I started my period today, thank god! I had not had a period since they starved me for 30 days after I left my Jeep behind. They poisoned me so much my reproductive organs shut down. That has never happened to me before and I have been extremely poisoned my whole life. It was really bad. I am just glad to be functioning properly again. Repairing the damage my family creates has always been a large part of my existence. I suppose they are a large part of why I know so much about health, science, and the human body. I had to learn in order not to be tortured to death. It was necessity and not an option.
I have court on Wednesday for the trespassing ticket I got a couple weeks ago. I look forward to seeing what they are willing to do. It is supposed to get me into a program where they help me get into a shelter of some sort. And in complying I will not have to pay the ticket and it will not go on my record. So, we will see I suppose.
Who are these people today? They are a weird mix of NE/NE ties to the NE. They seem to have ties to the SW, but interpret those ties as ties to the NE instead? My Dad used to have more SW epigenetics, but since the 1980s he now has more NE epigenetics. So I assume these people are related to him. You can tell where people are from by their epigenetics. Looks are 88% epigenetic and only 12% genetic. When you poison yourself like the people in your group, you begin to look like them even though you are not genetically related to them. You know how couples who are married a long time start to look alike? You know how people look like their dogs? It is the same concept.
So weird group, huh? These people have been surrounding me for awhile now, but they blend in with the other NE/NE people who actually have ties to the NE. They do seem to be a different level in the class system as well. A level up from the people who have been gangstalking me. They definitely have been intertwined with my family for generations. You can tell by their epigenetics. Negative epigenetics in you create gene mutations in your children. These people were born with gene mutations from their parents having negative epigenetic triggers from the NE poisons. Can you all see these when you see people? I am sure you do, you just don’t know what you are seeing. When you see that people are really into the war games and that their families have been really into the war games, you are seeing negative epigenetic triggers/patterns and gene mutations. You can tell when someone’s parents were not into the war games and they have just started. They look way different, on a gene and cellular level, huh? You just didn’t realize you were seeing them on a gene and cellular level, huh? It’s weird, I know. I study the people around me, because they are just my family’s science experiments. It makes me feel better about them trying to kill me and make me suffer in everyway possible. I suppose you could try it, because they try to make you all suffer to. It seems to help me.
I don’t know what else is on my mind. There is always so much noise in my head you know. But it is rarely my own thoughts. I don’t really think that much. Funny huh? I am a genius and I don’t think too much. I mean I do think a lot, but I use my subconscious mind. I like to describe my subconscious as a crockpot. I enter a problem and set it and forget it. When my subconscious has found an answer it pops into my conscious brain with a lightbulb moment. I find this to be way more effective that trying to figure stuff out with my conscious mind. Your subconscious is the biggest part of your brain, it is the genius. It just seems like the most efficient. Rarely, do you actually need an answer right away. Unless it is something like which direction should I take home or what do I want for dinner. The big questions and thoughts I enter into my subconscious and set it and forget it.
I am bored. But mostly just because there is a guy poisoning me who just showed up at the computer next me. He has ties to the Sw that are more apparent. And he is related genetically to my uncle Jeff Whiddon who is also from the Sw. Some poisons make me feel bored.
feeling weary because one is unoccupied or lacks interest in one’s current activity.—Google definition
I guess some of the poisons do make my feel a lack of interest in things. I never realized that. But sometimes I will be doing something and I will be poisoned and get bored. Like I will be reading a book and all of a sudden just not be interest in it. Does that happen to you? Maybe I am not interested in many things because I have been so poisoned most of my life and especially now.
Apathy is a mental state characterized by a reduced or absent passion, interest, motivation, and emotional responsiveness towards oneself and one’s surroundings … it can also be a temporary response to situational factors.
I guess being poisoned all the time takes it’s toll. I like to call it non-attachment though.
Non-attachment —“No attachment” can refer to non-attachment, a philosophical concept meaning to not cling to things, people, or experiences, but rather to accept life as it unfolds and to engage without desire or expectation — Google
Have you all ever heard Allan Watts explain non-attachment? He explains it the best. Look on YouTube for his explaination
Difference between apathy and non-attachment:
apathy is a passive disconnection from life, while non-attachment is an active, conscious engagement from a place of emotional freedom. — Google
I do have to work really hard to not be upset about all the people who perpetuate my Truman show and try to hurt me out of ignorance. I still get angry and I am angry. But I try not to live in that anger all the time. It is hard to not be angry when people attempt your murder everyday. I suppose I have had a lot of practice.
I think I could get along with Buddhist monks very well. Maybe not so much, because if I had freedom I would not choose to live like a Buddhist monk. I cannot relate to why they would choose to live in such silence. I understand seeking peace and spirituality. I understand seeking information and enlightenment. But I do believe you have to be apart of something to change it. You can’t opt out of society and expect to change it. I have always wanted to change the world. I just didn’t know how. And well, here we are.
I found a book by Martin Luther King Jr. with some of his sermons written out. Did you all hear me read one last night? How about this morning/afternoon? I really like the way he writes! I used to read Letter From Birmingham Jail to the people all the time. It is my favorite thing he wrote that I have found so far. Granted I have not read everything he wrote. But I love that letter! The communication hubs have the recording if you would like to listen to it.
The Japan announcements around 430pm always are some of the most interesting. Danish people, huh? I really enjoy the Japan leaders. They have helped a lot on this revolution. And were some of the first leaders I found with help from the communication hubs.
The guy sitting next to me is not even using his computer. He is just sitting there playing with his phone poisoning me. Pretty weird, huh? People love to be close to me. My whole life I always thought people had personal space issues and they talked with their hands too much. Sometimes you people just look ridiculous trying to covertly poison people. Do you all know that? I always wondered what was wrong with people. Now I realize it is Munchausen by Proxy. So weird! I do not poison people. And have never done so. And that is one of the very few things I am extremely grateful about towards my parents. When you poison yourself or others it wires your brain for destruction. And we all have a C. Diff infection that changes the way that we process dopamine and this makes you all addicted to destruction. Plus, people do not absorb calcium properly because of all the poison and of the many things this does(besides create brain damage) is it interferes with neurotransmitter production. So you can’t get high on life. Neurotransmitters are how you get high on life. And you all do not produce them correctly or efficiently. Which is why you want to poison people more. I could go on and on and how poisoning people is hurting you and your brain and your epigenetics and creating gene mutations in your children. I actually enjoy talking about these things a lot. I love science. I am more than just a bit of a geek. One day I suppose I will explain it to you all. Or you can read/listen to the programs.
I just published the 4th program. Maybe one day I will write more programs. I am not sure if I want to or not. I suppose you all will have to motivate me to do so. I don’t like to things with no Return On Investment. I am big into ROI. This revolution has not had much ROI for me. It actually has cost me everything. So, I hope one day it does benefit me. I do believe this is my purpose. But I am still unsure as if part of my destiny is to have a good life and teach you all more stuff. I don’t even know if I hope for that. I suppose that is my non-attachment kicking in. I am not really attached to the ending of this revolution. I cannot control the ending or what you all do. All I can do is control myself. There is a lot of peace in recognizing my own limitations. I can do the right thing over and over, but until the people around me value and start doing the right thing it will not pay off for me. And I am relatively okay with that. Which is weird. But I think I have made my peace with this. It is weird for me too. I am not sure how I got to this place of non-attachment. But God I cannot tell you how glad I am to be in here. I suppose my family has taken everything from me my whole life. So this is just conditioning. I have had a lot of practice with learning to not be attached to things. But everyone else in my family overly cares about things because of things being taken from them. So my response to the environment is epigenetic and has to do with me not having brain damage. Interesting. Yet, it does not change how it feels to understand this.
Well, that is all I have to say today. I really enjoy looking up words and finding definitions. Thanks for riding along while I did that. Say a prayer for me or send me some good vibes. I need all the support I can get in the astral and quantum fields.