Many of you all do not know me. And you probably do not talk to the people or groups who have been apart of this revolution for years. They have had the time to get to know me. And many of them are from groups who never really took part in hunting or hurting me until they were called on in this revolution. I like them more. And I will openly admit it, because it is the truth. Would you like people who have hunted you for a lifetime? Probably not.
My family and the world have been torturing me for a lifetime. Mixed Polish people have been hunting me my whole life. Especially, Mixed Polish people from the Northeast have taken part in this game my parents created. If you were given an opportunity of being apart of my life and/or helping perpetuate the Truman show in which I lived, you felt privileged to be chosen. You were one of the chosen ones. To be chosen to create pain and suffering in my life made people feel special. And it still does to this day. Why are you all like this? Do you even know? You understand this is the basis for cluster b personality disorders, right? You know when you are like my family you are mentally ill, right? If you are Mixed Polish and from the Northeast your family is probably like mine, so you should know better.
At the beginning of this revolution, I wanted to save the world. I even still want to right the wrongs that my family has created throughout the generations. But as the world has signed up to kill me, poison me, keep me homeless, torture my dogs to death, and make my life hell in any and everyway possible throughout this revolution and the past almost 4.5 years, I have changed. I will never want to hurt people. I am not mentally ill. I seek justice and I do want to fight back when people try to hurt me. But that is not mental illness that is basic survival. People are supposed to fight back, it is Darwinism. An animal in the forest that is attacked by another animal fights back. It is natural and expected. It doesn’t just stand there and let the other animal kill it. However, you all are not supposed to hurt people who have never done anything to you. That is sociopathy and mental illness. It is unnatural. There is not another species that goes about destroying each other the way you all do. It is wrong. It wires your brain for destruction and makes you addicted to destroying each other. You realize that poisoning someone is attempted murder, right? Of course you do not, because your brains are wired incorrectly. Thus, mental illness.
I am not fond of people. I have never really been fond of people. Would you be if you had lived my life? Probably not. I don’t think anyone could say they would be able to handle my situation or life better. People do not survive growing up in a family like mine with their humanity intact. Is your humanity intact? Because you did not even grow up in my family. How many people have you killed?
However, even though I am not fond of people, I do wish to right the wrongs of my family. I would like to live in a world where it is a plausible option to be human on a gene and cellular level and have a healthy immune system without being mentally ill. This is not currently an option.
Mostly towards the beginning of this revolution, in the first couple years, I met the leaders of the world. Some of them live halfway across the world and they are always willing to do what they can, when they can. They seem to be very logical people. And I even like them. They are more my family than anyone I have ever met in person. It took a little longer to find all the farmers, like three years. The farmers are my favorite. I started finding them before I even thought to find the world leaders. I owe my life to the farmers and the world leaders. I owe my life to people I never met before. And you know what? A lot of them are from the Northeast. This revolution has been 98% the North. The South loves me and were very quick to get onboard. I suppose I love them too. It is so weird to love groups of people and have never met them. My birthrights make me Queen of the South. And it turns out I prefer the South way more than the North. People from the North act like they grew up without a Mother and have no manners. I have the desire to have manners. I suppose it is the Southwest in me. Mrs. Hitler was from the Southwest and I do have her birthright, too.
I guess my point is that I don’t owe you all anything. I know you don’t know me. But I don’t know you all either. I know you signed up to gangstalk and destroy me. I know you all have signed up to keep me small and torture me my whole life. And under no circumstances will I ever not be angry about that. You would be angry too. I have seen you all, you are very angry people. And I am pretty sure you have not had the world sign up to kill you group by group by group. So, it makes me wonder what your problem is?
In Reality Bites, Troy Dyer says,
“I am not under any orders to make the world a better place.”
I used to hate this quote and completely disagree with it. But now it warms my nearly cold heart. I wrote the programs when I was in Eastern Oregon. The world was trying to kill me pretty badly. My organs were failing. I did not think I was going to make it. This is when I started asking the revolutionary people to kill me. I don’t think you can imagine what all that feels like. Imagine, you are trying to do right by the world and do more good for them than has ever been done before. And they are trying to kill you, and not just a little. My dog Haywood was still alive then too. He is dead now. Thank God! I never thought I would be so grateful my dogs are dead. It is a weird feeling. But even before this revolution I could never protect my dogs from you people. I am 44 years old and have never had kids, by design. Those dogs were my kids, my babies.
I wrote the programs because I thought I was going to die and not be able to make it through the revolution till the end. I wanted to make sure the world had the information they needed to do better and escape the destruction. I believe this was my purpose in life. This revolution is a large part of my purpose, my destiny. And I needed to make sure you all had what you needed to succeed should I not be able to endure the torture and die. I thought you all were going to kill me. I thought I was dying. So, I wrote the programs.
I started writing the programs in Feb 2024. Which is only about a year and half ago. Yet, it is a lifetime ago. I have changed so much in that time. And I still do not want to hurt you all or torture you. I don’t even want to ship you off to concentration and interment camps like my great Grandfathers. I think I have handled the situation pretty well. No one else in my family is without the desire to destroy the world. So I like to give myself credit where credit is due.
Currently, I am homeless on the street without my Jeep to live in. And it has changed me. But for the better in my opinion. I have found a peace that I did not expect to find or ever possess. The more people who try to destroy me, the more peace I seem to get. Which is weird and counterintuitive. It doesn’t really make sense. You all turn into monsters when people destroy you. So, it is just another way I am different than most people.
Lately, I have been thinking about what the world will expect of me once we reach all the people. I have no problem earning my own way. I have been kept from working most of my life, so I would actually really like to have a career and just a normal life in many ways. But I wonder what you all will expect out of me? Honestly, the NE/NE people where both of your parents are from the NE, I do not think I will ever feel I owe you all anything. You all are the most like my family out of any group I have seen. And they all have signed up to hunt me, group by group by group. You all are very unpleasant. You don’t like each other, so how can you expect the rest of us to like you?
Expectation is the root of all disappointment. I know I owe the world leaders and the farmers a lot. And I have no problem doing for people who have done for me. But I will not do for people who have not done for me. So just wanted to make this clear to all the Mixed Polish People with both parents from the Northeast. I am not pointing fingers. I am just saying this is how I operate and work. I would not expect you all to do for me if I had not done for you. So it is not a one way street that I live on. This is a two way street and it is the only street I operate on.
I am a genius with a hyperactive nervous system, without mental illness wired into my brain or body. I can do things most people cannot imagine doing. I have an antibiotic resistant immune system I created on my own from scratch and have been exposed to all the biochemical warfare of this stupid imaginary game. I am pretty sure, I am a valuable resource for anyone to have on their team. So, if you want me on your team, you better do something to help me have the normal life I deserve and have earned over and over. Even if this is just simply helping the revolution reach the rest of the Mixed Polish people with both parents from the Northeast.
I don’t love bomb. I do have favorites. I say the truth even when I know it will offend people. But I never leave anyone out. I created this revolution for the whole world. Not just for my groups. Or one race. Or one religion. I am not racist. I am not classist. I want everyone to be included. But it is your choice if you contribute. There will be no free rides.