I had my court thing today for trespassing. It went relatively well. Although, I learned that when they give me assessments I need to lie and say I am less mentally stable than I actually am. They are not able to help me with housing, because I am not a high risk on the street. I do not have a criminal record and I do not do drugs. So it is better to leave someone like me on the street and help get the people who are a danger to society get off the street. Pretty crazy, huh?!?
The good news is I got into a diversion program, where I jump through some hoops and they erase this ticket from my record. I do not even have to pay a fine. So, I have to do job seeking stuff at Goodwill. And I have to do some community service and check in once a week at community court for 4 weeks. Diversion usually lasts between 4 weeks to 6 months. So being a low risk criminal and not a drug user did pay off a little. By October I will be finished. That is great news.
This Friday morning I have to go get my assessment at the HUD housing place where you can get into a hut. I have a problem saying I am worse off than I am. I do not think it is good for my epigenetics. But I may have to lie on this one a bit. I suppose I can say, I don’t know what I can lie about. I have a really hard time with lying.
Well, a shelter on River road has an open spot. I had to send an email to get a homelessness verification form emailed to me in order to complete the application. The amount of hoops to jump through is weird. But I suppose it kind of makes sense.
I can continue to get trespassing tickets and it will not effect my ability to get a job. But I would rather not have a criminal record if I can avoid it. Jail is something I can handle, but I would prefer to not. Sleeping inside will be hard enough. I want to at least be able to leave when I want to. Freedom is important to me. And I suppose not freezing this winter.
Being homeless isn’t supposed to be this complicated. Can you imagine what it is like to have no bills? I have absolutely no bills. Granted I am filthy, like really dirty, but I have absolutely no bills. And I have no credit card debt. I do still have some student loans. But I have no bills for the first time in my life I think. It is wild. And I absolutely love it.
They gave me a watch because I need to be at court at 9am for the next 4 weeks on Wednesdays. I do not want a phone. It messes with my nervous system. they literally cause brain cancer and who knows what else. You have to remember I have a hyperactive nervous system. That is why I am so smart. I am sensitive. My senses are strong. And I learned how to translate them into intelligence.
Common sense comes from listening to your senses, aka your feelings. I feel a lot of things. I think most people do. However, most people do not understand what information those feelings are trying to give you. There is not really any book that will tell you how to interpret your feelings into information. You know that gut feeling you get? That is just your nervous system talking to you and sharing information. There are no books that I have found on how to translate these feelings into information. It just takes practice. Like learning to play the piano without sheet music. You just hear it out and listen. I wish there was a book. That would sure make it easier. I would read it, if any of you all want to write it. 🙂
That’s all the time I have today. Not much to say. I had to deal with the real world or at least my Truman show more up close and personal than normal today. Most days I do not have to talk to anyone. Today, I had to talk to a lot of different people. The Truman show is NE/NE with ties to the NW today. And they seem to look more like NE/NE ties to the NE. Interesting bunch. I wonder if they are valuable or just clueless? Or maybe both? Why would they be saved till almost the very last? Is it value or isolation you think? Maybe both.