Month: February 2024

On day 1 we talked about how your nervous system feeds your brain information. And how your brain is slower than your nervous system. Which means it often gets overwhelmed by all the information your nervous system collects. Because it has to organize all this information in the library of your brain. Your nervous system is like the internet with incredible speed. Where the library in your brain is powerful, but much slower.

Finding a book in a library takes a lot longer than doing a search on the internet. So we have to give our brain time to catch up. There are countless ways to give your brain these breaks, so you can remain calm. But one of the quickest and easiest ways is to do rapid eye movements. This is where you hold your head still while moving your eyes from side to side over and over, until you feel calm. This only takes 10 to 30 seconds. Your brain is slower than your nervous system, but they both do incredible things pretty quickly.

On day 2, we talked about how there is more information in the world than ever before. And how your nervous system cannot filter information. It is like a hoader and it collects everything it can get it’s hands on. While your brain is the one who has to deal with all this collected information and organize it. We all create a library in our brain filled with the information your nervous system collects. And your value as a human is often dictated by the value of the library you create in your brain.

You can spend a lifetime creating a junkyard of irrelevant and useless information if you do not learn how to filter information. This means you have to learn how to prioritize the information you need and what will be useful. Your nervous system is like a black friday shopper at 5am when the store just opens. It grabs everything blindly and in a frenzy. Where your brain is the curator who has to pause and say will this bring value to your library. If you stress your brain out by overworking it, then you won’t be able to create a quality product. And this product is you.

Knowing where to focus and what is important to you is the key. Your nervous system collects everything. But your brain has to be taught to filter information. If you collect everything, you will create a junkyard. But collecting only valuable information will make you a valuable human.

This means you can’t play keep up with the Jones without it costing you everything. When you start to value everything everyone around you values your library pays the price. And your end product gets watered down. That end product is you. You are your library. If you allow other people to dictate what is valuable information then we all become the same watered down product that lacks depth and direction. You will spend your life in the darkness of the tunnel rather than having tunnel vision and going towards the light. That light is you.

So today, on day 3, let’s talk about how to know yourself. Everyone agrees that it is important to know yourself, but how do you actually get to know yourself? No one ever really explains how you are supposed to get to know yourself. But how would you get to know someone else? Pretty much all the same rules apply.

When you try to get to know someone else you spend time with them. Literally, getting to know them. So you need to spend time with yourself in order to know who you are and what is important to you. And you need to know what is important to you, so your brain can build the library you need filled with important ingredients and information. Knowing yourself is what dictates what is important to you.

Being like everyone else is going to cause you to collect information like everyone else. And when you have the same information as everyone else, you lack orginal ideas. Your value comes from your ability to be unique and create new ideas. Sure, your value is dependent on a lot of steps after those unique ideas. But if you lack the unique ideas the rest of the steps are nonexistent. And your going to be stuck doing things like everyone else and carrying out their ideas.

You don’t need unique ideas in everything. You only need one really good unique idea in your lifetime in order to have overwhelmingly abundant value. Your value is going to be directly correlated with your ability to innovate. Life is no longer about collecting information. We all have access to information nowadays. Now your value is about filtering that information and organizing it in new ways.

In order to find that one unique idea that will revolutionize the world, you have to brainstorm a lot. Get comfortable with putting information together in different ways and not having it work. Because the more abstract you get, the more you learn, and the more likely you are to find that unique idea. We all agree that fried chicken is not a unique idea. But someone thought of fried chicken and waffles and that was a unique idea.

Let your brain wander without judgement. Your brain is like those paintings where you have to unfocus your eyes to see the picture. Judging yourself and being critical isn’t how to see the picture or create unique ideas.

Let yourself be without judgment. This is how you get to know someone else well. You allow them to be around you without judgement. You let them be themselves. So you have to learn to let yourself be you. Stop picking and criticizing yourself and just be. When you spend time with yourself just being, this is when you really get to know who you are. You are not the things you prefer or like. You are a being. Knowing yourself is about knowing how you like to be. And I’m sure you have a lot of different ways of being. Find the ways you like being and do more of those.

Follow your joy. Do things that bring you joy and things you enjoy. Life is about being in joy. When you are in joy you will find your true self. That is who you really are. And never judge the things that bring you joy unless they hurt someone else. That is the only rule about joy. Anything is on the table as long as you don’t hurt anyone else. When your joy involves hurting someone else that means your brain is operating dysfunctionally and you need to fix it.

Joy is about just being. Sure, you can be in joy with others around. Or you can be in joy alone. But being in this state of joy without judging yourself or criticizing yourself is how you learn who you are. You are not the things you like. You are a being. Those things you like are just a way to facilitate a way you like to be.

The more you spend time in joy, the more you learn about who you are. And the more you know who you are, the more you are able to filter information about what is important to you. The better you filter information on what is important to you and the more you know about who you are and how you like to be, the more you become clear on your purpose in this life here on Earth.

Everyone was sent to Earth with a purpose. And you were given skills and gifts to help you accomplish this purpose. Spending time just being in joy without judgement or criticism is how you find not only who you are and your skills and gifts. But it is how you find your purpose on Earth. No one was sent here to be like everyone else. Sure we may all make fried chicken in similar ways. But frying chicken is not what everyone was sent here to Earth to do. A couple people were probable sent to fry chicken. But that means most of you all have a different purpose here on Earth.

Spend time in joy getting to know who you are and you will find your skills and gifts. These will lead you to your purpose here on Earth.

What is important to you? What interests you? What have you been collecting that is irrelevant in your life? How have you been wasting energy collecting irrelevant information? Is your library a great resource or a junkyard? Explain your answer.

Is your library serving you well? How could you improve it? What areas do you feel very prepared and ready in? Where do you need more preparation? How and when can you accomplish this?

How have you let others dictate your values and your own personal value/worth? Are you good at letting other people be better than you at things you do not value? Why or why not? How can you improve in honoring what you do value?

Do you have people around you that share your values? What do you value that you would like to share with people more? Why? Where and how can you fulfill this need?

What growth would you like to see when it comes to honoring your values?

Yesterday, we talked about how you need to remain calm in order to be the person you are intended to be. And often that means giving your nervous system a break and allowing your brain to catch up. Your nervous system is like the internet. While your brain is like a library. Both contain large amounts of information. But your brain is a lot slower than your nervous system. So you have to take breaks to allow your brain to catch up and organize itself, aka your library.

You can allow your nervous system to take breaks by doing rapid eye movements. Which is just holding your head still and moving your eyes from side to side repeatedly. You will know when your brain has caught up to your nervous system when you feel calm. Being overwhelmed with information and behind in your work is stressful for anyone. The more often you give your nervous system these breaks to catch up, the less stress you will feel. You do not have to wait to feel overwhelmed before you decide to give your nervous system a little break. There is no sense in working your nervous system to death because that will wear you out in the end.

We also talked yesterday about how there is more information in the world than there ever has been available before. And it’s not like you have to always go searching for it. Information is thrust onto you everywhere you look and go. You are constantly being bombarded with information. This is why your nervous system needs breaks. And this is also why your brain is trying so hard to catch up and running behind. The modern world spews information on you and it can make you sick creating dis-ease in your mind and body.

So if you can’t turn off the information of the world and live your entire life in a sensory deprivation tank, what do you do? Well, you have to learn to filter information and decide what is important. It never helps to have loads of irrelevant information. It just creates a library of junk that will never be used. A library can be a junkyard when it’s filling with information that will never be used.

In the modern world, collecting information is not the main objective. When I was young the internet didn’t exist. Hunting for information was what I had to do in order to learn about the world. I lived near the country, without a lot of people, and the power would often go out. Books were the only real source of information besides living your daily life. However, in the modern day world we live in now, we no longer have to always hunt for information. Now we have to learn what to gather and what is valuable and useful to us.

Not everyone will need to gather the same information. The information you deem valuable may not be useful to someone else. We live in a world that is setup for specialization. If you try to be a Jack of all trades in the modern world, you will definitely be a master of none. You have to choose your battles. And that means you have to decide what is important to you and filter the information your nervous system collects accordingly. If you do not learn how to do this, you will be constantly overwhelmed and have a library full of junk. Basically, you will spend your whole life and existence working for nothing. You need to decide what is important to you and prioritize those things accordingly. You don’t need to read all the books in a library to be smart. You just need to read the books that apply to your life, goals, and interests.

You are a genius. You have just spread yourself too thin. You don’t need to know everything. You just need to know what is important to you. And what is useful in your life.

This means you need to decide what kind of a life you need and would like to live. This modern world has a lot to offer everyone. With remote work being commonplace, the sky is the limit. Dream your dream because you can find where that dream will fit in the world. Sure, maybe the people around you do not like what you like or what interests you. But I bet you anything there is a place online where you can find like minded people. And once you find them online you can figure out where to find them in the real world.

Life is about specialization. Even if you are an accountant who loves underwater basket weaving, I am sure there is someone else in the world like you. There are billions of people in the world. Yes, we are all very different, but we are very similar as well.

The information you collect with your nervous system and organize in your brain dictates who you become. Everyone spends their whole life building a library. But the utility of that library is what determines it’s value. And that value is your value. The better you are at determining what will add value to your library, the more your value as a human goes up. Life isn’t about knowing it all. Life is about knowing what is important and useful to you. Your value is dictated by your ability to know what is valuable and useful to you.

So, this leads us to the next predicament. What is valuable and useful for you? Great question, right? But I’m guessing it feels a bit overwhelming, right? The good news is what is valuable to you will constantly be changing. Sure there will be some subjects that you always are interested in collecting more information about. However, once you learn to filter information more effectively it frees up a lot of energy and space in your library.

If you want to learn how to make fried chicken, you seek out information on how to fry chicken. But once you know how to fry chicken and you are competent and satisfied with your fried chicken, then you never have to seek out more information on fried chicken. If a new recipe comes along or a new technique, it’s up to you to decide if that information is worth the space in your library. Maybe you decide to specialize and be a fried chicken expert. Or maybe you are content with the fried chicken you already know how to make. Life is like fried chicken, you either are satisfied with what you know how to produce or you seek more information to improve your product.

If you are constantly trying to improve all your products, you will become a jack of all trades and master of none. There has to be a point in time where you decide your fried chicken is good enough. Or you decide to become a fried chicken master. You have to choose your battles. It takes 5,000 hours to master something. That is about 5 years of working full time. Are you willing to invest 5 years worth of full time work into frying chicken? Because that is the commitment it takes to master something. If you can fry chicken good enough and you are not willing to dedicate 5 years of your life to frying chicken then you need to be content with filtering out the new information you get about fried chicken.

Many people say tunnel vision is a bad thing. But wouldn’t being stuck in a dark tunnel your whole life be worse? When you have tunnel vision you go towards the light, rather than fumbling around in the dark and getting no where fast. Sure there are probably people who make better fried chicken than you. But are you willing to live in the dark so you can try to keep up with everyone around you? I understand you only feel smart or important when you are surrounded by other people who value what you value. But you can loose everything in life if you start valuing everything that everyone around you is valuing and deeming important for themselves. You have to decide what is important to you and your life. That means letting other people be better than you at some things. Who cares if Norma makes better fried chicken than you, if you are specializing in rocket building. Will fried chicken change the world? Maybe for someone. But if you are specializing in rocket building than fried chicken isn’t going to do much of anything for you.

My whole life people have treated me like I was stupid because I do not value the same things as them. But my ability to filter the information my nervous system collects is what makes me a genius. On this revolution, I just changed the filter to the information I collect. It has been almost 3 years and I have nearly figured out this new world. It takes 5 years to master something. So I am well on my way to mastering this covert world and stupid imaginary game you all play. Honestly, I still see it all as a waste of time. It’s like fried chicken to me. But if I didn’t take the time to learn about fried chicken with you all, than you all would have killed me. Figure out what is fried chicken to you and what is rocket building. No one has the ability to know it all. Your job and duty is to know what is important to you and that will dictate what you need to know and what is important to fulfilling your purpose here on Earth.

Know thy self.

Cognitive Behavioral Therapy/aka Journaling and Talking To Yourself

I invite you to write/journal about this experience. This is where you will see how much you have grown individually. And over time if you keep doing this, you will see your programming and efforts really start to shine through and show.

Questions to ask yourself…

What did you see or feel? What would you like to see change or happen in your life? What are you excited about and looking forward to creating in your life? How has your life changed recently that is motivating you? What are your dreams and goals? How are you actively working towards achieving these everyday? What do you want to start doing to continue to see more progress in your life?

What is something you need to work on Not doing in order to increase your progress and productivity? How are you holding yourself back from the things you really want? How are you stopping yourself from being the person you were born to be? Are you honoring your hierarchy of needs and wants to get the most satisfaction out of life? Where can you do better?

Give yourself credit where credit is due. What are you proud of yourself for doing? How have you seen growth in yourself lately? How can you encourage yourself to grow more? Have you given yourself positive reinforcement and/or a healthy reward for this growth?

There is no right or wrong way to do this. Sure, some factors will help your brain rewire faster. But as long as you listen to this repeatedly, it will change your brain for the better. Thus, changing who you are on a gene and cellular level and making you more human.

Motion creates emotion. And emotion helps to change your brain. So I encourage you all to do something while listening to this. Folding laundry, cleaning the kitchen, walking your dog, yoga, deep breathing, etc will all help this information sink into your subconscious quicker. Plus, getting things done will also create positive emotion and make you want to listen to this more. The more repeative habitual movement you do while listening, the more your brain will change.

Another very important and effective tactic for reprogramming your brain is to listen to this right before you go to sleep or fall asleep listening. Breath deep, relax, and just let it all seep into your subconscious mind. The less you try to do, the more it will work. Have you seen those pictures where you have to unfocus your eyes in order to see the picture? Your brain is just like that. The more you relax, let loose, and just let it happen, the more change you will experience.

Also, headphones will increase the effect of these talks. Your brain takes things more seriously when it cannot tell if the voice is coming from inside your head or outside. This is why headphones are a bit dangerous. No matter what you are listening to your brain thinks it’s you talking to yourself. It’s a computer. It takes things literally. You are literally putting another voice in your head. If you do not like headphones, don’t use them. I do not prefer them and was able to reprogram myself without them.

There are no right or wrong ways to do this. Just do what works and feels best for you. Everyone is different. I like really strong black coffee. But you may not. Sure it has to do with our taste buds, but mostly it has to do with the way our brain filters the signals from our nervous system. My brain is different than yours because my brain is wired differently because we all live differently everyday. What feels best for you today is what you should do. And what feels best for you today may not feel best 6 months from now when your brain has changed.

This is not going to be much different than my other talks. We are just going to talk about all the things I have wanted to share with the world for a lifetime. If you have been tuned in for awhile, I am sure you have heard most of these things already. But reprogramming your subconscious mind is about repetition. And it’s not really about remembering these things I talk about with your logical brain. It’s about just letting them in to literally sink in. It’s like steeping tea. You just have to hang out with the tea bag in your mug and you get tea.

Everyday we will talk about a lot of the same things. And I will slip in new things here and there. This will allow your brain to cling onto what it likes. When you think you are allowing your subconscious programs to run. Over 90% of your day your subconscious mind is running the show because you are thinking. Spacing off is probably one of the healthiest things you can do for your brain. Sure, you can call this meditation or flow state. But really it’s just a state of being at ease and not over thinking everything.

Life is supposed to put us at ease. Your life is easy. When you are at ease, everything is easy. Even complex things can be easy. When you are not at ease, you are creating dis-ease in your life and especially in your body. It’s not lazy to want life to be easy. It’s how you were designed to be and run.

When you feel fear, it prevents your body and immune system from healing. And when you are stressed or feeling fear it stops your brain from working properly. So the most revolutionary thing you can do everyday is learn how to be and stay calm. Life has it’s ups and downs. But it’s easier to handle everything when you are calm.

I encourage you all to get excited about life. And really learn how to change your perspective on anxiety. Maybe it’s just excitement about the unknown? Living in the present moment is also very helpful in putting yourself at ease. This all sounds really nice, right? But how are you supposed to do this?

Everyone always says to calm down and to breath, but I know that has rarely been enough in my own life. I was stuck in a hyperactive fear state for most of my life. And I bet you all can relate to this more than you want to really admit. There are countless science things that are happening in your body in order to create this fear state that causes dis-ease. And me explaining all of those fancy science things doesn’t really help you too much on a daily basis, because it doesn’t change your subconscious mind. So yes you need to take magnesium, potassium, vitamin K2, and countless other vitamins and supplements. But I want to give you a way to turn your fear response off that’s free and you can do any time you need to. Ten seconds and you can reset your fear response from your reptilian brain. And if ten seconds doesn’t work, then do it again. Rarely does it take more than 30 seconds to get a sense of relief from using this technique to reset your brain.

Look straight ahead and without moving your head move your eyes back and forth from side to side. It doesn’t matter if it is right to left or left to right. Do what feels best for you. This is a way to hack the program running in reptilian brain that causes the overactive fear response from the amygdala damage we all have. This will help you learn how to self soothe.

Being calm is a superpower. And often people in my family cult like to make you think they have it. But there is a big difference from being a calm human and an uninvested sociopath. Being sensitive and aware of your nervous system is your super power as a human with humanity. You just have to know how to turn it off when it overwhelms you. This rapid eye movement is how you turn your nervous system off for a moment. It allows you to breath and filter all the information through your brain. We get overloaded with information from our nervous system and our brain can’t catch up. This is what you need to do to stop the information from overloading your brain. It gives it the few seconds it needs to catch up, take a deep breath, and organize all this new information to make sense.

Often being overwhelmed just means you’re really good at collecting information and your brain just needs some time to catch up and sort it all out. Over stimulation from too much input creates a state in your body much like that of fear. Stress is stress. And often stress is just a sign your brain and body need time to catch up and you are pushing too hard. Stress can be good too. You just have to learn to know when your body or brain needs a minute to catch up.

It’s like when I’m walking my dog Haywood off leash and he finds something that smells really good to him. He has to take an extra minute to filter that information from his nervous system, and nose, through his brain. But all I have to do is pause for a minute to give him time and he catches up. Your brain just needs to catch up to your nervous system in order to make sense of everything. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you.

You live in a world that is overstimulating and filled with more information than ever before in human history. You are doing more than your human body was designed for. You are not broken, you are a genius trying to sort out all the books of information you have in your library of a brain. Every library was unorganized until the Dewey decimal system was created. And if the Dewey decimal system doesn’t make sense or work for you, do what works for you. There is absolutely no right or wrong way to organize your brain and nervous system. What wires together fires together, and your brain is unique to you.

What works best for you is to find what works best for you. I can tell you how I do things but my brain is different. Everyone’s brain is different. Your gut controls how you use your brain. Which means your microbiome and gut bacteria dictate how you use your brain. And your gut bacteria and microbiome have epigenetics of their own that effect your epigenetics. We all are very different from each other. And we all are changing every minute of every day. There is no right or wrong, only what works for you and what doesn’t work for you.

Life is meant to be easy. You just have to figure out what puts you at ease. Self soothing and learning to be calm is where everything comes together. Your immune system, your brain, your body, your soul, and your heart need you to be calm and at ease in order to be the person you are meant to be. The more you are able to remain calm while inputting the overwhelming information from the world through your nervous system and learning to store and organize that information in your brain the more powerful you will be.

“Her father truly believed that the Democratic party was a subversive organization whose design would destroy the United States and put it in the hands of bearded communists.”

~John Steinbeck, The Wayward Bus 1947

Every time we start a new group or rung on the caste system of this stupid imaginary game this is the grid. Every group within that caste system in the world is represented in this grid. Some have leaders in this grid, but most report to leaders outside the grid. However, if we reach all the groups within the grid, we are able to reach their leaders worldwide.

In some areas, we reached the majority of the people. But there are always some people left fighting for my family and to be a subhuman race. We need to reach everyone. Otherwise we will be playing this part of the game for months again. And then with the next group we just start over again. This is the pattern of this revolution and the past almost 3 years.

So today let’s reach the regular ordinary people or the Americans and let’s reach all of them.

Have you ever looked for a sign so hard you got even more lost?

We often ask God for a sign and all too often we expect that sign to jump out and change our lives instantly. But humans are the ones who rule the material world. God exists in our nervous system and our feelings. So when we take a sign from the material world and interpret it as God we get even more off track and lost.

God speaks in many ways to us all, but rarely does he use the material world. God is a feeling and he speaks through feelings and rarely through material things. The answers are inside you. Because we all are God like. Find the pieces of God within yourself and you will find the answers you seek.

My family had all these weird little sayings my whole life. And I never really understood them until this revolution. “It’s better to be feared than loved,” is one I never understood until the past few years. This is pretty much their wargames motto.

However, another saying that never made sense till very recently is, ” Keep your friends close, but your enemies closer.” My family recently inflated the stockmarket with a big wave of money. And I couldn’t figure out where it was coming from. Well, that is until last night. My family likes to pretend they are a royal family from Louis the 18th days. And they have created a court around them. This is explained fully in the books that make up their cult Playbook.

My family has finally tapped into the people they keep in their court. My Grandma Kudearoff had people she kept close, but she also had friends. My mom and her siblings and my Dad, do not have friends. They only have enemies. And they keep these people close. But these people have no clue my family views them as enemies. They feel privileged to be kept so close, not understanding why my family keeps them close.

Louis the 18th did not have doors in the palace of Versailles because he wanted to hear everything that was happening. This is why my family keeps their enemies so close and treats them as friends. It allows for them to know their business and limit their experience in any way that will be beneficial to my family. No one kept close to my family is allowed potential. Privilege is their prison. But yet they rarely see it. Because somehow my family brainwashes them to believe they are the chosen ones. People get drunk on feelings of belonging and loose sight of everything else.

I need to connect with the people my family keeps in their courts. But they keep these people extremely sheltered. Even after being in Eugene/Springfield for almost 3 years, these court members have absolutely no clue I’m still alive. I need your help reaching these people. The sooner we reach these people the sooner we exhaust my family’s greatest resource. Other people’s resources and power will forever be my family’s greatest resource. They never do anything for themselves. They always get other people to do things for them. The sooner we eliminate this option for them, the sooner we obtain our freedom.

Here are some maps I drew of where these people live. Remember I’m logic brain based so drawing maps is not in my wheelhouse. I need you all to get me connected with the people who live in these shaded grids I have created. These most valuable court members live in Thurston, Springfield, North Eugene, and West Eugene. And my Grandma Kudearoff’s friends live in Glenwood and Southwest Springfield. My family has warred on my Grandma Kudearoff’s friends. I’m guessing it’s because they stood up for themselves just like I did. My family hates people who do not fully submit immediately. And they tend to make examples out of these kind of people, just like they did with me. It allows for people to live in fear of them and ties right into their wargames motto:  “It’s better to be feared than loved.”

I’m going to need everyone’s help reaching the people in my family’s court. These people’s money is how my family is continuing to rig the stockmarket. Once we reach these people we are guaranteed a brand of freedom we have never known before. And then my family will be in a prison they literally created for themselves. I sure love irony. How about you?

Excuse more poor mapping skills, I’m new to creating revolutions and figuring out imaginary lines that rule this stupid imaginary game still. It’s all so ridiculous. But here we are.

Sometimes life gets choppy. And sometimes life is smooth. But life is still just life. Don’t overvalue the current state because tides are always changing. Create security by looking at the big picture, where small waves don’t really matter that much.

There is always light to be found, but sometimes it feels impossible to see the light. Clouds can blind us. Hardships can blind us. Life gets complex and complications arise, often too frequently for our liking. Find the light and follow that light. Because it usually leads to more light and brighter days.

I’m way behind in my photos but I am catching up.