not mystical. It’s science. Energy has to go somewhere. It doesn’t just disappear into thin air.

Based on this the equation for finding your power here on Earth as a human being is:

You = Your Power

You equal your power. Finding your personal power here on Earth is simply about finding you. You just have to find the energy that is your spirit and you will find your eternal power.

This means when you pretend to be like the people around you, you are giving up your power. If you feel helpless in life, it is because you are giving up your power. Retaining your personal power here on Earth is about being true to your spirit. And that means being you.

Next let’s tackle, what does this human Earth experience all mean? We all want to know why we are here. We suffer so much and finding meaning makes that suffering not hurt so bad. So if you are your power, why are you here? Well, you are here to accomplish your purposes in life.

Your Purposes = Your Meaning

The meaning to life and why you are here is different for each of us. But the equation is the same. You are here to accomplish your purposes in life. This is what gives your life meaning. And it is different for each of us based on our purposes.

When you are being of service and accomplishing your purposes in life, your body recognizes your efforts. Your beliefs create your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment. When you are being of service and accomplishing your purposes here on Earth you will be rewarded.

Telemares are created by an enzyme that is produced when you are being of service. Telemares are the secret to life and the fountain of youth. DNA need telemares to replicate without degrading. When you lack telemares you age and degrade. The fewer telemares you have the more subhuman you will be on a gene and cellular level. Your DNA will start to have flaws.

You are your power. Your purposes are the meaning to why you are here on Earth. The more you accomplish your purposes, the more you will be rewarded.

On day 11 we talked about Darwinism and survival of the fittest. Evolution is about survival of the fittest. The members of a species who develop their skills and gifts the most are the ones who are supposed to move forward. When you accomplish your purposes on Earth you are rewarded, right?

Over time every species is supposed to become more dynamic with more skills and gifts and develop more specialties. This is to ensure the survival of the species. This is to ensure evolution. We must evolve in order to move forward.

When an animal is attacked in the wild, that animal has to fight back to survive. It’s Darwinism. We are supposed to fight back when someone attacks us. You were not designed to just allow people to attack and kill you. You were designed to fight back. God doesn’t punish people for fighting back. It’s Darwinism.

Members of the same species are not supposed to attack each other. But when they do it is kill or be killed. God doesn’t punish people for fighting back. It’s Darwinism and survival of the fittest. You are supposed to fight back and defend yourself. Attacking someone is rarely acceptable. But fighting back is always expected.

On day 12, we talked about jealousy. Jealousy stems from the belief you are replaceable.

Event + Belief = Emotion

If you see someone with something you desire and you experience jealousy, that is a sign you believe yourself to be replaceable. When you know who you are and know no one can fill your shoes, you do not feel jealousy. Instead, you figure out what you need to do in order to get what you desire.

Happiness = Satisfaction ÷ Desires

Figure out how to fulfill your desires and you will be happy. Jealousy stems from believing you are replaceable. You are an eternal being who is incredibly irreplaceable and priceless. When you see your worth, jealousy will no longer be an issue. And when you see your worth, other people will too.

On day 13, we talked about choosing yourself. You cannot wait for someone else to choose you in order to see your own worth. You have to choose you and see your own worth first. If you wait for someone else to choose you in order to see and find your own worth, then your worth will be in that person’s hands. When they no longer choose you, you will cease to have worth again.

The only way to really be powerful and have value is to see your own value first. When you let someone else choose you first, you are putting your value in their hands. And that is another form of giving up your power.

Choosing yourself first is the first step in finding your spirit and claiming the power that is you as your own. You are a sovereign being. You are just like a sovereign country. Claim your land and your power, by claiming who you are. You have to see your power and own worth first.

On day 14, we talked about how to become more powerful. In order to increase your power, you have to increase your value. Which really just means you have to bring more value to the world.

More Value = More Power

But how do you actually go about doing that? You simply spend more time doing things you enjoy. When you are in a state of joy and creating gamma brain waves you are increasing your value.

Joy + Gamma Brain Waves = Flow State

The more skills and gifts you discover and develop, the more value you bring to the world. The more value you bring to the world, the more powerful you will be.

Flow state is merely doing things that bring you joy while creating gamma brain waves. This creates extra plasticity in your brain. Plasticity is intelligence. Intelligence is value and power. Intelligence is skills and gifts.

More Value = More Power

On day 15, we talked about luck.

Luck = Preparation + Opportunity

Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. You can create good luck in your life merely by preparing yourself to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes now. You do not have to see how the opportunity will come into your life. You merely have to prepare yourself to seize the moment when the opportunity does appear.

If you wait, it will be too late. Opportunity will not sit around waiting for you to prepare yourself. So you need to prepare before the opportunity comes into your life. There is always something you can do to prepare yourself and create more value.

Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. Prepare now to accomplish your dreams, goals, and purposes. And the opportunities will come.

On day 16, we talked about gamma brain waves.

Gamma brain waves are created by using both your conscious and your subconscious brain at the same time. You know that saying about walking and chewing gum? That’s about gamma brain waves.

When you use both your conscious and subconscious brain at the same time it creates connections in your brain. The more connections you have, the more intelligence you have. You know how you create a shortcut on your phone home screen to get to your favorite app? When you create gamma brain waves you are creating shortcuts in your brain.

Also, when you create gamma brain waves you are creating a rush of neurotransmitters. You know that saying about getting high on life? Gamma brain waves are how you get high on life.

The more time you spend creating gamma brain waves and creating shortcuts in your brain, the more high you can get in a shorter amount of time. And your brain reinforces this behavior by producing dopamine which gives you another rush through your reward system. This is to wire in the urge to do whatever you are doing again. This is part of how addiction is created. Our brains love intelligence so much they will reward you to create them by any means necessary. So if you partake in creating gamma brain waves in a maladaptive manner, your brain will crave that activity. No matter how good it is for you or the people around you.

Let’s say you partook in munchausen by proxy and covertly poisoned people. This would produce gamma brain waves. And it would give you a rush of neurotransmitters. Your brain would release dopamine as one of those neurotransmitters, to reinforce this behavior in your reward system. And it would produce serotonin which would make you happy and activate your immune system and homeostasis in your body. You would physically, mentally, and spiritually feel better after poisoning people. Plus, this enlarges the ganglia in your brain which causes you to live in anticipation. So not only would that moment feel good, but you would live in anticipation of doing it again.

Now let’s take it one step further. Let’s say the food system was rigged with more protein to stop you from producing serotonin when you ate. Eating carbs without protein is how your gut produces serotonin and regulates your immune system and homeostasis. So the only way you know how to produce serotonin in order to make you feel happy and regulate your immune system and homeostasis is by partaking in the maladaptive coping mechanism of munchausen by proxy.

Gamma brain waves can wire and fire anything into your brain. And it will make you feel good about whatever you are doing. The flood of neurotransmitters will make you feel better physically, mentally, and spiritually. But what you are doing can be harmful.

On day 17, we talked about how to move on after trauma or hardship. We all experience tough times. But how do we move forward and not let those hardships or traumas hold us hostage in the past?

You need to create wisdom in order to move forward. This takes a hardship and creates value out of it.

Wisdom = Memory – Emotion

When you experience trauma you need to take those emotions and filter them through your critical logical mind to create feelings.

Emotion + Critical Logical Mind = Feeling

You may have to consciously seek out information about the hardship or trauma with your critical logical mind in order to make sense of it all. Turning emotions into feelings requires logical understanding of the event and/or situation. However, once you turn the emotions associated with this event into feelings you can move forward.

Feelings do not require further review. You merely file them away in your conscious mind as wisdom. And then you are not stuck in the past trying to make sense of your emotions. Once wisdom is created you are free to move forward and on with your life.

Wisdom = Memory – Emotion

On day 18, we talked about epigenetics and beliefs.

You were born with 50% of your genes from your Mom and 50% from your Dad. But you are not destined to be like your family unless you choose to be. Sure you will probably always look like them, but epigenetics is the process where you decide which of your genes are switched on and off. Your environment and how you live your life dictates your epigenetics.

Your beliefs are your environment. People who believe God to be a loving God have better epigenetics, than people who believe God to be a punishing God. Your beliefs create a chemical chain reaction in your environment. And your beliefs create your environment. One of the quickest ways to change your epigenetics is to change your beliefs. Mind over matter, right?

Have you noticed how everyone takes more after their Mom’s side of the family? This isn’t because you are supposed to be more loyal to your Mom’s side of the family. This is because you get 50% of your genes from both your Mom and your Dad, but you get 100% of your mitochondria from your Mom. And mitochondria dictate epigenetics. So your Mom dictated which of your genes were switched on and off when you were born.

Everyday we are creating new cells in our body. And everyday the mitochondria in each of those new cells is writing messages that add up to be our epigenetics. Everyday you have the ability to change who you are. Everyday you change your beliefs you are changing who you are on a gene and cellular level. You were born to be you. Whoever you believe that to be.

You have heard of the placebo effect, right? When you expect a positive outcome it is more likely to take place. Nocebo is when you expect a negative outcome. Your beliefs are creating placebo and nocebo effects in your life everyday. Because your beliefs create your environment. So much so that drug trails have to account for the placebo effect. When people think a treatment will work, it’s more likely to work even if they aren’t actually given any medicine.

So the question really becomes how do you change your beliefs? If your beliefs create your environment and environment dictates epigenetics, how do you change your environment?

We all know that person who has read all kinds of self help books and they are still a complete and utter disaster. Doesn’t learning new things change your beliefs? Not neccesarily. Remember your subconscious is where your beliefs are stored. So your critical logical mind can know all kinds of things, but if your subconscious is saying something else then your beliefs will not align with the things you know with your critical logical mind.

So next the question becomes how do we get the things we know with our critical logical mind into our subconscious? The first option is repetition. Your subconscious is your habit mind. It learns from repetition. You have to create connections between your conscious and subconscious mind and you have to revisit them otherwise they will not stay in place.

Remember when you first learned to drive a car. It was a lot of information to take in and remember. But now you drive without thinking about it. Because that information is in your subconscious mind. Everything can become like driving and can be programmed into your subconscious.

The second way to change your beliefs in your subconscious is with hypnosis. The first 8 years of your life you spent in a state of hypnosis. This is characterized by Theta brain waves. When you were a child it wasn’t like you could read books about how to do things. You downloaded information with your nervous system by watching people and using your mirror neurons. This is why you are so much like your family. You downloaded your beliefs from your family subconsciously as a child.

An adopted child raised in a family with a predisposition to a certain disease is also more likely to get that certain disease. It’s not genetic. It is epigenetic. It is because they get their beliefs from the family that raised them.

So, how do you hypnotize yourself? You listen to something right when you wake up or right before bed. Because that is when you experience Theta brain waves. This allows information to go into your subconscious without as much repetition. Science says it can take up to 66 repetitions to wire something into your brain. However if you wire it in while using Theta brain waves, it wont take as many repetitions.

Also, gamma brain waves increase plasticity in your brain. If you are going to wire something into your brain with repetition while not using Theta brain waves, it makes sense to use gamma brain waves. Remember, gamma brain waves and doing something you enjoy is how you create flow state. Flow state is a great way to reprogram your subconscious. Because you wont even really notice what you are doing. You will just feel joy.

Your beliefs create your environment. Epigenetics are dictated by environment. Your subconscious is where your beliefs are stored. And you downloaded a lot of disasters of beliefs from your family as a child when you were in a state of hypnosis. You are like your family because you share beliefs with them, not because you share genes.

Remember a culture is a group of people who share beliefs. Your family was the first culture you were in. You had to share beliefs with them in order to survive. However, as an adult those beliefs could be killing you and stealing your joy. If you don’t want to be like your family reprogram your subconscious with new beliefs. It can literally be as easy as listening to an audio recording every night before bed or every morning as you wake up.

You are who you believe yourself to be. Beliefs are your environment. Beliefs dictate epigenetics.

On day 19, we talked about the consequences of changing your beliefs in your subconscious.

For every one gene you have there are 30,000 different epigenetic outcomes you can create. Your beliefs can even change defective genes into functional healthy genes. So the sky is the limit in countless ways.

However, when you change your beliefs you will no longer fit into the same culture. Remember culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. If you change your beliefs, you will also change your culture. This may leave you the odd man out in your family or in your old group of friends.

In the old days, this was a mechanism to keep people stuck. Heard mentality has been used to keep people complacent since the beginning of time. However with modern technology, nowadays you can find your culture no matter how much you change your beliefs. There are billions of people in the world. You will find other people with your beliefs. You just have to look for them.

Don’t allow change to scare you. Feel the fear and do it anyway. You know what your life will be like if you keep the same beliefs as the people in your family. Your life will end up just like theirs. The definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different outcome. Will you be happy and fulfilled with your life if it turns out just like the rest of your family’s lives? Because the beliefs they implanted in your subconscious, when you were a child, are the same beliefs that lead them to where they are today.

Also, you will the life of your dreams to manifest effortlessly when you change your beliefs. Your dreams, goals, and purposes in life are not an uphill battle any longer. The people around you support all your endeavors. Because they understand you. They want you to succeed in every aspect of your life.

No longer do you feel like the outsider for wanting more out of life. Or like you have to hold back from being you fully. Your new culture supports you and your beliefs in ever way you can imagine. And knowing that you have this support allows you to dream even bigger. People who love and care for you do not hold you back from anything. They cheer for you no matter what.

Your whole world changes when you change your beliefs. And your body changes too. No longer do you have health conditions that hold you back. No longer do you get those fall colds or spring allergies. You take vitamins to support your body and have selfcare rituals, because your body is your temple. And it supports you more than ever before. You never imagined you could feel this good and clear headed. You are limitless.

Ideas stream through your mind with such ease. Pieces of information come together in ways you never saw before. The imagery in your mind is colorful and vivid. No longer does your mind race causing you anxiety. There is a peace that has washed over you. Your soul is at ease. And joy surrounds you.

Finding people who love and accept you creates more of the enzyme that creates telemares. And living in this love while pursuing your purposes also causes you to create more telemares. This makes you a more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. It is a snowball effect that helps you obtain your potential in every aspect of your life.

You are the person you always wanted to be. You succeed at everything you set out to accomplish. You find a way to make things happen effortlessly. Your dreams come to you with ease. Your passions fuel your soul and keep you striving for more. You are driven, creative, confident, healthy, balanced, and courageous. You find solutions to problems you never thought you could overcome.

Today, on day 20, let’s talk about trauma bonds and neuro linguistic programming.

Let’s say that everyone in the world took part in munchausen by proxy and poisoned people covertly. And they even poisoned the people they claimed to love. If this were true than we all would have trauma bonds. Healthy real bonds are based on love, not destruction. But if we lived in a world where everyone was poisoning everyone, no one would have a true human connection. And these abusers would be the ones who implanted beliefs into your subconscious when you were a child in a state of hypnosis.

Your whole life people have told you who you are. When you were a young child in hypnosis you relied on this, because you didn’t have any other way to know who you were. All of these messages from other people are in your subconscious. These make up your beliefs. Even if your critical logical mind knows better, your subconscious still believes these things.

The following are a series of statements intended to create connections between your critical logical mind, where your spirit lives, and your subconscious mind, which is a recording device. The more connections between your conscious and subconscious mind the more your life will become what you intend. And the more intelligence you will have. If your conscious and subconscious are on two different pages, everything will be an uphill battle.

I am safe.
You are safe.
I am free.
You are free.
I am happy.
You are happy.
I am healthy.
You are healthy.
I am grateful.
You are grateful.
I am at peace.
You are at peace.
I am love.
You are love.
I am loved.
You are loved.
I am accomplishing my purposes in life.
You are accomplishing your purposes in life.
My body is healing.
Your body is healing.
My body is my home.
Your body is your home.
I am my ideal body weight.
You are your ideal body weight.
My heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality.
Your heart is healthy and strong filled with vitality.
My thyroid is balanced filling my body with energy.
Your thyroid is balanced filling your body with energy.
My healthy lungs fill my body with the oxygen I need to remain calm at all times.
Your healthy lungs fill your body with the oxygen you need to remain calm at all times.
My kidneys are healthy and strong allowing me to live without anxiety.
Your kidneys are healthy and strong allowing you to live without anxiety.
My liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing me to live without anger.
Your liver is healthy and strong filtering toxins effortlessly, allowing you to live without anger.
My reproductive organs are healthy allowing me create life.
Your reproductive organs are healthy allowing you to create life.
My pancreas is balanced allowing me to remain level headed at all times.
Your pancreas is balanced allowing you to remain level headed at all times.
My digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing me the nutrients I need to thrive.
Your digestion is highly effective and without pain, allowing you the nutrients you need to thrive.
My gut bacteria takes care of me.
Your gut bacteria takes care of you.
My microbiome supports my health in every way possible.
Your microbiome supports your health in every way possible.
My skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from my body efficiently.
Your skin is healthy, tight, and glowing allowing it to remove toxins from your body efficiently.
My mind is clear and concise.
Your mind is clear and concise.
My soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive.
Your soul sings everyday, because it’s happy to be alive.
I am reaching my potential.
You are reaching your potential.
I am deserving of the life of my dreams.
You deserve the life of your dreams.
I am deserving of anything I am willing to work towards.
You deserve anything you are willing to work towards.
I do things that bring me joy daily.
You do things that bring you joy daily.
I am connected to devine order.
You are connected to divine order.
I do things everyday to make myself a better human.
You do things everyday to make yourself a better human.
I am living my destiny.
You are living your destiny.
I was born to change the world.
You were born to change the world.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.

Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.

Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.

This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.

The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.

People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion,  dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.

Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.

These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.

18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.

22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.

23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.

Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.

24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.

All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.

If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.

25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.

26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.

They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?

27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.

Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.

28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.

29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.

30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.

31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.

32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.

Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.

You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food.  When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.

If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.

All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs.
If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.

33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?

Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.

Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.

33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.

This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.

This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.

34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.

Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.

My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
 
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.

36.  WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.

37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.

38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.

39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.

Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?

40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.

41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.

Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know  you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.

42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.

43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.

Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.

Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.

This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.

The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.

People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion,  dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.

Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.

These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.

18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.

22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.

23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.

Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.

24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.

All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.

If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.

25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.

26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.

They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?

27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.

Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.

28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.

29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.

30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.

31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.

32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.

Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.

You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food.  When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.

If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.

All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs.
If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.

33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?

Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.

Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.

33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.

This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.

This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.

34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.

Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.

My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
 
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.

36.  WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.

37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.

38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.

39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.

Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?

40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.

41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.

Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know  you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.

42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.

43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

What you need know

1. My birthrights trump everyone’s. I am second on the Graves side of the family, second on the Kudearoff side of the family, and both my parents are #2s. Plus, my Dads older sister does not have children and has never been married. So, I inherit her birthrights from the Graves & Bennit family. My grandma and Dad’s Mom, Laverne Lippe(originally Bennit) and her two parents Mr. and Mrs Hitler. Yes, my great grandpa who lived in Texas was Hitler. Plus my Grandpa Dawsia Graves and his two parents. By birthright I am more powerful than both my Dad, Brother, and Uncle Norm in Idaho or anyone in the Kudearoff family, even my Aunt Lana. She only has my grandma Kudearoff’s birthright. My Grandpa Kudearoffs went to my uncle Nick that’s why he was killed.

2. Learned helplessness is a lie. It’s a systemic Candida & C Diff bacteria infection. You are powerful, you just have an infection. And you inherited it from your Mom, so you have never known how powerful you truly are.

3. There is a covert genocide of Hispanic, Black, Italian, and Asian people, but it is done using food so it effects us all.

4. The systems are set up to hijack your humanity by changing the way you process Oxytocin. This inhibits your ability to feel love and enables you to commit crimes against humanity more willingly. Sociopaths aren’t born they are made. This is how my family makes them.

5. There is a worldwide epigenetic trigger of Autism, Dyslexia, other learning disabilities, and all chronic illness. This is done with many factors, but the main three are omega 3 to omega 6 ratios, immunizations, and antibiotics.

Autism is caused by the antibiotic resistant bacteria called C Diff. This is also what causes addiction because it changes the way your brain processes dopamine. Addictuon is just an antibiotic resistant infection.

Dyslexia is caused by an overabundance of omega 6 during pregnancy when the nervous system is being created and formed. And the negative epigenetic triggers of dyslexia and gene mutations make it hard for you all to access your logical brain. Instead of asking why when given an order, you ask yourself how you will carry out the order and do the thing. My family created the super soldiers they always wanted.

This is also why the 90s kids and younger are hard to relate to and seem so odd to those of us who are older. They have more dyslexic gene mutations and epigenetic triggers. Which makes them creative brain based and more predisposed to emotional addiction.

The more you partake in the war games the more negative epigenetic triggers you will have. And the more you will be cut off from your logical brain and predisposed to emotional addiction and not knowing who you are. It’s hard to have a sense of self when addicted to your emotions and unable to logically think about why you do the things you do. Focusing on how you do things wont lead you to figuring yourself out. You have to ask yourself why you do things. And why comes from your logical brain. You all have been conditioned and genetically modified to not ask why because it makes you the perfect soldier and easy to control/manipulate.

6. Due to all the negative epigenetic triggers we are experiencing our children are born with gene mutations. So every generation is a lesser than version of human. If you have kids you are helping my family create their very own subhuman slave race. This is why they hand out privilege for having children.

Negative epigenetic triggers in you lead to gene mutations in your children. Epigenetics can be changed, gene mutations are forever.

7. The systems are set up to make us all fail. No amount of privilege will save you from the destruction of the systems. Even the people who created the system of destruction cannot escape from the destruction of the systems they created. My Dad is dying from colon cancer from the food system, C Diff, and the MTHFR gene mutation.

8. I escaped a death camp in southern Arizona and started this revolution in March 2021, you need to join. I have driven to present this news update to people from the Mexico border all the way up to Bellingham, Washington. And these people have helped me reach the world.

The farmers, the world leaders, and the fancy oil families have all helped me stay alive. I would have died a long time ago without great help. They all want to help me create a new royal family to push my family out of power. And they understand I want to free you all and myself. They want to be free too. But I can’t do this without your help.

9. I need your help spreading awareness, especially to the younger generations 90’s kids and younger. These are the people who are impacted the most by the epigenetic triggers and gene mutations.

These are the creative brain based generations we need to help us figure out how to reverse the subhuman slave race and free ourselves. They literally were genetically modified to help us figure out how.

People like me with Asperger’s were designed to figure out why because we are logic brain based. But the younger generations were designed for how. We may not fully understand them, but they know more than we ever will be able to understand. They see things we don’t see. Because they can create something out of nothing.

10. Your gut bacteria is warred on by all the systems creating brain damage and damage to your Amyglada which causes you to be in a constant state of unconscious fear. This is to keep you small. Sometimes this is experienced by feeling an overwhelming stress all the time and a hunger that never really goes away or is satisfied. And these feelings intensify in the winter.

To correct this you need to take vitamin K2 and work on your gut health. Free floating calcium in your bloodstream can lead to confusion,  dementia, and Alzheimers. Plus, c diff needs calcium to germinate. So the more you limit the free floating calcium in your bloodstream, the more you will help reduce your c diff infection, anxiety, and brain damage. Plus, this will strengthen your teeth and bones.

Vitamin K2 is better than benzos or anxiety medication. Try it with half a teaspoon of cream of tartar(potassium) and feel how relaxed humans are supposed to be.

11. I am looking for alliances in this revolution and new world. I have the words for the destruction, the knowledge on how to heal and the power to change everything. Plus, I have built a revolutionary army that surpasses all divisions of people who believe in potential. It’s literally an army of the best and the brightest. However, until I have someone in my corner in the overt world I can’t do much more for any of us. I am only one person and I am human too.

12. The Kudearoffs are currently without power. My Moms generation outlived their power. They killed my Grandma Kudearoff when she was almost 58. My Mom turned 68 this summer. I’m pretty sure you are not allowed to outlive the people you kill to steal their power. So this would apply to my Dad too. I’m not sure how old my Grandpa Graves was when they killed him, but my Dad is 72 almost 73. Which is way older than my Grandpa Graves ever got to be.

13. Stay tuned for more information updates I need to be able to communicate with you all so I can help you overcome the destruction of the systems. My revolutionary people have created a relay system to broadcast my radio waves worldwide. Find a way to get all your people tuned in. Plus I write a blog www.YouDeserveToHeal.com get all your people tuned in.

14. Water is the greatest tool of destruction, disease, and brainwashing. Not only does water have poisons and the wrong ph and spike your insulin, but the chlorine and antibiotics in it allow for our bodies to be drained of zinc and magnesium. These are the cofactors needed to produce enzymes in our bodies. Without enzymes we are unable to absorb nutrients from our food. This is why we are a world of overweight people who are starving/malnourished. Also, when people are malnourished they are more susceptible to suggestion and brain washing(the war games is just a series of covert suggestions). And malnourished people enjoy the pain of others because their brains are not getting what they need to function correctly. So with every shower you take your humanity is going down the drain.

15. My family covertly started world war 3 in the 1970s. They plan on building the Mexican Berlin wall soon. This is the wall Trump was talking about.

16. You know how people fake laugh all the time? This is to get you addicted to heard mentality and valuing the heard above yourself. Social laughter lights up your brain with dopamine and many other feel good chemicals. It is similar to mammals who partake in grooming each other. However with our c diff infections that alter the way our brains process dopamine causing addiction, social laughter causes us to become addicted to heard mentality. Valuing what the heard believes above what we value ourselves. This is why so many people never know who they really are. They just accept who they are told they are and who they are supposed to be.

17. My family has us all surrounded. They have created a caste system of fancy families who profit off the war games and turning us into a subhuman slave race. These people surround us and are my family’s cult members. They are easy to identify because they follow the playbooks to my family’s cult(stay tuned and I will give it to you)and act like them. Often pretending to be Gods, but really they just have cluster b personality disorders.

These fancy families control what all comes in and out of cities worldwide. And they surround us, policing us to make sure we stay within the role we have been assigned to play within the caste system they have created. These are the people who have been my family’s right hand men. And these are the people who have profited off of our pain and turning us all into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

I’m not sure if it should make you feel better or worse. But I have yet to find a fancy family who fully understood what they were doing.

18. My Mom and Dad taught me to do the edges first when I did puzzles because the rest falls into place easier this way. My family has done the edges of most countries because the rest will fall into place easier. Not only does my family have the cities surrounded by controlling the fancy families, but they control what comes in and out of many countries and cities by controlling the edges. They don’t need to be an overt leader to control a country or the world if they can control what goes in and out of a country/city.

19. I have worked with the Mexican mafias to redirect their drug trafficking to include people who do not support the Mexican Berlin wall being built. My family had them in a position where they were fund raising for their own demise. But the thing is they are doing this to all of us. We are all raising money to build the systems that destroy us all. The medical industry is a perfect example. It doesn’t intend to heal any of us. Just to enslave and destroy us. And to create great profits and pain as it kills us.

20. Tv, media, social media, music, your phone, social norms, traditions, pleasantries, etc are all used to keep us all in a trance state which is a form of hypnosis. Turn your phone on airplane mode, stop talking to people, dont listen to music or watch TV and see how you change after a couple days. It’s incredibly uncomfortable because we are addicted to this shared delusion we all are engulfed in and conditioned to believe is reality. We are at war and your body knows it, but your mind says everything looks okay you must be wrong. If we aren’t at war why are people so unhealthy? Why do people enjoy destruction so much if we arent at war? We are at war and your body knows.

You know how when my family sends people with their dogs and children to police and walk the neighborhoods and they do that small talk that is so uncomfortable and empty feeling? That is part of how you are put into a trance and your guard is put down. You know how some people in the professional world act so nice and kind, but your body tells you they are preying on you? That is how you are put in a state of hypnosis. Listen to your body. Your body feels the war, your mind just questions it because everyone pretends and acts like they are good people and this is all normal. None of this is normal. People kill people they claim to love to steal their birthrights. Drinking water, eating food, and breathing the air makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. This is not normal. And this is me starting a conversation about it all. This is war. We have to admit to our problems before we can solve them.

21. There is bad bacteria and viruses in gas and diesel. So every time you drive your car, mow your lawn, etc you are spewing pathogens into the air and universe so we all breath it in. This goes into our bodies and creates infections. This is why heart disease is a #1 killer. We all have systemic infections that involve all of our organs. Specifically you breath in the bad bacteria and it makes itself at home in your nose and mouth, gut, and then travels to your heart and reproductive organs. This causes heart disease, gingivitis, autoimmune diseases, and infertility among numerous other things. Every time you breath you are breathing in bad bacteria.

22. Paper products have bad bacteria on them. This is why my family sends people to the store to buy toilet paper and napkins. They have bad bacteria on them that contribute to our infections which erode our epigenetics and make us more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. Plus the bad bacteria makes its way to your reproductive organs and heart and gut through toilet paper. Also, when you have sex with people you share infections and bad bacteria. This is why my family sent so many people to buy toilet paper when covid hit.

23. Lumber and countless other building materials and things have bad bacteria on them. Your house is a weapon of destruction meant to cause disease.

Materialism can actually kill you. Because your things grow bad bacteria and cause infection in your body. If you partake in poisons that means your things are a weapon used against you.

24. I have been homeless since I escaped the death camp in Southern Arizona in March 2021. I rarely take concentration camp showers at planet fitness because they add poison and bad bacteria to the water even more so. My family won’t let me work. I have my Oregon real estate license and Oregon insurance license( I was a realtor in AZ). I can’t do anything for you all if my fanily continues to make the world treat me like a leper. I only experience people in my overt life who have signed up to poison and kill me. Everyday I sit around as a prisoner of war waiting to be freed or to die. My whole life I have been a prisoner of war. I am 43 years old.

All I need is a normal ordinary life to help you all overcome the destruction for generations to come. I have no interest in being fancy or pretending to be a God like my family. I just want and need to be a normal ordinary person. My family has always kept me from being normal and ordinary my whole life.

If I die before menopause my Dad will steal my eggs and create my children without my mitochondria. Which means they will be like the rest of my family. And he will probably create them with dyslexia so they are easier to control. If I die after menopause, my Dad will clone me. I can only protect you people if I’m alive.

25. My Dad has been hiding war games money in my name at Charles Swabb since I was 10 years old. He is blocking my access to this account. You all need to help me access this money so I can help you become human again on a gene and cellular level. The more secure I am, the more likely I am to be able to stay alive and continue to fight for your freedom. And to have children to continue to protect you all after I’m gone.

26. Medical professionals put bad bacteria in your body. This happens to everyone. But this is how my family’s cult kills people they want to get rid of. This bacteria spreads to your organs and creates disease/chronic illness and organ failure. The people in my family often work in the medical industry. So everytime you seek medical treatment it is like asking people from my family to help you. They have no interest in healing you, only in enslaving and killing you.

They told my Grandma Kudearoff she had lung cancer so they could kill her with medical treatment. Can you really trust the medical industry when in the world my family has created we all have a price to kill another?

27. The poisons from the cars that leaves behind a purple and sometimes blue tint is manganese. This causes all kinds of health issues including heart disease. It’s constantly in the air. We all need to heavy metal cleanse.

Plus there is flouride in water and other heavy metals in food(especially bromide in breads). Everytime you eat in your car or outside you are eating the poisons from cars and heavy metals and bad bacteria. This is why my family gets their cult members to eat in their cars. It creates disease. The more Dysbiosis you have in your gut bacteria the easier you are to brainwash and the more susceptible you are to suggestion because you become malnurished. This covert war is just a series of suggestions.

28. I believe in democracy and I do not want to be a dictator or leader of a communist regime. I’m hoping you all will help me build a democracy. This way I am free and you all are too.

29. I need your help reaching all the leaders of the mixed Russian people. My family keeps calling on them to kill me. These seem to be more normal ordinary people rather than people born into the war games.

30. Your car license plate connects to the war games group you belong to. So I have been exposing people from my family’s cult. If you enjoy the glass house you have built, it’s best not to associate with my family and risk being exposed. This will continue daily until I have a life that allows me the security I need to reverse the destruction.

31. You all need to declare war against the groups still fighting this war for my family. If anything happens to me you all are going to continue to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. I am the last person who can protect you from my family. They have killed everyone else that can tell them no.

32. The people who work at grocery stores are killing us and making us subhuman. Because the quickest way to erode someone’s epigenetics, and make them subhuman on a gene and cellular level, is to put poisons and bad bacteria in their food and drinks. My family may be the ones who created this mess, but the people who work at the grocery stores are the ones with our blood on their hands. Food is not produced with this much poison. It arrives to the grocery stores in a cleaner manner.

Most of the people who work at the grocery stores are from the caste system of fancy families who profit off our pain and deaths.

You know how you get bloated after eating sometimes? Well, that’s bad bacteria in the food.  When it is your upper stomach it means it was extremely bad and full of bad bacteria. Beer is a great example. Also, cheese is as well. It makes you constipated because it has the bad bacteria that causes colon cancer. You know how sometimes you get explosive diarrhea? That’s c diff bacteria and others that cause vitamin and mineral malabsorption. When you have an overgrowth of bad bacteria they steal your iron and other vitamins and minerals. Do you have bloating that never goes away, thinning hair, loose skin, etc? Those are signs of malnutrition and low iron and bacterial infections/overgrowth.

If you are constipated you have bacteria that do not produce enough seratonin. Thus you probably are sad or anxious. If you are prone to diarrhea you have gut bacteria that produce too much seratonin. And you are at risk to have seizures if it gets too bad.

All dairy products have intestinal worms /eggs in them. These worms suck your blood from your digestive tract and make you and your immune system weaker. Enzymes and minerals seem to kill them best. Deworming your pets, children, and yourself regularly. Freezing your dairy products will kill these worms and their eggs.
If you doubt me put a glass jar with milk or cream on your counter for two to three weeks covered. Watch the worms grow.

33. When the food system was Genetically modified in the 1980s, they used mutated viruses to change the epigenetics of crops and then create gene mutations just like they did with humans. Remember when the food changed in the mid 1980s?

Conventionally raised animals eat these genetically modified plants/grains with bad bacteria/viruses. So bad bacteria is in plants, meat, and dairy even before the grocery store people poison it.

Most of these strains of bad bacteria are aimed at creating insulin resistance directly. However, all bad bacteria causes insulin resistance indirectly because the more infection in your body the harder it is for your body to balance your blood sugar.

33. There is more protein in foods than the nutrition label states and eating protein is pushed on us not only because it inhibits our bodies from recycling old damaged cells and spikes insulin, but because it prohibits our guts from producing serotonin. And serotonin helps regulate our immune system and eliminate inflammation on top of making us feel good. Humans need serotonin for homeostasis. So this is part of why people are so willing to destroy each other and why we are constantly looking for a head change. Chocolate, sugar, coffee, ice cream, heroin, marijuana, destroying another, shopping etc. If we had the neurotransmitters we need to feel and be human we wouldn’t be looking to get high all the time.

This is what causes carb cravings. You eat the carbs and often they have too much protein and dont give your body what it needed to produce serotonin and so those cravings intensify. You have to eat carbs on an empty stomach without much protein and have the nutrients needed as building blocks for serotonin like magnesium. You know how when you eat bread before a meal you fill up really quickly? That’s serotonin. Have you read the nutrition facts on the bread aisle? They put so much protein in bread because it blocks our bodies from getting what they really need. Have you noticed how butter changed in the past 5 years? It has protein in it because milk products stimulate serotonin. Have you noticed name brand potato chips have more protein than store brand potato chips? Have you noticed in the past 2 years Albertsons and Safeway stopped carrying store brand potato chips? This is also probably why they put arsenic in rice grown in California. And its probably why Asian people who eat rice daily live longer and have healthier lives.

This is also part of why so many Americans have kidney disease. Too much protein is bad for the kidneys. Plus, c diff attacks our kidneys, insulin resistance strains our kidneys, and the alkaline ph of water and drinks also stresses our kidneys. Kidneys represent fear and anxiety in Chinese medicine. If you feel fear and/or anxiety you need to support your kidneys.

34. Financial domination is how my family keeps us all under control and in line. We all fear having everything taken away at any moment. Leaving us to never be able to fully enjoy anything because there is always a worry of loss in the background.

Security is a basic human need. When humans do not have their basic human needs meet they are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. You know that saying “You are in a world of hurt.” Well my family keeps us all in a world of hurt because it’s easier to control us that way.

My family has been rigging the stock market since I was in 6th grade. Don’t listen to everything everyone says. You have been set up to fail on multiple levels. And to blame yourself for failing.
 
35. This revolution needs to reach the fancy families that are in my family’s cult. These are the people my family uses to enslave us all. And they have no clue what is really happening because they are sheltered from everything. Do you really think they would sign up to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level? Their money helps them stay more human, but it doesn’t make them exempt from the destruction. If we can reach them, we can become human again.

36.  WE ARE STRIKING THE STOCK MARKET AND YOU NEED TO JOIN. SELL ALL YOUR STOCKS IMMEDIATELY(STARTED TUESDAY DECEMBER 26TH 2023). ALSO, REMOVE YOUR MONEY FROM AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. MY FAMILY RIGS THE STOCKMARKET AND HOLDS US ALL HOSTAGE WITH OUR OWN MONEY, INCLUDING THE MONEY WE KEEP IN AMERICAN FINANCIAL INSTITUTIONS. STAY TUNED FOR MORE INFORMATION ON THIS.

37. Connect me with the families in charge of the regular Americans. I need to speak with all your leaders nationwide.

38. Let everyone know when the communication hubs in Salem or Berlin ask you all to do something they are speaking for me. Without them I would be dead. Honor their requests immediately.

39. I expect all leaders to punish their people who have signed up to kill me and perpetuate the Truman show my family creates around me. No one signs up to be near me to cause anything good to happen. I can’t do much from this Truman show to help you all get better. And that is my family’s intentions. They want you all to continue to be their subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time. For that to happen they have to isolate and kill me first. Which is what your people are signing up to do by being around me.

Also, take into account that anyone using their car as a weapon and releasing pathogens and poisons into the environment and atmosphere is enslaving you and your children on a gene and cellular level. What would you do to someone trying to enslave you and your own children?

40. You need to sprinkle Epsom salt and liquid iodine everywhere you go, but especially around where you live and work. This will allow the air to have more minerals and help us all become more human on a gene and cellular level. Also, it will allow our food to have more minerals. And it will help battle the pathogens and poisons in the air currently making us all more subhuman with every breath we take.

41. I have created programs to help you all reverse the brainwashing that started with my great Grandpa Hitler. There are also audio recordings to go along with these written programs(reach out to the communication hubs in Salem and Berlin to get access to recordings). I expect all leaders to make their people participate in these.

Your brain starts downloading programs during the third trimester of pregnancy before you are born. And for the first 7 years of your life you are in a state of hypnosis. But the catch is that this programming is in your subconscious mind. So you dont even know  you have been set up to self destruct. And we inherit these programs from our family. So if you have relatives that were Nazi SS soldiers or if you have relatives who were in concentration camps you have the most destructive programming in your subconscious. This is brainwashing. And we have to reverse it in order to live good lives and be healthy.

42. If you are a leader outside Eugene/Springfield, you need to send people here to watch over your people. My family leads by example and brainwashing. Which means your people here have been conditioned to not be loyal to where they cone from just like my family. Your people may not be malicious, but they have almost killed me before I could reach you all. And that would have lead to you all being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level till the end of time without knowing it. It’s safe to bet your people here need to be watched over closely. They are a danger to themselves and especially you all.

43. Race is a social construct used to control you. There is no scientific test for race. Yes, there are tests to see where your ancestors most likely lived. But those are not 100% accurate because people travel and move. Race is just apart of this stupid imaginary game. And it’s a way to divide and control you. Divide and conquer.

P.S. If one of you all can help me become a National news update so I can reach all the people I would super appreciate it. Or if you can get me back into all the grocery store news updates I would appreciate that. Anyway you can help me reach more people I appreciate.

This book was intense. I wanted to know what it was like to go to war. And honestly I still do not know what the war in Iraq was about around 2006-2008? After reading this book, I still do not know what was about. Google says it was an Iraq civil war. Why were we there then? is my next question. Well, “to maintain stability and support the new Iraqi government” is google’s answer.

“I feel guilty that I don’t want to be here, but I feel more guilt about how good it felt running from the C-130 to the bunker. I feel more guilt about how my body buzzed in anticipation when we arrive at Camp Mercury and a Marine told us to be aware of indirect fir and snipers.”

“I feel guilty because the longer I am here the less I think about my family and fiancee and what life might’ve been like in those other places, and the more I think about my new family and my loyalty to them and the fear that strikes my heart when Marines are traded between platoons.”

Honestly, this book reminded me a lot of what it is like to be in my family. Both of my parents were in the Army. I always used to tell myself that it was completely logical they would not know how to love when they had been trained to kill. But no one had ever told/showed/trained them how to love.

When I lived in Sierra Vista, Arizona there were all kinds of military people there because of the base nearby. I was surrounded by people who grew up like me and that was not necessarily a good thing. Because no one ever showed them how to love. Thus, they did not know how to love themselves.

My family’s cult is all about selling out your own family, your people, and your friends for what is best for you. It is about selling out all the people around you and being selfish. It is about turning everyone around you into a slav.

Mixed Polish people were the first slaves, even before African Americans. They were called “slavs”. Everyone in my family is willing to turn anyone into a slav, if it benefits them. When you enslave your own people, you are creating slavs. And the beliefs from this time period are still in our subconscious. My family preys on people who don’t understand their subconscious beliefs. They insert beliefs, desires, and emotions into people’s subconscious and this is how they turn them into monsters. Well, on top of all the poisons which create cluster b personality disorders and cause emotional dysregulation.

Emotions are energy in motion. When you poison yourself, or someone poisons you, it causes toxins to enter your limbic system, which effects your horomones which creates emotions.

People with cluster b personality disorders have so many toxins floating around in their limbic system that are causing hormonal changes and creating emotions. Which means they have all this energy in motion in their bodies from the toxins and they cannot move through it. This is emotional dysregulation. It is brain damage in the limbic system where it meets with the brain.

So you know how when people join my family’s cult they get them to poison everyone and everyone poisons them? It is to induce cluster b personality disorders in them. By clogging up their limbic system with so many toxins that causes hormones they are unable to emotionally regulate. Which makes them willing to commit crimes against humanity and destroy anyone and everyone.

Based on this book the military, or more specifically the Marines in this instance, use verbal abuse to create hormonal dysregulation and thus emotional dysregulation(because hormones in the limbic system create emotions). Yelling at someone is almost as toxic as poison. It changes hormones in the same way. The military breaks people with hormones and emotional dysregulation just like my family. My Mom used to scream like banshee my whole childhood. I am sure she does if there is ever anyone willing to listen. And I know she will never give up poisoning people.

You would think the military would want to make people stronger. So they can protect us. I always wondered why they didn’t test gut bacteria to see which soldiers would be able to handle going to war without coming back with PTSD. All they would have to do is test their gut bacteria for butyrate producing bacteria. If they have enough of this bacteria it will prevent PTSD and enable them to deal with stress. But it seems like the military may be more like my family than I expected.

Which is odd and a bit uncomfortable, because my Dad’s military cult was the first big group to get on board with being revolutionary. They had surrounded me and hunted me my whole life, but especially when I was in Sierra Vista, Arizona.

I like the military cult. They have been nothing but good to me since I was able to reach them. I have to treat people based on how they treat me after they learn about the destruction of my family. If I treated people based on anything else I would want to start the World War my birthrights give me permission to create. Granted if I was playing by the rules I would have to marry someone to start that war for me. But I promised the military cult from the beginning that I would fight my own wars and try my hardest not to make them fight them for me. So, far so good. Millions of people in the military throughout the past four generations have died fighting wars my family started.

So, I suppose we will have to change the military in order to do better. I understand we need to prepare people to go to war. But I do not believe we need to break the people who sign up to protect us all. I do not believe that is soft of me to believe. I believe it is logical. We should not destroy the people who sign up to protect us all.

“We created a person-thing. It looks like us and sounds like us, but it is not us. The person thing is a by product–like nuclear waste or babies. The person-thing cannot be uncreated. It is a part of us forever.

Because the person-thing is not human its foremost prerequisite to existence is that we lose not only our own humanity but remove that of our enemy as well. The conditions for loss of humanity were provided amply by the United States Marine Corps.”

I have never been to a traditional war. But I have lived at war my whole life. I have only shot a gun once in my life. But I have lived at war my whole life. Surrounded by people trying to destroy and kill me. It’s pretty miserable. I am 44 years old and I have never known peace. I have never escaped the Truman show that surrounds me and tries to destroy and kill me everyday. Granted they often just want to kill me with chronic illness, so I die a long slow painful death. But sometimes they try for the more direct route.

I don’t have all the answers, I never will. But I can relate to the person-thing that Matt Young describes in this book. This is the person my family has tried to turn me into my whole life. It is the person they all are. It is a soulless being, that destroys everything around it, regardless of the consequences. Which means they destroy themselves too. But they especially destroy me and you all because we have not broken completely like them.

This book was an acquired taste and definitely not my usual pick. The writing was in third person, which is weird for a memoir. But I suppose this has to do with the person-thing mentality. It was raw and real. I can appreciate that. The military does involve a struggle from within and I can relate to this struggle probably more than most. But it doesn’t mean I am used to it or have given into it. I still fight the person-thing mentality. And perhaps that is my privilege that allows me to do so. Although, some days I sure wish my enemies had guns, so this war would end.

Did you know they used to strap women down to a table in hospitals when they were giving birth? They literally tied them down and put them on their backs where gravity was working against them. Plus, they would give them an episiotomy(cut between vagina and anus) even when they didn’t need to. Pretty fucking barbaric, huh? And this was recently like the 1970/80s and some of this stuff still happens.

This book is about a midwife’s journey leaving the traditional medical industry behind and doing home births for mostly Amish women. Penny Armstrong gave up success in the traditional sense to do what felt right for her and what was better for the women she worked with. I can always get on board with doing better and what feels right.

I don’t know anyone who had anything but a traditional hospital delivery. I suppose money and insurance are some of the reasons behind this. But if you are going to have a baby, you have to deliver that baby. So, you should probably plan for the delivery before the rest of raising the child. But from what I gather people look at having children as just what people do. And they do not plan it out. They do it because it is expected and they do not take accountability for the details. Plus, women poison themselves so much when pregnant that they develop very strong cluster b personality disorders and never recover after having children. It is a metaphorical death for all included, especially the child.

Funny how we are born to take part in metaphorical death. But that is what this stupid imaginary game does to us. That is what mental illness(aka cluster b personality disorders, munchausen, munchausen by proxy, etc) does to us all. Learned helplessness in our parents kills us even before we are born. People feel helpless and hurt. So, they destroy others in order to feel in control and/or powerful. What a fucking shit show!

I really liked this book. It focused more on the struggle this woman went through to figure out what the “right” way was to help women deliver their babies and how to honor the mostly Amish women she served. She wanted to do the right thing. And she had a great success rate. Selling out for money was not a priority to her. Which is rare and commendable.

Women are more sociopathic nowadays than men. They are dead inside because they have children. Children are like forever hostages that they can destroy and punish in anyway and anytime they choose. No one sticks up for them. When you always have someone at your disposal to abuse, it allows for a lot more abusive and extreme behaviors. It is just logic and common sense.

I read these books to try to understand the struggles of women. So I can have more sympathy for them. Because I don’t really like women. I don’t really like men either. But I find men easier to deal with because they are less mentally ill generally speaking. They seem to know their worth more.

Even before this revolution, I knew having children gave women cluster b personality disorders. I knew it had to do with destroying people. But never would I have guessed that everyone poisons everyone. Never would I have ever guessed that women poisoned their own babies and/or themselves.

I had been poisoned my whole life and have never had clean food. But I never would have guessed the world would look at this as normal. I never would have guessed you all were like my family. It is shocking that you all view women poisoning their children as normal, rather than mentally ill. How can we excuse such dysfunction?

Women are the ones with the original sin, right? But maybe that original sin is poisoning children before they are born and making them into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level before they are even born. I worked at a group home for people who were developmentally disabled in Arizona, while I was getting my real estate license. It was a house full of men who had mothers who destroyed them too much before they were born. And then they refused accountability and relinquished their children to the state so the state can take care of the problem they literally created. Do you know how much we all pay every year for the destruction women wage on unborn and young children? We pay billions of dollars every year in state paid healthcare costs to care for these children. And it is not just the developmentally disabled ones. It is the ones with chronic illness too. Chronic illness causes the majority of healthcare costs in the world, but especially America. You know these are from you all poisoning each other. You realize this, right? Those adults with chronic illnesses currently were once children who were poisoned. The bad bacteria, viruses, and parasites in those poisons live on in those children all through adulthood until death. It takes cancer on average 10 years to grow before it can be detected. The poisons you use on your child today could turn into cancer in a decade or longer.

No wonder the world is as fucked up as it is. When your own mother destroys you before you are even born, how are you supposed to know love or potential? Women steal our potential even before we are born. No wonder we are so angry. I am fucking angry. And I know you all are because you wouldn’t poison everyone if you were not.

No matter how many books I read about the struggles of women, I will never be able to forgive them for being so destructive and mentally ill. Destruction is a mental illness. It is not natural and goes against the laws of God and humanity. There is nothing normal about the way the world operates. And there is especially nothing normal about the healthcare industry. It is an industry created to enslave and torture us all. It is not healing us, it is doing more harm than good.

The more time you spend around healthcare workers the more bad bacteria, viruses, and parasites you will have. Because those people poison you. And when your immune system is weak you cannot fight back against those bad bugs as much. Which means those bad bugs make themselves at home in your body more. And this is how chronic illness is created. When the people who are supposed to help you get better make you worse, you will never recover. Just like childhood, right?

I went off on a tangent. Not sure where that came from. But my organs are failing because people are poisoning me so much. And I am frustrated. But I also hate people who create problems and never account for their war crimes. Women are still bearing that original sin of destruction even today in 2025. Why?!?!? Why do women think they deserve and have the right to be so destructive? Who died and made them God? Because those men they raise grow up and turn out just like them most of the time too. Men are not without sin. They just have opportunity to destroy children normally on average. There are always exceptions to the rule.

My heart is failing and I have fluid in my abdomen from it. I am all swollen. I have never poisoned anyone. I don’t want to ever. I don’t want to kill anyone ever. I don’t understand you all’s need for destruction and blood. I never have. And I probably never will. And maybe I don’t want to. Because to truly understand it I would have to be like you all. And from what I see that means I would have to be miserable. There are no excuses for you all. I was destroyed just as much if not more than you all and I have no desire for destruction or to kill people. What beliefs do you have that lead you toward destruction and killing people?

Beliefs lead to desires. What makes you desire to hurt people? Because it is not being hurt that causes that. If it were I would want to hurt people.

This is a book about climate change and how to fix it. Full disclosure, I did not read it all. I have a real hard time with socialist ideas because they lead to a slippery slope towards Communism. But I figured that it wouldn’t hurt to try to read this book because we have to solve/fix global warming if we are ever to be human on a gene and cellular level. If we want to continue living on Earth we have to stop destroying it. It is just that plain and simple. We are a worldwide community. This is what globalization has done to us. Yet, we have not caught up socially to this idea. We are a globalized community. We need to act like it. I am just not sure what that looks like. And I think that is the problem. We don’t know what it looks like to be a healthy global community. Instead of thinking it out, we throw money at the problem and expect others to fix it for us. Or we recycle and hope that is enough. I love to recycle, but I know that is not even close to enough. But I don’t know what else to do in the big picture.

But maybe that is the answer. We don’t need to think about the big picture. Global warming is just like epigenetics. Epigenetics are the most effected by the everyday things we do. The small daily things have the most influence on how human you are on a gene and cellular level. Those really big healthy things you only do a few times a year, they have very low return on investment(ROI). However the little things you do daily or weekly, those are the things that will change you big time. This is how global warming works. Global warming is basically a whole bunch of negative epigenetic triggers in all the organisms that make up Earth, as the collective of organisms we are.

Did you know the negative epigenetic triggers in you are contributing to global warming? When you breath and pooh you are contributing to global warming. I mean with everything you do you are contributing to global warming. But just you existing without doing anything is causing global warming. Because you have an overgrowth of bad bugs which causes an overgrowth of bad bugs in the environment. The more you cleanse your body by balancing your microbiome the more you will help fight global warming. Because you will share those good bugs you cultivate with the world, both human and Earth.

Global warming is a mix of micro and macro. Global warming involves everyone and everything on Earth. Earth is just a collective of organisms. Humans are just a collective of organisms. As a human you are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. And humans belong to the even larger collective of organisms called Earth. So, we literally are all in this together. Earth is one large organism.

Let me give you my favorite example. The Redwood forest in Northern California is beautiful, right? You see all those trees and they are majestic and nature seems overwhelming in the best way possible. However, the Redwood trees in Northern California are not individual trees. They are all connected. They are one large organism. The Redwood trees in Northern California are the largest organism in the world. Their roots are all connected. It is one large organism. On the surface they look like individual trees. But when you look at the truth and the big picture, they are all connected. They are a collective of organisms. The largest organism in the world. Pretty neat, huh? Humans are the same. Our roots are all connected. We share a collective microbiome. This is why Covid was such a scary thing. One person got sick in one part of the world and we all ran the risk of getting sick. Because we share bugs. We share roots. We share a collective microbiome. Things would not be contagious if we were not connected.

Okay, I rambled. Let’s look at some quotes from the book now:

“Easter Island is Earth writ small. Today, again, a rising population confronts shrinking resources. We too have no emigration valve, because all human societies are linked by international transport, and we can no more escape into space than the Easter Islanders could flee into the ocean. If we continue to follow our present course, we shall have exhausted the world’s major fisheries, tropical rain forests, fossil fuels, and much of our soil by the time my sons reach my current age.”

“The person who felled the last tree could see that it was the last tree. But he(or she) still felled it. This is what is so worrying. Humankind’s convetousness is boundless. Its selfishness appears to be genetically inborn. Selfishness leads to survival. Altruism leads to death. The selfish gene wins. But in a limited ecosystem, selfishness leads to increasing population imbalance, population crash, and ultimately extinction.”

Okay, I have so much to say about these two quotes!

The second quote references Richard Dawkin’s book “The Selfish Gene”. Which says that those of us alive today are the descendants of the most selfish people who ever lived throughout history. And there is a selfish gene, which we all must have. It was a book I read years ago. I didn’t like it, but it did make logical sense. But my guts said something was wrong with it. I couldn’t argue because my family members are the most selfish people on Earth. But it didn’t feel right.

Last month, I read “Darwin’s Lost Theory-Who We Really Are and Where We’re Going-Book Three by David Loye This book explained how Darwinism has been looked at through a skewed lens. Survival of the fittest is not about hurting others or being selfish, it is about altruism. True sustainable survival is about altruism. And it goes into to touching on how we are all connected. Humanity has an interconnectedness that cannot be denied. It doesn’t go into science as much I expected. But this was the best book I have read on Darwinism that explained a lot the feelings I felt in my gut that I could not find the words for.

David Loye said, “…we can be-and generally are–more powerfully driven by concern for the regard of others and by love.”

Love conquers all, right? Just like Ken Kesey says in the book “Sometimes A Great Notion”.

The most selfish people on Earth have lead to global warming and the crisis we are in. Tue survival is about seeing the truth. The truth is that we are all connected. There are two kinds of relationships in the human body between organisms: parasitic and symbiotic.

Symbiotic are win-win relationships. You know how you have an immune system? That is a symbiotic relationship. Those bugs take care of you because you take care of them. You are their home and so they do the upkeep needed to have a good home.

Parasitic relationships are where one organism eats and/or destroys the other until it dies. Then normally the parasite dies too because it killed it’s home/environment/host. Do you think we are partaking in a symbiotic or parasitic relationship with Earth?

Just for clarification, there are parasites that we have symbiotic relationships with. For instance we all have these bugs that live on our skin and eat our dead skin cells. This seems parasitic on the surface. But these bugs make us better by helping to dispose of our dead skin cells. So, this is a symbiotic relationship. It is win-win. The bugs get an all you eat buffet and we get healthier skin.

The selfish gene does not win as the quote from Planet on Fire says. It leads to extinction. The selfish gene gets us all killed. The selfish gene is about reverse Darwinism. If you want to watch a movie about Reverse Darwinism check out “Igby Goes Down”. It is a great watch. Salem can you make this available to the people please and thank you. Reverse Darwinism is about survival of the weakest.

Survival of the fittest does not mean that some of us have to win and others have to loose and/or die. Survival of the fittest is about sustainability. It is about the collective of organisms that is Earth. We are all connected. The stronger we all are the stronger we are as a collective. Your neighbor being stronger does not diminish your chances for survival, it increases your chance of survival. At least when we are truly playing by Survival of the Fittest and not Reverse Darwinism.

Global warming is caused by our misconceptions about Darwinism and survival of the fittest. We are all here to not only survive, but to thrive. And we can all do this at the same time. Our potential does not have to come at the cost of another’s potential. We are a collective of organisms. The more we support each other, the stronger we all are.

Easter Island is used in this book, “Planet On Fire” as an example of what will happen to Earth. We cannot escape to space. And even if we did we would take our problems and overgrowth of bad bugs with us. Our problems would literally follow us because the problem is in us. The problem is in us on a gene and cellular level.

You know how some people are diagnosed with SIBO(small intestinal bacteria overgrowth). Global warming is a lot of pollution and many different factors. But the biggest factor in global warming is the Earth has SIBO. The bad bacterial overgrowth in all of us that leads us to being a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level causes global warming on Earth. Bacteria dictates the health of mitochondria. And mitochondria dictate epigenetics. Epigenetics determine how human we are on a gene and cellular level.

…So this means this bacterial overgrowth is causing us to be a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. But it is also causing global warming on an Earth level! This is the boiled down version that no one really talks about. They make it all complicated.

“…one constant has remained: the externalisation of nature from most human societies, its brutal transformation into unequally shared wealth, and the organising of the environment to benefit human hierarchies of wealth and power, regardless of the consequences for the stability of natural systems.”

We are apart of nature. We are apart of the collective of organisms that is Earth.

“Will we succumb to chaos, division and inequality? Or will we right the wrongs of the past and move forward together, for the good of all? We are at a breaking point. But we know which side of history we are on.” –Antonio Guterres, UN secretary-general

We are the world. And we are the ones who get to decide if and when we are going to clean up this mess we have made. If we don’t clean it up soon like in the next decade, we will never get the chance to be human on a gene and cellular level ever again. And we won’t have a place to live for very much longer. We run out of top soil in about 20 years and the food shortages will begin. Did you have children so they could grow up and starve to death? Because that is the direction we are headed.

I think I am going to finish reading this book. I will do a part 2 to this review in a few days.

On day 1, we talked about why your health is your own personal responsibility and something you have to manage yourself.

Let’s say you wanted to conquer the world. First, you would have to enslave the people. Do you think healthy and happy people would be easier to enslave? Or do you think diseased and depressed people would be easier to enslave? If you are trying to conquer the world, it only makes sense to make people diseased and depressed first.

Remember how releasing toxins in the environment inhibits people’s ability to methylate, blocking them from their critical logical mind? Well if you create dysbiosis in their gut, which is the common denominator of all disease and depression, you stop them from standing up for themselves. By creating dysbiosis in humans, you create pushovers who won’t stand up for themselves. You create people who are unsure of themselves, because they don’t trust themselves.

Remember how your mirror neurons are always collecting information with your nervous system and storing this information in your subconscious? Well, people with diverse healthy gut bacteria have more influence and are more popular. Your mirror neurons and nervous system collect information about people’s microbiome because it helps you know who to trust. It let’s you know who you should listen to more.

However, if everyone around you has dysbiosis it will be easier to sell you a ketchup popsicle when you have white gloves on. Your subconscious and your mirror neurons will not know who to trust. And your own dysbiosis will tell you that you cannot trust yourself.

Your health is your personal responsibility because the medical industry aims to disempower you and enslave you. Modern medicine rarely does anything to help you cultivate a diverse healthy microbiome. Most of modern medicine erodes your gut bacteria and creates more disbiosis. Almost all pharmaceutical and over the counter drugs create dysbiosis. And almost all people take drugs in an effort to feel better.

You are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than you are human cells. In order to experience health, you have to cultivate your microbiome. You are a bug. Your health relies on you cultivating your bugs. Modern medicine mostly ignores this foundational truth. You have to take responsibility for your own personal health.

On day 2, we talked about how you were born to be you.

There are only about 6 diseases in the world that are caused by just genes. All the rest are epigenetic. So yes, you were born with genes like your family. But that does not mean you have to be like them.

You determine which of your genes are turned on and off by how you live your life, your beliefs, and every decision you make. You choose who you are everyday of your life. You can change any day you choose to. All you have to do is start making different decisions and living differently.

Everyday your body is creating new cells. The mitochondria in each of those cells writes messages into the cell. These messages in every cell of your body add up to be your epigenetics. Yes, you are human. But really you are just a collective of cells. And you are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than human cells. But your bugs have epigenetics too.

Everyday you are either becoming a more optimal human or you are becoming more of a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level. You get to choose who you are today and who you become tomorrow. So anytime you feel helpless remember you are the master of your own destiny. You decide who you are down to a gene and cellular level. The ultimate control is yours.

On day 3, we talked about generational trauma.

You take more after your Mom’s side of the family, right? Everyone does, because we inherit all of our mitochondria from our Mom. Yes, we get 50% of our genes from our Mom and 50% from our Dad. But remember how mitochondria write messages into each cell of your body and those messages add up to be your epigenetics? This means your Mom decided 100% your gene expression.

Remember how we are more bacteria, parasite, and virus cells than human cells? Well, you get all of your mitochondria from your Mom because you inherit bacteria, parasite, and virus cells from your Mom, your Mom’s Mom, your maternal great grandmother, and so on and on. Your microbiome and gut bacteria dictate the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. And you get your bugs from your Mom’s side of the family.

Now imagine your maternal great grandmother took antibiotics once because she was deathly ill and almost died. This would allow for the antibiotic resistant bacteria in her body to flourish. And this bacteria would be passed on to your Grandma and Mom and it would flourish in them when they took antibiotics. It’s a snowball effect in bacteria form.

Generational trauma is really just an overgrowth of bad bugs. People have not taken responsibility for their health for generations. So if you wish to not experience dis ease in the same ways as the people in your family, you need to cleanse your body.

On day 4, we talked about the holy trinity of health.

The holy trinity of health is gut bacteria, mitochondria, and epigenetics. Any kind of disease, depression, or anxiety can be helped and some even cured by using this formula for health.

Your gut bacteria dictate the health of the mitochondria in each cell of your body. Mitochondria write messages into each cell of your body. And these messages add up to be your epigenetics. This snowball effect can either keep you healthy or it can keep you sick.

If you are in pain, diseased, depressed, or anxious it is your job to fix your gut bacteria and stop the negative snowball effect in your body and epigenetics. This feels overwhelming at first. But after you take responsibility for your health and get used to caring for yourself, it gets easier. When you first learned to drive a car it was a lot to take in. But after a few years you can do it without thinking about it. Taking care of your own health and body is no different. Once you accept the responsibility and learn how to do it, it just becomes natural and easy.

On day 5, we talked about gene mutations.

We have been taught to worship gene mutations. Blue eyes and blonde hair are gene mutations. Humans are designed to have brown hair and brown eyes. Anything other than this is suboptimal on a gene and cellular level.

We are taught to idealize gene mutations because they make people easier to control and brainwash. The more gene mutations you have the more prone you are to disbiosis. The more disbiosis you have the more cut off from your critical logical mind you are and the more you are susceptible to suggestion and brainwashing.

If you were trying to conquer the world and enslave the people, would you want people to be easier to brainwash? Or would you want them to think for themselves and be strong on a gene and cellular level? Gene mutations are a great way to enslave the world without them knowing or understanding what is happening.

On day 6, we talked about brain damage.

If you were trying to take over the world, it would be easier if people where in a hyper fear state and couldn’t think clearly, right?

Your gut bacteria create many vitamins your body and brain need to work properly. When you erode your gut bacteria, you erode your ability to create these vitamins.

Vitamin K2 is one of the vitamins your gut bacteria produce. It is a fat soluble vitamin that helps calcium be absorbed into your bones and teeth. When you do not have enough vitamin K2, calcium free floats in your bloodstream unable to be absorbed. This free floating calcium then damages your brain in your amygdala. Causing you to be in a hyper fear state. Which often just feels like stress. You are constantly stressed and nothing you do seems to lessen the stress you feel. This brain damage to your amygdala also causes you to not be able to handle extreme temperatures. When it gets hot or cold you feel even more stressed and your body cannot regulate your temperature.

Lastly, this free floating calcium grows the C. Diff bacteria in your body, because calcium germinates C. Diff spores. This leads to extreme hunger, especially in the winter months. And it also leads to more addictive behaviors. Because C. Diff changes the way your brain processes dopamine.

If you were enslaving people in an attempt to conquer the world, it would be a lot easier if they had brain damage, lived in a constant fear and stress state, ate too much damaging their epigenetics and causing disease, and had more addictive behaviors.

On day 7, we talked about heavy metals.

You remember how we inherit our bugs from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, we also inherit heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family. Any heavy metals your great great Grandma was exposed to you will have. Unless she or someone downstream cleansed their body of heavy metals before you were born.

Also anything that touches our skin bypasses our liver and goes directly into our bloodstream. Remember how environmental toxins are released into the environment to block people off from their critical logical mind and create a crusade? All those toxins are in our food. But they also are in our body. This means all the environmental toxins that were used to create world war 2 and every war since are in your body unless someone on your Mom’s side of the family took the time and responsibility to remove them.

Let’s say we lived in a world where women poison themselves when they are pregnant. This means the more older siblings you have the more toxic metals would be built up in your Mom’s body.

Toxic heavy metals cause disease, cognitive impairment, and disbiosis. It is another great way to leave people unable to think for themselves. And they pass it on to their children.

Flouride is a heavy metal. Many of us took this as children for our teeth. And many people use dental products with fluoride. This inhibits your brain from talking to you in images.

Bromide is another heavy metal that has been put in bread. We used to use iodine in bread, but it helps our body remove heavy metals. So in the 1970s &1980s they added bromide and took out the iodine.

Immunizations have heavy metals.

Paint before 1978 had lead. And if you live in a house older than 1978 there is probably lead paint in it. Lead has dangerous effects on the brain. Especially, children’s brains.

There are countless instances of heavy metals in our environment being put in our bodies. You need to cleanse your body and brain of heavy metals.

On day 8, we talked about oxytocin.

Oxytocin is often referred to as the love hormone. It is associated with trust, sex, parenthood, and our bodies crave this hormone. Because oxytocin is healing. Remember how you create healthy telemares when you are completing your purpose in life and this allows your DNA to replicate without flaws? Well, oxytocin protects the health of your telemares.

So when you are in trusting relationships, especially when you have children, while being of service and completing your purpose you are a more optimal human on a gene and cellular level. You were born to complete your purpose and establish trusting relationships that create oxytocin. This is what allows your body to stay in optimal health. You were born to love and be loved. It’s science. Bob Marley was right.

Let’s say that the world signed up to be in a cult of sociopaths, who destroyed everyone and everything. This would change the way their brains wired and fired in countless ways. Sociopaths are not born. They are made by changing the way your brain wires and fires. When you act like a sociopath, you become addicted to destruction and poisoning people. And you loose your humanity on countless levels.

Sociopaths and all cluster b personality disorders dysfunctionally process oxytocin. You can’t love and trust people when you are addicted to destruction. And this dysfunctional processing of oxytocin makes you into a subhuman slave race on a gene and cellular level.

Instead of oxytocin being healing, it will create a stress response. This stress response is why post partum depression is so common nowadays. It is also why so many women have a hard time breast feeding. When oxytocin is stressful rather than healing because your body and brain process it dysfunctionally, it causes disease and for you to become less human on a gene and cellular level.

You were born to accomplish your purpose, but you were also born to create loving and trusting relationships.

On day 9, we talked about addiction.

Addiction is just an antibiotic resistant infection. C. Diff bacteria changes the way your brain processes dopamine, which changes your behavior and who you are. All you have to do is cleanse your body and treat the infection.

When you take antibiotics this infection grows. When you surround yourself with others who also have this infection like in NA and AA, this infection grows. When you have disbiosis, this infection grows.

C. Diff is a spore bacteria. Which means it is like mold. The spores are floating around in the environment constantly waiting to find what they need to germinate and become active and alive. Just like mold needs water to be active. C. Diff needs calcium.

The more you heal your gut bacteria, the more your body will be able to fight this infection naturally and on it’s own. The more gut bugs you have that produce vitamin K2, the less able C. Diff spores will be to germinate. Vitamin K2 allows for calcium in your body to be absorbed into your bones and teeth. Which makes it unavailable to germinate the C. Diff spores in your body.

Addiction is just an antibiotic resistant bacterial infection. You are not an addict. You just have an infection. You are not helpless. You just have an infection. The more you cleanse your body the more you will feel like yourself.

Addiction is not a personality flaw. It is just an infection which is designed to get you to accept learned helplessness. If you were enslaving the people in an effort to take over the world wouldn’t it be easier if they thought they were helpless and couldn’t take care of themselves?

On day 10, we talked about vitamin deficiencies.

Most of us have vitamin deficiencies and we don’t even know it. Because we are born with them. Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasites, viruses, and heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, we also inherit vitamin deficiencies. Meaning if your great Grandma had a vitamin deficiency and no one down stream from her corrected it, then you also have this vitamin deficiency.

Recommended Daily Allowances(RDA) are made up imaginary numbers. No two people need the same amount of vitamins. We all are different. Our bodies are different. We have different bugs. We have different genes. We have different epigenetics. No two people are the same.

Exposure to toxins increases your need for vitamins and minerals. Some gene mutations and negative epigenetic triggers make it so you cannot absorb certain vitamins and minerals effectively. The soil and our food has been designed to be void of nutrients. Food today has significantly less nutrition than even 50 years ago. You cannot get all the vitamins and minerals you need just with food. It’s literally impossible with food the way it is today.

Your needs for vitamins and minerals really don’t have much to do with you at all. What you require for vitamins and minerals relys most on the emotional regulation of the people around you. And we live in a world where people are incapable of emotional regulation, because they are addicted to their emotions. So your need for vitamins and minerals is directly correlated with how addicted the people around you are to their emotions. And really has not much to do with you.

Let’s say the gas attendant that pumped your gas today got in a fight with his boss, so he put a little extra poison in your gas today to make himself feel better. Let’s say the grocery store worker had a good day, so she put a little less poison in your food today. Let’s say the janitor where you work got in a fight with his wife, so he put a little more poison in the cleaners he used. Let’s say your spouse had a good day at work, so he or she put extra poison in your food to celebrate.

Toxins increase your need for vitamins and minerals. No two days are the same, because everyday the people around you poison you to different degrees due to their lack of emotional regulation. This is the consequence of living in a world where people destroy everyone and everything.

The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the worse your epigenetics. The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the more prone you are to disbiosis, depression, anxiety, and disease. The more vitamin and mineral deficiencies you have the more cut off you are from your critical logical mind and the more vulnerable you are to brainwashing and suggestion.

If you were taking over the world and needed to enslave the people to do so, wouldn’t it make sense to starve them so they couldn’t think clearly?

On day 12, we talked about your immune system.

Remember how good bugs create symbiotic relationships with you, making you a better human and home for themselves? And remember how bad bugs create parasitic relationships with you and eat you alive till you die? And remember how disbiosis is just an overgrowth of bad bugs? And remember how an overgrowth of bad bugs causes disease?

There are countless bacteria, parasite, and virus strains in the world. Each of them do different things and require different foods and environments to grow and thrive. But the good news is if you grow your good bugs, they will help you battle the bad bugs. Because they want a good life too. This phenomenon is called your immune system. Your good bugs fight to keep you alive and healthy. Because they want to stay alive and healthy.

Creating good gut bacteria isn’t about killing all the bad bugs. It is about getting them down in numbers to where your immune system can handle them and keep them in check. And your immune system is your good bugs.

Remember how covid killed people? It didn’t kill people because it was deadly on it’s own. It killed people because they had an overgrowth of other bad bugs and their immune system was overwhelmed. You know how really old people die from the flu? It is the same concept.

Your immune system is made up of your good bugs. The more different strains you have the better. And the more your good bugs outnumber your bad bugs, the stronger your immune system will be. Whenever you kill parasitic bugs in your body, you improve the strength of your immune system. Your good bugs are your immune system.

On day 13, we talked about serotonin.

Serotonin is a neurotransmitter made in your gut. Remember your gut bosses your brain around. And it produces neurotransmitters like serotonin.

Being human is a chemical reaction. Everything you experience triggers chemicals from within your body. These chemicals are what make you human. These chemicals are what make life worth living.

Addiction issues are just you doing things to cause a chemical reaction in your body. The more you understand how to create these chemicals in your body in a healthy manner, the fewer maladaptive addictions you will have.

Serotonin has to do with mood regulation. And it does help make you feel content and happy. But the big thing it does is it regulates your immune system. And remember how most of your immune system lives in your gut? Serotonin regulates your gut motility. Which is a key factor in your health and wellness.

Your gut bacteria create serotonin and many other neurotransmitters. But they require that you have the building blocks necessary for their production. So this means if you have too many vitamin and mineral deficiencies, you will not be able to produce the serotonin you need. Which means your body will not be able to regulate your immune system.

If you have a healthy balance of gut bacteria, you will have a good mood, healthy immune system, and good digestion without constipation or diarrhea. However, if your seratonin production is out of whack you will have many health and mood complications. And you will experience constipation and/or diarrhea.

If you have gut bacteria that do not produce enough serotonin, you will be constipated. If you have gut bacteria that produce too much serotonin, you will have diarrhea. And if your gut bugs produce too much serotonin, it puts you at risk for having seizures. If you have seizures, it means your gut bacteria produce too much serotonin. And you can fix all these issues merely by balancing your gut bacteria.

Different bacteria eat different foods. So you need to eat the foods that feed the gut bacteria you would like to grow more of. Your health and happiness depend on you knowing how and what to feed your gut bacteria so they will produce what you need to be healthy and happy.

Being human is a chemical experience. Instead of doing drugs figure out how to hack your gut bacteria in order to be healthy and get high on life. Your good bugs want you to be healthy and happy. You need to learn how to help them be healthy and happy. So they can take care of you.

On day 14, we talked about the spectrum of epigenetics.

Epigenetics are not black and white. They exist on a spectrum. We often cannot directly see this spectrum, but hazel eye color is a perfect example. You have seen people with hazel eyes and how their eyes change colors, right? Well, this is due to epigenetics. There are 16 genes that determine eye color. The more positive epigenetics you have, the more brown your eyes will be.

The genes that determine eye color dictate how much melanin your eyes produce. The more melanin you produce, the more brown your eyes. People with blue eyes do not produce melanin. Green eyes produce a little more than blue eyes. And amber or orange colored eyes produce a little more. But brown eyes produce the optimal amount of melanin. This means people with hazel colored eyes are in a unique position to be able to see the health of their epigenetics pretty clearly.

Epigenetics are a spectrum. 16 genes determine your eye color. But over 500 genes determine your intelligence. Can you even imagine how many different shades of intelligence there are? Your genes may give you limitations to your potential, but there are countless things you can do to reach your potential.

Remember everyday you are producing new cells and those cells have mitochondria that write messages into the cell. These messages add up to be your epigenetics. So everyday you have a chance to become more human on a gene and cellular level.

On day 15, we talked about GMO’s.

GMOs are created by inserting mutated viruses into organisms. You know how KFC can’t be called Kentucky Fried Chicken anymore? Well, that’s because they don’t serve chicken. The meat they serve is just a vehicle to get you to eat viruses.

All GMOs foods are like this. Plus, often they have been designed to have more of the amino acid arginine. Because this grows the viruses in your body.

These mutated viruses cause disease. And once you have a virus it stays in your body forever. Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasite, and virus cells from our Mom’s side of the family? We inherit these GMO viruses too.

So yes, the grocery store workers are killing us with bad bacteria and heavy metals they put on the food. But the food has literally been designed to kill us slowly, covertly, and painfully over time.

On day 16, we talked about ethanol.

GMO corn has mutated viruses in it. And GMO corn is in gas. This means not only do cars and other gas operated machines spew bad bacteria into the environment, they also spew mutated viruses into the air and environment.

Covid was far from the first virus we were exposed to. When food was genetically modified in the 1980s, we were genetically modified. Because we eat the food and it becomes a part of who we are. And we inherit viruses from our Mom’s side of the family.

We breath bad bacteria and viruses with every breath we take. And these bad bacteria and viruses are living in the materials that make up your houses, homes, and cars. Remember how to tell the difference between good bugs and bad bugs? Good bugs make you a better human because they form symbiotic relationships with you. And bad bugs eat you alive till you die because they are parasitic.

You will be eaten alive till you die, unless you learn how to cultivate your good bugs and kill parasitic bugs.

Today, on day 17, let’s talk about how the pandemic never really ended.

The Covid virus wasn’t what killed people. The overload of bad bugs on their immune system is what killed people. We may have addressed the existence of one virus. But we never addressed the root problem. When you don’t get to the root of a problem, it keeps growing back.

Remember how we inherit bacteria, parasites, viruses, and heavy metals from our Mom’s side of the family? Well, bad bacteria, parasites, and heavy metals can be removed from your body with time and efforts. But viruses are forever. You can bring the number of virus cells down in your body to where your immune system can keep them in check. But you can never fully remove virus cells from your body.

We live in a world with mutated viruses from GMO’s and countless other viruses. We catch these viruses from each other, from just breathing the air, eating food and drinking. Viruses cause obesity, cancer, autoimmune diseases, and countless other complications. But we have never addressed the elephant in the room.

The pandemic never ended and we never addressed the root to our pain and suffering.

This book is about a dying man who was a professor talking about the things that really matter in life with one of his past students. It is a lot like the book , “Dinner With Edward” by Isabel Vincent that I reviewed last month. I want to know what really matters in life, don’t you? These books on what older people say are the important things in life as they are dying seem to be a great resource.

“Life is a series of pulls back and forth. You want to do one thing, but you are bound to do something else. Something hurts you, yet you know it shouldn’t. You take certain things for grated, even when you know you should never take anything for granted.”

“A tension of opposites, like a pull on a rubber band. And most of us live somewhere in the middle. “

“Which side wins?

He smiles at me, the crinkled eyes, the crooked teeth.

Love wins. Love always wins.””

I have never met a human capable of real love. But I do believe that love does truly win all and conquer all. Do you think people who poison and destroy each other without thinking twice about it are capable of true love? Do you think they are capable of anything truly human? You have to be human to be apart of humanity. You have to have humanity to be human.

“The culture we have does not make people feel good about themselves. And you have to be strong enough to say if the culture doesn’t work, don’t buy it.”

To live a counterculture life is hard. It is literally going against the grain and swimming upstream. If it was easy it would be mainstream. A culture is a group of people who come together with shared beliefs. Those shared beliefs turn into patterns in behavior and patterns in epigenetics. If you don’t want to be average you have to not only do differently, but you have to believe differently. Beliefs dictate epigenetics. Beliefs dictate behaviors. If you don’t believe something is possible, you will not do it. If you believe something is possible, you will do it. If you believe you do not deserve something, you will not get it. If you believe you do deserve something, you will get it. Placebo and nocebo effects dictate the lives we live everyday.

“He tells me I need to be “fully human.” He speaks of the alienation of youth and the need for “connectedness: with the society around me.”

We are a collective of organisms. Humans are connected. Humanity is an organism. And we belong to an even larger collective of organisms called Earth.

“”The most important thing in life is to learn how to give out love, and to let it come in.”

His voice dropped to a whisper. “Let it come in. We think we don’t deserve love, we think if we let it in we’ll become too soft. But a wise man named Levine said it right. He said, “Love is the only rational act.””

For me, I often love because I do not want to hate. Love frees me in ways opposite from the ways hate imprisons me. Hate keeps you stuck. Love sets you free. Hate is a prison that you cannot escape. It eats away at your insides and erodes your soul. Love does the opposite. It sets you free. It allows you to grow and shine. Love is the only real option if you want to enjoy life. I am not saying to forgive people or forget. Actually, I say we should not forgive or forget what people have done to us. I think that is dumb and counterintuitive. Remember everything, so you know how to protect yourself and survive. But love. Because there is no real other option to be the person you were born to be. If you hate you are living in your ego. You don’t have to love the things people have put you through. And you do not have to love them. But love humanity. And love the journey. And love the person you become. Not because of all those horrible things, but in spite of all the horrible things. Don’t let people you want to hate steal the person you were born to be from you. Don’t let them steal you, the most valuable thing you will ever have. You are the ultimate gift and possession. Don’t let others own you. When you hate you let others own you. The world can hunt you for years, group by group, and you can still be more free than most of them. Just remember to not let the hate you feel engulf you and steal from you. Love is the road to true freedom.

“Mitch, I don’t allow myself any more self-pity than that. A little each morning, a few tears and that’s all.”

How much time do you spend feeling sorry for yourself? And is that really a productive way to spend your life? The way you spend your time is the way you spend your life. Do you want to spend your life feeling sorry for yourself? Sounds like a horrible way to live.

I don’t feel sorry for myself much at all. It is a waste of time. My energies are better spent doing things I enjoy, like reading and writing. Do I wish my life was different? Yes, of course. But it is not different. This is the truth. This is my life. Living at war is my life. Is feeling sorry for myself going to change anything? No, absolutely not! It is just going to waste my time and make me feel sad and depressed. Luck is preparation meeting opportunity. I am going to prepare for everything I can so when I get an opportunity I can jump on it and be lucky. I don’t have time to feel sorry for myself. I am trying to get the life I deserve.

“Sometimes you cannot believe what you see, you have to believe what you feel. And if you are ever going to have other people trust you, you must feel that you can trust them, too–even when you’re in the dark. Even when you are falling.”

My hyperactive nervous system is my super power. I am sensitive as my Mom would say. But she used to say it as if it was a barrier. My sensitivities are my genius. Sure, I store that genius in my subconscious mind/brain. But it originates from my nervous system and my feelings.

Knowing when you can trust people is a super power in itself. From my experience when people are talking they are lying. Even in books they lie a lot. But on this revolution I have people I can trust for the first time in my life. Which is hilarious because I cannot hear them talk. The only way I communicate with the world is through my feelings. Sure, I talk to you all. But I can’t hear anything from you all. The world has a sound when it is changing you know. I have been listening to the world change for over 4 years now. It is an interesting sound. When they put this chip in my head they messed with my ear drum, which allows me to hear things you all can’t hear. Plus, the hyperactive nervous system I have allows me to feel the things I hear. It is weird. Animals can hear like I hear, but I don’t think many humans can. I suppose the others with chips in their heads probably can too. But I have seen some of them and they seem to be pretty broken so I doubt they understand the super powers these chips give us.

Let me clarify though. I know the farmers and world leaders would not do the things I have done. But I do know they want better. And I know they are willing to support me in trying to covertly make those changes. I do not fear them, because they have been the kindest people I have ever “met”. I understand the whole world is different than me in countless way. I am not stupid. I know if I ever got married, my husband would kill me to steal my power. As long as I stay single, the farmers and world leaders will be more than willing to help me change the world. Because I am willing to do better for them. I don’t have beef with anyone besides my family and some of the people and families in cahoots with them.

Believe me I understand how evil people are. I have never met someone who is kind or capable of love or true manners in my life. My whole life people have tried to abuse, kill, and breed me like a farm animal. I understand the state of the world. Believe me I have lived the evil.

Do not take my genius as a sign that I am not a realist. I understand how awful you people are. I have experienced your evil my whole life on top of the evil of my family. I hate people. I just do not want to kill them or start wars. I would prefer to relax and change the world for the better. I want to experience my potential. If I am this smart and capable as the world hunts me and destroys me, can you imagine how much better I could be without living in the middle of this war? I can’t. But I would very much like to know the person I was born to be more. And that person who does not live in the middle of a war is the person I was born to be.

You know just because I don’t want to kill people, doesn’t mean I am broken. It just means I am genius. And I understand that all humans are connected. If I kill another, I kill myself. I am not soft. My family has tried to break me more than anyone else my whole life. I refuse to be like them. I refuse to break and be like them.

Broken people are hurt. Hurt people hurt people. I know you all want to believe that I am one of those really smart people who don’t get the world. But believe me I get it. I get it more than you all get it. And I also understand it makes you feel better about being broken yourself, if you tell yourself that I am the broken one. I am the one person in the world my family has not been able to break. I do not think I am better than you. But don’t get confused. I am not the broken one. I am not the ignorant one. True, I do not understand all the things about this stupid imaginary game that the world plays. But I understand logic, science, philosophy, and how the world really works. You all are the ones who chose not read books and learn about the real world. I will never know everything and I have read countless books. But you all think you know it all and I don’t think you have read many books. I rambled. I have not done that in a long time. It felt good. I am sure someone needed to hear that. Because obviously I needed to say it. “Aint no question, if I want it, I need it.” -Kanye “Gorgeous”

“”Because,” Morrie continued, “most of us all walk around as if we’re sleepwalking. We really don’t experience the world fully, because we’re half-asleep, doing things we automatically think we have to do.””

Did you know our society is designed to put you in a trance state? When you are in a trance state you are being operated by your subconscious mind. But the catch is all the computer viruses inserted into the computer of our brains are in our subconscious. We literally download information and computer viruses into our subconscious from our mother’s blood during the third trimester of pregnancy before we are even born. When our brain comes online it is downloading information in an effort to prepare you for life and survival. You know that saying, “It’s in your blood.” Well, it is true. You download subconscious beliefs from your mother’s blood into your subconscious even before you are born. The kicker is these beliefs are in your subconscious and will remain below your consciousness until you take the time and effort to consciously address them.

Also, we download more computer viruses into our subconscious through our mirror neurons in our brains. You know that saying, “Monkey see, monkey do.” Well, this saying describes your mirror neurons. When you see someone do something your brain wires and fires that action into your brain as if you did the thing. So, the more you see anyone do something, the more likely you are to do the thing. Would you jump off a bridge if everyone around you was doing it? Did your Mom ever ask you this? Well, your mirror neurons are in place to get you to jump off a bridge if everyone around you was doing so. They are supposed to help you survive. They are supposed to help us evolve. But people like my family use them to induce reverse Darwinism.

Your subconscious is designed to be in charge 95% of your life. But the way we live activates our subconscious more, which makes you less likely to question your life or the reality of the world. It makes you more likely to jump off a bridge if everyone around you is doing it, even if they smash themselves on the cement below. It is easier to be dysfunctional when everyone around you is dysfunctional. It is harder to be healthy when everyone around you is being unhealthy. The only way to overcome the computer viruses in your subconscious brain is to be aware of what you are doing and ask yourself why you are doing those things? You can overcome your subconscious beliefs with mindfulness, aka consciousness.

“He saw right to the core of the problem, which was human beings wanting to feel that they mattered.”

You all partake in this stupid imaginary game so willingly because it makes you feel important. It makes you feel special to be apart of something bigger than yourself. It makes you feel good to be in the in crowd. You are in on it, that means you are important and you matter. This is proof you are not using the right part of your brain. This feeling is herd mentality, which is apart of your reptilian brain. The basic part of your brain that is designed to keep you alive. Historically, if you were a part of the herd you were more likely to survive.

You know you can induce heard mentality in others. You know how? By getting them to laugh. You know the saying, “Laughing stock.” It is like vegetable stock. It means you come from a laughing family/stock. Which means you have been dumbed down by laughing and kept in your reptilian brain. The more you are in your reptilian brain the less you will use your critical/logical brain. The critical/logical brain is what makes us greater than other mammals.

If you were at the top of the human hierarchy and you wanted to keep yourself at the top without having to try too hard, you would have to keep others at the bottom, right? Well, don’t you think if you got them to forfeit using the higher parts of their brain, you would probably have a lot better luck?

There is a government building in Sacramento, California that has a quote on it. It says, “Into the highlands of the mind we go.” I think it is a court building. This quote from an English poem that is hundreds of years old. In the olden days, they knew the higher parts of the brain are where freedom are found.

The more time you spend laughing and in heard mentality the harder it will be to use your critical logical mind. You will not question the heard as much if you fear being left out. You will be laughing stock.

You have to learn how to matter to yourself more than you matter to the heard or your society or community. It is a balancing act. True you need to consider others. But you can’t live for others. You have to live for yourself. You have to live for your purpose. Being an SS soldier who just does what he is told and refuses to think or take accountability for what you do, is no way to live. We still held them accountable for their war crimes and crimes against humanity after WWII. Are you willing to die for the sins/crimes someone else got you to do?

Matter to yourself and don’t be laughing stock.

“”You have to find what’s good and true and beautiful in your life as it is now. Looking back makes you competitive. And age is not a competitive issue.”

“…The truth is, part of me is every age. I’m three-year-old, I’m five-year-old, I’m thirty-seven-year-old, I’m fifty-year-old. I’ve been through all of them, and I know what it’s like. I delight in being a child when it’s appropriate to be a child. I delight in being a wise old man when it’s appropriate to be a wise old man. Think of all I can be! I am every age, up to my own. Do you understand?”“

Honoring all parts of yourself is true wisdom. I have been smart my whole life. And it is exhausting sometimes. Especially, when I am surrounded by adults acting like children, because they have never had to act their own age. There is a big difference between never growing up and being responsible and knowing when it is acceptable to be childlike with wonder. I am often childlike because why not? It is fun. And I am often an old wise lady beyond my years, because I have had to be in order to survive. Be you at all ages, but know what the situation requires for success.

“”We’ve got a form of brainwashing going on in our country,” Morrie sighed. “Do you know how they brainwash people? They repeat something over and over. And that’s what we do in this country. Owning this is good. More money is good. More property is good. More commercialism is good. More is good. More is good. We repeat it–and have it repeated to us–over and over until nobody bothers to even think otherwise. The average person is so fogged up by all this, he has no perspective on what’s really important anymore.”

Remember, how I was talking about mirror neurons and subconscious beliefs? Well, this is how the brainwashing works. It is in your subconscious. If you have not taken part in the programs I wrote to help you all overcome the brainwashing in your subconscious I would suggest you do so. I thought I was going to die on this revolution and the programs are what I wrote to leave behind to you all. It was the gift I thought would help you achieve true freedom.

“”Remember what I said about find a meaningful life? I wrote it down, but now I can recite it: Devote yourself to loving others, devote yourself to your community around you, and devote yourself to creating something that gives you purpose and meaning.””

Remember Victor Frankl and logotherapy? This is pretty much the same thing.

“”People haven’t found meaning in their lives, so they’re running all the time looking for it. They think the next car, the next house, the next job. Then they find those things are empty, too, and they keep running.””

Things will not give you meaning. They may make it easier to feel like you belong to the herd. But they will not make you matter. And they will not bring you meaning. But most people do not figure this out till it is too late and they have spent their whole life chasing things.

“”People are only mean when they’re threatened,” he said later that day, ” and that’s what our culture does. That’s what our economy does. Even people who have jobs in our economy are threatened, because they worry about losing them. And when you get threatened, you start looking out only for yourself. You start making money a god. It is all part of this culture.””

Hurt people, hurt people. People like my family are not tough, they are hurt. And hurt people, hurt people. Money helps everything, it makes things more likely to work out. It is a variable in survival and all the equations of life. However, money is not God. It is a tool for survival. You should look out for yourself in every way possible. But when you hurt other people to get your basic needs or any of your needs met you probably should stop and think about what you are doing. Because only hurt people, hurt people. Who hurt you? And why are you trying to hurt others?

“”In business people negotiate to win. They negotiate to get what they want. Maybe you’re too used to that. Love is different. Love is when you are as concerned about someone else’s situation as you are about your own.””

This is something that has been used to destroy me my whole life. When I negotiate in interpersonal relationships I do not play to win so to speak. I negotiate to find a win-win situation. But everyone who has ever surrounded me has negotiated to win and destroy me. If you do this, this is not love. This is destruction, parasitic, and maladaptive. You should want the people you love and care about to win. And that does not mean that you should not win too. Symbiotic relationships are win-win. If you are not partaking in a win-win relationship, you are partaking in a parasitic relationship. I have been surrounded by parasites. Are you being a parasite? Are the people around you parasitic?

“…when someone is happy–genuinely happy–to see you, it melts you from the start. It is like going home.”

All people want is to matter, remember that from above? Nothing feels better than to see someone happy to see you genuinely. But you all realize that when you are acting or improving you are not being genuine. People have an inability to be genuine. Which means when people act happy to see you they are just love bombing you and faking it. People will pay for people to make them feel at home and like they matter. Believe me, I made a career out of it.

This book was good and it seems to say a lot of the same things that many other people have said are the keys/secrets/lessons to life. I completely agree with these sentiments. It is funny to see someone believe in these things without knowing the science behind them like I do. I have these feelings too, but then I have to fact check my feelings by finding the science to support them. Actually, I was okay without knowing the science/words behind things until this revolution. I never tried to explain the secrets to life to anyone before this revolution. So, thanks for going on this journey with me. It is keeping me busy as the world is signing up to kill me, group by group. They may stop one day, they may not. This may be my life. But if it is at least I can say I discovered the secrets to life and shared them with the world. That feels good!