Author: Nizi

There is no right or wrong way to do this. Sure, some factors will help your brain rewire faster. But as long as you listen to this repeatedly, it will change your brain for the better. Thus, changing who you are on a gene and cellular level and making you more human.

Motion creates emotion. And emotion helps to change your brain. So I encourage you all to do something while listening to this. Folding laundry, cleaning the kitchen, walking your dog, yoga, deep breathing, etc will all help this information sink into your subconscious quicker. Plus, getting things done will also create positive emotion and make you want to listen to this more. The more repeative habitual movement you do while listening, the more your brain will change.

Another very important and effective tactic for reprogramming your brain is to listen to this right before you go to sleep or fall asleep listening. Breath deep, relax, and just let it all seep into your subconscious mind. The less you try to do, the more it will work. Have you seen those pictures where you have to unfocus your eyes in order to see the picture? Your brain is just like that. The more you relax, let loose, and just let it happen, the more change you will experience.

Also, headphones will increase the effect of these talks. Your brain takes things more seriously when it cannot tell if the voice is coming from inside your head or outside. This is why headphones are a bit dangerous. No matter what you are listening to your brain thinks it’s you talking to yourself. It’s a computer. It takes things literally. You are literally putting another voice in your head. If you do not like headphones, don’t use them. I do not prefer them and was able to reprogram myself without them.

There are no right or wrong ways to do this. Just do what works and feels best for you. Everyone is different. I like really strong black coffee. But you may not. Sure it has to do with our taste buds, but mostly it has to do with the way our brain filters the signals from our nervous system. My brain is different than yours because my brain is wired differently because we all live differently everyday. What feels best for you today is what you should do. And what feels best for you today may not feel best 6 months from now when your brain has changed.

This is not going to be much different than my other talks. We are just going to talk about all the things I have wanted to share with the world for a lifetime. If you have been tuned in for awhile, I am sure you have heard most of these things already. But reprogramming your subconscious mind is about repetition. And it’s not really about remembering these things I talk about with your logical brain. It’s about just letting them in to literally sink in. It’s like steeping tea. You just have to hang out with the tea bag in your mug and you get tea.

Everyday we will talk about a lot of the same things. And I will slip in new things here and there. This will allow your brain to cling onto what it likes. When you think you are allowing your subconscious programs to run. Over 90% of your day your subconscious mind is running the show because you are thinking. Spacing off is probably one of the healthiest things you can do for your brain. Sure, you can call this meditation or flow state. But really it’s just a state of being at ease and not over thinking everything.

Life is supposed to put us at ease. Your life is easy. When you are at ease, everything is easy. Even complex things can be easy. When you are not at ease, you are creating dis-ease in your life and especially in your body. It’s not lazy to want life to be easy. It’s how you were designed to be and run.

When you feel fear, it prevents your body and immune system from healing. And when you are stressed or feeling fear it stops your brain from working properly. So the most revolutionary thing you can do everyday is learn how to be and stay calm. Life has it’s ups and downs. But it’s easier to handle everything when you are calm.

I encourage you all to get excited about life. And really learn how to change your perspective on anxiety. Maybe it’s just excitement about the unknown? Living in the present moment is also very helpful in putting yourself at ease. This all sounds really nice, right? But how are you supposed to do this?

Everyone always says to calm down and to breath, but I know that has rarely been enough in my own life. I was stuck in a hyperactive fear state for most of my life. And I bet you all can relate to this more than you want to really admit. There are countless science things that are happening in your body in order to create this fear state that causes dis-ease. And me explaining all of those fancy science things doesn’t really help you too much on a daily basis, because it doesn’t change your subconscious mind. So yes you need to take magnesium, potassium, vitamin K2, and countless other vitamins and supplements. But I want to give you a way to turn your fear response off that’s free and you can do any time you need to. Ten seconds and you can reset your fear response from your reptilian brain. And if ten seconds doesn’t work, then do it again. Rarely does it take more than 30 seconds to get a sense of relief from using this technique to reset your brain.

Look straight ahead and without moving your head move your eyes back and forth from side to side. It doesn’t matter if it is right to left or left to right. Do what feels best for you. This is a way to hack the program running in reptilian brain that causes the overactive fear response from the amygdala damage we all have. This will help you learn how to self soothe.

Being calm is a superpower. And often people in my family cult like to make you think they have it. But there is a big difference from being a calm human and an uninvested sociopath. Being sensitive and aware of your nervous system is your super power as a human with humanity. You just have to know how to turn it off when it overwhelms you. This rapid eye movement is how you turn your nervous system off for a moment. It allows you to breath and filter all the information through your brain. We get overloaded with information from our nervous system and our brain can’t catch up. This is what you need to do to stop the information from overloading your brain. It gives it the few seconds it needs to catch up, take a deep breath, and organize all this new information to make sense.

Often being overwhelmed just means you’re really good at collecting information and your brain just needs some time to catch up and sort it all out. Over stimulation from too much input creates a state in your body much like that of fear. Stress is stress. And often stress is just a sign your brain and body need time to catch up and you are pushing too hard. Stress can be good too. You just have to learn to know when your body or brain needs a minute to catch up.

It’s like when I’m walking my dog Haywood off leash and he finds something that smells really good to him. He has to take an extra minute to filter that information from his nervous system, and nose, through his brain. But all I have to do is pause for a minute to give him time and he catches up. Your brain just needs to catch up to your nervous system in order to make sense of everything. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you.

You live in a world that is overstimulating and filled with more information than ever before in human history. You are doing more than your human body was designed for. You are not broken, you are a genius trying to sort out all the books of information you have in your library of a brain. Every library was unorganized until the Dewey decimal system was created. And if the Dewey decimal system doesn’t make sense or work for you, do what works for you. There is absolutely no right or wrong way to organize your brain and nervous system. What wires together fires together, and your brain is unique to you.

What works best for you is to find what works best for you. I can tell you how I do things but my brain is different. Everyone’s brain is different. Your gut controls how you use your brain. Which means your microbiome and gut bacteria dictate how you use your brain. And your gut bacteria and microbiome have epigenetics of their own that effect your epigenetics. We all are very different from each other. And we all are changing every minute of every day. There is no right or wrong, only what works for you and what doesn’t work for you.

Life is meant to be easy. You just have to figure out what puts you at ease. Self soothing and learning to be calm is where everything comes together. Your immune system, your brain, your body, your soul, and your heart need you to be calm and at ease in order to be the person you are meant to be. The more you are able to remain calm while inputting the overwhelming information from the world through your nervous system and learning to store and organize that information in your brain the more powerful you will be.

“Her father truly believed that the Democratic party was a subversive organization whose design would destroy the United States and put it in the hands of bearded communists.”

~John Steinbeck, The Wayward Bus 1947

Every time we start a new group or rung on the caste system of this stupid imaginary game this is the grid. Every group within that caste system in the world is represented in this grid. Some have leaders in this grid, but most report to leaders outside the grid. However, if we reach all the groups within the grid, we are able to reach their leaders worldwide.

In some areas, we reached the majority of the people. But there are always some people left fighting for my family and to be a subhuman race. We need to reach everyone. Otherwise we will be playing this part of the game for months again. And then with the next group we just start over again. This is the pattern of this revolution and the past almost 3 years.

So today let’s reach the regular ordinary people or the Americans and let’s reach all of them.

Have you ever looked for a sign so hard you got even more lost?

We often ask God for a sign and all too often we expect that sign to jump out and change our lives instantly. But humans are the ones who rule the material world. God exists in our nervous system and our feelings. So when we take a sign from the material world and interpret it as God we get even more off track and lost.

God speaks in many ways to us all, but rarely does he use the material world. God is a feeling and he speaks through feelings and rarely through material things. The answers are inside you. Because we all are God like. Find the pieces of God within yourself and you will find the answers you seek.

My family had all these weird little sayings my whole life. And I never really understood them until this revolution. “It’s better to be feared than loved,” is one I never understood until the past few years. This is pretty much their wargames motto.

However, another saying that never made sense till very recently is, ” Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer.” My family recently inflated the stockmarket with a big wave of money. And I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from. Well, that is until last night. My family likes to pretend they are a royal family from Louis the 18th days. And they have created a court around them. This is explained fully in the books that make up their cult Playbook.

My family has finally tapped into the people they keep in their court. My Grandma Kudearoff had people she kept close, but she also had friends. My mom and her siblings and my Dad, do not have friends. They only have enemies. And they keep these people close. But these people have no clue my family views them as enemies. They feel privileged to be kept so close, not understanding why my family keeps them close.

Louis the 18th did not have doors in the palace of Versailles because he wanted to hear everything that was happening. This is why my family keeps their enemies so close and treats them as friends. It allows for them to know their business and limit their experience in any way that will be beneficial to my family. No one kept close to my family is allowed potential. Privilege is their prison. But yet they rarely see it. Because somehow my family brainwashes them to believe they are the chosen ones. People get drunk on feelings of belonging and loose sight of everything else.

I need to connect with the people my family keeps in their courts. But they keep these people extremely sheltered. Even after being in Eugene/Springfield for almost 3 years, these court members have absolutely no clue I’m still alive. I need your help reaching these people. The sooner we reach these people the sooner we exhaust my family’s greatest resource. Other people’s resources and power will forever be my family’s greatest resource. They never do anything for themselves. They always get other people to do things for them. The sooner we eliminate this option for them, the sooner we obtain our freedom.

Here are some maps I drew of where these people live. Remember I’m logic brain based so drawing maps is not in my wheelhouse. I need you all to get me connected with the people who live in these shaded grids I have created. These most valuable court members live in Thurston, Springfield, North Eugene, and West Eugene. And my Grandma Kudearoff’s friends live in Glenwood and Southwest Springfield. My family has warred on my Grandma Kudearoff’s friends. I’m guessing it’s because they stood up for themselves just like I did. My family hates people who do not fully submit immediately. And they tend to make examples out of these kind of people, just like they did with me. It allows for people to live in fear of them and ties right into their wargames motto:  “It’s better to be feared than loved.”

I’m going to need everyone’s help reaching the people in my family’s court. These people’s money is how my family is continuing to rig the stockmarket. Once we reach these people we are guaranteed a brand of freedom we have never known before. And then my family will be in a prison they literally created for themselves. I sure love irony. How about you?

Excuse more poor mapping skills, I’m new to creating revolutions and figuring out imaginary lines that rule this stupid imaginary game still. It’s all so ridiculous. But here we are.

Sometimes life gets choppy. And sometimes life is smooth. But life is still just life. Don’t overvalue the current state because tides are always changing. Create security by looking at the big picture, where small waves don’t really matter that much.

There is always light to be found, but sometimes it feels impossible to see the light. Clouds can blind us. Hardships can blind us. Life gets complex and complications arise, often too frequently for our liking. Find the light and follow that light. Because it usually leads to more light and brighter days.

I’m way behind in my photos but I am catching up.

Life is about the hard times. We grow in these times and develop the skills and gifts we need to flourish during the good times. Without the hard times, we wouldn’t be who we are meant to be. Because if things were always good we would never be motivated to grow and change. Hard times show us who we really are. But the good times are when we enjoy the person we have become.

The upside of anger is the person you become.

Maybe there is no finish line in life. Maybe all there is are rest stops along our journey. And maybe we should grateful for these pitstops because what would we do after we are finished? Is anything really ever finished. Energy never dies, it just changes form. So maybe trying to get to a certain destination is the wrong perspective. Maybe we just need to aim to change form and be better all the time. Because there is no end.

Energy doesn’t die or go away, it just changes form.

Can you see through the fog? Can you hear through the noise? Can you smell through the poison of bad bacteria?

Life is hectic. But if you don’t take the time to create peace in your life, you will never have it. Peace means getting still and being honest with yourself.

Peace takes pain at times. Because being honest and facing yourself in stillness hurts when you don’t do it enough. The man in the mirror is you. But do you recognize that man? Do you know that man?

Because that man is you.

Sometimes the most amazing things we see, we don’t notice. Because we see them everyday. And take them forgranted. When you see something beautiful or someone you love your brain releases feel good chemicals and neurotransmitters. It’s a chemical reaction. It’s the human experience. But just like drugs we develop a tolerance to these chemicals.

Absence makes the heart grow fonder because it’s like a detox from the chemicals in our brains, aka the drugs our brains naturally produce. We live in a world filled with foods and many other things that light up our pleasure centers and ours brains. Because they aime to get us addicted.

Have you ever fasted, alone, without television, or music and just remembered what you feel like at your normal set point? When is the last time you felt the person you are without all the add ons? Because if you don’t remember who you are, you won’t remember who others are either.

Love is always the answer. But not if you take it forgranted. Because you have flooded your brain with feel good chemicals from countless fake things.

Know your boundaries. Otherwise others will create them for you. And they often will not have your best interest in mind.

Know what you need to do, does not always align with what you want to do. But what you want to accomplish requires you to do the things you need to do.

Wants are fun. But needs get you the things in life you really want. Know about your hierarchy of wants. Because needs are just a way to get to the really good wants in life.

Goals are wants.

Between Sprague River & Bonanza

If you do a lot of driving get a full spectrum blue light because it helps with serotonin and paying attention to the road(alertness). All truckers need these. It will help with the inflammation driving causes from being around poison so much. Blue light helps activate your immune system. #FunFact

Sometimes God Highlighs the path he wants you to take. But sometimes the devil highlights the path he wants you to take too. How do you know who is who?

Their voices often sound the same in your head. But the key to knowing the difference is finding the path that aligns with your soul and your greatest good. God will never ask you to destroy yourself. But the devil will demand it and tell you it is what you should do. God believes in freewill. He will never tell you what you should do. Just what is in your best interest.

Have you ever felt the world freeze? You see something amazing and it’s like everything stops. When you see beautiful things or souls over and over you start to take them forgranted. But when something is new and beautiful, it takes your breath away.

Remember those breathless moments. Those moments are God talking to you. But it’s your job to remember what he was saying.

All roads lead to your beliefs. What you believe dictates what is possible in your world. Everything is a self fulfilling prophecy. And you can let this be a blessing or a curse.

Your beliefs are your reality. Is it a beautiful place where you find joy or an ugly prison you wish to escape?

Day 1023 Prineville to Madras to Sisters to Redmond

Just because the road is small and rarely taken doesn’t mean the journey isn’t worthwhile. The road less traveled is almost always the safest bet.

Comfort lives on the other side of discomfort and often fear. Feel the fear and do it anyway was one of the best books I ever read. My Mom gave me this book to read because she knew they had given me brain damage in order to make me live in fear. If I made myself face my fears she hoped it would cause me to have a heart attack and die. But what I found is that living in fear is way harder than facing my fears. So do the thing. Go where you need to go. Be the person you are destined to be. Because not being who you are hurts way more than facing your fears.

Be you unapologetically, no matter what. When someone makes you question yourself, question them instead.

Have you ever seen the light at the end of the tunnel before?

When you work towards a goal for so long and devote not only your energy, but your life towards this goal everything else gets blurry. It’s easy to forget to breathe. It’s easy to forget to take care of yourself and the others in your life. And all too often we don’t realize we are getting close to accomplishing our goals until we are there at the finish line in the light. Pay attention when life sends you signals and hints that the light at the end of the tunnel is near. Because if you don’t, you may just spend your entire lifetime searching and working towards the light at the end of the tunnel, instead of enjoying the process and your progress. Death is the final light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t forget to enjoy life on your way there.

southeastern Washington and northeastern Oregon

Pendleton, Prescott, and a lot of others that all blurr together…. no fancy words with these. But I need to get back on track with my daily photos.

Going through my camera roll and found this one. Sometimes all we need is to see how small we are in comparison to the world.

And our problems are even smaller!

Space is a feeling we all need at times. But what does space feel like? It’s an absence of feeling and a break to our nervous system. Space is a nothingness that is valuable beyond words. Space is the answer to so many feelings and problems.

What are you going through right now that space could help you with?

Growth is knowing not everything can be seen. Moments where things look empty and deserted can be deceiving. Evolution is not linear. And it’s not always visible.

You can’t predict growth. It happens in spurts when conditions align and allow. Growth often goes unseen, until it is called upon. Embrace the unseen parts of yourself, because you never know when you will need to call upon them.

Night

Day

Contrast is life. Everything exists on a spectrum. Life is just a spectrum of experiences that create different chemical reactions in our brains. Life on earth is just a chemical experience. We are here to get high on neurotransmitters and hormones. That’s all the human experience really is. Love is a chemical reaction. Stress is a chemical reaction. Hate is a chemical reaction. Everything you feel is a chemical reaction in your body and mind.

Would love feel so amazing without hate? Probably not, because contrast is everything.

Spearfish Park

Have you been to the edge? The edge of the world, the edge of your consciousness, or the edge of your sanity? Because they all feel the same. The unknown is a scary place. And no one knows what is on the other side. But you take a deep breath and with a silent prayer, bravely step into the unknown. Because often the known is our prison. It’s what keeps us stuck in patterns that ruin our lives and happiness. Freedom only really comes from the unknown and the edge.

Have you been to the edge?

Being above the clouds allows for great views. But it also allows a birdseye view of your obstacles. What is holding you back? If you were to look at those obstacles from above what would you see? There is a lot to be said for facing things head on. But when that doesn’t work try looking down on the obstacle you face because everything looks more manageable from above.

Then take the drive back to facing things head on with more clarity, purpose, and confidence. Facing your problems and obstacles will always beat trying to run from them.

A Letter to Law Enforcement

If anything has happened to me resulting in accident, injury, or death, especially a car wreck, it ties back to my family. I have an account at Charles Swabb that is quite substantial and my father is the beneficiary. I fear they will hurt or kill me in order toget their hands on this money. Please investigate and take this into account.

Thank you

Nicole Graves

Perspective is everything. If you don’t like what you see, change your angle. Life rarely gives us exactly what we want. It’s our job to find the frame to make life into what we desire and need.

A turn of direction this morning changed my perspective from man made jungle to the heavens on earth. Sandy, Oregon is on the way to Mt Hood from Portland. Getting up to go to pee, on a cold winter morning at the crack of dawn, never looked this beautiful before.

My why. Isn’t his new sweatshirt cute!